{"id":20245,"date":"2024-08-29T10:16:19","date_gmt":"2024-08-29T06:16:19","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=20245"},"modified":"2024-08-29T10:16:19","modified_gmt":"2024-08-29T06:16:19","slug":"%c9%99zizaga-elsev%c9%99r-yeddinci-otagin-sirri","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=20245","title":{"rendered":"\u018fziza\u011fa Elsev\u0259r – Yeddinci ota\u011f\u0131n sirri"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a>Hekay\u0259<\/p>\n

\u00dc\u00e7 il\u0259 yax\u0131n idi ki, \u0130lqar Al\u0259mtab\u0131n \u201cRuhlar\u0131n imtahan\u0131\u201d povesti \u201cCanbaycan\u201d jurnal\u0131nda yat\u0131b qal\u0131rd\u0131. \u00dcst\u00fcnd\u0259 \u201c\u00c7apa ged\u0259c\u0259k yaz\u0131lar\u201d s\u00f6zl\u0259ri yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6y r\u0259ngli qovluq ay\u0131n \u0259vv\u0259lind\u0259 \u015fi\u015fib, k\u0259m\u0259ri g\u00fccl\u0259 ba\u011flan\u0131r, ay\u0131n sonunda ar\u0131qlay\u0131b namnazik \u00e7\u00f6p\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ancaq h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 o qovlu\u011fun lap alt\u0131nda \u0130lqar\u0131n povesti, n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 yat\u0131b qal\u0131rd\u0131. Sanki yadd s\u0259rh\u0259ddi idi, toxunmaq olmazd\u0131. Niy\u0259, n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, \u0130lqara da bu \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131. El\u0259 bil susuz, d\u0259rin v\u0259 dibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259n qaranl\u0131q bir quyuya salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Soru\u015fanda, bir b\u0259han\u0259 tapma\u011fa n\u0259 var, h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 bir \u015fey uydururdular. Filank\u0259sin yubileyidir, b\u0259hm\u0259nk\u0259s\u0259 m\u00fckafat veribl\u0259r, daha n\u0259 bilim, n\u0259l\u0259r, n\u0259l\u0259r. G\u00fcnl\u0259r yel qanadl\u0131 olub \u00f6t\u00fcr, ay dolan\u0131r, ill\u0259r \u00f6m\u00fcrd\u0259n bir yarpaq qopar\u0131b apar\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130lqar\u0131n i\u015f yeri, d\u0259rs dediyi ali m\u0259kt\u0259b jurnal\u0131n yolu \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 oldu\u011fundan arada, yada d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 redaksiyaya g\u0259lm\u0259yi d\u0259 unutmurdu. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 e\u015fitdiyi eyni s\u00f6zl\u0259r onun \u0259hval\u0131n\u0131 pozur v\u0259 h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 s\u00f6z verirdi ki, daha ora ayaq basmayacaq. Ancaq n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 bacarm\u0131r, i\u00e7ind\u0259ki ist\u0259yin \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n tutub, k\u00f6n\u00fcls\u00fcz-k\u00f6n\u00fcls\u00fcz 168 pill\u0259k\u0259ni adlay\u0131b, d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259ki redaksiyaya daxil olurdu. \u018fll\u0259rind\u0259n siqareti d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259n, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259zabke\u015f, mill\u0259t d\u0259rdi \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n kimi g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n, \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 doda\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda \u201c siqaret yox, mill\u0259t d\u0259rdi \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m\u201d- deyib m\u0131z\u0131ldanan ba\u015f redaktor Qisas Qiyam\u0259tzad\u0259 soyuq, saxta t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yib, dilinin \u0259zb\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7evrilmi\u015f, m\u0259ntiqsiz, bo\u015f-bo\u015f s\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fcb t\u00f6k\u00fcrd\u00fc. Yalan\u0131 q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131-q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131, ytan\u0131b \u00e7\u0259kinm\u0259d\u0259n el\u0259 deyirdi ki, az qal\u0131rd\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 inans\u0131n.<\/p>\n

O g\u00fcn \u0130lqar Al\u0259mtab \u201cSahil\u201d metrosunun qaba\u011f\u0131ndan azac\u0131q ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi ki, arxadan e\u015fidil\u0259n tan\u0131\u015f s\u0259s\u0259 dayand\u0131: -Oo-o! G\u00f6z\u0259l insan, g\u00f6z\u0259l yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131, etibarl\u0131 dost. N\u0259 olub, qarda\u015f\u0131m, g\u00f6r ha vaxtd\u0131r imzan g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcr. N\u0259 tez yoruldun… q\u0259l\u0259mmi etibars\u0131z \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131?! Yox, b\u0259lk\u0259 s\u0259nmi, n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 bezikib durdun…<\/p>\n

\u0130lqar Al\u0259mtab qanr\u0131l\u0131b arxaya baxd\u0131. Tan\u0131d\u0131. \u00dc\u00e7 il bundan qabaq povestini jurnala ver\u0259rk\u0259n tan\u0131\u015f olmu\u015fdular. Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 V\u00fcqar Qara\u00e7ayl\u0131 idi. Pis yazm\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00fcslubu, d\u0259st-x\u0259tti var idi. Se\u00e7diyi m\u00f6vzular da pis deyildi. Tan\u0131\u015f olduqlar\u0131 vaxtdan \u201cCanbaycan\u201d jurnal\u0131nda bir povesti, \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259 hekay\u0259si getmi\u015fdi. Xo\u015f c\u0259h\u0259ti o idi ki, q\u0131l\u0131ql\u0131yd\u0131, adama tez qaynay\u0131b-qar\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

– Yox, qarda\u015f, q\u0259l\u0259mi g\u00fcnahland\u0131rmayaq! Q\u0259l\u0259m etibars\u0131z deyil, m\u0259n d\u0259 unutqan. – \u0130lqar Al\u0259mtab a\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r dill\u0259ndi:- H\u0259r g\u00fcn q\u0259l\u0259ml\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131q. Etibarl\u0131 sirda\u015fd\u0131r. \u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259ri, b\u0259z\u0259n dilim\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259dikl\u0259rimi k\u0259lm\u0259-k\u0259lm\u0259 i\u00e7imd\u0259n qopar\u0131b m\u0259n\u0259 qaytar\u0131r. Gec\u0259nin \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n tutub, qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n qoynundan m\u0259n\u0259 i\u015f\u0131q g\u00f6nd\u0259rir…<\/p>\n

– B\u0259s onda niy\u0259, niy\u0259 imzan qa\u00e7aq d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb? \u00d6z\u00fcn de, b\u0259lk\u0259… h\u0259\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn bil\u0259-bil\u0259 l\u0259ngidirs\u0259n ki, kiml\u0259rs\u0259 d\u0259 dar\u0131x\u0131b s\u0259ni axtars\u0131nlar?!<\/p>\n

