{"id":7546,"date":"2014-12-25T22:26:53","date_gmt":"2014-12-25T18:26:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=7546"},"modified":"2014-12-28T05:10:24","modified_gmt":"2014-12-28T01:10:24","slug":"rovs%c9%99n-yerfi-l%c9%99n%c9%99t%c9%99-g%c9%99l%c9%99nl%c9%99r-povestd%c9%99n-parca","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=7546","title":{"rendered":"R\u00f6v\u015f\u0259n Yerfi — “L\u0259n\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259r” (povestd\u0259n par\u00e7a)"},"content":{"rendered":"

Valentina \u0130vanovnan\u0131n ya\u015f\u0131 q\u0131rx s\u0259kkizi \u00f6ts\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0131rx ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131na b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi. \u00dcr\u0259yi cavanl\u0131q e\u015fqi il\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u018fr t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n b\u0259xti g\u0259tirm\u0259y\u0259n Valentina ilk bax\u0131\u015fda ki\u015fil\u0259r\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 soyuq \"10006580_284601455040155_5294837386723467412_n\"<\/a>g\u00f6rs\u0259nm\u0259sin\u0259 baxmayaraq, k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u0259 yatana, z\u00f6vq\u00fcn\u00fc ox\u015fayana laqeyd d\u0259 qalm\u0131rd\u0131. Onun x\u00fcsusil\u0259 qarayan\u0131z c\u0259nublu ki\u015fil\u0259rd\u0259n xo\u015fu g\u0259lirdi. Q\u0131z\u0131 \u201cPa – \u015fa\u201d il\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olanda cavan o\u011flan onun da \u00fcr\u0259yini yerind\u0259n oynatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O zaman otuz s\u0259kkiz ya\u015f\u0131 olan Valentinan\u0131n qan\u0131n\u0131n qaynar \u00e7a\u011flar\u0131 idi. Tan\u0131\u015f olduqlar\u0131 g\u00fcnd\u0259n Olyan\u0131n o\u011flan\u0131 ev\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259sin\u0259 etiraz etm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Cavanl\u0131qda \u00f6z ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n ehtiyatlan\u0131b q\u0131z\u0131na bu c\u0259nubluya \u00e7ox da etibar etm\u0259m\u0259sini, a\u011f\u0131lla h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t etm\u0259sini m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t bilmi\u015fdi. Pa\u015fan\u0131n Olya il\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259tinin m\u00fcv\u0259qq\u0259ti olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00fcman edib q\u0131z\u0131ndan gizlin bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 f\u00fcrs\u0259t d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259nc o\u011flan\u0131 kefl\u0259ndirib yata\u011f\u0131na salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sonralar onun Olya il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rinin ciddil\u0259\u015fdiyini, ail\u0259 qurmaq h\u0259ddin\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131ndan \u00e7ox, \u0259trafdak\u0131 insanlar\u0131n q\u0131na\u011f\u0131ndan qorxub, \u00abh\u0259v\u0259sdi b\u0259sdi\u00bb deyib, Pa\u015fadan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdi. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, ne\u00e7\u0259 ill\u0259r ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra i\u00e7ki m\u0259clisl\u0259rind\u0259 s\u0259rxo\u015f qad\u0131nlar\u0131n Pa\u015fan\u0131n yataq m\u0259har\u0259ti haqq\u0131ndak\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259ri onu yenid\u0259n g\u00fcnah etm\u0259y\u0259 s\u00f6vq etmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

Bir qad\u0131n kimi o da Pa\u015fan\u0131 ilk g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n b\u0259y\u0259nmi\u015fdi. Onun he\u00e7 d\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin\u0259 mane olmaq v\u0259 ya \u015f\u0259rik \u00e7\u0131xmaq fikri yox idi. Allah\u0131n r\u0259va bildiyi anlarda, misqal q\u0259d\u0259r olsa da qad\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyini can\u0131nda hiss etm\u0259k ona g\u00fcnah idimi? N\u0259 etsin ki, taleyi \u00f6z\u00fc ist\u0259y\u0259n t\u0259rzd\u0259 olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131? Taleyini \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7ox q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcb xo\u015fb\u0259xt olmas\u0131na h\u0259sr etmi\u015fdi. Ancaq indi, \u00e7\u0259kdiyi ac\u0131lardan x\u0259b\u0259rsiz olan q\u0131z\u0131 onu ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259yib, tam t\u0259rsin\u0259, xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyini \u0259lind\u0259n almaq ist\u0259y\u0259n xain kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ba\u015fqalar\u0131n\u0131 da unudub\u00a0 \u0259n \u00e7ox \u00f6z anas\u0131na r\u0259qib, az qala d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi. O g\u00fcn q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n: -\u201cAna, s\u0259n ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n n\u0259 etdiyini,\u201d- sual\u0131na yaln\u0131z -\u201cbil\u0259r\u0259kd\u0259n etm\u0259dim, hissl\u0259rim m\u0259ni yoldan \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131,\u201d- cavab\u0131n\u0131 ver\u0259 bilmi\u015fdi\u2026<\/p>\n

