{"id":7240,"date":"2014-12-10T20:59:49","date_gmt":"2014-12-10T16:59:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=7240"},"modified":"2014-12-10T20:59:49","modified_gmt":"2014-12-10T16:59:49","slug":"nazan-bekiroglu-bir-gun-anlayarsan","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=7240","title":{"rendered":"Nazan Bekiro\u011flu – Bir g\u00fcn anlayarsan"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\u0130\u015fimi, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yimi, evimi, ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri, \u00f6lk\u0259mi, h\u0259r \u015feyi t\u0259rk ets\u0259m bel\u0259 s\u0259nd\u0259n xilas ola bilm\u0259dim.<\/p>\n

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Bir x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ng uru kimi qucaqlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131n kainat\u0131n h\u0259r yan\u0131n\u0131. B\u0259zi yerd\u0259 az,b\u0259zi yerd\u0259 \u00e7ox idin. Amma h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 vard\u0131n. \u00c7\u00fcnki bir adam, bir mill\u0259t deyil, bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 \u00a0idin. H\u0259r damara z\u0259h\u0259rli bir \u015fprisin ucundan s\u0131zm\u0131\u015f, h\u0259r b\u0259d\u0259n\u0259 daxil olmu\u015fdun. Cisimin yoxsa k\u00f6lg\u0259n vard\u0131. Onun da yan\u011f\u0131n\u0131 cismind\u0259n \u00e7ox idi. \u0130\u00e7diyim suya, \u0259kdiyim a\u011faca, s\u0259pdiyim toxuma bel\u0259 sinmi\u015fdin. H\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n xilas olsam ya\u011fan ya\u011f\u0131\u015fda, t\u0259n\u0259ff\u00fcs etdiyim havada, ayaqlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m torpaqda idin. El\u0259 bil h\u0259r h\u00fcceyr\u0259y\u0259, h\u0259r z\u0259rr\u0259y\u0259 n\u00fcfuz etmi\u015fdin.<\/p>\n

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\u018fn \u00fcmid etm\u0259diyim yerl\u0259rd\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131ma. \u018fn g\u00fcv\u0259ndiyim dill\u0259rd\u0259n \u00a0s\u0259sl\u0259ndin. Heyr\u0259t! S\u0259n d\u0259mi bel\u0259ymi\u015fs\u0259n? Eyni misralarla, eyni beytl\u0259rl\u0259, eyni c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 bir-birimiz\u0259 cavablar yazd\u0131q. Halbuki insano\u011flu, biz s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259r \u00fcmid etmi\u015f,s\u0259nd\u0259n \u00a0n\u0259l\u0259r g\u00f6zl\u0259mi\u015fdik? S\u0259b\u0259bi qurark\u0259n el\u0259 bir z\u0259ka h\u00fcn\u0259ri s\u0259rgil\u0259din ki, z\u0259kadan \u00e7ox hiyl\u0259g\u0259rlik dey\u0259 bildim ona v\u0259 \u0259n \u00e7ox da bu \u015feytan\u0131 z\u0259kadan iyr\u0259ndim, bu cing\u00f6zl\u00fckd\u0259n iyr\u0259ndim. Hiyl\u0259g\u0259rliyin, m\u0259ntiql\u0259 \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fc anda t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259li idi. \u00c7\u00fcnki m\u0259n\u015f\u0259yi h\u0259qiq\u0259t deyil saxta idi. \u0130ll\u00fczyonlu, sehrli….<\/p>\n

\u018fxlaqs\u0131z olaraq hiyl\u0259g\u0259r, amans\u0131zca m\u00fcqavim\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259li. Kims\u0259ni dinl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n, \u00e7\u00fcnki s\u0259rh\u0259dsiz. S\u0259rh\u0259dsiz, \u00e7\u00fcnki he\u00e7n\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259r verm\u0259y\u0259n<\/p>\n

