{"id":22537,"date":"2026-05-14T14:06:25","date_gmt":"2026-05-14T10:06:25","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=22537"},"modified":"2026-05-14T14:06:25","modified_gmt":"2026-05-14T10:06:25","slug":"nurzad%c9%99nin-h%c9%99yati-nurlan%c9%99-c%c9%99rulla-qizi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=22537","title":{"rendered":"Nurzad\u0259nin H\u0259yat\u0131 \u2013 Nurlan\u0259 C\u0259rulla q\u0131z\u0131"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\"<\/a>(hekay\u0259)<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z\u0259l yaz f\u0259silinin g\u0259li\u015fi h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fi oldu\u011fu kimi Bak\u0131da da hiss olunurdu. Bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 d\u0259, s\u00f6z\u00fcn h\u0259qiqi m\u0259nas\u0131nda, damar\u0131nda qan donduran s\u0259rt soyuqlar indi yerini ruh ox\u015fayan il\u0131q yaz havas\u0131na vermi\u015fdi. S\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n ax\u015famad\u0259k \u00e7oxu hara getdiyini bilm\u0259d\u0259n yol boyu s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 \u015f\u00fct\u00fcy\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131nlar\u0131n qulaqbat\u0131ran u\u011fultusuna, h\u00fcnd\u00fcr a\u011faclar\u0131n t\u0259p\u0259sind\u0259 \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 pay\u0131za q\u0259d\u0259r ya\u015famaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yuva quran qu\u015flar\u0131n da s\u0259si \u0259lav\u0259 olunmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z\u0259l \u015f\u0259nb\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fcn g\u00fcnorta saatlar\u0131 idi. Jurnalist F\u0259rid\u0259 \u018ff\u0259ndiyeva m\u00fcxbiri oldu\u011fu “B\u00fcllur” q\u0259zetind\u0259 qara\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 i\u015f\u0131qland\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Sabun\u00e7u q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259sind\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015f\u0259n qara\u00e7\u0131 m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259sin\u0259 do\u011fru gedirdi. Bird\u0259n o, m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259nin giri\u015find\u0259 ayaq saxlad\u0131, \u00e7\u00fcnki \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r bu m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259 haqq\u0131nda yax\u015f\u0131 s\u00f6z e\u015fitm\u0259mi\u015fdi. M\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259y\u0259 gir\u0259n k\u0259nar \u015f\u0259xsl\u0259r\u0259 qara\u00e7\u0131lar t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n h\u00fccum edildiyini, h\u0259tta d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u00fcb qovuldu\u011funu da e\u015fitmi\u015fdi. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 o, m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259y\u0259 girm\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcd edirdi. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7evirib geriy\u0259 qay\u0131tmaq ist\u0259yirdi ki, bu zaman \u0259ynind\u0259 ip\u0259kd\u0259n qara don olan hicabl\u0131 bir qad\u0131n\u0131n \u0259lil arabas\u0131nda ona t\u0259r\u0259f ir\u0259lil\u0259diyini g\u00f6rd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Qad\u0131n g\u0259lib d\u00fcz F\u0259rid\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dayand\u0131 v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ona tutub m\u00fclayim s\u0259sl\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Salam, n\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r? \u2013 s\u00f6yl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

F\u0259rid\u0259 qad\u0131n\u0131n bu t\u00f6vr\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259ndi v\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Salam, “B\u00fcllur” q\u0259zetinin m\u00fcxbiriy\u0259m. M\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259niz\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 i\u015f\u0131qland\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m, \u2013 dey\u0259r\u0259k \u00e7antas\u0131ndan v\u0259siq\u0259sini \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b g\u00f6st\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 H\u0259, lap yax\u015f\u0131, xo\u015f g\u00f6rd\u00fck sizi, \u2013 qad\u0131n g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. \u2013 Buyurun, ged\u0259k.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bilirsiniz, \u0259slind\u0259 \u00e7ox qorxuram, \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saniy\u0259 sonra t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcdl\u0259 dill\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259d\u0259n? \u2013 qad\u0131n d\u0259rhal maraqland\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 buras\u0131ndad\u0131r ki, \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r bu m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259 haqq\u0131nda yax\u015f\u0131 s\u00f6z e\u015fitm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Deyirl\u0259r ki, bu m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fayanlar m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259y\u0259 gir\u0259n k\u0259nar \u015f\u0259xsl\u0259ri d\u00f6y\u00fcb qovurlar…<\/p>\n

\u2013 Qulaq as\u0131n, xan\u0131m, \u2013 qad\u0131n cavab\u0131nda dill\u0259ndi. \u2013 \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fcn d\u0259 bildiyiniz kimi burada ya\u015fayanlar Roman tayfas\u0131na m\u0259nsubdurlar. El dilind\u0259 des\u0259k, qara\u00e7\u0131d\u0131rlar. Qara\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259ti d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcl\u0259nin v\u0259 deyil\u0259nl\u0259rin \u0259ksin\u0259, pis adamlar deyill\u0259r. Onlar\u0131n da i\u00e7ind\u0259 xeyirxah, insanp\u0259rv\u0259r, qonaqsev\u0259n insanlar var. Bir d\u0259 ki, pis adamlar\u0131n dini, mill\u0259ti olmur. M\u0259n d\u00fcz on alt\u0131 ildir ki, bu m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259d\u0259 bu insanlar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131ram. He\u00e7 birind\u0259n z\u0259rr\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 pislik g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. \u018fksin\u0259, ham\u0131 m\u0259niml\u0259 mehriban davran\u0131b, sevgi v\u0259 qay\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131blar.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni, siz qara\u00e7\u0131 deyilsiniz? \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 maraqla soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yox, \u2013 qad\u0131n dill\u0259ndi. \u2013 Ax\u0131sqa t\u00fcrk\u00fcy\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259s nec\u0259 olub d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fcz bura? \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 yen\u0259 sual verdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 G\u00f6r\u00fcn n\u0259 deyir\u0259m: h\u0259m nahar, h\u0259m d\u0259 namaz vaxt\u0131d\u0131r, g\u0259lin ged\u0259k biz\u0259. Namaz\u0131m\u0131 q\u0131l\u0131m, sonra da birlikd\u0259 nahar ed\u0259k. H\u0259m qara\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131 yax\u0131ndan tan\u0131y\u0131n, h\u0259m d\u0259 siz\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli h\u0259yat hekay\u0259mi dan\u0131\u015f\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yax\u015f\u0131, buyurun, ged\u0259k, \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Qara\u00e7\u0131 m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259sin\u0259 aparan yol torpaq, sakinl\u0259rinin ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 evl\u0259r is\u0259 taxtadan idi. G\u00fcnorta vaxt\u0131 olmas\u0131na baxmayaraq, yolda \u00fcst-ba\u015f\u0131 \u00e7irk i\u00e7ind\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 u\u015faq var idi. U\u015faqlar\u0131n b\u0259zil\u0259ri topla oynay\u0131r, b\u0259zil\u0259ri is\u0259 yolun k\u0259nar\u0131nda, divar dibind\u0259 qalaqlanm\u0131\u015f, \u00fcfun\u0259t qoxulu zibil topalar\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 axtar\u0131rd\u0131lar. Bird\u0259n u\u015faqlar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259n, t\u0259xmini on-on iki ya\u015flar\u0131nda olan bir o\u011flan \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc Nurzad\u0259y\u0259 tutub mehriban s\u0259sl\u0259 dill\u0259ndi:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Salam, Nurzad\u0259 xala, nec\u0259siz?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Salam, Yaqub, yax\u015f\u0131yam, o\u011flum, s\u0259n nec\u0259s\u0259n? \u2013 Nurzad\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k cavab verdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yax\u015f\u0131yam, \u00e7ox sa\u011f olun, \u2013 u\u015faq dill\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 U\u015faqlar zibillikd\u0259 n\u0259 axtar\u0131rlar, Nurzad\u0259 xan\u0131m? \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 u\u015faqlardan aralanan kimi maraqla soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Satmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn metal, plastik qab, qutu v\u0259 sair, \u2013 Nurzad\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259s onlar m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 gedirl\u0259r? \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 t\u0259krar sual verdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259zil\u0259ri yox, \u2013 Nurzad\u0259 cavab verdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yaz\u0131q u\u015faqlar, \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 ac\u0131 t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcfl\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bulad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Onlar azac\u0131q yol getmi\u015fdil\u0259r ki, bu s\u0259f\u0259r d\u0259qar\u015f\u0131lar\u0131na \u0259lind\u0259 \u00e7\u0259lik olan ya\u015fl\u0131, ar\u0131q bir qad\u0131n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. F\u0259rid\u0259 onu g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi qorxub dayand\u0131. Yat adam oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qad\u0131n\u0131n \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015fib \u00e7\u0259liyi onun ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131rpaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Amma bel\u0259 olmad\u0131. Ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc Nurzad\u0259y\u0259 tutub mehriban s\u0259sl\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Salam, q\u0131z\u0131m, nec\u0259s\u0259n? \u2013 dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu. Sonra da:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Qohumundur?\u2013 deyib F\u0259rid\u0259ni g\u00f6st\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Salam, G\u00fcll\u00fc n\u0259n\u0259, \u2013 Nurzad\u0259 \u0259lini uzatd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259 qohumum, G\u00fcll\u00fc n\u0259n\u0259, m\u0259nim g\u00f6yd\u0259 Allahdan, yerd\u0259 sizd\u0259n ba\u015fqa kimim var ax\u0131? Bu n\u0259v\u0259nin ad\u0131 F\u0259rid\u0259dir, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 q\u0259zet m\u00fcxbiridir, m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259mizi m\u0259tbuatda i\u015f\u0131qland\u0131rma\u011fa g\u0259lib.<\/p>\n

\u2013 H\u0259, lap yax\u015f\u0131, xo\u015f g\u0259lmis\u0259n, q\u0131z\u0131m, \u2013 G\u00fcll\u00fc indi d\u0259 z\u0259if \u0131\u015f\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini F\u0259rid\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7evirdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Salam, n\u0259n\u0259, \u00e7ox sa\u011f ol, \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 dill\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Haral\u0131san, bala?<\/p>\n

\u2013 G\u0259d\u0259b\u0259y rayonunun Tapan k\u0259ndind\u0259n\u0259m, bura t\u0259hsil almaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Evlis\u0259n? \u2013 qad\u0131n yen\u0259 sual verdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yox, t\u0259hsilimi yeni tamamlam\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Haran\u0131 oxumusan?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bak\u0131 D\u00f6vl\u0259t Universitetinin jurnalistika fak\u00fclt\u0259sini.<\/p>\n

\u2013 H\u0259, lap yax\u015f\u0131. M\u0259nim n\u0259v\u0259m d\u0259 B\u0259d\u0259n T\u0259rbiy\u0259 \u0130nstitutunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc kursunda oxuyur.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Lap yax\u015f\u0131, \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 dindi. \u2013 N\u0259 is\u0259, biz ged\u0259k, G\u00fcll\u00fc n\u0259n\u0259, namaz vaxt\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, q\u0131z\u0131m, gedin-gedin, Allah namaz\u0131n\u0131 q\u0259bul el\u0259sin, \u2013 G\u00fcll\u00fc\u00a0 \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n dedi.<\/p>\n

Nurzad\u0259 il\u0259 F\u0259rid\u0259, G\u00fcll\u00fc il\u0259 sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b yenid\u0259n yollar\u0131na davam etdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Nurzad\u0259 xan\u0131m, bu n\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259v\u0259sinin t\u0259hsil ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcz deyir?<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, d\u00fcz deyir, \u2013 Nurzad\u0259 cavab verdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 El\u0259 bilirdim ki, bunlar ham\u0131l\u0131qla ancaq dil\u0259n\u00e7ilikl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olurlar, \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 dedi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 El\u0259 deyil, F\u0259rid\u0259 xan\u0131m, \u2013 Nurzad\u0259nin cavab\u0131 q\u0259ti oldu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bu insanlar\u0131n da i\u00e7ind\u0259 t\u0259hsil alanlar\u0131, i\u015fl\u0259yib halal z\u0259hm\u0259tl\u0259ri il\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k qazananlar\u0131 var. El\u0259 qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m ev sahibi d\u0259 onlardan biridir.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bilmirdim.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Siz h\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7ox \u015fey \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259c\u0259ksiniz, F\u0259rid\u0259 xan\u0131m. H\u0259m qara\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n nec\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, h\u0259m d\u0259 m\u0259nim bura g\u0259li\u015fimin s\u0259b\u0259bini.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Buyurun, bu da bizim evimiz, \u2013 deyib Nurzad\u0259 taxta bir vaqonun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dayand\u0131.<\/p>\n

Vaqonun qap\u0131s\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131na \u00e7\u00f6l t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n xal\u00e7a sal\u0131nm\u0131\u015f, \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 yast\u0131q-d\u00f6\u015f\u0259k\u00e7\u0259 at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, s\u00fcfr\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qar\u015f\u0131da \u0259kilmi\u015f s\u00f6y\u00fcd a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda is\u0259 samovar qaynay\u0131rd\u0131. Bir az aral\u0131da, \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 bi\u015fm\u0259kd\u0259 olan yem\u0259yin xo\u015f \u0259tri \u0259trafa yay\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Hey, mill\u0259t! \u2013 Nurzad\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc evimiz dediyi vaqona t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7evirib s\u0259sl\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 G\u0259ldin, q\u0131z\u0131m?<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259n mehriban qad\u0131n s\u0259si e\u015fidildi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 H\u0259, g\u0259ldim. \u018fmin\u0259 xala, deyir\u0259m, b\u0259lk\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xasan, qona\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri g\u00f6z\u0259llik g\u00f6rs\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Qona\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n?<\/p>\n

\u2013 H\u0259. S\u0259n\u0259 Allah qona\u011f\u0131 g\u0259tirmi\u015f\u0259m, \u2013 Nurzad\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yax\u015f\u0131 el\u0259mis\u0259n, q\u0131z\u0131m. \u0130ndi \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r\u0131q.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259n orta ya\u015fl\u0131, k\u00f6k, q\u0131sa boylu bir qad\u0131n, arxas\u0131nca t\u0259qrib\u0259n onunla eyni ya\u015fda, ar\u0131q, uzun boylu, mavi g\u00f6zl\u00fc, sa\u00e7lar\u0131 \u00e7alla\u015fm\u0131\u015f bir ki\u015fi, ard\u0131nca da ikisi o\u011flan, ikisi q\u0131z olmaqla d\u00f6rd u\u015faq \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Siz bu q\u0259d\u0259r insanla burada ya\u015fay\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z? \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc Nurzad\u0259y\u0259 tutdu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259li, \u2013 Nurzad\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rp\u0259tdi.<\/p>\n

F\u0259rid\u0259 cavab\u0131 e\u015fidinc\u0259k yerind\u0259 quruyub qald\u0131. O q\u0259d\u0259r adam\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6ld\u0259n ki\u00e7ik g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n bu evd\u0259 nec\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131na inana bilm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Xo\u015f g\u0259lmis\u0259n, q\u0131z\u0131m, \u2013 qona\u011f\u0131 ilk salamlayan ki\u015fi oldu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Salam, xo\u015f g\u00f6rd\u00fck, \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 dill\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

Nurzad\u0259 ail\u0259 \u00fczvl\u0259rini F\u0259rid\u0259y\u0259 tan\u0131tma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bu, R\u0259hman \u0259midir, evin sahibi. Bu da onun xan\u0131m\u0131 \u018fmin\u0259 xala. Bunlar da q\u0131zlar\u0131 M\u0259l\u0259kl\u0259 Arzu, o\u011fullar\u0131 Zamanla Namazd\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Tan\u0131\u015f olma\u011f\u0131m\u0131za \u015fadam, \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 dedi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Biz d\u0259, \u2013 ham\u0131 bir a\u011f\u0131zdan dill\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259nc\u0259, bura niy\u0259 g\u0259ldiyimi \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 fikriniz d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259c\u0259k, \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 \u0259lav\u0259 etdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Niy\u0259, q\u0131z\u0131m? \u2013 \u018fmin\u0259 maraqla soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u0130\u015f buras\u0131ndad\u0131r ki\u2026 \u018fmin\u0259 xala\u2026 \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259nin \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 Nurzad\u0259 dill\u0259ndi:<\/p>\n

\u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 xan\u0131m q\u0259zet m\u00fcxbiridir. Biz qara\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n nec\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lib, el\u0259dir?<\/p>\n

R\u0259hman Nurzad\u0259nin c\u00fcml\u0259sini tamamlad\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259li.<\/p>\n

