{"id":7183,"date":"2014-12-08T15:40:08","date_gmt":"2014-12-08T11:40:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=7183"},"modified":"2014-12-08T15:40:08","modified_gmt":"2014-12-08T11:40:08","slug":"elcin-tarvediyev-yazilmamis-hekay%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=7183","title":{"rendered":"El\u00e7in Tarvediyev — Yaz\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f hekay\u0259"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Otaqdak\u0131 s\u0259ssizliyi sad\u0259c\u0259 saat\u0131n \u0259qr\u0259bl\u0259ri pozur. Saniy\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259ri,d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259r is\u0259 saatlar\u0131 \u015fuursuzcas\u0131na t\u0259qib el\u0259yir. L\u0259mp\u0259 az da olsa otaq\u0131 ayd\u0131nlad\u0131r.Otaq \u00e7ox sakitdir v\u0259 bir o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259siz. Otaq\u0131n ortas\u0131nda bir masa v\u0259 masan\u0131n h\u0259r iki t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131-qar\u015f\u0131ya iki oturacaq var.C\u0259lal \u0259lind\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259mi,qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 sakitc\u0259 oturacaqda oturub.Amma C\u0259lal\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda da biri var .70 ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131n verdiyi yorgunluq,bezginlik onun simasinda biruz\u0259 verirdi.Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 is\u0259 sanki ondan daha sol\u011fun idi,daha r\u0259ngsiz,daha bezmi\u015f.C\u0259lal qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131na baxmaqa utan\u0131rd\u0131.Onun il\u0259 g\u00f6z-g\u00f6z\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kinirdi.Buna baxmayaraq qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 C\u0259lala he\u00e7 \u00e7\u0259kinm\u0259d\u0259n bax\u0131rd\u0131.C\u0259laldan f\u0259rqli olaraq qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 utanm\u0131rd\u0131.O, yorgun g\u00f6zl\u0259rini C\u0259lal\u0131n izdirab dolu simas\u0131na zill\u0259mi\u015fdi.O sol\u011fun dodaqlar\u0131 il\u0259 ancaq t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm edirdi.C\u0259lal is\u0259 sonuncu d\u0259f\u0259 n\u0259 vaxt t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm etdiyini xat\u0131rlam\u0131r.Q\u0131r\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm etm\u0259y\u0259 bel\u0259 taq\u0259ti qalmay\u0131b.Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 da \u0259n az C\u0259lal q\u0259d\u0259r sol\u011fun v\u0259 dur\u011fun idi,ancaq buna baxmayaraq o t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc gizl\u0259tmirdi.C\u0259lal is\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u0259ymi\u015f v\u0259 sakitc\u0259 oturmu\u015fdu.C\u0259lal g\u00f6zl\u0259rini sad\u0259c\u0259 qaba\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 ka\u011f\u0131za v\u0259 o ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131n yan\u0131ndak\u0131 q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 zill\u0259mi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

