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Xalq \u015fairi Vaqif S\u0259m\u0259do\u011flunun q\u0131z\u0131 Nigar V\u0259kilova onunla s\u0259mimi s\u00f6hb\u0259t edib… Atan\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131 il\u0259 \u0259n mehriban s\u00f6hb\u0259ti…<\/p>\n

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Bu s\u00f6hb\u0259t bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259mirdim ki, o m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu q\u0259d\u0259r a\u011f\u0131r olacaq. Fiziki olaraq \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 hiss etm\u0259y\u0259n insan\u0131 suallar\u0131mla narahat etm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdim. Bizim \u0259traf\u0131m\u0131zda zaman sabun k\u00f6p\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi v\u0259 m\u0259n sanki o k\u00f6p\u00fcy\u00fcn i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 oturmu\u015fam kimi qorxurdum ki, bu k\u00f6p\u00fck partlayacaq v\u0259 Vaqif S\u0259m\u0259do\u011flu il\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259timiz sona \u00e7atacaq. Dostlar\u0131n\u0131n onu \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi “Vaqulya”dan n\u0259is\u0259 \u00e7ox vacib olan bir \u015feyi soru\u015fmaq imkan\u0131n\u0131n qa\u00e7mas\u0131ndan qorxurdum. Vaqulya… \u00d6z, ya\u015f\u0131na baxmayaraq, o, sosial \u015f\u0259b\u0259k\u0259 v\u0259 forumlar\u0131n aktiv istifad\u0259\u00e7isidir, “Lirik” ad\u0131 alt\u0131nda yaz\u0131r v\u0259 5000-d\u0259n \u00e7ox dostu var. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn dediyi kimi: “\u00c7ay m\u0259clisi qurmaq v\u0259 onlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131 il\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn stadion axtar\u0131ram”.<\/p>\n

– Bils\u0259ydin, nec\u0259 ova getm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Ancaq hardan bil\u0259s\u0259n, ax\u0131 s\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt ovda, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 m\u0259niml\u0259 olmam\u0131san. M\u0259nims\u0259 prinsipim var – ova qad\u0131n v\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259m\u0259k. Eh, proses\u0259 haz\u0131rl\u0131q v\u0259 prosesin \u00f6z\u00fc n\u0259is\u0259 qeyri-adi sirliliy\u0259 ox\u015far bir \u015feydir. Talvar qurmaq v\u0259 ya ki\u00e7ik \u00e7ad\u0131r haz\u0131rlamaq, primus ya da qaz plit\u0259sini yand\u0131rmaq, yem\u0259yi isitm\u0259k, yaxud haz\u0131rlamaq, i\u00e7m\u0259k, y\u00fcng\u00fclvari yem\u0259k v\u0259 uzanmaq. \u0130ndi mobil telefona g\u00f6r\u0259 bununla \u00e7\u0259tindir. T\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr edirs\u0259n, yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n l\u0259zz\u0259tini ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n vaxt arvad z\u0259ng edir: “Tez g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n? Yax\u015f\u0131” (ironiya il\u0259). Ancaq h\u0259rd\u0259n x\u00fcsusil\u0259, yaral\u0131 dov\u015fan\u0131n q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259k \u00e7ox qorxuludur. Ceyran \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f\u0259mmi? Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, \u0259zizim, ancaq prokuror suallar\u0131na m\u0259n cavab vermir\u0259m(g\u00fcl\u00fcr)<\/i>. \u0130ndi m\u0259n\u0259 ov etm\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259 mane olur? N\u0259 ovlayacam?\u00a0(g\u00fcl\u00fcr)<\/i>. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 ki, g\u00fclm\u0259lidir, ancaq m\u0259n\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131m yox, ya\u015fay\u0131\u015f yeri olaraq m\u0259nim b\u0259d\u0259nimi se\u00e7\u0259n x\u0259st\u0259lik mane olur. H\u0259r \u015fey yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r! X\u0259st\u0259lik bar\u0259d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmayaca\u011f\u0131q, s\u00f6z verir\u0259m, narahat olma. Ancaq x\u0259st\u0259 oldu\u011fumu bil\u0259n kimi bilirs\u0259n n\u0259 etdim? Gitara ald\u0131m.. Yad\u0131ndad\u0131r gitarada nec\u0259 ifa edirdim? B\u0259s royalda? \u0130ndi is\u0259 get-ged\u0259 daha da \u00e7\u0259tinl\u0259\u015fir, barmaqlar\u0131m\u0131 hiss etmir\u0259m. Ancaq buna baxmayaraq, bu yax\u0131nlarda ingilis olan kitab\u0131m\u0131n t\u0259qdimat\u0131nda royalda \u0259la ifa etdim. Sad\u0259y\u0259m, el\u0259 deyilmi?\u00a0(g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yir)<\/i><\/p>\n

