{"id":7198,"date":"2014-12-08T22:09:45","date_gmt":"2014-12-08T18:09:45","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=7198"},"modified":"2014-12-08T22:10:28","modified_gmt":"2014-12-08T18:10:28","slug":"arzu-huseyn-intihar-edir%c9%99m-seirl%c9%99rimd%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=7198","title":{"rendered":"Arzu H\u00fcseyn — \u0130ntihar edir\u0259m \u015feirl\u0259rimd\u0259"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"Arzu<\/a>\u00a0S\u0259rxo\u015f \u00fcm\u00fcdl\u0259rim…<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni arzularda itirmi\u015f\u0259m m\u0259n,
\nKim tapar \u0259b\u0259di itik d\u00fc\u015f\u0259ni?
\n\u0130ll\u0259rl\u0259 saxlanan \u015f\u0259rab kimis\u0259n,
\nH\u0259r gec\u0259 yuxumda i\u00e7ir\u0259m s\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

\n

S\u0259rxo\u015f \u00fcmidl\u0259rin qar al\u0131b ba\u015f\u0131n,
\n\u0130sin\u0259 bilm\u0259dim son bax\u0131\u015f\u0131na.
\nS\u0259nsiz ke\u00e7ir\u0259c\u0259m yen\u0259 bu q\u0131\u015f\u0131,
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc dik\u0259c\u0259m qay\u0131d\u0131\u015f\u0131na.<\/p>\n

Niy\u0259 ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011fa isinm\u0259dik biz?
\nQap\u0131m\u0131 qar al\u0131b s\u0259n ged\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u0259n.
\nAdam t\u0259k ya\u015faya bilm\u0259dim s\u0259nsiz
\n\u0130ntihar edir\u0259m \u015feirl\u0259rimd\u0259.<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

M\u0259n ger\u00e7\u0259k bildikc\u0259 d\u00fcnya d\u0259yi\u015fdi.
\nH\u0259qiqi bildikc\u0259 na\u011f\u0131la d\u00f6nd\u00fc.
\n\u015eirinim z\u0259h\u0259rmi\u015f, q\u0259rib\u0259 i\u015fdi.
\nZ\u0259h\u0259rim \u015fip \u015firin no\u011fula d\u00f6nd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\n

M\u0259n do\u011fru bildikc\u0259 yalanla\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f,
\n\u00c7iynimd\u0259 iki c\u00fct m\u0259l\u0259k deyilmi\u015f.
\nHansisa yad g\u0259lib do\u011fmala\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f,
\nHans\u0131sa bir do\u011fma g\u0259r\u0259k deyilmi\u015f.<\/p>\n

Yax\u015f\u0131n\u0131n,yaman\u0131n f\u0259rqi yox imi\u015f.
\n\u00d6zu \u00f6z \u00e7\u0259rxind\u0259 yell\u0259nir d\u00fcnya.
\nS\u0259n dem\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131n d\u0259rdi yox imi\u015f,
\nS\u0259n dem\u0259 biziml\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259nir d\u00fcnya.<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

\u00d6m\u00fcrl\u00fck m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t olmur, \u0259zizim,\u00a0
\nH\u0259r yaz\u0131n q\u0131\u015f pay\u0131, pay\u0131z pay\u0131 var.
\nM\u00fcrg\u00fcl\u00fc d\u0259nizin, susqun d\u0259nizin
\nK\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259r yuxusun o\u011furlay\u0131rlar.<\/span><\/p>\n

\n

Bir d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n ki, bo\u015fal\u0131b i\u00e7in, –
\n\u018flind\u0259n salm\u0131san, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb da\u011f\u0131l\u0131b.
\nDaha he\u00e7 kim deyil o k\u0259s s\u0259nin\u00e7\u00fcn,
\nBax\u0131rsan, yerind\u0259 s\u0131n\u0131qlar qal\u0131b.<\/p>\n

Toxunsan, \u0259lini yaralar o q\u0259m,
\nQ\u0131nay\u0131b qalarsan h\u0259d\u0259r ill\u0259ri.
\nBir d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259rs\u0259n ki, tamam s\u00f6km\u00fcs\u0259n
\n\u0130\u00e7ind\u0259n o b\u0259yaz xatir\u0259l\u0259ri…<\/p>\n

Bir d\u0259 baxarsan ki, da\u015fa d\u00f6nm\u00fcs\u0259n,
\nDa\u015fla\u015f\u0131b i\u00e7ind\u0259 inam\u0131n, s\u00f6z\u00fcn.
\nEl\u0259 bil bahardan q\u0131\u015fa d\u00f6nm\u00fcs\u0259n,
\nYanan da \u00f6z\u00fcns\u0259n, yaman da \u00f6z\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

