{"id":6741,"date":"2014-08-21T13:52:13","date_gmt":"2014-08-21T08:52:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=6741"},"modified":"2014-08-21T13:52:50","modified_gmt":"2014-08-21T08:52:50","slug":"v%c9%99fa-murs%c9%99lqizi-kabus","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=6741","title":{"rendered":"V\u0259fa M\u00fcrs\u0259lq\u0131z\u0131 – Kabus"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"vefa<\/a>G\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7anda \u0259traf\u0131n\u0131 sanki qat\u0131 duman b\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. T\u0259dric\u0259n m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259 durulub ayd\u0131nla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 ill\u0259r boyu ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ota\u011f\u0131n sol\u011fun, mavi g\u00fcll\u00fc divar ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015f divarlar\u0131 ona do\u011fma evind\u0259 oldu\u011fun<\/em><\/strong>u xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc yuxunun t\u0259sirind\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xa bilmirdi v\u0259 nazik m\u0259l\u0259f\u0259nin alt\u0131nda b\u0259d\u0259ni tir-tir \u0259sirdi. Xoflu-xoflu \u0259traf\u0131na baxd\u0131 v\u0259 t\u0259la\u015f i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 :<\/em><\/strong>
\n-Mama, ay mama, mama hardasan?
\n\u0130\u00e7\u0259ri otaqdan anas\u0131n\u0131n nazik, yor\u011fun s\u0259si g\u0259ldi.
\n-Ay can, oyand\u0131n? G\u0259lir\u0259m, bala, g\u0259lir\u0259m.
\nCox \u00e7\u0259km\u0259mi\u015f anas\u0131 onun \u00e7arpay\u0131s\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. Z\u0259rif q\u0131r\u0131\u015f basm\u0131\u015f \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 yor\u011fun t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm var idi. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki q\u0131r\u0131\u015flara t\u0259cc\u00fcb edirdi. Bu q\u0131r\u0131\u015flar el\u0259 bil nazik ucluqlu q\u0259l\u0259ml\u0259 yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, nar\u0131n yaz\u0131lar idi. Qollar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b \u00e7oxdan\u0131n h\u0259sr\u0259tlisi kimi anas\u0131n\u0131n boynuna sarma\u015fd\u0131, q\u0131r\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f sif\u0259tind\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc. S\u0259h\u0259r g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 baxmayaraq sanki anas\u0131n\u0131 coxdan idi ki, g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fc. Yen\u0259 yuxusunu xat\u0131rlad\u0131.
\n-Mama, Allah iraq el\u0259sin yuxuda g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m ki, g\u00fcya s\u0259n \u00f6lm\u00fcs\u0259n. \u0130raq olsun, lap \u0259m\u0259lli ba\u015fl\u0131 basd\u0131r\u0131lma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ey. Ay ma el\u0259 d\u0259rin bir q\u00fcss\u0259 i\u00e7ind\u0259 idim ki…..
\n-\u00d6mr\u00fcm\u00fc uzatm\u0131san da, q\u0131z\u0131m, yuxuda \u00f6lm\u0259k \u00e7ox ya\u015famaqd\u0131r. Yuxudur da \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259t verm\u0259.
\n\u0130ndic\u0259 f\u0259rqin\u0259 vard\u0131 ki, ev s\u0259ssizdir, u\u015fqlar\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259 d\u0259ymirdi.
\n-Mama, \u0130nci il\u0259 K\u0259nan hardad\u0131r?
\n– R\u00fcst\u0259ml\u0259 k\u0259nd\u0259 gedibl\u0259r d\u00fcn\u0259n.
\n-Niy\u0259? N\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259ttdir bu? Ax\u0131 m\u0259nsiz bird\u0259n ikiy\u0259 k\u0259nd\u0259 getm\u0259yibl\u0259r.
\n-H\u0259, s\u0259n ax\u0131 m\u00fcalic\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrs\u0259n, h\u0259kim s\u0259n\u0259 sakitlik t\u00f6vsiyy\u0259 edib. R\u00fcst\u0259m d\u0259 apard\u0131 ki, bir- iki g\u00fcn qals\u0131nlar orda. S\u0259nin m\u00fcalic\u0259n bitsin g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259k.
