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\u00dcz-\u00fcz\u0259 dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. N\u00f6vb\u0259ti stansiya \u201cUlduz\u201d. \u018fmin\u0259m ki, burda enm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Bu \u00fcrk\u0259k bax\u0131\u015flar v\u0259 bu ilahi g\u00f6z\u0259llik xarabal\u0131qlar\u0131n b\u00f6y\u00fctd\u00fcy\u00fc mavi d\u0259nizli na\u011f\u0131llar\u0131n \u015e\u0259hzad\u0259sin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259mirdi. Ulduz satnsiyas\u0131 is\u0259 ba\u015fdan – ba\u015fa xarabal\u0131qdan ibar\u0259tdir. \u018fn az\u0131ndan geyindiyi bahal\u0131 paltarlar bunu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 \u0259sas verir. U\u015faqsayaq, qorxu dolu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259nd\u0259n ay\u0131rmamas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn saatlarca yalvarmaq olar inanc\u0131na, amma Bak\u0131 metro stansiyalar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda c\u0259mi iki \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259qiq\u0259 vaxt f\u0259rqi olur. Bu yeralt\u0131 ke\u00e7idd\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259n d\u0259mir par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259, \u0259n \u0259sas da s\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131nda qara sa\u00e7l\u0131, qara g\u00f6zl\u00fc b\u0259mb\u0259yaz bir g\u00f6z\u0259llik dayan\u0131bsa, b\u00fct\u00fcn hissl\u0259rinl\u0259 Tanr\u0131ya yalvarm\u0131\u015f kimi olursan bir anl\u0131\u011fa. D\u00fcnyadan g\u0259lib ke\u00e7mi\u015f he\u00e7 bir r\u0259ssam\u0131n t\u0259ss\u0259vv\u00fcr\u00fc bu q\u0259d\u0259r m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m ola bilm\u0259zdi. \u018fn inc\u0259 barmaqlar\u0131n uzun ill\u0259rl\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yib haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259n inci nax\u0131\u015flar bel\u0259 onun kiprikl\u0259ri q\u0259d\u0259r valeh ed\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi bir insan\u0131. V\u0259 ani g\u00f6z q\u0131rp\u0131m\u0131nda o c\u0259nn\u0259t \u00e7\u0259p\u0259rin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259r kiprikl\u0259rin aras\u0131ndan gec\u0259l\u0259rin \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc and\u0131ran qara g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin ild\u0131r\u0131m s\u00fcr\u0259ti il\u0259 s\u0259ni s\u00fczm\u0259si, ve bir anda m\u00fck\u0259mm\u0259l qa\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fcz\u0259r\u0259k bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fqa yer\u0259 tu\u015flamas\u0131nda anlay\u0131rsan ki, d\u00fcnyadaki b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00f6z\u0259l s\u00f6zl\u0259ri\u00a0 bir araya g\u0259tirs\u0259n d\u0259 qad\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259lliyini s\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259ff\u00fcz etm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil.<\/p>\n

