{"id":6707,"date":"2014-08-17T12:34:17","date_gmt":"2014-08-17T07:34:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=6707"},"modified":"2014-08-19T16:09:38","modified_gmt":"2014-08-19T11:09:38","slug":"x%c9%99b%c9%99rci-ur%c9%99k-edqar-allan-po","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=6707","title":{"rendered":"X\u0259b\u0259r\u00e7i \u00fcr\u0259k \u2013 Edqar Allan Po"},"content":{"rendered":"

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D\u00fczd\u00fcr! \u018fs\u0259bi \u2013 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 \u00e7ox \u0259s\u0259bi biri idim, el\u0259 indi d\u0259 bel\u0259y\u0259m! Ax\u0131 hardan m\u0259nim d\u0259li oldu\u011fum q\u0259na\u0259tin\u0259 g\u0259lirsiniz? Bu x\u0259st\u0259lik \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rimi tar\u0131ma \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdi\u2013 korlamam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, k\u00fctl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n \u0259n \u00f6n\u0259mlisi, e\u015fitm\u0259 qabiliyy\u0259timd\u0259ki h\u0259sasl\u0131q idi. G\u00f6yd\u0259, yerd\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyi e\u015fidirdim. C\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259md\u0259 d\u0259 olan bir \u00e7ox \u015feyi e\u015fidirdim. Nec\u0259 d\u0259li ola bil\u0259r\u0259m ax\u0131? Bir dinl\u0259yin! G\u00f6r\u00fcn, nec\u0259 sa\u011flam d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 il\u0259 \u2013 sakitlik il\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn hekay\u0259ni siz\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131ram.
\n\u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 bu fikrin a\u011fl\u0131ma nec\u0259 g\u0259ldiyini dem\u0259k qeyri- m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr; bir d\u0259f\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131ma batd\u0131, sonra is\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r ax\u015fam rahatl\u0131q verm\u0259di m\u0259n\u0259. M\u0259qs\u0259d yox idi. Ehtiras da yox idi. Bir qoca ki\u015fini sevirdim. O he\u00e7 vaxt m\u0259ni yan\u0131ltmad\u0131. M\u0259n\u0259 yuxardan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 baxmad\u0131. Onun q\u0131z\u0131l\u0131nda da g\u00f6z\u00fcm yox idi. M\u0259nc\u0259, m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 onun g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 idi. B\u0259li, onun g\u00f6z\u00fc! G\u00f6z\u00fc q\u0131r\u011f\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131 \u2013 \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc p\u0259rd\u0259 alm\u0131\u015f sol\u011fun mavi g\u00f6z. Bu g\u00f6z m\u0259n\u0259 zill\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 damar\u0131mda qan\u0131m donurdu \u2013 t\u0259dric\u0259n, yava\u015f-yava\u015f \u2013 buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 qocan\u0131n can\u0131n\u0131 alma\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 bu g\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259lik qurtulma\u011f\u0131 q\u0259rara ald\u0131m.
\nH\u0259, g\u0259l\u0259k \u0259sas m\u0259qama. M\u0259nim d\u0259li oldu\u011fumu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz. D\u0259lil\u0259r he\u00e7 n\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259n adamlard\u0131r. Amma siz, bir m\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259ydiniz. \u0130\u015fi nec\u0259 m\u00fcdrik, t\u0259dbirli, uzaqg\u00f6r\u0259n \u2013 h\u0259r \u015feyi \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 yerin\u0259 yetirdiyimi ka\u015f g\u00f6r\u0259ydiniz!