Bug\u00fcn n\u0259 is\u0259 yazma\u011fa q\u0259rar vermi\u015fdi.O bu al\u0131\u015fqanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na ta u\u015faql\u0131qdan b\u0259l\u0259tdir.Yaz\u0131 yazmaq,n\u0259yi is\u0259 c\u0131zma-qara el\u0259m\u0259k onun xo\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir al\u0131\u015fqanl\u0131qd\u0131r.Ancaq C\u0259lal \u0259n ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 d\u0259f\u0259 ha\u00e7an yaz\u0131 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 unudub.As\u0131q \u00fczl\u0259 el\u0259 sad\u0259c\u0259 ka\u011f\u0131za bax\u0131r.Bir ara ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 divardak\u0131 saata d\u00f6nd\u0259rdi.Saat bir\u0259 on d\u0259qiq\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131.\u00c7\u00f6ld\u0259 z\u00fclm\u0259t qaranl\u0131q var idi.Bu qaranl\u0131q sad\u0259c\u0259 k\u00fcl\u0259yin i\u015fin\u0259 yaray\u0131rd\u0131.\u00c7\u00f6ld\u0259 nar\u0131n-nar\u0131n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.K\u00fcl\u0259k is\u0259 bu ya\u011f\u0131\u015f damlalar\u0131n\u0131 C\u0259lal\u0131n evinin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sin\u0259 z\u00f6vql\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131rd\u0131.C\u0259lal t\u0259krar g\u00f6zl\u0259rini ka\u011f\u0131za zill\u0259di.Q\u0259l\u0259mi \u0259lin\u0259 ald\u0131.Yazma\u011fa c\u0259hd el\u0259di,amma al\u0131nmad\u0131.C\u0259lal d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 bilmirdi.N\u0259 yazaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmirdi.C\u0259lal qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131n\u0131n ona nec\u0259 d\u0259 z\u00f6vql\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm etdiyini hiss el\u0259y\u0259 bilirdi.Onun t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fc C\u0259lal\u0131 daha da \u00fcmidsizliy\u0259 s\u00f6vq edirdi.C\u0259lal q\u0259l\u0259mi astaca masaya qoydu v\u0259 ist\u0259di g\u00f6zl\u0259rini qald\u0131r\u0131b qar\u015f\u0131ya,onun t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm dolu \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxs\u0131n.Ancaq g\u00f6z qapaqlar\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rp\u0259d\u0259 bilm\u0259di.Qar\u015f\u0131dak\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131 :<\/p>\n

-C\u0259lal, ikimizd\u0259 bilirik ki,s\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 bilmirs\u0259n. S\u0259n yaz\u0131 yazma\u011f\u0131 unutmusan. S\u0259n u\u015faql\u0131qdak\u0131 C\u0259lal deyils\u0259n. S\u0259n o deyils\u0259n.<\/p>\n

C\u0259lal bo\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 ka\u011f\u0131za bax\u0131rd\u0131. Arabir d\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259.Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131na inad olaraq q\u0259l\u0259mi yen\u0259 \u0259lin\u0259 ald\u0131. Ka\u011f\u0131za yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 durdu. Ka\u011f\u0131za bir ne\u00e7\u0259 damc\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.\u018fli il\u0259 tez g\u00f6zl\u0259rini sildi. Sanki qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131n\u0131n bunu g\u00f6rm\u0259sini ist\u0259mirdi.<\/p>\n

-C\u0259lal,inad el\u0259m\u0259. S\u0259n o deyils\u0259n. S\u0259n\u0259 bir t\u0259klifim var.Bax m\u0259n yaza bilmir\u0259m,m\u0259nim \u0259ll\u0259rim yoxdur. M\u0259n sad\u0259c\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m. G\u0259l m\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckl\u0259rimi deyim s\u0259n d\u0259 yaz.<\/p>\n

C\u0259lal ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yen\u0259 saata d\u00f6nd\u0259rdi.Saat ikiy\u0259 be\u015f d\u0259qiq\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. K\u00fcl\u0259yin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 vurmas\u0131 C\u0259lal\u0131n\u00a0 xo\u015funa g\u0259lirdi.C\u0259lal raz\u0131l\u0131q \u0259lam\u0259ti olaraq ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bulad\u0131 v\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259mi \u0259lin\u0259 al\u0131b b\u00fct\u00fcn diqq\u0259tini qar\u015f\u0131ya y\u00f6n\u0259ltdi.<\/p>\n