– \u018fslin\u0259 baxsan, vallah, he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 bilmir\u0259m, \u00e7ap i\u015find\u0259 niy\u0259 l\u0259ngiyir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– N\u0259 olar, bir az q\u0131l\u0131ql\u0131 olsan, zir\u0259ng, bacar\u0131ql\u0131 t\u0259rp\u0259ns\u0259n d\u00fcnya u\u00e7ub da\u011f\u0131lmaz ki?! Bu m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259td\u0259 istedad h\u0259l\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey dem\u0259k deyil ax\u0131, atam balas\u0131. \u018fslin\u0259 qalsa, he\u00e7 istedada baxan da yoxdur. Z\u0259man\u0259yl\u0259 ayaqla\u015fmasan, onun dilini d\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. Quru b\u0259ylikl\u0259 bostan suvar\u0131lmaz. \u018fkdikl\u0259rin quru z\u0259hm\u0259tl\u0259 d\u0259 bat\u0131b ged\u0259r. G\u00f6z\u00fca\u00e7\u0131q olsan, g\u00f6r\u0259rs\u0259n ki, o biril\u0259r neynir, hans\u0131 dolaylardan ke\u00e7ib gedir. S\u0259n m\u0259ni he\u00e7 g\u00f6rm\u0259mis\u0259n, he\u00e7 m\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 bir s\u00f6z d\u0259 dem\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Ancaq qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259ri g\u0259tir, s\u0259n\u0259 bir sirr verim. Burda, – V\u00fcqar Qara\u00e7ayl\u0131 bir q\u0259d\u0259r susub, \u0259liyl\u0259 d\u0259niz t\u0259r\u0259fi g\u00f6st\u0259rdi: – D\u0259nizin sahilind\u0259 \u201cQa\u011fay\u0131\u201d kafesi var. Onun da 7-ci ota\u011f\u0131. O i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131, d\u0259niz dal\u011falar\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259si apayd\u0131n e\u015fidil\u0259n o ota\u011fa \u00e7ox vaxt Qisas Qiyam\u0259tzad\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131 da deyirl\u0259r. Be\u015f, ya alt\u0131 n\u0259f\u0259r olurlar. Ham\u0131s\u0131 da yeyib-i\u00e7\u0259n, kefl\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 unudan. Ay\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcnl\u0259ri oran\u0131 ba\u011flatd\u0131r\u0131rlar. \u0130nzibat\u00e7\u0131 var, ad\u0131na da Q\u0259q\u0259ni deyirl\u0259r. El\u0259 bir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n Qiyam\u0259tzad\u0259y\u0259 qohumdur. \u018fsil ad\u0131 Q\u0259hr\u0259mand\u0131r. Ancaq Q\u0259q\u0259ni ad\u0131na o q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fib ki, el\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131randa he\u00e7 k\u00fcs\u00fcb incimir d\u0259. Vaxt\u0131 itirm\u0259d\u0259n ged\u0259rs\u0259n ora, Q\u0259q\u0259niy\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b, \u201c7-ci ota\u011f\u0131n siyah\u0131s\u0131na m\u0259ni d\u0259 yaz!\u201d- dey\u0259rs\u0259n. Gerisiyl\u0259\u00a0 i\u015fin olmaz. Niy\u0259 g\u0259ldiyini o yax\u015f\u0131 bilir. He\u00e7 n\u0259 soru\u015fmadan ad\u0131n\u0131 siyah\u0131ya salacaq, vaxt\u0131 da d\u0259qiq s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Y\u0259qin ki, ay\u0131n ax\u0131r\u0131 olar. B\u00fct\u00fcn x\u0259rcl\u0259ri s\u0259n \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n, art\u0131qlamas\u0131yla. Zarafat deyil, bo\u015f olanda da o ota\u011fa kimis\u0259 buraxm\u0131rlar ki, bird\u0259n onun h\u00fczuru pozular, s\u0259liq\u0259-sahman\u0131na x\u0259l\u0259l g\u0259l\u0259r. H\u0259\u0259, ged\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 onlar\u0131 taksiyl\u0259 yola salacaqsan. L\u00fcl-q\u0259nb\u0259r olacaqlar, yax\u015f\u0131 deyil, yoxsa yolda y\u0131x\u0131l\u0131b \u00f6zl\u0259rini biab\u0131r ed\u0259rl\u0259r. N\u0259 gizl\u0259dim, bu k\u00f6rp\u00fcd\u0259n m\u0259n d\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259m. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259, n\u0259 az, n\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7ox, d\u00fcz iki d\u0259f\u0259! Neyl\u0259m\u0259k olar, \u0259m\u0259l onlar\u0131nd\u0131r, h\u0259l\u0259 ki, s\u00f6z sahibi d\u0259 onlard\u0131r. R\u0259zillik olsa da, bu al\u00e7aql\u0131\u011fa d\u00f6zm\u0259lis\u0259n. \u018fn az\u0131, tan\u0131nana q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00f6zm\u0259lis\u0259n. Ax\u0131 onlar kimdir? Ortal\u0131qda n\u0259l\u0259ri var? He\u00e7 d\u00fcz-ax\u0131ll\u0131, yadda qalas\u0131 yaz\u0131lar\u0131 da yoxdur. D\u00fcn\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r onun-bunun qaba\u011f\u0131na qa\u00e7\u0131b yalmanm\u0131rd\u0131larm\u0131?! Meydan bo\u015fdur, f\u00fcrs\u0259t \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb. H\u0259l\u0259 ki, a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 ba\u015flarda qoz s\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131rlar. Dedikl\u0259rin\u0259 uymasan ba\u015f\u0131n \u00e7ox b\u0259lalar \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259k, yollar\u0131n he\u00e7 d\u0259 qolay olmayacaq. G\u00f6zl\u0259diyin \u00fc\u00e7 il n\u0259dir ki,\u00a0 laz\u0131m g\u0259ls\u0259, lap on \u00fc\u00e7 il d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259r. Utanmasan oynama\u011fa n\u0259 var ki?! Raz\u0131la\u015fmasan \u00fcmidl\u0259rini q\u0131racaq, i\u00e7ini s\u00f6k\u00fcb, \u0259n pak, \u0259n t\u0259miz hissl\u0259rini, duy\u011fular\u0131n\u0131 da bo\u011facaqlar. Onlardan soru\u015fan g\u0259r\u0259k, b\u0259s han\u0131 \u0259d\u0259biyyatdak\u0131 t\u0259mizlik, g\u00f6z\u0259llik? Bel\u0259mi b\u00f6y\u00fck \u0259d\u0259biyyat yarad\u0131rlar? Sonra da gileyl\u0259nib deyirl\u0259r ki, niy\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck izimiz yoxdur. Niy\u0259 D\u0259rb\u0259ndd\u0259n o yana \u00e7oxumuzu tan\u0131m\u0131rlar? Evin i\u00e7ind\u0259ki s\u0259ni tan\u0131nma\u011fa qoymursa, h\u0259l\u0259 bir \u00e7\u00f6ld\u0259ki nec\u0259 tan\u0131s\u0131n! Ay\u0131b olmas\u0131n, deyim, bir m\u0259s\u0259l var. Deyir, ev danas\u0131ndan \u00f6k\u00fcz \u00e7\u0131xmaz, \u00e7\u0131xsa da, k\u0259sib do\u011frayarlar. Bilmir\u0259m, bizd\u0259ki q\u0131sqancl\u0131q, pax\u0131ll\u0131q hardand\u0131r, n\u0259d\u0259ndir g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n?!<\/p>\n

– Boyun \u0259y\u0259-\u0259y\u0259 tan\u0131nan ziyal\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n sonra niy\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fc boyu boynu \u0259gig g\u0259zm\u0259si indi m\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259lli olur. \u00dcz k\u00f6lg\u0259liy\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fm\u0259sin, \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fdis\u0259, onu d\u00fcz\u0259ltm\u0259k \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tindir. \u018fxlaq olmayan yerd\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259llik, l\u0259yaq\u0259t d\u0259 yoxdur!..<\/p>\n

\u0130lqar Al\u0259mtab V\u00fcqar Qara\u00e7ayl\u0131 il\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tind\u0259n sonra yaman dilxor olmu\u015fdu. G\u00fcnah \u00fcst\u0259 tutulmu\u015f adamlar kimi susur, d\u0259rdini kiminl\u0259s\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259mir, i\u00e7ind\u0259ki g\u0259rginliyi bo\u011fma\u011fa, gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. \u00c7\u00f6r\u0259yini yey\u0259n kimi i\u015f ota\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kilir, \u00e7\u0259n\u0259sini ovcuna s\u00f6yk\u0259yib, k\u00f6vr\u0259k, h\u0259zin musiqiy\u0259 qulaq asa-asa p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n uzaqlara bax\u0131rd\u0131. \u00c7\u0131l\u0131n- \u00e7\u0131lpaq Yasamal da\u011flar\u0131 onu x\u0259yalland\u0131r\u0131r, k\u00f6vr\u0259k xatir\u0259l\u0259ri oyalan\u0131r, u\u015faq vaxt\u0131 d\u0259lic\u0259sin\u0259 vuruldu\u011fu b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259yi r\u0259ngli Burovar da\u011flar\u0131 q\u0259lbil\u0259nib yadda\u015f\u0131ndan boylan\u0131rd\u0131. Qon\u015fuluqlar\u0131nda nurani \u00e7\u00f6hr\u0259li bir ki\u015fi ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. \u00dcmidl\u0259rin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131b, arzular\u0131n\u0131 qocalma\u011fa qoymayan Novruz ki\u015fi! Burovar da\u011flar\u0131na baxanda d\u0259rind\u0259n bir k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, ya yan\u0131ql\u0131-yan\u0131ql\u0131 bir ah \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r, a\u011flamaqdan g\u00fccl\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc saxlayard\u0131. Zo\u011fal a\u011fac\u0131ndan d\u00fcz\u0259ltdiyi \u00e7\u0259liyin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259nib: – K\u00f6lg\u0259si i\u00e7im\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n o da\u011flar\u0131n o \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 yurdum var m\u0259nim! – dey\u0259rdi. Sonra sal da\u015f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 oturub cibind\u0259n t\u0259nb\u0259ki kis\u0259sini \u00e7\u0131xarar, q\u0259zet c\u0131\u011faras\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na t\u0259nb\u0259ki doldurub e\u015fm\u0259 e\u015f\u0259r, yand\u0131r\u0131b d\u0259rind\u0259n bir qullab vurard\u0131. T\u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc azg\u00f6zc\u0259sin\u0259 ciy\u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r, bununla o, sanki i\u00e7ind\u0259ki yan\u011f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcb y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015f\u0259rdi. U\u015faqlar\u0131 ma\u011fazadan ona siqaret alsalar da, yax\u0131na buraxmaz, \u201cYoox, bala, onlar m\u0259nlik deyil! Onlar m\u0259nim a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 soyutmaz!.. M\u0259rdimazar\u0131n Allah, c\u0259zas\u0131n\u0131 versin! Yol ba\u011flayan\u0131n yolunu ba\u011flas\u0131n, \u00fcr\u0259yini da\u011flas\u0131n. Orda atam, anam, ail\u0259m var idi. Qay\u011f\u0131ma qalan, G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259 s\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xma, m\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131m dey\u0259n h\u0259yal\u0131 h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131m – G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fim var idi. Bir b\u0259la g\u0259ldi, da\u011flar\u0131 duman ald\u0131, yollar ba\u011fland\u0131. G\u0259l\u0259nin, ged\u0259nin \u00fcmidl\u0259ri q\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131. Ke\u00e7\u0259 bilm\u0259dim o taya. \u00dcmidimi itirm\u0259dim. \u0130\u00e7imd\u0259:\u201d Bir g\u00fcn a\u00e7\u0131lar!\u201d- deyib, o a\u00e7\u0131lacaq m\u0259chul g\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6zl\u0259dim. O g\u00fcn, bu g\u00fcn, h\u0259l\u0259 uzan\u0131r o m\u0259chulluq!<\/p>\n

