{"id":19589,"date":"2024-01-24T09:37:16","date_gmt":"2024-01-24T05:37:16","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=19589"},"modified":"2024-01-24T09:37:16","modified_gmt":"2024-01-24T05:37:16","slug":"jipar-isabaeva-sevgi-cilovlanmaz-2-ci-hiss%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=19589","title":{"rendered":"J\u0131par \u0130sabaeva – Sevgi cilovlanmaz\u2026 (2-ci hiss\u0259)"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"IMG-20240122-WA0016\"<\/a>…Qar kimi a\u011f buzlaqlarla \u00f6rt\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f da\u011flar aras\u0131nda yaz v\u0259 yay gec, pay\u0131z is\u0259 tez g\u0259lir. S\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r v\u0259 ax\u015famlar soyuqla\u015f\u0131r v\u0259 art\u0131q q\u0131\u015f \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 -q\u0131\u015flaqlara k\u00f6\u00e7m\u0259k vaxt\u0131 g\u0259lib \u00e7at\u0131r.<\/p>\n

A\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya \u00a0k\u00f6\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 q\u0259rar ver\u0259nd\u0259n b\u0259ri S\u0131rqa bala ilan haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc:<\/p>\n

– Yaz\u0131q o\u011flan\u0131n aqib\u0259ti nec\u0259 olacaq? \u2013 o, yurtu s\u00f6k\u00fcb qatlayanda narahat olaraq soru\u015fdu. N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 onun \u0259sl ad\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259l\u0259ff\u00fcz etm\u0259y\u0259 c\u0259sar\u0259t etm\u0259di:<\/p>\n

– G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, biz buradan ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra, o bizi axtarmayacaqm\u0131?..<\/p>\n

– Kim bilir, g\u0259lib bax\u0131b ged\u0259c\u0259k. \u2013 o an eyni \u015feyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259n As\u0131lbek cavab verdi. Bir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n balaca ilan\u0131n onlarla yax\u015f\u0131 r\u0259ftar etm\u0259si v\u0259 art\u0131q \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fm\u0259si onu sevindirs\u0259 d\u0259, dig\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n bu m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti k\u0259sm\u0259yi d\u00fczg\u00fcn hesab edirdi.<\/p>\n

“Canavar balas\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt it olmayacaq” ax\u0131, o s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259ndir! Ehtiyats\u0131zl\u0131qdan n\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259n As\u0131lbekin b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259n \u00fc\u015f\u00fctm\u0259 ke\u00e7irdi! \u201cU\u015faq u\u015faqd\u0131r, oynayanda ilan\u0131 hirsl\u0259ndir\u0259 bil\u0259r, !..\u201d<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 ilan sancsa, q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr ed\u0259r\u0259k, buradan k\u00f6\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sirdi.<\/p>\n

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\u0130lan balas\u0131 qay\u0131danda art\u0131q yurtda he\u00e7 kim qalmam\u0131\u015f yurt bo\u015f qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131! \u0130lan n\u0259 ba\u015f verdiyini anlamayaraq t\u0259la\u015fla \u0259trafa baxd\u0131, ona el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, g\u00f6y v\u0259 yer alt-\u00fcst olub yerl\u0259rini d\u0259yi\u015fib! Bu q\u0259d\u0259r ba\u011fl\u0131 oldu\u011fu insanlar\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fcn g\u00fcnortas\u0131nda itir\u0259c\u0259yini g\u00f6zl\u0259mirdi!<\/p>\n

\u0130nsan deyil, ilan olsa da, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri q\u0131zard\u0131, narahatl\u0131qla ora-bura f\u0131rlanma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. S\u0259si olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na baxmayaraq, o, ruhu il\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn kainat\u0131 par\u00e7alayacaq d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131! Yurdun k\u00f6hn\u0259 yerinin \u0259traf\u0131nda d\u00f6vr\u0259 vururdu, Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun hara ged\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yini ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fc, \u015faquli olaraq qalxd\u0131 v\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259razini diqq\u0259tl\u0259 ara\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131. Ah, ka\u015f b\u00fct\u00fcn dwnyan\u0131 bu \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 yoxlaya bils\u0259ydi!<\/p>\n

H\u0259 bir d\u0259 o bu vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r art\u0131q \u00a0xeyli b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc…<\/p>\n

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Ail\u0259 bu s\u00f6hb\u0259ti he\u00e7 kim\u0259 dem\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r yerin d\u0259 qula\u011f\u0131 varm\u0131\u015f, camaat\u0131n aras\u0131nda, evl\u0259rd\u0259 bu s\u00f6hb\u0259t gedirdi. H\u0259tta \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r tez-tez ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n:<\/p>\n

– S\u0131rqa apa, balaca q\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6pm\u0259k olar? – dey\u0259n qon\u015fu o\u011flanlar da ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kdil\u0259r, indi onlardan qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131lar. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 onlardan biri g\u00f6zl\u0259ri b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f halda soru\u015fdu:<\/p>\n

– S\u0131rqa apa, q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131z b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259nd\u0259 ilan olacaq?<\/p>\n

– N\u0259\u0259! s\u0259n n\u0259 deyirs\u0259n? – S\u0131r\u011fa qorxdu, – Bunu kim deyir?<\/p>\n

\u201cBu… ana, Bokonan\u0131n anas\u0131, atas\u0131, Jiydenin anas\u0131… ee- n\u0259di o…\u201d dey\u0259 u\u015faq k\u0259k\u0259l\u0259di v\u0259 kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r adam\u0131 sadalad\u0131.<\/p>\n

He\u00e7 vaxt pis s\u00f6z dem\u0259y\u0259n, qar\u011f\u0131\u015f etm\u0259y\u0259n, S\u0131r\u011fa d\u00f6zm\u0259di:<\/p>\n

– A\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131na qara da\u015f! Allahs\u0131zlar, balaca u\u015faq haqq\u0131nda nec\u0259 bel\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fa bil\u0131rl\u0259r?..<\/p>\n

Eyni zamanda o, utand\u0131. El\u0259 bil o\u011fru kimi yaxalanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, p\u0259ri\u015fan halda g\u00f6zl\u0259rini o\u011flandan yay\u0131nd\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Balaca Bekt\u0259mir is\u0259 S\u0131r\u011fadan t\u0259kzib e\u015fitm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi, amma e\u015fitm\u0259di v\u0259 uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t ayaqqab\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n ucunu yer\u0259 basaraq dayand\u0131…<\/p>\n

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H\u0259min il qar tez ya\u011fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

B\u00fc gec\u0259 d\u0259 lopa-lopa ya\u011fan qar da\u011flar\u0131, d\u00fcz\u0259nl\u0259ri a\u011f r\u0259ng\u0259 boyad\u0131.<\/p>\n

S\u0131rqa s\u0259h\u0259r yuxudan oyan\u0131b \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259-\u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n bay\u0131ra baxaraq dedi:<\/p>\n

\u201cQar ya\u011fd\u0131…\u201d bala ilan yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. – Nec\u0259s\u0259n, ay yaz\u0131q? \u2013 nigaranl\u0131qla da\u011flara baxd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Bir d\u0259 onun haqq\u0131nda e\u015fitm\u0259yim! \u00a0Bel\u0259ki insanlardan yax\u015f\u0131 bir \u015fey e\u015fitmirik! \u2013 As\u0131lbek s\u0259sini y\u00fcks\u0259ltdi. O, do\u011frudanm\u0131 hirsli idi, yoxsa \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc el\u0259 apar\u0131rd\u0131? Sirqa susdu. O vaxtdan b\u0259ri, o, ilan haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131, onun ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yi y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131, h\u0259tta sonra da unutdu. Lakin, k\u00f6rp\u0259 tez-tez ilan\u0131 x\u0259yal edirdi. \u0130lan \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r oldu\u011fu kimi, o q\u0131vr\u0131l\u0131r, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 o t\u0259r\u0259f bu t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 \u00e7evirir, r\u0259qs edir, onu \u0259yl\u0259ndirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Bir s\u0259s e\u015fid\u0259n kimi \u00a0\u0259trafa baxaraq onu axtar\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

S\u0131rqa v\u0259 \u00a0As\u0131lbek bu il yay \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn tamamil\u0259 ba\u015fqa yer\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7m\u0259k q\u0259rar\u0131na g\u0259ldil\u0259r. Amma!.. Onlar\u0131n planlar\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259xmin etmi\u015f kimi ilan balas\u0131 yen\u0259 d\u0259 onlar\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131nda peyda oldu.<\/p>\n

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Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok art\u0131q dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, art\u0131q yava\u015f-yava\u015f yeriyirdi. Yeriy\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131b dururdu.<\/p>\n

Qoyun q\u0131rxm\u0131 vaxt\u0131 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. K\u00f6rp\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259, valideynl\u0259rinin yan\u0131nda oynay\u0131r, \u0259lind\u0259ki a\u011fac buda\u011f\u0131n\u0131, \u015fax\u0131 yell\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k qoyunlar\u0131 qovurdu. Q\u0131zlar\u0131na baxan c\u00fctl\u00fck onun h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 bax\u0131b sevinirdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

– Yava\u015f-yava\u015f insana \u00e7evrilir, h\u0259, atas\u0131? \u2013 dey\u0259 S\u0131rqa \u015fad olurdu.<\/p>\n

O n\u00f6vb\u0259ti qoyunun ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131, As\u0131lbek is\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259ki qoyunu \u00a0qay\u00e7\u0131layaraq \u00e7\u0131lpaqlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu zaman b\u00fct\u00fcn qoyunlar h\u00fcrk\u00fcb As\u0131lbek\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f qa\u00e7d\u0131lar v\u0259 n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 qorxmu\u015f kimi bir bir yer\u0259 toparland\u0131alr. H\u0259y\u0259tin o biri ba\u015f\u0131nda birc\u0259 Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131!<\/p>\n

– Onlara n\u0259 oldu?! \u2013 Sirqa \u0259trafa baxaraq soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

“Y\u0259qin it pi\u015fik ke\u00e7di” As\u0131lbek buna \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259t verm\u0259di. S\u0131rqa q\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok?! Bura g\u0259l, q\u0131z\u0131m?<\/p>\n

Amma q\u0131z\u0131 anas\u0131na bel\u0259 baxmad\u0131. O, \u0259lind\u0259ki \u015fax\u0131 yer\u0259 at\u0131b qoyun axurunun yan\u0131nda dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Deyib g\u00fcl\u00fcr, \u00f6z\u00fc-\u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 oynay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Ko\u015f\u015f! \u2013 S\u0131rqa qoyunlar\u0131 k\u00fcncd\u0259n geri qovdu, lakin onlar yerind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259dil\u0259r. -Onlara n\u0259 olub? \u2013 qoyunlar\u0131 arxadan it\u0259l\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 soru\u015fdu. Bird\u0259n a\u011fl\u0131na bir \u015fey g\u0259ldi v\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb da\u015f\u0131nma\u011fa macal tapmadan\u00a0 bir anda q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda oldu.\u00a0 Ana \u00fcr\u0259yi…<\/p>\n

S\u0259hv etm\u0259mi\u015fdi! Qoyunlar\u0131n ad\u0259t\u0259n yem yediyi uzun axurun k\u0259nar\u0131nda bir ilan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b Q\u0131zmon\u00e7oka bax\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0131rqa \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc itirdi, n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yini bilmirdi, \u0259rini k\u00f6m\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rs\u0131n, ya q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131na al\u0131b ikisin\u0259 baxaraq yalvars\u0131n.<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 olub? \u2013 dey\u0259 \u0259ri soru\u015fdu. S\u0131rqa cavab verm\u0259k \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 ona lal kimi baxd\u0131. Sonra As\u0131lbek i\u015fini t\u0259rk edib yax\u0131na g\u0259ldi, g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 inanmad\u0131 – ilan! H\u0259min ilan\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc!, amma bir az \u00a0b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb d\u0259yi\u015fib. Onlar ilan balas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259risinin v\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin r\u0259ngind\u0259n tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131lar. Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok toppu\u015f balaca \u0259ll\u0259ri il\u0259 a\u011f ilan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 k\u00fcr\u0259yini s\u0131\u011fallay\u0131r, \u015f\u0259fq\u0259tl\u0259 onlara bax\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n S\u0131rqa u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131, lakin q\u0131z ilana t\u0259r\u0259f dart\u0131naraq a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. As\u0131lb\u0259yin \u00e7\u0259n\u0259si s\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131, \u0259z\u0259l\u0259l\u0259ri dart\u0131ld\u0131. Xalq\u0131n \u201cQ\u0131zmon\u00e7ok b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259nd\u0259 ilan olub, ilan do\u011far…\u201d dedi-qodular\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 onun qulaqlar\u0131nda s\u0259sl\u0259nirdi, onu \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015fdirir, d\u0259li edirdi. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 o, ilan balas\u0131na nifr\u0259t edir, onu el\u0259 oradaca \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. As\u0131lbek par\u0131ldayan, itil\u0259nmi\u015f qoyun qay\u00e7\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6yd\u0259 f\u0131rlatd\u0131. \u0130lan d\u0259rhal g\u00f6zd\u0259n itdi. Burada S\u0131rqa h\u0259y\u0259canla,t\u0259la\u015fla:<\/p>\n

– S\u0259n d\u0259lis\u0259n?! \u2013 \u0259rinin qolundan tutdu. -Olub ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259ri unutmusan?! Onlar\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 yen\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nmi etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n… b\u0259lam\u0131 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n?!<\/p>\n

– Ehh! M\u0259nd\u0259n uzaqla\u015f! \u2013 As\u0131lbek hirsl\u0259 \u00a0onu it\u0259l\u0259di v\u0259 getdi.<\/p>\n

O g\u00fcnd\u0259n etibar\u0259n bu ail\u0259d\u0259 yenid\u0259n narahatl\u0131q v\u0259 qorxular h\u00f6km s\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. A\u011f ilan is\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n m\u0259mnun idi. Ruhuna yax\u0131n adamlar\u0131 tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131na sevinirdi. Lakin bu \u0259razinin \u0259traf\u0131nda, yax\u0131nl\u0131qda As\u0131lbekd\u0259n ehtiyatlanaraq s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