Sentyabr\u0131n 16-da Az\u0259rbaycan Milli Elml\u0259r Akademiyas\u0131n\u0131n (AMEA) Nizami G\u0259nc\u0259vi ad\u0131na Milli Az\u0259rbaycan \u018fd\u0259biyyat\u0131 Muzeyind\u0259 g\u00f6rk\u0259mli \u0259dib, Xalq \u015eairi, ictimai xadim Vaqif S\u0259m\u0259do\u011flunun 75 illiyin\u0259 h\u0259sr edilmi\u015f \u0259d\u0259bi-b\u0259dii gec\u0259 ke\u00e7irilib. T\u0259dbir \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259sind\u0259 h\u0259m\u00e7inin yubilyar\u0131n ingilis dilind\u0259 n\u0259\u015fr edilmi\u015f \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259n ibar\u0259t toplusunun da t\u0259qdimat\u0131 ke\u00e7irilib. Kitab\u0131n t\u0259rtib\u00e7isi, “Az\u0259rbaycan international” jurnal\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f redaktoru xan\u0131m Betty Blair Vaqif S\u0259m\u0259do\u011flu yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 haqq\u0131nda t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcratlar\u0131n\u0131 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb. Ozaman, h\u0259min gec\u0259 yor\u011funlu\u011fun \u00f6hd\u0259sind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259k, royal arxas\u0131na ke\u00e7dim… \u018fla ifa edir!.
\nT\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u00fc deyil… B\u00fclb\u00fcl ad\u0131na musiqi m\u0259kt\u0259bini bitirdikd\u0259n sonra g\u0259nc Vaqif \u00dczeyir Hac\u0131b\u0259yov ad\u0131na Az\u0259rbaycan D\u00f6vl\u0259t Konservatoriyas\u0131na daxil olur, onu bitirdikd\u0259n sonra Moskva d\u00f6vl\u0259t konservatoriyas\u0131nda uzun t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259 ill\u0259ri ba\u015flad\u0131. Moskvadan Bak\u0131ya qay\u0131td\u0131qdan sonra o, konservatoriyada d\u0259rs deyirdi.<\/i><\/p>\n