Bu v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 Olya \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn daha bir yerd\u0259 onunla ya\u015famas\u0131 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyildi. H\u0259r ikisind\u0259n – anas\u0131ndan da, \u0259rind\u0259n d\u0259 incimi\u015fdi. Zavall\u0131 Olya n\u0259 bil\u0259ydi ki, nigah\u0131nad\u0259k anas\u0131 il\u0259 \u0259rinin x\u0259lv\u0259ti mac\u0259ralar\u0131 olub? \u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259 Pa\u015fan\u0131 qovmaq, r\u0259dd etm\u0259k fikrin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Sonra u\u015faqlara g\u00f6r\u0259 fikrind\u0259n da\u015f\u0131nd\u0131. Pa\u015fa q\u0259d\u0259r anas\u0131 da g\u00fcnahkar idi. H\u0259r halda anas\u0131z ke\u00e7in\u0259 bil\u0259rdi, lakin u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131n x\u0259trin\u0259 Pa\u015fadan ayr\u0131la bilm\u0259zdi. Yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 anas\u0131n\u0131n evind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, k\u0259narda kiray\u0259 m\u0259nzil tutub ya\u015famaq idi. Bel\u0259 olanda Pa\u015fa yen\u0259 V\u0259t\u0259n\u0259, el-obas\u0131na qay\u0131tmaq s\u00f6hb\u0259tini ortaya atd\u0131. Son ill\u0259r, o, tez-tez anas\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlay\u0131b Olyan\u0131 k\u0259ndl\u0259rin\u0259 aparma\u011fa h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259ndirirdi. \u00d6z anas\u0131n\u0131, q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259sini atmaq ist\u0259m\u0259diyind\u0259n \u00e7ox vaxt \u0259rin\u0259 m\u00fcsb\u0259t cavab vermirdi. Amma, yax\u015f\u0131 deyibl\u0259r: \u00abYanl\u0131\u015f da bir nax\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u00bb. Anas\u0131n\u0131n onu \u00abarxadan vurmas\u0131\u00bb, \u00f6t\u0259ri d\u0259 olsa \u0259rin\u0259 tamah salmas\u0131 Olyan\u0131n fikrini d\u0259yi\u015fdirdi. Olanlar\u0131 yaddan \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131b anas\u0131na olan kinini, nifr\u0259tini uzaqda, yeni m\u00fchitd\u0259 unudaraq Pa\u015fa il\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rini t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n qurmaq xatirin\u0259 c\u0259nuba k\u00f6\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 daha etiraz etm\u0259di. Ba\u015f vermi\u015f biab\u0131r\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 unutmaq, davam etm\u0259sinin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 almaq namin\u0259 daim laqeydlikl\u0259 yana\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u0259rinin v\u0259t\u0259n\u0259 qay\u0131tmaq arzusuna raz\u0131l\u0131q verdi. Olya \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u201cl\u0259\u00e7\u0259rl\u0259r\u201d adland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 qad\u0131nlar\u0131n s\u0131ras\u0131na anas\u0131n\u0131n da qo\u015fulmas\u0131 d\u00f6z\u00fclm\u0259z idi\u2026<\/p>\n