\nQurcaland\u0131, n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 m\u00fcalic\u0259 olundu\u011fu yad\u0131na g\u0259lmirdi. Yan\u0131ndak\u0131 stola boyland\u0131 do\u011frudan da orda bir xeyli n\u00fcsx\u0259 v\u0259 d\u0259rmanlar g\u00f6z\u0259 d\u0259yirdi. Yataqdan qalxd\u0131, vanna ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7di. \u018fl-\u00fcz yuyan\u0131n k\u0259nar\u0131nda qan damlalar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb t\u0259la\u015fland\u0131
\n-Bu qan hardand\u0131r?
\n-S\u0259h\u0259r d\u0131rnaqlar\u0131m\u0131 k\u0259s\u0259nd\u0259 qay\u00e7\u0131 il\u0259 \u0259limi yaralam\u0131\u015fam, G\u00fcnel.
\n\u018fl \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yuyub ota\u011fa ke\u00e7di. \u00dcr\u0259yi s\u0131x\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. U\u015faqlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Ad\u0259ti \u00fczr\u0259 bal\u0131\u015f\u0131n alt\u0131na qoydu\u011fu mobil telefonunu axtard\u0131. Tap\u0131b g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc, amma \u0259rin\u0259 z\u0259ng \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 c\u0259hd etdi, \u00fcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259 telefon \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rm\u0131rd\u0131. Ev telefonuna \u0259l atd\u0131, o da susurdu.
\n-Mama niy\u0259 telefonlar i\u015fl\u0259mir?
\n-Y\u0259qin n\u0259s\u0259 problem var da. Ev telefonu da ayl\u0131q abun\u0259 haqq\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 k\u0259silib, bir azdan gedib \u00f6d\u0259y\u0259r\u0259m a\u00e7arlar.
\n\u00dcr\u0259yi s\u0131x\u0131la-s\u0131x\u0131la otaqda var-g\u0259l etdi. Eyvana \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. \u0130l\u0131q yaz s\u0259h\u0259ri idi. Havadan q\u0259rib\u0259, adam\u0131n i\u00e7ini sevinc v\u0259 natahatl\u0131qla dolduran qoxu g\u0259lirdi. H\u0259y\u0259td\u0259ki a\u011faclar\u0131n \u00e7oxu \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, coxdan, lap coxdand\u0131r ki, bahar\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259yib v\u0259 indi bu g\u00f6z\u0259l havan\u0131 sin\u0259 dolusu ciy\u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259pm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. H\u0259m d\u0259 kiml\u0259s\u0259 \u00fcnsiyy\u0259td\u0259 olmaq ehtiyac\u0131 duyurdu. M\u00fctl\u0259q kiml\u0259s\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmaq, g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259m\u0259k, s\u00f6z soru\u015fmaq v\u0259 bununla \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 anlatmaq. Kims\u0259 yox idi \u0259trafda, yoldan \u00f6t\u0259nl\u0259r is\u0259 el\u0259 ke\u00e7irdil\u0259r ki, sanki onu he\u00e7 tan\u0131m\u0131rd\u0131lar v\u0259 ya g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Ota\u011fa qay\u0131td\u0131. \u018ftrafa sanki indic\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r sald\u0131. Evd\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 qal\u0131n toz t\u0259b\u0259q\u0259si vard\u0131. H\u0259tda ota\u011f\u0131n k\u00fcncl\u0259rini h\u00f6r\u00fcm\u00e7\u0259k toru da basm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u018flin\u0259 \u0259ski al\u0131b tozlar\u0131 silm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131.
\n-Mama, bu ev, e\u015fik niy\u0259 bu g\u00fcnd\u0259dir? El\u0259 bil bir ildir \u0259l vuran yoxdur evl\u0259r\u0259.
\n-Ba\u015f\u0131m s\u0259n\u0259 qar\u0131\u015f\u0131b da n\u0259 vaxtd\u0131r. Bilmirs\u0259n bizim ev k\u00fcl\u0259ktutan s\u0259mtd\u0259dir, h\u0259y\u0259t baca da toz-torpaq i\u00e7ind\u0259 olur. Bir balaca k\u00fcl\u0259k \u0259sdimi o saat evl\u0259r s\u0259hraya d\u00f6n\u00fcr.