Bu nec\u0259 insanl\u0131qd\u0131r, bu nec\u0259 \u0259dal\u0259tdir: do\u011fuldu\u011fun yer\u0259 ged\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n, ad\u0131na V\u0259t\u0259n dediyin m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259tin, torpa\u011f\u0131n yollar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 ba\u011flayalar!..\u201d – s\u00f6yl\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r Burovar da\u011flar\u0131 daha g\u00f6z\u0259l olur. Do\u011fan g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f, s\u0131yr\u0131l\u0131b ged\u0259n b\u0259mb\u0259yaz duman, q\u0131z\u0131l\u0131 \u015f\u0259f\u0259ql\u0259rd\u0259n r\u0259ng alan ala-tala buludlar! Allah, allah n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r geni\u015f, q\u0259nirsiz, m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259tli, s\u0259xav\u0259tli \u00fcr\u0259yin var imi\u015f! Daha n\u0259 qalmad\u0131 insanlara verm\u0259diyin. Kim bilir, b\u0259lk\u0259 bu g\u00f6z\u0259llik idi \u0130lqar\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yini cilv\u0259l\u0259ndir\u0259n, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc, k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc i\u015f\u0131qland\u0131ran. U\u015faq vaxt\u0131 \u0130lqargil Burovara baxard\u0131, g\u00f6z\u0259llik axtarard\u0131. Yaz\u0131q Novruz baxard\u0131, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 tapard\u0131. Ancaq h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 dey\u0259rdi:\u201d Allah k\u0259rimdir, inan\u0131ram- bir g\u00fcn ged\u0259c\u0259m!..\u201d N\u0259 yaz\u0131qlar ki, \u00fcmidl\u0259rini g\u00f6y\u0259rtm\u0259y\u0259 \u00f6m\u00fcr v\u0259fa etm\u0259di. \u00d6l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 v\u0259siyy\u0259t etdi ki, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc V\u0259t\u0259n\u0259 sar\u0131 qoysunlar. \u201c Ora m\u0259nim K\u0259b\u0259m, M\u0259kk\u0259m, M\u0259din\u0259mdir!..\u201d -dedi.<\/p>\n

\u0130lqar Al\u0259mtab\u0131n h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 Sevinc bu hal\u0131na \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi. T\u0259z\u0259 ba\u015flayaca\u011f\u0131 yaz\u0131 qaba\u011f\u0131 onun ovqat\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bel\u0259 p\u0259ri\u015fan, dal\u011f\u0131n olurdu. El\u0259 bil ki, yerd\u0259n ayr\u0131l\u0131b g\u00f6yl\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259\u015firdi. Qaba\u011f\u0131na isti, k\u0259kotulu \u00e7ay g\u0259tir\u0259nd\u0259 fikrind\u0259n ayr\u0131lmaz, x\u0259yallar\u0131n\u0131n sahilsiz, f\u0131rt\u0131nal\u0131 \u00fcmman\u0131nda \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nard\u0131. Sonra v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259r qaralar, \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 qalaqlanard\u0131.Yaz\u0131s\u0131 yax\u015f\u0131 ged\u0259nd\u0259 kefi k\u00f6k\u0259l\u0259r, qollar\u0131n\u0131 u\u015faqlar\u0131n \u00e7iyinl\u0259rin\u0259 sal\u0131b \u0259hvallar\u0131n\u0131 sorar, i\u015fl\u0259ri-g\u00fccl\u0259ri il\u0259 maraqlan\u0131b qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131 il\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s alard\u0131. Ancaq bu ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc birc\u0259 k\u0259lm\u0259 bel\u0259 soru\u015fmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sevinc bu p\u0259ri\u015fanl\u0131qdan, susqunluqdan narahat oldu. \u00d6zl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, Allah el\u0259m\u0259sin, g\u00f6r\u0259n x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259nib el\u0259m\u0259yib ki?! Ya\u015f \u00f6z i\u015fini g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc : Bu ya\u015fda soyuq da d\u0259ym\u0259-d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r olmu\u015fdu. Qap\u0131dan qovurdun, b\u0259z\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 sal\u0131b p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n girirdi. Yox, yaradana min \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr ki, can\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 sappa-sa\u011flam idi. B\u0259s onda n\u0259 idi, h\u0259\u0259 n\u0259 idi nigaran\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131? Bu ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc bir \u015fey d\u0259 yazmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130\u015f ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131randa \u0130lqar\u0131n yaz\u0131 masas\u0131na toxunmaz, he\u00e7 n\u0259yi yerind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259tm\u0259zdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki o yerd\u0259n yaz\u0131 \u00f6mr\u00fc yenid\u0259n ba\u015flar v\u0259 oyalanan xatir\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 qo\u015fulub yenid\u0259n yol ged\u0259rdi. Amma son g\u00fcnl\u0259r he\u00e7 n\u0259 yazmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, el\u0259 bil. \u00dcst\u00fcn\u0259 diyirc\u0259kli q\u0259l\u0259mi qoydu\u011fu v\u0259r\u0259qd\u0259 \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdi. Uzaqda durnalar u\u00e7u\u015fur, da\u011flar qaral\u0131r, duman s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcb d\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 sallan\u0131r, t\u0259p\u0259l\u0259r da\u011flara s\u00f6yk\u0259nib me\u015f\u0259y\u0259 sar\u0131 uzan\u0131rd\u0131. Da\u011flardan qopub g\u0259l\u0259n \u00e7ay k\u00f6p\u00fckl\u00fc sular\u0131 il\u0259 ax\u0131b gedirdi. El\u0259 t\u0259bii, yerind\u0259 olan r\u0259ng \u00e7alarlar\u0131 il\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi ki, deyirdin \u00e7ay bu d\u0259qiq\u0259 m\u0259cras\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b \u015f\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131yla ota\u011fa ax\u0131b dolacaq, sin\u0259sind\u0259 g\u0259tirdiyi \u0259lvan da\u011f \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rinin xo\u015f \u0259triyl\u0259 ham\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259st ed\u0259c\u0259kdi. Yox, ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn idi ki, el\u0259 bu \u015f\u0259kill\u0259r oldu\u011fu kimi dururdu. Bu g\u00fcn t\u0259kc\u0259 n\u00f6qt\u0259l\u0259r qoyulmu\u015fdu. Y\u0259ni s\u00f6z\u00fcn bitm\u0259diyi, haray y\u00fckl\u00fc m\u0259tl\u0259bl\u0259rin s\u00fckutun \u00e7iynind\u0259 ax\u0131b getdiyi n\u00f6qt\u0259l\u0259r.<\/p>\n

– \u0130lqar, qadan al\u0131m, – Sevinc qay\u011f\u0131l\u0131-qay\u011f\u0131l\u0131 dill\u0259ndi: – ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 birt\u0259h\u0259r d\u0259yirs\u0259n. Allah el\u0259m\u0259sin, qulaqlara qur\u011fu\u015fun, x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259nib el\u0259m\u0259mis\u0259n ki?!<\/p>\n

– Yox, can\u0131m, n\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259lik, x\u0259st\u0259lik n\u0259dir? Bu hardan a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259ldi. H\u0259l\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259liy\u0259 \u0259yilm\u0259k tez deyilmi?<\/p>\n

– B\u0259s onda s\u0259ni narahat ed\u0259n n\u0259dir? D\u00fcz\u00fc, el\u0259 u\u015faqlar da bunu m\u0259nd\u0259n soru\u015fur. Niy\u0259 bel\u0259 susqunsan? B\u0259lk\u0259 x\u0259trin\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259n var, h\u0259\u0259?!<\/p>\n

