{"id":7039,"date":"2014-12-05T09:24:28","date_gmt":"2014-12-05T05:24:28","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=7039"},"modified":"2014-12-05T09:24:28","modified_gmt":"2014-12-05T05:24:28","slug":"fidan-puc-olmus-umidl%c9%99r","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=7039","title":{"rendered":"Fidan &#8212; Pu\u00e7 olmu\u015f \u00fcmidl\u0259r"},"content":{"rendered":"<div id=\"attachment_7045\" style=\"width: 253px\" class=\"wp-caption alignright\"><a href=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/12\/Fidan.jpg\"><img aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-7045\" decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"wp-image-7045 \" src=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/12\/Fidan-300x300.jpg\" alt=\"Fidan\" width=\"243\" height=\"243\" srcset=\"https:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/12\/Fidan-300x300.jpg 300w, https:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/12\/Fidan-150x150.jpg 150w, https:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/12\/Fidan-50x50.jpg 50w, https:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/12\/Fidan.jpg 960w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 243px) 100vw, 243px\" \/><\/a><p id=\"caption-attachment-7045\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">\u00a0 \u00a0 Fidan<\/p><\/div>\n<p>K\u00fcl\u0259kli, tutqun bir pay\u0131z s\u0259h\u0259ri idi. A\u011faclar\u0131n yarpaqlar\u0131 saralaraq t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr v\u0259 bir laz\u0131ms\u0131z\u00a0 x\u0259z\u0259l par\u00e7as\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. T\u0259bi\u0259t, sanki sar\u0131 don geyinirdi. G\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259\u00a0 qara buludlar getdikc\u0259 \u00e7oxal\u0131rd\u0131. Hiss olunurdu ki, m\u00f6hk\u0259m ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011facaq. Bel\u0259 d\u0259 oldu. Nar\u0131n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Yer \u00fcz\u00fc sanki g\u00fcnahlardan, ac\u0131lardan yuyularaq bu ya\u011f\u0131\u015f vasit\u0259si il\u0259 t\u0259mizl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259ns\u0259 bir darac\u0131q yerd\u0259 &#8211; siyirm\u0259d\u0259 qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 bunlar\u0131 sad\u0259c\u0259 e\u015fidirdim, laz\u0131ms\u0131z idim, ta ki bu g\u00fcn\u0259d\u0259k. Bunlar\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 e\u015fitdir\u0259n 50 ya\u015fl\u0131 bir qad\u0131n idi. O, art\u0131q 30 il idi ki, t\u0259bi\u0259ti, h\u0259yat\u0131 k\u0259nardan sad\u0259c\u0259 bir p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 arxas\u0131ndan izl\u0259yirdi. Bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 o\u00a0 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi qara libasda idi. Bird\u0259n siyirm\u0259ni \u00e7\u0259kib m\u0259ni astaca g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb baxd\u0131 v\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri doldu, dedi:\u00a0 \u201c30 il \u00f6nc\u0259&#8230;\u201d O, bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri deyib m\u0259ni\u00a0 \u00e7antas\u0131na atd\u0131 v\u0259 yen\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259ni\u00a0 qaranl\u0131\u011fa h\u0259bs etdi. \u018fslind\u0259 m\u0259n 30 il qaranl\u0131qlarla dolu bir \u00f6m\u00fcr s\u00fcrs\u0259m d\u0259 bir g\u00fcn ha\u00e7ansa i\u015f\u0131\u011fa, nurlu h\u0259yata \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011f\u0131ma \u00fcmid edirdim. \u0130ndi bilirdim ki, bu qaranl\u0131q art\u0131q 30 il s\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Bel\u0259 d\u0259 oldu. Qad\u0131n m\u0259ni \u00e7antadan \u00e7\u0131xaranda o art\u0131q bir m\u0259zar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 idi. Onun soyuq , ac\u0131 g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131ndan bir damla\u00a0 \u00fcz\u0259rim\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. O an sanki \u00e7ox \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcm, b\u0259d\u0259nim tir-tir \u0259sdi. Sanki \u0259c\u0259l an\u0131m\u0131n yeti\u015fdiyini hiss edirdim. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, bu g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 olan ac\u0131lar\u0131n, nisgill\u0259rin t\u0259siri idi. M\u0259n \u00f6zl\u00fcy\u00fcmd\u0259 bu andan yanma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. O m\u0259ni torpa\u011fa sancd\u0131 v\u0259 dedi: \u201cAyd\u0131n, yad\u0131ndam\u0131? Bu \u015fam\u0131 30 il \u00f6nc\u0259 tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n 1 ilind\u0259 s\u0259nl\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q&#8230;. Dedin ki,\u00a0 tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n 30-cu il d\u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259 bu \u015fam\u0131 tort \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 yand\u0131rar\u0131q. Ancaq, Tanr\u0131 el\u0259 h\u0259min g\u00fcn bizi ay\u0131rd\u0131. 