\nTozlar\u0131 silm\u0259k b\u0259han\u0259 idi. \u018fslind\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 d ivar kimi \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131 atmaq, y\u00fcng\u00fcll\u0259\u015fm\u0259k
\nist\u0259yirdi. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qatmaq idi m\u0259qs\u0259di sad\u0259c\u0259. G\u00fczg\u00fcl\u00fc kamoda yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, siyirm\u0259ni \u00e7\u0259kdi . K\u00f6hn\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259rin v\u0259 q\u0259zet y\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bir topa \u015f\u0259kil d\u0259ydi. G\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb baxma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Toy \u015f\u0259kill\u0259ri idi. R\u00fcst\u0259ml\u0259 onun toyunda \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015f foto\u015f\u0259kill\u0259r. O saat n\u0259z\u0259rini ciddi bir n\u00fcans c\u0259lb el\u0259di. B\u00fct\u00fcn \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rd\u0259 onun sif\u0259ti avtoq\u0259l\u0259ml\u0259 qaralanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Var s\u0259si il\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.
\n– Aaaaa bu n\u0259di bel\u0259? Bu \u015f\u0259kill\u0259ri kim bu hala qoyub? R\u00fcst\u0259m d\u00fcnyan\u0131 da\u011f\u0131dacaq.
\n-G\u00fcnel,bala, m\u0259n d\u0259 \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015fdim vallah. O g\u00fcn S\u00fcr\u0259yya s\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Onun o vur\u011fun vurmu\u015f n\u0259v\u0259si el\u0259yib, iki da\u015f\u0131n aras\u0131nda nec\u0259 macal tap\u0131b bilmir\u0259m.
\nAz qal\u0131rd\u0131 h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u00fcb a\u011flas\u0131n. B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcc\u00fc il\u0259 o g\u00fcn\u00fc, toy g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259min \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rd\u0259ki \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Amma xat\u0131rlaya bilmirdi. Ac\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan gedib yata\u011fa girdi, m\u0259l\u0259f\u0259y\u0259 b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcb \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc divara \u00e7evirdi, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yumdu. Yava\u015f-yava\u015f yuxuya getdi. Q\u0259rib\u0259 bir yuxu g\u00f6rd\u00fc. G\u00fcya ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131 evi sat\u0131rd\u0131lar. Ev\u0259 baxma\u011fa d\u0259llal v\u0259 onunla da b\u0259rab\u0259r bir qad\u0131nla bir ki\u015fi g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Qad\u0131n g\u00fcll\u00fc, dar paltar geymi\u015fdi. Ki\u015fi ke\u00e7\u0259l idi. \u00d6z aralar\u0131nda evi t\u0259rifl\u0259dil\u0259r, amma qad\u0131n h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fin tozlu v\u0259 kirli olmas\u0131ndan gileyl\u0259ndi. Sonra qad\u0131n kamoda yana\u015f\u0131b bayaq onun a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131 siyirm\u0259ni a\u00e7d\u0131, ordan \u015f\u0259kill\u0259ri g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb t\u0259nb\u0259l-t\u0259nb\u0259l baxma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. T\u0259c\u00fcblu buras\u0131 idi ki, yuxuda da onun g\u0259linlik \u015f\u0259kill\u0259ri qaralanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qad\u0131n s\u0259b\u0259bini soru\u015fanda \u0259ri onun qula\u011f\u0131na n\u0259s\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131. Yuxuda ona el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, \u00e7arpay\u0131dan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb onlar, qad\u0131nla ki\u015fiy\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131r v\u0259 qad\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn bolluca kir\u015fan \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015f, de\u015fik- de\u015fik d\u0259risini lap yax\u0131ndan g\u00f6r\u00fcr. Amma p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fid\u0259 bilm\u0259di, diksinib ay\u0131ld\u0131. G\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc yuxudan vahim\u0259l\u0259ndi.