\u041f\u0440\u043e\u0439\u0434\u0435\u0442 \u0433\u043e\u0434…
\n\u0421\u0435\u0432 \u0432 \u043e\u0431\u044b\u043a\u043d\u043e\u0432\u0435\u043d\u044b\u0439
\n\u043f\u044f\u0442\u043d\u0430\u0434\u0446\u0430\u0442\u044b\u0439 \u0432\u0430\u0433\u043e\u043d
\n\u041f\u043e\u0435\u0437\u0434\u0430 \u00ab \u041c\u043e\u0441\u043a\u0432\u0430-\u0411\u0430\u043a\u0443\u00bb,
\n\u043f\u043e\u043a\u0430\u0447\u0443 \u043d\u0430 \u044e\u0433.
\n\u0418 \u043d\u0435 \u0441\u0442\u0430\u043d\u0435\u0442 \u0438\u0441\u043a\u0430\u0442\u044c \u043c\u0435\u043d\u044f
\n\u0432 \u041c\u043e\u0441\u043a\u0432\u0435 \u043d\u0438\u043a\u0442\u043e.
\n\u042f \u0436\u0435 \u0432 \u0411\u0430\u043a\u0443 \u0437\u0430\u0431\u0435\u0440\u0443 \u0441 \u0441\u043e\u0431\u043e\u0439
\n\u0436\u0435\u043b\u0442\u0443\u044e \u0434\u0432\u0435\u0440\u044c \u044d\u0442\u043e\u0433\u043e \u043e\u0431\u0449\u0435\u0436\u0438\u0442\u0438\u044f,
\n\u0445\u043e\u0440\u043e\u0448\u0438\u0435,\u043f\u043b\u043e\u0445\u0438\u0435 \u0443\u043b\u0438\u0446\u044b.
\n\u0412\u043e\u0437\u0434\u0443\u0445 \u043c\u043e\u0435\u0439 \u0442\u0435\u0441\u043d\u043e\u0439 \u043a\u043e\u043c\u043d\u0430\u0442\u0443\u0448\u043a\u0438,
\n\u043d\u043e\u043f\u043e\u043b\u043d\u0435\u043d\u043d\u043e\u0439 \u0442\u0432\u043e\u0435\u0439 \u0443\u043b\u044b\u0431\u043a\u043e\u0439,
\n\u043c\u043e\u044e \u0431\u0430\u043a\u0438\u043d\u0441\u043a\u0443\u044e \u043c\u0435\u0447\u0442\u0443- \u041c\u043e\u0441\u043a\u0432\u0443.<\/i><\/p>\n

– H\u0259… Qocal\u0131q, qocal\u0131q… Yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, cavan vaxt\u0131 bir d\u0259f\u0259 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 \u0259fsan\u0259vi, ancaq art\u0131q ya\u015fl\u0131 xan\u0259nd\u0259 Xan \u015eu\u015finskiy\u0259 rast g\u0259ldim. Ona yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m, salamla\u015fd\u0131m v\u0259 soru\u015fdum: i\u015fl\u0259r nec\u0259dir, o g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259z bir cavab verdi: \u0259clafl\u0131q qocal\u0131qdan yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. Yax\u015f\u0131 g\u0259l, davam ed\u0259k.<\/p>\n

– Deyirl\u0259r ki, t\u0259bi\u0259t dahil\u0259rin u\u015faqlar\u0131 il\u0259 istirah\u0259t edir. Ancaq bu halda \u0259ksin\u0259 ba\u015f verdi. S\u0259n xalq \u015fairinin o\u011flusan, \u00f6z yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131q yolunu \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k a\u011f\u0131r deyildimi?<\/i><\/strong>
\n– Xo\u015fb\u0259xtlikd\u0259n t\u0259bi\u0259t he\u00e7 vaxt istirah\u0259t etmir. El\u0259 insan\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yi d\u0259… O, istirah\u0259t \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dayansa, bizim sonumuzdur. M\u0259n t\u0259bi\u0259td\u0259n bic oldum v\u0259 poeziyada atam\u0131 t\u0259krarlamad\u0131m. \u00d6z yolumu se\u00e7dim. Y\u0259qin ki, el\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259, Vaqif S\u0259m\u0259do\u011flu oldum. \u018fks halda, \u0259d\u0259biyyatda he\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259 nail olmazd\u0131m. Y\u0259qin ki, hans\u0131sa restoranda fortepianoda caz ifa edirdim.\u00a0El\u0259 bird\u0259f\u0259lik caz x\u0259st\u0259liyin\u0259 tutuldum.<\/p>\n

Vaxt vard\u0131 ki, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 il \u0259rzind\u0259 yerli televiziyada “Caz h\u0259v\u0259skarlar\u0131 klubu” verili\u015fini apar\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fmin\u0259m – musiqini se\u00e7s\u0259ydi, o istedadl\u0131 piano\u00e7u, cazmen qala bil\u0259rdi. Ancaq zaman b\u00fct\u00fcn suallara cavab verir. Zaman ona cavab verdi ki, yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q musiqi\u00e7i olmaqdansa, musiqi il\u0259 ya\u015famaq daha yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131. Se\u00e7im \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131n xeyrin\u0259 edildi.<\/i><\/p>\n