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“Bel\u0259 ged\u0259rs\u0259?” dey\u0259 s\u0259sini \u00e7\u0131xaran h\u0259r k\u0259si m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259tsiz bir retorikle an\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 yerl\u0259 bir etdin. Ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n eyni g\u0259mid\u0259 oldu\u011funu nec\u0259 unutdun? S\u0259n ki s\u0259hv etm\u0259m\u0259yinl\u0259 \u00f6y\u00fcn\u0259rdin, \u201cm\u0259n\u201d dem\u0259kl\u0259 ke\u00e7di \u00f6m\u00fcr\u00fcn. Maraqlan\u0131ram, bu idimi ist\u0259diyin? Ey insano\u011flu, indi xo\u015fb\u0259xts\u0259nmi?<\/p>\n

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M\u0259nd\u0259n soru\u015fsan i\u00e7imi t\u0259rifi olmayan a\u011fr\u0131lar sard\u0131, yuxular\u0131mda bel\u0259 \u0259sasl\u0131 bir g\u00f6z\u0259llik qalmad\u0131. H\u0259r k\u0259sil\u0259n a\u011facla, v\u0259h\u015fic\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcl\u0259n h\u0259r heyvanla bir d\u0259f\u0259 daha y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131m. Hal\u0131m\u0131 ifad\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259 c\u0259hd etdiyimd\u0259 ya bir etiraz, ya m\u0259nas\u0131z bir s\u00fckut, ya kapitalist bir m\u00fcqayis\u0259 il\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131m. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 c\u0131l\u0131z s\u0259s s\u0259sim\u0259 yolda\u015fl\u0131q etdi. Onlar dae\u015fidilm\u0259kd\u0259n \u00e7ox h\u0259zm edilm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn idi.<\/p>\n

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Q\u0131\u015f deyildim ki, g\u00fcv\u0259ndiyim da\u011flara qar ya\u011fmas\u0131ndan, qu\u015f deyildim ki,qondu\u011fum buda\u011f\u0131n q\u0131r\u0131lmas\u0131ndan qorxmayayd\u0131m. Buda\u011f\u0131m da q\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131 d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259, g\u00fcv\u0259ndiyim da\u011flara da qar ya\u011fd\u0131. D\u0259rdimi b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259y\u0259 dem\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131m o, da m\u0259nd\u0259n d\u0259rdli \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Sonunda “Bir olmaz vaxta \u0259rt\u0259l\u0259dik zaman\u0131.”<\/p>\n

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D\u00fcnyan\u0131n g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n, qarda\u015fl\u0131qdan, sevgid\u0259n, m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259td\u0259n, yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131qdan dan\u0131\u015fmaqdan \u00e7oxdan vaz ke\u00e7dim. H\u0259r \u015feyi anlad\u0131m da ey insano\u011flu, bu az\u011f\u0131n i\u015ftah s\u0259n\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc nec\u0259 unutdurdu? \u00d6l\u00fcml\u00fc oldu\u011funu bil\u0259r\u0259k ya\u015famaq c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m idi, amma \u00f6l\u00fcml\u00fc oldu\u011funu bil\u0259r\u0259k ya\u015fayan t\u0259k canl\u0131 oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259k c\u0259nn\u0259tin deyidimil? Bir g\u00fcl buda\u011f\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131q bir m\u0259zar\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 \u0259yil\u0259rk\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259rin o, q\u0259d\u0259rmi korla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131? Bir m\u0259zar bel\u0259 az sonra \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259rk edil\u0259c\u0259k c\u0259s\u0259di g\u00f6zl\u0259diyinin \u015f\u00fcurunda idi d\u0259 bir s\u0259nmi unutmu\u015fdun?<\/p>\n

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Bu az\u011f\u0131n sel \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xan h\u0259r \u015feyi s\u00fcp\u00fcr\u00fcb aparark\u0259n, qiyam\u0259t sonras\u0131 filml\u0259rinin apokaliptik s\u0259hn\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yir indi g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn d\u0259ydiyi h\u0259r yer. S\u0259nin \u0259s\u0259rin- k\u00f6k\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00a0k\u0259silib, yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerd\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 meyv\u0259 ver\u0259n a\u011faclar, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc diri san\u0131b, h\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k a\u00e7an c\u00fcc\u0259rtil\u0259r. \u00d6n\u00fc k\u0259silmi\u015f sular, yanmas\u0131 laz\u0131m olark\u0259n s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f ocaqlar. He\u00e7mi i\u00e7in s\u0131zlamad\u0131? \u018fhd\u0259 v\u0259fan bu q\u0259d\u0259rdimi? N\u00fcv\u0259, radiasiya, beton, boz, da\u015f. Qu\u015flar qanadlar\u0131ndan alovlan\u0131r, atlar yalmanlar\u0131ndan.<\/p>\n