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As\u0131lbek bu il d\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki caylooya-yayla\u011fa k\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc v\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, onsuz da izl\u0259rini a\u011f ilandan azd\u0131ra bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Bir az b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259n Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok daha a\u011f\u0131llanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 anlay\u0131rd\u0131 ki, valideynl\u0259ri h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259 bala ilan\u0131n g\u0259lib getm\u0259sini b\u0259y\u0259nmirl\u0259r. N\u0259hay\u0259t, ilan h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 onun yan\u0131na \u00a0s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259 q\u0131z valideynl\u0259rin\u0259 yaltaqlan\u0131r, onlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 y\u00fcy\u00fcr\u00fcr, n\u00f6vb\u0259 il\u0259 boyunlar\u0131ndan qucaqlay\u0131rd\u0131. Bunu As\u0131lb\u0259kl\u0259 S\u0131rqa da ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc, ilan da. Yen\u0259 d\u0259 yaylaqda kimins\u0259 ilan g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259yi il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 dedi-qodulardan qorxmur v\u0259 daha sakit ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u018fn \u00e7ox da K\u0131zmon\u00e7ok v\u0259 a\u011f ilan b\u0259xti g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi. S\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n ax\u015fama q\u0259d\u0259r birlikd\u0259 oynay\u0131rd\u0131lar. Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok n\u0259s\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r v\u0259 ilan balas\u0131 da q\u0131vr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u015f\u0259kild\u0259, insan kimi diqq\u0259tl\u0259 onu dinl\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

As\u0131lbek \u00a0tez-tez evd\u0259n uzaqda oldu\u011fundan, mal-qaraya bax\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0131rqan\u0131n is\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259ri yaln\u0131z q\u0131z\u0131 haqq\u0131nda olurdu. O, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bu iki oyun\u00e7uya bax\u0131r, h\u0259tta onlar\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda bir azarke\u015f kimi sakitc\u0259 oturur, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini onlardan \u00e7\u0259kmirdi. Gah onlar\u0131n isti m\u00fcnasib\u0259tin\u0259 sevinirdi, gah da qorxurdu, n\u0259inki q\u0131z\u0131 sancacaq, ba\u015fqa fikirl\u0259r… \u201cOla bilm\u0259z?!\u201d – \u00f6z d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fc qorxurdu. O, d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259tirdiyi balaca q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr bel\u0259 ed\u0259 bilmirdi. T\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr ed\u0259 bilmirdi ki, bir g\u00fcn o, ilana \u00e7evril\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

\u201cFikirl\u0259rimi islah et, s\u0259hv fikrimi d\u00fcz\u0259lt, ey Yaradan!.. Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla m\u0259ni?- \u0259ll\u0259rini a\u00e7araq dua edirdi.<\/p>\n

\u201cB\u0259s ilan insana \u00e7evrils\u0259?..\u201d dey\u0259 narahat\u00e7\u0131l\u0131qlar\u0131 aras\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc, \u201c\u018fg\u0259r Yaradan\u0131n h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259k qabiliyy\u0259ti varsa… Yox! \u2013 fikirl\u0259rin\u0259 etiraz edir, \u2013 He\u00e7 vaxt bel\u0259 olmaz!<\/p>\n

He\u00e7 kim he\u00e7 kim\u0259 \u00e7evrilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k! Yalan! Na\u011f\u0131l!..\u201d Sirqa fikirl\u0259r\u0259 dalark\u0259n Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okla ilan uzaqla\u015fd\u0131lar. B\u0259z\u0259n k\u00f6rp\u0259 ilan\u0131n belin\u0259 minib oturur v\u0259 ayaqlar\u0131 h\u0259r iki t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 onu qovur:<\/p>\n

– \u00c7u! \u00c7u!<\/p>\n

\u0130lan is\u0259 bel\u0259 hallarda elastik b\u0259d\u0259nini g\u0259rginl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259r\u0259k dartmaqdan, v\u0259 ir\u0259liy\u0259 do\u011fru h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t etm\u0259kd\u0259n m\u0259mnun olurdu. Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun sevincinin h\u0259ddi-h\u00fcdudu yox idi v\u0259 o, ucadan q\u0259h-q\u0259h\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kib g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. Onlara baxan S\u0131r\u011fa da h\u0259rd\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131na qo\u015fulub \u00a0g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. H\u0259rd\u0259n ikisi d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259m\u0259nlikd\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131landa o, narahat olurdu: \u201cBird\u0259n u\u015faq onu tapdayar, \u0259z\u0259r, incid\u0259r v\u0259 ist\u0259r-ist\u0259m\u0259z o da q\u0131z\u0131 \u00a0di\u015fl\u0259y\u0259r, \u00e7alar!\u201d Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok ilan\u0131n balas\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259z\u0259n g\u0259lincik kukla kimi quca\u011f\u0131na al\u0131r, ilan\u0131n uzun b\u0259d\u0259ni q\u0131z\u0131n ayaqlar\u0131na dola\u015f\u0131r v\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fc a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

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O vaxtdan ne\u00e7\u0259 bahar, ne\u00e7\u0259 q\u0131\u015f d\u0259yi\u015fdi , ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 yeri qar \u00f6rtd\u00fc,ot basd\u0131. Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb g\u00f6z\u0259l, inc\u0259 bir q\u0131z oldu. O, anas\u0131na yax\u015f\u0131 bir k\u00f6m\u0259k\u00e7i idi, \u0259lind\u0259n \u00e7ox i\u015fi g\u0259lirdi. S\u0131rqa q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n b\u0259d n\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n qorxur v\u0259 daim onun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 h\u0259r c\u00fcr g\u00f6zmuncu\u011fu as\u0131rd\u0131. Onun g\u00f6z\u0259l xasiyy\u0259ti, \u00f6z g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi v\u0259 simas\u0131n\u0131n sirli v\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259mmal\u0131 olmas\u0131 h\u0259mk\u0259ndlil\u0259rinin xo\u015funa g\u0259lirdi. Onun ad\u0131 g\u0259\u0131\u0259nd\u0259 \u00a0k\u0259ndin \u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00fcv\u0259n\u0259n cigitl\u0259rinin v\u0259 yeniyetm\u0259l\u0259rinin \u00fcr\u0259yi \u201czirp!\u201d el\u0259yib, yerind\u0259n qopurdu. Lakin q\u0131z he\u00e7 kim\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcnl\u00fck vermirdi. H\u0259tta h\u00fcnd\u00fcrl\u00fcy\u00fc il\u0259 bir-birin\u0259 yeti\u015f\u0259n qon\u015fu qarda\u015flar \u2013 cigitl\u0259rin bel\u0259, h\u0259r ikisinin g\u00f6z\u00fc Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okda idi, ona qar\u015f\u0131 q\u0131sqancl\u0131q ucbat\u0131ndan vaxta\u015f\u0131r\u0131 \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259lirdil\u0259r. Bunu g\u00f6r\u0259n analar\u0131 ba\u015fqalar\u0131 e\u015fitsin dey\u0259 ucadan hay-k\u00fcy qopar\u0131b:<\/p>\n

– K\u0259ndd\u0259 As\u0131lb\u0259yovun ilan q\u0131z\u0131ndan ba\u015fqa q\u0131z qalmay\u0131b, yoxsa n\u0259di?! G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc tam a\u00e7\u0131n, qulaqlar\u0131n\u0131z e\u015fitsin, m\u0259nim m\u00fcbar\u0259k evim\u0259, bu q\u0131z ayaq basa bilm\u0259z! O, inc\u0259 v\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259li g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 siz\u0259 m\u0259l\u0259k kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr?! \u018fjdaha da \u00a0bel\u0259 tilsim\u0259 sal\u0131r!<\/p>\n

\u201cApa, sakit ol, e\u015fid\u0259c\u0259k…\u201d Bektemir soru\u015fur.<\/p>\n

– Qoy e\u015fitsin! Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131ram! M\u0259n onlardan niy\u0259 qorxmal\u0131yam?!.. \u2013 Sair\u0259 getdikc\u0259 \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015fir. Yaz\u0131q Bekt\u0259mir bel\u0259 m\u0259qamlarda anas\u0131n\u0131n hayas\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan utan\u0131b yer\u0259 girm\u0259k ist\u0259yir. Yaln\u0131z \u00c7intemir qarda\u015f\u0131na deyir: \u201cS\u0259n\u0259 bu da azd\u0131,s\u0259n\u0259 bel\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131! E\u015fit indi!\u201d \u2013 o, istehza il\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yir. Bunun bir s\u0259b\u0259bi vard\u0131. V\u0259 bunun bir s\u0259b\u0259bi var:<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn atlar\u0131 k\u0259m\u0259ndl\u0259yib \u00e7\u00f6ld\u0259n qay\u0131dan qarda\u015flar bula\u011fa suya ged\u0259n Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okla qar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131rlar. Q\u0131z vedr\u0259ni doldurub boynuna apk\u00f6\u00e7 (apk\u00f6\u00e7 \u2013 vedr\u0259l\u0259r as\u0131lan v\u0259 \u00e7iyinl\u0259rd\u0259 da\u015f\u0131nan \u0259yri a\u011fac par\u00e7as\u0131) asanda ilk olaraq \u00c7\u0131ntemir q\u0131za yeti\u015fdi:<\/p>\n

\u201c-Ver, m\u0259n aparaca\u011fam\u201d dedi.<\/p>\n

– Yox! M\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm… T\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr edir\u0259m! – q\u0131z imtina etdi.<\/p>\n

Bir xeyli h\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fc s\u0259ssizc\u0259 yan-yana getdil\u0259r. Q\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7iyinl\u0259ri art\u0131q yoruldu Bektemir:<\/p>\n

– Onu m\u0259n\u0259 ver? “S\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259c\u0259m” dedi v\u0259 onun qaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sdi.\u00c7iyinl\u0259ri a\u011fr\u0131yan q\u0131z etiraz ed\u0259 bilm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z\u0131n al-q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 paltar\u0131 batmaqda olan g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na daha da uy\u011fun g\u0259lirdi, uzun kirpikl\u0259ri g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin oxu kimi \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131r, h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131rpanda x\u00fcsusil\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l v\u0259 cazib\u0259dar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Q\u0131zmoncoq yerd\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f kimi idi.<\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n \u00c7intemir q\u0131za \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015fib: \u201cS\u0259n m\u0259ni balaca hesab edirs\u0259n?!\u201d Bektemir\u0259 daha \u00e7ox g\u00fcv\u0259nirs\u0259n?! O, m\u0259nim b\u00f6y\u00fck qarda\u015f\u0131m olmasayd\u0131, onun a\u011f\u0131z burnunu \u0259zib vedr\u0259ni d\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131na ke\u00e7ir\u0259rdim! Onda g\u00f6r\u0259rdin ki, o n\u0259 q\u0259hr\u0259mand\u0131r!..\u201d \u2013 fikirl\u0259rind\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131r\u011falay\u0131b, yuxar\u0131dan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 baxan o\u011flan\u0131n fikirl\u0259rini oxumu\u015f kimi g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k ona baxd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok qon\u015fu u\u015faqlar\u0131n axmaq h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rini ist\u0259mirdi. O, sad\u0259c\u0259 olaraq t\u0259k qalma\u011f\u0131, he\u00e7 kiml\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259m\u0259yi, he\u00e7 kiml\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmama\u011f\u0131 xo\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131. O he\u00e7 u\u015faqlarla oynam\u0131rd\u0131 da. Baxmayaraq ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn u\u015faqlar ay i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u201cak\u00e7\u00f6lm\u00f6k\u201d oynay\u0131rd\u0131lar (ak\u00e7\u00f6lm\u00f6k – ay i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda a\u011f \u00e7ubuq axtarmaq).<\/p>\n

Gec\u0259 yar\u0131s\u0131 ondan ba\u015fqa ham\u0131 bir dair\u0259d\u0259 oturub oyunlar oynay\u0131r, sonra dayell\u0259nc\u0259kd\u0259 yell\u0259nirdil\u0259r. X\u00fcsus\u0259n d\u0259 oxuduqlar\u0131 g\u0259nclik, m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t n\u0259\u011fm\u0259l\u0259rini k\u00fcl\u0259k h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 yay\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 yaln\u0131z gec\u0259 yar\u0131s\u0131ndan sonra valideynl\u0259r \u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131lar\u015f Art\u0131q iri qulaql\u0131 itl\u0259r h\u00fcr\u00fcr, \u00e7\u0259yirtk\u0259l\u0259r c\u0131r\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131, qurba\u011falar qurulday\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n

Lakin b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n he\u00e7 biri Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun fikrini yay\u0131nd\u0131ra v\u0259 c\u0259lb ed\u0259 bilmirdi.<\/p>\n

Anas\u0131 onun ilandan uzaqla\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 dig\u0259r u\u015faqlara qar\u0131\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