– O vaxt, 50-ci ill\u0259rd\u0259 caz qada\u011fan olunmu\u015f musiqi idi, Bak\u0131 da ke\u00e7mi\u015f \u0130ttifaqda orijinal – Amerika caz\u0131n\u0131 etalon hesab edirdi. Rafiq Babayev o zaman \u0259sl Amerika caz\u0131 ifa\u00e7\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131. Biz kinofilml\u0259r \u0259sas\u0131nda caz ifa etm\u0259yi \u00f6yr\u0259nirdik, bizim ham\u0131m\u0131zda caz ifalar\u0131 olan plastinkalar var idi. B\u0259z\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 dostum Vaqif Mustafazad\u0259 il\u0259 eyni film\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131q. Sonra onlar\u0131n v\u0259 ya bizim evimiz\u0259 vaxt itirm\u0259d\u0259n yadda qalan melodiyan\u0131 ifa etm\u0259y\u0259 qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131q. Vaqifl\u0259 biz eyni m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 oxuyurduq v\u0259 az adam bilir ki, cazdan \u0259lav\u0259, Vaqif \u0259la meyxana deyirdi. Biz – m\u0259n, Vaqif, dostum v\u0259 \u015fair Rafiq Z\u0259ka Sabir ba\u011f\u0131nda \u00f6z meyxana dem\u0259k bacar\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 n\u00fcmayi\u015f edirdik. Daha sonra is\u0259 sifari\u015fl\u0259ri il\u0259 bunu etdiyimiz qala “avtoritetl\u0259ri” biz\u0259 kinoya, dondurmaya, piroqa pul verirdil\u0259r. H\u0259min Vaqif bizi m\u0259\u015fhur alver\u00e7il\u0259r – Xiyar v\u0259 Ya\u015farla tan\u0131\u015f etmi\u015fdi. G\u00fclm\u0259! Bu u\u015faqlar \u0259sl stilyaqa idil\u0259r v\u0259 biz\u0259 d\u0259 stilli g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k edirdil\u0259r – “de\u015fikli \u00e7\u0259km\u0259l\u0259r”, \u0259lav\u0259 cibli m\u00fctl\u0259q 4 d\u00fcym\u0259li g\u00f6z\u0259l k\u00f6yn\u0259kl\u0259r, parlaq r\u0259ngli geni\u015f qalstuklar. R\u0259ngl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bu qalstuklar\u0131 “c\u0259ng\u0259llikd\u0259 yan\u011f\u0131n” adland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131lar.
\nBax, m\u0259ni d\u0259 xatir\u0259l\u0259r ke\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259 apard\u0131. B\u0259z\u0259n m\u0259ni qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131n, d\u0259rdin, x\u0259st\u0259liyin olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ora qay\u0131tmaq hissi b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcr. Fioletov k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259si, 6-da olan do\u011fma d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259y\u0259, valideynl\u0259rimin cavan, canl\u0131 v\u0259 sa\u011flam oldu\u011fu xo\u015fb\u0259xt d\u00fcnyaya d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Yeri g\u0259lmi\u015fk\u0259n, atam he\u00e7 vaxt bizim i\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131. B\u0259li, o, m\u0259nim v\u0259 qarda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n stilli g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 fikir verirdi v\u0259 y\u0259qin ki, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, biz qada\u011fan olunmu\u015f musiqiy\u0259 qulaq as\u0131r\u0131q, ancaq bu bar\u0259d\u0259 naraz\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt ifad\u0259 etmirdi.<\/p>\n

