{"id":20121,"date":"2024-07-30T19:40:18","date_gmt":"2024-07-30T15:40:18","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=20121"},"modified":"2024-07-30T19:40:18","modified_gmt":"2024-07-30T15:40:18","slug":"sabir-rust%c9%99mxanli-duygularin-dili-il%c9%99-s%c9%99sli-kitab","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=20121","title":{"rendered":"Sabir R\u00fcst\u0259mxanl\u0131 – DUY\u011eULARIN D\u0130L\u0130 \u0130L\u018f (s\u0259sli kitab)"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a>M\u0259mm\u0259d \u0130smay\u0131l ad\u0131 x\u0259yal\u0131mda bir dost heyk\u0259li ucald\u0131r, y\u00fczl\u0259rl\u0259, minl\u0259rl\u0259 ac\u0131l\u0131-\u015firinli xatir\u0259ni k\u00f6r\u00fckl\u0259yir, fikrimi g\u0259ncliyimizin unudulmaz g\u00fcnl\u0259rin\u0259 qaytar\u0131r, \u00fcr\u0259yimi silk\u0259l\u0259yir v\u0259 m\u0259ni ruhumuzun, arzular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n qanadl\u0131, pak, cilv\u0259li, g\u00f6z\u0259l \u00e7a\u011flar\u0131na qaytar\u0131r. Da\u011flar\u0131n \u0259lam\u0259ti \u0259n uca zirv\u0259si oldu\u011fu kimi insanlar da \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u0259rinin \u0259n uca bir n\u00f6qt\u0259si, h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n \u0259n u\u011furlu v\u0259 ya \u0259lam\u0259tdar g\u00fcn\u00fc, \u0259n parlaq \u0259lam\u0259ti, \u0259n d\u0259y\u0259rli \u0259s\u0259ri il\u0259 yadda qal\u0131r.
\nM\u0259mm\u0259d \u0130smay\u0131lla tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n, dostlu\u011fumuzun \u00f6mr\u00fc otuz ild\u0259n art\u0131qd\u0131r. Amma, n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259, onun ad\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259n kimi ilk n\u00f6vb\u0259d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 1966-c\u0131 ild\u0259 burax\u0131lm\u0131\u015f balaca kitab\u0131n\u0131n havas\u0131 il\u0259 Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar \u0130ttifaq\u0131n\u0131n \u201cNat\u0259van\u201d klubunun tarixi k\u00fcrs\u00fcs\u00fcnd\u0259n qeyri-adi bir s\u0259mimiyy\u0259t v\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259canla, \u00f6z istedad\u0131na inamdan g\u0259l\u0259n daxili bir q\u00fcrur v\u0259 inadkarl\u0131qla \u015feir oxuyan ar\u0131q, uca boylu, yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 cavan g\u0259lir. Sonra biz tan\u0131\u015f olduq v\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r tox, \u00f6tk\u0259m aparsa da, s\u0131x, tuta\u015f kiprikl\u0259ri g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0259rinliyin\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f k\u0259d\u0259ri gizl\u0259d\u0259 bilmir v\u0259 bu g\u00f6zl\u0259r\u0259 h\u0259min m\u0259clisd\u0259 oxudu\u011fu misralar\u0131n sonu g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259n bir a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 yaz\u0131l\u0131b.
\nOnun Bak\u0131ya ilk g\u0259li\u015fi il\u0259 \u0259d\u0259biyyata g\u0259li\u015fi eyni vaxta d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr.
\nM\u0259mm\u0259d \u0130smay\u0131l\u0131n istedad\u0131 tonlarla qumu yuyandan sonra qalan q\u0131z\u0131l q\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131na b\u0259nz\u0259mir. O, anadan \u015fair do\u011fulub, ilham\u0131 saf q\u0131z\u0131l k\u00fcl\u00e7\u0259sidir. M\u0259n bunu birg\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ill\u0259rin m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259sin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259nib deyir\u0259m.
\nOnun \u015feirl\u0259rinin b\u00f6y\u00fck \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259ti, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 kitab\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda yaran\u0131b.
\nT\u0259z\u0259 v\u0259 u\u011furlu bir yaz\u0131s\u0131 olanda yerind\u0259 otura bilmirdi. El\u0259 ki \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 bic, i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm qonurdu, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131y\u0131b, \u0259lini g\u00fczg\u00fc kimi \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 tuturdu, bilirdim qaynay\u0131r. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 eyni s\u00f6zl\u0259 ba\u015flayard\u0131: \u201cDeyir…\u201d. Sanki bu \u201cdeyir\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc mizrab kimi vura-vura saz\u0131n\u0131 k\u00f6kl\u0259yirdi. D\u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 qalsa, h\u0259min anlarda bu s\u00f6z \u00e7ox yerind\u0259 s\u0259sl\u0259nirdi: \u201cdeyir\u0259m\u201d yox, \u201cdeyir\u201d. \u00c7\u00fcnki h\u0259min anlarda s\u0259sl\u0259n\u0259n misralar\u0131 M\u0259mm\u0259d demirdi, hardansa ilahid\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n bir s\u0259s deyirdi…
\nM\u0259mm\u0259din \u015feirl\u0259rinin b\u00f6y\u00fck \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259ti bu s\u0259sin dikt\u0259si il\u0259 yaz\u0131l\u0131b.