– Q\u0131z\u0131m, s\u0259n d\u0259 oyna! H\u0259 get.<\/p>\n

– Yox, ana! M\u0259n onlarla oynamaq ist\u0259mir\u0259m. \u201cAtamdan yeni melodiyalar \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259yi \u00fcst\u00fcn tuturam\u201d dey\u0259r\u0259k atas\u0131n\u0131n melodiyas\u0131na qulaq asd\u0131 v\u0259 ona baxaraq \u00f6yr\u0259ndikl\u0259rini t\u0259krar etm\u0259y\u0259 , \u00f6z melodiyas\u0131n\u0131 yaratma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131 v\u0259 onu d\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259 t\u0259krarlad\u0131. O da atas\u0131 kimi g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumub hans\u0131sa sirli melodiyaya qulaq as\u0131rd\u0131. Bel\u0259 m\u0259qamlarda ilan\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yir v\u0259 n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, o evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xsa, \u00a0Can onu tapmayacaq. Can h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 q\u0259fil v\u0259 h\u0259r yerd\u0259n peyda olurdu. Ancaq Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 onun yax\u0131nl\u0131qda oldu\u011funu hiss edir v\u0259 soru\u015furdu: “Can, buradasan?” \u018fn q\u0259rib\u0259si odur ki, u\u015faql\u0131qdan bir-birl\u0259rini uzaqdan hiss edirdil\u0259r, zehni olaraq \u00fcnsiyy\u0259t qura bilirdil\u0259r. Can onu k\u00fcl\u0259kd\u0259n bel\u0259 qoruyurdu v\u0259 ya b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0131sqan\u0131rd\u0131. Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun \u00fcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259 evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmamas\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015fqa bir s\u0259b\u0259bi d\u0259, Can\u0131n q\u0131sqancl\u0131q ucbat\u0131ndan kim\u0259s\u0259 z\u0259r\u0259r ver\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n qorxmas\u0131d\u0131r. Onsuz da b\u00fct\u00fcn k\u0259nd bu ail\u0259d\u0259n ehtiyatlan\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z bu c\u00fcr b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259sind\u0259n valideynl\u0259ri daim d\u0259rd q\u0259m i\u00e7ind\u0259 idil\u0259r. Dua edirl\u0259r ki, q\u0131zlar\u0131 s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259td\u0259n qurtulsun, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259r taps\u0131n, xo\u015fb\u0259xt olsun. Q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259db\u0259xt ed\u0259n Can\u0131 h\u0259rd\u0259n As\u0131lbek \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Onu dayand\u0131ra bil\u0259c\u0259k t\u0259k \u015fey S\u0131rqan\u0131n g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 idi. O, As\u0131lb\u0259y\u0259 deyirdi ki, ilana z\u0259r\u0259r vurmaq yax\u015f\u0131 deyil. Ancaq \u015fayi\u0259l\u0259r v\u0259 f\u0259zil\u0259tli Bubu-en\u0259nin son s\u00f6zl\u0259ri: “N\u0259hay\u0259t, qan\u0131n\u0131z v\u0259 ruhunuz ilanlarlad\u0131r!” – onu sakitl\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 qoymurdu:<\/p>\n

– \u0130lana de! Qoy getsin! G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259sin! Yoxsa!.. \u2013 q\u0131z\u0131na hirsl\u0259nirdi. Lakin As\u0131lbek ilan\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259 bilm\u0259di. \u00dcst\u0259lik, Bubu-en\u0259nin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l dediyi bir s\u00f6z d\u0259 var…<\/p>\n

Y\u00fcz ya\u015f\u0131na yax\u0131n ya\u015fayan Bubu n\u0259n\u0259 uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t x\u0259st\u0259 yat\u0131rd\u0131. \u00c7ox z\u0259ifl\u0259mi\u015fdi. Yen\u0259 d\u0259 daxil olanlar\u0131 v\u0259 ged\u0259nl\u0259ri tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131, h\u0259r birin\u0259 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131, sanki kimis\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi, g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259ri qar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi ged\u0259nl\u0259ri d\u0259 onlar\u0131 yola sal\u0131rd\u0131. Ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr dan\u0131\u015fmayan Bubu-ene bir s\u0259h\u0259r hal\u0131n\u0131 soru\u015fma\u011fa g\u0259l\u0259n As\u0131lb\u0259yl\u0259 S\u0131rqan\u0131 tan\u0131y\u0131b, n\u0259 is\u0259 deyirmi\u015f kimi \u0259lini yell\u0259di, z\u0259ifc\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rp\u0259tdi. O, iflic olmu\u015f \u0259ll\u0259ri il\u0259 As\u0131lb\u0259yin \u0259lind\u0259n tutub uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t \u00e7abalayaraq n\u0259s\u0259 dem\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Ax\u0131r:<\/p>\n

– Ona toxunma!…<\/p>\n

– Ona toxunma! – dedi.<\/p>\n

As\u0131lb\u0259y Sirqaya baxd\u0131. Qalanlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u00f6vzu sirr olaraq qald\u0131 v\u0259 yaln\u0131z ikisi anan\u0131n n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc v\u0259 As\u0131lb\u0259y \u201cYax\u015f\u0131\u201d dey\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rp\u0259tdi. Yaln\u0131z bundan sonra n\u0259n\u0259nin sif\u0259ti r\u0259ng ald\u0131 v\u0259 canlanma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Onun ruhu sakitl\u0259\u015fdi, b\u0259d\u0259ni t\u0259rl\u0259di, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri ba\u011fland\u0131.<\/p>\n

H\u0259min g\u00fcn\u00fcn ert\u0259si s\u0259h\u0259r k\u0259ndd\u0259n q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131qlar, \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rt\u0131lar e\u015fidildi.<\/p>\n

– As\u0131lbek, qalx! Dey\u0259s\u0259n, Bubu-ene \u00f6ld\u00fc! – S\u0131rqa dedi. T\u0259l\u0259sik paltar geyin\u0259rk\u0259n Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun yast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u0259traf\u0131nda bir ilan\u0131n doland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc v\u0259 ilan\u0131n yaln\u0131z gec\u0259l\u0259r g\u0259ldiyini ba\u015fa indi d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

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Q\u0131z yuxudan oyananda valideynl\u0259ri evd\u0259 yox idi. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00a0onun g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yana \u00e7evirdi v\u0259 yast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda ona baxan bir ilan g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Q\u0131z \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6rt\u0259n sa\u00e7lar\u0131n aras\u0131ndan n\u0259vazi\u015fl\u0259 Cana baxd\u0131. Bu zaman q\u0131z hiss etdi ki, onlar\u0131n dostlu\u011fu u\u015faql\u0131q dair\u0259sind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r v\u0259 getdikc\u0259 daha da m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259bl\u0259\u015fir. Eyni zamanda, \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n suallar indi getdikc\u0259 \u00e7oxal\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r onlar aras\u0131nda dostluq, bir-birinin dilini bilm\u0259k adi hal kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u0130ndi is\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr ki, bu bel\u0259 deyil. Dig\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259 bu keyfiyy\u0259tl\u0259r yoxdur. Bunu \u00e7ox gec ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. B\u0259s niy\u0259 ba\u015fqalar\u0131ndan f\u0259rqli yarad\u0131l\u0131blar? Bunu he\u00e7 kim ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fc, n\u0259 \u00f6zl\u0259ri, n\u0259 d\u0259 ba\u015fqalar\u0131.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z u\u015faq olanda ilan ona ba\u015fqalar\u0131ndan f\u0259rqli olaraq oyuncaq kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Onu h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t ed\u0259n, s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259n, a\u011fz\u0131, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri v\u0259 n\u0259hay\u0259t, insan kimi a\u011fl\u0131 olan bir oyuncaq kimi sevirdi. O, “j\u0131lan” t\u0259l\u0259ff\u00fcz ed\u0259 bilm\u0259di, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 onu “ja-an” adland\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 ad\u0131 \u0259b\u0259di olaraq Jean oldu. Onun dilind\u0259 “Jan” ruh,can dem\u0259kdir. Onlar b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259nd\u0259 Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok onu \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 dostu kimi tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 h\u0259r ikisi bu ad\u0131 sevirdil\u0259r. Amma getdikc\u0259 Can\u0131nn xasiyy\u0259ti d\u0259yi\u015fdi v\u0259 o art\u0131q \u0259vv\u0259lkind\u0259n f\u0259rqli idi. H\u0259min nadinc, \u015f\u0131ltaq k\u00f6hn\u0259 d\u0259bli ilan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259li, a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 bir insan kimi oldu. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f art\u0131q \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi deyildi. Bir q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259li v\u0259 a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131,\u0259k\u0259-b\u00fck\u0259 bir insan kimi. O el\u0259 bilki, n\u0259s\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi, amma tez g\u00f6zl\u0259rini qa\u00e7\u0131r\u0131b q\u0131zdan yay\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 Kyzmonchok da bu yax\u0131nlarda d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi. O, \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi Q\u0131zmon\u00e7oka s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259kmir, onunla oynam\u0131r, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sakit apar\u0131rd\u0131. Bu q\u0131z\u0131n xo\u015funa g\u0259lmirdi. O, Can\u0131n d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131na t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nir v\u0259 inciyirdi. Q\u0131z b\u0259z\u0259n ilan\u0131n fikirl\u0259rini oxumaq ist\u0259yirdi, amma qorxurdu.<\/p>\n

Son zamanlar Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok ilan\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 baxa bilmirdi, gizlic\u0259 onun dey\u0259 bilm\u0259diyi bir \u015feyi gizl\u0259tdiyini hiss edirdi,amma \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 buna inanmaq ist\u0259mirdi. Ancaq bu m\u0259xluqu \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131rmaq olmazd\u0131. Onsuz h\u0259yat\u0131 t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr etm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyildi. V\u0259 o n\u0259inki ilana, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 n\u0259 ba\u015f verdiyini anlam\u0131r v\u0259 inanm\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

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\u0130ndi h\u0259r ikisi g\u00f6zl\u0259rini bir-birind\u0259n \u00e7\u0259k\u0259 bilmir, sakit bir-birl\u0259rin\u0259 bax\u0131r v\u0259 \u00f6z fikirl\u0259ri il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

\u0130lan insanlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onlar\u0131n t\u0259kc\u0259 dilini deyil, h\u0259m d\u0259 h\u0259yat t\u0259rzini, ad\u0259t-\u0259n\u0259n\u0259l\u0259rini bilirdi. O, sad\u0259c\u0259 insan kimi dan\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131 bilmirdi. H\u0259tta indi d\u0259 ilan\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri bir n\u00f6v k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259 doldu,g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin d\u0259rinliyi g\u00f6zya\u015f\u0131 v\u0259 sevincl\u0259 bir-birin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 o bu \u00fclvi duy\u011fular alt\u0131nda q\u0131za baxd\u0131. Q\u0131z ilan al\u0259mini hiss etdi, amma n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri qarald\u0131 v\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131nda g\u00f6rm\u0259diyi, \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r hiss etm\u0259diyi v\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir hissd\u0259n titr\u0259yirdi.\u0130lan\u0131n da b\u0259d\u0259ni titr\u0259yirdi, sanki onun b\u00f6y\u00fck sirl\u0259ri, ruhu ki\u00e7ik \u00a0b\u0259d\u0259nin\u0259 s\u0131\u011fm\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n s\u0259ni sevir\u0259m, Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok!<\/p>\n

-?! – q\u0131z n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yini, n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yini bilm\u0259di. \u00c7a\u015f-ba\u015f qald\u0131! “M\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 olub?” \u201cO, \u00f6z\u00fc-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yalan dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 b\u0259han\u0259 g\u0259tirdi: \u201cXeyr, s\u0259hv ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. Can iddia edir ki, o, m\u0259ni dost kimi sevir…\u201d<\/p>\n

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– Yox, \u0259zizim! – fikirl\u0259rini oxuyan Can dedi, – m\u0259n s\u0259ni h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n sevir\u0259m, dost kimi deyil! \u0130nsan oldu\u011funu unudaraq, can\u0131mla, saf duy\u011fularla, saf m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tl\u0259 s\u0259nd\u0259 tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131m insani hissl\u0259rinl\u0259 sevir\u0259m!<\/p>\n

Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259r Can\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yaz\u0131ld\u0131qdan sonra Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumdu: \u201cXeyr! Yox! O, insan deyil! Onun bir insan\u0131 sevm\u0259y\u0259 haqq\u0131 yoxdur! Dey\u0259s\u0259n, s\u0259hv oxumu\u015fam!.. H\u0259, h\u0259r \u015fey s\u0259hvdir! M\u0259n x\u0259st\u0259y\u0259m…\u201d dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc, \u00fcr\u0259yi d\u00f6y\u00fcnd\u00fc v\u0259 onu t\u0259r basd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u0130lan \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 olan h\u0259r \u015feyi a\u00e7\u0131b t\u00f6kd\u00fc v\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131qca dedi:<\/p>\n

-Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla m\u0259ni, Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok?!.. \u018fg\u0259r \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 d\u0259ydims\u0259, s\u0259ni \u00fczd\u00fcms\u0259, m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla?! Amma m\u0259n…<\/p>\n

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– Yad\u0131ndad\u0131rm\u0131, s\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 deyirdin: \u201cS\u0259n f\u0259rqlis\u0259n, heyvana ox\u015fam\u0131rsan. \u0130nsan kimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc insan kimi hiss edirs\u0259n. Heyf ki, dan\u0131\u015fa bilmirs\u0259n!” Bunu h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 q\u00fcrurla, b\u0259li, heyr\u0259tl\u0259 v\u0259 s\u0259mimi sevincl\u0259 deyirdin. M\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259ni daha da sevindirm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim. \u0130nsan dilini \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim! B\u00fct\u00fcn insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndirm\u0259k,heyr\u0259tl\u0259ndirm\u0259k v\u0259 bel\u0259c\u0259 yenilik etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim! \u0130nsan olmaq ist\u0259yirdim! Daha \u00e7ox! S\u0259nin yan\u0131nda oyuncaq deyil,\u0259sl centlmen olmaq ist\u0259yirdim! Kainat\u0131 insanca tan\u0131y\u0131b anlamaq v\u0259 insanlarla heyvanlar aras\u0131nda k\u00f6rp\u00fc yaratmaq ist\u0259yirdim! Amma bu sonsuz m\u0259qs\u0259dl\u0259rimin he\u00e7 vaxt ger\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini bil\u0259-bil\u0259, m\u0259n niy\u0259 bu yalan\u00e7\u0131 x\u0259yala inand\u0131m! Amma b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n bir g\u00fcn m\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259r\u0259r ver\u0259c\u0259yini haradan bil\u0259ydim?!<\/p>\n

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– Bir d\u0259f\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 yuxumu dey\u0259nd\u0259 dedin ki, \u201cg\u0259ncl\u0259rin arzular\u0131 ger\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259\u015fir\u201d. \u00a0M\u0259n buna inand\u0131m. M\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 inan\u0131ram… Ax\u0131 a\u011fl\u0131m\u0131n, m\u0259qs\u0259dl\u0259rimin, sevgimin, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k taleyimin Tanr\u0131s\u0131 S\u0259ns\u0259n!<\/p>\n