\nQocan\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259zd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259lki h\u0259ft\u0259 boyu ona qar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7ox mehriban davrand\u0131m. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r he\u00e7 vaxt onunla bel\u0259 mehriban olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. H\u0259r gec\u0259 \u2013 t\u0259xmin\u0259n gec\u0259yar\u0131s\u0131 \u2013 s\u00fcrg\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0259kib qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131m. Ah, bunu nec\u0259 n\u0259zak\u0259tl\u0259 edirdim! Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259c\u0259yi q\u0259d\u0259r qap\u0131n\u0131 aralad\u0131qdan sonra \u00fcst\u00fc \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u00fc \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131 ota\u011fa t\u0259r\u0259f tuturdum. \u00c7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc el\u0259 \u00f6rtm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm ki, ondan \u0259trafa bir damla bel\u0259 i\u015f\u0131q \u015f\u00f6l\u0259si s\u0131zm\u0131rd\u0131. Sonra is\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259ri sal\u0131rd\u0131m. Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259ri nec\u0259 hiyl\u0259g\u0259rc\u0259sin\u0259 sald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6rs\u0259ydiniz, g\u00fclm\u0259yiniz g\u0259l\u0259rdi! Qocan\u0131 yuxusundan el\u0259m\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 yava\u015f-yava\u015f uzad\u0131b i\u00e7\u0259ri sal\u0131rd\u0131m. Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 qap\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan onun yataqda nec\u0259 yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r i\u00e7\u0259ri salmaq d\u00fcz bir saat vaxt\u0131m\u0131 al\u0131rd\u0131. Sizc\u0259, bir d\u0259linin bunlar\u0131 etm\u0259y\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131 \u00e7atard\u0131? Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n yerini rahatlad\u0131qdan sonra \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc ehtiyatla a\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131m (qap\u0131n\u0131n r\u0259z\u0259si c\u0131r\u0131ldad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan) \u2013 \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131 el\u0259 ehtiyatla a\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131m ki, \u00e7\u0131raqdan g\u0259l\u0259n i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n yaln\u0131z bir \u015f\u00f6l\u0259si bu q\u0131r\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rin \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 yeddi uzun gec\u0259 boyu \u2013 h\u0259r gec\u0259, d\u00fcz gec\u0259yar\u0131s\u0131 \u2013 etdim, amma bu g\u00f6zl\u0259r h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yumuluydu; i\u015fi bitirm\u0259m m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyildi, \u00e7\u00fcnki m\u0259nim can\u0131m\u0131 bo\u011faz\u0131ma y\u0131\u011fan qoca deyildi, o l\u0259n\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259r idi. V\u0259 h\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r dan yeri a\u011faran kimi \u0259l-qolumu sallaya-sallaya onun ota\u011f\u0131na ged\u0259r, c\u0259sar\u0259tl\u0259 onunla s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259rdim. S\u0259mimi \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 ad\u0131yla m\u00fcraci\u0259t ed\u0259r, gec\u0259ni nec\u0259 ke\u00e7irdiyini soru\u015fard\u0131m. G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz d\u0259, m\u00fcdrik \u2013 d\u0259rin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259li biri olsayd\u0131, h\u0259r gec\u0259 d\u00fcz saat on iki tamamda onu yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerd\u0259c\u0259 izl\u0259diyimd\u0259n duyuq d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bil\u0259rdi.
\nS\u0259kkizinci gec\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131qda h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259kind\u0259n daha t\u0259mkinli idim. H\u0259tta, saat\u0131n k\u0259fgiri bel\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n daha s\u00fcr\u0259tli h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t edirdi. H\u0259min gec\u0259y\u0259 kimi bu q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00fccl\u00fc v\u0259 f\u0259ras\u0259tli oldu\u011fumun f\u0259rqin\u0259 varmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u0130\u00e7imd\u0259ki qalibiyy\u0259t hissini g\u00fccl\u0259 bo\u011furdum. Bax\u0131n, m\u0259n ordayd\u0131m, qap\u0131n\u0131 yava\u015f-yava\u015f a\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131m. M\u0259nim gizli d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rimi yuxusunda bel\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi. \u00d6z fikirl\u0259rim\u0259 bax\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259dim; b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, s\u0259simi e\u015fitdi, s\u0259ks\u0259nibmi\u015f kimi q\u0259fild\u0259n yerind\u0259 qurcuxdu. El\u0259 bilirsiniz fikrimd\u0259n d\u00f6n\u00fcb geri \u00e7\u0259kildim?! Xeyr! Onun ota\u011f\u0131 zift kimi z\u00fclm\u0259t i\u00e7ind\u0259 idi ( o\u011frulardan qorxdu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259ri b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk ba\u011flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131). Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 bilirdim ki, qap\u0131n\u0131n araland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259z v\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259brl\u0259 a\u00e7ma\u011fa davam etdim.