F\u0259rid\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kinc\u0259k halda ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rp\u0259tdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bu normal hald\u0131r. Biz milli azl\u0131q\u0131q, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 sizl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bizim h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131z maraql\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Anlay\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131z \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr edir\u0259m, R\u0259hman b\u0259y, \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 raz\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildirdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 H\u0259, bu g\u00fcn hava xo\u015fdur dey\u0259 yem\u0259yimizi h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 yem\u0259k q\u0259rar\u0131na g\u0259ldik, \u2013 \u018fmin\u0259 dedi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Siz ke\u00e7in oturun. Biz d\u0259 ged\u0259k yem\u0259yi g\u0259tir\u0259k.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Arzu, M\u0259l\u0259k, g\u0259lin m\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k edin.<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259 bi\u015firmis\u0259n, \u018fmin\u0259 xala? \u2013 Nurzad\u0259 soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 S\u00fcrprizdir, dey\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m, \u2013 \u018fmin\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yax\u015f\u0131, onda m\u0259n d\u0259 gedim d\u0259st\u0259maz al\u0131m, namaz\u0131m\u0131 q\u0131l\u0131m. Siz d\u0259 gedin d\u0259st\u0259maz al\u0131n, balalar\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Nurzad\u0259 bu d\u0259f\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc o\u011flanlara tutdu.\u2013 Biz q\u0131ld\u0131q, Nurzad\u0259 xala, \u2013 Namaz c\u0259ld s\u00f6yl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u018fmin\u0259 il\u0259 q\u0131zlar yem\u0259k bi\u015fm\u0259kd\u0259 olan soban\u0131n yan\u0131na, Nurzad\u0259 is\u0259 d\u0259st\u0259maz almaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn evin arxa t\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 getdi. Qalanlar is\u0259 s\u00fcfr\u0259nin arxas\u0131nda oturdular. Zaman samovar\u0131 g\u0259tirib s\u00fcfr\u0259d\u0259ki st\u0259kanlara \u00e7ay s\u00fczd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131m, samovar \u00e7ay\u0131 i\u00e7, \u2013 R\u0259hman \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ona tutdu. \u2013 \u00c7\u0259kinm\u0259, el\u0259 bil \u00f6z evind\u0259s\u0259n.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u00c7ox sa\u011f olun, \u2013 deyib F\u0259rid\u0259 st\u0259kanlardan birini qaba\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kdi. H\u0259r k\u0259s \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7di, araya sakitlik \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc. Yaranan s\u00fckutu F\u0259rid\u0259 pozdu:<\/p>\n

\u2014 R\u0259hman b\u0259y, siz n\u0259 vaxtdan burada ya\u015fay\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z?<\/p>\n

\u2014 Bilmir\u0259m, \u2014 R\u0259hman sakit s\u0259sl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. \u2014 T\u0259kc\u0259 onu bilir\u0259m ki, m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259mizd\u0259ki dig\u0259r qara\u00e7\u0131 ail\u0259l\u0259r kimi valideynl\u0259rim k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259ri olublar. H\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fi g\u0259zdikd\u0259n sonra Az\u0259rbaycana k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcb burada \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 m\u0259sk\u0259n sal\u0131blar. Biz be\u015f q\u0131z, be\u015f o\u011flan olmaqla on u\u015faq olmu\u015fuq. Ham\u0131m\u0131z burada do\u011fulub b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f, buran\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yini yeyib, suyunu i\u00e7mi\u015f, havas\u0131n\u0131 udub, torpa\u011f\u0131nda g\u0259zmi\u015fik. M\u00fcxt\u0259s\u0259r, biz d\u0259 valideynl\u0259rimiz kimi bu torpaqlar\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 v\u0259t\u0259n bilmi\u015fik. Bunun n\u0259tic\u0259sidir ki, m\u0259n \u00f6z tayfam\u0131zdan biri il\u0259 deyil, m\u0259hz az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131 il\u0259 evl\u0259nmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni, \u018fmin\u0259 xan\u0131m? \u2014 F\u0259rid\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

\u2014 H\u0259, \u018fmin\u0259 sizd\u0259ndir, \u2014 R\u0259hman davam etdi. \u2014 Bizd\u0259n bir m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131 \u018fmin\u0259. Bir-birimizi yolda g\u00f6r\u00fcb b\u0259y\u0259ndik. R\u0259hm\u0259tlik qaynatam qara\u00e7\u0131 oldu\u011fum \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu evliliy\u0259 raz\u0131 olmad\u0131. M\u0259n d\u0259 onu qa\u00e7\u0131r\u0131b evl\u0259ndim. T\u0259bii ki, sonra bar\u0131\u015f\u0131q oldu v\u0259 biz qaynatam \u00f6l\u0259n\u0259d\u0259k ata-o\u011ful kimi ya\u015fad\u0131q. \u0130ndi Allaha \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, otuz ildir evliyik, d\u00f6rd o\u011flan, d\u00f6rd q\u0131z olmaqla s\u0259kkiz \u00f6vlad\u0131m\u0131z var.<\/p>\n

\u2014 B\u0259s u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n qalan\u0131 han\u0131? \u2014 F\u0259rid\u0259 soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

\u2014 B\u00f6y\u00fck q\u0131zlar\u0131m Mirvari il\u0259 Dilbazi \u0259r\u0259, o\u011flanlar\u0131m Zahidl\u0259 Cahid is\u0259 h\u0259rbi xidm\u0259t\u0259 gedibl\u0259r, \u2014 R\u0259hman dedi.<\/p>\n

\u2014 H\u0259rbi xidm\u0259t\u0259? \u2014 F\u0259rid\u0259 duruxdu. \u2014 Y\u0259ni sizin d\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131z h\u0259rbi xidm\u0259t\u0259 gedirl\u0259r?<\/p>\n

\u2014 \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 gedirl\u0259r, niy\u0259 d\u0259 getm\u0259sinl\u0259r? Ax\u0131 bura onlar\u0131n da v\u0259t\u0259nidir. Vaxtil\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz d\u0259 h\u0259rbi xidm\u0259t\u0259 getmi\u015fik.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Harada i\u015fl\u0259yirsiniz? \u2014 F\u0259rid\u0259 azac\u0131q fasil\u0259d\u0259n sonra n\u00f6vb\u0259ti sual\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcnvanlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2014 On alt\u0131 ildir ki, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k sexind\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yir\u0259m. Y\u0259ni Nurzad\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra, \u2014 R\u0259hman s\u0259mimiyy\u0259tl\u0259 dill\u0259ndi. \u2014 Nurzad\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l is\u0259 he\u00e7 yerd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259mir, s\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n ax\u015famad\u0259k b\u00f6y\u00fck q\u0131zlar\u0131mla birg\u0259 dil\u0259nirdim.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Dil\u0259nirdiniz? \u2014 F\u0259rid\u0259 ciddil\u0259\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

\u2014 H\u0259, \u2014 R\u0259hman dedi, \u2014 v\u0259 y\u0259qin ki, Nurzad\u0259 bura g\u0259lm\u0259s\u0259ydi, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 dil\u0259n\u0259c\u0259k, h\u0259tta dig\u0259r u\u015faqlar\u0131m\u0131 da dil\u0259ndir\u0259c\u0259k, onlar\u0131 da o yaz\u0131q q\u0131zlar\u0131m kimi m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdim, \u2014 dey\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259lav\u0259 etdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259s nec\u0259 oldu ki, Nurzad\u0259 xan\u0131m bura g\u0259lib sizinl\u0259 ya\u015fama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131?<\/p>\n

R\u0259hman F\u0259rid\u0259nin bu sual\u0131na da cavab verm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi ki, \u018fmin\u0259 q\u0131zlarla birg\u0259, \u0259lind\u0259 yem\u0259k dolu sini s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. Nurzad\u0259 d\u0259 namaz q\u0131lmaqdan qay\u0131td\u0131. Arzu sinid\u0259ki yem\u0259kl\u0259ri s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fczm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2014 A\u015f! \u2014 dey\u0259 Nurzad\u0259 sevinc\u0259k q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2014 S\u0259n dedin, m\u0259n d\u0259 bi\u015firdim, \u2014 \u018fmin\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Allah raz\u0131 olsun, \u018fmin\u0259 xala, \u2014 Nurzad\u0259 t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr etdi.<\/p>\n

\u2014 D\u0259ym\u0259z, q\u0131z\u0131m. O n\u0259 dem\u0259kdir? \u2014 \u018fmin\u0259 dedi. \u2014 S\u0259n d\u0259 otur, ba\u015flayaq.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Yax\u015f\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 G\u0259l s\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k el\u0259yim, Nurzad\u0259 xala, \u2013 deyib Namaz aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Yox, o\u011flum, laz\u0131m deyil, \u2014 Nurzad\u0259 etiraz etdi.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Nurzad\u0259 xala, onsuz da b\u00fct\u00fcn i\u015fl\u0259rini \u00f6z\u00fcn g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n. He\u00e7 birimizins\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259d\u0259s\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k etm\u0259yimizi ist\u0259mirs\u0259n. He\u00e7 olmasa buna icaz\u0259 ver, \u2014 Namaz m\u00fclayimlikl\u0259 xahi\u015f etdi.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Yax\u015f\u0131, n\u0259 deyir\u0259m, \u2014 Nurzad\u0259 raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Namaz c\u0259ld, \u00e7\u0259kid\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r olmayan Nurzad\u0259ni arabadan g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb d\u00f6\u015f\u0259k\u00e7\u0259nin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, \u0259ll\u0259rimi harada yuya bil\u0259r\u0259m? \u2014 deyib F\u0259rid\u0259 yerind\u0259n qalxd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Ged\u0259k g\u00f6st\u0259rim, \u2014 Arzu da aya\u011fa durdu.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r ikisi d\u0259 evin arxas\u0131ndak\u0131 su kran\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f getdil\u0259r. Az ke\u00e7mi\u015f yenid\u0259n s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b, \u201cBismillah\u201d dey\u0259r\u0259k birlikd\u0259 yem\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u018fla, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi b\u0259z\u0259kli, dadl\u0131 a\u015f bi\u015firib \u018fmin\u0259 xala: \u015fabal\u0131d, ki\u015fmi\u015f, qays\u0131, xurma…<\/p>\n

Nurzad\u0259 yem\u0259yin\u0259 ara verib m\u0259mnun halda dill\u0259ndi:<\/p>\n

\u2014 Bir g\u00fcn H\u0259zr\u0259ti M\u0259h\u0259mm\u0259d Pey\u011f\u0259mb\u0259rimizl\u0259 H\u0259zr\u0259ti \u018fli birlikd\u0259 xurma yeyirl\u0259rmi\u015f. Pey\u011f\u0259mb\u0259rimiz \u018fli il\u0259 zarafat etm\u0259k m\u0259qs\u0259dil\u0259 \u00f6z yediyi xurman\u0131n d\u0259n\u0259l\u0259rini d\u0259\u00a0 onun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na qoyur. Xurmalar bitdikd\u0259n sonra is\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259 H\u0259zr\u0259ti \u018fliy\u0259: \u201cYa \u018fli, n\u0259 yaman acm\u0131sanm\u0131\u015f, b\u00fct\u00fcn xurmalar\u0131 bitirmis\u0259n, qab\u0131n xurma d\u0259n\u0259l\u0259ri il\u0259 doludur\u201d, \u2014 deyir.<\/p>\n

H\u0259zr\u0259ti \u018fli d\u0259 eyni t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2014 Ya R\u0259sulAllah, dey\u0259s\u0259n siz d\u0259 \u00e7ox acm\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z, xurman\u0131 d\u0259n\u0259l\u0259ri il\u0259 birlikd\u0259 yemisiniz, qar\u015f\u0131n\u0131zda he\u00e7 d\u0259n\u0259 yoxdur, \u2014 dey\u0259 cavab verir.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Xurman\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, bu \u0259hvalat yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, \u2014 Nurzad\u0259nin dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu \u0259hvalat s\u00fcfr\u0259d\u0259ki h\u0259r k\u0259sin \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 xo\u015f bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm yaratd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Nurzad\u0259 xala, Pey\u011f\u0259mb\u0259rimiz \u00f6z\u00fc zarafat edib g\u00fclm\u0259yi sevirmi\u015fs\u0259, onda niy\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259n bir adam g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 \u201cYerind\u0259 olsam az g\u00fcl\u00fcb, \u00e7ox d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rdim\u201d dey\u0259rmi\u015f? Niy\u0259 bel\u0259 dey\u0259rmi\u015f ax\u0131? Pey\u011f\u0259mb\u0259rimiz, y\u0259ni insan n\u0259yi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259lidir? \u2014 dey\u0259 Namaz maraq dolu s\u0259sl\u0259 soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Haqq-hesab g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc, o\u011flum, \u2013 Nurzad\u0259 dill\u0259ndi. \u2013 \u00c7\u00fcnki h\u0259min g\u00fcn insan b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259ri kimi h\u0259m d\u0259 bu h\u0259yatda n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, n\u0259y\u0259 v\u0259 kim\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 cavab ver\u0259c\u0259k. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, yolda x\u0259st\u0259 ya da m\u0259nim kimi fiziki m\u0259hdudiyy\u0259tli bir insan g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259 onun yan\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b salam verm\u0259k, hal\u0131n\u0131 soru\u015fub ehtiyaclar\u0131 il\u0259 maraqlanmaq, laz\u0131m g\u0259ls\u0259 n\u0259d\u0259s\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k etm\u0259k bir ba\u015fqa; \u0259ksin\u0259, h\u0259min insan\u0131 v\u0259ziyy\u0259tin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 barmaqla g\u00f6st\u0259rib ay\u0131blamaq, la\u011fa qoyub g\u00fclm\u0259k tamam ba\u015fqad\u0131r. H\u0259, qoy bunu da deyim: \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00fclm\u0259k n\u00f6v\u00fc a\u011fz\u0131 qapal\u0131 \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 xo\u015f bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm ifad\u0259 etm\u0259kdir. \u00c7irkin g\u00fclm\u0259k is\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 q\u0259h-q\u0259h\u0259 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r\u0259k g\u00fclm\u0259kdir, \u00e7\u00fcnki onda \u015feytan, Allah\u0131n b\u0259nd\u0259si arxay\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b deyib sevin\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l s\u00f6zl\u0259r dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z, Nurzad\u0259 xan\u0131m, adam saatlarla siz\u0259 qulaq asmaq ist\u0259yir, \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 s\u0259mimiyy\u0259tl\u0259 dill\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u018fslind\u0259 ham\u0131m\u0131z bunlar\u0131 bilm\u0259liyik, \u2013 R\u0259hman dedi v\u0259 \u0259lav\u0259 etdi:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Kim bilir, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259n f\u0259lak\u0259tl\u0259rin s\u0259b\u0259bi bizim Allahdan, dind\u0259n uzaqla\u015f\u0131b ba\u015fqa yollara y\u00f6n\u0259lm\u0259yimiz\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259dir.<\/p>\n

\u2013 D\u00fcz deyirs\u0259n, \u2013 \u018fmin\u0259 \u0259rinin dedikl\u0259rini ba\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 t\u0259sdiql\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u0130yirmi d\u0259qiq\u0259 ke\u00e7di, ham\u0131 yem\u0259yini yeyib p\u00fcrr\u0259ng samovar \u00e7ay\u0131ndan i\u00e7dikd\u0259n sonra “Allaha \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr\u20bc edib bir-bir s\u00fcfr\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kildi . Yem\u0259kl\u0259r \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l idi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u018fmin\u0259 xan\u0131m, \u0259ll\u0259riniz\u0259 q\u00fcvv\u0259t, \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 s\u0259mimiyy\u0259tl\u0259 dill\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Nu\u015f olsun, q\u0131z\u0131m, haqq\u0131-halal\u0131n olsun, \u2013 \u018fmin\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n dedi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u018fmin\u0259 xalan\u0131n yem\u0259kl\u0259rin\u0259 s\u00f6z ola bilm\u0259z, \u2013 Nurzad\u0259 \u0259minlikl\u0259 dedi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Az t\u0259rifl\u0259, ay q\u0131z, \u2013 \u018fmin\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u2013 R\u0259hman \u0259minin s\u0259nin bir h\u0259ft\u0259 sonra olacaq ad g\u00fcn\u00fcn m\u00fcnasib\u0259til\u0259 qo\u015fdu\u011fu \u015feirin yan\u0131nda m\u0259nim t\u0259rifim he\u00e7 n\u0259dir, \u2013 Nurzad\u0259 iri\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u015eeir? N\u0259 \u015feir? \u2013 R\u0259hman duruxdu. Nurzad\u0259 bo\u011faz\u0131n\u0131 ar\u0131tlay\u0131b \u015feiri s\u00f6yl\u0259di:<\/p>\n

“S\u0259n\u0259 \u015firin yuxu, dinclik, \u0259zizim,<\/p>\n

Ka\u015f yuxun, dincliyin olayd\u0131m \u00f6z\u00fcm.”<\/p>\n

\u015eeir bit\u0259n kimi ham\u0131 g\u00fclm\u0259kd\u0259n u\u011funub getdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 H\u0259, h\u0259l\u0259 bu n\u0259dir ki, \u2013 Nurzad\u0259 zarafata davam etdi. \u2013 R\u0259hman \u0259mi dedi ki, h\u0259min g\u00fcn m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259mizd\u0259 \u0259n h\u00fcnd\u00fcr yer\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xacaq v\u0259 oradan “M\u0259n \u018fmin\u0259ni sevir\u0259m!” dey\u0259 ucadan q\u0131\u015fq\u0131racaq. Sonra cibind\u0259n \u015feirini v\u0259 bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259ri \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b havaya buraxacaq.<\/p>\n