\nM\u0259mm\u0259d \u0130smay\u0131l\u0131n \u015feirl\u0259ri tale yaz\u0131lar\u0131d\u0131r, \u00f6z dediyi kimi duat\u0259k oxunan yaz\u0131lard\u0131r. O, ilk n\u00f6vb\u0259d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc, taleyini, oca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ana k\u0259d\u0259rini, \u201c\u00dcmidd\u0259n as\u0131lan q\u0131l\u0131nclar\u0131\u201dn\u0131, \u201cA\u011facd\u0259l\u0259n\u201di, \u201cBu yollar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda\u201d, \u201cQ\u0131zlar\u0131m \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n k\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259\u201d v\u0259 s. yaz\u0131r. V\u0259t\u0259n, insan\u0131n taleyi v\u0259 d\u00fcnya haqq\u0131nda yazanda da \u2013 M\u0259mm\u0259d bunu \u00f6z taleyi kimi yaz\u0131r. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259n ke\u00e7irib yaz\u0131r:<\/p>\n

S\u0259n m\u0259ni d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259tirdin, ana,<\/em><\/strong>
\nS\u0259nis\u0259 d\u00fcnyadan apar\u0131ram m\u0259n!..<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

M\u0259mm\u0259d \u0130smay\u0131l h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ilhamla, y\u00fcks\u0259k poetik ovqatla, Az\u0259rbaycan t\u00fcrkc\u0259sinin verdiyi imkanlar\u0131 sona q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259n\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k yaz\u0131r. Onun poeziyas\u0131 \u00e7a\u011fda\u015f \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n parlaq hadis\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n biridir.
\nSonra M\u0259mm\u0259d Bak\u0131ya g\u0259ldi, m\u0259n t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 olsam da, art\u0131q \u201c\u018fd\u0259biyyat v\u0259 inc\u0259s\u0259n\u0259t\u201d q\u0259zetind\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yirdim, kiray\u0259ni\u015fin idim, ev axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb k\u00f6m\u0259k el\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259dim v\u0259 bel\u0259likl\u0259 biz uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t Bak\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fcxt\u0259lif gu\u015f\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 \u2013 4-c\u00fc mikrorayonda, 28 May k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sind\u0259, \u0130n\u015faat\u00e7\u0131lar prospektind\u0259 bir yerd\u0259 kiray\u0259ni\u015fin qalas\u0131 olduq. \u0130ki qarda\u015f kimi. Kas\u0131b\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q, evsizlik b\u0259db\u0259xt\u00e7iliyi vard\u0131, bu g\u00fcn evli-e\u015fikli, \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259tli, az-\u00e7ox imkanl\u0131 vaxt\u0131m\u0131zdan baxanda, \u0259sl xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. \u00c7\u00fcnki ikimiz d\u0259 g\u0259nc idik, h\u0259l\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey qabaqdayd\u0131, halall\u0131qla qazand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yimiz, gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz dinclik bilm\u0259y\u0259n q\u0259l\u0259mimiz, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259 \u00fcmidimiz, yeni-yeni tan\u0131nan, dil\u0259-a\u011f\u0131za d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n bir \u201c\u015fair\u201d ad\u0131m\u0131z vard\u0131… Harda qal\u0131rd\u0131qsa, ora dostlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u2013 cavan \u015fairl\u0259rin, a\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131n y\u0131\u011fnaq yerin\u0259 \u00e7evrilirdi. ustad a\u015f\u0131qlar Mikay\u0131l Azafl\u0131, yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 Sabir \u018fhm\u0259dli, o vaxt g\u0259nc olan F\u0259rman K\u0259rimzad\u0259, Musa Yaqub, M\u0259mm\u0259d Aslan, \u0130sa \u0130smay\u0131lzad\u0259, N\u00fcsr\u0259t K\u0259s\u0259m\u0259nli, \u00c7ingiz \u018flio\u011flu, M\u00fcz\u0259ff\u0259r \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr, Telman Tovuzlu, a\u015f\u0131q \u018fkb\u0259r, a\u015f\u0131q \u0130mran tez-tez qona\u011f\u0131m\u0131z olurdular…
\n\u0130ki ayr\u0131 xasiyy\u0259tli, iddial\u0131 adam\u0131n bir yerd\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 o ill\u0259r bir roman\u0131n m\u00f6vzusudur. M\u0259n M\u0259mm\u0259dd\u0259n cavan olsam da, t\u0259rif olmas\u0131n, ondan daha s\u0259brliydim v\u0259 bu, m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rimizi h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 sabit saxlama\u011fa k\u00f6m\u0259k edirdi. H\u0259min ill\u0259rd\u0259 Tovuzdak\u0131 v\u0259 Yard\u0131ml\u0131dak\u0131 balaca evl\u0259rimizin ruhunu, d\u0259rdini Bak\u0131ya \u2013 kiray\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z otaqlara da\u015f\u0131d\u0131q v\u0259 h\u0259rd\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, m\u0259n Yard\u0131ml\u0131 il\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131, Tovuzda, M\u0259mm\u0259din \u018fsrik d\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259ki o papaq boyda evind\u0259 d\u0259 el\u0259 onunla yana\u015f\u0131 ya\u015fay\u0131b boy atm\u0131\u015fam. \u015eeirl\u0259r v\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r d\u00fcnyam\u0131z\u0131 qat\u0131b-qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. T\u0259sad\u00fcfi deyil ki, g\u00f6z\u0259l \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259n birini \u201cAna pay\u0131\u201d adland\u0131rm\u0131\u015f v\u0259 M\u0259mm\u0259di o\u011fullar\u0131ndan ay\u0131rmayan anama h\u0259sr etmi\u015fdi.