\nBa\u015f\u0131m\u0131 qap\u0131dan i\u00e7\u0259ri sal\u0131b \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7maq ist\u0259yirdim ki, ba\u015f barma\u011f\u0131m qalay tutqac\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259n s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, qoca yerind\u0259n dik at\u0131l\u0131b q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131:
\n\u201c Kim var burda?\u201d
\nSakitc\u0259 dayan\u0131b bir k\u0259lm\u0259 d\u0259 dem\u0259dim. D\u00fcz bir saat birc\u0259 \u0259z\u0259l\u0259m bel\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t etm\u0259di, amma onun da qay\u0131d\u0131b yerin\u0259 uzand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259dim. H\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 yerind\u0259 oturub g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi \u2013 h\u0259r gec\u0259 m\u0259nim etdiyim kimi, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn divarda dayan\u0131b onu g\u00f6zl\u0259diyini e\u015fid\u0259r\u0259k.
\nBir az sonra z\u0259if bir inilti e\u015fitdim, bilirdim ki, bu \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc qorxunun iniltisidi. A\u011fr\u0131dan ya da k\u0259d\u0259rd\u0259n yaranan inilti deyil bu \u2013 yox! \u2013 bu, qorxunun \u0259sir ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 ruhun d\u0259rinlikl\u0259rind\u0259n qopub g\u0259l\u0259n bo\u011fuq s\u0259s idi. Bu s\u0259si yax\u015f\u0131 tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131m. Gec\u0259l\u0259rc\u0259, d\u00fcz gec\u0259yar\u0131s\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnya yuxuya ged\u0259nd\u0259 k\u00f6ks\u00fcmd\u0259n qopub g\u0259lirdi, d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli \u0259ks-s\u0259das\u0131 il\u0259 i\u00e7imd\u0259 d\u0259rinl\u0259\u015fdikc\u0259 m\u0259ni m\u0259nliyimd\u0259n sapd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Dediyim kimi, bu s\u0259si yax\u015f\u0131 tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131m. \u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259 ona g\u00fcls\u0259m d\u0259, qocan\u0131n n\u0259 hiss etdiyini anlay\u0131rd\u0131m, ona yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u0259lirdi. S\u0259si e\u015fidib yerind\u0259 bu t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 d\u00f6nd\u00fckd\u0259n sonra say\u0131q yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilirdim. Ta o vaxtdan i\u00e7ind\u0259 getdikc\u0259 qorxu art\u0131rd\u0131. Qula\u011f\u0131na s\u0259s g\u0259ldiyini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, amma olmurdu ki olmurdu. \u00d6z\u2013\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 deyirdi:<\/p>\n

\u201c Bacadak\u0131 k\u00fcl\u0259yin v\u0131y\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131d\u0131 yaxud bu sad\u0259c\u0259 d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259d\u0259 qa\u00e7an si\u00e7an idi, ya da sis\u0259y b\u00f6c\u0259yinin s\u0259si idi\u201d.