– U\u015faql\u0131q\u0131mda ail\u0259m\u0259 \u00e7ox ba\u011fl\u0131 biri idim. Ail\u0259md\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n ba\u015fqa \u00f6vlad yox idi. Ata,anam m\u0259nd\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 \u0259sirg\u0259m\u0259zdi. \u018fn xo\u015fb\u0259xt oldu\u011fum anlar ata,anamla b\u0259rab\u0259r g\u0259zm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131m vaxtlar idi. Ancaq anam\u0131 atamdan daha \u00e7ox istiy\u0259rdim. U\u015faq ik\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 sual veril\u0259nd\u0259 ki,anan\u0131m\u0131 daha \u00e7\u0131x ist\u0259yirs\u0259n yoxsa atan\u0131?. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259d\u0259n anam\u0131 dey\u0259rdim. Anam\u0131n qara uzun sa\u00e7lar\u0131na vurulmu\u015fdum. H\u0259r gec\u0259 anam\u0131n sa\u00e7alar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131\u011fallayard\u0131m. Bu vaxt m\u0259n 11,12 ya\u015flar\u0131nda olard\u0131m. Anam\u0131n bir d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l idi-t\u00fcnd q\u0259hv\u0259yi. M\u0259nim d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rim o r\u0259ngdir. S\u0259hv anlama bu o dem\u0259k deyil ki,atam\u0131 sevirmirdim. Atam\u0131 da sevirdim,amma anam ilk \u00f6nc\u0259 g\u0259lirdi. Anamla u\u015faq ik\u0259n tez tez \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rdik. M\u0259n \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yi bacarmazd\u0131m.\u00d6z\u00fcm \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn c\u0131zma-qara bir \u015feyl\u0259r ed\u0259rdim. Ancaq anam \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rdi. B\u0259z\u0259n anam \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nd\u0259 oturub onu izl\u0259y\u0259rdim. Anam \u00e7ox narin v\u0259 bir oq\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 z\u0259rif idi. Barmaqlar\u0131 inc\u0259 v\u0259 uzun idi. O z\u0259rif barmaqlar\u0131 il\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259n burnumu \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rdi. B\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 yanaqlar\u0131mdan di\u015fl\u0259y\u0259rdi. M\u0259n is\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259riml\u0259 anam\u0131n h\u0259r iki yana\u011f\u0131ndan tutar dartard\u0131m. B\u0259z\u0259n anamla burunlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 birbirin\u0259 toxundurard\u0131q. \u0130lk sevdiyim qad\u0131n anam olub. Atam is\u0259 \u00e7ox vaxt i\u015fd\u0259 olurdu. Sad\u0259c\u0259 ax\u015famlar ev\u0259 g\u0259lirdi.Atamla da top oynama\u011f\u0131 xo\u015flayard\u0131m. Ancaq \u00e7ox az oynayard\u0131q. Atam i\u015fd\u0259n g\u0259lib yem\u0259k yedikd\u0259n sonra \u00e7ox vaxt yatard\u0131. Atam i\u015fd\u0259 olanda is\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fctn g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc anamla ke\u00e7ird\u0259rdim..<\/p>\n

Qar\u015f\u0131dak\u0131 deyir C\u0259lal is\u0259 dayanmadan yaz\u0131rd\u0131. Birara C\u0259lal durdu .Bo\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 ka\u011f\u0131za baxd\u0131. Q\u0259l\u0259mi masaya qoyub d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s ald\u0131. Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131n\u0131n ona maraql\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss el\u0259y\u0259 bilirdi .Qar\u015f\u0131dak\u0131 da dan\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 dayand\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t sakit\u00e7ilik oldu otaqda. Sad\u0259c\u0259 saat\u0131n \u0259qr\u0259bl\u0259ri asta-asta s\u0259s \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131rd\u0131. C\u0259lal q\u0259l\u0259mi t\u0259krar \u0259lin\u0259 ald\u0131. Qar\u015f\u0131ya baxmadan “davam el\u0259” dey\u0259 bildi. Qar\u015f\u0131dak\u0131 yor\u011fun g\u00f6zl\u0259rini p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 zill\u0259yib dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