\"vaqif<\/p>\n

Ata… O, rus dilini \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 bilirdi. Y\u00fcng\u00fcl l\u0259hc\u0259 il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. SSR\u0130 yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n ikinci qurultay\u0131nda he\u00e7 kimin k\u00f6m\u0259yind\u0259n istifad\u0259 etm\u0259d\u0259n yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 poeziya bar\u0259sind\u0259 m\u0259ruz\u0259 etdi. Anam is\u0259 \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l v\u0259 a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 qad\u0131n idi. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 ma\u011fazaya gir\u0259nd\u0259 oradan \u00e7\u0131xan qad\u0131n ona dedi:
\n– M\u0259nim yolumu niy\u0259 k\u0259sirsiniz?
\n– M\u0259n s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qara pi\u015fik deyil\u0259m, S\u0259m\u0259d Vur\u011funun arvad\u0131yam! – anam dedi.
\nBilirs\u0259n xatir\u0259l\u0259rin g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi n\u0259d\u0259dir? Onlar\u0131n \u0259l\u00e7atmazl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda…<\/p>\n

Bir k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 var \u015f\u0259h\u0259rimd\u0259,
\nsakit, q\u0131sa bir k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259…
\nYetmi\u015f add\u0131m o yana,
\nyetmi\u015f add\u0131m bu yana.
\nBir siqaret
\no yana,
\nbir siqaret
\nbu yana…<\/i><\/p>\n

– Vaqif S\u0259m\u0259do\u011flunun \u015feirl\u0259ri… Onlar el\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l v\u0259 h\u0259rd\u0259n el\u0259 a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131rlar ki, m\u0259n onlar\u0131 e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 v\u0259 ya yaln\u0131zl\u0131qda oxuyanda sanki yun \u015falla \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fc \u00f6rt\u00fcrl\u0259r. Yaln\u0131zl\u0131q h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u00f6vcud olub v\u0259 bu o dem\u0259kdir ki o laz\u0131md\u0131r?\u00a0<\/i><\/strong>
\n– D\u00fcnya b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fcr, \u0259zizim m\u0259nim, ancaq b\u0259z\u0259n oturma\u011fa, istirah\u0259t etm\u0259y\u0259 yer tap\u0131lm\u0131r. Bilirs\u0259n, m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, \u0259n qorxulu yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 u\u015faqlar hiss edirl\u0259r. Yeri g\u0259lmi\u015fk\u0259n, \u00f6z u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131za tez-tez onlara olan sevginiz bar\u0259d\u0259 dem\u0259lisiniz. \u0130nsan t\u0259k olanda da \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 birlikd\u0259dir, yaln\u0131z deyil. Yarad\u0131c\u0131 adamlara, x\u00fcsusil\u0259 yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lara, yaln\u0131zl\u0131q laz\u0131md\u0131r. O, onun m\u00f6vcudlu\u011funun areal\u0131d\u0131r, \u00f6z d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 yuvas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xma zaman\u0131, xatir\u0259l\u0259r, s\u00f6zl\u0259r, s\u0259sl\u0259r v\u0259 obrazlar\u0131d\u0131r. \u018fsas odur ki, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc itirm\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc itir\u0259r\u0259k, biz bir-birimizi tapa bil\u0259rik.\u00a0H\u0259r k\u0259sin \u00f6z yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 var v\u0259 he\u00e7 k\u0259sin yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259qiq t\u0259sviri yoxdur – o, r\u0259q\u0259ml\u0259rl\u0259 ni\u015fanlanmay\u0131b, onun formulas\u0131 yoxdur, dem\u0259k ki, h\u0259lli d\u0259 yoxdur.<\/span><\/p>\n

Telefon n\u00f6mr\u0259l\u0259ri
\nox\u015famaz bir- birin\u0259.
\nAmma ham\u0131s\u0131nda
\ninsan s\u0259si.
\nPis g\u00fcnl\u0259r
\nox\u015famaz bir-birin\u0259:
\nbirind\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn susarsan,
\nbirind\u0259 telefon.<\/i><\/p>\n