R\u0259hman\u0131n utand\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan sif\u0259ti lal\u0259 kimi q\u0131zard\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Off, ay q\u0131z, m\u0259nd\u0259n n\u0259 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n ax\u0131?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Neynim, s\u0259n\u0259 sata\u015fmasam dura bilmir\u0259m, \u2013 Nurzad\u0259 dedi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Arzu, M\u0259l\u0259k, durun, s\u00fcfr\u0259ni y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131n, \u2013 \u018fmin\u0259 q\u0131zlar\u0131na m\u00fcraci\u0259t etdi. Q\u0131zlar tez s\u00fcfr\u0259ni y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b apard\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

\u2013 H\u0259, Nurzad\u0259 xan\u0131m, m\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 dan\u0131\u015facaqd\u0131n\u0131z ax\u0131, m\u0259ni o v\u0259dl\u0259 bura g\u0259tirdiniz, \u2013 F\u0259rid\u0259 dill\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Dan\u0131\u015facam, F\u0259rid\u0259 xan\u0131m, dan\u0131\u015facam, \u2013 Nurzad\u0259 F\u0259rid\u0259ni arxay\u0131n etdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Dur biz ged\u0259k, q\u0131zlar da rahat s\u00f6hb\u0259t etsinl\u0259r, \u2013 dey\u0259 \u018fmin\u0259 \u0259rin\u0259 xitab\u0259n dill\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yox, \u018fmin\u0259 xala, \u2013 Nurzad\u0259 etiraz etdi, \u2013 siz qal\u0131n, onsuz da h\u0259r \u015feyi bilirsiniz. Onda biz i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7\u0259k.<\/p>\n

Zamanla Namaz aya\u011fa durub ota\u011fa ke\u00e7dil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yan\u0131n\u0131zda d\u0259smal var, F\u0259rid\u0259 xan\u0131m?<\/p>\n

\u2013 H\u0259, var, n\u0259dir ki?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Onu \u0259linizd\u0259 haz\u0131r saxlay\u0131n, tez-tez g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 silm\u0259y\u0259 laz\u0131m olacaq. \u00c7\u00fcnki m\u0259nim h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131n bura g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r olan hiss\u0259si ba\u015fdan-ba\u015fa a\u011flamal\u0131d\u0131r. M\u0259n, Nurzad\u0259 Ridvanova, s\u0259kkiz noyabr 1987-ci ild\u0259 d\u00f6rd u\u015faql\u0131 ail\u0259nin sonuncu \u00f6vlad\u0131 olaraq \u00d6zb\u0259kistan\u0131n Buxara vilay\u0259tinin Qala-Asiya k\u0259ndind\u0259 do\u011fulmu\u015fam.<\/p>\n

Nurzad\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saniy\u0259 sonra d\u0259rind\u0259nK\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb a\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Do\u011fu\u015f zaman\u0131 h\u0259r iki aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131n normadan daha ki\u00e7ik oldu\u011fu a\u015fkarlan\u0131r. H\u0259kim ayaqlar\u0131m\u0131n yet\u0259rinc\u0259 inki\u015faf etm\u0259diyini, buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt yeriy\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yimi deyib. Babamla atam “Allah\u0131n q\u0259d\u0259ridir” deyib bununla raz\u0131la\u015f\u0131blar. Ancaq anam, \u0259n \u00e7ox da n\u0259n\u0259m v\u0259ziyy\u0259timl\u0259 bar\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259m\u0259yibl\u0259r. Do\u011fuldu\u011fumun q\u0131rx\u0131nc\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 anam, atam\u0131n babamla i\u015f \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qon\u015fu k\u0259nd\u0259 getm\u0259yini f\u00fcrs\u0259t bilib, n\u0259n\u0259min d\u0259 t\u0259kidi il\u0259 m\u0259ni k\u0259ndin k\u0259nar\u0131nda yerl\u0259\u015f\u0259n otlaq sah\u0259sin\u0259 at\u0131b.<\/p>\n

Babamla atam hadis\u0259d\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra ev\u0259 qay\u0131danda x\u0259b\u0259r tutublar. T\u0259bii olaraq \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015fibl\u0259r v\u0259 d\u0259rhal h\u0259min yer\u0259 gedibl\u0259r. Babam\u0131n dediyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, m\u0259ni orada s\u0131x otlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda a\u011flama s\u0259simi e\u015fidib tap\u0131blar. Kim bilir, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bu s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n v\u0259h\u015fi heyvanlara yem olmam\u0131\u015fam. M\u0259ni oradan g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259k ev\u0259 g\u0259tiribl\u0259r v\u0259 anama da, n\u0259n\u0259m\u0259 d\u0259 v\u0259ziyy\u0259timd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq Allah\u0131n yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir b\u0259nd\u0259nin ya\u015famaq haqq\u0131n\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n alma\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u00fcnah say\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, onu bil\u0259-bil\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 t\u0259rk etm\u0259yin yolverilm\u0259z oldu\u011funu deyib, bir d\u0259 bel\u0259 \u015fey el\u0259m\u0259m\u0259kl\u0259rini tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131blar. Bel\u0259likl\u0259, n\u0259n\u0259m d\u0259, anam da ist\u0259m\u0259dikl\u0259ri halda m\u0259n\u0259 baxma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131blar.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r \u015fey \u00f6z axar\u0131 il\u0259 davam edirmi\u015f, ta ki 1989-cu il\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r. H\u0259min ild\u0259n etibar\u0259n F\u0259rqan\u0259 vadisind\u0259 Ah\u0131ska t\u00fcrkl\u0259rin\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 k\u00fctl\u0259vi h\u00fccumlar t\u00f6r\u0259dilir, evl\u0259r yand\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r, minl\u0259rl\u0259 insan d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259k \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcl\u00fcr. \u0130nsanlar da m\u0259cburiyy\u0259t qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda qal\u0131b evl\u0259rini t\u0259rk ed\u0259r\u0259k Rusiya, Qazax\u0131stan, Q\u0131r\u011f\u0131z\u0131stan v\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycana k\u00f6\u00e7 etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131rlar. Atamgil d\u0259 zorak\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n artd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb dig\u0259r soyda\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z kimi 1990-c\u0131 ilin \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259 \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, g\u0259lib Az\u0259rbaycanda \u2013 \u015e\u0259mkirin K\u00fcr q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259sind\u0259 m\u0259skunla\u015f\u0131rlar. Onlar yerli \u0259hali t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n bo\u015f qalan evl\u0259rd\u0259n birin\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015fdirilirl\u0259r v\u0259 heyvandarl\u0131qla m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olub ail\u0259ni doland\u0131rma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar.<\/p>\n

T\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki, n\u0259 bu hadis\u0259l\u0259ri, n\u0259 d\u0259 do\u011fulub b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcy\u00fcm v\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m v\u0259t\u0259niml\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 he\u00e7 bir \u015fey xat\u0131rlam\u0131ram. B\u0259zi x\u0131rda v\u0259 xo\u015fag\u0259lm\u0259z detallar\u0131 saymasaq, u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131m babam\u0131n v\u0259 atam\u0131n \u0259hat\u0259sind\u0259 \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l ke\u00e7di. Yad\u0131mda qalan \u0259n xo\u015f xatir\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n biri d\u0259 r\u0259hm\u0259tlik babam\u0131n m\u0259ni qar ya\u011fan zaman adyala b\u00fck\u00fcb qar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 yumalamas\u0131d\u0131r. H\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 atam\u0131n, babam\u0131n, anam\u0131n v\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259min quca\u011f\u0131nda \u00e7\u0131xar, evd\u0259 is\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259-s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259z\u0259rdim.\u00a0 Bir d\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan xat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u0259rhum milli q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131m\u0131z \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r Aznalov v\u0259 onunla ba\u011fl\u0131 olan xatir\u0259l\u0259rdir. Biziml\u0259 eyni k\u0259ndd\u0259n idi. \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r \u0259mi orada da, \u015e\u0259mkird\u0259 d\u0259 qon\u015fumuz idi. O da biziml\u0259 birlikd\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc Az\u0259rbaycana. Can\u0131m \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r \u0259mim… \u2013 Nurzad\u0259nin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri doldu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yax\u015f\u0131 insan idi \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r \u0259mi. Allah b\u00fct\u00fcn insani keyfiyy\u0259tl\u0259ri onun \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 c\u0259ml\u0259\u015fdirmi\u015fdi. O tez-tez biz\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259rdi. M\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259n zaman ba\u015fqalar\u0131 kimi g\u00fcl\u00fcb la\u011fa qoymaz, oldu\u011fum yerd\u0259n qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kib uzaqla\u015fmaz, \u0259ksin\u0259, \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm yan\u0131ma yax\u0131nla\u015far, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 s\u0131\u011fallay\u0131b hal\u0131m\u0131 soru\u015fard\u0131. \u00dc\u00e7 \u00f6vlad\u0131 var idi, onlar haz\u0131rda da Az\u0259rbaycanda ya\u015fay\u0131rlar. Bir ara \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r \u0259mini g\u00f6rm\u0259dim. Soru\u015fanda n\u0259n\u0259m onun harasa i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 getdiyini dedi. Lakin s\u0259n dem\u0259, o, birinci Qaraba\u011f d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259 i\u015ftirak edirmi\u015f. Bir il sonra is\u0259 onun \u015f\u0259hid oldu\u011fu x\u0259b\u0259ri g\u0259ldi. \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r \u0259mi 1993-c\u00fc ilin aprel ay\u0131n\u0131n on s\u0259kkizind\u0259 G\u0259d\u0259b\u0259yin \u015e\u0131n\u0131x b\u00f6lg\u0259sind\u0259 ged\u0259n d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259 q\u0259hr\u0259mancas\u0131na \u015f\u0259hid olmu\u015fdu. X\u0259b\u0259ri e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r a\u011flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ki… Onda h\u0259l\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn n\u0259 oldu\u011funu tam m\u0259nas\u0131 il\u0259 d\u0259rk etmirdim, amma bir daha \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r \u0259mini g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yimi bilirdim. Sonralar babam \u015f\u0259hidl\u0259rin \u00f6lm\u0259diyini, \u0259ksin\u0259, onlar\u0131n h\u0259r zaman q\u0259lbimizd\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 dedi. Babam onu da dedi ki, Allah qat\u0131nda \u0259n uca zirv\u0259 \u015f\u0259hidlik zirv\u0259sidir. \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r \u0259mi d\u0259 bu zirv\u0259y\u0259 ucalaraq c\u0259nn\u0259t\u0259 gedib. Allah \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r \u0259minin timsal\u0131nda b\u00fct\u00fcn \u015f\u0259hidl\u0259r\u0259 r\u0259hm\u0259t el\u0259sin.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Amin, \u2013 ham\u0131 Nurzad\u0259nin duas\u0131na qo\u015fuldu.<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259c\u0259, ill\u0259r ke\u00e7di.<\/p>\n

Nurzad\u0259 davam etdi:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yeddi ya\u015f\u0131ma g\u0259lib \u00e7atd\u0131m. T\u0259bii ki, h\u0259r u\u015faq kimi m\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 getm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim. Atam bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259t etdikd\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259b direktoru m\u0259ni m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 q\u0259bul etm\u0259kd\u0259n imtina etdi, m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259r d\u0259 evd\u0259 d\u0259rs ke\u00e7m\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259dil\u0259r. Bu s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 ged\u0259 bilm\u0259yib yaz\u0131b-oxuma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fck bac\u0131m Lumiy\u0259d\u0259n v\u0259 be\u015f ya\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fck Nuriyy\u0259d\u0259n \u00f6yr\u0259ndim sonradan.H\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131 c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m\u0259 \u00e7evir\u0259c\u0259k m\u0259nd\u0259n on yeddi ya\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fck bac\u0131m \u00dcnzil\u0259 is\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 bir ya\u015f\u0131m olan zaman T\u0259rlan adl\u0131 o\u011flana \u0259r\u0259 getmi\u015fdi. Onlar\u0131n \u018frma\u011fan v\u0259 \u00dcmid\u0259 adl\u0131 iki u\u015faqlar\u0131 var idi. Onlar da biziml\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycana g\u0259lmi\u015f v\u0259 Yeni H\u0259yat k\u0259ndin\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. N\u0259 is\u0259, bununla yana\u015f\u0131, h\u0259m d\u0259 evimizd\u0259 olan Qurani-K\u0259rimi oxumaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn babamdan \u0259r\u0259b \u0259lifbas\u0131n\u0131 da \u00f6yr\u0259ndim. \u0130yirmi s\u0259kkiz h\u0259rflik \u0259lifban\u0131 bir aya \u00f6yr\u0259nib bitirdim. Sonra da Quran\u0131 yava\u015f-yava\u015f avazla oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. Ya\u015f\u0131m \u00e7atan kimi babam v\u0259 atamla birlikd\u0259 d\u0259stnamaz al\u0131b namaz q\u0131lma\u011fa, ramazan ay\u0131nda oruc tutma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. Ancaq n\u0259n\u0259m bunu ist\u0259m\u0259zdi. O, Allah\u0131n m\u0259ni sevm\u0259diyini, buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 etdiyim ibad\u0259tl\u0259ri q\u0259bul etm\u0259diyini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Lakin bu he\u00e7 d\u0259 bel\u0259 deyildi. Niy\u0259 Allah m\u0259ni sevm\u0259m\u0259liydi? Ax\u0131 m\u0259ni bu v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 Allah\u0131n el\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259n is\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259m\u0259 fikir vermir, dini v\u0259zif\u0259l\u0259rimi bacard\u0131\u011f\u0131m q\u0259d\u0259r yerin\u0259 yetirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. N\u0259n\u0259m is\u0259 h\u0259r f\u00fcrs\u0259td\u0259 v\u0259ziyy\u0259timi ba\u015f\u0131ma qaxar, ail\u0259mizin utanc hissi, \u00fcz qaras\u0131, x\u0259cal\u0259t yeri oldu\u011fumu dey\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

Nurzad\u0259 yen\u0259 o anlar\u0131 bir d\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi k\u00f6vr\u0259ldi:<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259n\u0259m anamla da yola getm\u0259zdi. O, h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 anamla m\u00fcbahis\u0259 ed\u0259n zaman: “K\u00fcl ba\u015f\u0131na! D\u00f6rd u\u015faq do\u011fdun, d\u00f6rd\u00fc d\u0259 q\u0131z, sonuncusu da topal”, \u2013 dey\u0259r\u0259k olanlarda onu g\u00fcnahkar \u00e7\u0131xarard\u0131. Anam da bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Ka\u015f ki bu c\u00fcr d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lm\u0259kd\u0259ns\u0259 \u00f6ls\u0259ydin, m\u0259n d\u0259 bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri e\u015fitm\u0259zdim, \u2013 deyib m\u0259n\u0259, qula\u011f\u0131m e\u015fid\u0259-e\u015fid\u0259 Allahdan \u00f6l\u00fcm dil\u0259y\u0259rdi. \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, babam kimi sakit, mehriban, s\u0259mimi, xo\u015fxasiyy\u0259t biri deyildi n\u0259n\u0259m. O, olduqca kobud, \u0259zazil, ri\u015fx\u0259ndcil, davakar bir qad\u0131n idi. Onunla ba\u011fl\u0131 doqquz ya\u015f\u0131m olan zaman ba\u015f\u0131ma g\u0259l\u0259n daha bir ac\u0131 xatir\u0259ms\u0259 bel\u0259dir: bir g\u00fcn qon\u015fuluqda toy idi. M\u0259n d\u0259 toya getm\u0259k ist\u0259dim, bu zaman n\u0259n\u0259m d\u00fcz \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u2013 S\u0259n bu hal\u0131nla bu evd\u0259n ancaq q\u0259br\u0259 ged\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n, \u2013 dedi.<\/p>\n