\n\u0130ki g\u00fcn idi ki, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yer tapa bilmirdi. R\u00fcst\u0259min telefonuna z\u0259ng \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131. Ev telefon x\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259 is\u0259 dey\u0259s\u0259n n\u0259s\u0259 problem vard\u0131. Anas\u0131 deyirdi ki, o yatanda telefon qov\u015fa\u011f\u0131na gedibmi\u015f. \u00dcr\u0259yi el\u0259 pis s\u0131x\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 ki, d\u00f6z\u0259 bilmirdi. Arada yadda\u015f\u0131ndan sanki n\u0259s\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. Kimis\u0259 xat\u0131rlma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, amma o kims\u0259 he\u00e7 \u00e7\u00fcr\u0259 yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bu \u00e7ox \u0259caib bir duy\u011fu idi. T\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr edirs\u0259n ki, lap yadda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n yax\u0131n bir gu\u015f\u0259sind\u0259 cox vacib bir m\u0259lumat var, amma fikrini bir yer\u0259 y\u0131\u011fmam\u0131\u015f bu vacib s\u00f6zm\u00fc, c\u00fcml\u0259mi, xatir\u0259mi bal\u0131q kimi s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb yadda\u015f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr v\u0259 harasa beyninin d\u0259rin qatlar\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kilir. G\u00fcnortaya yax\u0131n \u0259rin\u0259 z\u0259ng vurmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u00f6vb\u0259ti c\u0259hdind\u0259n sonra anas\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259kidi il\u0259 d\u0259rmanlar\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7ib yata\u011fa uzand\u0131. Onsuz da bu ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u0259 i\u015fi pe\u015f\u0259si yatmaq idi. Yuxuda onu g\u00f6rd\u00fc, ad\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131\u0259rlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u201c onu\u201d. \u201cO\u201d \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fdu. A\u00e7\u0131q ay\u0131n onun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc, m\u0259zara qoyulmas\u0131n\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn a\u011flayaraq d\u0259rd i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 qovrulmas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. B\u00fct\u00fcn o d\u0259rin iztirab\u0131 sanki ikinci d\u0259f\u0259 idi ki, ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. Q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131b yuxudan oyand\u0131. Anas\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Anas\u0131n\u0131 qucaqlad\u0131, a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya soru\u015fdu:
\n-Mama, o han\u0131? Qurban olum de, han\u0131 o?O \u00f6l\u00fcb h\u0259?
\n-H\u0259, \u00f6l\u00fcb, G\u00fcnel, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 al.!
\n-\u00d6l\u00fcb h\u0259? M\u0259n d\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 yata\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m? \u018fs\u0259bl\u0259rim ona g\u00f6r\u0259 pozulub?
\n-H\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131m.
\nB\u00fcz\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n bir k\u0259nar\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kildi. Amma \u00e7ox otura bilm\u0259di. U\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yirdi. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 bir qorxu, qaranl\u0131q, h\u0259y\u0259can t\u0259la\u015f vard\u0131. Sanki balalar\u0131n\u0131 bir daha g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi. Qalx\u0131b geyindi, \u0259l \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\n-M\u0259n k\u0259nd\u0259 gedir\u0259m, u\u015fqlar\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m.
\n-Bu vaxt n\u0259yn\u0259n ged\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n, q\u0131z\u0131m, qals\u0131n, sabah ged\u0259rs\u0259n.
\n-Yooox, gedir\u0259m v\u0259salm.
\nQap\u0131ya yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b s\u00fcrg\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0259kdi. Qap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131lmad\u0131. Dartd\u0131, silk\u0259l\u0259di, qap\u0131 he\u00e7 c\u00fcr\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131lmaq bilmirdi. Vahim\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc amma bird\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, y\u0259qin anas\u0131 qap\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259n a\u00e7arla ba\u011flay\u0131b.
\n-Mama, a\u00e7arlar\u0131 hara qoymusan?