\u201cQap\u0131lar ba\u011flan\u0131r n\u00f6vb\u0259ti stansiya Q.Qarayev\u201d. Zaman\u0131n nec\u0259 ke\u00e7diyinin f\u0259rqin\u0259 varmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z anlar, \u0259slind\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u0259n \u00e7ox anlam da\u015f\u0131yan par\u00e7as\u0131d\u0131r. Ke\u00e7\u0259n be\u015f ya alt\u0131 d\u0259qiq\u0259 \u0259slind\u0259 uzun zaman deyildi. Amma h\u0259min o g\u00f6z\u0259l hissl\u0259rin ya\u015fand\u0131\u011f\u0131 vaxt alt\u0131 saniy\u0259 kimi g\u0259lib ke\u00e7di. Bel\u0259 zamanlarda insana n\u0259yis\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259yi, hans\u0131sa q\u0259rarlar\u0131 q\u0259bul etm\u0259yi unutdurur yarad\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi. Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259; bir andaca duy\u011fular\u0131n\u0131n k\u00f6l\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7evrilirs\u0259n. N\u0259 onu, n\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259trafdak\u0131 kims\u0259l\u0259ri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n. Bir an\u0131n, bir insan\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na susma\u011f\u0131 bacar\u0131rsan. Susmaq h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n \u00f6nd\u0259 g\u0259lir b\u0259z\u0259n. Dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n v\u0259 ya dan\u0131\u015facaqlar\u0131n\u0131n bir anlam\u0131, bir \u00fcmidi yoxdursa susmaq \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l m\u0259nalar\u0131 da\u015f\u0131y\u0131r. Amma m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 he\u00e7 d\u0259 bunlar deyil. S\u0259n\u0259 veril\u0259n \u00d6mr\u00fcn zaman\u0131ndan o\u011furlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n ki\u00e7ik vaxt \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259si n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259l v\u0259 m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m olsa da, sanki, qar\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131 m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259ni izl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k reall\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u00fczg\u00fcs\u00fc il\u0259 g\u00f6z g\u00f6z\u0259 dayan\u0131rsan. Q\u0131sa vaxt k\u0259siyind\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn, ad\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 bilm\u0259diyin o ilahi g\u00f6z\u0259lliyin bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 n\u00f6vb\u0259ti stansiyalar\u0131n birind\u0259 s\u0259ni t\u0259rk ed\u0259c\u0259k. S\u0259ns\u0259 acizliyinl\u0259 d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015f\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. Onunla birlikd\u0259 enib, yan\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b bir s\u00f6z, c\u0259mi birc\u0259 s\u00f6z s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00fcc\u00fcn yetm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. \u00c7\u00fcnki, dey\u0259c\u0259yin s\u00f6z\u00fcn bir \u00fcmidi, bir g\u00fcv\u0259ni yoxdur. G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin h\u0259r g\u00fcn bir k\u00f6\u015f\u0259d\u0259n parlay\u0131b, dig\u0259r k\u00f6\u015f\u0259d\u0259 batmas\u0131n\u0131, Pay\u0131zda yarpaqlar\u0131n t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u0259sini h\u0259r yeni-yeni b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259n u\u015fa\u011fa inand\u0131rmaq olar. Ancaq bir insana arxas\u0131nda \u00fcmidsizlik dayanan \u0259n m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m s\u00f6zl\u0259ri bel\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259s\u0259n nafil\u0259dir. B\u0259z\u0259n \u00e7ar\u0259sizliyin s\u0259n\u0259 ya\u015fatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 duy\u011fularla kifay\u0259tl\u0259n\u0259r\u0259k susmaq zorunda qal\u0131rsan. V\u0259 s\u0259ninl\u0259 biraz daha uzun yol getm\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yalvar\u0131rsan. Onu biraz daha \u00e7ox izl\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn inanclar\u0131n\u0131 bir araya g\u0259tirib yalvar\u0131rsan.<\/p>\n

N\u00f6vb\u0259ti stansiya yalvar\u0131\u015flar\u0131n s\u0259sind\u0259n ba\u011flanan qap\u0131lar. \u201cNeft\u00e7il\u0259r\u201d. \u0130ndi T\u0259bi\u0259tin \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00fczg\u00fcs\u00fc il\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131-qar\u015f\u0131ya dayanm\u0131\u015fam. \u018fn bahal\u0131 \u0259tirl\u0259rin qoxusu m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u0259sir. Ya\u015fanan b\u00fct\u00fcn bu g\u00f6z\u0259llikl\u0259rin \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 bird\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l qoxu ve c\u0259nn\u0259tin a\u011fr\u0131 dolu, ac\u0131mas\u0131z t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259ri \u201creall\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u00fczg\u00fcs\u00fc\u201d dan\u0131\u015faca\u011f\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u00f6zl\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7ar\u0259sizlik g\u0259tirib. Qara sa\u00e7lar\u0131n alt\u0131nda gizl\u0259ndiyi kap\u00fc\u015fonlu palto, y\u0259qinki Bak\u0131n\u0131n \u0259n bhal\u0131 pa\u0131tar d\u00fckanlar\u0131n\u0131n birind\u0259n, \u0259n bahal\u0131 qiym\u0259t\u0259 al\u0131nm\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259ns\u0259 \u0259n ucuz d\u00fckanlar\u0131n birind\u0259n, \u0259n bahal\u0131s\u0131n\u0131, \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 se\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Aya\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 botikl\u0259r\u00a0 \u201cm\u0259n 100 azn – \u0259m\u201d dey\u0259rdi b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 dili olsa. M\u0259ns\u0259 n\u00f6vb\u0259ti sdipendiyam\u0131n g\u0259lm\u0259sini g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim. G\u0259r\u00e7i bu ay ad g\u00fcnl\u0259ri \u00e7ox olmu\u015fdu. Onun \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm, mutluluq, h\u0259yat e\u015fqi \u0259trafa i\u015f\u0131q sa\u00e7ark\u0259n, m\u0259nims\u0259 kirli saqqal\u0131m\u0131n k\u0259d\u0259ri insanlar\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yorurdu. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saniy\u0259 hissl\u0259rim\u0259 ara verib, onun do\u011fmalar\u0131n\u0131n, \u0259traf\u0131ndaki insanlar\u0131n onu h\u0259r g\u00fcn sevm\u0259sini, \u0259zizl\u0259m\u0259sini, \u015firin \u015firin qay\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259sini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. H\u0259yatda xo\u015fb\u0259xt insanlar da varm\u0131\u015f. O \u0259n yeni paltarlar\u0131n\u0131 geyinib n\u00f6vb\u0259ti a\u00e7\u0131lan s\u0259h\u0259ri daha nec\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l ya\u015famaq dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rk\u0259n, m\u0259ns\u0259 gic gic \u015feirl\u0259r yaz\u0131ram. Onu qar\u015f\u0131dan g\u0259l\u0259n yeni ili hans\u0131 \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259 ke\u00e7irs\u0259m daha maraql\u0131 olar sual\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u0259rk\u0259n, m\u0259ns\u0259 heyat\u0131n\u0131 uduzmu\u015f insanalara m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t d\u0259rsl\u0259ri ke\u00e7ir\u0259m. He\u00e7 bir u\u011furu olmayan, b\u00fct\u00fcn heyat\u0131n\u0131 uduzmu\u015f insanlar bo\u015fbo\u011fazl\u0131qdan yararlanar. T\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki dualar v\u0259 yalvar\u0131\u015flar reall\u0131\u011f\u0131n qanunlar\u0131 il\u0259 \u00f6d\u0259\u015fmir. Qap\u0131lar ba\u011flan\u0131r v\u0259 o ilahi g\u00f6z\u0259llik qap\u0131n\u0131n o biri t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 \u00f6z evin\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f add\u0131mlama\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131r. V\u0259 s\u0259nin h\u0259yat d\u0259ft\u0259r\u00e7\u0259n\u0259 \u201cXalqlar dostlu\u011fu\u201d adl\u0131 ayr\u0131l\u0131q duy\u011fular\u0131 yaz\u0131l\u0131r. Ayaqlar\u0131ma h\u00f6km etm\u0259y\u0259, birc\u0259 add\u0131m atma\u011fa g\u00fcc\u00fcm yetm\u0259di. Bacarmad\u0131m. \u00c7\u00fcnki, s\u00f6zl\u0259rimin ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 yer, \u00fcmidl\u0259rin t\u00fck\u0259ndiyi yer idi. \u00c7\u00fcnki, m\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259; g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 yor\u011funluq g\u0259zdir\u0259n, kirli saqqal\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan, \u0259zik-b\u00fcz\u00fck paltarlardan t\u0259rz yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259n bir b\u0259db\u0259xt yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b sabahlar\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00fcmidsiz bir s\u00f6z toplusu yaratm\u0131\u015f olsayd\u0131, m\u0259nd\u0259 biraz \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015f\u0259r v\u0259 biraz da g\u00fcl\u0259rdim.<\/p>\n