Babam n\u0259n\u0259mi bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 xeyli danlad\u0131 v\u0259 m\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 toya apard\u0131. El\u0259 h\u0259min ilin soyuq q\u0131\u015f g\u00fcnl\u0259rinin birind\u0259 evimizd\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli bir hadis\u0259 ba\u015f verdi. Gec\u0259 saatlar\u0131 idi, ham\u0131m\u0131z yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. Bird\u0259n n\u0259n\u0259min t\u00fck\u00fcrp\u0259dici \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131, ard\u0131nca da babam\u0131n t\u0259la\u015fl\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131 e\u015fidildi. Atamla anam tez qalx\u0131b onlar\u0131n yatd\u0131qlar\u0131 ota\u011fa getdil\u0259r v\u0259 qorxunc bir m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259 il\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131lar. O ill\u0259rd\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n h\u0259r yerind\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi \u015e\u0259mkird\u0259 d\u0259 i\u015f\u0131q s\u00f6n\u00fcr, g\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 yanm\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259min ax\u015fam da i\u015f\u0131q s\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Sonralar babam\u0131n dediyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, n\u0259n\u0259m ayaqyoluna getm\u0259k m\u0259qs\u0259dil\u0259 aya\u011fa qalxm\u0131\u015f, otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 is\u0259 qaranl\u0131q oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn soban\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Soban\u0131n tini sol g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n al\u0131n hiss\u0259sini d\u0259lib ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Yaz\u0131q n\u0259n\u0259m el\u0259 yerind\u0259c\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fc. Bu d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli hadis\u0259 ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 d\u0259rind\u0259n sars\u0131td\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00dcst\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u00f6rd il ke\u00e7di. 2000-ci il, ad g\u00fcn\u00fcm idi, on \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131m tamam olurdu. Atam q\u0259fil ev\u0259 g\u0259ldi v\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2013 G\u0259l, s\u0259n\u0259 s\u00fcrprizim var, \u2013 deyib h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi m\u0259ni quca\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Birlikd\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131q. G\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 inana bilmirdim… Qar\u015f\u0131mda t\u0259pt\u0259z\u0259 bir \u0259lil arabas\u0131 dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Atam:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Buyur, bu da s\u0259nin ad g\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0259diyy\u0259n, \u2013 deyib m\u0259ni arabaya mindirdi. Sifari\u015fl\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 Rusiyadan araba alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 atam. Sevincimin h\u0259ddi-h\u00fcdudu yox idi. Ax\u0131r ki, qucaqda g\u0259zdiyim, \u0259ll\u0259riml\u0259 yerd\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcm ill\u0259r\u0259 son qoyuldu.<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259c\u0259, be\u015f il d\u0259 ke\u00e7di. On s\u0259kkiz ya\u015f\u0131ma g\u0259lib \u00e7atd\u0131m. Nuriyy\u0259 il\u0259 Lumiy\u0259 bir-birinin ard\u0131nca \u0259r\u0259 getdil\u0259r. Nuriyy\u0259 \u00c7inarl\u0131, Lumiy\u0259 d\u0259 \u015ei\u015ft\u0259p\u0259 q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259sin\u0259 g\u0259lin k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fc. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t sonra is\u0259 h\u0259r ikisi \u0259rl\u0259ri il\u0259 birlikd\u0259 Rusiyada ya\u015fama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131lar. \u0130ndi h\u0259r\u0259sinin iki u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 var. \u018fsl d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli g\u00fcnl\u0259rs\u0259 el\u0259 h\u0259min ill\u0259rd\u0259n ba\u015flad\u0131. Bir g\u00fcn \u00dcnzil\u0259nin \u0259ri T\u0259rlan, o\u011flu \u018frma\u011fanla biz\u0259 g\u0259lib xeyli oturdular. T\u0259rlan ged\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 onlarla getm\u0259yi t\u0259klif etdi. Atam:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Get, k\u00f6nl\u00fcn-g\u00f6z\u00fcn a\u00e7\u0131lar, \u2013 deyib raz\u0131 oldu.<\/p>\n

Bir az pal-paltar y\u0131\u011f\u0131b, ir\u0259lid\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131ma g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz, T\u0259rlan v\u0259 \u018frma\u011fanla birlikd\u0259 Yeni H\u0259yat k\u0259ndin\u0259 \u2013 onlar\u0131n evin\u0259 getdim. \u00dcnzil\u0259 m\u0259ni olduqca mehriban qar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131. Gedi\u015fimin onuncu g\u00fcn\u00fc idi. G\u00fcnortadan xeyli ke\u00e7mi\u015f, \u00dcnzil\u0259 havan\u0131n xo\u015flu\u011fundan istifad\u0259 edib m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7imm\u0259yi t\u0259klif etdi. Bizim evd\u0259n f\u0259rqli olaraq onlarda hamam yox idi. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 otaqda te\u015ftin i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u00e7imirdil\u0259r. Raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131m v\u0259 \u00dcnzil\u0259nin k\u00f6m\u0259yi il\u0259 soyunub te\u015ft\u0259 girdim. O su t\u00f6k\u00fcr, m\u0259n d\u0259 yuyunurdum. Bird\u0259n d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli bir \u015fey ba\u015fverdi. Qabaqlar k\u0259nd evl\u0259rind\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131n ortas\u0131ndan d\u0259hlizi g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 qoyulurdu. Bird\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fcm h\u0259min p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 sata\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 T\u0259rlan\u0131n g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259n x\u0259lv\u0259ti m\u0259n\u0259 baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Tez \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc \u00e7evirib bunu h\u0259y\u0259can i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u00dcnzil\u0259y\u0259 dedim. O, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2013 D\u0259li olmusan, ay q\u0131z, T\u0259rlan n\u0259 g\u0259zir?! \u2013 deyib t\u0259krar yan\u0131ma qay\u0131td\u0131.<\/p>\n

Amma \u0259min idim, T\u0259rlan m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. Yan\u0131lmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra anlad\u0131m. Ax\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc arabayla h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 g\u0259zirdim, T\u0259rlan da h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 idi. Bu zaman onun l\u0259zz\u0259tl\u0259 nar yediyini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Nar\u0131 \u00e7ox sevirdim. Yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b:<\/p>\n

\u2013 T\u0259rlan, m\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 nar ver\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n? \u2013 dedim.<\/p>\n

T\u0259rlan dayan\u0131b m\u0259nal\u0131 \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 baxd\u0131 v\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Ver\u0259r\u0259m. Amma bir \u015f\u0259rtim var, \u2013 s\u00f6yl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

He\u00e7 n\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259dim.<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259 \u015f\u0259rt? \u2013 soru\u015fduqda, o, m\u0259niml\u0259 daha yax\u0131n m\u00fcnasib\u0259td\u0259 olmaq ist\u0259diyini, bu zaman n\u0259 ist\u0259s\u0259m ver\u0259c\u0259yini s\u00f6yl\u0259di. Heyr\u0259td\u0259n yerimd\u0259c\u0259 donub qald\u0131m. Bu n\u0259 dem\u0259k idi?<\/p>\n

Bu hal\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n T\u0259rlan \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 iyr\u0259nc bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259dir, guya ist\u0259mirs\u0259n? N\u0259d\u0259n qorxursan ax\u0131, onsuz da bu hal\u0131nla s\u0259ni alan olmayacaq. Birlikd\u0259 keyfimizi \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rik, hayd\u0131 g\u0259l, naz el\u0259m\u0259, \u2013 s\u00f6yl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

Art\u0131q onun iyr\u0259nc niyy\u0259tini anlad\u0131m v\u0259 e\u015fitdikl\u0259rimd\u0259n d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259ldim. Dig\u0259r bac\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131n \u0259rl\u0259ri kimi T\u0259rlan\u0131 da \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 qarda\u015f bilirdim. Lakin qarda\u015f dediyim bu al\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n is\u0259 \u0259slind\u0259 m\u0259ni he\u00e7 d\u0259 bac\u0131s\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259diyini, \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7irkind\u0259n d\u0259 \u00e7irkin niyy\u0259tl\u0259r b\u0259sl\u0259diyini is\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131ma bel\u0259 g\u0259tirmirdim. Onun bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 cavab olaraq he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259dim. \u015eidd\u0259tli qorxu v\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259can i\u00e7ind\u0259 yava\u015f-yava\u015f arxaya \u00e7\u0259kildim. T\u0259rlan getdiyimi g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259l at\u0131b yaxamdan yap\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259di, el\u0259 bu an arxadan kimins\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Hey, T\u0259rlan, n\u0259 edirs\u0259n, utanm\u0131rsan? \u2013 dey\u0259n z\u0259hmli s\u0259si e\u015fidildi.<\/p>\n

Bu, T\u0259rlan\u0131n qarda\u015f\u0131, h\u0259m d\u0259 yax\u0131n qon\u015fusu Bah\u0259ddin idi. S\u0259n dem\u0259, o, bayaqdan olanlar\u0131 aradak\u0131 taxta hasardan g\u00f6r\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f. T\u0259rlan diksinib k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0259kildi. Bah\u0259ddini g\u00f6r\u00fcb \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259ndim v\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bah\u0259ddin, yalvar\u0131ram, m\u0259ni qurtar, \u2013 deyib arabayla hasara t\u0259r\u0259f getm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Bah\u0259ddin b\u0259rk qorxdu\u011fumu g\u00f6r\u00fcb:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Qorxma, Nurzad\u0259, o s\u0259n\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 ed\u0259 bilm\u0259z, \u2013 dey\u0259r\u0259k m\u0259ni sakitl\u0259\u015fdirdi.<\/p>\n

T\u0259bii ki, olanlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00dcnzil\u0259y\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u00dcnzil\u0259 is\u0259 q\u0259z\u0259bli halda:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Utanm\u0131rsan! Burada qalmaq ist\u0259mirs\u0259ns\u0259, bunu a\u00e7\u0131qca dey\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n. Daha niy\u0259 yezn\u0259n\u0259 \u015f\u0259r at\u0131rsan? \u2013 deyib atama z\u0259ng etdi.<\/p>\n

Atam m\u0259ni g\u0259lib evimiz\u0259 apard\u0131. Ev\u0259 \u00e7atanda h\u0259r \u015feyi anama da dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. T\u0259bii ki, anam da m\u0259n\u0259 inanmad\u0131 v\u0259 o da \u00dcnzil\u0259 kimi m\u0259nim orada qalmaq ist\u0259m\u0259diyim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bel\u0259 bir b\u0259han\u0259 uydurdu\u011fumu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. \u00c7ar\u0259siz qal\u0131b h\u0259r \u015feyi atama dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Yekunda is\u0259 onun da m\u0259n\u0259 inanmayaca\u011f\u0131ndan qorxaraq:<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u018fg\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259 inanm\u0131rsansa, get Bah\u0259ddind\u0259n soru\u015f. O, h\u0259r \u015feyi g\u00f6rd\u00fc, \u2013 dedim.<\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131q atam da s\u0259h\u0259ri g\u00fcn qon\u015fu k\u0259nd\u0259 Bah\u0259ddinin yan\u0131na, h\u0259r \u015feyi \u00f6yr\u0259ndikd\u0259n sonra da q\u0259z\u0259bli halda birba\u015fa T\u0259rlangil\u0259 gedir. Onlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda m\u00fcbahis\u0259 ba\u015f verir. H\u0259min vaxt h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 odun do\u011framaqda olan T\u0259rlan \u0259lind\u0259ki baltayla yaz\u0131q atam\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 iki yer\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

Nurzad\u0259 bu yerd\u0259 a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bu d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t idi, h\u0259m d\u0259 misli g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259mi\u015f bir d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t. Bir an\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 anam \u0259rsiz, yaz\u0131q babam ah\u0131l \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda o\u011fulsuz, biz d\u0259 atas\u0131z qald\u0131q. Atam\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7 ay sonra T\u0259rlan\u0131n m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259 prosesi ke\u00e7irildi. Babamla birlikd\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259d\u0259 i\u015ftirak etdim v\u0259 hakim\u0259 T\u0259rlan\u0131n onlar\u0131n evind\u0259 \u00e7imdiyim zaman g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259n gizlinc\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 \u0259xlaqs\u0131z t\u0259klif etdiyini, q\u0131sas\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn olanlar\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fdim. S\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn sonunda is\u0259 atam\u0131n haqs\u0131z yer\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc, \u0259slind\u0259 \u00f6lm\u0259li olan\u0131n T\u0259rlan oldu\u011funu dedim v\u0259 hakimd\u0259n ona \u0259n a\u011f\u0131r c\u0259zan\u0131n verilm\u0259sini xahi\u015f etdim.<\/p>\n

\u00dcnzil\u0259 bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rimi e\u015fitc\u0259k \u00fcnvan\u0131ma nalayiq bir s\u00f6z i\u015fl\u0259d\u0259r\u0259k aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 yeridi. Lakin hakimin s\u0259rt x\u0259b\u0259rdarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 yenid\u0259n yerind\u0259 oturdu. Bah\u0259ddin d\u0259 \u015fahid kimi ifad\u0259 verdi. O da h\u0259min vaxt orada oldu\u011funu deyib s\u00f6yl\u0259dikl\u0259rimi t\u0259sdiql\u0259di. T\u0259rlana son s\u00f6z veril\u0259n zaman dedikl\u0259ri is\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn h\u0259qiqi m\u0259nas\u0131nda damar\u0131mda qan\u0131m\u0131 dondurdu. O, s\u00f6z\u0259 bel\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u00f6ht\u0259r\u0259m hakim, Nurzad\u0259nin dedikl\u0259rinin ham\u0131s\u0131 yaland\u0131r. M\u0259n onu bac\u0131m kimi g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, amma s\u0259n dem\u0259, o m\u0259n\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 ba\u015fqa hissl\u0259r b\u0259sl\u0259yirmi\u015f. H\u0259min g\u00fcn h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 olan zaman m\u0259n yox, o m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259xlaqs\u0131z t\u0259klif etdi. Raz\u0131la\u015fmad\u0131m, o da \u0259v\u0259zind\u0259: “G\u00f6r\u0259rs\u0259n, s\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131na n\u0259 oyun a\u00e7acam”, \u2013 deyib…\u2013 deyib yan\u0131mdan araland\u0131. \u2013 Nurzad\u0259 m\u0259hz m\u0259nd\u0259n qisas almaq m\u0259qs\u0259di il\u0259 h\u0259min g\u00fcn ba\u015f ver\u0259n hadis\u0259ni atas\u0131na s\u0259hv \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131b.<\/p>\n

Bu yerd\u0259 hakim ona:<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259s qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n dedikl\u0259ri bar\u0259d\u0259 n\u0259 dey\u0259 bil\u0259rsiniz? \u2013 dey\u0259 bir sual \u00fcnvanlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

T\u0259rlan\u0131n cavab\u0131 is\u0259 hakimi bel\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259tirdi. \u0130nsan olmayan bu m\u0259xluq:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bilirsiniz, m\u00f6ht\u0259r\u0259m hakim, Bah\u0259ddinin arvad\u0131m \u00dcnzil\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb. Y\u0259qin ki m\u0259ni h\u0259bsxanaya g\u00f6nd\u0259rib ona sahib olmaq ist\u0259yir, \u2013 s\u00f6yl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

Bah\u0259ddin T\u0259rlan\u0131n bu haqs\u0131z ittiham\u0131na cavab olaraq aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 t\u00fcp\u00fcrd\u00fc. M\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259nin h\u00f6km\u00fc il\u0259 T\u0259rlan on be\u015f il azadl\u0131qdan m\u0259hrum edildi. O g\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 \u00dcnzil\u0259nin m\u0259n\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 k\u0259skinl\u0259\u015f\u0259n m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti bitm\u0259k bilm\u0259y\u0259n nifr\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7evrildi.<\/p>\n

Bu hadis\u0259nin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n alt\u0131 ay ke\u00e7mi\u015f ail\u0259mizd\u0259 daha bir b\u0259db\u0259xt hadis\u0259 ba\u015f verdi. S\u0259h\u0259r namaz\u0131na qalxmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn anam\u0131 narahat etm\u0259yim dey\u0259 babamla birlikd\u0259 yat\u0131rd\u0131m. Bel\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259n birinin s\u00fcbh \u00e7a\u011f\u0131 idi. Biz yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. Bu zaman elektron saat\u0131n s\u0259h\u0259r namaz\u0131n\u0131n vaxt\u0131na qurdu\u011fumuz z\u0259ngi \u00e7al\u0131nd\u0131. Oyan\u0131b babam\u0131 da oyanmas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259sl\u0259dim. Oyanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnc\u0259 silk\u0259l\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259dim. Bu zaman onun b\u0259d\u0259ninin b\u0259rk, h\u0259m d\u0259 buz kimi soyuq oldu\u011funu hiss etdim. Bir anl\u0131q \u00fc\u015f\u00fcrg\u0259l\u0259ndim, anam\u0131n ota\u011f\u0131na gedib v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti ona dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Anam yataqdan qalx\u0131b g\u0259ldi v\u0259 \u0259lini babam\u0131n b\u0259d\u0259nin\u0259 vuran kimi g\u00f6zl\u0259ri ya\u015fl\u0131 halda onun \u00f6ld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc dedi.<\/p>\n

B\u0259li, atamdan sonra daha bir sevdiyim insan\u0131 itirdim. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn haqq oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259yim\u0259 r\u0259\u011fm\u0259n yen\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc saxlaya bilm\u0259yib h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131ra-h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131ra a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. Onu da atam kimi el\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z K\u00fcr q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259sind\u0259 d\u0259fn etdik. Bel\u0259c\u0259, ana-bala bir dam\u0131n alt\u0131nda t\u0259k qald\u0131q. Anam, d\u00f6vl\u0259t t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n fiziki m\u0259hdudiyy\u0259tim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 t\u0259yin olunmu\u015f sosial m\u00fcavin\u0259tl\u0259 v\u0259 mal-heyvan saxlamaqla iki n\u0259f\u0259rlik ail\u0259ni doland\u0131rma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. O t\u0259s\u0259rr\u00fcfat, m\u0259n d\u0259 ev i\u015fl\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Arabada olma\u011f\u0131ma baxmayaraq, yem\u0259k bi\u015firir, paltar yuyur, ev t\u0259mizl\u0259yirdim.<\/p>\n

Lakin anam m\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Neynirs\u0259n bu i\u015fl\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u00fcb, onsuz da \u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n, \u2013 dey\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

