{"id":20170,"date":"2024-08-20T12:21:18","date_gmt":"2024-08-20T08:21:18","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=20170"},"modified":"2024-08-20T12:32:47","modified_gmt":"2024-08-20T08:32:47","slug":"nur-yolu-nusab%c9%99-%c9%99s%c9%99d-m%c9%99mm%c9%99dlinin-yeni-hekay%c9%99si","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=20170","title":{"rendered":"Nur yolu – N\u00fc\u015fab\u0259 \u018fs\u0259d M\u0259mm\u0259dlinin yeni hekay\u0259si"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a>D\u00fcn\u0259n r\u0259fiq\u0259m N\u0259rgiz m\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng edib dedi ki, i\u015fl\u0259diyi G\u0259nc\u0259 D\u00f6vl\u0259t Pedaqoji Universitetind\u0259 sabah (y\u0259ni bu g\u00fcn) Ramiz R\u00f6v\u015f\u0259nl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f ke\u00e7iril\u0259c\u0259k. Saat 12-d\u0259, b\u00f6y\u00fck akt zal\u0131nda – m\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 yer saxlayacam, g\u0259l. Etibar m\u0259nd\u0259n ayr\u0131landan sonra, dem\u0259k olar ki, he\u00e7 bir t\u0259dbir\u0259, y\u0131\u011f\u0131nca\u011fa getmirdim. \u018fslind\u0259 he\u00e7 kimin yad\u0131na da d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Bu m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yax\u015f\u0131 hal idi. Adamlardan uzaq olmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m. \u00dcnsiyy\u0259td\u0259 oldu\u011fum iki r\u0259fiq\u0259m var – biri qap\u0131bir qon\u015fum Bik\u0259 xan\u0131m – G\u0259nc\u0259 u\u015faq evinin m\u00fcdiri, dig\u0259ri universitetd\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llim olan, m\u0259ni b\u00f6y\u00fck \u015fairimizl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131ran N\u0259rgiz m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259dir.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n gec\u0259yar\u0131ya kimi i\u015fl\u0259yir\u0259m. T\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259 edir\u0259m. Sa\u011f olsunlar, Bak\u0131 D\u00f6vl\u0259t Universitetind\u0259 birg\u0259 oxudu\u011fumuz t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 yolda\u015flar\u0131m. Onlardan iki n\u0259f\u0259rin \u00f6z\u0259l n\u0259\u015friyyatlar\u0131 var. Onlar m\u0259n\u0259 ingilis v\u0259 rus dill\u0259rind\u0259n t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn kitab g\u00f6nd\u0259rirl\u0259r. \u0130\u015fimd\u0259n \u00e7ox raz\u0131d\u0131rlar.<\/p>\n

– S\u0259n y\u00fcks\u0259k s\u0259viyy\u0259li t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259\u00e7is\u0259n. M\u0259n i\u015fd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda, daha do\u011frusu, redaktoru oldu\u011fum q\u0259zetd\u0259n k\u0259narla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131landan sonra, c\u0259mi bir ay i\u015fsiz qald\u0131m. T\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 yolda\u015flar\u0131m sosial \u015f\u0259b\u0259k\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r tutub, m\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng etdil\u0259r v\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k el\u0259m\u0259k arzusunda olduqlar\u0131n\u0131 bildirdil\u0259r. M\u0259n h\u0259r iki n\u0259\u015friyyatla i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 raz\u0131l\u0131q verdim. Onlar m\u0259nim i\u015fimi layiqinc\u0259 qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndirdil\u0259r, h\u0259r t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259 etdiyim kitaba g\u00f6r\u0259 y\u00fcks\u0259k qonorar verdil\u0259r. Ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259 etdiyim rus yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 Andrey Platonovun kitab\u0131 oldu. Sabah Pol Osteri t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flayacam.<\/p>\n