\nBu m\u00fclahiz\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli verm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, amma \u0259b\u0259s yer\u0259. H\u0259r \u015fey \u0259b\u0259s yer\u0259 idi. Qara k\u00f6lg\u0259si il\u0259 gizli-gizli yax\u0131nla\u015fan \u00d6l\u00fcm qurban\u0131n\u0131 sarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00f6rm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, e\u015fitm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, m\u0259nim varl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ona hiss etdir\u0259n bu d\u0259rkedilm\u0259z k\u00f6lg\u0259nin h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc t\u0259siri idi.
\nOnun yerin\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b uzand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259d\u0259n s\u0259brl\u0259 uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t g\u00f6zl\u0259dikd\u0259n sonra \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131n bir b\u00f6yr\u00fcn\u00fc azac\u0131q a\u00e7maq q\u0259rar\u0131na g\u0259ldim. A\u00e7d\u0131m \u2013 \u00e7ox ehtiyatla a\u00e7d\u0131m- yar\u0131qdan \u00e7\u0131xan h\u00f6r\u00fcm\u00e7\u0259k ipliyi kimi nazik i\u015f\u0131q \u015f\u00f6l\u0259si q\u0131r\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rin \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7d\u0131m.
\nA\u00e7\u0131q idi \u2013 geni\u015f, geni\u015f a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ona baxd\u0131qca daha da q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259nirdim. Onu b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u00fck\u0259mm\u0259lliyi il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bilirdim \u2013 donuq mavi v\u0259 \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 illikl\u0259rim\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259ni titr\u0259d\u0259n iyr\u0259nc p\u0259rd\u0259; amma qocan\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn v\u0259 ya b\u0259d\u0259ninin ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 bir yerini g\u00f6r\u0259 bilmirdim. El\u0259 bil \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmadan i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 birba\u015fa bu l\u0259n\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f n\u00f6qt\u0259y\u0259 tutmu\u015fdum.
\nD\u0259lilik bar\u0259d\u0259 yanl\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n h\u0259ddind\u0259n art\u0131q duy\u011fusal olman\u0131zla ba\u011fl\u0131 oldu\u011funu siz\u0259 dem\u0259mi\u015fdimmi? \u0130ndi, deyir\u0259m ki, qula\u011f\u0131ma saat\u0131 pamb\u0131\u011fa b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fckd\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131\u011f\u0131 t\u0131qq\u0131lt\u0131lar kimi z\u0259if, bo\u011fuq v\u0259 s\u00fcr\u0259tli s\u0259sl\u0259r g\u0259ldi. Bu s\u0259si d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131m. Bu qocan\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259k d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u0259ri idi. T\u0259bil s\u0259si d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00e7\u00fcl\u0259ri ruhland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi bu s\u0259s d\u0259 m\u0259nim q\u0259z\u0259bimi alovland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.
\nYen\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc saxlay\u0131b he\u00e7 yerimd\u0259n q\u0131m\u0131ldanmad\u0131m da. G\u00fccl\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131rd\u0131m. \u00c7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131 \u0259limd\u0259, i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 is\u0259 onun g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 t\u0259rp\u0259tm\u0259d\u0259n saxlama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. Eyni zamanda l\u0259n\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f \u00fcr\u0259k d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u0259rinin s\u0259si y\u00fcks\u0259lirdi. Getdikc\u0259 s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259nir, y\u00fcks\u0259lirdi. Qocan\u0131n qorxusu a\u011flas\u0131\u011fmaz bir h\u0259dd\u0259 olmal\u0131 idi! \u00dcr\u0259k d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u0259ri y\u00fcks\u0259lirdi, deyir\u0259m ax\u0131, y\u00fcks\u0259lirdi \u2013 n\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259diyimi anlad\u0131n\u0131zm\u0131? Xat\u0131rlay\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131zsa, siz\u0259 g\u0259rgin oldu\u011fumu demi\u015fdim: h\u0259, m\u0259n bel\u0259y\u0259m. V\u0259 indi gec\u0259nin \u00f6lg\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259, bu k\u00f6hn\u0259 evin t\u00fck\u00fcrp\u0259dici s\u0259ssizliyind\u0259 bel\u0259 bir s\u0259sin m\u0259nd\u0259 idar\u0259edilm\u0259z vahim\u0259 yaratmas\u0131 \u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259 idi.
