{"id":6876,"date":"2014-11-16T21:25:21","date_gmt":"2014-11-16T17:25:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=6876"},"modified":"2014-11-16T21:55:44","modified_gmt":"2014-11-16T17:55:44","slug":"%c9%99li-sirin-sukurlu-olumun-goz%c9%99liyi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=6876","title":{"rendered":"\u018fli \u015eirin \u015e\u00fck\u00fcrl\u00fc – \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi…"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"alishirin<\/a>ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131 sevir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

amma
\n\u00f6lm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259zdim
\nya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131 havalarda.<\/p>\n

g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fli hava olsun \u2013 ist\u0259rdim,
\n\u00e7ox isti d\u0259 yox \u2013
\nadamlar \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r.<\/p>\n

q\u0131zlar\u0131m a\u011flas\u0131n sakitc\u0259,
\nanam demi\u015f: a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131-a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131.
\nbac\u0131lar\u0131m onlara t\u0259s\u0259lli versin,
\nqad\u0131n\u0131m t\u0259mkinli g\u00f6r\u00fcns\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

o\u011flum Neman
\ncan\u0259z\u0259nin sa\u011f t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259,
\nq\u0131z n\u0259v\u0259m S\u0259m\u0259d sol t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259.<\/p>\n

qism\u0259t olarsa
\no biri n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259rim
\ns\u0259rv-s\u0259rv d\u00fcz\u00fcls\u00fcnarxada,
\n\u00e7iyinl\u0259ri tabutda.<\/p>\n

bu \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259
\nbir xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik var vallah.<\/p>\n

amma amand\u0131,
\nbu s\u00f6zl\u0259r
\nm\u00fctl\u0259q yaz\u0131ls\u0131n ba\u015fda\u015f\u0131nda:
\nya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131 sevs\u0259 d\u0259,
\n\u00f6lm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi
\nya\u011fmurlu havalarda.<\/p>\n

27.06.2012<\/p>\n

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birq\u0131\u015f gec\u0259si \u2013 m\u00fcxt\u0259lif talel\u0259r<\/strong><\/p>\n

eyni ild\u0259, eyni g\u00fcnd\u0259
\ndo\u011fulmu\u015fuq \u2013
\nsoyuq q\u0131\u015f gec\u0259l\u0259rinin birind\u0259.<\/p>\n

eyni m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259, eyni sinifd\u0259
\noxuyard\u0131q.
\ndostluq etdiyimi xat\u0131rlam\u0131ram
\nonunla,
\nn\u0259 bar\u0259d\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t etmi\u015fik \u2013 o da
\nyad\u0131mda deyil.<\/p>\n

o k\u0259ndd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r indi. ustad\u0131r.
\nev tikir y\u0259ni. da\u015f\u0131 da\u015f \u00fcst\u0259 qoyur.<\/p>\n

m\u0259n \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131ram. \u015feir yaz\u0131ram.
\ns\u00f6z\u00fc s\u00f6z\u0259 calay\u0131ram.<\/p>\n

s\u0259hv etmir\u0259ms\u0259
\nc\u0259mi bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck
\n\u00f6t\u0259n ill\u0259r \u0259rzind\u0259 – o da t\u0259sad\u00fcf\u0259n.<\/p>\n

ad\u0131 \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259rdi onun.<\/p>\n

anam tez-tez xat\u0131rlayard\u0131
\no gec\u0259ni \u2013 m\u0259n do\u011fuldu\u011fum.
\nsevgi il\u0259 xat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131o gec\u0259d\u0259
\n\u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r d\u0259 vard\u0131.
\neyni g\u00fcnd\u0259 do\u011fulmu\u015fuq onunla \u2013
\nsoyuq q\u0131\u015f gec\u0259l\u0259rinin birind\u0259.
\nb\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259
\neyni ulduz alt\u0131nda.<\/p>\n

iki ana bir-birini tan\u0131yan;
\niki insan do\u011fmu\u015fdu
\neyni g\u00fcnd\u0259 –
\nsoyuq q\u0131\u015f gec\u0259l\u0259rinin birind\u0259.<\/p>\n

o iki anan\u0131n o\u011flu
\no iki insan bir-birini tan\u0131y\u0131r
\nuzun ill\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

o iki insan
\neyni ild\u0259, eyni g\u00fcnd\u0259 do\u011fulub
\nuzun q\u0131\u015f gec\u0259l\u0259rinin birind\u0259, b\u0259lk\u0259
\neyni ulduz alt\u0131nda.<\/p>\n

o iki insan uzun ill\u0259rdi
\nayr\u0131-ayr\u0131 tale ya\u015fay\u0131r.<\/p>\n

… \u2013 03.04. 2013<\/p>\n

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ruhlarla s\u00f6hb\u0259t \u2013 t\u0259s\u0259lli<\/strong><\/p>\n

salam,
\nana v\u0259 ata.<\/p>\n

a\u011fr\u0131ma d\u00f6zm\u0259zdiniz \u2013 yad\u0131n\u0131zdad\u0131?
\nyad\u0131n\u0131zdad\u0131 y\u0259qin. ruh \u2013 el\u0259 yadda\u015fd\u0131 da, m\u0259nc\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u00e7ox narahat olard\u0131n\u0131z adi a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131mdan.
\nindis\u0259bir t\u0259s\u0259llim var siz\u0259;<\/p>\n

g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz ayd\u0131n,
\nyax\u015f\u0131d\u0131 h\u0259r \u015fey,
\nday al\u0131\u015fd\u0131m a\u011fr\u0131lara.<\/p>\n