T\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259\u00e7ilik a\u011f\u0131r, lakin ba\u015fa\u011fr\u0131s\u0131z i\u015fdir. He\u00e7 k\u0259s s\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259yib-dola\u015fm\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Ancaq q\u0259zetd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259, m\u0259ni \u00e7ox incidirdil\u0259r. B\u00f6y\u00fck Hadinin q\u0259brini darmada\u011f\u0131n edib, yerl\u0259-yeksan ed\u0259nd\u0259, s\u0259simi qald\u0131rd\u0131m, ba\u015f\u0131mdan vurdular. Vaxtil\u0259, daha do\u011frusu, 1920-ci ild\u0259 G\u0259nc\u0259 \u00fcsyan\u0131 zaman\u0131 Hadi \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcl\u0259nd\u0259, onu “S\u0259biskar” q\u0259biristan\u0131nda basd\u0131rd\u0131lar, 70-ci ill\u0259rin \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259, bir axund onun q\u0259brini orada tapd\u0131 v\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259r r\u0259hb\u0259rliyin\u0259 Hadiyl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 x\u0259b\u0259ri \u00e7atd\u0131rd\u0131. “Qeyb olmu\u015f” Hadinin n\u0259\u015fini q\u0259brind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, G\u0259nc\u0259 \u00e7ay\u0131 sahilind\u0259 basd\u0131rd\u0131lar. Lap sonra da, bu son ill\u0259rd\u0259 G\u0259nc\u0259 bulvar\u0131nda yenid\u0259nqurma i\u015fl\u0259ri apar\u0131landa, q\u0259bri u\u00e7urtdular. Bu hadis\u0259 bar\u0259d\u0259 qald\u0131r\u0131lan s\u0259s-k\u00fcy bats\u0131n dey\u0259, Hadiy\u0259 “S\u0259biskar”\u0131n gir\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259 simvolik q\u0259bir d\u00fcz\u0259ltdil\u0259r. Onun n\u0259\u015fini itirdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Sonra b\u00f6y\u00fck M\u0259h\u0259mm\u0259d \u018fmin R\u0259sulzad\u0259nin 1992-ci ild\u0259 va\u011fzal park\u0131nda qoyulmu\u015f abid\u0259sinin ba\u015f\u0131na torba ke\u00e7irdil\u0259r, \u0259traf\u0131na xeyli \u00e7\u0131nq\u0131l-qum t\u00f6kd\u00fcl\u0259r ki, insanlar abid\u0259y\u0259 g\u00fcl qoymas\u0131nlar.<\/p>\n

28 may \u0259r\u0259f\u0259si idi. Onda m\u0259n q\u0259zetin 1-ci s\u0259hif\u0259sind\u0259 M\u0259h\u0259mm\u0259d \u018fmin R\u0259sulzad\u0259nin b\u00f6y\u00fck portretini d\u0259rc etdim. Altdan da bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri yazd\u0131m – Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla bizi, b\u00f6y\u00fck \u00f6nd\u0259r, bu il biz s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fcl g\u0259tir\u0259 bilm\u0259dik.<\/p>\n

Q\u0259zeti \u015f\u0259h\u0259r k\u00f6\u015fkl\u0259rind\u0259n y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131lar. Q\u0259zetin \u00e7ap\u0131 dayand\u0131. M\u0259tb\u0259\u0259 m\u00fcdiri m\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng edib dedi ki, sizin q\u0259zeti \u00e7ap el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 qada\u011fa qoydular. B\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259tb\u0259\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259ri\u015f verilib. M\u0259ni i\u015f yolda\u015flar\u0131m da q\u0131nay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

“\u00dctarid xan\u0131m, niy\u0259 ham\u0131 kimi ya\u015fam\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z?<\/p>\n

Ham\u0131 nec\u0259, siz d\u0259 el\u0259. Y\u0259ni palaza b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcb, eln\u0259n s\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. R\u0259hb\u0259rlik n\u0259 deyir, onu da el\u0259m\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u015e\u0259h\u0259r viran qal\u0131r. Bax\u0131n, arxitektur binalar n\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u0259dir – s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcb, da\u011f\u0131l\u0131r. Qafqazda \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l park\u0131m\u0131z, y\u0259ni Xan ba\u011f\u0131 bu son ill\u0259rd\u0259 b\u0259rbad hala d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, balaca Venesiya kanal\u0131 quruyub, orda \u00fcz\u0259n \u00f6rd\u0259kl\u0259r yoxa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b. Ba\u011fdak\u0131 marallar, ceyranlar k\u0259silib, yeyilib. Onlar\u0131n yerind\u0259 park\u0131 sahibsiz itl\u0259r ba\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r insan, o c\u00fcml\u0259d\u0259n, u\u015faqlar bu itl\u0259rin h\u00fccumuna m\u0259ruz qal\u0131b. N\u0259di, bunlara g\u00f6z yummal\u0131y\u0131q. \u018fg\u0259r biz s\u0259simizi qald\u0131rmasaq, kimin yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k bu probleml\u0259r? N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259 ictimai i\u015ftirak\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q m\u0259rk\u0259zi v\u0259 Cavad xan fondunun n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259liyi var. Onlar\u0131n f\u0259aliyy\u0259ti n\u0259tic\u0259sind\u0259 bir \u00e7ox xeyirxah i\u015fl\u0259r g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u00fcr, o c\u00fcml\u0259d\u0259n, Q\u0259mb\u0259r H\u00fcseynlinin q\u0259brinin da\u011f\u0131d\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131 al\u0131n\u0131b. Jurnalist h\u0259mkar\u0131m susdu v\u0259 m\u0259nn\u0259n sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b getdi.<\/p>\n

Bilmir\u0259m n\u0259d\u0259n, ancaq q\u0259zetd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259diyim d\u00f6vr\u00fc \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn \u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xt \u00e7a\u011f\u0131 san\u0131ram. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 onda yan\u0131mda Etibar var idi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 Etibar olmasayd\u0131, m\u0259n \u00e7oxdan s\u0131nm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, m\u0259n\u0259n \u0259zilmi\u015fdim…<\/p>\n