30 ildir ki, ayr\u0131y\u0131q. T\u0259k ota\u011f\u0131ma qapanm\u0131\u015fam. H\u0259r k\u0259s el\u0259 bilir ki, ruhi x\u0259st\u0259y\u0259m, dinmir\u0259m, dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131ram. Bu g\u00fcn s\u0259nl\u0259 h\u0259m b\u0259rab\u0259rliyimizin, h\u0259m d\u0259 ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n 30 ilidir. Bu \u015fam\u0131sa tort \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 yox s\u0259nin m\u0259zar\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 yand\u0131r\u0131ram. H\u0259r \u015feyi t\u0259k ya\u015fad\u0131m. Yaln\u0131z, yaln\u0131z s\u0259ni s\u0259nsiz ya\u015faya bilmir\u0259m. \u0130nan, bu hissl\u0259ri t\u0259k q\u0259lbd\u0259 da\u015f\u0131ya bilmir\u0259m daha.\u201d V\u0259 o m\u0259ni bir kibrit d\u0259n\u0259si il\u0259 yand\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259n a\u011flayaraq yan\u0131b \u0259riyirdim.\u00a0 Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 yox ki, yan\u0131rd\u0131m&#8230; M\u0259nim libas\u0131m q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 r\u0259ngd\u0259 b\u0259rli-b\u0259z\u0259kli idi.\u00a0 \u00c7\u00fcnki m\u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xt anlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yarad\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u0130\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131ma h\u0259r zaman sevinc g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 ax\u0131d\u0131lmal\u0131 v\u0259 ya\u00a0 sad\u0259c\u0259 xo\u015f g\u00fcnl\u0259r qeyd olunacaqd\u0131. Kiminin toy \u015fam\u0131, kiminin ad g\u00fcn\u00fc , kiminins\u0259 bayram \u015fam\u0131 olaraq \u015f\u0259n g\u00fcnl\u0259rin alovu olacaqd\u0131m. \u018fn az\u0131ndan \u00f6z i\u00e7imd\u0259 bu c\u00fcr \u00fcmidl\u0259rl\u0259 30 il g\u00f6zl\u0259mi\u015fdim, t\u0259k bununla \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli vermi\u015fdim. B\u0259s indi nec\u0259 olacaqd\u0131? M\u0259niml\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r \u00fcmidl\u0259rim d\u0259 yan\u0131rd\u0131&#8230; Odumdasa yanan vard\u0131, p\u0259rvan\u0259 &#8211; m\u0259hz el\u0259 o qad\u0131n&#8230; O, bir q\u0259d\u0259r a\u011flad\u0131qdan sonra bu m\u0259zar\u0131 t\u0259rk etdi. M\u0259ns\u0259 yen\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0259k qald\u0131m. Ancaq bu d\u0259f\u0259 z\u00fclm\u0259tl\u0259r i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 yox, i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 d\u00fcnyada \u00f6z alovum v\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131mla t\u0259k, t\u0259nha&#8230;\u00a0 Bu an m\u0259nim \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn \u0259n k\u0259d\u0259rli \u00e7a\u011f\u0131 idi, z\u0259rif q\u0259lbimin kobud d\u00fcnya \u0259lind\u0259 sanki u\u015faq oyunca\u011f\u0131na \u00e7evrildiyini hesab edirdim. \u00d6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn bu c\u00fcr t\u0259nha, qaranl\u0131qlar i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259, sonda is\u0259 ac\u0131 g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131yla bir m\u0259zar torpa\u011f\u0131na qar\u0131\u015fmas\u0131nda\u00a0 g\u00fcnahkar kim idi g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, tale, yoxsa bu qad\u0131n?\u00a0 B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm&#8230;.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"bawpvc-ajax-counter\" data-id=\"7039\">Yaz\u0131ya 700 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>K\u00fcl\u0259kli, tutqun bir pay\u0131z s\u0259h\u0259ri idi. A\u011faclar\u0131n yarpaqlar\u0131 saralaraq t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr v\u0259 bir laz\u0131ms\u0131z\u00a0 x\u0259z\u0259l par\u00e7as\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. T\u0259bi\u0259t, sanki sar\u0131 don geyinirdi. G\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259\u00a0 qara buludlar getdikc\u0259 \u00e7oxal\u0131rd\u0131. Hiss olunurdu ki, m\u00f6hk\u0259m ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011facaq. Bel\u0259 d\u0259 oldu. Nar\u0131n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Yer \u00fcz\u00fc sanki g\u00fcnahlardan, ac\u0131lardan yuyularaq bu ya\u011f\u0131\u015f vasit\u0259si il\u0259 t\u0259mizl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. 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