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Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun ilana r\u0259hmi g\u0259ldi v\u0259 ilan\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yinin haray\u0131n\u0131 q\u0259bul etdi. \u201cB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 be\u015fikd\u0259n bir yerd\u0259 oynay\u0131b b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259nin qoxunu hopdurmu\u015fam\u201d… O, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini onun sonsuzluq kimi \u0259riyib ged\u0259n yaz\u0131q donmu\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kib fikirl\u0259\u015fdi: \u201cN\u0259 f\u0259rqi var, o sevir, m\u0259n yoxsa yox?!\u201d N\u0259 olsun ki?! \u2013 dedi, \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 dan\u0131\u015faraq, \u2013 Bayaq dediyim kimi, onun heyvanilikd\u0259n k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b adam olma\u011fa can atmas\u0131na s\u0259b\u0259b m\u0259n oldu\u011fum \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, indi m\u0259nim diqq\u0259tsizliyimin sonu bel\u0259 olacaq! Amma…n\u0259 deyim?!”- bu suala g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 o \u015foka d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.Amma h\u0259r halda bu a\u011f\u0131r v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmaq laz\u0131m idi!N\u0259 deyim?…<\/p>\n

Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok ilana bax\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcnd\u00fc. Q\u0131z\u0131n “par\u0131ldayan” parlaq \u0259hval-ruhiyy\u0259si say\u0259sind\u0259 evin i\u00e7i i\u015f\u0131qland\u0131 v\u0259 ilan da f\u0259rqli bir \u0259hval-ruhiyy\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Q\u0131z bir \u0259li il\u0259 yast\u0131\u011f\u0131 qucaqlay\u0131b, dig\u0259r \u0259lini ilana uzatd\u0131, ilan da ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 isti ovucunun i\u00e7in\u0259 qoydu. Ovucun istiliyi ilan\u0131n soyuq b\u0259d\u0259nini a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya do\u011fru h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t etdirdi v\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131 ondan ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 bir ilan\u0131n hiss etm\u0259diyi q\u0259rib\u0259 h\u0259zz v\u0259 sehr hiss ed\u0259r\u0259k f\u0131rlanma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131!..Can h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 f\u0131rlananda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn bir q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 insane \u00e7evrildiyini hiss edirdi. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 bunun uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t davam etm\u0259sini ist\u0259yirdi.H\u0259tta Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok da ona sehrli g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. O inanmaq ist\u0259yirdi ki,insan n\u0259inki a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131d\u0131,o h\u0259m d\u0259 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmayan etm\u0259y\u0259 qadirdi. O buna inan\u0131rd\u0131: \u201cQ\u0131zmon\u00e7ok g\u00fcn\u00fcn birind\u0259 ilana \u00e7evril\u0259c\u0259k\u201d. T\u0259dric\u0259n, onu \u0259hat\u0259 ed\u0259n fenomeni anlama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 andan bunun qeyri-m\u00fcmk\u00fcn oldu\u011funa \u0259min oldu v\u0259 indi o, Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na insan kimi \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259yirdi!<\/p>\n

\u201c\u018fg\u0259r bel\u0259 bir m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259 yaratma\u011fa\u00a0 m\u0259n yox, h\u0259tta Yaradan da qadir olmasa… bundan sonra n\u0259 olacaq?!\u201d \u2013 Can fikirl\u0259rind\u0259 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Yax\u015f\u0131… Onun Qyzmon\u00e7ka olan sevgisi \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fc! Limitsiz! Real! Amma dey\u0259k ki, Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok onun sevgisini q\u0259bul edir, bundan sonra n\u0259 olacaq?! H\u0259yat nec\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131b ,nec\u0259 davam, ed\u0259c\u0259k nec\u0259 bit\u0259c\u0259k?!<\/p>\n

Fikirl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 \u200b\u200bn\u0259 cavab tap\u0131rsan, n\u0259 d\u0259 gizl\u0259n\u0259c\u0259k yer. B\u0259s Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun ona pis, nifr\u0259t dolu g\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 baxmad\u0131\u011f\u0131, halda onun bu n\u0259vazi\u015fli bax\u0131\u015f\u0131 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259y\u0259rlidir?..<\/p>\n

H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi q\u0131za s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259kib s\u0131\u011fallay\u0131rd\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259yib onun n\u0259f\u0259sini, \u00fcr\u0259yinin d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc dinl\u0259yirdi. Bird\u0259n ilan onun b\u0259d\u0259nin\u0259 sar\u0131laraq oynamaq ist\u0259di. Amma bunu hiss ed\u0259n Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi, o biri ovucu il\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259 olan ilan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131\u011fallad\u0131. Bundan d\u0259rhal sonra ilan\u0131 yer\u0259 qoyaraq geyinm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Salx\u0131ml\u0131 s\u00f6y\u00fcd kimi burulub burulan a\u011f ip\u0259k paltar q\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259lliyini daha da \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u0130lan\u0131n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan \u015foka d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n q\u0131z ilk d\u0259f\u0259 onun \u00fcr\u0259yinin d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc dayand\u0131rma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O, bel\u0259 bir \u00e7\u0131x\u0131lmaz v\u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fc vaxtda valideynl\u0259rinin evd\u0259 olmamas\u0131na t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcfl\u0259nirdi. Bu fikirl\u0259rin aras\u0131nda qalan q\u0131z valideynl\u0259rinin ibad\u0259t\u0259 getdikl\u0259rini bil\u0259nd\u0259n sonra n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 onlar\u0131n tez bir zamanda qay\u0131tmalar\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259di. O bu narahat d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n v\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259ka\u011fr\u0131dan hissl\u0259rd\u0259n harasa qa\u00e7maq ist\u0259yirdi. Bu durum,bu hiss,duy\u011fular onunla Can aras\u0131nda he\u00e7 vaxt bitm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi …<\/p>\n

O, bay\u0131ra \u00e7\u0131xanda g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r qalxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Art\u0131q, zirv\u0259l\u0259ri a\u011f qar v\u0259 mavi buz b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcy\u00fc, n\u0259h\u0259ng da\u011flar\u0131n s\u0259maya qovu\u015fdu\u011fu g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ay \u00f6z q\u0131z\u0131l i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcnyaya t\u00f6k\u0259r\u0259k artiq \u00f6l\u0259ziyirdi. Da\u011f\u0131n o tay\u0131ndan \u0259s\u0259n k\u00fcl\u0259k Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun \u00fcz g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ox\u015fad\u0131 v\u0259 o, xo\u015f bir t\u0259rav\u0259t hiss etdi. H\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131 q\u0131z hisl\u0259rin quca\u011fnda sanki u\u00e7ub gedirmi\u015f kimi arxaya \u00e7evrildi, uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t harasa s\u0259yah\u0259t ed\u0259n buludlara baxd\u0131 v\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcb \u00e7iynin\u0259 vedr\u0259 il\u0259 \u201cApk\u00f6\u00e7\u201d qoyub bula\u011fa getdi. Bula\u011fa ged\u0259n yol Bekt\u0259mirl\u0259rin evinin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sinin alt\u0131ndan ke\u00e7irgi. B\u00fct\u00fcn fikri,zikri Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun yan\u0131nda olan bu qarab\u0259niz g\u0259nc o\u011flan q\u0131z su g\u0259tirm\u0259y\u0259 ged\u0259rk\u0259n ona bax\u0131r v\u0259 q\u0131z ke\u00e7ib getdukd\u0259n sonra da g\u00f6zl\u0259ri bu yola dikilirdi.N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259, o n\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259, n\u0259 d\u0259 camaat\u0131n dedi-qodular\u0131na inanm\u0131rd\u0131. U\u015faq ik\u0259n q\u0131z v\u0259 ilan haqq\u0131nda b\u00fct\u00fcn bu s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259ti e\u015fitmi\u015fdi. Buna baxmayaraq, u\u015faql\u0131q x\u0259yallar\u0131nda q\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259lliyini ba\u015fqalar\u0131ndan f\u0259rqli, x\u00fcsusi hesab etmi\u015fdir. O vaxtdan b\u0259ri o, iztirab i\u00e7ind\u0259 idi v\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 onun dal\u0131\u0131nca gedirdi v\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ona inanmaq, onunla dan\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259yirdi. \u00a0B\u0259kd\u0259mir h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, sakinl\u0259rin, x\u00fcsus\u0259n d\u0259 qad\u0131nlar\u0131n s\u00f6yl\u0259diyi b\u00fct\u00fcn bu \u201cna\u011f\u0131llar\u201d Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun g\u00f6z\u0259lliyin\u0259 h\u0259s\u0259dd\u0259n yaranan s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rdir. Ax\u0131 o, h\u0259tta onunla qon\u015fuluqda idi, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 idi, q\u0131z\u0131n n\u0259 axmaql\u0131q etdiyini, n\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7irkin oyunlarla m\u0259\u015f\u011ful oldu\u011funu g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

Bu fikir onu h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 sakitl\u0259\u015fdirirdi. Amma bu o\u011flan h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 sikk\u0259nin o biri \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 haz\u0131r idi. Q\u0131z v\u0259 ilan \u0259fsan\u0259si do\u011fru olsa bel\u0259, q\u0131zdan imtina ed\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi! Ancaq g\u0259nc bilmirdi ki, Can onun bu hissl\u0259rini, Q\u0131zmon\u00e7oku ona q\u0131sqand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, Bekktemiri \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 r\u0259qib etm\u0259sini n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r vaxtd\u0131r bilir.<\/p>\n

As\u0131lbek v\u0259 S\u0131rqa ilan\u0131n q\u0131sqancl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 lap \u0259vv\u0259ld\u0259n bilirdil\u0259r v\u0259 narahat olaraq: \u201c\u0130lan kimis\u0259 q\u0131sqan\u0131b \u00e7almas\u0131n!\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Onsuz da sakit, fa\u011f\u0131r,\u00f6z t\u00fck\u00fc \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 dolanan ail\u0259 bu kimi hadis\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 t\u0259qib olunurdular, onsuz da az qala\u00a0\u00a0 da\u015f-qalaq edilirdil\u0259r, h\u0259tta k\u0259ndd\u0259n qovulmaq t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259si yaranm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Amma ilan\u0131 qovub b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 k\u00f6k\u00fcnd\u0259n qurtara bil\u0259c\u0259k bir c\u0259sur,bir igid yox idi. As\u0131lbek d\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi ki, uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t idi, komuzu \u0259lin\u0259 alm\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

O, h\u0259tta at\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcb ilan\u0131n z\u0259h\u0259rini nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xarma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ucqar k\u0259ndl\u0259rd\u0259n birin\u0259 getmi\u015fdi v\u0259 bunu \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan, As\u0131ke! Yoxsa o gec\u0259ni art\u0131q unutmusan?! H\u0259r \u015feyi unutsan bel\u0259, Bubu-ene s\u00f6zl\u0259rini unutma! – Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259n sonra S\u0131rqan\u0131n r\u0259ngi a\u011fard\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Hey, bunda pis bir \u015fey yoxdur! Bu ilan v\u0259h\u015fi ilan olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259, z\u0259h\u0259r v\u0259zisi \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131lmal\u0131d\u0131r! – \u0259ri deyir.<\/p>\n

– Dayan, As\u0131lbek! Dayan, xahi\u015f edir\u0259m! Qorxuram!.. Bilmir\u0259m, ondan nec\u0259 qorxmamaq olar! \u00dcst\u0259lik, Can bu q\u0259d\u0259r il biziml\u0259 olub v\u0259 o sudan sakit, otdan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 olub!<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r sakit olsa da, heyvan – heyvand\u0131r! \u201cCanavar\u0131n qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sm\u0259kl\u0259 \u00a0it olmaz. Canavar balas\u0131 canavard\u0131\u201d deyir. \u0130ndi yox? dem\u0259li…<\/p>\n

– Allah el\u0259m\u0259sin! Heyvan olsa da, s\u00f6zl\u0259ri ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr!<\/p>\n

– Yax\u015f\u0131, oldu, ayd\u0131nd\u0131! Yet\u0259r! S\u0259n ona \u00f6vlad\u0131n kimi bax\u0131rsan!..<\/p>\n

– Biz bunu etm\u0259liydikdiks\u0259, h\u0259l\u0259 bala olanda edilm\u0259li idi. \u0130ndi o, s\u0259nd\u0259n iki d\u0259f\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fcr… \u2013 indi m\u0259n ilana g\u00f6r\u0259 deyil, \u00a0s\u0259nd\u0259n narahatam.<\/p>\n

– Allah\u0131m! Pis g\u00f6zd\u0259n, pis s\u00f6zd\u0259n qoruyub saxla?! \u00a0Heyvan da olsa, ona vicdan, a\u011f\u0131l ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 n\u0259sib et?! \u00a0Allah el\u0259m\u0259sin, kimis\u0259 di\u015fl\u0259yir v\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn xalq bizi,q\u0131nayar, l\u0259n\u0259t oxuyar! Olsun… \u0130n\u015fallah, ka\u015f ki, q\u0131z\u0131m da taleyini \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r birisi il\u0259 ba\u011flay\u0131b, xo\u015fb\u0259xt olayd\u0131?!. Allah r\u00fcsvay\u00e7\u0131l\u0131qdan uzaq el\u0259sin – sonra h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi Allaha dua etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131r. Son vaxtlar bu, onun bir v\u0259sv\u0259s\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdi v\u0259 o, dayanmadan t\u0259krarlay\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0131rqa Yaradandan ilan\u0131 onlar\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131ndan tamamil\u0259 silm\u0259sini xahi\u015f edirdi. V\u0259 ilan\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 baxmadan, t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcdl\u0259 deyirdi: \u201cQay\u0131nanas\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 danlay\u0131r, g\u0259linin\u0259 is\u0259 elm verir\u201d.-\u201dA q\u0131z\u0131m s\u0259n\u0259 deyir\u0259m,a g\u0259linim s\u0259n e\u015fit\u201d.<\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 hiss ed\u0259n Can ba\u015fqalar\u0131ndan, h\u0259tta Kyzmonchokun valideynl\u0259rind\u0259n d\u0259 gizl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259, g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259m\u0259y\u0259\u00a0 ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