Onun \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc son n\u0259f\u0259sim kimi ist\u0259yirdim. Biz onunla Bik\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n ad g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olmu\u015fduq. Etibar t\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 respublika q\u0259zetl\u0259rind\u0259n birinin b\u00f6lg\u0259 m\u00fcxbiri t\u0259yin olunmu\u015fdu. Bik\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n yolda\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 \u015f\u0259rikli biznesi vard\u0131. Bik\u0259 xan\u0131m sonralar deyirdi ki, Etibar biz\u0259 qabaqlar seyr\u0259k-seyr\u0259k g\u0259lirdi, ancaq indi s\u0259ni tan\u0131yandan sonra az qala, h\u0259r g\u00fcn g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 c\u0259hd edir. D\u00fcn\u0259n m\u0259nd\u0259n soru\u015fdu ki, \u00dctarid niy\u0259 \u0259r\u0259 getmir? M\u0259n ona cavab verdim ki, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n soru\u015faram.<\/p>\n

– Niy\u0259 \u0259r\u0259 getmirs\u0259n? – soru\u015fdu Bik\u0259 xan\u0131m.<\/p>\n

– Alan yoxdur, – dedim.<\/p>\n

Bik\u0259 xan\u0131m m\u0259nim s\u00f6zl\u0259rimi d\u0259rhal Etibara \u00e7atd\u0131rd\u0131. Ert\u0259si g\u00fcn o, bir d\u0259st\u0259 g\u00fcl v\u0259 Mont Blanc parf\u00fcm\u00fc il\u0259 evim\u0259 g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n s\u0259nn\u0259n evl\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– H\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131? – biixtiyar dedim.<\/p>\n

– M\u0259n raz\u0131yam, – ikimiz d\u0259 m\u0259nim s\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fck.<\/p>\n

Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn sonra bizim az qonaql\u0131 olan toyumuz oldu. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xt q\u0131z\u0131 sand\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Toydan sonra Etibar m\u0259ni \u00f6z ata evin\u0259 apard\u0131. B\u00f6y\u00fck bir evd\u0259 ancaq qoca bibisi ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. Ke\u00e7mi\u015fd\u0259 o kitabxana\u00e7\u0131 i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. Onun ayr\u0131 he\u00e7 k\u0259si olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, Etibar H\u0259lim\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6z evin\u0259 g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi. H\u0259lim\u0259 xan\u0131m he\u00e7 vaxt ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131 qurmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O, b\u00fct\u00fcn mehrini Etibara salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259n o ev\u0259 ayaq basanda, H\u0259lim\u0259 xan\u0131m barma\u011f\u0131ma ya\u015f\u0131lqa\u015fl\u0131 q\u0259dim \u00fcz\u00fck taxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Anamdan yadigard\u0131, – demi\u015fdi. Y\u0259ni Etibar\u0131n n\u0259n\u0259sinin yadigar\u0131. H\u0259lim\u0259 xan\u0131m g\u00f6z\u0259l s\u00fcfr\u0259 a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131, l\u00f6y\u00fcnb\u0259l\u00f6y\u00fcn yem\u0259kl\u0259r haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