\u0130lqar yen\u0259 susdu. Handan-hana aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b kitab dolab\u0131n\u0131n b\u00f6yr\u00fcnd\u0259ki fikus a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n enli yarpaqlar\u0131n\u0131 barmaqlar\u0131 il\u0259 ox\u015faya-ox\u015faya yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 dostu V\u00fcqar Qara\u00e7ayl\u0131n\u0131n dedikl\u0259rini nec\u0259 var oldu\u011fu kimi Sevinc\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sonra sa\u011f \u0259lini yumruq kimi d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259yib y\u00fcng\u00fclc\u0259 stola \u00e7\u0131rpa-\u00e7\u0131rpa: – Yox, m\u0259n buna raz\u0131 olmaram! – dedi. O\u011fluma s\u00f6z vermi\u015f\u0259m, ad g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u0259 m\u00fctl\u0259q kostyum, k\u00f6yn\u0259k almal\u0131yam. Vaxt yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r, q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n t\u0259hsil x\u0259rcini d\u0259 \u00f6d\u0259m\u0259liyik ax\u0131?! Olmaya bunu yaddan \u00e7\u0131xarm\u0131\u015f\u0131q? \u00dc\u00e7 il l\u0259ngidibl\u0259r, canlar\u0131 sa\u011f olsun, bir \u00fc\u00e7 il d\u0259 l\u0259ngits\u0259l\u0259r d\u00fcnya u\u00e7ub da\u011f\u0131lmayacaq ki?! B\u0259lk\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259mimi \u0259limd\u0259n alacaqlar, olmaya \u201cdaha yazma deyib\u201d yazma\u011f\u0131 qada\u011fan ed\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r?! H\u0259\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259 s\u0259hv deyir\u0259m? Bulan\u0131q sular \u00e7oxmu axacaq? Bir g\u00fcn onun durulmas\u0131, \u00e7irkabdan t\u0259mizl\u0259nm\u0259si olmayacaqm\u0131?!<\/p>\n

– Yox, yoox!.. M\u00fctl\u0259q buna raz\u0131 olmal\u0131san! O qonaql\u0131\u011fa getm\u0259lis\u0259n. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 m\u00fctl\u0259q getm\u0259lis\u0259n. – Sevinc q\u0259tiyy\u0259tl\u0259 dill\u0259ndi. -M\u0259n el\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, yaz\u0131lar \u00e7oxdur, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 l\u0259ngidirl\u0259r. S\u0259n dem\u0259, bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r ki, el\u0259 deyilmi\u015f. Qar\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda \u00f6zg\u0259 d\u0259rdl\u0259ri var imi\u015f. Bu, \u00fc\u00e7 il g\u00f6zl\u0259tm\u0259k deyil, \u00fc\u00e7 il insan\u0131 \u0259l\u0259 salmaqd\u0131r. Onlara n\u0259 var, vicdanlar\u0131n\u0131 itiribl\u0259r, bir qar\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259y\u0259 aldan\u0131b, n\u0259fsin, tamah\u0131n qulu olublar. S\u0259n yazmal\u0131san, bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r s\u0259ni ruhdan salmamal\u0131d\u0131r. El\u0259 bilirs\u0259n, ist\u0259s\u0259, ham\u0131 yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131, \u015fair ola bil\u0259r? Allah\u0131n d\u00fcnyada se\u00e7ilmi\u015f, sevimli b\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259ri var. Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 da, \u015fair d\u0259 o b\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259r s\u0131ras\u0131ndad\u0131r. D\u0259rdi hopduran, d\u0259rd\u0259 al\u0131\u015fan, o d\u0259rdin, o q\u0259min diliyl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fan b\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259ri. Yazmasan, yaxan\u0131 k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0259ks\u0259n, o d\u0259rd i\u00e7ini yey\u0259c\u0259k. Bunumu ist\u0259yirs\u0259n, durdu\u011fun yerd\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259likmi axtar\u0131rsan?! \u018fd\u0259biyyat-\u0259d\u0259bdir, \u0259xlaqd\u0131r, bax, o h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 g\u00fcv\u0259ndiyin, yaz\u0131lar\u0131nda x\u0259yal\u0131 il\u0259 qanadland\u0131\u011f\u0131n Burovardan, Savalandan da uca l\u0259yaq\u0259tdir. Yaz\u0131qlar olsun, min k\u0259r\u0259 yaz\u0131qlar ki, sonda t\u0259miz qalan o idi,\u00a0 onu da l\u0259k\u0259l\u0259dil\u0259r. Bir d\u0259, s\u0259n nec\u0259, nec\u0259 r\u0259va bilirs\u0259n, o nankor, qudur\u011fan prokuror M\u00f6vlanzad\u0259 c\u0259zas\u0131zm\u0131 qals\u0131n? M\u00fc\u0259llimi qap\u0131lar arxas\u0131nda saxlay\u0131b, haqq s\u00f6z\u00fc dediyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, demaqoq dey\u0259 gir\u0259l\u0259yib \u0259l\u0259mi sals\u0131n? \u00d6z \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n yerini istil\u0259ndirib, ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcnahs\u0131z \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131 \u015f\u0259r odundam\u0131 yand\u0131rs\u0131n? Bax, o povest bir ibr\u0259t d\u0259rsidir. Ax\u0131 niy\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7ap olunmas\u0131n?! \u00c7oxlar\u0131 oturduqlar\u0131 stola g\u00fcv\u0259nib \u00e7ox haval\u0131 g\u0259zirl\u0259r. Tapdamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 haqlar, pu\u00e7 etm\u0259dikl\u0259ri talel\u0259r qoymurlar. El\u0259 ki, ayaqlar\u0131 b\u00fcdr\u0259yib, v\u0259zif\u0259, \u0259da stolu \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, b\u00fcz\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb yuma\u011fa d\u00f6n\u00fcr, yaz\u0131qla\u015f\u0131rlar. Onda \u0259ll\u0259ri he\u00e7 yer\u0259 \u00e7atmayanda insan olduqlar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259rk edirl\u0259r. Ruhlar\u0131n imtahan\u0131 var, s\u0259n onu yax\u015f\u0131 tutubsan. Bu etibars\u0131z d\u00fcnyan\u0131n son ucunda k\u00f6rp\u00fcs\u00fcnd\u0259n ke\u00e7ib haqqa qovu\u015fmaq var. \u0130nsan \u00f6z \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259ri il\u0259 d\u0259rk etm\u0259lidir ki, m\u0259ni yaradan, bir g\u00fcn \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259rimin n\u0259tic\u0259sini d\u0259 soru\u015fa bil\u0259r. Qald\u0131, pul sar\u0131dan dar\u0131xma, Allah k\u0259rimdir, he\u00e7 vaxt da onu d\u0259rd edib \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 salma. Unutma ki, bir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n ba\u011flayan o g\u00f6z\u0259g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259z ki\u015fi, x\u0259yal\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n o biri t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n d\u0259 a\u00e7ar. He\u00e7 vaxt insan\u0131 darda, \u00fcmidsizlik i\u00e7ind\u0259 qoymaz. Bu ay bayrama g\u00f6r\u0259 y\u0259qin ki, m\u00fckafat ver\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r…<\/p>\n

\u0130lqar Al\u0259mtab \u201cQa\u011fay\u0131\u201d kafesin\u0259 girib el\u0259 ilk qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xan i\u015f\u00e7id\u0259n Q\u0259q\u0259nini soru\u015fdu. \u0130\u015f\u00e7i onun q\u0131r\u0131m\u0131na bax\u0131b fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259d\u0259n: – D\u00fcz g\u0259libs\u0259n! – dedi. – Q\u0259q\u0259ni m\u0259n\u0259m. Y\u0259qin yeddinci ota\u011f\u0131n siyah\u0131s\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259libs\u0259n, el\u0259 deyilmi?! Ay\u0131n ax\u0131r\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259li olacaqsan. Onda g\u0259r\u0259k \u0259lin cibind\u0259 olsun. Qabaqcadan beh ver ki, o ota\u011f\u0131 s\u0259n zanit el\u0259diyini biz d\u0259 bil\u0259k. Qisas Qiyam\u0259tzad\u0259 m\u0259nim qohumumdur, yax\u015f\u0131 ki\u015fidir. G\u00f6r n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r x\u0259trini \u00e7ox ist\u0259yirl\u0259r ki, onunla \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k k\u0259sm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259l\u0259m bir n\u00f6vb\u0259 d\u0259 tuturlar. Zaman\u0259 indi xarab olub, qarda\u015f, bel\u0259 ki\u015fil\u0259r az-az tap\u0131l\u0131r, q\u0259drini bilm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r… El\u0259 bilm\u0259 haa, qohumumdur dey\u0259 t\u0259rifl\u0259yir\u0259m… Yox, yox!.. o, t\u0259rifi \u00f6z\u00fc qazan\u0131b… M\u0259nim dem\u0259yim\u0259 onun n\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131… H\u0259l\u0259m, s\u0259n bir g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, onu nec\u0259 t\u0259rifl\u0259yirl\u0259r, mar\u00e7a-mar\u00e7la da \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n, \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6p\u00fcrl\u0259r…<\/p>\n