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Pa\u015fa qaynanas\u0131 Valentina il\u0259 olan m\u00fcnasib\u0259td\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc el\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00fcnahkar saym\u0131rd\u0131. O, ilk d\u0259f\u0259 Olyagil\u0259 g\u0259lib anas\u0131 il\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olanda m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259ri tam ciddil\u0259\u015fm\u0259mi\u015fdi. D\u00fczd\u00fcr, sevi\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar, amma evl\u0259n\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rini tam y\u0259qinl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259mi\u015fdil\u0259r. Bu, t\u0259bii bir hal say\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Azad\u0259lik h\u00f6km s\u00fcr\u0259n q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 kimin kimd\u0259n xo\u015fu g\u0259lir sevi\u015fir, h\u0259tta qeyri-r\u0259smi olsa da v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015f nikah\u0131 ad\u0131 il\u0259 ist\u0259dik\u0259ri q\u0259d\u0259r birg\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131lar. Sevm\u0259diyini hiss ed\u0259n g\u00fcn m\u00fcnasib\u0259tini k\u0259sib ayr\u0131la da bil\u0259rs\u0259n. Bundan \u00f6tr\u00fc kims\u0259 kimd\u0259ns\u0259 n\u0259 incimir, n\u0259 d\u0259 v\u0259fas\u0131zl\u0131qda q\u0131nam\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131q g\u00fcn\u00fc Olyan\u0131n anas\u0131n\u0131n xo\u015funa g\u0259lm\u0259yind\u0259n d\u0259 sevinmi\u015fdi. S\u0259h\u0259ri g\u00fcn\u00fc Valentina onu Olyadan gizlin bir kafed\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t ed\u0259rk\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131 bar\u0259d\u0259 ciddi s\u00f6hb\u0259t olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00fcman etmi\u015fdi. Lakin ba\u011fl\u0131 kabinetd\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259h \u015f\u0259rab i\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra Valentinan\u0131n he\u00e7 d\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131na dair deyil, \u00f6z \u015f\u0259hv\u0259tin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlayanda, \u201cyox\u201d dem\u0259k ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, onun q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259n\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n, sonda Olyan\u0131 da itir\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n ehtiyatlan\u0131b etiraz\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7ind\u0259 saxlad\u0131. S\u0259rxo\u015f ba\u015fla d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, onsuz da burda m\u00fcv\u0259qq\u0259ti ya\u015fay\u0131r, bir g\u00fcn v\u0259t\u0259nin\u0259 qay\u0131dacaq. T\u0259z\u0259 qayda-qanun yaratmaq ona qal\u0131b? K\u00f6n\u00fcl s\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131b, pis olmaqdan n\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar? \u018fksin\u0259 ist\u0259yin\u0259 \u00e7atandan sonra g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcn q\u0131z\u0131ndan gizlin qalmas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259 xahi\u015f ed\u0259n Valentina qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda qula \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

\u0130ki ay \u0259rzind\u0259 h\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259n bu mac\u0259raya, Olyan\u0131n hamil\u0259liyi, evl\u0259nib bir yerd\u0259 ya\u015famalar\u0131 son qoydu. Q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi namin\u0259 Valentina gizlin sevi\u015fm\u0259d\u0259n imtina etm\u0259li oldu.<\/p>\n

Aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bu torpa\u011fa qoyandan he\u00e7 bir qad\u0131n\u0131n q\u0259lbin\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n Pa\u015fa \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Valentina toxunulmaz qad\u0131n m\u0259fhumunu m\u0259nas\u0131zla\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130ki o\u011flu d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259d\u0259k qad\u0131nlara f\u0259rq qoyan Pa\u015fa R\u00fcst\u0259md\u0259n sonra ist\u0259nil\u0259n qad\u0131n\u0131n r\u0259\u011fb\u0259tin\u0259 etinas\u0131z qalm\u0131rd\u0131. O, kims\u0259ni yoldan \u00e7\u0131xarm\u0131rd\u0131, sad\u0259c\u0259 yoluna \u00e7\u0131xanlara etiraz etmirdi.<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259 t\u0259sad\u00fcfi g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r h\u0259r g\u00fcn yox, \u00fc\u00e7-d\u00f6rd aydan bir, bayramdan-bayrama ba\u015f verirdi. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r k\u00fcs\u00fcb-inciy\u0259n Olya u\u015faqlar b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fckc\u0259, Pa\u015fan\u0131n y\u00fcng\u00fclayaq xasiyy\u0259tin\u0259 v\u0259rdi\u015f alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 onun yeni mac\u0259ras\u0131\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259r tutub \u0259vv\u0259l sor\u011fu-sual ed\u0259r, sonda g\u00fcnahs\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 iddia ed\u0259n \u0259rini h\u0259d\u0259l\u0259y\u0259rdi:<\/p>\n