H\u0259lim\u0259 xan\u0131mdan ba\u015fqa Etibar\u0131n he\u00e7 bir yax\u0131n qohumu yox idi. M\u0259n is\u0259 atam\u0131n-anam\u0131n t\u0259k q\u0131z\u0131yd\u0131m. H\u0259r ikisi m\u00fc\u0259llim idil\u0259r. Atam riyaziyyat, anam – \u0259d\u0259biyyat. Onlar\u0131 tan\u0131yan h\u0259r k\u0259s b\u00f6y\u00fck h\u00f6rm\u0259tl\u0259 an\u0131rd\u0131lar xat\u0131r\u0259l\u0259rini. H\u0259tta m\u0259ni i\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 atam d\u00fcz\u0259ltdi. X\u0259st\u0259-x\u0259st\u0259 yerli q\u0259zetin redaktorunun yan\u0131na getdi. Redaktor d\u0259d\u0259-baba qon\u015fumuz idi. \u00c7ox n\u0259cib, namuslu, qeyr\u0259tli v\u0259 m\u0259d\u0259ni insan idi. Atam ona dey\u0259n kimi q\u0131z\u0131m art\u0131q AB\u015e-dan qay\u0131d\u0131b, ancaq jurnalist kimi i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259yir, redaktor xo\u015fb\u0259xtlikd\u0259n bo\u015f olan m\u0259sul katib yerin\u0259 m\u0259ni i\u015f\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. M\u0259n universitetin son kursunda oxuyanda Az\u0259rbaycana \u00e7ox nadir hallarda g\u0259l\u0259n atam\u0131n bibisi o\u011flu, Amerikan\u0131n apar\u0131c\u0131 universitetl\u0259rinin birind\u0259 professor i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n \u0130lyas Musayev ail\u0259si il\u0259 birg\u0259 biz\u0259 g\u0259ldi. M\u0259hz onun t\u0259kidi il\u0259 magistraturan\u0131 Amerikada oxudum. \u0130lyas m\u00fc\u0259llim m\u0259n ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015ftatdan uzaq olsa da, h\u0259rd\u0259nbir yolda\u015f\u0131yla birg\u0259 yan\u0131ma g\u0259lirdi, diqq\u0259t v\u0259 qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u0259sirg\u0259mirdi. Bayramlarda m\u0259ni evl\u0259rin\u0259 apartd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Magistraturan\u0131 bitir\u0259n ili m\u0259n\u0259 Bak\u0131da neft \u015firk\u0259tl\u0259rinin birind\u0259 m\u0259tbuat xidm\u0259tind\u0259 i\u015f t\u0259klif etdil\u0259r. Ancaq valideyinl\u0259rim x\u0259st\u0259 olduqlar\u0131ndan, G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259 jurnalist kimi qal\u0131b i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259yim\u0259 q\u0259rar verdim. H\u0259min il h\u0259m atas\u0131z, h\u0259m d\u0259 anas\u0131z qald\u0131m. Sonralar Etibar\u0131n k\u00f6m\u0259yi il\u0259 \u00f6z m\u00fcst\u0259qil q\u0259zetimi a\u00e7d\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Etibardan ayr\u0131landan sonra, \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 \u00e7ox basq\u0131lar oldu – “Bu n\u0259 m\u0259qal\u0259dir?” “Siz g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u0259n i\u015fl\u0259ri t\u0259rifl\u0259m\u0259k \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259, bu i\u015fl\u0259ri pisl\u0259yirsiniz, r\u0259hb\u0259rliyin g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc i\u015fl\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 k\u00f6lg\u0259 sal\u0131rs\u0131z” v\u0259 sair v\u0259 ilax\u0131r. N\u0259hay\u0259t, q\u0259zetimin n\u0259\u015fri dayand\u0131. H\u0259rd\u0259nbir q\u0259zeti, i\u015f\u00e7il\u0259rimizi yuxuda g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. Q\u0259lbimi bir rahatl\u0131q b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcr. Uy\u011fular\u0131mda Etibar\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m ki, he\u00e7 olmasa, yuxular\u0131mda bir ne\u00e7\u0259 an xo\u015fb\u0259xt olum. Bik\u0259 xan\u0131m he\u00e7 vaxt m\u0259nim yan\u0131mda onun bar\u0259sind\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t a\u00e7m\u0131r. Etibar onun \u0259rinin \u0259n yax\u0131n dostudur. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259n onlarda olanda, Bik\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n yolda\u015f\u0131 telefonda onnan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 – m\u0259ni g\u00f6rc\u0259k telefonla o biri ota\u011fa ke\u00e7di, f\u0259q\u0259t, m\u0259n onun s\u0259sini e\u015fitdim.<\/p>\n

– T\u0259brik edir\u0259m, Etibar. Ad\u0131n\u0131 n\u0259 qoydunuz? Aydan? G\u00f6z\u0259l add\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f\u0131mda bir u\u011fultu yarand\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7\u0259ri iki fincan q\u0259hv\u0259 il\u0259 gir\u0259n Bik\u0259 xan\u0131m – s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 oldu? R\u0259ngin a\u011fappaqd\u0131r. M\u0259n\u0259 bir d\u0259n\u0259 aspirin g\u0259tirdi. – Al a\u011fz\u0131nda saxla, udma. Q\u0259hv\u0259ni sonra i\u00e7\u0259rs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ki, m\u0259nim d\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n ad\u0131 Aydan ola bil\u0259rdi, ancaq f\u0259l\u0259k qoymad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Biz evliliyimizin 9-cu ilind\u0259 Etibarla q\u0259rara g\u0259ldik ki, m\u0259nim probleml\u0259rim ucbat\u0131ndan ana ola bilm\u0259diyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, s\u00fcni mayalanma \u00fcsulu il\u0259 bir u\u015faq valideyni olaq. M\u0259n d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 Bak\u0131da, Tbilisid\u0259, Moskvada m\u00fcayin\u0259 v\u0259 m\u00fcalic\u0259 olunmu\u015fdum. Hamil\u0259 qala bilmirdim. Etibar\u0131n Bak\u0131dak\u0131 qohumlar\u0131ndan olan professor m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t bildi ki, EKO ed\u0259k. Bu, yegan\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f yoludur. N\u0259hay\u0259t, h\u0259r ikimiz raz\u0131l\u0131q verdik. EKO ba\u015f tutanda, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xt qad\u0131n\u0131 sand\u0131m. H\u0259lim\u0259 xan\u0131m m\u0259ni h\u0259r c\u00fcr qay\u011f\u0131yla \u0259hat\u0259 el\u0259mi\u015fdi. Bik\u0259 xan\u0131m da \u0259riyl\u0259, universitetd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n r\u0259fiq\u0259m N\u0259rgiz d\u0259 h\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259 2-3 d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259kirdil\u0259r. Lakin m\u0259n\u0259 ana olmaq qism\u0259t olmad\u0131. Hamil\u0259liyimin yeddinci ay\u0131nda m\u0259n balam\u0131 itirdim. Kesar \u0259m\u0259liyyat\u0131 k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259 bilm\u0259di. M\u0259n \u00e7ox qan itirmi\u015fdim, ancaq e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 ki, q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 m\u0259nd\u0259n ay\u0131r\u0131b aparmaq ist\u0259yirl\u0259r, q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