\u201cCavan o\u011flan, cavan o\u011flan sonuncu stansiyad\u0131r\u201d. Polis zabitini g\u00f6r\u0259rk\u0259n, hans\u0131sa yanl\u0131\u015f h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t etdiyimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb qorxmu\u015fdum. Ax\u0131 kas\u0131blar\u0131n cinay\u0259ti daha a\u011fr\u0131l\u0131 v\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r olur. Metro \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f\u0131nda k\u00fcl\u0259k b\u0259han\u0259siyl\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 sl yerin\u0259 ax\u0131tmaq, ill\u0259rl\u0259 i\u00e7im\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131lan k\u0259d\u0259ri atmaq ist\u0259rk\u0259n k\u0259nardak\u0131 insanlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb biraz daha q\u00fcrur g\u00f6st\u0259rirs\u0259n. V\u0259 he\u00e7 bir \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259ti olmayan bu hekay\u0259ni yazmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn eve, \u00f6z ota\u011f\u0131na t\u0259l\u0259sirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

\u201cV\u0259 \u0259n sonuncu stansiya acizliyini ka\u011f\u0131zlara k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrm\u0131kdir\u201d. Yeri g\u0259lmi\u015fk\u0259n dostumla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u0259n g\u0259lirdim. O m\u0259n\u0259 yeni yeni u\u011furlar\u0131ndan ve g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k karyeras\u0131ndan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259ns\u0259 yeni yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015feirl\u0259ri oxumu\u015fdum. Sonra uzun-uzun d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdik. Maraql\u0131 g\u00fcn idi, amma n\u0259ys\u0259.. On ya\u015fl\u0131 bacim q\u0131z\u0131 qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131 v\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259 yan\u0131ma g\u0259ldi. M\u0259ni sual at\u0259\u015fin\u0259 tutma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.
\n– Niy\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n kimi ota\u011fa ke\u00e7din? He\u00e7 \u0259ynini d\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259mis\u0259n.
\n– Biraz i\u015fim var. Get, g\u0259lir\u0259m.
\n– yoo, yoo.. \u0259vv\u0259l suallar\u0131ma cavab ver \u2013 dedi, \u015firin yanaqlar\u0131nda t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259
\n– h\u0259, e\u015fidir\u0259m.
\n– N\u0259 yaz\u0131rsan? Bu birinci sual\u0131m.
\n– Hekay\u0259
\n– O s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 qazand\u0131racaq?<\/p>\n

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