… \u2013 06.09.2014<\/p>\n

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m\u0259zar da\u015f\u0131nda yaz\u0131<\/strong>
\nm\u0259zar da\u015f\u0131nda yaz\u0131:
\n\u018fs\u0259dova G\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259k Murad q\u0131z\u0131
\n(1932 \u2013 2007)<\/p>\n

o Murad\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131
\nm\u0259nim anamd\u0131r. m\u0259n
\nbe\u015f bac\u0131n\u0131n qarda\u015f\u0131,
\niki bac\u0131 bir qarda\u015f\u0131n atas\u0131.<\/p>\n

g\u00fcn i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259zir
\nm\u0259zar da\u015f\u0131nda, b\u0259rq vurur
\n\u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki yaz\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

q\u00fcrub ed\u0259c\u0259k g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f…
\ng\u00fcn\u0259\u015f \u2013 milyon ill\u0259rdi azalm\u0131r,
\nb\u00fct\u00f6vd\u00fcr;
\nmilyon ill\u0259rdi i\u015f\u0131q sa\u00e7ar.<\/p>\n

b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u0259kl\u0259
\nazalmayan yaranan da var dem\u0259k.<\/p>\n

q\u00fcrub ed\u0259c\u0259k g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f.
\nz\u00fclm\u0259td\u0259 uyuyacaq yaz\u0131,
\nyata\u011f\u0131 m\u0259zar da\u015f\u0131.<\/p>\n

alt\u0131 il \u00f6td\u00fc q\u00fcrubundan.
\nalt\u0131 il, ana,
\ni\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fcz-g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259.<\/p>\n

bir g\u00fcn
\nbir ne\u00e7\u0259 misral\u0131q yaz\u0131ya \u00e7evril\u0259nd\u0259,
\n\u00e7evrilib, z\u00fclm\u0259td\u0259 uyuyanda
\no i\u015f\u0131q g\u0259z\u0259c\u0259k \u00fcz-\u00fcz,
\ng\u0259z\u0259c\u0259k g\u00f6z-g\u00f6z.<\/p>\n

yaranan var ki,
\nd\u0259yi\u015fmir –
\nb\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u0259kl\u0259 azalmaz.
\n… \u2013 13.03.2013<\/p>\n

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g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin \u015f\u0259kli<\/strong><\/p>\n

fotoda yeddi n\u0259f\u0259r:
\natam, anam,
\nm\u0259n, qad\u0131n\u0131m
\nv\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 u\u015faq.<\/p>\n

atam, anam ya\u015fl\u0131d\u0131,
\nqad\u0131n\u0131m v\u0259 m\u0259n cavan,
\nu\u015faqlar k\u00f6rp\u0259.<\/p>\n

iyirmi be\u015f il \u0259vv\u0259l \u00e7\u0259kilib foto.<\/p>\n

atam, anam h\u0259yatda yoxdu art\u0131q,
\nm\u0259n v\u0259 qad\u0131n\u0131m ortaya\u015fl\u0131,
\nu\u015faqlar cavan.<\/p>\n

ke\u00e7mi\u015f zamand\u0131 \u015f\u0259kill\u0259r.<\/p>\n

g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kils\u0259ydi bu \u015f\u0259kil,
\nt\u0259xmin\u0259n iyirmi be\u015f il sonra:
\nu\u015faqlar ya\u015flan\u0131b,
\natam v\u0259 anam cavan,
\nm\u0259n v\u0259 qad\u0131n\u0131m k\u00f6rp\u0259.<\/p>\n

fotoda yeddi n\u0259f\u0259r:
\nke\u00e7mi\u015f zamand\u0131 \u015f\u0259kill\u0259r,
\nx\u0259yallar \u2013 zaman ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

… \u2013 27.12.2012<\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 719 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131 sevir\u0259m. amma \u00f6lm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259zdim ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131 havalarda. g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fli hava olsun \u2013 ist\u0259rdim, \u00e7ox isti d\u0259 yox \u2013 adamlar \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r. q\u0131zlar\u0131m a\u011flas\u0131n sakitc\u0259, anam demi\u015f: a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131-a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131. bac\u0131lar\u0131m onlara t\u0259s\u0259lli versin, qad\u0131n\u0131m t\u0259mkinli g\u00f6r\u00fcns\u00fcn. o\u011flum Neman can\u0259z\u0259nin sa\u011f t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259, q\u0131z n\u0259v\u0259m S\u0259m\u0259d sol t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259. qism\u0259t olarsa o biri n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259rim s\u0259rv-s\u0259rv d\u00fcz\u00fcls\u00fcnarxada, \u00e7iyinl\u0259ri tabutda. bu \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259 bir […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":6877,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[15,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6876"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=6876"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6876\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6879,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6876\/revisions\/6879"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/6877"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=6876"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=6876"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=6876"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}