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Suya ged\u0259n q\u0131z g\u00fclm\u0259li bir hadis\u0259ni xat\u0131rlayaraq g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di…<\/p>\n

Can u\u015faq olark\u0259n \u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259 idi. Q\u0131zmon\u00e7oka valideynl\u0259rind\u0259n v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 kimin yax\u0131nla\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259mirdi. Qar\u0131\u015fqa yax\u0131nla\u015fanda bel\u0259, n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yini bilm\u0259d\u0259n ona t\u0259r\u0259f s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00c7\u00fcnki Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun s\u00f6zl\u0259ri:<\/p>\n

– \u0130nsanlarla dost olmaq ist\u0259yirs\u0259ns\u0259, onlar kimi a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 olmal\u0131san! Qar\u0131\u015fqalara v\u0259 qurdlara \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259t verm\u0259. Kimis\u0259 di\u015fl\u0259m\u0259yi a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131za bel\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259! -Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 onun ba\u015f\u0131nda olub. Amma o vaxt da s\u0259birsiz idi:<\/p>\n

-Ts-ss-s!!!- – \u015e\u015f\u015f\u015f!!! – O, fikrini yay\u0131nd\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu c\u00fcr v\u0259rdi\u015fi tapm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Can! \u2013 dedi \u201cm\u00fc\u0259llim\u201d hirsind\u0259n q\u0131zard\u0131, \u2013 m\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 dedim?!<\/p>\n

Yaln\u0131z bundan sonra Can ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b\u00a0 g\u00fcnahkarcas\u0131na q\u0131s\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Ev\u0259 kims\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 As\u0131lb\u0259k v\u0259 S\u0131rqa q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n tutub k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131r, qona\u011f\u0131 qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda qoyub \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b gedirdil\u0259r. Onlar\u0131n bu h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun ilana \u00e7evrilm\u0259si il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 \u015fayi\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 v\u0259 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259li fikirl\u0259r\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b olurdu. \u015eaiy\u0259 buraxanlardan biri:<\/p>\n

– Oh, a\u011fa, n\u0259 vaxt i\u00e7\u0259ri girirs\u0259n, \u0259ri v\u0259 ya arvad\u0131 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb evd\u0259n qa\u00e7\u0131rlar! – Sonra ikinci:<\/p>\n

– \u201cAxmaq qad\u0131n q\u0131s\u0131r in\u0259yi sa\u011far.\u201d \u201cY\u0259qin qorxurlar ki, yegan\u0259 q\u0131zlar\u0131na g\u00f6z zad d\u0259y\u0259r\u201d deyir. Sonra da:<\/p>\n

– \u201cOd olmayan yerd\u0259n t\u00fcst\u00fc \u00e7\u0131xmaz\u201d deyirdil\u0259r! \u0130nsanlar dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsa, bunun bir s\u0259b\u0259bi var. Onu insanlardan gizl\u0259tdikl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, o, h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n ilana \u00e7evrilib! – deyir. Bel\u0259 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259r get-ged\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcr v\u0259 g\u00fccl\u0259nirdi.<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 Ab\u0131lay\u0131n a\u011f qo\u00e7u il\u0259 Can aras\u0131nda olan dava bu c\u00fcr heyr\u0259tamiz \u201cna\u011f\u0131llar\u0131\u201d ikiqat art\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

H\u0259min g\u00fcn Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 oynama\u011fa \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu zaman x\u0259nd\u0259yin k\u0259nar\u0131nda k\u0259ndirl\u0259 ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015f qo\u00e7 d\u00fcz Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qa\u00e7\u0131b vurub onu yer\u0259 y\u0131xd\u0131! L\u0259l\u0259k kimi y\u00fcng\u00fcl olan q\u0131z iki-\u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259f\u0259 yerd\u0259 yuvarland\u0131 v\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n \u00e7a\u015f-ba\u015f qald\u0131. Sonra qo\u00e7 sanki doymam\u0131\u015f qaban geri qay\u0131d\u0131b yenid\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qa\u00e7ma\u011fa haz\u0131rla\u015fd\u0131. S\u00fcr\u0259tini art\u0131ran qo\u00e7 q\u0131za c\u0259mi iki metr qalmam\u0131\u015f q\u0259fil dayand\u0131. Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda bir ilan dik dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131!<\/p>\n

O, qarn\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131, t\u0259z\u0259 paltar\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn toz-toz i\u00e7ind\u0259 oldu\u011funu bel\u0259 unudub \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015fdi. Bu zaman \u0259trafdan insanlar topla\u015fd\u0131lar. Onlar g\u00f6zl\u0259rini ilandan, qo\u00e7dan \u00e7\u0259km\u0259d\u0259n ilan\u0131 v\u0259 qo\u00e7u m\u00fchasir\u0259y\u0259 ald\u0131lar. Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok t\u0259\u015fvi\u015f i\u00e7ind\u0259 idi, ba\u015f\u0131nda “Bizi \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r!” fikri dola\u015fd\u0131. O, h\u0259r zaman insanlar\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 v\u0259 s\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131lan valideynl\u0259rini xat\u0131rlad\u0131. N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 dodaqlar\u0131 titr\u0259yir, g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n ya\u015f s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00dcst\u0259lik, g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, bu adamlar Can\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

– Can! Qa\u00e7, Can! S\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r! \u2013 O, s\u0259sini \u00e7\u0131xarmadan, \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131raraq ilana yalvard\u0131. O, h\u0259tta “Ona toxunmay\u0131n, xahi\u015f edir\u0259m?!” dey\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131ran insanlara t\u0259r\u0259f qa\u00e7maq ist\u0259yirdi. \u00d6ld\u00fcrm\u0259?!\u201d, lakin o s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 v\u0259 m\u0259yus halda dayand\u0131.<\/p>\n

T\u0259bii ki, Jan bu q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131qlar\u0131 v\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rli Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun fikirl\u0259rini hiss etdi. Bir anda \u00a0bunlardan uzaqla\u015fd\u0131, bir s\u0259ng\u0259r\u0259 girdi v\u0259 kollar\u0131n aras\u0131nda g\u00f6zd\u0259n itdi.<\/p>\n

Ancaq he\u00e7 kim ilan\u0131n arxas\u0131nca getm\u0259y\u0259 v\u0259 onu axtarma\u011fa c\u00fcr\u0259t etm\u0259di. Qo\u00e7a g\u0259linc\u0259, ilan ged\u0259n kimi\u00a0 y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131b yer\u0259 s\u0259rildi. Ab\u0131lay v\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131n onu aya\u011fa qald\u0131rmaq c\u0259hdl\u0259rin\u0259 baxmayaraq, uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t g\u00f6zl\u0259ri qarald\u0131, aya\u011fa qalxa bilm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

Tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131lar h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n \u00a0\u201cHeyr\u0259tl\u0259ndirici!\u201ddi \u00a0dedil\u0259r, \u201cQoyun olsa da, g\u00f6r\u00fcn nec\u0259 vuru\u015fdu!\u201d<\/p>\n

– O, m\u00fcqavim\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259 bilm\u0259di, \u0130lan bizi g\u00f6r\u00fcb qa\u00e7d\u0131!<\/p>\n

Bu hadis\u0259nin \u015fahidl\u0259ri ilanla qo\u00e7un d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc daha da heyr\u0259tl\u0259ndirmi\u015f v\u0259 uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t ilan\u0131n dig\u0259r ilanlardan f\u0259rqli oldu\u011funu, s\u00fcd kimi a\u011f oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yl\u0259mi\u015fdil\u0259r. Bir \u015fey yax\u015f\u0131 idi ki, onlar bu hadis\u0259y\u0259 Kyzmonchokun s\u0259b\u0259b oldu\u011funu bilmirdil\u0259r. Amma bundan sonra o qo\u00e7un Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okdan qa\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 q\u0131zdan ehtiyatland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, onunla \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcz d\u00f6nd\u0259rdiyini g\u00f6r\u0259nl\u0259r oldu.<\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 xat\u0131rlayaraq Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok tezc\u0259 bula\u011fa \u00e7atd\u0131.<\/p>\n

B\u0259kt\u0259mir b\u00fct\u00fcn gec\u0259ni yata bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u00dcr\u0259yi s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 kimi t\u0131pp\u0131r-t\u0131pp\u0131r d\u00f6y\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Q\u0131zmon\u00e7oka n\u0259s\u0259 dem\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015fan Bekt\u0259mir d\u0259 onun arxas\u0131nca getdi.<\/p>\n

Bunu hiss ed\u0259n ilan evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131…<\/p>\n

\u00d6z d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259ri il\u0259 \u00e7a\u015f-ba\u015f qalan g\u0259nc at\u0131 Can\u0131n yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259n al\u00e7aq kollu\u011fa ba\u011flad\u0131 v\u0259 Q\u0131zmon\u00e7oka yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok! – titr\u0259k s\u0259sl\u0259 dedi, – Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok, uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t s\u0259n\u0259 dey\u0259 bilm\u0259dim…<\/p>\n

O\u011flan\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fc pul kimi q\u0131zard\u0131. B\u0259d\u0259nin\u0259 bir gizilti dolu t\u0131lat\u00fcm ke\u00e7di,sanki onu c\u0259r\u0259yan vurdu\u015f Buna baxmayaraq, o \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc toparlay\u0131b h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t etdi v\u0259 Q\u0131zmon\u00e7oka nec\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 onun \u0259ll\u0259rini tutdu\u011funu hiss etm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n… s\u0259ni sevir\u0259m, Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok! – dedi sonra.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131za olan saf, m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s, ilk m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tini sanki dodaqlar\u0131 il\u0259 deyil, \u00fcr\u0259yi il\u0259 ruhunda ifad\u0259 edirdi.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc narahat v\u0259 z\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 hiss etdi v\u0259 n\u0259 cavab ver\u0259c\u0259yini bilm\u0259di. U\u015faql\u0131qdan b\u0259ri o, Bektemirin ona olan hissl\u0259rini t\u0259xmin edirdi, amma el\u0259 bil ac\u0131\u011fa el\u0259 oldu ki,m\u0259hz Can ona sevdiyini etiraf ed\u0259nd\u0259 B\u0259kd\u0259mir d\u0259 ona sevdiyini s\u00f6yl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yi \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 Cana \u00e7evrildi. Ax\u0131 Can bu o\u011flana nifr\u0259t etdiyini s\u00f6yl\u0259di. O, kolluqdan g\u00fcll\u0259 kimi \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 v\u0259 o\u011flanla q\u0131z\u0131n aras\u0131nda dayan\u0131b q\u0131sqancl\u0131qdan Bektemir\u0259 h\u00fccum etm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi dayand\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki ilan da indi etiraf etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi, amma Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok \u00e7\u0259kindi, utand\u0131 v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yer tapa bilm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z\u0131n niy\u0259 narahat oldu\u011funu Bektemir ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr anlad\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki ad\u0259t-\u0259n\u0259n\u0259d\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259n q\u0131zlarla o\u011flanlar bir yerd\u0259 durma\u011fa \u00e7\u0259kinirdil\u0259r, utan\u0131rd\u0131lar. Onlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nl\u0259r dey\u0259rdil\u0259r: \u201cQ\u0131zmon\u00e7okla Bektemir utanmazd\u0131lar! G\u00f6r\u00fcn bir birin\u0259 nec\u0259 yax\u0131ndayan\u0131blar!\u201d<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z o\u011flan\u0131 bu yerd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131rma\u011f\u0131n yollar\u0131n\u0131 axtar\u0131r:<\/p>\n

– Anam m\u0259ni axtar\u0131r, ged\u0259k! \u2013 dedi vedr\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u0259yildi. B\u0259ktemir d\u0259rhal:<\/p>\n

“Buyurun, m\u0259n aparacam” dedi v\u0259 iki vedr\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Q\u0131z \u00e7ar\u0259siz qal\u0131b yerd\u0259n ba\u015fqa vedr\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb o\u011flan\u0131n arxas\u0131nca getd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Onlar kollu\u011fa yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131qda, Can v\u0259 K\u0131zmonchokun g\u00f6zl\u0259ri bir-birin\u0259 dikildi. O\u011flan\u0131n dilind\u0259n e\u015fitdiyi bu s\u00f6zl\u0259r , g\u0259nc\u0259 olan nifr\u0259ti onu ba\u015fdan-aya\u011fa quyru\u011funun ucuna kimi yand\u0131rma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Qanla birlikd\u0259 axma\u011fa ba\u015flayan q\u0259z\u0259b v\u0259 q\u0131sqancl\u0131q beyin\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131. Qan beynin\u0259 s\u0131\u00e7rad\u0131. B\u0259d\u0259ni partlayacaqm\u0131\u015f kimi uzanan ilan h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi x\u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131 il\u0259 \u201c\u015f\u015f\u015f\u015f!\u201d dey\u0259 ucadan f\u0131s\u0131ldad\u0131. Bu ki\u00e7ik \u00a0zamanda onlar bir-birl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7ox \u015fey dey\u0259 bildil\u0259r:<\/p>\n

– Ona g\u00fcv\u0259nm\u0259, Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok! O s\u0259ni m\u0259nim kimi sev\u0259 bilm\u0259z! Laz\u0131m g\u0259ls\u0259, t\u0259k bu f\u0131r\u0131ldaq\u00e7\u0131ya deyil, b\u00fct\u00fcn k\u0259nd\u0259, d\u00fcnyaya qar\u015f\u0131 durma\u011fa haz\u0131ram!<\/p>\n

– \u00c7ox s\u0259hv, Can! Onlarla birlikd\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259 s\u0259nin haqq\u0131nda olan b\u00fct\u00fcn xo\u015f hissl\u0259ri v\u0259 xo\u015f d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259ri m\u0259hv ed\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n!<\/p>\n

– Q\u0131sqancl\u0131qdan, nifr\u0259td\u0259n od tutub yansam?!<\/p>\n

– Sa\u011flam d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 il\u0259 yan\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr! S\u0259n\u0259 dem\u0259dimmi ki, insanlarla \u00fcnsiyy\u0259t qurduqdan sonra s\u0259n d\u0259 onlar kimi s\u0259xav\u0259tli, s\u0259birli v\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flayan olmal\u0131san!<\/p>\n