…\u201cQa\u011fay\u0131\u201d kafesinin qap\u0131s\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131nda dayan\u0131b s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259n Q\u0259q\u0259ni il\u0259 \u0130lqar Al\u0259mtab qonaqlar\u0131 g\u0259tir\u0259n sar\u0131 r\u0259ngli taksi ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. Qabaqda oturmu\u015f Qisas Qiyam\u0259tzad\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b, aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yer\u0259 qoyan kimi penc\u0259yinin yaxas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcz\u0259ldib, bir balaca g\u0259rn\u0259\u015fdi. Sonra Q\u0259q\u0259ni v\u0259 \u0130lqar Al\u0259mtab\u0131 il\u0131q bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259 s\u00fcz\u00fcb, g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259-g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259 \u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Arxada bir-birin\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131l\u0131b g\u00fccl\u0259 oturan ba\u015f redaktorun m\u00fcavini, m\u0259sul katib v\u0259 iki \u015f\u00f6b\u0259 m\u00fcdiri d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n kimi \u201cOxx…hay!\u201d – deyib, k\u00f6ks dolusu t\u0259miz d\u0259niz havas\u0131 uddular. D\u0259niz t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n \u0259s\u0259n s\u0259rin meh, do\u011frudan da, insana rahatl\u0131q, s\u0259rb\u0259stlik g\u0259tirirdi.<\/p>\n

\u0130lqar Al\u0259mtab qaba\u011fa yeriyib taksini yola sald\u0131. G\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, \u0259hvalla\u015fandan sonra qabaqda Q\u0259q\u0259ni v\u0259 arxada qonaqlar yeddinci ota\u011fa ke\u00e7dil\u0259r. \u0130lqar Al\u0259mtab bu ana q\u0259d\u0259r bu ota\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Otaq o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 ki\u00e7ik deyildi. Ortada iki stol birl\u0259\u015fdirilib, \u0259traf\u0131na stollar d\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Yuxar\u0131 ba\u015fda divarda Nazim Hukm\u0259tin portreti as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da dolab\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0259lvan g\u00fcll\u0259rl\u0259 dolu g\u00fcldan qoyulmu\u015fdu. Deyildiyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, Qisas Qiyam\u0259tzad\u0259 Nazimin d\u0259lisiydi. \u015eeirl\u0259rinin \u00e7oxusunu \u0259zb\u0259rd\u0259n bilir, yeri d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259, \u0259hval\u0131n\u0131n xo\u015f vaxt\u0131nda \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0131m\u0131ldan\u0131rd\u0131 da. A\u015fa\u011f\u0131 ba\u015fda, sol k\u00fcncd\u0259 – maqnitofonda \u00e7ox asta s\u0259sl\u0259 Frederik \u015eopenin \u201c \u0130lk bahar \u201c vals\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259nirdi. \u00dcmmana a\u00e7\u0131lan p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n d\u0259niz dal\u011falar\u0131 ayd\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, a\u011f, k\u00f6p\u00fckl\u00fc sular\u0131n qopard\u0131\u011f\u0131 haray-h\u0259\u015fir, i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259ki h\u0259zin musiqiy\u0259 qar\u0131\u015f\u0131b insanda q\u0259rib\u0259, hardasa, bir az da anla\u015f\u0131lmaz bir ovqat yarad\u0131rd\u0131. Stolun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 qu\u015f s\u00fcd\u00fcnd\u0259n ba\u015fqa h\u0259r \u015fey var idi.<\/p>\n

Ba\u015f redaktor Qisas Qiyam\u0259tzad\u0259 ham\u0131ya ani bir n\u0259z\u0259r sald\u0131qdan sonra aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b: – H\u0259\u0259, indi m\u0259clisimiz\u0259 ba\u015flaya bil\u0259rik! – dedi. -S\u0259b\u0259bkar \u0130lqard\u0131r-\u0130lqar Al\u0259mtab. \u0130lqar, can\u0131m-g\u00f6z\u00fcm, S\u0259ninl\u0259 s\u00fcfr\u0259 arxas\u0131nda oturmu\u015fuq. \u00c7\u00f6r\u0259k k\u0259sirik, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k k\u0259sm\u0259k bilirs\u0259n d\u0259 n\u0259dir?! S\u0259n t\u0259miz, halal adamsan. Ancaq bir az sad\u0259l\u00f6vhl\u00fcy\u00fcn, tez inanma\u011f\u0131n var. Bir az da m\u00fcbarizliyin \u00e7at\u0131\u015fm\u0131r, haqq\u0131n olana sahibl\u0259nm\u0259kd\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 maraql\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcrs\u0259n. \u0130stedads\u0131zlar var, qap\u0131dan qovursan, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n girirl\u0259r, min hoqqadan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rlar, haralardan z\u0259ng el\u0259tdirmirl\u0259r, kiml\u0259r\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131rtd\u0131rm\u0131rlar. S\u0259n istedadl\u0131 insansan, \u00f6z s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0259 yiy\u0259sis\u0259n. \u00d6z c\u0131\u011f\u0131r\u0131n, \u00f6z yolun var. N\u0259 gizl\u0259dim, s\u0259n batmayan, itm\u0259y\u0259n bir s\u0259ss\u0259n, uzaqdan, \u00e7ox uzaqdan g\u0259lirs\u0259n! Yaz\u0131lar\u0131nda kalorit, \u015fir\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7oxdur ki, inan\u0131ram, bulaq kimi \u00e7a\u011flayaca\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259rin h\u0259l\u0259 qabaqdad\u0131r. Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 etikan, yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259tin d\u0259 yerind\u0259dir. \u015e\u00f6hr\u0259t x\u0259st\u0259si, alud\u0259\u00e7isi d\u0259 deyils\u0259n. \u0130ld\u0259 qap\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda iki , ya \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259f\u0259 h\u0259min\u00a0 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259rdin. M\u00fc\u0259mma dolu g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259: \u201c B\u0259s n\u0259 oldu, n\u0259 vaxt \u00e7apa ged\u0259c\u0259k?\u201d suallar\u0131\u00a0 oxunard\u0131. Bir yalan uydurard\u0131m, s\u0259ni inand\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. S\u0259mimi, olan\u0131 deyir\u0259m, s\u0259nd\u0259n sonra vicdan \u0259zab\u0131 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rdim. \u0130\u00e7imd\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lki cavan Qisasla, sonrak\u0131 kirl\u0259nmi\u015f Qisas \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 dayanard\u0131. Bax, o \u015f\u0259kil\u0259, \u201c M\u0259n bir ceviz a\u011fac\u0131yam, G\u00fclhan\u0259 park\u0131nda\u201d dey\u0259n o ki\u015fiy\u0259, -\u0259liyl\u0259 Nazim Hikm\u0259tin portretini g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259r\u0259k: – Allah d\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259 r\u0259hm\u0259t el\u0259sin, q\u0259bri nurla dolsun! El\u0259 bil yana-yana, \u0259riy\u0259-\u0259riy\u0259, lap c\u0131zda\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xa-\u00e7\u0131xa deyib insanlara:<\/p>\n

M\u0259n yanmasam,<\/p>\n

S\u0259n yanmasan,<\/p>\n

Biz yanmasaq,<\/p>\n

Nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar qaranl\u0131qlar ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011fa\u2026<\/p>\n

Atam o\u011flu, bir az z\u0259man\u0259yl\u0259 ayaqla\u015fma\u011f\u0131, g\u00f6zd\u0259n t\u00fck qapma\u011f\u0131 da \u00f6yr\u0259ns\u0259n n\u0259 olar?! He\u00e7 olmasa, \u00e7ox yox, ild\u0259 bir k\u0259r\u0259 bu saqqala da salam vers\u0259n g\u00fcnahm\u0131 olar? Yoxsa, quru b\u0259ylikn\u0259n b\u0259ylikmi olar. Bax, ham\u0131n\u0131 bir yer\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131bsan, pismi edibs\u0259n?! Yox, q\u0259tiyy\u0259n! B\u0259s insan n\u0259dir, \u00fcnsiyy\u0259t \u00f6vlad\u0131 dem\u0259k deyilmi?! Bax, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck bir yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 olaca\u011f\u0131na inan\u0131b deyir\u0259m: H\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n istedad, tap\u0131nt\u0131san! G\u0259r\u0259k ki, \u00fc\u00e7 il\u0259 yax\u0131nd\u0131r povestinin \u00e7ap\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirs\u0259n. D\u00fczd\u00fcr?! S\u0259hv etmir\u0259m ki?!<\/p>\n

-Yox, \u00fc\u00e7 il\u0259 yax\u0131n yox, d\u00fcz \u00fc\u00e7 il, \u00fc\u00e7 ay on be\u015f g\u00fcn!<\/p>\n