\nAnas\u0131 daha onunla m\u00fcbahis\u0259 etm\u0259yin yersiz oldu\u011funu hiss edib \u0259linin i\u015far\u0259si il\u0259 kamodu g\u00f6st\u0259rdi. Ke\u00e7ib kamodun siyirm\u0259l\u0259rini e\u015f\u0259l\u0259di, \u0259lin\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259n \u0259\u015fyalar\u0131, ka\u011f\u0131z-ku\u011fuzu stolun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qalaqlama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Su say\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fcqavil\u0259si, qaz say\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fcqavil\u0259si, bank kreditl\u0259rinin ka\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131, n\u00f6vb\u0259ti d\u0259f\u0259 \u0259lin\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259n ka\u011f\u0131z par\u00e7as\u0131 diqq\u0259tini c\u0259lb etdi. Ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 oxuduqca g\u00f6zl\u0259ri h\u0259d\u0259q\u0259sind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Bu anas\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm haqda \u015f\u0259ad\u0259tnam\u0259si idi. Q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131 , az qala \u00fcr\u0259yi ged\u0259c\u0259kdi. Anas\u0131 \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcs\u0259 bu evd\u0259 g\u0259z\u0259n, iki g\u00fcnd\u0259n b\u0259ri onunla bu evd\u0259 ya\u015fayan adam kim idi ax\u0131? Anas\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131nda onun d\u00f6rd il \u00f6nc\u0259 v\u0259fat etdiyi yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Yaln\u0131z indi anas\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259fnini ayd\u0131nca xat\u0131rlad v\u0259 h\u0259tda m\u0259zar\u0131n\u0131 da x\u0259yal\u0131na g\u0259tir\u0259 bildi. Bu m\u0259zar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 oturub a\u011flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. D\u0259h\u015f\u0259t i\u00e7ind\u0259 idi, nitqi tutulmu\u015fdu, amma bu son deyilmi\u015f. Bayaq o ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259 yer\u0259 ba\u015fqa bir ka\u011f\u0131z da d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u018fs\u0259 -\u0259s\u0259 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u0259yildi, yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131. Ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 a\u00e7anda olan qalan a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131 yerind\u0259n oynatd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Bu ka\u011f\u0131z onun \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcm haqda \u015f\u0259ad\u0259tnam\u0259si idi. On d\u00f6rd dekabrda v\u0259fat etdiyi yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ka\u011f\u0131zda. Qeyri iradi divar t\u0259qvimin\u0259 baxd\u0131. Orda da son tarix on d\u00f6rd dekabr idi. Anas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qa\u00e7d\u0131, onun qolundan tutub saxs\u0131 g\u0259lincik kimi silk\u0259l\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131.
\n–S\u0259n kims\u0259n? S\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcs\u0259n? B\u0259s onda burda neynirs\u0259n? Han\u0131 m\u0259nim u\u015faqlar\u0131m, m\u0259n \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m? Dan\u0131\u015f, s\u0259ninl\u0259y\u0259m! M\u0259nim ba\u015f\u0131ma n\u0259 i\u015f g\u0259tirmis\u0259n? Bura harad\u0131r?
\nSuallar o q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox idi ki, beyni qapal\u0131 qaynayan buxar azan\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131. Anas\u0131 p\u0259rt pe\u015fiman dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. S\u0259brl\u0259 onun sakitl\u0259\u015f\u0259c\u0259yini g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. N\u0259hay\u0259t \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 ald\u0131 v\u0259 g\u00fccs\u00fcz halda divana \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc.
\n-U\u015faqlar\u0131m sa\u011fd\u0131?
\n-H\u0259, sa\u011fd\u0131lar. S\u0259n on d\u00f6rd dekbrda r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 getmis\u0259n. U\u015faqlar R\u00fcst\u0259ml\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rlar.
\n-Mama m\u0259n n\u0259d\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcm?
\n-Damarlar\u0131n\u0131 do\u011fram\u0131san. Orda, \u0259l \u00fcz yuyan\u0131n k\u0259nar\u0131ndak\u0131 qan damlalar\u0131 s\u0259nin o vaxtdan qalan qan\u0131nd\u0131r. O g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra bu ev\u0259 he\u00e7 kim g\u0259lm\u0259yib. Birc\u0259 d\u00fcn\u0259n d\u0259llal g\u0259lmi\u015fdi, al\u0131c\u0131 g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi, g\u00fcll\u00fc paltar geyinmi\u015f bir qad\u0131n v\u0259 dazba\u015f ki\u015fi. Dey\u0259s\u0259n R\u00fcst\u0259m evi sat\u0131\u015fa c\u0131xar\u0131b. Al, oxu, son m\u0259ktubundur.
\n\u018flind\u0259ki ka\u011f\u0131zda b\u00fct\u00fcn bu \u0259hvalat\u0131n \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc vard\u0131. Ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.