– D\u0259ym\u0259yin balama, onu m\u0259n\u0259 verin.<\/p>\n

Balam h\u0259l\u0259 isti idi. M\u0259n onun balaca v\u00fccudunu k\u00f6ks\u00fcm\u0259 s\u0131xd\u0131m. M\u0259n\u0259 iyn\u0259 vurdular. Sonralar balam\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259 n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 beynimd\u0259 \u0130rad\u0259 Aytelin misralar\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259ndi – bu d\u00fcnyada m\u0259n yetim\u0259m, o d\u00fcnyada balam yetim…<\/p>\n

M\u0259n o m\u0259\u015fhur klinikadan \u00e7\u0131xanda bildim ki, art\u0131q m\u0259nim i\u00e7im yoxdur. H\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131 xilas etm\u0259k namin\u0259, m\u0259nim qad\u0131n orqanlar\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131blar.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259, Etibar\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. O m\u0259nim aln\u0131mdan \u00f6pd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

– \u018fsas s\u0259nin sa\u011f qalma\u011f\u0131nd\u0131r. M\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yan\u0131mda s\u0259nin n\u0259f\u0259sini e\u015fitm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Ac\u0131-ac\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259dim – \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn xo\u015fb\u0259xt \u00e7a\u011flar\u0131nda o deyirdi ki, \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck arzum ata olmaq v\u0259 \u015eu\u015fan\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259kdir.<\/p>\n

Sonra m\u0259n a\u011flad\u0131m. Tibb bac\u0131s\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 sakitl\u0259\u015fdirici iyn\u0259 vurdu. Yatd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra G\u0259nc\u0259y\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131q. Gec\u0259l\u0259rin birind\u0259 H\u0259lim\u0259 xan\u0131mla Etibar\u0131n aynab\u0259ndd\u0259 olan s\u00f6hb\u0259tini e\u015fitdim. Yataq ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131n bir p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259si aynab\u0259nd\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Ayna a\u00e7\u0131q idi. Onu \u00f6rtm\u0259k yaddan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Bibi, m\u0259n onu \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir\u0259m. M\u0259n ondan ayr\u0131lmaq ist\u0259m\u0259r\u0259m. \u00dctarid \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 insand\u0131r, yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 q\u0131zd\u0131r. Onu b\u0259db\u0259xt el\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259r\u0259m. Onun m\u0259nd\u0259n ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 k\u0259si yoxdur.<\/p>\n

– Ay o\u011ful, m\u0259n d\u0259 onu \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Allaha and olsun, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxa bilmir\u0259m. Bu n\u0259 m\u00fcsib\u0259tdir, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za g\u0259ldi. Ancaq ist\u0259mir\u0259m s\u0259n sonsuz qalasan, t\u0259k qarda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n yurdu bo\u015f qala.<\/p>\n

Ota\u011f\u0131ma t\u00fcst\u00fc doldu. Hiss etdim ki, Etibar siqaret \u00e7\u0259kir.<\/p>\n

T\u0259xmin\u0259n, bir aydan sonra, Etibar Bak\u0131ya d\u0259v\u0259t ald\u0131. Ona M\u0259tbuat \u015euras\u0131nda i\u015f t\u0259klif etmi\u015fdil\u0259r. O, m\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 aparmaq ist\u0259di. Getm\u0259dim. Dedim ki, sonra g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m. S\u0259n icar\u0259y\u0259 ev tapanda, g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m. M\u0259n ona dem\u0259k ist\u0259diyimi dey\u0259 bilmirdim. G\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m m\u0259ni bo\u011furdu. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ona s\u0259sli ismar\u0131c yollad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

– “M\u0259n ist\u0259yir\u0259m s\u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xt olasan. \u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m, ata olasan. \u00c7ox ist\u0259yir\u0259m bunu. \u0130st\u0259mir\u0259m s\u0259n m\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259s\u0259n. He\u00e7 vaxt m\u0259ni axtarma. M\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131r s\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259k. M\u0259ni \u0259zaba d\u00fc\u00e7ar el\u0259m\u0259. Sad\u0259c\u0259, s\u0259nin ad\u0131n da dilimi yand\u0131r\u0131r. Qurban olum, g\u0259lm\u0259 m\u0259nim yan\u0131ma, yax\u015f\u0131m\u0131?<\/p>\n

Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, \u00f6mr\u00fcmd\u0259 Etibar adl\u0131 uzun s\u00fcr\u0259n bir bahar olub. Allah qorusun s\u0259ni!”<\/p>\n

Bu s\u0259s ismar\u0131c\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259nd\u0259n sonra bir az sakitl\u0259\u015fdim. Ancaq he\u00e7 iki g\u00fcn ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015f, q\u0259zetim ba\u011fland\u0131.<\/p>\n

28 may \u0259r\u0259f\u0259si idi. Bu bahar \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn \u0259n soyuq bahar\u0131 oldu.<\/p>\n