\nDaha bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 al\u0131b t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259dim. Amma, \u00fcr\u0259k d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u0259ri y\u00fcks\u0259lirdi, y\u00fcks\u0259lirdi! M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, bu \u00fcr\u0259k indi partlayacaq. \u0130ndi i\u00e7imd\u0259 ba\u015fqa bir t\u0259\u015fvi\u015f ba\u015f qald\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131- qon\u015fulardan kims\u0259 bu s\u0259si e\u015fid\u0259 bil\u0259rdi!<\/p>\n

Qocan\u0131n vaxt\u0131 yeti\u015fmi\u015fdi! G\u00fccl\u00fc ba\u011f\u0131rt\u0131 il\u0259 \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7d\u0131m v\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 hoppand\u0131m. Q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131 \u2013 c\u0259mi birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131. Bir d\u0259qiq\u0259nin i\u00e7ind\u0259 onu d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 y\u0131xd\u0131m v\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131 onun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 it\u0259l\u0259dim. Sonra sevin\u0259r\u0259k g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259dim, i\u015fin indiy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r qaydas\u0131nda getm\u0259sin\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259dim. Amma, \u00fcr\u0259yi daha bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 bo\u011fuq bir s\u0259sl\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 davam etdi. Bu, he\u00e7 d\u0259 kefim\u0259 so\u011fan do\u011framad\u0131: bu s\u0259s divar\u0131n o biri t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n e\u015fidil\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi. N\u0259hay\u0259t, bu s\u0259s d\u0259 k\u0259sildi. Qoca \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u00c7arpay\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kib c\u0259s\u0259di yoxlad\u0131m. B\u0259li,o da\u015f kimi cans\u0131z idi. \u018flimi \u00fcr\u0259yinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoyub bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 orda saxlad\u0131m. \u00dcr\u0259yi d\u00f6y\u00fcnm\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00d6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri daha m\u0259ni narahat ed\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi.
\nH\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 d\u0259li oldu\u011fumu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz, c\u0259s\u0259di gizl\u0259d\u0259rk\u0259n g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm t\u0259dbirl\u0259ri bil\u0259nd\u0259 bel\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ksiniz. Gec\u0259 ke\u00e7irdi, c\u0259ld amma s\u0259ssizc\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yirdim. \u0130lk olaraq, c\u0259s\u0259di hiss\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 ay\u0131rd\u0131m. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131, qollar\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 q\u0131\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sdim.
\nSonra d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7 taxta \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131m, k\u0259sdiyim hiss\u0259l\u0259ri d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259d\u0259ki bo\u015flu\u011fa yerl\u0259\u015fdirdim. V\u0259 taxtalar\u0131 yerin\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r diqq\u0259tl\u0259, ehtiyyatla qoydum ki, he\u00e7 bir g\u00f6z- he\u00e7 onun g\u00f6z\u00fc bel\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fiklik sez\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi. T\u0259mizl\u0259n\u0259c\u0259k he\u00e7 bir \u015fey yox idi- n\u0259 bir l\u0259k\u0259, n\u0259 bir qan izi, n\u0259 d\u0259 ayr\u0131 bir \u015fey. \u0130\u015fimi ehtiyatl\u0131 tutmu\u015fdum. B\u00fct\u00fcn i\u015fl\u0259ri l\u0259y\u0259nin i\u00e7ind\u0259 etmi\u015fdim- ha ha!