O, f\u00fcrs\u0259t d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fckc\u0259 m\u0259hdudiyy\u0259tli olma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u015fill\u0259 kimi \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rpar:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bel\u0259 olmasayd\u0131m, bac\u0131lar\u0131n kimi s\u0259n d\u0259 \u0259r\u0259 ged\u0259rdin, m\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 y\u00fck olmazd\u0131n. M\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra y\u0259qin ki yaz\u0131q \u00dcnzil\u0259nin \u00fcmidin\u0259 qalacaqsan. M\u0259nim t\u0259ki onun da q\u0259lbin\u0259 d\u0259rd, \u00e7iynin\u0259 y\u00fck olacaqsan, \u2013 dey\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

Bir d\u0259 anam, v\u0259ziyy\u0259tim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 Allah\u0131n m\u0259ni m\u0259hdudiyy\u0259tli yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sevm\u0259diyi bir b\u0259nd\u0259 kimi z\u0259nn edir, \u0259vv\u0259l ba\u015fqa bir b\u0259d\u0259nd\u0259 d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259l\u0259n ruhumun o zaman t\u00f6r\u0259tdiyi hans\u0131sa pis bir \u0259m\u0259l\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 c\u0259zaland\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 dey\u0259rdi. T\u0259bii ki, bunlar\u0131n he\u00e7 biri do\u011fru deyildi. Birincisi, Allah qat\u0131nda insanlar\u0131n fiziki g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcn deyil, \u0259m\u0259ll\u0259rinin nec\u0259 olmas\u0131d\u0131r. Allah-t\u0259ala Qurani-K\u0259rimin q\u0131rx doqquzuncu sur\u0259si olan “\u018fl-Hucurat”, y\u0259ni “Otaqlar” sur\u0259sinin on birinci ay\u0259sind\u0259: “Ey m\u00f6minl\u0259r, bir-birinizi m\u0259sh\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 qoymay\u0131n, ola bilsin ki, h\u0259min insan sizd\u0259n daha \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u00fcr”, \u2013 buyurub. \u0130kincisi is\u0259, \u0259g\u0259r bir insan Allah kimi insan yarada, natamam dediyi insan\u0131 tamamlaya bilmirs\u0259, onda niy\u0259 Allah\u0131n yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131na dil uzatmal\u0131d\u0131r? Ya da niy\u0259 m\u0259n fiziki m\u0259hdudiyy\u0259tliy\u0259m dey\u0259 ail\u0259 qura bilm\u0259zdim? Ax\u0131 fiziki m\u0259hdudiyy\u0259t ail\u0259 qurma\u011fa mane\u0259 deyildi. Son olaraq is\u0259, niy\u0259 Allah, anam\u0131n dediyi kimi, hans\u0131sa bir b\u0259d\u0259nd\u0259 d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259l\u0259n ruhumun bilm\u0259diyim bir g\u00fcnah\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259ni c\u0259zaland\u0131rmal\u0131yd\u0131? Bir d\u0259 ki, fiziki m\u0259hdudiyy\u0259tli olmaq c\u0259za yox, uca Allah\u0131n imtahan\u0131d\u0131r. Ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131 il\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 is\u0259 onu \u0259hat\u0259 ed\u0259n insanlar\u0131n imtahan\u0131d\u0131r. \u018ffsuslar olsun, anam bunu ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259c\u0259, \u00fc\u00e7 il d\u0259 ke\u00e7di. \u00dcnzil\u0259, T\u0259rlan h\u0259bsxanaya d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fckd\u0259n sonra u\u015faqlara baxmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u00f6vs\u00fcmi i\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. \u00d6t\u0259n m\u00fcdd\u0259t \u0259rzind\u0259 o m\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn biz\u0259 g\u0259lmir, yaln\u0131z anam ora gedirdi. Biz is\u0259 anamla birg\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131za davam edirdik. Anamda bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 \u015fidd\u0259tli bo\u011faz a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 ba\u015f qald\u0131rd\u0131. A\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131n dayanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, \u0259ksin\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc-g\u00fcnd\u0259n artd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n anam \u015e\u0259mkir Rayon M\u0259rk\u0259zi X\u0259st\u0259xanas\u0131na m\u00fcraci\u0259t etdi. Oradan da Bak\u0131ya \u2013 onkoloji m\u0259rk\u0259zl\u0259rd\u0259n birin\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rildi.<\/p>\n

Bak\u0131da ona udlaq x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ngi diaqnozu qoyuldu. H\u0259kim anama:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Tezlikl\u0259 \u0259m\u0259liyyat olunmal\u0131san, bo\u011faz\u0131ndan d\u0259lik a\u00e7\u0131lmal\u0131d\u0131r, yem\u0259k yem\u0259yin v\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s alma\u011f\u0131n asanla\u015facaq, \u2013 deyib.<\/p>\n

\u00dcnzil\u0259y\u0259 v\u0259 Rusiyadak\u0131 bac\u0131lar\u0131ma z\u0259ng edib v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u00dcnzil\u0259 d\u00f6rd il aradan sonra ilk d\u0259f\u0259 o zaman biz\u0259 g\u0259ldi.biz ill\u0259rdirya\u015fad\u0131\u011e\u0131m\u0131z, h\u0259r da\u015f\u0131, divar\u0131 xatir\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 dolu evimizi, qazanc m\u0259nb\u0259yimiz olan mal-heyvan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131, q\u0131sas\u0131, h\u0259r \u015feyimizi anam\u0131n \u0259m\u0259liyyat\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn satd\u0131q v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz d\u0259 m\u0259cbur olaraq Yeni H\u0259yat k\u0259ndin\u0259 \u2013 \u00dcnzil\u0259nin yan\u0131na k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fck. Ancaq bunun da faydas\u0131 olmad\u0131. \u018fm\u0259liyyatdan il yar\u0131m sonra anam\u0131n v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti daha da pisl\u0259\u015fdi. Bir g\u00fcn, y\u0259ni \u00f6l\u0259n g\u00fcn\u00fc, o m\u0259ni yan\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 ham\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fc qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda x\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131l\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Nurzad\u0259, q\u0131z\u0131m, m\u0259n art\u0131q \u00f6l\u00fcr\u0259m. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bu d\u00fcnyada son saatlar\u0131m\u0131, h\u0259tta son d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259rimi ya\u015fay\u0131ram. Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla. S\u0259ni v\u0259ziyy\u0259tin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 incidib al\u00e7atd\u0131m, arxa plana atd\u0131m. Yalvar\u0131ram, m\u0259n\u0259 haqq\u0131n\u0131 halal el\u0259, \u2013 dedi.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rim doldu, he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259d\u0259n yataqda uzanm\u0131\u015f olan anam\u0131 qucaqlay\u0131b \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n, \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fcm. D\u00fczd\u00fcr, anam b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 el\u0259mi\u015fdi, amma nec\u0259 olsa o, m\u0259ni doqquz ay b\u0259tnind\u0259 g\u0259zdirmi\u015f, d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259tirib b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Bir d\u0259 ki, x\u0259st\u0259 hal\u0131nda ona nec\u0259 kin saxlaya bil\u0259rdim ax\u0131?! Sonra o, art\u0131q qapanmaqda olan g\u00f6zl\u0259rini \u00dcnzil\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7evir\u0259r\u0259k:<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u00dcnzil\u0259, q\u0131z\u0131m, bac\u0131n Nurzad\u0259ni g\u00f6yd\u0259 Allaha, yerd\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 \u0259man\u0259t edir\u0259m. M\u0259n \u0259man\u0259t\u0259 x\u0259yan\u0259t etdim. \u0130ndi d\u0259 \u0259v\u0259zini can\u0131mla \u00f6d\u0259yir\u0259m. S\u0259n m\u0259nim el\u0259diyim s\u0259hvi el\u0259m\u0259, bac\u0131na sahib \u00e7\u0131x, \u2013 deyib \u0259b\u0259di g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumdu.<\/p>\n

\u00d6ld\u00fc yaz\u0131q anam… M\u0259n d\u0259, bac\u0131lar\u0131m da g\u00f6zl\u0259rimiz \u015fi\u015fib q\u0131zarana q\u0259d\u0259r a\u011flad\u0131q. Yas m\u0259rasimi \u00dcnzil\u0259nin evind\u0259 ke\u00e7irildi. Bac\u0131lar\u0131m d\u0259fn x\u0259rcl\u0259rini \u00f6z \u00fcz\u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. N\u0259 is\u0259, anam\u0131n d\u0259fnind\u0259n on g\u00fcn ke\u00e7mi\u015f bac\u0131lar\u0131m Nuriyy\u0259 il\u0259 Lumiy\u0259 t\u0259krar Rusiyaya qay\u0131td\u0131lar. Bel\u0259likl\u0259, \u00dcnzil\u0259nin yan\u0131nda qald\u0131m. Qara g\u00fcnl\u0259rim d\u0259 el\u0259 h\u0259min vaxtdan ba\u015flad\u0131. \u00dcnzil\u0259 m\u0259ni az qala he\u00e7 n\u0259yin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 t\u0259hqir edib s\u00f6y\u00fcr, h\u0259tta b\u0259z\u0259n \u0259l qald\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Bununla da kifay\u0259tl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259n \u00dcnzil\u0259 daha da ir\u0259li ged\u0259r\u0259k m\u0259ni m\u0259hdudiyy\u0259tli yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Allah\u0131n v\u0259 ona tap\u015f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yaz\u0131q anam\u0131n \u00fcnvan\u0131na \u0259n pis s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r ya\u011fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

U\u015faqlar\u0131n da m\u0259n\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti yax\u015f\u0131 deyildi. H\u0259r ikisi d\u0259 s\u00f6z soru\u015fdu\u011fum zaman ya kobud cavab verir, ya da he\u00e7 cavab vermirdil\u0259r. Onlar da atalar\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259nim \u00fcz\u00fcmd\u0259n h\u0259bsxanada bo\u015f yer\u0259 yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. N\u0259hay\u0259t, bir g\u00fcn buna son qoyuldu. \u00dcnzil\u0259 Bah\u0259ddinl\u0259 m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259d\u0259 T\u0259rlan\u0131n \u0259leyhin\u0259 ifad\u0259 verdiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131. O, \u018frma\u011fanla \u00dcmid\u0259ni d\u0259 bu m\u00f6vqed\u0259 t\u0259rbiy\u0259l\u0259ndirir, onlara \u0259mil\u0259ri il\u0259 \u00fcnsiyy\u0259t saxlama\u011fa imkan vermirdi.<\/p>\n

Ramazan bayram\u0131 idi. Bah\u0259ddin \u00dcnzil\u0259nin evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb ev\u0259 g\u0259ldi. O, \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 m\u0259niml\u0259 bayramla\u015fd\u0131. \u00dcmid\u0259 il\u0259 bayramla\u015fmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 is\u0259 q\u0131z ist\u0259m\u0259di. Bu an \u018frma\u011fan da g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 v\u0259: “R\u0259dd ol!” \u2013 deyib \u0259misini h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259n qovmaq ist\u0259di. V\u0259ziyy\u0259ti bel\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259n Bah\u0259ddin m\u0259nd\u0259n Quran kitab\u0131m\u0131 ist\u0259di. Dediyi kimi edib Quran\u0131 ona verdim. Quran\u0131 \u0259lin\u0259 ald\u0131 v\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u0259mimiyy\u0259ti il\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Balalar\u0131m, bu Qurana and i\u00e7ir\u0259m ki, m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259d\u0259 yalan ifad\u0259 verm\u0259dim. Atan\u0131z\u0131n xalan\u0131za qar\u015f\u0131 olan nalayiq h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tini \u00f6z g\u00f6zl\u0259riml\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. T\u0259rlan sizin atan\u0131zd\u0131rsa, m\u0259nim d\u0259 qarda\u015f\u0131md\u0131r. Niy\u0259 yalan yer\u0259 do\u011fma qarda\u015f\u0131m\u0131 h\u0259bsxanaya g\u00f6nd\u0259rim? \u018fn \u0259sas\u0131 is\u0259 niy\u0259 bir insana b\u00f6htan at\u0131m? Ax\u0131 b\u00f6htan atma\u011f\u0131n c\u0259zas\u0131 a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131r, \u2013 dedi.<\/p>\n

V\u0259 h\u0259r ikisinin d\u0259 yum\u015fald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnc\u0259k a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya qucaqlay\u0131b \u00fcz-g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc. H\u0259min vaxtdan u\u015faqlar\u0131n \u0259mil\u0259rin\u0259 v\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti tamamil\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fdi. Bu hadis\u0259nin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n bir ay \u00f6td\u00fc. \u018frma\u011fan \u0259misinin gizli k\u00f6m\u0259yi il\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Rusiyaya getdi. \u00dcmid\u0259 is\u0259 indi m\u0259niml\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lkind\u0259n f\u0259rqli olaraq tamam ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr r\u0259ftar edirdi. O, \u00dcnzil\u0259 evd\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 vaxtlarda m\u0259niml\u0259 \u015firin-\u015firin s\u00f6hb\u0259t edir, bu g\u00fcn\u0259d\u0259k etdikl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 pe\u015fman oldu\u011funu bildirib \u00fczr ist\u0259yir, laz\u0131m oldu\u011fu zaman n\u0259d\u0259s\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi.<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn ax\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc idi, yem\u0259k yem\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131q. Qonaq ota\u011f\u0131nda yer s\u00fcfr\u0259sinin arxas\u0131nda oturmu\u015fdum. Bird\u0259n otaqla m\u0259tb\u0259xi ay\u0131ran kardon arak\u0259sm\u0259d\u0259n \u00dcnzil\u0259 il\u0259 \u00dcmid\u0259nin m\u00f6hk\u0259m m\u00fcbahis\u0259 etdiyini e\u015fitdim. \u00dcmid\u0259 a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya anas\u0131na:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Ana, niy\u0259 xalama verdiyin yem\u0259yin i\u00e7in\u0259 t\u00fcp\u00fcr\u00fcrs\u0259n? Ax\u0131 o s\u0259nin bac\u0131nd\u0131r, he\u00e7 Allahdan qorxmursan? \u2013 dedi.<\/p>\n

\u00dcnzil\u0259 is\u0259 q\u0259z\u0259bli halda:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yax\u015f\u0131 el\u0259yir\u0259m, o topala bu da azd\u0131r! B\u0259s o s\u0259nin atan\u0131 yalan b\u0259yan\u0131 il\u0259 h\u0259bsxanaya g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259nd\u0259 niy\u0259 Allahdan qorxmad\u0131? Yaz\u0131q atan onun ucbat\u0131ndan g\u00f6r ne\u00e7\u0259 il evind\u0259n, ail\u0259sind\u0259n uzaqda, d\u0259mir barmaql\u0131qlar ard\u0131nda qalacaq. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 g\u00fcnahs\u0131z yer\u0259! \u2013 s\u00f6yl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

B\u0259li, \u00dcnzil\u0259…H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 verdiyi yem\u0259y\u0259 t\u00fcp\u00fcr\u0259rmi\u015f. Fikrimc\u0259, n\u0259inki bac\u0131n\u0131n bac\u0131ya, h\u0259tta d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nin d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yi iyr\u0259nc bir \u015fey idi bu. M\u0259n d\u0259 iyr\u0259ndim v\u0259 h\u0259min g\u00fcn\u00fc yem\u0259k yem\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259dim. \u00dcnzil\u0259 ota\u011fa g\u0259lib niy\u0259 yem\u0259k yem\u0259diyimi soru\u015fdu. T\u0259bii ki, ona he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259dim. \u00dcnzil\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259nib m\u0259ni ax\u015fam\u0131n dondurucu soyu\u011funda qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 atd\u0131. D\u00fcz iki saat k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 qald\u0131m. O vaxt \u0259rzind\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 \u00dcnzil\u0259ni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b:<\/p>\n

\u2014 Bac\u0131, nolar qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7, namaz\u0131n vaxt\u0131d\u0131r, icaz\u0259 ver namaz q\u0131l\u0131m, \u2014 dedim.<\/p>\n

\u00dcnzil\u0259 q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kib g\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259k:<\/p>\n

\u2014 N\u0259 namaz, ay q\u0131z? Bir g\u00fcn namaz q\u0131lmasan n\u0259 olacaq? C\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n? Bir d\u0259 ki, bo\u015f-bo\u015funa namaz q\u0131lma, \u00e7\u00fcnki Allah s\u0259nin kiml\u0259ri b\u0259nd\u0259 saym\u0131r, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n namaz\u0131 q\u0259bul etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k, \u2014 deyib yenid\u0259n ev\u0259 girdi.<\/p>\n