– Qoy el\u0259 olsun! \u00dc\u00e7 il, \u00fc\u00e7 ay, on be\u015f g\u00fcn!.. \u0130ndi s\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z verir\u0259m, povestin bu ay, b\u0259li, b\u0259li bu ay \u00e7ap olunacaq. D\u00fczd\u00fcr, y\u0131\u011fm\u0131\u015f\u0131q, \u00e7apa ged\u0259si materiallar tam haz\u0131rd\u0131r. Ancaq s\u0259nin haqq\u0131nd\u0131r, onlar s\u0259nin haqq\u0131na giribl\u0259r. N\u0259 olar, s\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7 il, \u00fc\u00e7 ay, on be\u015f g\u00fcn g\u00f6zl\u0259yibs\u0259ns\u0259, qoy onlar da, he\u00e7 olmasa, \u00fc\u00e7 ay g\u00f6zl\u0259sin. Bilsinl\u0259r ki, g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259k n\u0259 dem\u0259kdir. G\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259k insan\u0131 i\u00e7ind\u0259n yeyir, inama b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f insan \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259l uzad\u0131r. Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla ki, bel\u0259 oldu. Bu da bir imtahand\u0131r. \u0130mtahans\u0131z h\u0259yat\u0131n bir m\u0259nas\u0131 varm\u0131? \u0130mtahan inam\u0131n, etibar\u0131n, \u0259qid\u0259nin i\u00e7ind\u0259n ke\u00e7ib ged\u0259n h\u0259yat yoludur. Bu bad\u0259ni s\u0259nin sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131na i\u00e7ir\u0259m! Sa\u011f ol, sa\u011f ol ki, \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn bu g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0259nin say\u0259nd\u0259 bir i\u015f\u0131q da d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc…<\/p>\n

Bad\u0259l\u0259r bo\u015fald\u0131, doldu. Ba\u015f redaktor m\u00fcavini Hikm\u0259t G\u00fcl\u0259r nar \u015fir\u0259sind\u0259n bir-iki qurtum i\u00e7ib aya\u011fa durdu. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 \u00f6z i\u015f yolda\u015flar\u0131na, sonra \u0130lqara tutub: – Qisas m\u00fc\u0259llimin dedikl\u0259ri il\u0259 tam \u015f\u0259rik\u0259m. O, n\u0259 deyirs\u0259, ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcz deyir.- s\u00f6yl\u0259di. – N\u0259cib, xeyirxah adamd\u0131r. Bu g\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r kimis\u0259 incitdiyini, kimins\u0259 q\u0259lbin\u0259 d\u0259ydiyini e\u015fitm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. \u0130stedad h\u0259l\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey dem\u0259k deyil! Z\u0259man\u0259yl\u0259 ayaqla\u015fma\u011f\u0131 da bacarmal\u0131san. O k\u0259lamdak\u0131 kimi, z\u0259man\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 saz olmasa, s\u0259n z\u0259man\u0259y\u0259 saz olasan g\u0259r\u0259k. O q\u0259d\u0259r \u201cm\u0259n\u0259m-m\u0259n\u0259m\u201d dey\u0259n o\u011fullar g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck ki, istedad\u0131n\u0131n da qaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sib, papa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da bo\u015f yurdda qoyub gedibl\u0259r. S\u0259n, \u00e7\u0259kinm\u0259d\u0259n deyir\u0259m, istedadl\u0131 adamsan. S\u0259n\u0259t\u0259 kitabdan yox, h\u0259yatdan, \u00e7\u0259kdikl\u0259rind\u0259n, ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131ndan g\u0259lmis\u0259n. Bunu yazd\u0131qlar\u0131ndan da g\u00f6rm\u0259k olar. Povestin \u00e7ox xo\u015fuma g\u0259lib. Des\u0259m ki, prokuror M\u00f6vlanzad\u0259nin lap anas\u0131n\u0131 a\u011flatm\u0131san, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 inanmayacaqsan. Zal\u0131m o\u011flu, insan da bu q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259k\u0259bb\u00fcrl\u00fc olar? G\u00f6r, v\u0259zif\u0259, \u015fan-\u015f\u00f6hr\u0259t, ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 qondarma alimlik diplomu, titullar, yazd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 cild-cild kitablar, daha n\u0259 bilim n\u0259l\u0259r, n\u0259l\u0259r g\u00f6zl\u0259rini o q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6rt\u00fcb ki, Tanr\u0131 d\u0259rgah\u0131na ged\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 utan\u0131b \u00e7\u0259kinm\u0259k \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259, yen\u0259 qara-q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kmir. H\u0259\u0259, bir d\u0259, ruhu q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n ota\u011f\u0131nda dola\u015fanda onun p\u0259ri\u015fanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb, i\u00e7in-i\u00e7in yan\u0131r. Yan\u0131r ki, d\u00fcnya mal\u0131na h\u0259risliyi onu kor edib. Q\u0131z\u0131na atal\u0131q mehrini, sevgisini g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259yib. He\u00e7 olmasa, birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 boynunu qucaqlay\u0131b xurmay\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ox\u015famay\u0131b. Ax\u0131 q\u0131zlar daha \u00e7ox ataya ba\u011fl\u0131 olur. Atas\u0131yla q\u00fcrurlanan q\u0131zlar onun yoxlu\u011fu il\u0259 \u00e7ox zaman bar\u0131\u015fa bilmirl\u0259r. M\u00f6vlanzad\u0259nin ruhu da q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 p\u0259ri\u015fan g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rmaq, a\u011flamaq, d\u0259lic\u0259sin\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131rmaq ist\u0259yir. Yaz\u0131qlar olsun ki, ruh hal\u0131nda \u0259li hara \u00e7atas\u0131d\u0131r ki?! Ruh da \u00f6z al\u0259mind\u0259 canl\u0131d\u0131r, duy\u011fuludur, yanand\u0131r. Bax, bu m\u0259qamda M\u00f6vlanzad\u0259nin ruhunun \u00e7\u0259kdikl\u0259rini nec\u0259 h\u0259ssasl\u0131qla verdiyini oxuyanda adam o q\u0259d\u0259r k\u00f6vr\u0259lir ki, g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin ya\u015fard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n da f\u0259rqin\u0259 varm\u0131r. S\u0259n\u0259t yan\u011f\u0131 t\u0259l\u0259b edir, yanmasan yand\u0131ra da bilm\u0259zs\u0259n… U\u011fur, u\u011fur, m\u0259n ancaq u\u011fur arzulay\u0131ram!..<\/p>\n

Bad\u0259l\u0259r dolub-bo\u015fald\u0131qca qonaqlar\u0131n q\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r, dey\u0259s\u0259n, insan olduqlar\u0131 yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, i\u00e7inin d\u0259rinlikl\u0259rind\u0259 saxlad\u0131qlar\u0131 gizli saxlanclar\u0131n\u0131, \u00f6zl\u0259ri d\u0259 hiss etm\u0259d\u0259n a\u00e7\u0131b t\u00f6k\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Bu i\u00e7kid\u0259 n\u0259 hikm\u0259t, n\u0259 cazib\u0259 var idis\u0259, a\u011f\u0131za d\u0259y\u0259n kimi i\u00e7\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131b, ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n indiy\u0259 kimi tan\u0131ya bilm\u0259diyi birisin\u0259 \u00e7evirirdi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259sul katib Dilq\u0259m Camal Hikm\u0259tin he\u00e7 oturma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. – D\u00fczd\u00fcr, povestind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz\u0259m, oxumam\u0131\u015fam. – dedi. – Amma hekay\u0259l\u0259rinin yax\u015f\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131land\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m. \u00dcr\u0259yin doludur, yazmaq potensial\u0131n g\u00fccl\u00fcd\u00fcr. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 arxay\u0131n, inam olan yerd\u0259 d\u0259 insan parlaya, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259sdiql\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259r. S\u0259nd\u0259 xo\u015fuma g\u0259l\u0259n sad\u0259lik, t\u0259vaz\u00f6karl\u0131qd\u0131r. Bir d\u0259, \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259t x\u0259st\u0259liyin\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 tutulmama\u011f\u0131nd\u0131r. \u015e\u00f6hr\u0259t\u0259 aldanan o\u011fullar\u0131 \u00e7ox zaman yorulub yolda qalan g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck. O biri n\u0259\u015frl\u0259rd\u0259ki yaz\u0131lar\u0131n da \u00fcmidvericidir. Inaniram ki, biz bundan sonra tez-tez g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yik. Nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, h\u0259r g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f d\u0259, \u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259n bir \u00fcmiddir, s\u0259h\u0259r-s\u0259h\u0259r s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n dan yerind\u0259n boylanan g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f kimi bir \u00fcmid. S\u0259nin sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131na qarda\u015f\u0131m, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 parlaq olsun!..<\/p>\n