– B\u0259s insan kimi sevm\u0259k?! M\u0259nim buna haqq\u0131m yoxdur?!<\/p>\n

– H\u0259l\u0259 bu haqda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259liyik!..<\/p>\n

Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun bel\u0259 getm\u0259si Can\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 daha da torpa\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131na soxdu. Lakin onun \u201cBiz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259liyik\u201d s\u00f6zl\u0259ri ona \u00fcmid verdi.<\/p>\n

“S\u0259br! N\u0259ciblik!.. Bu anla\u015f\u0131lmaz, a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck n\u0259dir?!” \u2013ilan \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 dedi. \u201cBa\u011f\u0131\u015flama\u011f\u0131 bacar!\u201d Dayanma\u011f\u0131 bil!.. Sus! Toxunma!..\u201d\u2014Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 \u00e7ox ki\u00e7ik ya\u015flar\u0131ndan h\u0259l\u0259 ilan\u0131n qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 doldurmu\u015fdu! Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 ba\u015fqalar\u0131 Q\u0131zmon\u00e7oku sevs\u0259l\u0259r, o bar\u0131\u015fmal\u0131, d\u00f6zm\u0259li, ba\u011f\u0131\u015flamal\u0131 v\u0259 b\u0259d\u0259nin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131ra bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yi bir k\u00fcsk\u00fcnl\u00fck da\u015f\u0131mal\u0131 idimi?! B\u0259s \u0259g\u0259r bunu el\u0259m\u0259s\u0259?! B\u0259s ilan insan\u0131 duel\u0259-t\u0259kb\u0259-t\u0259k d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rsa?! C\u0259sar\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259rib, sin\u0259sini qald\u0131r\u0131b, aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131nda s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcb ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 salsa?! Yox! Q\u0131z bunu ba\u011f\u0131\u015flamayacaq! \u00c7\u00fcnki o zaman o, ata-anas\u0131 il\u0259 k\u0259nd camaat\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n da\u015fqalaq edil\u0259c\u0259k… Bunu anas\u0131 S\u0131rqadan e\u015fitmi\u015fdi. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00a0d\u00f6zm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r! Aman Allah, niy\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259tindir?! ..Ancaq s\u0259birli olmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r!<\/p>\n

Bunlar\u0131 fikirl\u0259\u015fs\u0259 d\u0259, q\u0131sqancl\u0131qdan i\u00e7i yan\u0131rd\u0131, \u00fcr\u0259yi a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131, \u00a0bir s\u00f6zl\u0259 d\u00fcnyas\u0131 da\u011f\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131!<\/p>\n

Bir az sonra \u00e7apan at\u0131n s\u0259sin\u0259 el\u0259 bil ay\u0131ld\u0131. \u201cB\u0259ktemir at\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 unudubmu\u015f!\u201d T\u0259bii ki, unudar…\u201d \u2013 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 dedi v\u0259 yerind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259nib dibind\u0259n bulaq qaynayan qayan\u0131n yamac\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. Buradan birlikd\u0259 yeriy\u0259n g\u0259ncl\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n \u00fczl\u0259rini ayd\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. K\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f dayan\u0131b onlara baxd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bu zaman q\u0131zlar su \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bula\u011fa \u00a0g\u0259lirdil\u0259r. Q\u0131zlar t\u0259p\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131nda onlar\u0131 seyr ed\u0259n ilan\u0131n f\u0259rqin\u0259 varmad\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

– Boooy, Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok q\u0131z \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259ldir, el\u0259 deyilmi? \u2013 k\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n g\u0259lin dedi.<\/p>\n

– B\u0259sdi, g\u00f6r\u0259k! \u2013 balaca \u0259sm\u0259r q\u0131z b\u0259y\u0259nm\u0259diyini a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 \u00a0burnunu \u0259y\u0259r\u0259k s\u00f6yl\u0259di, \u2013 Onda n\u0259 var ki?! K\u0259ndd\u0259 ham\u0131 ona \u201c\u0259jdaha q\u0131z\u0131\u201d deyir!<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 m\u0259nada ?! Niy\u0259?!<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z bir anl\u0131q xalas\u0131na baxd\u0131, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini v\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b sanki t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u00fc n\u0259s\u0259 deyirdi.<\/p>\n

– Bilirs\u0259n, deyirl\u0259r, gec\u0259l\u0259r onun yan\u0131na ilan g\u0259lir. O t\u0259nha yer\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259jdahaya \u00e7evrilir!<\/p>\n

– B\u0259sdi g\u00f6r\u00fcm! M\u0259ni qorxutma!<\/p>\n

– Aldad\u0131ramsa, m\u0259ni Qara Bald\u0131 apars\u0131n! Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 valideynl\u0259ri he\u00e7 kim\u0259 yax\u0131n durmurlar v\u0259 t\u0259k ya\u015fay\u0131rlar. He\u00e7 kimi rahatl\u0131qla evl\u0259rin\u0259 buraxm\u0131rlar!<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan,do\u011frudan?!<\/p>\n

– H\u0259 h\u0259! Niy\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 e\u015fitm\u0259mis\u0259n?! Buralarda bundan ham\u0131n\u0131n x\u0259b\u0259ri var!<\/p>\n

– N\u0259s\u0259 e\u015fitdim… Amma inanmad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Can\u0131n daha dinl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 s\u0259bri yox idi. Bu dedi-qodulardan uzaqla\u015fmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 \u00a0su \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259l\u0259n q\u0131zlar vedr\u0259l\u0259rini \u201capk\u00f6\u00e7\u0259\u201d ke\u00e7irib \u00e7iyinl\u0259rin\u0259 ald\u0131lar. Q\u0131zlar \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 \u00e7ox fikir verm\u0259d\u0259n ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b g\u00f6rd\u00fcl\u0259r ki, yax\u0131nl\u0131qda bir qayan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259n a\u011f ilan\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcl\u0259r. El\u0259 bil Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok do\u011frudan da ilana \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdi. Q\u0131zlar\u0131n h\u0259r\u0259si bir t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 qa\u00e7d\u0131lar…<\/p>\n

Bundan sonra Bektemir v\u0259 K\u0131zmon\u00e7ok tez-tez g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. As\u0131lbek v\u0259 S\u0131rqa q\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131n insanlarla \u00fcnsiyy\u0259t qurma\u011fa ba\u015flamas\u0131na sevinirdil\u0259r. Bir ax\u015fam As\u0131lbek k\u00f6hn\u0259 komuzunu \u00e7almaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn k\u00f6yn\u0259yind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131. Qollar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131rmalad\u0131, barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 ir\u0259li-geri \u00e7\u0131rpd\u0131, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk yumdu v\u0259 aln\u0131ndan t\u0259r axana q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z\u0131n anas\u0131 da xo\u015fb\u0259xt idi. Sevincl\u0259 \u0259rin\u0259 bax\u0131b \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi ev i\u015fl\u0259rini g\u00f6r\u00fcr, z\u00fcmz\u00fcm\u0259 edir, g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. “Allaha \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr! M\u0259n d\u0259 \u00e7ox ist\u0259rdim ki, q\u0131z\u0131m da ham\u0131 kimi ilandan qurtulub evl\u0259nsin. Biz d\u0259 onu \u0259r\u0259 verib, n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259rimizi g\u00f6r\u0259k,onlar\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u0259k! Boya ba\u015fa \u00e7atd\u0131raq!”-d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr v\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 dua ed\u0259r\u0259k deyirdi: “Aman Allah, As\u0131lb\u0259yin v\u0259 m\u0259nim g\u00fcnah\u0131m\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla. Cahillikd\u0259n t\u00f6r\u0259tdim, arzumuzu q\u0259bul et?!\u201d<\/p>\n

Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok valideynl\u0259rinin sevincl\u0259 bir-birin\u0259 baxd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr ki, ist\u0259r-ist\u0259m\u0259z onlara yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259lirdi. Onlar\u0131n \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u0259rinin sonuna q\u0259d\u0259r xo\u015fb\u0259xt olmalar\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yirdi. H\u0259m d\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, bu yaln\u0131z ondan as\u0131l\u0131d\u0131. H\u0259l\u0259 bir, g\u0259nc ya\u015flar\u0131ndan h\u0259r ikisinin sa\u00e7lar\u0131 a\u011farm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 \u00fczl\u0259rind\u0259 q\u0131r\u0131\u015flar vard\u0131. Sizc\u0259 Can b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 bilmirdi? O bilirdi. H\u0259tta son vaxtlar As\u0131lbekl\u0259 S\u0131rqan\u0131n niy\u0259 sevindiyini d\u0259 bilirdi. O da ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok valideynl\u0259rini sevindirm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Bektemirl\u0259 tez-tez g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. O h\u0259r \u015feyi g\u00f6r\u00fcr v\u0259 hiss edirdi. Amma Can Q\u0131zmon\u00e7oku unuda bilmirdi. O q\u0131z\u0131 t\u0259rk ed\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki o hiss edirdi ki, Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r gizl\u0259ns\u0259 d\u0259, Cana bigan\u0259 deyil. H\u0259tta Bektemirl\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok ilan\u0131 xat\u0131rlay\u0131r v\u0259 onu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Onlar\u0131 seyr ed\u0259n Can bunu hiss edir v\u0259 bu s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n orada da ondan ayr\u0131la bilmirdi.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z da \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc aldad\u0131r v\u0259 ilan\u0131 unutma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Amma \u00fcr\u0259yi: \u201cCan! Can!” \u2013 dey\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Can\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini fikirl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 onu \u00a0a\u011flamaq tuturdu, ilan\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b onun arxas\u0131nca qa\u00e7maq ist\u0259yirdi!<\/p>\n

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Bir g\u00fcn Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok evd\u0259 t\u0259k qalanda, Can \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi ev\u0259 girdi. Onun g\u0259lib getm\u0259yind\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0259, valideynl\u0259rinin x\u0259b\u0259ri var idi. Amma he\u00e7 kimin a\u011fl\u0131na da g\u0259lmir ki, evi ba\u011flas\u0131nlar.<\/p>\n

Bu d\u0259f\u0259 Can\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerd\u0259n, yuvadan \u00e7\u0131xan si\u00e7an kimi \u00e7uxurdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 v\u0259 sonra b\u0259d\u0259nini, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yuxar\u0131 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Evd\u0259 nax\u0131\u015f tik\u0259n Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun \u00fcr\u0259yi daha tez d\u00f6y\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259, iyn\u0259ni tutan \u0259ll\u0259ri titr\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumdu, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 divara s\u00f6yk\u0259di v\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tsiz qald\u0131. B\u0259lk\u0259 ilan q\u0131sqancl\u0131qdan di\u015fl\u0259yib z\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259yib?! Yoxsa alic\u0259nabl\u0131q ed\u0259c\u0259k, ba\u011f\u0131\u015flanma dil\u0259yib ilanlar evin\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259k?!<\/p>\n

Can d\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t s\u0259ssiz v\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tsiz yerd\u0259 uzand\u0131 v\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7anda \u00e7oxdand\u0131r yax\u0131ndan g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259diyi g\u00f6z\u0259lliy\u0259 heyranl\u0131qla baxd\u0131. Yaln\u0131z bundan sonra q\u0131z g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc toplad\u0131 v\u0259 ilana baxmadan titr\u0259k s\u0259sl\u0259 dedi:<\/p>\n

– Can! S\u0259n a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131san! S\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyi bilirs\u0259n v\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n! Birimizin insan, dig\u0259rimizin heyvan oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259d\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck. Biz inan\u0131lmaz d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 yax\u0131n v\u0259 dost olduq. S\u0259nsiz g\u00fcnl\u0259rim maraqs\u0131z v\u0259 soyuq ke\u00e7\u0259rdi. V\u0259 s\u0259nin olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n o g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 m\u0259n a\u011flad\u0131m, valideynl\u0259rim\u0259 \u0259zab verdim…<\/p>\n

-M\u0259n d\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131x\u0131ram. B\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259sr etdim, ilan \u0259n\u0259n\u0259sini pozdum v\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 a\u015fiq oldum, Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok!<\/p>\n

– Bilir\u0259m, Can! Amma s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn h\u0259r \u015feyi ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n v\u0259 bilirs\u0259n! M\u0259n\u0259 r\u0259hm et! Biz\u0259 yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u0259lsin! Valideynl\u0259rim\u0259 v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u0259 r\u0259hm el\u0259! \u0130ndi qay\u0131t!.. Sizinl\u0259 m\u0259nim \u201ca\u011f-a\u011f\u0131, qara-qara\u201dn\u0131 ay\u0131rd edib bu d\u00fcnyada \u00f6z yerimizi tapma\u011f\u0131n vaxt\u0131d\u0131r! T\u0259bi\u0259t v\u0259 insanl\u0131q qanunlar\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda acizik! Biz h\u0259tta m\u00fcxt\u0259lif dill\u0259rd\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131q… kim oldu\u011fumuzu bel\u0259 bilmirik!<\/p>\n

– Fikirl\u0259\u015f, Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok?! B\u0259lk\u0259 biz q\u0259dim zamanlardan b\u0259ri q\u00fcvv\u0259d\u0259 olan h\u0259yat qanunlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evir\u0259k, d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259k?! B\u0259lk\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n yeni, g\u00f6z\u0259l sirrini a\u00e7aq?!. Biz insanla heyvan aras\u0131nda k\u00f6rp\u00fc quraca\u011f\u0131q, vahid bir b\u00fct\u00f6vl\u00fck t\u0259\u015fkil edib yeni n\u0259sil yaradaca\u011f\u0131q?!.<\/p>\n