-H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi bir g\u00fcn yen\u0259 ax\u015fam yem\u0259yind\u0259 masada b\u0259rab\u0259r oturmu\u015fduq. Yaz olmas\u0131na baxmayaraq qara buludlar h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00fcn\u0259nmi\u015f kimi a\u011fl\u0131mdad\u0131r. B\u0259rk ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Anam dolma bi\u015firmi\u015fdi. Yarpaq dolmas\u0131 atam\u0131n \u0259n \u00e7ox xo\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yem\u0259k idi. Ancaq atam\u0131n h\u0259min g\u00fcn he\u00e7 i\u015fdah\u0131 yox idi. Sad\u0259c\u0259 bir,iki dolma a\u011fz\u0131na atd\u0131. O g\u00fcn atam biraz da i\u00e7kili idi. H\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259siz el\u0259 yem\u0259y\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. Anam m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131r dolmalar\u0131 nec\u0259 i\u015fdahla yediyim\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm el\u0259yirdi. Atam\u0131n h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259siz oldu\u011funun f\u0259rqin\u0259 varm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Kamal niy\u0259 yemirs\u0259n? Dey\u0259s\u0259n xo\u015flamad\u0131n bu d\u0259f\u0259ki bi\u015firdiyimi ?<\/p>\n

Atam anam\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259m\u0259zlikd\u0259n g\u0259ldi v\u0259 yem\u0259y\u0259 baxmaqa davam el\u0259di.<\/p>\n

-Kamal nolub s\u0259n\u0259 b\u00fcg\u00fcn ? Ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n qan\u0131 qarasan.<\/p>\n

Atam g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc bel\u0259 qald\u0131rmad\u0131.Ancaq qa\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 daha da \u00e7atd\u0131.\u018flind\u0259ki \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yi masaya qoydu.<\/p>\n

-S\u0259nl\u0259 deyil\u0259m ,Kamal?<\/p>\n

-Leyla bezdirm\u0259,\u0259l\u00e7\u0259k! G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n cavab vermir\u0259m,bir \u015feyi \u0259lli d\u0259f\u0259 t\u0259krarlay\u0131rsan.<\/p>\n

-Burda q\u0131\u015fq\u0131ras\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259 yoxdu,Kamal. Sad\u0259c\u0259 niy\u0259 h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259siz oldu\u011funu soru\u015fdum.\u0130\u015fd\u0259 kim\u0259s\u0259 hirsl\u0259nib g\u0259lib ac\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259nim \u00fcz\u0259rim\u0259 t\u00f6km\u0259.<\/p>\n

Bir anda masada g\u0259rginlik yarand\u0131. T\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 ana,atama bax\u0131rd\u0131m. Biraz da qorxmu\u015fdum. H\u0259r ikisi s\u0259sini ucald\u0131b dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

-He\u00e7 kimin ac\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259nin \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 t\u00f6km\u00fcr\u0259m. Yor\u011funam v\u0259 s\u0259n bir \u015feyi durmadan t\u0259krarlay\u0131rsan. Bu da m\u0259ni q\u0131c\u0131qland\u0131r\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Atam gec \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015f\u0259n biri idi.Ancaq \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fc he\u00e7 n\u0259yi g\u00f6rm\u0259zdi.<\/p>\n

-M\u0259n s\u0259nin sevdiyin yem\u0259yi haz\u0131rlay\u0131m,s\u0259n is\u0259 g\u0259l i\u015f yolda\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n ac\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 t\u00f6k. M\u0259n d\u0259 evd\u0259 yoruluram.Ev i\u015fi g\u00f6rm\u0259k asan deyil.<\/p>\n

-Yen\u0259 t\u0259krarlay\u0131rsan! Yen\u0259! Yen\u0259! He\u00e7 kimin a\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131n s\u0259n\u0259 t\u00f6km\u00fcr\u0259m. Uzatma,Leyla,uzatma!<\/p>\n