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn i\u015fimi g\u00f6r\u00fcb qurtaranda saat d\u00f6rd idi \u2013 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 gec\u0259 yar\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 kimi qaranl\u0131q idi. Saat\u0131n z\u0259ngi \u00e7ald\u0131qda \u00e7\u00f6l qap\u0131n\u0131n d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 e\u015fitdim. Sakit halda qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7ma\u011fa getdim \u2013 n\u0259d\u0259n qorxmal\u0131yd\u0131m ki?! \u00d6zl\u0259rini n\u0259zak\u0259tli \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 polis m\u0259muru kimi t\u0259qdim ed\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7 ki\u015fi i\u00e7\u0259ri daxil oldu. Gec\u0259 qon\u015fulardan biri q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rt\u0131 e\u015fitmi\u015f: kimins\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fclm\u0259sind\u0259n \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259nib polis\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259t edib, onlar da (polis m\u0259murlar) evd\u0259 axtar\u0131\u015f etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00f6nd\u0259rilibl\u0259r.
\nG\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259dim- n\u0259d\u0259n qorxmal\u0131yd\u0131m ki?! C\u0259nablar\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259ri d\u0259v\u0259t etdim. Bildirdim ki, yuxuda q\u0131\u015fq\u0131ran m\u0259n olmu\u015fam. Qocan\u0131n is\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 dedim. Ziyar\u0259t\u00e7il\u0259rim\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn evi g\u00f6st\u0259rdim. Evi yax\u015f\u0131-yax\u015f\u0131 axtarmalar\u0131n\u0131 tap\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. Sonda onlar\u0131 qocan\u0131n ota\u011f\u0131na apard\u0131m. Onun s\u0259rv\u0259tinin yerind\u0259 oldu\u011funu g\u00f6st\u0259rdim. \u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259n o q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259min idim ki, ota\u011fa stul g\u0259tirib buradaca yor\u011funluqlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xarmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259diyimi bildirdim, \u00f6z stulumu is\u0259 qurban\u0131m\u0131n n\u0259\u015finin oldu\u011fu yerin tam \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 qoydum.
\nM\u0259murlar raz\u0131 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131m onlara inand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. M\u0259ns\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u00e7ox rahat hiss edirdim. Oturdular, suallar\u0131na sevin\u0259-sevin\u0259 cavab verirdim, onlar da ordan-burdan \u00e7\u0259n\u0259 vururdular. Amma, bir q\u0259d\u0259r sonra hals\u0131zla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 hiss etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m, el\u0259 indic\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getm\u0259l\u0259rini ist\u0259rdim. Ba\u015f\u0131m a\u011fr\u0131ma\u011fa, qulaqlar\u0131m cingild\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131.: amma onlar h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 oturub s\u00f6hb\u0259t edirdil\u0259r. Cingiltil\u0259r getdikc\u0259 daha ayd\u0131n e\u015fidilm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131: bu hissd\u0259n can\u0131m\u0131 qurtarmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn daha s\u0259rb\u0259st dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m: amma cingiltil\u0259r art\u0131r, getdikc\u0259 daha da ayd\u0131nla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 \u2013 o vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r ki, bu s\u0259sin qula\u011f\u0131mdan g\u0259lm\u0259diyini anlad\u0131m.
\n\u015e\u00fcbh\u0259siz ki, b\u0259nizim indi daha da sol\u011funla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u2013 amma uca s\u0259sl\u0259 b\u0259la\u011f\u0259tl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. S\u0259s y\u00fcks\u0259lirdi \u2013 n\u0259 ed\u0259 bil\u0259rdim? Bu saat\u0131 pamb\u0131\u011fa b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fckd\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131\u011f\u0131 t\u0131qq\u0131lt\u0131lar kimi z\u0259if, bo\u011fuq v\u0259 s\u00fcr\u0259tli s\u0259s idi. T\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbd\u0259n nitqim tutulmu\u015fdu \u2013 polisl\u0259r h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 he\u00e7 bir s\u0259s e\u015fitmirdi. Daha da s\u00fcr\u0259tli dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m- daha da q\u0259z\u0259bli; amma, bu s\u0259s inad\u0131ma daha da y\u00fcks\u0259lirdi. Ax\u0131 onlar niy\u0259 getmirdil\u0259r? M\u0259murlar\u0131n m\u00fclahiz\u0259l\u0259ri m\u0259ni q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259ndiribmi\u015f kimi iri add\u0131mlarla ora-bura g\u0259zi\u015firdim \u2013 s\u0259s is\u0259 el\u0259 hey y\u00fcks\u0259lirdi.