Saata baxd\u0131m. Ramiz R\u00f6v\u015f\u0259nl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 vaxt var idi. M\u0259n q\u0259hv\u0259 bi\u015firdim, q\u0259nd qatmadan i\u00e7dim. Sonra du\u015f q\u0259bul el\u0259dim. \u015ekafdan paltar g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm Etibar\u0131n vaxtil\u0259 Parisd\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 Chanel donuna sata\u015fd\u0131. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ki, m\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt n\u0259 bu ya\u015f\u0131l paltar\u0131, n\u0259 d\u0259 H\u0259lim\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131l qa\u015fl\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fc taxa bil\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. He\u00e7 MontBlanc parf\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt i\u015fl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. Etibar art\u0131q \u00fc\u00e7 ildir ki, ba\u015fqa bir qad\u0131n\u0131n \u0259ridir. Ayr\u0131lma\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdan iki il sonra evl\u0259ndi. M\u0259n bo\u015fanma \u0259riz\u0259mi onun elektron po\u00e7t \u00fcnvan\u0131na g\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015fdim.<\/p>\n

Art\u0131q 12-in yar\u0131s\u0131 idi. Tez paltar\u0131m\u0131 geyinib, taksi sifari\u015f verdim.<\/p>\n

A\u015fa\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 bir qad\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 salam verib, soru\u015fdu: – Siz m\u0259ni tan\u0131mad\u0131n\u0131z, \u00dctarid xan\u0131m? M\u0259n sizin qon\u015funuzam d\u0259, el\u0259 burada, 1-ci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131ram.<\/p>\n

– Yox tan\u0131mad\u0131m, – ancaq s\u0259si tan\u0131\u015f g\u0259ldi. Nara idi, rentgenoloq idi. Sif\u0259ti d\u0259, b\u0259d\u0259ni d\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi. \u0130ndi onun iri dodaqlar\u0131, f\u0131nd\u0131q boyda burnu, enli, qal\u0131n qa\u015flar\u0131 vard\u0131. B\u0259d\u0259ni d\u0259 sanki ayr\u0131 bi\u00e7imd\u0259 idi, el\u0259 bil yonulmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

Telefonuma taksiyl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 s\u0259s g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n

Naraynan sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Biz h\u0259r ax\u015fam yax\u0131nl\u0131qdak\u0131 parkda Bik\u0259 xan\u0131mla he\u00e7 olmasa, 2 saatl\u0131q g\u0259zintiy\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xanda, h\u0259rd\u0259n Nara da biz\u0259 qo\u015fulurdu. Onda normal bi\u00e7imd\u0259, cavan, xo\u015fsif\u0259t bir qad\u0131n idi. \u0130ndi m\u0259n ondan h\u00fcrkd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n taksiy\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259, s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc d\u0259rhal maqnitofonu qurdu. Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n salonunu k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 cavanlar\u0131n tez-tez oxuduqlar\u0131 – “can-canad\u0131r, can hoppa” mahn\u0131s\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

– Z\u0259hm\u0259t olmasa, musiqini s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcn. Beynim\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

Universitet\u0259 vaxt\u0131nda \u00e7atd\u0131m. Universitetin qaba\u011f\u0131 q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259lik idi. R\u0259fiq\u0259m N\u0259rgiz m\u0259ni qar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131 v\u0259 orta c\u0259rg\u0259d\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdirdi. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 yan\u0131mda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi. Ramiz R\u00f6v\u015f\u0259n zala daxil olanda, ham\u0131 aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. \u015eairimiz g\u00fcl ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131na q\u0259rq oldu. \u00c7ox maraql\u0131 ke\u00e7di g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f. Sonra h\u0259r k\u0259s xatir\u0259 olaraq onunla \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259kdirm\u0259k ist\u0259di. M\u0259n r\u0259fiq\u0259ml\u0259 sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. Qulaqlar\u0131mda \u015fairimizin:<\/p>\n

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“Bu yerl\u0259ri, bu g\u00f6yl\u0259ri<\/p>\n

Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f yuyur, g\u00fcn qurudur.<\/p>\n

Bu d\u00fcnyada \u00e7ox \u015feyl\u0259ri<\/p>\n

Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f yuyur, g\u00fcn qurudur”,<\/p>\n

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– misralar\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 ki adamlar Ramiz R\u00f6v\u015f\u0259n\u0259 qulaq as\u0131r, onu oxuyur, – dem\u0259k, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n sonu uzaqd\u0131r.<\/p>\n