– Bu nec \u0259olur, m\u0259ni ba\u015fa\u00a0sal. N\u0259 vaxt \u00e7ox i\u00e7irs\u0259n, g\u00fcnah s\u0259nd\u0259 olmur, hans\u0131sa \u201cprostututka\u201d il\u0259 yat\u0131rsan, yen\u0259 s\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00fcnah olmur. M\u0259nd\u0259n ba\u015fqa kims\u0259nin \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 d\u0259ymirs\u0259n. B\u0259s m\u0259n\u0259 niy\u0259 x\u0259yan\u0259t edirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

– Olya, s\u0259n bunu x\u0259yan\u0259t hesab edirs\u0259n? \u018fzizim, bu, olsa-olsa \u00f6t\u0259ri anlard\u0131r…<\/p>\n

– El\u0259mi, Pa\u2013\u015fa? \u018fg\u0259r n\u0259 vaxt sabils\u0259n ki, m\u0259nd\u0259 ba\u015fqas\u0131 il\u0259 \u00f6t\u0259ri anlar ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fam, incim\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

Olyan\u0131n h\u0259d\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 Pa\u015fa el\u0259d\u0259 inanm\u0131rd\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki, o, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, h\u0259r bir t\u0259l\u0259bat\u0131 \u00f6d\u0259nil\u0259n qad\u0131n x\u0259yan\u0259t etm\u0259z. Bu bax\u0131mdan yolda\u015f\u0131na diqq\u0259tini he\u00e7 vaxt \u0259sirg\u0259mirdi ki, kim\u0259s\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131 olsun. Qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131 v\u0259 \u015firin diliil\u0259 h\u0259r an k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc ala bilirdi. H\u0259m d\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131dlar\u0131 v\u0259 r\u0259fiq\u0259l\u0259ri aras\u0131nda \u0259rli olmas\u0131 il\u0259 \u00f6y\u00fcn\u0259nO lyan\u0131n ciddi say\u0131lmayan x\u0131rda s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 ondan bel\u0259 asanl\u0131qla \u0259lini \u00fczm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 arxay\u0131nidi. Ancaq ill\u0259r \u00f6td\u00fckc\u0259 n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 Olyaya sevgisinin azald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 daha \u00e7ox u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ist\u0259diyini hiss edirdi.<\/p>\n

D\u00f6rd ild\u0259n sonra birinci d\u0259f\u0259 k\u0259nd\u0259 ged\u0259rk\u0259n, anas\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259r \u015feyi at\u0131b, k\u0259nd\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b, yeni ail\u0259 qurmaq t\u0259klifin\u0259 Pa\u015fa ciddi yana\u015fmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Onun o\u011flanlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6zg\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 verm\u0259k fikri yox idi. U\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yirs\u0259, onlar\u0131n anas\u0131n\u0131 da ata bilm\u0259zdi. Ham\u0131l\u0131qla k\u00f6\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 is\u0259 Olya raz\u0131 deyildi. O vaxtdan V\u0259t\u0259n\u0259 qay\u0131tma\u011f\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 d\u0259rd eyl\u0259y\u0259n Pa\u015fa ara\u011fa mehrini bir az da art\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Daim qan\u0131 qara\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011fa s\u0259b\u0259b olan bu s\u00f6hb\u0259t f\u0259sill\u0259r, ill\u0259r d\u0259yi\u015fs\u0259 d\u0259 dilind\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00a0H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 vidala\u015fark\u0259n m\u00f6hl\u0259t ist\u0259y\u0259n, anas\u0131na qay\u0131daca\u011f\u0131na s\u00f6z ver\u0259n Pa\u015fa, s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259m\u0259l ed\u0259 bilmirdi.<\/p>\n