Xo\u015fb\u0259xtlikd\u0259n, h\u0259min vaxt \u00dcmid\u0259 Bah\u0259ddingil\u0259 z\u0259ng edib olanlar\u0131 x\u0259b\u0259r ver\u0259 bilmi\u015fdi. Sa\u011f olsun, Bah\u0259ddin d\u0259 g\u0259lib m\u0259ni evl\u0259rin\u0259 apard\u0131. \u0130sti yem\u0259k, \u00e7ay verdil\u0259r, bir gec\u0259 d\u0259 evl\u0259rind\u0259 saxlad\u0131lar. B\u0259li, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ac\u0131 olsa da, m\u0259nim do\u011fma bac\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131nda g\u00fcnl\u0259rim m\u0259hz bu c\u00fcr ke\u00e7irdi.<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259c\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 il ke\u00e7di. \u018frma\u011fan Rusiyada Leyla adl\u0131 \u00e7e\u00e7en bir qad\u0131nla evl\u0259ndi. Onlar\u0131n Kamal adl\u0131 o\u011fullar\u0131, Firuz\u0259 adl\u0131 q\u0131zlar\u0131 var. \u018frma\u011fan ild\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 k\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259lib \u00fc\u00e7 ay qal\u0131r, qalan vaxtlarda is\u0259 pul g\u00f6nd\u0259rirdi. Biz d\u0259 bu pulla v\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u00fcavin\u0259tl\u0259 dolan\u0131rd\u0131q. \u00dcnzil\u0259nin m\u0259n\u0259 olan z\u00fclml\u0259ri bitm\u0259k bilmir, \u0259ksin\u0259 daha da art\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn art\u0131q iyirmi ya\u015f\u0131 tamam olan \u00dcmid\u0259 yan\u0131ma g\u0259lib Bah\u0259ddinin o\u011flu C\u0259mill\u0259 bir-birl\u0259rini sevdikl\u0259rini dedi. T\u0259bii ki, xala olaraq \u00e7ox sevindim v\u0259 onu t\u0259brik edib xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik arzulad\u0131m. El\u0259 h\u0259min ax\u015fam Bah\u0259ddin arvad\u0131 N\u0259rgizl\u0259, o\u011flu Z\u0259k\u0259riyya q\u0131za el\u00e7i g\u0259ldil\u0259r. Lakin \u00dcnzil\u0259, m\u0259lum m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, q\u0131z\u0131 C\u0259mil\u0259 verm\u0259di v\u0259: “M\u0259nd\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n\u0259 ver\u0259c\u0259k q\u0131z yoxdur”, \u2014 dey\u0259r\u0259k onlar\u0131 t\u0259hqir edib evd\u0259n qovdu. \u00dcmid\u0259y\u0259 is\u0259 q\u0259tiyy\u0259tl\u0259 C\u0259mili unutmas\u0131n\u0131, \u00fcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259 bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni bir d\u0259f\u0259lik ba\u015f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xarmas\u0131n\u0131 tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131b, \u00f6zl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259ti bir daha a\u00e7\u0131lmamaq \u00fczr\u0259 ba\u011flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

V\u0259ziyy\u0259ti bel\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259n \u00dcmid\u0259 \u00e7ar\u0259siz qal\u0131b \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra C\u0259mil\u0259 qo\u015fulub qa\u00e7d\u0131. Onlar bura, Bak\u0131ya, C\u0259milin xalas\u0131n\u0131n evin\u0259 g\u0259ldil\u0259r. \u00dcnzil\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259d\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r tutanda \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 v\u0259 \u00dcmid\u0259ni m\u0259nim yoldan \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 deyib, b\u0259d\u0259nim\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 yerd\u0259n qaynar \u00fct\u00fc basd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Aman Allah! \u2014 F\u0259rid\u0259nin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri heyr\u0259td\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

H\u0259min an g\u00fcnahkar olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 c\u0259zaland\u0131r\u0131lan b\u0259d\u0259nimd\u0259 hiss etdiyim a\u011fr\u0131 indi t\u0259svir ed\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yim d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli idi. \u00dcnzil\u0259 haray-q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131qla Bah\u0259ddingil\u0259 gedib evl\u0259rini da\u015fa basd\u0131. Bundan bir n\u0259tic\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 is\u0259 polis\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r verdi. Polisl\u0259r \u00dcmid\u0259ni oldu\u011fu \u00fcnvanda tap\u0131b ifad\u0259sini ald\u0131lar. \u00dcmid\u0259 ifad\u0259sind\u0259 C\u0259milin onu zorla qa\u00e7\u0131rmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, anas\u0131n\u0131n bu evliliyi ist\u0259m\u0259diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qo\u015fulub qa\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildirdi. T\u0259bii ki, \u00dcmid\u0259 yetkinlik ya\u015f\u0131na \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onun b\u0259yan\u0131 \u0259sas g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fc. Bu c\u0259hdinin d\u0259 u\u011fursuz oldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u0259n \u00dcnzil\u0259 yaranan v\u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259 k\u00f6n\u00fcls\u00fcz d\u0259 olsa bar\u0131\u015fmal\u0131 oldu. Amma: “H\u0259min g\u00fcnd\u0259n daha m\u0259nim \u00dcmid\u0259 adl\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131m yoxdur”, \u2014 deyib onun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck x\u0259tt \u00e7\u0259kdi. On g\u00fcn ke\u00e7mi\u015f Bah\u0259ddin onlara el\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259c\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 bir toy el\u0259di. T\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki, o toyda i\u015ftirak ed\u0259 bilm\u0259dim, amma \u00fcr\u0259yim onlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda idi.<\/p>\n

Bir il sonra bu xo\u015fb\u0259xt c\u00fctl\u00fcy\u00fcn Arzu adl\u0131 \u015firin-\u015f\u0259k\u0259r q\u0131z\u0131 d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259ldi. \u00dcnzil\u0259 evd\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 zaman u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 ged\u0259r, b\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 \u00dcmid\u0259 onu taxta hasar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259tirib m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259rdi. Yen\u0259 bel\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259n biri idi. \u00dcnzil\u0259 yas m\u0259clisin\u0259 getmi\u015fdi. \u00dcmid\u0259 il\u0259 C\u0259mil f\u00fcrs\u0259td\u0259n istifad\u0259 edib m\u0259ni hasar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131lar. Yen\u0259 o no\u011ful q\u0131z\u0131 oradaca quca\u011f\u0131ma verdil\u0259r. Bir yandan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u00f6p\u00fcb ox\u015fay\u0131r, bir yandan da onlarla s\u00f6hb\u0259t edirdim. Q\u0259fild\u0259n \u00dcnzil\u0259 g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 v\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli hadis\u0259 ba\u015f verdi. O, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 hirsl\u0259 quca\u011f\u0131mdan al\u0131b hasardan tullad\u0131, sonra da m\u0259ni t\u0259pikl\u0259 vurub arabadan sald\u0131 v\u0259 araban\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 a\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. C\u0259mil d\u00f6z\u0259 bilm\u0259yib hasardan tulland\u0131 v\u0259 \u00dcnzil\u0259y\u0259 m\u00f6hk\u0259m bir yumruq vurdu. \u00dcnzil\u0259 yumru\u011fun t\u0259sirind\u0259n s\u0259ndirl\u0259yib k\u00f6k\u00fcnd\u0259n qopmu\u015f a\u011fac kimi yer\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131. S\u0259s-k\u00fcy\u0259 qon\u015fular y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. T\u0259bii ki, ham\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u2014 N\u0259y\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r ax\u0131 bu k\u00fcsk\u00fcnl\u00fck? Q\u0131z\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xtdir, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 da var, daha n\u0259 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n? \u2014 dey\u0259r\u0259k bac\u0131m\u0131 q\u0131nad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Bu haras\u0131d\u0131r, F\u0259rid\u0259 xan\u0131m, \u0259sl f\u0259lak\u0259t h\u0259l\u0259 qabaqdad\u0131r.Nurzad\u0259 F\u0259rid\u0259nin a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnc\u0259k azac\u0131q fasil\u0259 verib yenid\u0259n k\u0259d\u0259rli h\u0259yat hekay\u0259sinin ard\u0131n\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa davam etdi:<\/p>\n

\u2014 K\u0259ndimizd\u0259 ham\u0131n\u0131n seyid adland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 M\u00fcsahib V\u0259liyev adl\u0131 bir n\u0259f\u0259r var idi. X\u0259st\u0259l\u0259r \u015f\u0259fa tapmaq, evd\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015f q\u0131zlar b\u0259xtl\u0259rini a\u00e7d\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onun yan\u0131na ged\u0259rdi. Amma s\u0259n dem\u0259, i\u015f tamam ba\u015fqa imi\u015f. Bir g\u00fcn nec\u0259 oldusa, h\u0259min adam biz\u0259 g\u0259ldi v\u0259 m\u0259ni arabada g\u0259zdiyimi g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Bu zaman o, \u00dcnzil\u0259y\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2014 Bac\u0131, \u0259g\u0259r ist\u0259s\u0259n, bu q\u0131z\u0131 yerid\u0259r\u0259m, onu da \u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259n qurtararam, s\u0259ni d\u0259. Narahat olma, s\u0259nd\u0259n pul almaram, amma b\u0259zi prosedurlar var, onlar\u0131 h\u0259yata ke\u00e7irm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 q\u0131z m\u00fctl\u0259q bir gec\u0259 m\u0259nim evimd\u0259 qalmal\u0131d\u0131r, \u2014 dedi.<\/p>\n

\u00dcnzil\u0259 birc\u0259 an bel\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcd etm\u0259d\u0259n raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131. Lakin bu al\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131ma g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259yi f\u0259lak\u0259ti \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n hiss edirmi\u015f kimi qorxma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. T\u0259bii ki, bunu \u00dcnzil\u0259y\u0259 dey\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. M\u00fcsahib m\u0259ni evin\u0259 apard\u0131. O, evind\u0259 t\u0259k ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fvv\u0259l-\u0259vv\u0259l h\u0259r \u015fey normal idi. Bir xeyli ordan-burdan s\u00f6hb\u0259t etdik. Sonra M\u00fcsahib \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 v\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 i\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 iki fincan \u00e7ay g\u0259tirdi. \u00c7ay\u0131 i\u00e7ib qurtaran kimi ba\u015f\u0131m f\u0131rlanma\u011fa, g\u00f6zl\u0259rim qapanma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Bu arada M\u00fcsahibin m\u0259ni arabadan g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc hiss etdim, sonradan olanlar\u0131 is\u0259 xat\u0131rlam\u0131ram.<\/p>\n

Yaln\u0131z s\u0259h\u0259r saat onda g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi a\u00e7d\u0131m. H\u0259min an is\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcm boyunca olmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259m\u0259diyim, h\u0259r zaman \u00e7ox qorxdu\u011fum d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli bir v\u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131m. B\u0259li, h\u0259r \u015fey ayd\u0131n idi; ill\u0259r \u0259vv\u0259l yaz\u0131q atam\u0131n g\u0259nc ya\u015f\u0131nda u\u011frunda can\u0131ndan oldu\u011fu namusum l\u0259k\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015fdi. Bunu, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc seyid adland\u0131ran, lakin seyidlikl\u0259 z\u0259rr\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259si olmayan al\u00e7aq, \u00e7ay\u0131ma yuxu d\u0259rman\u0131 qataraq etmi\u015fdi. Olanlara inana bilm\u0259dim. \u018fynimd\u0259 dem\u0259k olar ki, paltar yox idi. Tez qalx\u0131b \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 oturdum v\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131ma g\u0259l\u0259n bu m\u00fcsib\u0259t qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u0259-h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u0259 a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. Bu an M\u00fcsahib s\u0259simi e\u015fidib yan\u0131ma g\u0259ldi v\u0259 t\u0259bii ki, h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n hali oldu\u011fumu ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Onu g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya:<\/p>\n

\u2014 Al\u00e7aq, s\u0259n neyl\u0259din? M\u0259nim namusumu tapdalad\u0131n. Ev\u0259 ged\u0259n kimi bac\u0131ma h\u0259r \u015feyi dan\u0131\u015faca\u011fam, s\u0259nd\u0259n polis\u0259 \u015fikay\u0259t ed\u0259c\u0259m, \u2014 dedim.<\/p>\n

M\u00fcsahib s\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 cavab olaraq \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 iyr\u0259nc bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2014 Dan\u0131\u015facaqsan? Of, ay q\u0131z, bo\u015funa \u00e7\u0259n\u0259ni yorma, onsuz da s\u0259n\u0259 he\u00e7 kim inanmayacaq. Kimdir s\u0259nin kimi topal bir insan\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 etibar ed\u0259n? \u2014 deyib m\u0259ni ev\u0259 geri g\u0259tirdi.<\/p>\n

O ged\u0259n kimi b\u0259lk\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 inanar \u00fcmidi il\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi \u00dcnzil\u0259y\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Bac\u0131m\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 inanaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 M\u00fcsahibd\u0259n polis\u0259 \u015fikay\u0259t ed\u0259c\u0259yini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm. \u018ffsuslar olsun, he\u00e7 d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259diyim kimi olmad\u0131. \u018fksin\u0259, bac\u0131m ill\u0259r \u0259vv\u0259l oldu\u011fu kimi yen\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 inanmad\u0131 v\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2014 S\u0259n n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan, ay q\u0131z? M\u00fcsahib seyiddir, onun yan\u0131na h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n \u015f\u0259fa tapmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn insanlar g\u0259lir. Bel\u0259 bir adama b\u00f6htan atma\u011fa utanm\u0131rsan? Be\u015f il \u0259vv\u0259l bu c\u00fcr yalanla atam\u0131, \u0259rimi qurban verdin, indi d\u0259 \u018frma\u011fan\u0131 qurban verm\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n? \u2014 deyib m\u0259ni m\u00f6hk\u0259m d\u00f6yd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

S\u00f6z\u00fcn h\u0259qiqi m\u0259nas\u0131nda \u00e7ar\u0259siz bir v\u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm, n\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259yimi, kimd\u0259n k\u00f6m\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yimi bilm\u0259dim. Bir g\u00fcn \u00dcnzil\u0259nin evd\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 zaman ba\u015f\u0131ma g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259ri \u00dcmid\u0259 v\u0259 qay\u0131nanas\u0131 N\u0259rgiz\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. N\u0259rgiz dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qlar\u0131m qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda heyr\u0259tl\u0259ndi v\u0259 M\u00fcsahibi Bah\u0259ddinin d\u0259 sevm\u0259diyini, onun seyid oldu\u011funa inanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 dedi. \u018flav\u0259 olaraq is\u0259 o al\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 evl\u0259ndiyini, son g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 is\u0259 insanlara qar\u015f\u0131 davran\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259yi\u015fdiyini, yan\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n y\u00fcks\u0259k miqdarda pul t\u0259l\u0259b etdiyini bildirdi. Yekun olaraq is\u0259 o da, \u00dcmid\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259min vaxt Rusiyaya i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ged\u0259n Bah\u0259ddinl\u0259 C\u0259milin g\u0259li\u015fini g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259yi m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t g\u00f6rd\u00fcl\u0259r. Onlar\u0131n dediyi kimi Bah\u0259ddingili g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m. Onsuz da ba\u015fqa \u00e7ar\u0259m yox idi. Ta ki R\u0259hman \u0259mi biz\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r.<\/p>\n

G\u00fcnorta \u00e7a\u011f\u0131 idi, \u00dcnzil\u0259 toya getmi\u015fdi, m\u0259n d\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi evd\u0259 t\u0259k idim. Hava xo\u015f oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 g\u0259zirdim. Bird\u0259n taxta qap\u0131 yava\u015fca a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131 v\u0259 R\u0259hman \u0259mi i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi. Onu g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi dil\u0259n\u00e7i oldu\u011funu ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. O saatda a\u011fl\u0131mdan \u015fim\u015f\u0259k s\u00fcr\u0259ti il\u0259 bir fikir ke\u00e7di. Onunla ged\u0259c\u0259k, s\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n ax\u015fama q\u0259d\u0259r k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 dil\u0259nm\u0259k bahas\u0131na da olsa, \u00dcnzil\u0259nin z\u00fclml\u0259rind\u0259n bird\u0259f\u0259lik qurtulacaqd\u0131m. H\u0259m d\u0259 o, g\u00f6rk\u0259mind\u0259n pis adama ox\u015fam\u0131rd\u0131. Lap olsayd\u0131 da, ayr\u0131 yolum yox idi. \u00c7\u00fcnki uca Allaha and i\u00e7ir\u0259m ki, h\u0259min vaxt m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn he\u00e7 bir yer \u00dcnzil\u0259nin yan\u0131ndan v\u0259 onun m\u0259n\u0259 ya\u015fatd\u0131qlar\u0131ndan pis ola bilm\u0259zdi. El\u0259 bu fikirl\u0259 d\u0259 onun yan\u0131na getdim.<\/p>\n