\nAman Allah, m\u0259n n\u0259 ed\u0259 bil\u0259rdim, ax\u0131? Hirsimd\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131mdan t\u00fcst\u00fc \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131- a\u011fz\u0131ma g\u0259l\u0259ni dedim \u2013 s\u00f6yd\u00fcm! Oturdu\u011fum stulu d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259nin taxtalar\u0131na s\u00fcrtd\u00fcm, amma bu s\u0259s \u0259trafdak\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u0259sl\u0259ri bat\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 el\u0259 hey y\u00fcks\u0259lirdi. Y\u00fcks\u0259lir \u2013 y\u00fcks\u0259lir- y\u00fcks\u0259lirdi! Polisl\u0259rin h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 kefi dama\u011flar\u0131nda idi, s\u00f6hb\u0259t edirdil\u0259r. Ola bilm\u0259z ki, bu s\u0259si e\u015fitm\u0259sinl\u0259r?! Ulu tanr\u0131m! Yox, yox! E\u015fidibl\u0259r!- \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259ndil\u0259r!- bilirl\u0259r! \u2013 m\u0259nim qorxumu \u0259l\u0259 sal\u0131rlar! \u2013 bel\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 bel\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m. He\u00e7 bir \u015fey \u00e7\u0259kdiyim bu \u0259zabdan daha d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli ola bilm\u0259zdi! He\u00e7 bir \u015fey bu c\u00fcr \u0259l\u0259salmadan daha d\u00f6z\u00fclm\u0259z ola bilm\u0259zdi! Daha bu riyakar g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 d\u00f6z\u0259 bilm\u0259zdim! Ya q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rmal\u0131, ya da \u00f6lm\u0259liydim! V\u0259 yen\u0259 \u2013 yen\u0259!- qulaq as\u0131n!- y\u00fcks\u0259lir!-y\u00fcks\u0259lir!-y\u00fcks\u0259lir!
\n\u201c Al\u00e7aqlar!\u201d dey\u0259r\u0259k q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131m, \u201c b\u0259sdirin, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc t\u00fclk\u00fcl\u00fcy\u0259 vurdunuz! M\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m! D\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259nin taxtalar\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131n! Burda, burda! Bu onun iyr\u0259nc \u00fcr\u0259yinin s\u0259sidir!\u201d<\/p>\n

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D\u00fczd\u00fcr! \u018fs\u0259bi \u2013 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 \u00e7ox \u0259s\u0259bi biri idim, el\u0259 indi d\u0259 bel\u0259y\u0259m! Ax\u0131 hardan m\u0259nim d\u0259li oldu\u011fum q\u0259na\u0259tin\u0259 g\u0259lirsiniz? Bu x\u0259st\u0259lik \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rimi tar\u0131ma \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdi\u2013 korlamam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, k\u00fctl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Ba\u015f ver\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n \u0259n \u00f6n\u0259mlisi, e\u015fitm\u0259 qabiliyy\u0259timd\u0259ki h\u0259sasl\u0131q idi. G\u00f6yd\u0259, yerd\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyi e\u015fidirdim. C\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259md\u0259 d\u0259 olan bir \u00e7ox \u015feyi e\u015fidirdim. Nec\u0259 d\u0259li ola bil\u0259r\u0259m ax\u0131? Bir […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":6708,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[5,16,18,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6707"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=6707"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6707\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6709,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6707\/revisions\/6709"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/6708"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=6707"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=6707"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=6707"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}