Olyaya sevgisi azald\u0131qca \u015f\u0259raba, \u00f6zg\u0259 qad\u0131nlarla t\u0259sad\u00fcfi g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 mara\u011f\u0131 da g\u00fccl\u0259nirdi. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yerlil\u0259rin\u0259 qaynamay\u0131b, \u00f6zba\u015f\u0131na ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcn tutan Pa\u015fa son be\u015f ild\u0259 xasiyy\u0259tini d\u0259yi\u015fib istiqanla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00a0\u0130lk ill\u0259r yolda\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 bir m\u00fc\u0259ssis\u0259d\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259n z\u00f6vq al\u0131rd\u0131sa, sonralar Olyan\u0131n n\u0259zar\u0259tind\u0259n can\u0131n\u0131 qurtarmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, maa\u015f\u0131n\u0131n azl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259han\u0259 edib i\u015f yerini d\u0259yi\u015fdi. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0259rb\u0259st hiss etdikc\u0259, qad\u0131nlara \u00e7oxalan ehtiras\u0131 qalan \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259yl\u0259nc\u0259 il\u0259 ke\u00e7irm\u0259y\u0259 s\u00f6vq edirdi. \u00dcr\u0259yini s\u0131xan t\u0259nhal\u0131q, q\u0259riblik a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 yaln\u0131z bel\u0259 yolla unutma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259rd\u0259n yerlil\u0259ri il\u0259 bir yer\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131b yeyib i\u00e7\u0259r, v\u0259t\u0259ni xat\u0131rlay\u0131b, d\u0259rd-s\u0259rl\u0259rini b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u0259rdil\u0259r. He\u00e7 onlardan da \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc xo\u015fb\u0259xt hiss ed\u0259n yox idi. V\u0259t\u0259nda\u015f nigah\u0131 ad\u0131 il\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131 qad\u0131nlar\u0131n evl\u0259rind\u0259 qonaq olduqlar\u0131n\u0131 duyan bu ki\u015fil\u0259rin g\u00f6zl\u0259rin d\u0259 gizlin nisgil yat\u0131rd\u0131. Do\u011fma yurd nisgili. Bir \u00e7oxu is\u0259 ail\u0259sini V\u0259t\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6zba\u015f\u0131na qoyub qazanc arxas\u0131nca g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Ail\u0259s\u0259 ad\u0259tini qazanca d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259nl\u0259r d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fckl\u0259ri m\u00fchit\u0259 uy\u011funla\u015fd\u0131qca qazanclar\u0131n\u0131n bir hiss\u0259sini ey\u015f-i\u015fr\u0259t\u0259 s\u0259rf etm\u0259kl\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259 onlar\u0131 nifr\u0259tl\u0259 xat\u0131rlayacaq nadan t\u00f6r\u0259n\u0259n \u00f6vladlar b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Art\u0131q bu nifr\u0259t \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc onill\u0259rd\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259kd\u0259 idi. X\u00fcsusil\u0259 \u0259traf q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259l\u0259rin bazarlar\u0131nda i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n yerlil\u0259ri aras\u0131nda \u00fcst\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131lmayan q\u0259tll\u0259rl\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcl\u0259nl\u0259rin ilb\u0259il \u00e7oxalmas\u0131 onlara qar\u015f\u0131 pisl\u0259\u015f\u0259n m\u00fcnasib\u0259td\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r verirdi.<\/p>\n

Pa\u015fan\u0131n k\u0259nar qad\u0131nlarla mac\u0259ralar\u0131 s\u0131ras\u0131nda Olyan\u0131n yax\u0131nlar\u0131ndan birincisi ki\u015fibaz olan day\u0131s\u0131 arvad\u0131 Veronika il\u0259 ba\u015f vermi\u015fdi. Gizli qalan bu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fc m\u0259clisl\u0259rin birind\u0259 h\u0259min qad\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259rxo\u015f v\u0259ziyy\u0259tind\u0259 r\u0259fiq\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmas\u0131 onunla \u201cyatmaq\u201d ist\u0259y\u0259n tan\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n say\u0131n\u0131n artmas\u0131na s\u0259b\u0259b olmu\u015fdu. Pa\u015fa yaz\u0131q n\u0259 etm\u0259liydi, qara qar\u011falar i\u00e7ind\u0259 a\u011f qar\u011faya d\u00f6nm\u0259liydimi?<\/p>\n