\"vaqif<\/i><\/p>\n

– B\u0259s sevgi?\u00a0<\/i><\/strong>
\n– Sevgi… Onun da he\u00e7 bir fiziki v\u0259 ya tibbi \u0259sas\u0131 yoxdur. Sevginin g\u00fcc\u00fc s\u0259ni yaln\u0131zl\u0131qdan azad etm\u0259kd\u0259dir. Y\u0259ni, \u0259g\u0259r sevirs\u0259ns\u0259, sevilirs\u0259n d\u0259. Bel\u0259 deyils\u0259, onda zaman birg\u0259 yaln\u0131zl\u0131qd\u0131r v\u0259 ondan azad olmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r. \u0130ll\u00fcziyalar laz\u0131m deyil, sad\u0259c\u0259 getm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. Bu d\u00fcnyada b\u00fct\u00fcn ayr\u0131l\u0131qlar “Salam” s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n ba\u015flay\u0131r”. \u018fg\u0259r ail\u0259d\u0259 sevgi yox olursa, burada t\u0259k bir \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f var – da\u011f\u0131l\u0131\u015fmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r… B\u0259z\u0259n bu q\u0259rar\u0131 q\u0259bul etm\u0259k \u0259zab verir, ancaq Tanr\u0131 il\u0259 ayr\u0131l\u0131q daha pis ola bil\u0259r. Ancaq yad\u0131nda saxla – ehtirasl\u0131 sevgi tez s\u00f6n\u0259n alovdur. Sevgi alovsuz yanmal\u0131d\u0131r v\u0259 s\u00f6nm\u0259m\u0259si v\u0259 bo\u011fulmamas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn daimi oksigen \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f\u0131 olmal\u0131d\u0131r. T\u0259miz hava il\u0259 is\u0259 indi h\u0259r yerd\u0259 problem var. \u0130ndi h\u0259tta sevginin d\u0259 ekologiyas\u0131 \u00e7irkl\u0259ndirilib.<\/p>\n

\u041c\u043e\u0436\u0435\u0442,
\n\u0417\u0430\u0445\u043e\u0447\u0435\u0448\u044c \u043c\u043d\u0435 \u043d\u0430\u043f\u0438\u0441\u0430\u0442\u044c,
\n\u0412\u043e\u0442 \u043e\u043d- \u043c\u043e\u0439 \u0430\u0434\u0440\u0435\u0441:
\n\u041c\u043e\u0441\u043a\u0432\u0430,\u041a-9,
\n\u0414\u043e \u0432\u043e\u0441\u0442\u0440\u0435\u0431\u043e\u0432\u0430\u043d\u0438\u044f,
\n\u0421\u0430\u043c\u043e\u043c\u0443 \u043d\u0435\u0441\u0447\u0430\u0441\u0442\u043d\u043e\u043c\u0443.
\n\u0422\u044b\u0441\u044f\u0447\u0438 \u0440\u0443\u043a
\n\u0421\u043a\u0432\u043e\u0437\u044c \u0443\u0437\u043a\u043e\u0435 \u043f\u043e\u0447\u0442\u043e\u0432\u043e\u0435 \u043e\u043a\u043e\u0448\u043a\u043e
\n\u041f\u043e\u0442\u044f\u043d\u0443\u0442\u0441\u044f \u043a \u043f\u0438\u0441\u044c\u043c\u0443 \u0442\u0432\u043e\u0435\u043c\u0443.
\n…\u0418 \u043c\u0435\u0436 \u043d\u0438\u0445 \u043d\u0435 \u0442\u0430\u043a \u043e\u0434\u0438\u043d\u043e\u043a\u0430
\n\u0411\u0443\u0434\u0435\u0442 \u043c\u043e\u044f \u0440\u0443\u043a\u0430..<\/i>.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rim jurnal stoluna sata\u015f\u0131r, onun \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 s\u0259liq\u0259li \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 \u00e7oxlu al\u0131\u015fqanlar, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 k\u00fclqab\u0131, ucu iti yonulmu\u015f karanda\u015flar, t\u0259sbehl\u0259r yerl\u0259\u015fdirilib. Ota\u011f\u0131n k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259 gitaralar, portsiqarlar var. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bel\u0259 olub. Ancaq n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 m\u0259hz indi bu m\u0259ni maraqland\u0131rd\u0131 – n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn?<\/i><\/strong>
\n– N\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn? Ad\u0259td\u0259n, ya da sad\u0259c\u0259 ist\u0259kd\u0259n. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r ancaq bir al\u0131\u015fqandan istifad\u0259 edirdim, indi onlardan \u00e7oxdu. T\u0259k bu stolun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 5 d\u0259n\u0259si var. T\u0259sbehl\u0259r g\u00f6r, nec\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ldirl\u0259r, h\u0259r bir \u0259hval-ruhiyy\u0259y\u0259 uy\u011fun. Bu yax\u0131nlarda \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259 pulqab\u0131 ald\u0131m. T\u0259z\u0259 ad\u0259tim peyda olub – 50 q\u0259piklikl\u0259r toplamaq, sonra onlar\u0131 sevdiyim insanlara verm\u0259k. Q\u0259rib\u0259dir, h\u0259? Amma m\u0259nim xo\u015fuma g\u0259lir. Bax, indi onlardan s\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 etm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m. G\u00f6t\u00fcr v\u0259 m\u00fcbahis\u0259 el\u0259m\u0259!<\/p>\n