D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ki, hava isti d\u0259 olsa, piyada gedim evim\u0259. Yolumu Xan ba\u011f\u0131ndan sald\u0131m. Bils\u0259ydim ki, orada m\u0259n Etibar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259m, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 son d\u0259f\u0259, he\u00e7 vaxt Xan ba\u011f\u0131na ayaq basmazd\u0131m. Ne\u00e7\u0259 ill\u0259rdir ki, m\u0259n evd\u0259n k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131ram. “Bazar Store” ma\u011fazas\u0131n\u0131n filial\u0131 h\u0259y\u0259timizd\u0259dir. N\u0259s\u0259 laz\u0131m olanda 15 d\u0259qiq\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb el\u0259 oradan al\u0131ram. Ancaq \u015f\u0259r qar\u0131\u015fanda Bik\u0259 xan\u0131mla, h\u0259rd\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n N\u0259rgizl\u0259 yan\u0131m\u0131zdak\u0131 xiyabanda iki saat \u0259rzind\u0259 g\u0259zirik. Bik\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131 ail\u0259siyl\u0259 Monakoda, o\u011flu is\u0259 ail\u0259siyl\u0259 Londonda ya\u015fay\u0131rlar. Bik\u0259 xan\u0131m m\u0259nd\u0259n 15 ya\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fcr. N\u0259rgiz ya\u015f\u0131d\u0131md\u0131r, bir sinifd\u0259 oxumu\u015fuq. O, ail\u0259 qurmay\u0131b.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n Xan ba\u011f\u0131na gir\u0259nd\u0259, bir balaca q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131, iki ya\u015f\u0131 olard\u0131, ba\u015f xiyabanla z\u0259if add\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131 at\u0131rd\u0131. El\u0259 bil m\u0259nim yan\u0131ma g\u0259lirdi. M\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fanda bird\u0259n skamyan\u0131n arxas\u0131ndan bir it u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259ldi. M\u0259n c\u0259ld u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131ma ald\u0131m. K\u00f6rp\u0259 q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz a\u011flad\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 boynuna s\u0131xd\u0131, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7iyinl\u0259rim\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f qara sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 gizl\u0259tdi.<\/p>\n

– \u00dctarid? – Etibar\u0131n r\u0259ngi avaz\u0131m\u0131\u015fd\u0131. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131mdan g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259ri \u0259lim\u0259 toxundu. B\u00fct\u00fcn cismim \u0259sdi. B\u00fct\u00fcn v\u00fccudumu bir a\u011fr\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Skamyada qara sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259nimki kimi \u00e7iynin\u0259 t\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f bir g\u0259nc qad\u0131n \u0259yl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 dolan alatoranl\u0131q i\u00e7ind\u0259 m\u0259n onu tan\u0131d\u0131m – Etibar\u0131n arvad\u0131, m\u0259\u015fhur teleapar\u0131c\u0131 idi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n az qala, m\u00fcvazin\u0259timi itir\u0259c\u0259kdim. D\u0259rhal Xan ba\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. Xo\u015fb\u0259xtlikd\u0259n \u018f\u015fr\u0259f Yusifzad\u0259 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sind\u0259n m\u0259nim evim istiqam\u0259tind\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n avtobusu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. \u018flimi qald\u0131rd\u0131m. S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 saxlad\u0131. Ev\u0259 gir\u0259nd\u0259, d\u0259rhal “ketotifen” atd\u0131m ki, yat\u0131m, i\u00e7imd\u0259ki \u0259zab\u0131, a\u011fr\u0131n\u0131 hiss etm\u0259yim. M\u0259n ancaq s\u0259h\u0259r alatoranl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda oyand\u0131m. Telefonumu s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm dey\u0259, he\u00e7 k\u0259sin, o c\u00fcml\u0259d\u0259n, Bik\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n, N\u0259rgizin z\u0259ngl\u0259rini e\u015fitm\u0259mi\u015fdim. Ba\u015f\u0131mda bir a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131q vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

Q\u0259hv\u0259 i\u00e7ib, Pol Osteri t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

S\u0259h\u0259r q\u0259lyanalt\u0131 vaxt\u0131 Bik\u0259 xan\u0131m g\u0259ldi yan\u0131ma. S\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259\u015fdik. Etibardan dan\u0131\u015fanda, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc saxlaya bilm\u0259dim, a\u011flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Onda m\u0259n bilmirdim ki, a\u011flamal\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fcm h\u0259l\u0259 qabaqdad\u0131r…<\/p>\n

Art\u0131q pay\u0131z idi. Yarpaq t\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fc ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bik\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n s\u00f6yl\u0259diyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, Etibar arvad\u0131, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 \u015eu\u015faya getmi\u015fdi. (\u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ki, \u00e7ox \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, Etibar\u0131n bu arzusu da h\u0259yata ke\u00e7di). Geri qay\u0131danda, Yevlax yolunda onun ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bir s\u0259rxo\u015f s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc ucbat\u0131ndan q\u0259zaya u\u011frad\u0131. Etibar da, h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 da h\u0259lak oldular. U\u015faq salamat qal\u0131b. Ancaq qolu z\u0259d\u0259 al\u0131b. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131 t\u0259cili yard\u0131m x\u0259st\u0259xanas\u0131na g\u0259tiribl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Tifil\u0259 he\u00e7 k\u0259s yax\u0131n durmur. Anas\u0131 u\u015faq evind\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb, he\u00e7 k\u0259si yoxdur. Etibar\u0131n da \u0259n yax\u0131n qohumu 75 ya\u015fl\u0131 bibisi H\u0259lim\u0259dir. O da endokrinologiya dispanserind\u0259 qeydiyyata al\u0131n\u0131b. Lap ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 itirmi\u015f\u0259m. Bilmir\u0259m, o u\u015fa\u011fa nec\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k edim. M\u0259n sanki donmu\u015fdum. Bik\u0259 xan\u0131m dedi ki, \u00e7al\u0131\u015f, a\u011fla, \u00fcr\u0259yin bir az rahatlans\u0131n.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n ona he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259dim. Ba\u015f\u0131mda bir a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131q vard\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rim biixtiyar yumulurdu.<\/p>\n