F\u00fcrs\u0259t d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n kimi e\u015fitdikl\u0259rin\u0259 \u0259min olmaq ist\u0259y\u0259n Olyan\u0131n xalas\u0131, \u0259misi q\u0131z\u0131, r\u0259fiq\u0259si, daha kiml\u0259r q\u0131sa s\u0259rg\u00fcz\u0259\u015ftl\u0259rl\u0259 t\u0259dric\u0259n Pa\u015fan\u0131n qeyri-adi siyah\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 z\u0259nginl\u0259\u015fdirdil\u0259r. Be\u015f-alt \u0131i l\u0259vv\u0259l Pa\u015fa ba\u015f\u0131na bel\u0259 bir i\u015fin g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yini fikirl\u0259\u015fs\u0259ydi, heyr\u0259tind\u0259n qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rdi. Lakin, indi \u0259traf\u0131ndak\u0131 \u015f\u0259raitin t\u0259sirind\u0259n el\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi ki, olanlar ona adi m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259r kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Fikrinc\u0259 t\u0259la\u015f ke\u00e7irm\u0259y\u0259 he\u00e7 bir \u0259sas yox idi. H\u0259r \u015fey insanlar\u0131n \u00f6z k\u00f6nl\u00fc, ist\u0259yi il\u0259 ba\u015f verirdi. \u018fg\u0259r, o, Olyan\u0131n da kiminl\u0259s\u0259 sevi\u015fdiyini bils\u0259ydi, daha d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259zdi. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, q\u0259lbin\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259rdi, ancaq bunu cinay\u0259t, ya da b\u0259db\u0259xtlik saymay\u0131b, bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259d\u0259n bo\u015fanard\u0131. Az bir qisim d\u0259 qanuni nigah\u0131 olan, \u0259ks\u0259riy\u0259ti subay, ya da v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015f nigah\u0131nda ya\u015fayan bu insanlar i\u00e7ind\u0259 bo\u015fanmaq adid\u0259n d\u0259 adi idi. Olyan\u0131n ondan ayr\u0131lmaq ist\u0259m\u0259m\u0259sinin s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259rind\u0259n biri, b\u0259lk\u0259d\u0259 yax\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131n Pa\u015fadan \u00f6tr\u00fc \u0259ld\u0259n-ayaqdan getm\u0259si idi. \u00dczd\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r hirsl\u0259ns\u0259 d\u0259, qan\u0131 qaralsa da, \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 \u00e7oxlar\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259sr\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kdiyi bel\u0259 qanuni \u0259ri olmas\u0131 il\u0259 \u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

H\u0259yatda h\u0259r \u015feyin m\u00fcv\u0259qq\u0259ti oldu\u011funu bil\u0259n, bu g\u00fcnd\u0259n sabaha yet\u0259rli \u00fcmidi olmayan Pa\u015fa t\u0259bi\u0259tin ona b\u0259x\u015f etdiyi cavanl\u0131qla ba\u011fl\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcn x\u00fcsusiyy\u0259tl\u0259rinin d\u0259 bir zaman sona yet\u0259c\u0259yini ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, ya\u015famaqdan bacard\u0131\u011f\u0131 q\u0259d\u0259r z\u00f6vq alma\u011fa c\u0259hd edirdi. Bu sayaq kefli g\u00fcnl\u0259rininbirind\u0259 Olyan\u0131n i\u015fd\u0259 l\u0259ngiy\u0259c\u0259yini g\u00fcman ed\u0259n Valentinan\u0131n yenid\u0259n, g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259diyi halda onun quca\u011f\u0131na at\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131 Pa\u015fa a\u011fl\u0131na he\u00e7 c\u00fcr\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131ra bilmirdi. On il ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra g\u00f6r\u0259n hans\u0131 hissl\u0259r vadar etmi\u015fdi ki, o, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu\u011fu qada\u011fan\u0131 pozmal\u0131 olmu\u015fdu. H\u0259min g\u00fcn i\u00e7diyi \u015f\u0259rab\u0131n t\u0259siriidi, yoxsaPa\u015fan\u0131n \u00abyataq f\u0259all\u0131\u011f\u0131na\u00bb dair qula\u011f\u0131na \u00e7atan s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r idimi co\u015fdurub a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131 alan? V\u0259ziyy\u0259tin ac\u0131nacaql\u0131s\u0131 ondayd\u0131 ki, Valentina t\u0259\u015fn\u0259sini s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fark\u0259n i\u015fd\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259kind\u0259n tez qay\u0131dan Olya m\u0259nzil\u0259 girib onlar\u0131 cinsi \u201cf\u0259aliyy\u0259t\u201d an\u0131nda tutmu\u015fdu. Q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259nmi\u015f Olya bildiyi \u0259n pis s\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rl\u0259 onlar\u0131 ac\u0131lay\u0131b t\u0259hqir etdi. Ac\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan a\u011flayanOlya \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn he\u00e7 biri il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmad\u0131. Utand\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan d\u0259rdini kims\u0259y\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b, a\u00e7\u0131b a\u011fartmad\u0131. Pa\u015fa \u00f6zg\u0259 evd\u0259 kiray\u0259d\u0259 qalmaqdansa k\u0259nd\u0259, evl\u0259rin\u0259 qay\u0131tmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Olyan\u0131 dil\u0259 tutma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Olyan\u0131n raz\u0131la\u015fmas\u0131 ild\u0259n \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259kdi.<\/p>\n