– Ahh, Marqo… Mma…aa…rr…qqoo! – deyib, k\u0259k\u0259l\u0259y\u0259-k\u0259k\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 a\u011flayan \u015f\u00f6b\u0259 m\u00fcdirinin s\u0259si ham\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndirdi. Ba\u015f redaktor Qisas Qiyam\u0259tzad\u0259 onun s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259sib, naraz\u0131-naraz\u0131: – \u018f\u015fi, r\u0259hm\u0259tliyin o\u011flu. Bu z\u0259hrimar\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259 bilmirs\u0259ns\u0259, i\u00e7m\u0259 d\u0259?! – s\u00f6yl\u0259di. – Kefimizin k\u00f6k vaxt\u0131 \u0259hval\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 niy\u0259 korlay\u0131rsan ki?! Ax\u0131 bu k\u00f6p\u0259k q\u0131z\u0131 Marqo kimdir ey, ke\u00e7\u0259n d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f u\u015faqlar kimi tez-tez ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kib, a\u011flay\u0131b-s\u0131tqay\u0131rd\u0131n da.<\/p>\n

– Bilmirs\u0259n, qa\u011fa, bilmirs\u0259n! Bils\u0259ydin, vallah bel\u0259 dem\u0259zdin. Marqaritan\u0131 deyir\u0259m… Marqaritan\u0131!.. S\u0259n\u0259 dedim, n\u0259 olar, insaf\u0131n olsun jurnalda \u015f\u0259klini ver. K\u0259sim evd\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n as\u0131m. Verm\u0259din! Soru\u015fsalar, filan m\u0259\u015fhur yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131d\u0131r, dey\u0259rdim. Yoxsa… adi \u015f\u0259klini vursam, evd\u0259 qiyam\u0259t qopar. Ba\u015f\u0131mda olan-qalan \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259n\u0259 t\u00fck var, onu da yolub yel\u0259 ver\u0259rl\u0259r. Ahh, Marqo, Marqo!.. Cand\u0131r, can! \u00d6l\u00fcy\u0259 d\u0259rman!\u00a0 Zalimin q\u0131z\u0131, adama z\u0259li kimi yap\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131q ad\u0131yla tez-tez Vi\u015fnovkadak\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131m\u0131za ged\u0259r, onu da bir b\u0259han\u0259yl\u0259 ora \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rard\u0131m. \u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259n olard\u0131, he\u00e7 vaxt da yox dem\u0259zdi. Arada ba\u015f\u0131m qar\u0131\u015fanda, gec \u00e7a\u011f\u0131randa, \u00f6z\u00fc z\u0259ng \u00e7alar, bir q\u0259rib\u0259, \u015firin \u0259dayla: \u201c Musik, ba\u011f\u0131n\u0131z \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yaman dar\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam!..\u201d – dey\u0259rdi. \u0130ki g\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259, b\u0259z\u0259n b\u00fct\u00f6v bir h\u0259ft\u0259ni orda qalard\u0131q.<\/p>\n

– B\u0259s \u0259ri, \u0259ri n\u0259 deyirdi? He\u00e7 soru\u015fmurdu ki, haa, s\u0259n ba\u011fda neynirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

-\u018fri… \u0259r\u0259 bax, ha?! Biqeyr\u0259tin, namussuzun biriydi. Erm\u0259nid\u0259 n\u0259 \u0259r… Marqo deyirdi ki, toyuq kimi bir \u015feydir, o n\u0259 bilir xoruzluq etm\u0259yi. Bir arvad\u0131n \u00f6hd\u0259sind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259 bilmir, g\u0259ls\u0259ydi burda n\u0259 i\u015fi vard\u0131. Ara, siz t\u00fcrkl\u0259r biz\u0259 erk\u0259klik etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yaran\u0131bs\u0131z.<\/p>\n

Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t \u0259ri i\u015fsiz idi. Marqo i\u015f axtar\u0131rd\u0131 ona. El\u0259-bel\u0259, adi i\u015f yox, ya\u011fl\u0131 bir yer. M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t nazirliyini qaralam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, \u015f\u00f6b\u0259 m\u00fcdiri, filan ist\u0259yirdi. \u018fl \u00e7\u0259km\u0259di, yekirtdi m\u0259ni. Nazirl\u0259r Kabinetind\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n \u0259mio\u011fluma dedim. \u201cG\u00f6zl\u0259, baxar\u0131q!\u201d – dedi. O g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259kn\u0259n, d\u00fcz bir ay g\u00f6zl\u0259dim. \u018fm\u0130o\u011flu olanda n\u0259 olar, yaman pulgirdir, k\u00f6p\u0259k o\u011flu. Pulsuz he\u00e7 bir s\u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 e\u015fitmir, \u00e7ox vaxt d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259n i\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259lm\u0259z deyir. Bir g\u00fcn o, evd\u0259 olmayanda arvad\u0131 C\u00fclyetta il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u201c Sizin mill\u0259td\u0259ndir! \u018frin e\u015fitmir, bu g\u00fcn, sabaha sal\u0131r. Bar\u0131 s\u0259n bir k\u00f6m\u0259k \u0259lini uzat, \u0259rini yola g\u0259tir!\u201d – dedim. \u018frinin xasiyy\u0259ti ona da ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. El\u0259 dem\u0259yimi g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131-q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 qay\u0131d\u0131b: – Marqaritadan \u00f6tr\u00fc \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc niy\u0259 da\u011fa-da\u015fa \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131rsan?! Y\u0259ni bu q\u0259d\u0259r \u015firindir, haa?! – soru\u015fdu. M\u0259n\u0259 yox da dem\u0259di. G\u00f6z-qa\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 oynad\u0131b, g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259-g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259: – Baxar\u0131q! S\u0259nin xatirin\u0259, o g\u00f6z\u0259l\u00e7\u0259n Marqaritan\u0131n xatirin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259k n\u0259 ed\u0259 bil\u0259rik?! – s\u00f6yl\u0259di. C\u00fclyetdadan da bir x\u0259b\u0259r \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259. Marqo da g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin i\u00e7in\u0259 baxa-baxa oturub-durub el\u0259 tez-tez: \u201c B\u0259s n\u0259 oldu, Musik? E\u015fitm\u0259dil\u0259rmi s\u0259ni?\u201d – soru\u015furdu.<\/p>\n

Dan\u0131\u015fmaq m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn ay\u0131b olsa da, ancaq s\u00f6z ki, m\u0259tl\u0259b \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259ldi, g\u0259r\u0259k dan\u0131\u015f\u0131m. Daha ay\u0131bdan da ke\u00e7ib. T\u0259sad\u00fcf\u0259n bir g\u00fcn, el\u0259 yerd\u0259, a\u011fl\u0131ma s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131ra bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yim v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 C\u00fclyettan\u0131 tutdum. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn itirmi\u015fdi. Qorxusundan b\u0259d\u0259ni \u0259sir, dili topuq vururdu. Ayaqlar\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, q\u0131\u00e7\u0131m\u0131 qucaqlay\u0131r, g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rimi \u0259mio\u011fluma dem\u0259m\u0259yim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yalvar\u0131rd\u0131. Bu mill\u0259tin utanas\u0131, ar ed\u0259si yeri d\u0259 qalmay\u0131b. El\u0259 bil qanlar\u0131 da it qan\u0131ndan yo\u011frulub. G\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rimd\u0259n \u00e7ox pis olmu\u015fdum. \u018fmio\u011fluma yaz\u0131ql\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u0259lirdi. Onun pulu, v\u0259zif\u0259si olsa da, evd\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nas\u0131, arxalanas\u0131 ail\u0259si, isti oca\u011f\u0131 yox idi. O ail\u0259nin h\u00fczuru b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015fdi. \u00d6t\u0259ri, bir quru s\u0259hra yelin\u0259 b\u0259nd idi ki, onu u\u00e7urub da\u011f\u0131ts\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Bir h\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259n sonra Marqo i\u015f yerim\u0259 g\u0259ldi. \u018frini M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t Nazirliyinin abid\u0259l\u0259rin m\u00fchafiz\u0259si v\u0259 b\u0259rpas\u0131 \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sin\u0259 m\u00fcdir qoymu\u015fdular. Sevinirdi, yaman sevinirdi Marqo. He\u00e7 k\u0259sd\u0259n d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kinm\u0259d\u0259n boynumu qucaqlay\u0131b mar\u00e7a-mar\u00e7la \u00fcz\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc. Ayr\u0131lark\u0259n qula\u011f\u0131ma: \u201cBa\u011f\u0131n\u0131z \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yaman dar\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam, Musik!\u201d- p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131. \u0130ndi \u0259lim\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259, onun o Musik dey\u0259n dilini yey\u0259r\u0259m. Hay\u0131f deyil o g\u00fcnl\u0259r?! Ayl\u0131 gec\u0259, aynab\u0259ndd\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259ri s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u00fc ay i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131, qollar\u0131m aras\u0131nda ehtirasdan bal\u0131q kimi \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan Marqo… Ax, ax… indi d\u00fcnyan\u0131n o ba\u015f\u0131nda, telefon x\u0259ttinin o biri ba\u015f\u0131nda \u201cMusik, Musik, hardad\u0131r o g\u00fcnl\u0259r… indi s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcr\u0259m, yaman \u00f6l\u00fcr\u0259m!..\u201d – deyir. Yox, yox, \u00f6l\u0259n o deyil, \u00f6l\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259m!<\/p>\n