– \u00c7ox sa\u011f ol. B\u0259s \u00f6z\u00fcn m\u00fcbahis\u0259 edirs\u0259n?<\/i><\/strong><\/p>\n

– Yox m\u0259nim \u0259zizim, n\u0259y\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r ax\u0131? M\u00fcbahis\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n\u00e7ilik yaran\u0131r. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7oxdand\u0131r ki, \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 kiml\u0259 m\u00fcbahis\u0259 etmir\u0259m. H\u0259ms\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rim anlay\u0131\u015fl\u0131 insanlard\u0131r, s\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 bunu arzu edir\u0259m. H\u0259tta dostum var ki, saatlarla susaraq, s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259 bilir\u0259m. Bilirs\u0259n, d\u00fcnyada el\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r var ki, onlar bar\u0259sind\u0259 h\u0259tta \u00f6z\u00fcnl\u0259 bel\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmamal\u0131san. \u0130lk n\u00f6vb\u0259d\u0259 \u0259l\u00e7atmayan ist\u0259kl\u0259r. N\u0259 m\u0259nas\u0131 var ax\u0131? Arzulamaq olar, ancaq o da q\u0259d\u0259rind\u0259. Bilm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r ki, s\u0259nd\u0259 al\u0131nacaq. M\u0259n \u00e7oxdan \u00f6z ist\u0259kl\u0259rim v\u0259 imkanlar\u0131m aras\u0131nda d\u0259qiq s\u0259rh\u0259d qoymu\u015fam, onlar\u0131 pozmuram. Bunun m\u0259\u011flubiyy\u0259t oldu\u011funu hesab edirs\u0259n? H\u0259, n\u0259 olsun? Yax\u015f\u0131,qoy bu m\u0259nim m\u0259\u011flubiyy\u0259tim olsun, b\u0259s onda qalib kimdir? Tanr\u0131ya uduzmaq ay\u0131b deyil.<\/p>\n

– H\u0259yatda n\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fib?<\/i><\/strong><\/p>\n

– Ba\u015f\u0131m qardan a\u011f olub. \u0130ll\u0259r ke\u00e7dikc\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131ma bel\u0259 bir d\u0259rd g\u0259ldi – cavablar\u0131n say\u0131 azald\u0131, onlardan b\u0259zil\u0259ri yox oldu, ancaq eyni zamanda d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t \u00e7oxlu sayda suallar yarand\u0131. \u0130ndi \u00f6z h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131 suallar\u0131n c\u0259ng\u0259lliyind\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131ram. Orada he\u00e7 kim s\u0259n\u0259 cavab demir, he\u00e7 kim s\u0259nin \u0259lind\u0259n tutub, i\u015f\u0131\u011fa do\u011fru aparmayacaq. Cavanl\u0131qda m\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259st\u0259k olan, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00fccl\u00fc hiss etm\u0259yim\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b olan cavablar – heyif ki, onlar yoxdur. B\u00fct\u00f6v triumf! Suallar\u0131n tam q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259si! V\u0259 indi m\u0259n sonsuz suallarla qar\u015f\u0131-qar\u015f\u0131ya qalm\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n

