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<\/a>Mehman Qaraxano\u011flu<\/p><\/div>\n
AVQUST<\/p>\n
K\u00fctl\u0259vi intihar\u0131n s\u00fcbutudu \u00fcz\u00fcm salx\u0131m\u0131.
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn a\u00e7\u0131b yaxas\u0131n\u0131-
\nH\u0259rar\u0259tini \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcr budaqlar.<\/p>\n
\u018fmzik kimidi a\u011faclar,
\nYa da bunun kimi bir \u015fey…
\nG\u00f6yl\u0259r bel\u0259c\u0259 aldad\u0131r yerl\u0259ri.<\/p>\n
Sentyabrdan teleqram al\u0131b avqust:
\n\u0130kic\u0259 s\u00f6z:
\nQay\u0131t, g\u0259l!<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
AQ\u015e\u0130N YEN\u0130SEY\u0130N T\u018fB\u018fSS\u00dcM\u00dc<\/p>\n
Sand\u0131qlar\u0131n q\u0131f\u0131llar\u0131
\nX\u0131rda a\u00e7arlar\u0131n t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259riyl\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r!
\n\u0130\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259kil\u0259r q\u0259ddar olsa bel\u0259…<\/p>\n
M\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm g\u00f6st\u0259r, t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm!
\nT\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259r g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rd\u0259n uzun\u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fcd\u00fc.
\nT\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259r q\u0131y\u0131lm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rdi \u2013
\nSif\u0259tl\u0259rimizin qay\u0131qlar\u0131d\u0131!
\nT\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259r \u00fcz\u00fcr…<\/p>\n
N\u0259yim vard\u0131 bir g\u00fcl\u00fcn dibind\u0259 qoymu\u015fam,
\nM\u0259n yek\u0259lib 14-15 ya\u015fa \u00e7atmad\u0131m.
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn qocalardan qocayam!
\nM\u0259n ba\u015fmaq y\u0131\u011f\u0131ram!
\nM\u0259n pin\u0259\u00e7iy\u0259m,
\nT\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcm kimi…<\/p>\n
Q\u0259l\u0259mim tacir libas\u0131 geym\u0259di!
\n\u00c7\u0259k bala,
\nT\u0259klik \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yem\u0259k \u00e7\u0259k…<\/p>\n
Komam\u0131z\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na d\u00f6vr\u0259 vuran s\u00f6z\u00fc tan\u0131maq ist\u0259yirs\u0259nmi?
\nBudur, bax:
\n\u00c7\u00f6r\u0259kpulu…
\n\u00c7\u00f6r\u0259kpulu…
\nM\u0259ni \u015f\u0259yird g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259di amans\u0131z q\u0259hq\u0259h\u0259l\u0259r…<\/p>\n
He\u00e7 bir evd\u0259 ya\u015famad\u0131m…
\nT\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcmd\u0259n ba\u015fqa.
\n\u018fl saxlay\u0131n!
\nDivarlar\u0131m\u0131 niy\u0259 u\u00e7urursunuz?<\/p>\n
T\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u0259m!
\nM\u0259nimki burayacanm\u0131\u015f \u2013
\nDi\u015fl\u0259rimin a\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131nacan…<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
\u00d6L\u00dcM<\/p>\n
\u00d6l\u00fcm \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn a\u011flamaq a\u011faclar\u0131n yarpaqlanmas\u0131na a\u011flamaq kimi bir \u015feydi!
\nS\u0259ni niy\u0259 s\u0259tird\u0259n-s\u0259tr\u0259 ke\u00e7irm\u0259k olmur, \u00f6l\u00fcm?
\nGed\u0259k. Bir yerd\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fcn\u0259k,
\nGed\u0259k! D\u00fc\u015f qaba\u011f\u0131ma!<\/p>\n
De, de, sular niy\u0259 ax\u0131r?
\nOtaqlar\u0131n i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 niy\u0259 \u00f6z \u00f6zl\u0259rini s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u0259 bilmir?
\n\u00d6l\u00fcm s\u00f6z\u00fc s\u0259cd\u0259di!<\/p>\n
\u00c7iynimizd\u0259 \u0259kdiyimiz t\u0259kotaql\u0131 evl\u0259ri
\nK\u00fc\u00e7\u0259-k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 g\u0259zdirib dey\u0259k ki:
\nM\u0259n d\u0259 bir vaxtlar ya\u015fad\u0131m burda!
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcn boyu g\u00f6zl\u0259dim ki, u\u015faqlar da\u015f at\u0131b p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259mi s\u0131nd\u0131rarlar,
\nQap\u0131m\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b qur\u015faq atan da olmad\u0131!
\nM\u0259n ki ayl\u0131q maa\u015f\u0131mdan y\u0131\u011f\u0131b saxlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Buyur, karvanba\u015f\u0131,
\nDeyirl\u0259r, g\u00f6zl\u0259rimizin d\u0259rman\u0131
\nAt\u0131n d\u0131rnaqlar\u0131 d\u0259ym\u0259diyi yerd\u0259di!
\nSalam olsun s\u0259n\u0259, ey at d\u0131rnaqlar\u0131!<\/p>\n
Bax, bax, \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r heca v\u0259znind\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc n\u0259bzim,
\n\u0130ndi s\u0259rb\u0259st\u0259dir.
\nM\u0259n \u0259ruzu sevm\u0259dim,
\nSaitl\u0259r\u0259 z\u00fcl\u00fcm verib uzatmaq ist\u0259m\u0259dim…
\nC\u0259mi \u00fc\u00e7c\u0259 v\u0259zn!
\nAz deyilmi?<\/p>\n
G\u00fclabla yuyun sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131,
\nQoy sa\u00e7lar\u0131ma \u0259l uzats\u0131n a\u011faclar, otlar.