\u0130nsanl\u0131q? O \u00e7oxdan mutasiyaya u\u011frad\u0131.<\/p>\n

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Qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerd\u0259n davamm\u0131 ed\u0259c\u0259k h\u0259yat? Etm\u0259sin! K\u0259sgin bir q\u0259r\u0259nfil qoxusu ba\u015fdan aya\u011fa b\u00f6ls\u0259 indi bu yaz\u0131n\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn indiki zamanl\u0131 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 inad h\u0259r c\u00fcml\u0259si laz\u0131m \u015f\u0259klinin \u015f\u0259kil\u00e7isi il\u0259 bits\u0259, h\u0259m d\u0259….<\/p>\n

\u0130nsan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u00f6hn\u0259l\u0259rin hekay\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 axtar\u0131r. Ad\u0259min bir insan ad\u0131 olaraq t\u0259msil etdiyi b\u00fct\u00fcn ad\u0259ml\u0259rl\u0259 ortaq olan o yan\u0131n\u0131n f\u0259rqin\u0259 varsaq. Sonra da ad\u0259ml\u0259rin fitr\u0259tiyl\u0259 f\u0259rdliyi, \u00f6zl\u00fcy\u00fcyl\u0259 m\u0259nliyi aras\u0131nda olan m\u0259saf\u0259y\u0259 baxsaq. Ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 bir yerd\u0259 deyil, itirdikl\u0259rimizi orada axtarsaq.<\/p>\n

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Bil\u0259rs\u0259nmi, g\u00fcc\u00fcn insan\u0131 n\u0259 vaxt, hans\u0131 \u015f\u0259rtl\u0259rd\u0259 t\u0259rk ed\u0259c\u0259yi m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n deyil. S\u0259n insano\u011flusan, “Zaman\u0131 Tanr\u0131 ya\u015fay\u0131r, insano\u011fluna qalansa \u00f6lm\u0259kdir.” \u0130nsan bu- \u00a0n\u0259 idi, n\u0259 olaca\u011f\u0131 bilinmir. Unutma, ke\u00e7mi\u015f buraxmaz insan\u0131n yaxas\u0131n\u0131. \u018fn unutdum z\u0259nn etdiyin yerd\u0259 yenid\u0259n ba\u015flar, xat\u0131rladar \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0259n\u0259. Bir g\u00fcn anlayarsan da\u011flar\u0131n, qu\u015flar\u0131n, a\u011faclar\u0131n da s\u0259nin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 haqq\u0131 oldu\u011funu…<\/p>\n

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T\u00fcrkc\u0259d\u0259n uy\u011funla\u015fd\u0131ran Tural Sahab<\/p>\n

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Yaz\u0131ya 717 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u0130\u015fimi, \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yimi, evimi, ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri, \u00f6lk\u0259mi, h\u0259r \u015feyi t\u0259rk ets\u0259m bel\u0259 s\u0259nd\u0259n xilas ola bilm\u0259dim.   Bir x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ng uru kimi qucaqlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131n kainat\u0131n h\u0259r yan\u0131n\u0131. B\u0259zi yerd\u0259 az,b\u0259zi yerd\u0259 \u00e7ox idin. Amma h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 vard\u0131n. \u00c7\u00fcnki bir adam, bir mill\u0259t deyil, bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 \u00a0idin. H\u0259r damara z\u0259h\u0259rli bir \u015fprisin ucundan s\u0131zm\u0131\u015f, h\u0259r b\u0259d\u0259n\u0259 daxil olmu\u015fdun. Cisimin yoxsa […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[18],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7240"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=7240"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7240\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7242,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7240\/revisions\/7242"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=7240"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=7240"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=7240"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}