– Yax\u015f\u0131 s\u0259n yat, ax\u015fam dan\u0131\u015far\u0131q, – Bik\u0259 xan\u0131m qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rt\u00fcb getdi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n paltar\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b du\u015fa girdim v\u0259 m\u0259ni d\u0259li bir a\u011flamaq tutdu. Sonra iri m\u0259hr\u0259baya b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcb, divanda uzand\u0131m. Yuxuda g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, ucu-buca\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259n bir s\u0259hradayam. Bu s\u0259hrada n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 insanlar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 q\u0131l\u0131ncla vurub, \u0259v\u0259zind\u0259 yax\u0131nl\u0131qdak\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcd\u0259n qoyun k\u0259sib, ba\u015flar\u0131 vurulmu\u015flar\u0131n \u00e7iynin\u0259 yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rlar. Sonra bir \u015fit musiqi \u00e7al\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z ba\u015flar\u0131 qoyun ba\u015flar\u0131yla \u0259v\u0259z olunan adamlar bu havaya oynay\u0131rd\u0131lar. M\u0259nim d\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 k\u0259sm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259, m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u00fcc g\u0259lir ki, \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n qurtuluram, lakin hans\u0131 ba\u015fk\u0259s\u0259ns\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259, a\u011fz\u0131ma dumbuz vurur. \u00dcz\u00fcm qan-q\u0259ltana q\u0259rq olur. \u00dcz\u00fcmd\u0259n axan qan t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcb bir qanl\u0131 c\u0131\u011f\u0131r a\u00e7\u0131r. M\u0259n bu c\u0131\u011f\u0131rla qa\u00e7anda qanl\u0131 c\u0131\u011f\u0131r nur yoluna d\u00f6n\u00fcr. V\u0259 bu yolda m\u0259n Aydan\u0131 – Etibar\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. O, m\u0259ni qucaqlay\u0131b, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7iynim\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n qara sa\u00e7lar\u0131m aras\u0131nda gizl\u0259dir. Biz onunla Nur yoluyla add\u0131mlay\u0131r\u0131q.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n yuxudan oyananda, h\u0259l\u0259 \u015f\u0259r qar\u0131\u015fmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259l\u0259 saat 5 yox idi. Bik\u0259 xan\u0131ma z\u0259ng edib dedim – Etibar\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr\u0259m. Onu do\u011fma balam kimi b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u0259c\u0259m. Ged\u0259k, indi g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259k x\u0259st\u0259xanadan. S\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259\u015fm\u0259ni sabah ed\u0259rik.<\/p>\n

Biz x\u0259st\u0259xanaya \u00e7atanda, i\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fc qurtarmaq \u00fczr\u0259 idi. Aydan yatan palataya ke\u00e7dik. O \u00e7arpay\u0131da oturmu\u015fdu. El\u0259 bil kimis\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. M\u0259n Aydan\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131ma ald\u0131m. O, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sin\u0259m\u0259 qoydu, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7iyinl\u0259rim\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n sa\u00e7lar\u0131m aras\u0131nda gizl\u0259tdi. Bir an g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm yuxunu xat\u0131rlad\u0131m. Aydanla Nur yolu il\u0259 add\u0131mlay\u0131r\u0131q.<\/p>\n

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5 avqust 2024<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

G\u0259nc\u0259<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

M\u0259nb\u0259: “\u018fd\u0259biyyat q\u0259zeti”<\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 63 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

D\u00fcn\u0259n r\u0259fiq\u0259m N\u0259rgiz m\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng edib dedi ki, i\u015fl\u0259diyi G\u0259nc\u0259 D\u00f6vl\u0259t Pedaqoji Universitetind\u0259 sabah (y\u0259ni bu g\u00fcn) Ramiz R\u00f6v\u015f\u0259nl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f ke\u00e7iril\u0259c\u0259k. Saat 12-d\u0259, b\u00f6y\u00fck akt zal\u0131nda – m\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 yer saxlayacam, g\u0259l. Etibar m\u0259nd\u0259n ayr\u0131landan sonra, dem\u0259k olar ki, he\u00e7 bir t\u0259dbir\u0259, y\u0131\u011f\u0131nca\u011fa getmirdim. \u018fslind\u0259 he\u00e7 kimin yad\u0131na da d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Bu m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yax\u015f\u0131 hal […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":8632,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20170"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=20170"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20170\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":20171,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20170\/revisions\/20171"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/8632"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=20170"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=20170"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=20170"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}