\nBa\u011fdan kim qa\u00e7acaq, kim?<\/p>\n
N\u0259 div var, n\u0259 d\u0259 p\u0259ri,
\nA\u011faclar\u0131n dal\u0131nda q\u0131s\u0131lanlar\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131n g\u0259lsin!
\nDeyin ki, \u00fcr\u0259yim gedib…<\/p>\n
G\u00f6r kiml\u0259r ke\u00e7di b\u00f6yr\u00fcmd\u0259n:
\nDostlar\u0131m
\nM\u0259nim \u0259n m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s yerim b\u00f6yr\u00fcmd\u00fc, b\u00f6yr\u00fcm…<\/p>\n
A\u011f yalanm\u0131\u015f, a\u011f yalan b\u0259d\u0259nn\u00fcma g\u00fczg\u00fcl\u0259r
\nTorpaqdan \u00f6zg\u0259 n\u0259 b\u0259d\u0259nimizi b\u00fct\u00f6v g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259r, n\u0259?
\nF\u0259r\u015f kimi d\u00f6\u015f\u0259yin b\u0259d\u0259nimi…<\/p>\n
H\u0259r \u015fey qay\u0131d\u0131r, qay\u0131d\u0131r,
\nNiy\u0259 barmaqlar\u0131m\u0131n s\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 qay\u0131tmad\u0131?
\n\u018fd\u0259bn\u0259n x\u00f6r\u0259k yey\u0259 bilmir\u0259m.
\nM\u0259n ki min d\u0259f\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcb dirilm\u0259dim,
\nBirc\u0259 k\u0259r\u0259m \u00f6ld\u00fcm v\u0259 dirildim…
\nY\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131n s\u00fcrf\u0259ni!
\n\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc el\u0259 apar\u0131ram ki, \u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m,
\n\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc el\u0259 apar\u0131ram ki, yor\u011funam, yataca\u011fam.
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yumuram ki, dostlar\u0131m gedib yats\u0131n!
\nHe\u00e7 x\u0131r\u0131ldamad\u0131m.
\nN\u0259v\u0259md\u0259n qorxdum \u2013
\n\u00d6l\u00fcmd\u0259n qorxmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m q\u0259d\u0259r.<\/p>\n
\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr! H\u0259r \u015fey bitdi bel\u0259,
\nN\u0259 edim, g\u00f6zl\u0259rim dolur.
\nEyn\u0259yimi d\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xarsam, yaza bilm\u0259r\u0259m…
\nM\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n….<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n
***<\/p>\n
AYRILIQ D\u018fRS\u0130<\/p>\n
Vaxtd\u0131,
\nAyr\u0131laq!<\/p>\n
G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yum
\nSay onacan…<\/p>\n
Yum,
\nYum g\u00f6zl\u0259rini
\nQoy r\u0259q\u0259ml\u0259r hal\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259sin!!!<\/p>\n
Biz\u0259 birhecal\u0131 s\u00f6zl\u0259r g\u0259r\u0259kdi!
\nTez!
\nTez!
\nTez ol!<\/p>\n
Bir…
\n\u0130ki..
\n\u00dc\u00e7…D\u00f6rd…
\nOn…
\nQa\u00e7!
\nQa\u00e7!!!<\/p>\n
V\u0259 qa\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131n yerd\u0259c\u0259 dur!
\nDur!!!<\/p>\n
V\u0259 yerind\u0259c\u0259 say:
\nBir…iki…\u00fc\u00e7…
\nBir…
\n\u0130ki…
\n\u00dc\u00e7…<\/p>\n
M\u0259n d\u0259 burda say\u0131ram…
\nSa-y\u0131-ram…<\/p>\n
****<\/p>\n
M\u018fRH\u018fM\u018fTL\u0130 \u0130NSANLAR<\/p>\n
Tanr\u0131m, G\u00fcn\u0259 tutub, Qalsam, Yaz\u0131ya 762 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" AVQUST K\u00fctl\u0259vi intihar\u0131n s\u00fcbutudu \u00fcz\u00fcm salx\u0131m\u0131. G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn a\u00e7\u0131b yaxas\u0131n\u0131- H\u0259rar\u0259tini \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcr budaqlar. \u018fmzik kimidi a\u011faclar, Ya da bunun kimi bir \u015fey… G\u00f6yl\u0259r bel\u0259c\u0259 aldad\u0131r yerl\u0259ri. Sentyabrdan teleqram al\u0131b avqust: \u0130kic\u0259 s\u00f6z: Qay\u0131t, g\u0259l! *** AQ\u015e\u0130N YEN\u0130SEY\u0130N T\u018fB\u018fSS\u00dcM\u00dc Sand\u0131qlar\u0131n q\u0131f\u0131llar\u0131 X\u0131rda a\u00e7arlar\u0131n t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259riyl\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r! \u0130\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259kil\u0259r q\u0259ddar olsa bel\u0259… M\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm g\u00f6st\u0259r, t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm! T\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259r […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[15,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6992"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=6992"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6992\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6996,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6992\/revisions\/6996"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=6992"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=6992"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=6992"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\nS\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z verib getdin,
\n\u018flimd\u0259 qal\u0131b o s\u00f6z!
\nHe\u00e7 k\u0259s onu g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fcr.<\/span><\/p>\n
\nBu \u00fcz,
\nO \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 bax\u0131rlar.
\nH\u0259rd\u0259nbir altdan-altdan,
\nG\u00f6zucu
\nM\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 bax\u0131rlar.<\/p>\n
\nAsacaqlar!
\nGets\u0259m,
\nSatacaqlar…<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n