– \u0130nsanlarda ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259diyin n\u0259is\u0259 varm\u0131?<\/i><\/strong>
\n– K\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259nm\u0259yi bacarmamalar\u0131 v\u0259 qaranl\u0131\u011fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n kimi kibrit yand\u0131rmaq ad\u0259ti. Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ill\u0259rin y\u00fcks\u0259kliyind\u0259n dey\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m ki, t\u0259bi\u0259td\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 daha asan v\u0259 ayd\u0131n olma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131r. \u018fksin\u0259. \u00d6z h\u0259yat\u0131n, ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015f ill\u0259r v\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259r bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rk\u0259n bel\u0259 sual yaran\u0131r: – \u0130lahi, o n\u0259 idi?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, o bir az yorulub v\u0259 ona h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n \u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xt g\u00fcn\u00fc bar\u0259d\u0259 son sual\u0131 verm\u0259k q\u0259rar\u0131 verdim.\u00a0<\/i>
\n– El\u0259 bir g\u00fcn olmay\u0131b! Xo\u015fb\u0259xt g\u00fcn h\u0259ddind\u0259n \u00e7oxdur. Sevinc, u\u011fur anlar\u0131 olur. Daimi xo\u015fb\u0259xtlikd\u0259 olmaq a\u011f\u0131r, psixi nasazl\u0131qd\u0131r. \u018fzizim, bir az yoruldum, g\u0259l m\u0259n bir az istirah\u0259t edim, sonra yen\u0259 dan\u0131\u015far\u0131q, olar?<\/p>\n

Bitdi! M\u0259nim sabun k\u00f6p\u00fcy\u00fcm partlad\u0131, s\u00f6hb\u0259timizin sakitliyi sona \u00e7atd\u0131. \u00c7\u0131qq\u0131lt\u0131 v\u0259 sankti lenti geri \u00e7evirdil\u0259r v\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey starta qay\u0131td\u0131. Daha sonra biz bir q\u0259d\u0259r daha oturduq, onun evind\u0259 i\u00e7m\u0259yi sevdiyim \u0259tirli t\u00fcnd \u00e7ay i\u00e7dik, s\u00f6hb\u0259t etdik v\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fck. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259rim onun dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qlar\u0131ndan daha \u00e7ox maraql\u0131 \u015feyi qeyd ed\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259k diktofona d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Ancaq m\u0259n bunu etmirdim, bu he\u00e7 kimin he\u00e7 vaxt doldura bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yi xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik anlar\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 kiml\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdim. M\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 edil\u0259n q\u0259pikl\u0259ri is\u0259 m\u00fctl\u0259q evd\u0259 ki\u00e7ik bir qutuya qoyacaq, ola bil\u0259r, allah qoysa, s\u0259nin ya\u015f\u0131nda olanda m\u0259n d\u0259 onlar\u0131 \u00f6z sevimli insanlar\u0131ma h\u0259diyy\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n

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Xalq \u015fairi Vaqif S\u0259m\u0259do\u011flunun q\u0131z\u0131 Nigar V\u0259kilova onunla s\u0259mimi s\u00f6hb\u0259t edib… Atan\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131 il\u0259 \u0259n mehriban s\u00f6hb\u0259ti… Bu s\u00f6hb\u0259t bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259mirdim ki, o m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu q\u0259d\u0259r a\u011f\u0131r olacaq. Fiziki olaraq \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 hiss etm\u0259y\u0259n insan\u0131 suallar\u0131mla narahat etm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdim. Bizim \u0259traf\u0131m\u0131zda zaman sabun k\u00f6p\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi v\u0259 m\u0259n sanki o k\u00f6p\u00fcy\u00fcn i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 oturmu\u015fam […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3,21],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7341"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=7341"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7341\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7343,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7341\/revisions\/7343"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=7341"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=7341"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=7341"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}