Ax\u0131r vaxtlar Pa\u015fan\u0131 dar\u0131xd\u0131ran s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259rd\u0259n biri d\u0259\u00a0\u00f6t\u0259n q\u0131\u015f yax\u0131nl\u0131q etdiyi qad\u0131nlardan Marina adl\u0131 birinin SP\u0130D-d\u0259n \u00f6lm\u0259si \u015faiy\u0259si idi. Deyil\u0259n \u015faiy\u0259 h\u0259qiq\u0259t d\u0259 ola bil\u0259rdi. N\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 alsa ki, Marina il\u0259 son g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fc el\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7ox yox, yar\u0131m il \u0259vv\u0259l\u0259 t\u0259sad\u00fcf edir, onda ola bilsin h\u0259min x\u0259st\u0259liy\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259, o, da yoluxubmu\u015f. G\u0259l ki, qan\u0131n\u0131 yoxlatma\u011fa, \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 son qoyma\u011fa irad\u0259si \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131. Bird\u0259n t\u0259sdiql\u0259n\u0259rs\u0259 ki, ehtimal deyil, h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n h\u0259min x\u0259st\u0259liy\u0259 yoluxub, xeyri n\u0259 olacaqd\u0131? Bils\u0259 fikir \u00e7\u0259km\u0259kl\u0259 daha da \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc tezl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259c\u0259kdi. \u00c7\u0131x\u0131lmaz v\u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb d\u0259rd el\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259n, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259n savay\u0131 n\u0259 ed\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259kdi? \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 bu torpaqda g\u00f6m\u00fclm\u0259yi he\u00e7 arzulam\u0131rd\u0131. \u00abG\u0259zm\u0259y\u0259 q\u0259rib \u00f6lk\u0259, \u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259V\u0259t\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131\u00bb, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r do\u011fru fikir imi\u015f, – d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00d6z obas\u0131nda,torpa\u011f\u0131nda \u00f6l\u0259rs\u0259 onu xat\u0131rlayan olacaqd\u0131, o\u011fullar\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb xatir\u0259sini ya\u015fadacaq, ata m\u00fclk\u00fcn\u0259 sahiblik ed\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r. Burda, yadlar i\u00e7ind\u0259is\u0259 unudulacaqd\u0131, u\u015faqlar\u0131 da onun yox, \u00f6zg\u0259 mill\u0259tin o\u011fullar\u0131na \u00e7evril\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r. Bel\u0259 g\u00fcnahlarla dolu h\u0259yat\u0131n bel\u0259 d\u0259 sonlu\u011fu olmal\u0131 idi. Yubanmadan olanlara t\u00f6vb\u0259 edib \u00f6z torpa\u011f\u0131na, \u0259vv\u0259lki h\u0259yat\u0131na, \u0259xlaq\u0131na qay\u0131tmal\u0131 idi. \u015e\u0259r\u0259fsiz \u00f6l\u00fcm arzulam\u0131rd\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259. B\u0259lk\u0259, Allah yurduna d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 g\u00fcnahlar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131b, ondan adi insan \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259sirg\u0259m\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi? \u018fvv\u0259lki Pa\u015faya d\u00f6nm\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tin deyildi, ona yaln\u0131z \u00e7oxi \u00e7m\u0259yi mane ola bil\u0259rdi. \u018fg\u0259r i\u00e7m\u0259yi azalda bils\u0259ydi…<\/p>\n

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