O g\u00fcn \u201cQa\u011fay\u0131\u201dda, yeddinci otaqda n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r oturduqlar\u0131 \u0130lqar\u0131n yad\u0131nda deyil. Birc\u0259 o yad\u0131nda idi ki, gec\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Evl\u0259rin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri, a\u011fl\u0131-qaral\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131nlar\u0131 arams\u0131z \u015f\u00fct\u00fcy\u0259n k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259ri i\u015f\u0131\u011fa b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Sahilin yax\u0131nda oldu\u011funu g\u0259mil\u0259r\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r ver\u0259n d\u0259ni\u015fin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259ki mayaklar\u0131 -i\u015f\u0131qforlar\u0131 yan\u0131b s\u00f6n\u00fcrd\u00fc. Qaranl\u0131q g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u00fc ay i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na b\u0259l\u0259nib, yava\u015f-yava\u015f \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin yaxas\u0131na \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcrd\u00fc. Qonaqlar\u0131 iki taksi ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131yla yola salan \u0130lqar Al\u0259mtab Q\u0259q\u0259ni il\u0259 hesabla\u015f\u0131b, sa\u011folla\u015fd\u0131. Penc\u0259yini \u00e7iynin\u0259 at\u0131b, \u00fcr\u0259yini s\u0131xan yeddinci ota\u011f\u0131n a\u011f\u0131r ab-havas\u0131ndan y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015fm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sahil boyu bir xeyli piyada yeridi. Sonra bo\u015f bir skamyada oturub doyunca a\u011flamaq, a\u011flamaq ist\u0259di. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 dola\u015fan n\u0259 duy\u011fu idi ona da \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131. Ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, onu metal kimi \u0259ymi\u015f, s\u0131nd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Daha \u00f6z\u00fc deyildi, yox, b\u0259lk\u0259 s\u0259hv edirdi,\u00a0 b\u0259lk\u0259 dola\u015f\u0131q bir hissin odunda yan\u0131r, duy\u011funun burul\u011fan\u0131nda batmamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131?!<\/p>\n

Qonaql\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n bir h\u0259ft\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. \u0130\u015fd\u0259n qay\u0131dan \u0130lqar Al\u0259mtab\u0131 Sevinc xan\u0131m evin k\u0259ndar\u0131nda g\u00fcl\u0259r \u00fczl\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131. Xurmay\u0131 r\u0259ngli \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 \u0259lind\u0259n al\u0131b, qoluna girdi. Qonaq ota\u011f\u0131na ged\u0259-ged\u0259: –\u00a0 Bu d\u00fcnya ta \u0259z\u0259ld\u0259n yeyim \u00fcst\u0259 qurulub, \u0130lqar m\u00fc\u0259llim. – dedi. – Yedirm\u0259s\u0259n, yey\u0259 bilm\u0259zs\u0259n. Yar\u0131m saat bundan qabaq z\u0259ng \u00e7alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Bir az tez g\u0259ls\u0259ydin el\u0259 \u00f6z qula\u011f\u0131nla e\u015fid\u0259rdin. Ad\u0131n\u0131, dey\u0259s\u0259n, m\u0259sul katib Dilq\u0259m Camal dedi. Dedi ki, povesti \u00e7apa gedir, sabah, m\u00fcmk\u00fcns\u0259, redaksiyaya g\u0259lib son variantla \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olsun. N\u0259y\u0259s\u0259 etiraz etm\u0259s\u0259, qol \u00e7\u0259kib raz\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildirsin v\u0259 \u00e7ap \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259tb\u0259\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259k!<\/p>\n

Sevinc el\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, \u0130lqar sevin\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 \u201c N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131, ay Sevinc, ay qadas\u0131! Min budaq, xo\u015f x\u0259b\u0259r olasan!..\u201d – dey\u0259c\u0259k. Ancaq d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckl\u0259rinin \u0259ksin\u0259 olaraq: – \u00dc\u00e7 ilin a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131, sars\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131ndan sonra sevinm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259rmi, ay Sevinc? – sual\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitdi.<\/p>\n

– D\u0259y\u0259r, sevinm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259r! – Sevinc t\u0259mkinl\u0259, q\u0259tiyy\u0259tl\u0259 cavab verdi. – \u00c7ap olunsan \u0130lqar Al\u0259mtab kimi tan\u0131nacaq, olunmasan, el\u0259 bizim \u0130lqar kimi qalacaqsan. M\u0259g\u0259r bunda bir f\u0259rq yoxdurmy?!<\/p>\n

\u0130lqar daha he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259di. Susdu. Sevinc susma\u011f\u0131 raz\u0131l\u0131q \u0259lam\u0259ti kimi bilib, \u00e7ay dal\u0131yca m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7di.<\/p>\n

… \u0130lqar Al\u0259mtab s\u0259h\u0259r evd\u0259n bir az tez \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, universitetd\u0259 d\u0259rsi ba\u015flayana<\/p>\n

q\u0259d\u0259r \u201cCanbaycan\u201d jurnal\u0131n\u0131n redaksiyas\u0131na ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259kdi. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, ba\u015f redaktor Qisas\u00a0 Qiyam\u0259tzad\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Yoxsa, onu s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 tutub, ax\u015famdan q\u0259til\u0259\u015fdirdiyi fikrind\u0259n, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 da\u015f\u0131nd\u0131ra bil\u0259rdi.Vaxt itirm\u0259d\u0259n sumkas\u0131ndan a\u011f v\u0259r\u0259q \u00e7xard\u0131b s\u0259liq\u0259yl\u0259 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131dak\u0131 s\u00f6zl\u0259ri yazd\u0131 : \u201c M\u0259n bu g\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259miz vicdanla ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fam. Aln\u0131m a\u00e7\u0131q, \u00fcz\u00fcm d\u0259 a\u011fd\u0131r. H\u0259yatda he\u00e7 vaxt kimins\u0259 haqq\u0131na girm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. He\u00e7 vaxt da t\u0259m\u0259nnal\u0131 yaz\u0131 \u00e7ap etdirm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Bu olaylardan sonra povestim \u00e7ap olunsa, o m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259kc\u0259 \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259t v\u0259 rahatl\u0131q yox, olsa – olsa, h\u0259m d\u0259 ancaq x\u0259cal\u0259t v\u0259 vicdan \u0259zab\u0131 g\u0259tir\u0259r. M\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259qiq\u0259ti g\u00f6rm\u0259k v\u0259 bilm\u0259k laz\u0131m idi. Deyirl\u0259r, h\u0259qiq\u0259t oldu\u011fu yerd\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ldir. H\u0259yat bel\u0259dir ki, s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn-\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n qa\u00e7a bil\u0259rs\u0259n, ancaq Uca Tanr\u0131n\u0131n insana verdiyi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc idar\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 n\u0259zar\u0259t v\u0259 vicdan \u0259zab\u0131ndan qa\u00e7a bilm\u0259zs\u0259n. Odur ki, \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck bu \u0259zabla ya\u015famaq ist\u0259m\u0259diyimd\u0259n h\u0259min povestin \u00e7ap olunmamas\u0131n\u0131 Sizd\u0259n xahi\u015f edir\u0259m. H\u00f6rm\u0259tl\u0259, \u0130lqar Al\u0259mtab.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u0130lqar Al\u0259mtab yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 v\u0259r\u0259qi ba\u015f redaktor Qisas Qiyam\u0259tzad\u0259nin stolunun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoyub otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. D\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259n sakitc\u0259 endikc\u0259, rahat n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131b \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259\u00a0 sanad\u0131\u011f\u0131 168 pill\u0259k\u0259ni \u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259- \u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131…<\/p>\n

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Yaz\u0131ya 81 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Hekay\u0259 \u00dc\u00e7 il\u0259 yax\u0131n idi ki, \u0130lqar Al\u0259mtab\u0131n \u201cRuhlar\u0131n imtahan\u0131\u201d povesti \u201cCanbaycan\u201d jurnal\u0131nda yat\u0131b qal\u0131rd\u0131. \u00dcst\u00fcnd\u0259 \u201c\u00c7apa ged\u0259c\u0259k yaz\u0131lar\u201d s\u00f6zl\u0259ri yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6y r\u0259ngli qovluq ay\u0131n \u0259vv\u0259lind\u0259 \u015fi\u015fib, k\u0259m\u0259ri g\u00fccl\u0259 ba\u011flan\u0131r, ay\u0131n sonunda ar\u0131qlay\u0131b namnazik \u00e7\u00f6p\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ancaq h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 o qovlu\u011fun lap alt\u0131nda \u0130lqar\u0131n povesti, n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 yat\u0131b qal\u0131rd\u0131. Sanki yadd s\u0259rh\u0259ddi idi, toxunmaq olmazd\u0131. Niy\u0259, n\u0259 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20245"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=20245"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20245\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":20246,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/20245\/revisions\/20246"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=20245"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=20245"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=20245"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}