– Nec\u0259, Can?! Hans\u0131 n\u0259sil?!<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 olursa olsun! Bu s\u0259nin v\u0259 m\u0259nim i\u015fimdir, bu bizim i\u015fimizdir, n\u0259yi v\u0259 nec\u0259 etm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r! Bu bizim taleyimizdi! Uzaq yerl\u0259r\u0259, qayalar\u0131n aras\u0131na ged\u0259k ki, he\u00e7 kim bizi narahat etm\u0259sin. Biz orada ya\u015fay\u0131b \u00f6z d\u00fcnyam\u0131z\u0131 yaradaq!<\/p>\n

– Yox, Can! Olmayacaq bir \u015feyi he\u00e7 fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259, v\u0259 onun xiff\u0259tini d\u0259 el\u0259m\u0259!<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n\u0259 \u201cn\u0259cib insani keyfiyy\u0259tl\u0259ri\u201d \u00f6yr\u0259d\u0259nd\u0259 \u201c\u0130st\u0259s\u0259n, qar alovlanar, yanar\u201d demirdinmi?!<\/p>\n

– Dayan, Can!!! B\u0259li, deyirdim! Ancaq bu tamamil\u0259 f\u0259rqlidir!<\/p>\n

-?!<\/p>\n

– Can\u0131m\u0131z yax\u0131n olsa da, qan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, ruhumuzu he\u00e7 vaxt birl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yik, Jan!!! Niy\u0259 bu bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcrs\u0259n?!<\/p>\n

– Fikirl\u0259\u015fdim, Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok! Fikirl\u0259rimiz \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259, m\u0259nim oldu\u011funu b\u0259yan ets\u0259n, qan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, ruhumuzu birl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259yin bir yolunu taparam!<\/p>\n

– Yox, Can! Yox! M\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt s\u0259nin ola bilm\u0259r\u0259m! \u00c7\u00fcnki qorxuram! M\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n qorxuram! Valideynl\u0259rim\u0259 \u0259ziyy\u0259t verm\u0259kd\u0259n qorxuram! M\u0259n da\u015flar\u0131n aras\u0131nda ya\u015famaqdan qorxuram! Bunu ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n?! Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m m\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f?!<\/p>\n

-!..<\/p>\n

– M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, Can?! Amma… \u0259g\u0259r m\u0259ni h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n sevirs\u0259ns\u0259, geri \u00e7\u0259kil! M\u0259nim xalq\u0131ma, ata-anama, he\u00e7 kim\u0259 pislik etm\u0259?! S\u0259n\u0259 yalvar\u0131ram! Get!<\/p>\n

Can a\u011flayan Q\u0131zmon\u00e7oka baxma\u011fa davam etdi, onda ya\u011f\u0131\u015fda yaln\u0131z qalan f\u00fcsunkar bir \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Q\u0131z is\u0259 iri par\u0131ldayan g\u00f6zl\u0259ri il\u0259 ilana baxd\u0131, ya\u015fl\u0131, uzun kirpikl\u0259rini yava\u015fca q\u0131rpd\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, m\u0259ni qoyub get, Can?!<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z\u0131n xahi\u015f v\u0259 yalvar\u0131\u015flar\u0131 Can\u0131 m\u0259cbur etdi. Daha baxa bilm\u0259y\u0259n, ona nifr\u0259t d\u0259 ed\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259n Can geri \u00e7\u0259kildi v\u0259 yan\u0131ndak\u0131 d\u0259likd\u0259n deyil, a\u00e7\u0131q qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131!<\/p>\n

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D\u00fcn\u0259n ona dogma olan ,\u00f6z \u0259rki il\u0259 ,ki\u015filik m\u0259\u011frulu\u011fu,\u0259rd\u0259mliyi il\u0259 dola\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu g\u00fcn evd\u0259n mil\u00e7\u0259k kimi \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getdi. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilmirdi hara gedir. D\u00fcn\u0259n ona \u00e7ox ecazkar,m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n d\u00fcnyas\u0131 daralm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Onu h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n s\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 o, adam yox, ilan oldu\u011funa bir daha t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcfl\u0259ndi,pe\u015fman oldu! O, t\u0259kc\u0259 insana olan sevgisind\u0259n ilanlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda ya\u015faya bilm\u0259diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyil, h\u0259m d\u0259 Q\u0131zmon\u00e7oku ilana \u00e7evirib qayalara apara bilm\u0259diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259yatdan incimi\u015fdi,\u00a0 k\u00fcsm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Amma el\u0259 h\u0259min an \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 n\u0259yis\u0259 hiss etdi… hans\u0131sa b\u00f6y\u00fck insani keyfiyy\u0259t. V\u0259 yen\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc aldadaraq bununla \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli verdi. Bu b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fck a\u011flas\u0131\u011fmaz alic\u0259nabl\u0131qda, ba\u011f\u0131\u015flamaqda, s\u0259brd\u0259 v\u0259 davaml\u0131 m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s sevgid\u0259 idi! Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok onu qovsa bel\u0259, ona nifr\u0259t ed\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 yen\u0259 kin saxlamad\u0131 v\u0259 pislik etm\u0259di. \u018fksin\u0259, onu daha \u00e7ox sevdi. Ax\u0131 o, he\u00e7 kim kimi deyil!..V\u0259 onun da \u00f6z\u00fc kimi d\u00fc\u00e7d\u00fcy\u00fc hal\u0131na ac\u0131uaraq, q\u0259za xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Allaha dua edib sa\u011folla\u015fd\u0131!<\/p>\n

Ilan bird\u0259n n\u0259yis\u0259 xat\u0131rlad\u0131 v\u0259 dayand\u0131! \u201cM\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b gets\u0259m, b\u0259s onlar\u0131 b\u0259dxah, \u015f\u0259r adamlardan kim qoruyacaq?!\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc v\u0259 geriy\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u00fcnki h\u0259r evd\u0259 Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun \u0259jdaha olmas\u0131 il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 s\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259t g\u0259zirdi. \u00dcst\u0259lik, insanlar h\u0259tta sabah k\u0259ndin ondan \u00a0z\u0259r\u0259r g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n d\u0259 qorxurdular. S\u00f6z-s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r, insanlar\u0131n \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259ri, nifr\u0259tl\u0259ri g\u00fcnb\u0259g\u00fcn art\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259tta Bektemirin anas\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn k\u0259nd e\u015fitsin dey\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Evim\u0259 \u0259jdaha q\u0131z\u0131 g\u0259tirs\u0259n, h\u0259r iki d\u00fcnyada b\u0259db\u0259xt olaram! M\u0259n h\u0259tta anal\u0131qdan da k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0131xaram! \u018fg\u0259r o bel\u0259 c\u0259surdursa, qoy bu \u0130lan-Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok m\u0259nim evimin astanas\u0131ndan ke\u00e7sin! Onu \u00f6z \u0259ll\u0259riml\u0259 bo\u011fub \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259m!<\/p>\n

Bunlar\u0131 e\u015fid\u0259n \u00a0Can As\u0131lbekl\u0259 S\u0131rqan\u0131n Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun itkisi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259tirdi. “Xeyr, bunun ba\u015f verm\u0259sin\u0259 imkan verm\u0259r\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m!” \u2013 dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc: \u201cM\u0259n getm\u0259m\u0259liy\u0259m! M\u0259n ail\u0259min bel\u0259 v\u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sini ist\u0259mir\u0259m! M\u0259n onlar\u0131 xilas etm\u0259liy\u0259m!\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cAil\u0259!..\u201d \u2013 As\u0131lbekin ail\u0259si il\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259 saxlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 vaxtdan b\u0259ri bu s\u00f6z\u00fc Jan \u00e7ox b\u0259y\u0259nmi\u015fdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 Kyzmonchok:<\/p>\n

– Ata, de g\u00f6r\u00fcm, Can da bizim ail\u0259nin \u00fczv\u00fcd\u00fcr? \u2013 o, q\u0259tiyy\u0259tl\u0259 soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

– B\u0259li, bir yerd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131b, o da bizim ail\u0259nin \u00fczv\u00fcd\u00fcr! – atas\u0131 dedi.<\/p>\n

– Ail\u0259 olmaq mehriban olmaq v\u0259 bir-biriniz\u0259 g\u00fcv\u0259nm\u0259k, yax\u015f\u0131 v\u0259 pis g\u00fcnd\u0259 bir-biriniz\u0259 arxa-k\u00f6m\u0259k, d\u0259st\u0259k olmaqd\u0131r v\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt bir-birinizi t\u0259hqir etm\u0259m\u0259k dem\u0259kdir! \u2013 S\u0131rqa dedi.<\/p>\n

Can bilirdi ki, onun s\u00f6zl\u0259rinin arxas\u0131nda ona gizli m\u00fcraci\u0259t var: “ona dediyim s\u00f6zl\u0259r s\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 aiddir, o\u011flum, qulaq as”. Sonra Can zehni olaraq cavab verdi: \u201cXeyr, m\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt he\u00e7 kim\u0259 pislik etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m, z\u0259r\u0259r verm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m! Amma s\u0259n m\u0259nim ail\u0259ms\u0259n v\u0259 kims\u0259 m\u0259nim ail\u0259m\u0259 pislik ets\u0259,z\u0259r\u0259r vers\u0259, d\u00f6z\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m! Buna imkan verm\u0259r\u0259m.\u201d<\/p>\n

Can Bekt\u0259mirl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb s\u00f6hb\u0259t etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. “Amma nec\u0259?!” – cavabs\u0131z bel\u0259 bir sual ortaya \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Do\u011frudan da, nec\u0259?! Birincisi, Bektemir ilan\u0131n dilini bilmir, ilan haqq\u0131nda h\u0259qiq\u0259ti bilmir. Haqq\u0131nda \u00e7\u0131xan fantastik \u015fayi\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 inanmaq ist\u0259mir. \u00a0Can is\u0259 insan dilind\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fa bilmir.\u00a0 O Can il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fckd\u0259n sonra n\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259r? Yen\u0259 d\u0259 Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okla evl\u0259nm\u0259k fikrind\u0259 qalacaqm\u0131, yoxsa anas\u0131 v\u0259 h\u0259mk\u0259ndlil\u0259rin\u0259 qo\u015fulub Q\u0131zmon\u00e7oka nifr\u0259t ed\u0259c\u0259k?!<\/p>\n

Bu zaman onun beynind\u0259 bir v\u0259sv\u0259s\u0259 hissi yarand\u0131: \u201cB\u0259lk\u0259 o zaman Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259lik m\u0259nim olacaq?!\u201d Bel\u0259likl\u0259 Can onu narahat ed\u0259n bu suala cavab tapmaq ist\u0259yirdi. Amma bu d\u0259f\u0259 dogma evin\u0259 \u00e7evrilmi\u015f As\u0131lb\u0259ygil\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f yox, Ab\u0131laygil\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f y\u00f6n\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n

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Ax\u015fama \u00e7ox vard\u0131. \u0130lan\u0131n yuvas\u0131na qay\u0131tmaq vaxt\u0131 deyildi. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 Can t\u0259l\u0259smirdi. Bahara h\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7ox vaxt vard\u0131. Yax\u015f\u0131 olard\u0131 ki, i\u015fini bitirsin v\u0259 \u0259minlikl\u0259 sakitl\u0259\u015fsin. “Ola bil\u0259r…<\/p>\n

Bu q\u0131\u015f da Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok onun dal\u0131nca qarl\u0131 qayalara g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kmi?” Bu fikrin absurd oldu\u011funu bils\u0259 d\u0259, bir anl\u0131q b\u0259d\u0259ni par\u0131ldad\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fc \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc aldatd\u0131 v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc xo\u015fb\u0259xt hiss etdi. Son vaxtlar bo\u015f x\u0259yallardan, ill\u00fcziyalardan h\u0259zz alma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015fdi. “Yax\u015f\u0131, sonra. Sonra n\u0259 n\u0259 olsun?! -dey\u0259 \u00a0d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc, – Ki\u015finin inadkar v\u0259 g\u00fccl\u00fc olmas\u0131 daha yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok da bel\u0259 deyirdi! B\u0259lk\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n bu keyfiyy\u0259ti t\u0259l\u0259b etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r?! B\u0259li, n\u0259 olursa olsun, Bekt\u0259mirl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259liy\u0259m. Q\u0131zmon\u00e7oku m\u0259nim q\u0259d\u0259r sevirs\u0259, qoy b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259qiq\u0259ti bilsin! Sonra g\u00f6r\u0259k n\u0259 olacaq…\u201d<\/p>\n

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Bu zaman Bekt\u0259mir atas\u0131n\u0131n ilx\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 otar\u0131rd\u0131. O, qam\u00e7\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ir\u0259li uzadaraq \u00e7ap\u0131rd\u0131. \u00a0Ba\u015f\u0131na ba\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 \u015f\u0259rf k\u00fcl\u0259kd\u0259 bayraq kimi \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131. At quyru\u011fu yuxar\u0131 qald\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, k\u00fcl\u0259kd\u0259 B\u0259kt\u0259mirin \u015f\u0259rfinin dal\u011fas\u0131n\u0131 tamamlay\u0131rd\u0131.At Bektemiri \u00a0anlay\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi cilovunu g\u0259mirir, ki\u015fn\u0259yir d\u00fcnyaya s\u0259s sal\u0131rd\u0131. Yerl\u0259 g\u00f6y aras\u0131nda g\u0259z\u0259n o\u011flanla bu at qanadl\u0131 qu\u015fa b\u0259nz\u0259yir. \u0130kisi d\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r azadd\u0131rlar ki… v\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 ox\u015fard\u0131rlar. Onlar da Kyzmonchok v\u0259 Can kimi u\u015faql\u0131qdan yax\u0131n olublar. Ki\u00e7ik ya\u015flar\u0131ndan at\u0131n quyru\u011funu s\u0131\u011fallay\u0131r, par\u0131ldayan g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n \u00f6p\u00fcrd\u00fc. X\u00fcsusil\u0259 son g\u00fcnl\u0259r onun sirrini e\u015fid\u0259n yaln\u0131z Aktuyakd\u0131r. \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0Aktuyak\u0131n belind\u0259 \u201cu\u00e7an\u201d B\u0259kt\u0259mir sevincl\u0259 at\u0131n boynunu qucaqlay\u0131r, g\u00f6z\u0259l bir q\u0131za a\u015fiq oldu\u011funu deyirdi. B\u0259kt\u0259mirin he\u00e7 kim\u0259 dey\u0259 bilm\u0259diyi ilk sevgisini ilk e\u015fid\u0259n Aktuyak oldu. O vaxtdan b\u0259ri at g\u0259ncin \u00e7oxlu n\u0259cib fikirl\u0259rinin \u015fahidi oldu. \u00dcst\u0259lik, Bektemirin b\u0259z\u0259n he\u00e7 kim\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259d\u0259n a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yaln\u0131z Aktuyak g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc v\u0259 bilirdi!<\/p>\n