\nO vaxt, o subay, kiray\u0259ni\u015fin g\u00fcnl\u0259rimizd\u0259 \u00e7ox \u015feyl\u0259r haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259r, \u00e7ox planlar qurard\u0131q. Arzular\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n hans\u0131na \u00e7atd\u0131q, hans\u0131 qald\u0131… \u0130ndi dem\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tindir… amma, bir t\u0259s\u0259lli var ki, o ill\u0259rin ideallar\u0131n\u0131, o ideallara s\u0259daq\u0259ti, d\u00fczl\u00fcy\u00fc, halall\u0131\u011f\u0131, s\u0259mimiyy\u0259ti, V\u0259t\u0259n e\u015fqini, ali insanl\u0131q duy\u011fular\u0131n\u0131 qoruyub saxlam\u0131\u015f\u0131q.
\nM\u0259mm\u0259din ana haqq\u0131nda \u015feirl\u0259ri, \u201c\u00d6m\u00fcrd\u0259n as\u0131lan q\u0131l\u0131nclar\u201d, \u201cH\u0259l\u0259 ya\u015fama\u011fa d\u0259y\u0259r\u201d, \u201cBir d\u0259 ke\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k \u0259l\u0259 bu anlar\u201d, \u201cKimi aldad\u0131rsan, ay zal\u0131m o\u011flu\u201d, \u201cQoymay\u0131n d\u00fcnyan\u0131 adil\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259\u201d kimi \u015feirl\u0259ri poeziyam\u0131z\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131l fonduna daxil olub.
\nSonra h\u0259yat bizi ictimai hadis\u0259l\u0259rin burul\u011fan\u0131na atd\u0131, O, \u201cG\u0259nclik\u201d d\u0259rgisinin, m\u0259n \u201cAz\u0259rbaycan\u201c q\u0259zeti il\u0259 azad, demokratik s\u00f6z\u00fcn ba\u015f\u0131nda dayand\u0131q. Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n m\u00fcst\u0259qilliyi u\u011frunda \u00e7arp\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. M\u0259n M\u0259tbuat v\u0259 \u0130nformasiya naziri, o, D\u00f6vl\u0259t Televiziya v\u0259 Radio Komit\u0259sinin s\u0259dri oldu, lakin q\u0259l\u0259mimiz dayanmad\u0131, \u0259d\u0259bi v\u0259 v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015fl\u0131q m\u00f6vqel\u0259rimiz d\u0259yi\u015film\u0259di. Sonra o, \u00f6z dediyi kimi, z\u0259man\u0259d\u0259n s\u00f6z g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259kd\u0259ns\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb getdi. \u201c\u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n ba\u015fqa, Tanr\u0131dan ba\u015fqa s\u0131\u011f\u0131nacaq yeri olmayan\u201d \u015fairin s\u0259si bu d\u0259f\u0259 Dardanel bo\u011faz\u0131ndan, \u00c7anaqqala universitetind\u0259n ucald\u0131. Ordan da yolu m\u00fcxt\u0259lif \u00f6lk\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 ke\u00e7iril\u0259n \u015feir m\u0259clisl\u0259rin\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131, yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u00fcxt\u0259lif \u0259d\u0259bi m\u00fckafatlara layiq g\u00f6r\u00fcld\u00fc.
\nM\u0259mm\u0259d ac\u0131 bir insan, \u015firin v\u0259 \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259tli bir \u015fair \u00f6mr\u00fc ya\u015fad\u0131 v\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r.<\/p>\n