Atam\u0131n s\u0259si daha da ucadan \u00e7\u0131xmaqa ba\u015flad\u0131. Atama \u0259s\u0259bilik olmazd\u0131. Bunu h\u0259kim demi\u015fdi. \u00c7ox \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015fdiyi zaman \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 olmur v\u0259 d\u00fczg\u00fcn q\u0259rarlar ver\u0259 bilmirdi. Atam \u00e7ox \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 sa\u011f \u0259li asm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flayard\u0131. Atam\u0131n \u00e7ox az hirsl\u0259ndiyini g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. H\u0259tta bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 hirsl\u0259nib anam\u0131 d\u00f6ym\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Anam\u0131n is\u0259 burnu q\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ancaq \u00e7oxdand\u0131 atam hirsl\u0259nmirdi. Bug\u00fcn niy\u0259s\u0259 s\u00f6zl\u0259ri d\u00fcz g\u0259tirm\u0259di. M\u0259ni he\u00e7 vecl\u0259rin\u0259 alm\u0131rd\u0131lar. Sad\u0259c\u0259 bir biril\u0259rin\u0259 nifr\u0259tl\u0259 bax\u0131b q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u00c7\u00f6ld\u0259 d\u0259 ild\u0131r\u0131m \u00e7ax\u0131rd\u0131. K\u00fcl\u0259k ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131 g\u0259tirib p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131rd\u0131. He\u00e7 bir g\u00fcn o g\u00fcn q\u0259d\u0259r uzun g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fdi m\u0259n\u0259.<\/p>\n

-Q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rma \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259,Kamal! Qabaq\u0131nda u\u015faq yoxdu.D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259siz insansan.Onsuzda bir ne\u00e7\u0259 ayd\u0131 ail\u0259nl\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259m\u0259lli maraqlanm\u0131rsan.H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259m\u0259zlikd\u0259n g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131ram,ancaq b\u0259sdir! S\u0259nin bir ail\u0259n var. \u0130\u00e7ki dostlar\u0131nla bizd\u0259n daha \u00e7ox maraqlan\u0131rsan.<\/p>\n

Bir anda h\u0259r ikisi dayand\u0131.Sad\u0259c\u0259 nifr\u0259t dolu bax\u0131\u015flar v\u0259 bir d\u0259 tez tez al\u0131nan n\u0259f\u0259si hiss ed\u0259 bilirdim. Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 z\u00f6vql\u0259 vururdu. Ara bir is\u0259 ildir\u0131m \u00e7ax\u0131rd\u0131. Qorxu dolu g\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 olub bit\u0259ni izl\u0259yirdim. Atam\u0131n sa\u011f \u0259li \u0259smay\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Anam\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri atam\u0131n sa\u011f \u0259lin\u0259 zill\u0259ndi. Ancaq anam geri add\u0131m atmayacaqd\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki g\u00f6zl\u0259rini t\u0259krar atam\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 zill\u0259di .Atam cavab verm\u0259di. Haqs\u0131z oldu\u011funu q\u0259bul el\u0259di z\u0259nn el\u0259dim. \u018fs\u0259bi \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 anama bax\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Ne\u00e7\u0259 ayd\u0131 \u00f6z u\u015faq\u0131nla maraqlanm\u0131rsan. U\u015faq\u0131n v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti nec\u0259di,d\u0259rsl\u0259ri nec\u0259di s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn maraql\u0131 deyil!. Sad\u0259c\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n. H\u0259,bir d\u0259 i\u00e7ki dostlar\u0131n\u0131. Evi bir ne\u00e7\u0259 ayd\u0131 otel kimi istifad\u0259 el\u0259yirs\u0259n. Arvad\u0131nla maraqlanm\u0131rsan.Arvad\u0131n hara gedir,hardan g\u0259lir s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn maraql\u0131 deyil. Ki\u015filiyin harda qald\u0131 b\u0259s?!! Bel\u0259 ki\u015filiyi h\u0259r ki\u015fi el\u0259y\u0259r. Ail\u0259nin qeyr\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259k,i\u00e7ki dostlar\u0131n\u0131n yox !<\/p>\n

Sanki ne\u00e7\u0259 ay\u0131n a\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi\u00a0 anam son c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259rini \u00e7ox ucadan v\u0259 hirsli dedi. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri is\u0259 atam\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 idi. Arabir o g\u00f6zl\u0259r atam\u0131n \u0259s\u0259n sa\u011f \u0259lini ili\u015firdi. Atam masadan qalxd\u0131. Hirsli bir \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 getdi. Qalxark\u0259n oturduqu stulu yer\u0259 tullad\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Ki\u015filiyin harda qald\u0131! Sad\u0259c\u0259 qa\u00e7maq\u0131 bilirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