\u2014 H\u0259min vaxt \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn idi ki, dil\u0259nm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u2014 Bu yerd\u0259 R\u0259hman dill\u0259ndi: \u2014 G\u0259z\u0259-g\u0259z\u0259 \u015e\u0259mkir\u0259, Yeni H\u0259yat k\u0259ndin\u0259 gedib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. K\u0259nd\u0259 daxil olan kimi g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm birinci evin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131m. H\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 girib bir ne\u00e7\u0259 add\u0131m ir\u0259li getmi\u015fdim ki, \u0259lil arabas\u0131nda bir q\u0131z\u0131n s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 sar\u0131 g\u0259ldiyini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. A\u011fz\u0131m\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b ondan: “Evd\u0259 s\u0259nd\u0259n ba\u015fqa kim var?” \u2013 dey\u0259 soru\u015fmaq ist\u0259yirdim ki, q\u0131z b\u0259rab\u0259rim\u0259 \u00e7atan kimi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc arabadan d\u00fcz qar\u015f\u0131ma atd\u0131. O saatda: “\u018fmi, xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, m\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcnl\u0259 apar. M\u0259ni burdan, bu z\u00fclmd\u0259n qurtar”, \u2014 deyib a\u011flayaraq yalvarma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. T\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb\u00fcmd\u0259n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saniy\u0259 oldu\u011fum yerd\u0259c\u0259 donub qald\u0131m. Sonradan \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc c\u0259ml\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k q\u0131z\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b yerind\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdirdim v\u0259 ondan n\u0259 ba\u015f verdiyini soru\u015fdum. Nurzad\u0259 d\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259rin ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. E\u015fitdikl\u0259rimd\u0259n d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259ldim v\u0259 he\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259d\u0259n onu \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 Bak\u0131ya g\u0259tirm\u0259y\u0259 q\u0259rar verdim. Bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259ki odun k\u00f6t\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 oturub \u00dcnzil\u0259nin toydan qay\u0131tmas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m. Bu m\u00fcdd\u0259t \u0259rzind\u0259 ikimiz birlikd\u0259 bir plan qurduq.<\/p>\n

\u00dcnzil\u0259 bir d\u0259 iki saat sonra g\u0259ldi. Nurzad\u0259\u00a0 davam etdi:<\/p>\n

\u2014 O, R\u0259hman \u0259mini h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 \u00e7a\u015f\u0131b qald\u0131. R\u0259hman \u0259mi dil\u0259n\u00e7i oldu\u011funu, rayon-rayon g\u0259zdiyini s\u00f6yl\u0259di. Onlar xeyli s\u00f6hb\u0259t etdil\u0259r. H\u0259tta \u00dcnzil\u0259nin t\u0259klifi il\u0259 ev\u0259 girib bir st\u0259kan \u00e7ay da i\u00e7di. R\u0259hman \u0259mi bu \u0259snada q\u0259sd\u0259n maddiyyatdan s\u00f6z a\u00e7d\u0131. \u00dcnzil\u0259 maddi v\u0259ziyy\u0259tinin olduqca \u00e7\u0259tin oldu\u011funu dey\u0259n zaman R\u0259hman \u0259mi f\u00fcrs\u0259td\u0259n istifad\u0259 edib ona n\u0259hay\u0259t g\u00f6zl\u0259diyim t\u0259klifi etdi:<\/p>\n

\u2014 Bac\u0131, s\u0259n\u0259 bir t\u0259klifim var. \u018fg\u0259r raz\u0131 olsan, bu q\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 g\u0259zdirib dil\u0259ndir\u0259r\u0259m, qazand\u0131\u011f\u0131m pulun yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 da s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259r\u0259m. S\u0259nin d\u0259 maddi \u00e7\u0259tinlikd\u0259n can\u0131n qurtarar, \u2014 dedi.<\/p>\n

\u00dcnzil\u0259 cavab\u0131nda:<\/p>\n

\u2014 N\u0259 bilim, siz indi gedin, on g\u00fcn sonra g\u0259l\u0259rsiniz, ona q\u0259d\u0259r bir az fikirl\u0259\u015f\u0259r\u0259m, \u2014 dey\u0259nd\u0259 R\u0259hman \u0259mi:<\/p>\n

\u2014 Bac\u0131, vaxt yoxdur, m\u0259n indi gedir\u0259m, bura bir daha g\u0259lib-g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yimi d\u0259 bilmir\u0259m, s\u0259nin yerind\u0259 olsam f\u00fcrs\u0259ti \u0259ld\u0259n verm\u0259r\u0259m, \u2014 deyib t\u0259kid etdi.<\/p>\n

Ax\u0131r ki, \u00dcnzil\u0259: “Yax\u015f\u0131, apar\u0131n”, \u2014 dey\u0259r\u0259k raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131. El\u0259 h\u0259min g\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259\u015fyalar\u0131m\u0131 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b R\u0259hman \u0259miyl\u0259 birlikd\u0259 bir daha qay\u0131tmamaq fikri il\u0259 evd\u0259n v\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b Bak\u0131ya g\u0259ldik. Yolda R\u0259hman \u0259minin t\u0259kidi il\u0259 yem\u0259k yeyib, \u00e7ay i\u00e7dik. Yem\u0259kxanada olan bir n\u0259f\u0259rin telefonu il\u0259 \u00dcmid\u0259y\u0259 z\u0259ng edib ona h\u0259r \u015feyi dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m v\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n nigaran olmamas\u0131n\u0131, etibarl\u0131 \u0259ll\u0259rd\u0259 oldu\u011fumu bildirdim. Dediyimd\u0259 d\u0259 yan\u0131lmad\u0131m. Allah R\u0259hman \u0259mid\u0259n raz\u0131 olsun, \u0259g\u0259r o, \u00dcnzil\u0259y\u0259 dediyi kimi edib m\u0259ni dil\u0259ndirs\u0259ydi, m\u0259hdudiyy\u0259tli oldu\u011fum \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7oxlu pullar qazanard\u0131, amma sa\u011f olsun, bunu etm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Nurzad\u0259nin g\u0259ldiyi h\u0259min g\u00fcn indiki kimi yad\u0131mdad\u0131r. \u2014 Bu d\u0259f\u0259 \u018fmin\u0259 s\u00f6z\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u2014 Gec\u0259 saat on bir idi, t\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ki, q\u0131z\u0131m Mirvari t\u0259\u015fvi\u015f i\u00e7ind\u0259 m\u0259ni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b: “Ana, atam g\u0259ldi, yan\u0131nda da \u0259lil arabas\u0131nda bir qad\u0131n var”, \u2014 dedi. He\u00e7 n\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259d\u0259m v\u0259 yuxulu halda aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. Nurzad\u0259ni d\u0259 o zaman g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. \u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259 n\u0259 oldu\u011funu anlamad\u0131m. Sonradan R\u0259hmanla Nurzad\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. R\u0259hmandan onu dil\u0259ndirm\u0259m\u0259sini, bundan sonra biziml\u0259 ya\u015famas\u0131n\u0131 xahi\u015f etdim. S\u0259n dem\u0259, R\u0259hman da onu bura he\u00e7 d\u0259 dil\u0259ndirm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yox, zal\u0131m bac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n z\u00fclm\u00fcnd\u0259n xilas etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259tiribmi\u015f. O vaxtdan da Nurzad\u0259 ail\u0259mizin \u00fczv\u00fcn\u0259, m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259mizin sakinin\u0259 \u00e7evrildi.<\/p>\n

\u2014 El\u0259 h\u0259min g\u00fcn\u00fcn sabah\u0131 Sabun\u00e7u rayonu polis idar\u0259sin\u0259 getdim v\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l al\u00e7aq M\u00fcsahib V\u0259liyevin ba\u015f\u0131ma g\u0259tirdikl\u0259rini dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u2014 Nurzad\u0259 yenid\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa davam etdi:<\/p>\n

\u2014 S\u0259n dem\u0259, h\u0259min vaxt bizim k\u0259ndd\u0259n d\u0259 polis orqanlar\u0131na bu haqda \u015fikay\u0259t olunubmu\u015f. M\u0259n k\u0259ndd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda toyu olan q\u0131z\u0131n da ba\u015f\u0131na eyni hadis\u0259ni g\u0259tiribmi\u015f. Yaz\u0131q q\u0131z ax\u015fam a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya b\u00fct\u00fcn olanlar\u0131, y\u0259ni iki il \u00f6nc\u0259 M\u00fcsahib t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n eyni \u00fcsulla zorland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 insanl\u0131qdan uzaq olan bu m\u0259xluqun ox\u015far hadis\u0259ni ba\u015fqa b\u00f6lg\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 \u0259r\u0259 ged\u0259n v\u0259 tez bir zamanda geri qay\u0131dan bir ne\u00e7\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n da ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259tirdiyini \u0259rin\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Bel\u0259likl\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 ortaya \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, k\u0259nd \u0259halisi t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcb M\u00fcsahibin evini da\u015fqalaq edirl\u0259r. Polisl\u0259r o al\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 ancaq ara sakitl\u0259\u015fib k\u0259nd camaat\u0131 oradan uzaqla\u015fandan sonra tutub apar\u0131rlar. R\u0259hman \u0259migili q\u0131sa m\u00fcdd\u0259t \u0259rzind\u0259 tan\u0131d\u0131m v\u0259 ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ox sevdim. Amma ortada bel\u0259 bir m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259Var idi. D\u00fczd\u00fcr, R\u0259hman \u0259mi m\u0259ni dil\u0259ndirm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi. Lakin pulsuz ya\u015faya, \u0259n \u0259sas\u0131 da onlara y\u00fck ola bilm\u0259zdim. Bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259, n\u0259 olur-olsun, pul tapmal\u0131yd\u0131m. A\u011fl\u0131ma m\u00fcavin\u0259t kart\u0131m g\u0259ldi. G\u0259li\u015fimd\u0259n bir ay sonra, “M\u0259n\u0259 s\u0259nin pulun laz\u0131m deyil, s\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259nim bir \u00f6vlad\u0131m” dey\u0259n R\u0259hman \u0259minin k\u0259skin etiraz\u0131na baxmayaraq, yaz\u0131b-oxuma\u011f\u0131 bildiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u018fmin\u0259 xala il\u0259 birlikd\u0259 banka getdim v\u0259 \u00dcnzil\u0259d\u0259 olan kart\u0131 ba\u011flatd\u0131r\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 yeni kart a\u00e7d\u0131rd\u0131m. Bel\u0259c\u0259, maliyy\u0259 problemim h\u0259ll olundu.<\/p>\n

\u00dcst\u00fcnd\u0259n ne\u00e7\u0259 h\u0259ft\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015f bir mobil telefon ald\u0131m. O saatda \u00dcmid\u0259y\u0259 z\u0259ng edib ona h\u0259yat\u0131mda bir ay \u0259rzind\u0259 olanlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. V\u0259ziyy\u0259timin d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 oldu\u011funu dedim. Al\u00e7aq M\u00fcsahib tutulan zaman ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259ri d\u0259 el\u0259 ondan \u00f6yr\u0259ndim. Sonra o, \u00fcnvan\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259nib C\u0259mill\u0259 birlikd\u0259 m\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259ldi. Yaz\u0131q q\u0131z ill\u0259r ayr\u0131s\u0131 kimi boynumu qucaqlad\u0131 v\u0259 a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya: “Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, xala, s\u0259n\u0259 sahib \u00e7\u0131xa bilm\u0259dim. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, ayr\u0131 evim olanda s\u0259ni yan\u0131ma apararam”, \u2014 dedi. \u018frma\u011fan da Az\u0259rbaycana g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 ail\u0259si il\u0259 birlikd\u0259 yan\u0131ma g\u0259ldi. T\u0259bii ki, bundan \u00dcnzil\u0259nin x\u0259b\u0259ri olmad\u0131. \u0130ndi is\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259k h\u0259yat\u0131mdak\u0131 n\u00f6vb\u0259ti sevindirici hadis\u0259y\u0259.<\/p>\n

Bura g\u0259li\u015fimd\u0259n on il ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Art\u0131q dem\u0259k olar ki, yerli camaatla qaynay\u0131b-qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. M\u0259n \u018fmin\u0259 xala il\u0259 birlikd\u0259 toya, yasa, iftar s\u00fcfr\u0259sin\u0259 gedir, b\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 Quran oxuyurdum. Bir g\u00fcn yen\u0259 iftar s\u00fcfr\u0259sind\u0259 Quran oxudu\u011fum zaman yan\u0131ma \u018ffsan\u0259 adl\u0131 m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259 sakini g\u0259ldi. O, h\u0259r h\u0259ft\u0259nin c\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc namazdan sonra yax\u0131nl\u0131qdak\u0131 m\u0259scidd\u0259 dini s\u00f6hb\u0259t oldu\u011funu bildir\u0259r\u0259k, m\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 o s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259 i\u015ftirak etm\u0259yi m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Allah ondan raz\u0131 olsun, h\u0259min vaxtdan h\u0259r h\u0259ft\u0259 m\u0259scid\u0259 getm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m. Bel\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rin birind\u0259 Bak\u0131da \u00fc\u00e7 illik dini t\u0259hsil ala bil\u0259c\u0259yim q\u0131zlar m\u0259dr\u0259s\u0259si oldu\u011funu e\u015fitdim v\u0259 vaxt itirm\u0259d\u0259n ora getdim. \u00dc\u00e7 il kollecd\u0259 oxuyaraq dini bilikl\u0259rimi daha da t\u0259kmill\u0259\u015fdirdim.<\/p>\n

\u2014 H\u0259\u0259, g\u0259l\u0259k \u00dcnzil\u0259 v\u0259 T\u0259rlan\u0131n aqib\u0259tin\u0259. Bura g\u0259li\u015fimd\u0259n sonra \u00dcnzil\u0259 m\u0259ni he\u00e7 axtarmad\u0131. Y\u0259qin ki, o, M\u00fcsahibd\u0259n polis\u0259 \u015fikay\u0259t etdiyimi e\u015fidib, ondan da \u015fikay\u0259t ed\u0259c\u0259yimd\u0259n qorxmu\u015fdu. Lakin h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 \u00dcmid\u0259 il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fark\u0259n ondan x\u0259b\u0259r al\u0131rd\u0131m. \u00dcmid\u0259: “Anam\u0131n v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r, \u018frma\u011fan yen\u0259 d\u0259 ona pul g\u00f6nd\u0259rir, amma m\u0259niml\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131r”, \u2014 dey\u0259rdi. Ta ki alt\u0131 il \u0259vv\u0259l\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r. 2020-ci il idi. Gec\u0259d\u0259n xeyli ke\u00e7mi\u015f ham\u0131 kimi m\u0259n d\u0259 yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Q\u0259fild\u0259n mobil telefonum arams\u0131z z\u0259ng \u00e7alma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. T\u0259\u015fvi\u015f i\u00e7ind\u0259 yuxudan oyan\u0131b telefonu a\u00e7d\u0131m. O anda \u00dcmid\u0259nin \u00fcr\u0259ka\u011fr\u0131d\u0131c\u0131 f\u0259ryad\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitdim. O, m\u0259n\u0259: “Xala, biz Bak\u0131da x\u0259st\u0259xanaday\u0131q, anamla atam qaz partlay\u0131\u015f\u0131nda yan\u0131blar”, \u2014 dedi.<\/p>\n

E\u015fitdikl\u0259rim\u0259 inana bilm\u0259dim. Dig\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n d\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259dim, ax\u0131 T\u0259rlan h\u0259bsxanadayd\u0131, o, \u00dcnzil\u0259 il\u0259 nec\u0259 birlikd\u0259 ola bil\u0259rdi? Onun h\u0259bsxanadan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 is\u0259 h\u0259min vaxt d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259dim. N\u0259 is\u0259… Tez R\u0259hman \u0259mi il\u0259 birlikd\u0259 \u00dcmid\u0259nin dediyi x\u0259st\u0259xanadak\u0131 yan\u0131q \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sin\u0259 getdik. \u00dcmid\u0259 il\u0259 C\u0259mil ordayd\u0131lar. \u00dcmid\u0259 a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya: “Evd\u0259 yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q, q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli bir partlay\u0131\u015f s\u0259si e\u015fidib getdik. Biz i\u00e7\u0259ri daxil olanda h\u0259r ikisi olduqlar\u0131 yerd\u0259c\u0259 divara yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. M\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 d\u0259 yan\u011f\u0131n ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Xo\u015fb\u0259xtlikd\u0259n qon\u015fular yan\u011f\u0131n\u0131n dig\u0259r otaqlara ke\u00e7m\u0259sinin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ala bildil\u0259r. Onlar\u0131 \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 Z\u0259k\u0259riyy\u0259nin ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 il\u0259 \u015e\u0259mkir x\u0259st\u0259xanas\u0131na apard\u0131q. Oradak\u0131 h\u0259kiml\u0259r h\u0259r ikisind\u0259 v\u0259ziyy\u0259tin a\u011f\u0131r oldu\u011funu deyib, t\u0259cili yard\u0131mla Bak\u0131ya g\u00f6nd\u0259rdil\u0259r”, \u2014 dedi.<\/p>\n

Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saat ke\u00e7di, art\u0131q s\u0259h\u0259r a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Yan\u0131q \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sinin d\u0259hlizind\u0259 dayan\u0131b x\u0259b\u0259r g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdik. R\u0259hman \u0259mi m\u0259ni orada qoyub \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k sexin\u0259 i\u015f\u0259 getdi. Bir azdan h\u0259kim yan\u0131m\u0131za g\u0259ldi. O, \u00dcnzil\u0259 il\u0259 T\u0259rlan\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259li yan\u0131q x\u0259sar\u0259tl\u0259ri ald\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn orqanlar\u0131n\u0131n s\u0131radan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u00a0 bildirdi. Bu an tibb bac\u0131s\u0131 da g\u0259lib onlar\u0131n ay\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u0259di. Biz h\u0259kim\u0259 onlar\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259diyimizi s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 is\u0259 h\u0259kim: “V\u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 bax\u0131m, sonra siz\u0259 bir s\u00f6z dey\u0259r\u0259m”, \u2014 deyib getdi. On d\u0259qiq\u0259 sonra is\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b bizi onlar\u0131n yan\u0131na apard\u0131. \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259nd\u0259 indiy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 unuda bilm\u0259diyim sars\u0131d\u0131c\u0131 bir s\u0259hn\u0259 il\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131m. \u00dcnzil\u0259 d\u0259, T\u0259rlan da tan\u0131nmaz hala d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, ikisinin d\u0259 b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259 dem\u0259k olar ki, yanmayan bir yer qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00dcmid\u0259 il\u0259 m\u0259n a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya onlar\u0131n yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7arpay\u0131ya yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131q. H\u0259r ikisinin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri yar\u0131 qapal\u0131 halda idi. OnBe\u015f il aradan sonra ilk d\u0259f\u0259 idi g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fck. \u00dcmid\u0259 anas\u0131 il\u0259 qon\u015fu oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn uzaqdan da olsa onu h\u0259r g\u00fcn g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc, atas\u0131n\u0131 is\u0259 \u0259r\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra bir daha h\u0259bsxanaya g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 getm\u0259mi\u015fdi. T\u0259rlanla \u00dcnzil\u0259 yalvar\u0131c\u0131 n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rini bir xeyli \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 tikdil\u0259r. O bax\u0131\u015flarda daha n\u0259l\u0259r yox idi: pe\u015fman\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q, utanc v\u0259 sair. Sonra da h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131ra-h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131ra a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131lar. Onlar n\u0259s\u0259 deyir, amma dedikl\u0259ri anla\u015f\u0131lm\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259kim onlar\u0131n h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 tam \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259diyini bildirdi.<\/p>\n

Bu minvalla iki g\u00fcn \u00f6td\u00fc. M\u0259n \u018fmin\u0259 xala v\u0259 R\u0259hman \u0259mi il\u0259 birlikd\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259xanaya gedib-g\u0259lirdim. \u018frma\u011fan, Nuriy\u0259 v\u0259 Lumi\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259ri e\u015fidib Rusiyadan g\u0259ldil\u0259r. Bac\u0131lar\u0131m ikisi d\u0259 m\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi qollar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 yeridil\u0259r, lakin ikisi il\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259dim. K\u00fcsm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm onlardan. \u00c7\u00fcnki \u0259g\u0259r ist\u0259s\u0259ydil\u0259r, vaxt\u0131nda m\u0259ni \u00f6zl\u0259ri il\u0259 Rusiyaya apara, \u00dcnzil\u0259nin z\u00fclml\u0259rind\u0259n qurtara bil\u0259rdil\u0259r. Ax\u0131 \u018frma\u011fan onlara anas\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 etdikl\u0259ri haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f, “Bac\u0131n\u0131za sahib \u00e7\u0131x\u0131n, onu anam\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n al\u0131n” demi\u015fdi. Onlar is\u0259 \u018frma\u011fana: “Biz ona baxa bilm\u0259rik”, \u2014 s\u00f6yl\u0259mi\u015f, m\u0259ruz qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m haqs\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa qulaq t\u0131xay\u0131b, g\u00f6z yummu\u015fdular. \u018fn \u0259sas\u0131 is\u0259 bura g\u0259ldiyim vaxtdan bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsun m\u0259ni itirib-axtarmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

N\u0259hay\u0259t bir g\u00fcn h\u0259kim\u00a0 g\u0259lib n\u0259hay\u0259t \u00dcnzil\u0259 il\u0259 T\u0259rlan\u0131n dan\u0131\u015fa bildikl\u0259rini, lakin onlar\u0131n ya\u015famaq ehtimal\u0131n\u0131n olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 , h\u0259r ikisinin d\u0259 halall\u0131q ist\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u00dcmid\u0259 il\u0259 m\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259dikl\u0259rini bildirdi. Tibb bac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fc\u015fayi\u0259ti il\u0259 onlar\u0131n ota\u011f\u0131na getdik. T\u0259rlanla \u00dcnzil\u0259nin v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti \u0259vv\u0259lkind\u0259n daha da pisl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi. S\u00f6z\u0259 ilk \u0259vv\u0259l \u00dcnzil\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131 v\u0259 o saat da h\u0259r \u015fey m\u0259lum oldu. S\u0259n dem\u0259, faci\u0259nin ba\u015f verdiyi h\u0259min g\u00fcn T\u0259rlan c\u0259za m\u00fcdd\u0259tini bitirib h\u0259bsxanadan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015f, \u00dcnzil\u0259 d\u0259 onu k\u0259nd\u0259 aparmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Bak\u0131ya g\u0259libmi\u015f. H\u0259r ikisi birlikd\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri g\u0259zdikd\u0259n sonra k\u0259nd\u0259, ev\u0259 gedirl\u0259r. \u00c7atan kimi d\u0259 m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7ib \u00e7ay i\u00e7m\u0259k ist\u0259yirl\u0259r. \u00dcnzil\u0259 i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 yand\u0131ran zaman d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli partlay\u0131\u015f ba\u015f verir. He\u00e7 dem\u0259, o evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda qaz\u0131 ba\u011flama\u011f\u0131 unutmu\u015f, qay\u0131danad\u0259k d\u0259 m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 qaz dolubmu\u015f.<\/p>\n

Bir az aral\u0131da dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. \u00dcnzil\u0259 bunlar\u0131 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b bitirdikd\u0259n sonra bizi yax\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259 sol\u011fun bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00dcmid\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7evirdi v\u0259 a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya:<\/p>\n

\u2014 M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131z\u0131m. Haqs\u0131z yer\u0259 ill\u0259r boyu s\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259lbimd\u0259 bitm\u0259k bilm\u0259y\u0259n bir nifr\u0259t b\u0259sl\u0259dim, \u2014 dedi. \u2014 M\u0259n\u0259 haqq\u0131n\u0131 halal el\u0259, \u2014 s\u00f6yl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u00dcmid\u0259 d\u00f6z\u0259 bilm\u0259yib h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u0259-h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u0259 a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m v\u0259 “Can\u0131m anam” dey\u0259r\u0259k \u0259yilib anas\u0131n\u0131n yanm\u0131\u015f \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc. Sonra \u00dcnzil\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259n\u0259 tutub dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u2014 Nurzad\u0259, s\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, g\u00f6z\u0259l bac\u0131m. Anam bu d\u00fcnyadan k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 s\u0259ni m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259man\u0259t etmi\u015fdi. \u018fman\u0259tin\u0259 sahib \u00e7\u0131xa, q\u0131z\u0131ma yax\u015f\u0131 ana, n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259rim\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 n\u0259n\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m kimi, s\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 layiqli bac\u0131 olmad\u0131m. M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, haqq\u0131n\u0131 halal el\u0259, \u2014 s\u00f6yl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

Bu yerd\u0259 T\u0259rlan da iztirabla yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7arpay\u0131dan dill\u0259ndi:<\/p>\n

\u2014 M\u0259ni d\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, Nurzad\u0259. S\u0259ni ki\u00e7ik bac\u0131m g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259li oldu\u011fum halda, v\u0259ziyy\u0259tind\u0259n istifad\u0259 edib haqq\u0131nda nalayiq fikr\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. Haqs\u0131z yer\u0259 atan\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcm, m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc t\u0259miz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xarmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn q\u0259sd\u0259n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 b\u00f6htan atd\u0131m. Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, haqq\u0131n\u0131 halal el\u0259, \u2014 dedi.<\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq q\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259ndim v\u0259 yaln\u0131z bir k\u0259lm\u0259: “Sizi Allah ba\u011f\u0131\u015flas\u0131n”, \u2014 dey\u0259 bildim. “Haqq\u0131m\u0131 halal edir\u0259m” s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc dey\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. Bilirsiniz, \u00dcnzil\u0259nin m\u0259ni d\u00f6yd\u00fcy\u00fc zaman vurdu\u011fu says\u0131z-hesabs\u0131z z\u0259rb\u0259l\u0259rin a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 can\u0131mdan, yeri b\u0259d\u0259nimd\u0259n \u00e7oxdan gedib, ancaq onun s\u00f6zl\u0259ri il\u0259 q\u0259lbimd\u0259 a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u0259rin yaralar he\u00e7 vaxt qapanmayacaq. Ruhumda buraxd\u0131\u011f\u0131 izl\u0259r \u0259b\u0259di silinm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi. T\u0259rlana qald\u0131qdais\u0259 o, m\u0259nim h\u0259yatdak\u0131 t\u0259k daya\u011f\u0131m\u0131 \u2014 atam\u0131 \u0259limd\u0259n alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 is\u0259… Sonra T\u0259rlan \u00dcmid\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f d\u00f6nd\u00fc:<\/p>\n

\u2014 Q\u0131z\u0131m, s\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla. N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 insan, n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 \u00f6vlad, n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 \u0259r, n\u0259 d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ata ola bilm\u0259dim, \u2014 dedi v\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn sonunda da: \u2014 Biz \u00f6l\u00fcr\u00fck, q\u0131z\u0131m. Biz \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra evimizd\u0259 ya\u015fayars\u0131n\u0131z, \u2014 dey\u0259 v\u0259siyy\u0259t etdi.<\/p>\n

Bayaq oldu\u011fu kimi bu d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 \u00dcmid\u0259 a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya atas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc. Sonra onlar Bah\u0259ddin, C\u0259mil v\u0259 dig\u0259r yax\u0131nlar\u0131m\u0131zla halalla\u015fd\u0131lar. \u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcn sonra is\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 T\u0259rlan, iki saat sonra da \u00dcnzil\u0259 d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi. Onlar\u0131 apar\u0131b k\u0259nd q\u0259biristanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda d\u0259fn etdil\u0259r. D\u0259fn m\u0259rasimind\u0259 i\u015ftirak etm\u0259dim. T\u0259rlan\u0131n v\u0259siyy\u0259tin\u0259 uy\u011fun olaraq indi \u00dcmid\u0259 il\u0259 C\u0259mil onlar\u0131n evind\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rlar. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 onlar\u00a0 m\u0259ni \u00f6zl\u0259ri il\u0259 aparmaq ist\u0259dil\u0259r. Ancaq bir daha k\u0259nd\u0259 qay\u0131tmaq, h\u0259r k\u00fcnc-buca\u011f\u0131 ac\u0131 xatir\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 dolu olan o evd\u0259 ya\u015famaq ist\u0259m\u0259dim. \u0130ndi on alt\u0131 ildir ki, burada R\u0259hman \u0259migill\u0259 birlikd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131ram. H\u0259r c\u00fcm\u0259 m\u0259scid\u0259 gedib, dini s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259 i\u015ftirak edir, Quran \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259rs verir, m\u00fcxt\u0259s\u0259r, \u0259min-amanl\u0131q i\u00e7ind\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131ma davam edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Bel\u0259, F\u0259rid\u0259 xan\u0131m, bu da h\u0259yat hekay\u0259m, \u2014 Nurzad\u0259 bununla da dan\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yekunla\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Nec\u0259 d\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rli bir h\u0259yat hekay\u0259niz var imi\u015f, Nurzad\u0259 xan\u0131m, \u2014 bayaqdan Nurzad\u0259nin dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 i\u00e7ind\u0259 dinl\u0259y\u0259n F\u0259rid\u0259 onun s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc bitirdiyini g\u00f6rc\u0259k g\u00f6zl\u0259rini silib dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131, \u2014 amma nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, h\u0259r \u015f\u0259rd\u0259 bir xeyir var. \u0130nsan \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n bu d\u00fcnyada ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259n hadis\u0259l\u0259r h\u0259r zaman onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015f\u0259r olmur. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, indiki h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131z \u0259vv\u0259l ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n m\u00fckafat\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u2014 D\u00fcz deyirsiniz, \u2014 Nurzad\u0259 t\u0259sdiq \u0259lam\u0259ti olaraq ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rp\u0259tdi. Bu an Zamanla Namaz otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

\u2014 G\u0259lin, balalar\u0131m, \u2014 deyib Nurzad\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc u\u015faqlara t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7evirdi. \u2014 H\u0259\u0259, qoy bunu da deyim: Zaman r\u0259hm\u0259tlik babam\u0131n, Namaz is\u0259 atam\u0131n ad\u0131d\u0131r. Onlar m\u0259nim bura g\u0259li\u015fimd\u0259n sonra d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259ldil\u0259r. \u0130kisinin d\u0259 adlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcm qoymu\u015fam, sa\u011f olsunlar, R\u0259hman \u0259mil\u0259 \u018fmin\u0259 xala s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc yer\u0259 salmad\u0131lar. Bir olan Allah\u0131n ad\u0131na and i\u00e7ir\u0259m ki, onlar\u0131 \u00f6z \u00f6vladlar\u0131m kimi sevir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Siz nec\u0259, Nurzad\u0259 xalan\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7ox ist\u0259yirsiniz? \u2014 F\u0259rid\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc u\u015faqlara tutub soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

\u2014 \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, ist\u0259yirik, \u2014 Namaz t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcds\u00fcz dill\u0259ndi, \u2014 biz g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc a\u00e7andan Nurzad\u0259 xalan\u0131 bu evd\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f, onun h\u0259zin laylalar\u0131 il\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck. O, m\u0259dr\u0259s\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259hsil alma\u011fa getdiyi zaman ikimiz d\u0259 daimi getdiyini, bir daha geri qay\u0131tmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb i\u00e7in-i\u00e7in a\u011flam\u0131\u015f, \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k yem\u0259mi\u015fdik. Yaz\u0131q atamla anam n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r dil t\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f, onun t\u0259hsil alma\u011fa getdiyini, t\u0259hsilini tamamlad\u0131qdan sonra yenid\u0259n evimiz\u0259 geri qay\u0131d\u0131b yenid\u0259n biziml\u0259 ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 d\u0259 olsa inand\u0131ra bilmi\u015fdil\u0259r. T\u0259til vaxtlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259birsizlikl\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259r, g\u0259ldiyi zaman m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259nin giri\u015fin\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xar, ax\u015fam yan\u0131nda yatmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir-birimizl\u0259 yar\u0131\u015fard\u0131q. G\u0259li\u015fi il\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259miz\u0259 b\u0259zi yenilikl\u0259r d\u0259 g\u0259tirdi Nurzad\u0259 xala. Onun g\u0259li\u015find\u0259n sonra u\u015faqlar\u0131n \u00e7oxu dil\u0259nm\u0259kd\u0259n qurtulub m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 getdi, b\u0259zil\u0259rinin valideynl\u0259ri il\u0259 d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131qlar apar\u0131r. Biz d\u0259 onun say\u0259sind\u0259 evd\u0259n d\u0259rs\u0259 gedir, d\u0259rsd\u0259n ev\u0259 g\u0259lirik.<\/p>\n

\u2014 Allah ondan raz\u0131 olsun!<\/p>\n

\u2014 Amin! \u2014 \u018fmin\u0259 o\u011flunun duas\u0131na qo\u015fuldu. Bu yerd\u0259 Arzu il\u0259 M\u0259l\u0259k \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259 s\u00fcfr\u0259 v\u0259 \u00e7ay dolu sinil\u0259 geri qay\u0131td\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

\u2014 \u00c7aylar g\u0259ldi! \u2014 Arzu g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k dill\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

\u2014 A n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131, sa\u011f olun, q\u0131zlar, lap \u00fcr\u0259yimi oxudunuz. Dan\u0131\u015fmaqdan bo\u011faz\u0131m qurumu\u015fdu, \u2014 Nurzad\u0259 sevinc\u0259k dedi.<\/p>\n

Arzu s\u00fcfr\u0259ni sald\u0131qdan sonra M\u0259l\u0259k \u00e7aylar\u0131 paylama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 4 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

(hekay\u0259) G\u00f6z\u0259l yaz f\u0259silinin g\u0259li\u015fi h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fi oldu\u011fu kimi Bak\u0131da da hiss olunurdu. Bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 d\u0259, s\u00f6z\u00fcn h\u0259qiqi m\u0259nas\u0131nda, damar\u0131nda qan donduran s\u0259rt soyuqlar indi yerini ruh ox\u015fayan il\u0131q yaz havas\u0131na vermi\u015fdi. S\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n ax\u015famad\u0259k \u00e7oxu hara getdiyini bilm\u0259d\u0259n yol boyu s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 \u015f\u00fct\u00fcy\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131nlar\u0131n qulaqbat\u0131ran u\u011fultusuna, h\u00fcnd\u00fcr a\u011faclar\u0131n t\u0259p\u0259sind\u0259 \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 pay\u0131za q\u0259d\u0259r ya\u015famaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yuva quran […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":22538,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22537"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=22537"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22537\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":22539,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22537\/revisions\/22539"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/22538"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=22537"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=22537"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=22537"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}