Yollar uzaqla\u015f\u0131r, d\u0259yi\u015fir fikir,
\nZaman d\u0259yirmand\u0131, \u0259riyir izim.
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn ayr\u0131l\u0131qlar \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck \u00e7\u0259kir,
\n\u00d6m\u00fcrk\u00fck m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t olmur, \u0259zizim.<\/p>\n

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***<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

B\u0259xtim yen\u0259 pay\u0131zdad\u0131r,
\nX\u0259z\u0259l olub t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nM\u0259nd\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 yuva olmaz, –
\nK\u0259rpic-k\u0259rpic s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Yamad\u0131lar s\u00f6z\u0259 m\u0259ni,
\nG\u0259tirdil\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259 m\u0259ni.
\nBir s\u0259nim yox d\u00f6z\u0259 m\u0259ni,
\nS\u0131na\u011fam\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kilir\u0259m…<\/p>\n

\u015e\u0259r atd\u0131lar, \u015f\u0259r\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm,
\nBir Allahs\u0131z yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm.
\nHaqs\u0131zl\u0131qdan \u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm,
\nHaqq olana b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u015eeytanlar pal\u00e7\u0131\u011fa qatd\u0131,
\nM\u0259l\u0259kl\u0259r t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n yapd\u0131.
\nYaradan, \u00fczl\u00fc yaratd\u0131, –
\n\u018fzildikc\u0259 dik\u0259lir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n<\/div>\n

S\u0131n\u0131q \u00fcm\u00fcdl\u0259rdi bizi incid\u0259n,
\nArada s\u0131zlayan \u00fcr\u0259kdir, \u00fcr\u0259k.
\nBu gec\u0259 \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 k\u00fclqab\u0131m v\u0259 m\u0259n,
\nS\u0259ni unutma\u011fa c\u0259hd ed\u0259k g\u0259r\u0259k.<\/span><\/p>\n

\n

D\u00fcnya f\u0131rlanacaq \u0259srl\u0259r boyu,
\nBizi d\u0259 torpa\u011fa g\u00f6m\u0259c\u0259k zaman.
\n\u0130nsan hissl\u0259rind\u0259n kim\u0259 n\u0259 ax\u0131?
\nKim\u0259 n\u0259, \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259 n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kir insan?<\/p>\n

M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n k\u00fclqab\u0131m, bir d\u0259 m\u0259n v\u0259 s\u0259n.
\nD\u0259lilik, q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259r, bir d\u0259 ki, h\u0259bl\u0259r.
\nM\u0259n\u0259 i\u00e7m\u0259yi d\u0259 s\u0259n \u00f6yr\u0259tmis\u0259n,
\nS\u0259rxo\u015fam d\u0259rdind\u0259n, d\u00f6zm\u00fcr \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Asd\u0131m bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n dar a\u011fac\u0131ndan,
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn sevgil\u0259ri, ayr\u0131l\u0131qlar\u0131.
\nH\u0259sr\u0259t bir yumaqd\u0131r, tutub ucundan
\nGedir\u0259m i\u015f\u0131qdan z\u00fclm\u0259t\u0259 sar\u0131.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n s\u0259nsiz \u00e7\u0259tin ki, azadl\u0131q dad\u0131m,
\n\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00f6mm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m bir da\u015f q\u0259f\u0259s\u0259.
\nN\u0259 m\u0259n susas\u0131yam n\u0259 d\u0259 k\u00fclqab\u0131m,
\nSonuncu siqaret k\u00fcl\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259s\u0259…<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n<\/div>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 929 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u00a0S\u0259rxo\u015f \u00fcm\u00fcdl\u0259rim… S\u0259ni arzularda itirmi\u015f\u0259m m\u0259n, Kim tapar \u0259b\u0259di itik d\u00fc\u015f\u0259ni? \u0130ll\u0259rl\u0259 saxlanan \u015f\u0259rab kimis\u0259n, H\u0259r gec\u0259 yuxumda i\u00e7ir\u0259m s\u0259ni. S\u0259rxo\u015f \u00fcmidl\u0259rin qar al\u0131b ba\u015f\u0131n, \u0130sin\u0259 bilm\u0259dim son bax\u0131\u015f\u0131na. S\u0259nsiz ke\u00e7ir\u0259c\u0259m yen\u0259 bu q\u0131\u015f\u0131, G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc dik\u0259c\u0259m qay\u0131d\u0131\u015f\u0131na. Niy\u0259 ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011fa isinm\u0259dik biz? Qap\u0131m\u0131 qar al\u0131b s\u0259n ged\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u0259n. Adam t\u0259k ya\u015faya bilm\u0259dim s\u0259nsiz \u0130ntihar edir\u0259m \u015feirl\u0259rimd\u0259. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":7199,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[15,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7198"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=7198"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7198\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7200,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7198\/revisions\/7200"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/7199"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=7198"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=7198"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=7198"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}