C\u0259lal yazark\u0259n yava\u015f yava\u015f \u0259ll\u0259rinin titr\u0259diyini hiss el\u0259di. \u00dcr\u0259k d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u0259ri s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259nmi\u015fdi. Q\u0259l\u0259mi ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131n yan\u0131na tullad\u0131. Qar\u015f\u0131dak\u0131 da dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.C\u0259lal qar\u015f\u0131dak\u0131n\u0131n dan\u0131\u015fark\u0259n s\u0259sinin titr\u0259diyini hiss el\u0259di. C\u0259lal astaca aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. Yava\u015f yava\u015f p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 do\u011fru g\u0259ldi. Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f k\u0259smi\u015fdi.Ancaq \u00e7\u00f6l z\u00fclm\u0259t qaranl\u0131q idi. Qaranl\u0131q\u0131 bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t seyr el\u0259di. N\u0259 is\u0259 axtar\u0131rd\u0131 orda. Tapa bilm\u0259m\u0259yin verdiyi \u00fcmidsizlikl\u0259 masaya t\u0259krar qay\u0131td\u0131. Yerind\u0259 oturdu. Qar\u015f\u0131ya baxa bilmirdi .El\u0259 sakitc\u0259 oturmu\u015fdu. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc toxdama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015frd\u0131. Sanki n\u0259y\u0259 is\u0259 haz\u0131rl\u0131qs\u0131z idi. \u00dcr\u0259yinin tab g\u0259tirm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini his el\u0259yirdi,arxas\u0131n\u0131 yaza bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini his el\u0259yirdi. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saniy\u0259 ka\u011f\u0131za baxd\u0131. Q\u0259l\u0259mi \u0259lin\u0259 ald\u0131. Qar\u015f\u0131dak\u0131 davam el\u0259di:<\/p>\n

H\u0259r \u015fey bir anda oldu. Atam s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259n qay\u0131td\u0131. \u018flind\u0259 b\u0131\u00e7aq var idi. Yerimd\u0259n qalxd\u0131m. “Ana” dey\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131ra bildim. Sora g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yumdum. Anam\u0131n q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sad\u0259c\u0259 e\u015fid\u0259 bildim. Sad\u0259c\u0259 “C\u0259lal” dey\u0259 bildi .Sad\u0259c\u0259 “o\u011flum” dey\u0259 bildi. G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc a\u00e7maqa qorxurdum.Bir anda sakit\u00e7ilik oldu…<\/p>\n

“Tap” dey\u0259 s\u0259s e\u015fidildi.C\u0259lal g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7d\u0131. Q\u0259l\u0259m yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Q\u0259l\u0259min s\u0259sin\u0259 ay\u0131ld\u0131. Q\u0259l\u0259mi yerd\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc,qar\u015f\u0131ya baxd\u0131. Orda he\u00e7 kim yox idi.G\u00f6zl\u0259rini ka\u011f\u0131za zill\u0259di,ka\u011f\u0131z is\u0259 bombo\u015f idi..<\/p>\n

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Otaqdak\u0131 s\u0259ssizliyi sad\u0259c\u0259 saat\u0131n \u0259qr\u0259bl\u0259ri pozur. Saniy\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259ri,d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259r is\u0259 saatlar\u0131 \u015fuursuzcas\u0131na t\u0259qib el\u0259yir. L\u0259mp\u0259 az da olsa otaq\u0131 ayd\u0131nlad\u0131r.Otaq \u00e7ox sakitdir v\u0259 bir o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259siz. Otaq\u0131n ortas\u0131nda bir masa v\u0259 masan\u0131n h\u0259r iki t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131-qar\u015f\u0131ya iki oturacaq var.C\u0259lal \u0259lind\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259mi,qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 sakitc\u0259 oturacaqda oturub.Amma C\u0259lal\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda da biri var .70 ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131n verdiyi yorgunluq,bezginlik […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":6670,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7183"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=7183"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7183\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7184,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7183\/revisions\/7184"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/6670"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=7183"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=7183"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=7183"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}