G\u0259nc o\u011flan b\u0259z\u0259n aln\u0131n\u0131 at\u0131n\u0131n aln\u0131na s\u00f6yk\u0259yir, onu boynundan qucaqlay\u0131r v\u0259 sakitc\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131r. At sanki sahibinin k\u0259d\u0259rini hiss edir, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bulay\u0131r, f\u0131nx\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. G\u0259nc o\u011flan\u0131n ona olan sevgisini hiss edirdi.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi d\u0259 Bektemir bir \u0259li il\u0259 Aktuyak\u0131n yal\u0131ndan tutub y\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259nir:<\/p>\n

– H\u0259\u0259, Aktuyak! Daha s\u00fcr\u0259tli! – q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Tapb\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131 yeri titr\u0259d\u0259n at s\u00fcr\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0131rnaqlar\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xan toz q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131ya \u00e7evril\u0259r\u0259k batmaqda olan g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin qaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtd\u00fc, da\u011f silsil\u0259si daha da \u00a0qaranl\u0131qla\u015fd\u0131. Q\u0131zla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259n g\u0259ncin q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rt\u0131lar\u0131 da\u011flara yay\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

N\u0259hay\u0259t, t\u0259yinat yerin\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131, t\u0259p\u0259d\u0259 at\u0131n\u0131 ir\u0259li s\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259k s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fc qaytard\u0131 v\u0259 geri d\u00f6nm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015fd\u0131. Yurtdan \u00e7\u0131xan ya\u015fl\u0131 bir qar\u0131:<\/p>\n

– Hey, Bektemir?! Hara gedirs\u0259n, o\u011flum? Bir az g\u00f6zl\u0259yin!\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cO, uzun uzad\u0131 dan\u0131\u015facaq! Qulaq asas\u0131 olsam,gec olacaq?! M\u0259n d\u0259 onsuz da gecikmi\u015f\u0259m\u201d.<\/p>\n

– Salam, n\u0259n\u0259?! – o\u011flan dedi.<\/p>\n

– Salam, o\u011flum! Atan,anan sa\u011f-salamatd\u0131rm\u0131? K\u0259ndd\u0259kil\u0259r nec\u0259dir? N\u0259 yenilik var? Ev\u0259 g\u0259l,bir \u00e7ay i\u00e7!<\/p>\n

\u201cN\u0259 \u00e7ayd\u0131! T\u0259l\u0259sir\u0259m ax\u0131,?\u201d \u2013 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 m\u0131z\u0131ldand\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cAtamgil s\u0259n\u0259 salam dedil\u0259r\u201d dedi Bekt\u0259mir.<\/p>\n

– Yax\u015f\u0131,\u00e7ox sa\u011f olsunlar! O ala-bula madyan az\u0131b, qoca onu axtarma\u011fa getdi.<\/p>\n

\u201cOyy n\u0259n\u0259,m\u0259n s\u0259ns\u0259n n\u0259s\u0259 soru\u015fdummu?! T\u0259l\u0259sir\u0259m ax\u0131!\u2013 cavan \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 dedi, \u2013 N\u0259 pis oldu, t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259nd\u0259 bir \u015fey \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r ,da!..\u201d<\/p>\n

-G\u0259l ev\u0259, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k zad ye.- indi o ana m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259tiyl\u0259 t\u0259kidl\u0259, -S\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 olub, susursan?!<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n t\u0259l\u0259sir\u0259m, n\u0259n\u0259!<\/p>\n

– Hara t\u0259l\u0259sirs\u0259n?! K\u0259nd h\u0259r sakitlikdir? Biz\u0259 heyr\u0259tamiz bir \u015fey ,bir x\u0259b\u0259r g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131, deyirl\u0259r ki, As\u0131lbekin q\u0131z\u0131 ilana \u00e7evrilir. Bu do\u011frudur?<\/p>\n

– Yox! Bu bel\u0259 deyil! – Bekt\u0259mir daha he\u00e7 n\u0259 e\u015fitm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259di, at\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirib \u00e7apd\u0131. Ad\u0259t\u0259n o\u011flan atdan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb ev\u0259 gir\u0259r, \u00e7ay i\u00e7\u0259r, s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259rdi. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 qad\u0131n onun davran\u0131\u015f\u0131na t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi:<\/p>\n

– Maraql\u0131d\u0131r! N\u0259 ba\u015f verir,g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n?!<\/p>\n

B\u0259ktemir t\u0259l\u0259sik k\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f getdi:<\/p>\n

– Tez ol, Aktuyak\u0131m! Daha s\u00fcr\u0259tli! G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f art\u0131q batd\u0131! Kyzmonchok bizi g\u00f6zl\u0259yir! Tez qa\u00e7! Bir az tez”<\/p>\n

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Bulaqdan bir az aral\u0131da yolda qo\u015fa \u00e7inar bitmi\u015fdi. Bu g\u00fcn Bektemirl\u0259 Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok orada, qo\u015fa \u00e7inarlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259li idil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

K\u0259nd istiqam\u0259tind\u0259n sayr\u0131\u015fan alovlar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc, k\u00fcl\u0259yin \u0259sm\u0259si il\u0259 m\u00fc\u015fayi\u0259t olunan t\u00fcst\u00fc qoxusu g\u0259lirdi, itl\u0259rin h\u00fcrm\u0259 s\u0259si art\u0131q yax\u0131ndan g\u0259lirdi. N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259, Bektemir\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, ged\u0259n yol uzan\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Qo\u015fa qovaq a\u011faclar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 at\u0131n\u0131 saxlad\u0131. Bu qovaq a\u011faclar\u0131 \u00e7ox g\u0259ncl\u0259rin v\u0259 q\u0131zlar\u0131n sevgisin\u0259 \u015fahid olmu\u015fdular.<\/p>\n

Da\u011fdan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 axan su el\u0259 bil ki, bir az yava\u015f\u0131m\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bektemir k\u00f6yn\u0259yini \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b suya at\u0131ld\u0131. Bir az da yax\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn su il\u0259 g\u00f6vd\u0259sini yaxalad\u0131, bundan sonra rahat hiss etdi. Amma yen\u0259 d\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yi tez d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcr, narahat idi, sanki n\u0259s\u0259 hiss edirdi.<\/p>\n

O, iki \u00e7inara \u00e7atanda onlar z\u0259if k\u00fcl\u0259k \u0259sdiyind\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi s\u0259s-k\u00fcy sal\u0131b titr\u0259k ritml\u0259rl\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lda\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. Bekt\u0259mir atdan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb yaxas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcz\u0259ltdi v\u0259 k\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u00a0baxmadan Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okgil\u0259 ged\u0259n yola baxd\u0131. Ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 k\u0259nd camaat\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131 bir su\u00e7 \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 yaxalama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Amma buna nail ola bilm\u0259dil\u0259r\u2026 \u0130nsanlar v\u0259 h\u0259tta Bektemirin anas\u0131 da Q\u0131zmon\u00e7okun h\u0259r h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tini izl\u0259yirdi. \u00a0Bu s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n d\u0259 o, ikisinin bir yerd\u0259 tutulaca\u011f\u0131ndan narahat idi. \u00dcst\u0259lik, son vaxtlar anas\u0131 Bektemir evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan kimi onun dal\u0131nca getm\u0259yi v\u0259 onu g\u00f6zd\u0259n qoymama\u011f\u0131 art\u0131q v\u0259rdi\u015f etmi\u015fdi. \u00c7ox g\u00fcman ki, o\u011flunu K\u0131zmonchokdan qorumaq ist\u0259yirdi. Bu an o anas\u0131n\u0131n yuxusunu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259r\u0259k k\u0259nd\u0259 girm\u0259m\u0259k q\u0259rar\u0131na g\u0259ldi, at\u0131n\u0131 burax\u0131b qova\u011fa s\u00f6yk\u0259ndi v\u0259 a\u011fac\u0131n t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259sini,titr\u0259m\u0259sini g\u00f6zl\u0259di..<\/p>\n

Aktuyak qulaqlar\u0131n\u0131 \u015f\u0259kl\u0259yib ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 yer\u0259 d\u00f6ym\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. O bununla n\u0259s\u0259 bir i\u015far\u0259 verm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Amma B\u0259kt\u0259mir bunu g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fc. Fikrind\u0259 K\u0131zmon\u00e7ok idi: \u201cG\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok niy\u0259 gecikir?… B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u00fcn\u0259n s\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n inciyib… Ya b\u0259lk\u0259 m\u0259n onun ist\u0259diyi kimi deyil\u0259m?… Ya da b\u0259lk\u0259…\u201d \u2013 narahat oldu v\u0259 narahat d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 dald\u0131. getdikc\u0259 narahat\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 art\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 \u00a0ba\u015f\u0131na daha \u00e7ox fikir g\u0259lirdi. O, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u011faca s\u00f6yk\u0259yib:<\/p>\n

\u201cBir, iki, \u00fc\u00e7… iyirmi… otuz… \u0259lli… y\u00fcz…\u201d o, sayma\u011fa davam etdi. Bu, onun fikrini yay\u0131nd\u0131rmaq v\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yini sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259k c\u0259hdi idi.<\/p>\n

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Can qal\u0131n \u00e7inar buda\u011f\u0131na dolan\u0131b yuxar\u0131dan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 o\u011flana bax\u0131rd\u0131! Aktuyak is\u0259 t\u0259la\u015fl\u0131 davran\u0131\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t sahibin\u0259 ilan haqq\u0131nda m\u0259lumat verm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131! O\u011flan is\u0259 onun h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rini g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fc, niy\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259li idi?! Ba\u015fqa vaxt olsayd\u0131, o, at\u0131n\u0131n niyy\u0259tini d\u0259rhal anlayard\u0131. Ancaq ilan\u0131n qovaq budaqlar\u0131n\u0131 daim x\u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131 il\u0259 vurdu\u011funun f\u0259rqin\u0259 varmad\u0131! \u00c7\u00fcnki o, n\u0259 aya, n\u0259 kainata, n\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259traf\u0131ndak\u0131 he\u00e7 bir \u015fey\u0259 \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259t vermirdi. Onun d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yi yegan\u0259 \u015fey, t\u0259kc\u0259 Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok idi! O, yaln\u0131z q\u0131z\u0131 e\u015fid\u0259 v\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bil\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

Ax\u015fam d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc v\u0259 \u0259traf tamamil\u0259 qaranl\u0131qla\u015fd\u0131. K\u0259nd istiqam\u0259tind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n t\u0259nha qaralt\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. B\u0259ktemirin \u00fcr\u0259yi titr\u0259yib,yerind\u0259n oynad\u0131. O, az qala sevincd\u0259n q\u0131\u015fq\u0131racaqd\u0131, u\u015faq kimi at\u0131l\u0131b d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259kdi!<\/p>\n

– G\u0259lir! Q\u0131zmon\u00e7ok g\u0259lir!.. \u2013 o, i\u00e7ind\u0259ki duy\u011fular\u0131n\u0131 saxlaya bilm\u0259yib sevincl\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131, \u2013 m\u0259n s\u0259ni sevir\u0259m! M\u0259n sevir\u0259m!..<\/p>\n

O\u011flan qaralt\u0131ya do\u011fru getdi. Siluet \u0259t\u0259yini y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131raraq gah qa\u00e7\u0131r, gah s\u00fcr\u0259tli yeri\u015fl\u0259 yeriyirdi.<\/p>\n

Bu zaman o\u011flan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda fikirl\u0259r par\u0131ldad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131lay\u0131b ata mindirm\u0259k v\u0259 onunla birlikd\u0259 kainat s\u0259yah\u0259tin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259yirdi! Bu, onun u\u015faql\u0131qdan ist\u0259yi, arzusu idi. B\u0259z\u0259n bel\u0259 yuxular g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Bektemir Aktuyak \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn fit \u00e7ald\u0131. Atdan cavab yox idi. Bu ay\u011f\u0131r ad\u0259t\u0259n \u00f6zba\u015f\u0131na otlama\u011fa gedirdi. \u0130ndi d\u0259 harasa otlama\u011fa getmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

– Aktuyak?! Ay, ay?! Aktuyak?! \u2013 dey\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi dama\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131qq\u0131ldatd\u0131,mu\u015fqurdu. S\u0259s yox, cavab yox idi.<\/p>\n

Ard\u0131 var<\/p>\n

Q\u0131r\u011f\u0131zcadan v\u0259 ruscadan t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259 ed\u0259n Elli Atayurd<\/p>\n

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Yaz\u0131ya 99 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

…Qar kimi a\u011f buzlaqlarla \u00f6rt\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f da\u011flar aras\u0131nda yaz v\u0259 yay gec, pay\u0131z is\u0259 tez g\u0259lir. S\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r v\u0259 ax\u015famlar soyuqla\u015f\u0131r v\u0259 art\u0131q q\u0131\u015f \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 -q\u0131\u015flaqlara k\u00f6\u00e7m\u0259k vaxt\u0131 g\u0259lib \u00e7at\u0131r. A\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya \u00a0k\u00f6\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 q\u0259rar ver\u0259nd\u0259n b\u0259ri S\u0131rqa bala ilan haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc: – Yaz\u0131q o\u011flan\u0131n aqib\u0259ti nec\u0259 olacaq? \u2013 o, yurtu s\u00f6k\u00fcb qatlayanda narahat olaraq soru\u015fdu. N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 onun […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":19590,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[8,16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19589"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=19589"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19589\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":19591,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19589\/revisions\/19591"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/19590"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=19589"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=19589"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=19589"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}