\n\u201cR\u00fcst\u0259m, s\u0259n bu m\u0259ktubu oxuyanda m\u0259n h\u0259yatda olmayacam. S\u0259n\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 haqs\u0131zl\u0131q el\u0259diyimi bilir\u0259m. Sad\u0259c\u0259 biz bu h\u0259yatda yad adamlar idik. \u0130ll\u0259rl\u0259 s\u0259ni sevm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc ail\u0259m\u0259, u\u015faqlar\u0131ma h\u0259sr etdim. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bunu h\u0259yat\u0131mda sev\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yim kims\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn edirmi\u015f\u0259m v\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 ona rast g\u0259lm\u0259s\u0259ydim bu h\u0259yat\u0131 \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn sonuna q\u0259d\u0259r s\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259kdim. Sonra o g\u0259ldi \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u0259, \u0259n \u0259ziz, \u0259n do\u011fma, \u0259n, \u0259n, \u0259n…… Bilir\u0259m bunlar\u0131 oxumaq s\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tindir. Lakin m\u0259n sad\u0259c\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt olmaq ist\u0259dim. M\u0259n uzun zaman \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 m\u00fcbariz\u0259 apard\u0131m, amma sevgim\u0259, ist\u0259kl\u0259rim\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 qad\u0131n z\u0259ifliyim\u0259 qalib g\u0259l\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. Bilir\u0259m m\u0259nim s\u0259ninl\u0259 bo\u015fan\u0131b ona \u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259yim s\u0259ni m\u0259hv etdi, amma \u0259limd\u0259 deyildi. M\u0259n onu cox sevirdim. Budur indi o yoxdur. Biz h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 sin\u0259 g\u0259rdik, c\u0259miyy\u0259tin q\u0131naqlar\u0131na, yax\u0131nlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n bizd\u0259n \u00fcz \u00e7evirm\u0259sin\u0259 d\u00f6zd\u00fck. Biri- birimizi itirm\u0259dik, amma \u0259n sonda m\u0259n onu axmaq bir yol q\u0259zas\u0131na uduzdum. M\u0259n onsuz ya\u015faya bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. R\u00fcst\u0259m \u0130ncini v\u0259 K\u0259nan\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259 \u0259man\u0259t edir\u0259m. \u018flvida!\u201d
\nKa\u011f\u0131z a\u011facdan qopan pay\u0131z yarpa\u011f\u0131 kimi havada l\u0259ng\u0259r vurub d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. O b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc v\u0259 \u00fcmidini itirmi\u015f bir halda susurdu. Anas\u0131na baxd\u0131. Onun g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 d\u0259rin bir k\u0259d\u0259r, a\u011fr\u0131 v\u0259 \u015f\u0259fq\u0259t vard\u0131. Anas\u0131n\u0131 qucaqlad\u0131. Aylar boyu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, anas\u0131 onu o d\u00fcnyada ba\u011f\u0131\u015flamayacaq. D\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 onun \u015f\u0259klind\u0259n \u00fczr ist\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u0130ndi arxay\u0131n idi ki, anas\u0131 onu ba\u011f\u0131\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130\u00e7in\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 bir sevinc doldu, dem\u0259k sevgisi yen\u0259 qalib g\u0259ldi. Onunla, cox sevdiyi onunla eyni d\u00fcnyan\u0131n sakinl\u0259riydil\u0259r. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259ri taybatay a\u00e7d\u0131. Ota\u011fa bol i\u015f\u0131q s\u00fcz\u00fcd\u00fc. Anas\u0131 h\u0259zin bir s\u0259sl\u0259 soru\u015fdu:
\n-Hara gedirs\u0259n?
\n-K\u0259nd\u0259, u\u015faqlar\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259.
\nA\u00e7\u0131q p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n g\u00f6y\u0259 bir topa nur qalxd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 o g\u00fcn h\u0259y\u0259d\u0259ki balaca o\u011flan anas\u0131na dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/span><\/span><\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 945 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

G\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7anda \u0259traf\u0131n\u0131 sanki qat\u0131 duman b\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. T\u0259dric\u0259n m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259 durulub ayd\u0131nla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 ill\u0259r boyu ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ota\u011f\u0131n sol\u011fun, mavi g\u00fcll\u00fc divar ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015f divarlar\u0131 ona do\u011fma evind\u0259 oldu\u011funu xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc yuxunun t\u0259sirind\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xa bilmirdi v\u0259 nazik m\u0259l\u0259f\u0259nin alt\u0131nda b\u0259d\u0259ni tir-tir \u0259sirdi. Xoflu-xoflu \u0259traf\u0131na baxd\u0131 v\u0259 t\u0259la\u015f i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 : -Mama, ay mama, mama hardasan? […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":6742,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6741"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=6741"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6741\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6744,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6741\/revisions\/6744"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/6742"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=6741"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=6741"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=6741"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}