{"id":7599,"date":"2014-12-29T13:28:33","date_gmt":"2014-12-29T09:28:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=7599"},"modified":"2014-12-29T13:31:07","modified_gmt":"2014-12-29T09:31:07","slug":"m%c9%99shur-carli-caplinin-qizi-ceraldin%c9%99-m%c9%99ktubu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=7599","title":{"rendered":"M\u0259\u015fhur \u00c7arli \u00c7aplinin q\u0131z\u0131 Ceraldin\u0259 m\u0259ktubu"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"\u00e7arli\u00e7aplin\"<\/a><\/p>\n

“\u018fziz q\u0131z\u0131m,
\n\u0130ndi gec\u0259dir. Yeni il gec\u0259si. M\u0259nim balaca q\u0259srimin silahs\u0131z m\u00fchafiz\u0259\u00e7il\u0259ri yat\u0131rlar. Bac\u0131n v\u0259 qarda\u015f\u0131n yat\u0131b, h\u0259tta anan da yuxulay\u0131b. Bu yar\u0131qaranl\u0131q ota\u011fa g\u0259linc\u0259 az qald\u0131m ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 oyadam.
\nNec\u0259 d\u0259 uzaqsan m\u0259nd\u0259n! \u018fg\u0259r indi \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rin\u0259 baxm\u0131ramsa, kor olum. \u015e\u0259kill\u0259rin stolumun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259, \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 \u0259n yax\u0131n yerd\u0259 dayan\u0131b. Amma s\u0259n hardasan? Uzaqda, na\u011f\u0131llar \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri Parisd\u0259, g\u00f6z\u0259l bir s\u0259hn\u0259d\u0259 r\u0259qs edirs\u0259n. Bu sakit gec\u0259nin s\u0259ssizliyind\u0259 s\u0259nin ayaq s\u0259sl\u0259rini a\u00e7\u0131q-ayd\u0131n e\u015fidir\u0259m. G\u00f6zl\u0259rin g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na g\u0259lir; g\u00f6zl\u0259rin q\u0131\u015f gec\u0259sind\u0259 b\u0259rq vuran ulduzlar kimidir. Bu g\u00f6z\u0259l tama\u015fada \u015eah\u0131n \u0259sir g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fc g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259li o fars q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilir\u0259m. G\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259li ol, r\u0259qs el\u0259, ulduz ol v\u0259 par\u0131lt\u0131n al\u0259m\u0259 yay\u0131ls\u0131n. Amma tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131 m\u0259ftun etm\u0259kd\u0259n s\u0259rxo\u015f olanda, s\u0259n\u0259 veril\u0259n \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rin qoxusu ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 gic\u0259ll\u0259ndir\u0259nd\u0259 bir k\u00fcnc\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilib m\u0259ktubumu oxu, atan\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 qulaq ver.
\nM\u0259n s\u0259nin atanam, Ceraldin! M\u0259n \u00c7arliy\u0259m, \u00c7arli \u00c7aplin! Ka\u015f bil\u0259ydin, ne\u00e7\u0259 gec\u0259 be\u015fiyinin ba\u015f\u0131nda oturmu\u015fam, \u015firin na\u011f\u0131llar dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam. B\u0259z\u0259n “Yatm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6z\u0259l”i, b\u0259z\u0259n “Pis q\u0259lbli \u0259jdaha”\u0131 na\u011f\u0131l etmi\u015f\u0259m…Yuxu g\u0259lib qoca g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi ba\u011flamaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 onu \u0259l\u0259 sal\u0131r v\u0259 deyirdim: “R\u0259dd ol! M\u0259nim yuxum – q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n x\u0259yallar\u0131d\u0131r!”. M\u0259n s\u0259nin x\u0259yallar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm, Ceraldin! S\u0259nin g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yini g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm, bax bu g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc! S\u0259hn\u0259d\u0259 r\u0259qs ed\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm, qanadlar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b havada u\u00e7an p\u0259rini… \u0130nsanlar\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259rini e\u015fidirdim: “Bu q\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n? Qoca bir klounun q\u0131z\u0131d\u0131r. Atas\u0131n\u0131n ad\u0131 \u00c7arli idi, yad\u0131na g\u0259lmir?”. R\u0259qs v\u0259 alq\u0131\u015f s\u0259sl\u0259ri ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 yerd\u0259n k\u0259s\u0259c\u0259k. Qanadlan v\u0259 u\u00e7 y\u00fcks\u0259klikl\u0259r\u0259! Amma arada ayaqlar\u0131n yer\u0259 d\u0259ysin. Xalq\u0131n nec\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilm\u0259lis\u0259n, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 r\u0259qqaslar\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131 il\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olmal\u0131san. Acl\u0131qdan r\u0259ngi solan, yoxsulluqdan v\u0259 soyuqdan titr\u0259y\u0259-titr\u0259y\u0259 r\u0259qs ed\u0259nl\u0259rl\u0259…<\/p>\n

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Q\u0131zlar\u0131 Jozefina v\u0259 Viktoriya il\u0259<\/div>\n
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M\u0259n d\u0259 onlar kimi olmu\u015fam, Ceraldin! O sehrli gec\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259, s\u0259n m\u0259nim na\u011f\u0131llar\u0131mda yat\u0131rd\u0131n, amma m\u0259n yatmazd\u0131m. S\u0259nin g\u00f6z\u0259l simana baxar, \u00fcr\u0259yinin d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u0259 qulaq asar v\u0259 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n soru\u015furam: “\u00c7arli g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n bir g\u00fcn bu balaca qu\u015f s\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k? S\u0259n m\u0259ni tan\u0131m\u0131rsan, Ceraldin, m\u0259nim na\u011f\u0131l\u0131m \u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259dir. Yoxsul bir klounun na\u011f\u0131l\u0131d\u0131r bu. Londonun k\u0259nar m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259sind\u0259 mahn\u0131 oxuyub r\u0259qs ed\u0259n, sonra b\u0259x\u015fi\u015f y\u0131\u011fan klounun na\u011f\u0131l\u0131d\u0131r. M\u0259nim na\u011f\u0131l\u0131md\u0131r!<\/p>\n

M\u0259n acl\u0131\u011fa da yax\u015f\u0131 b\u0259l\u0259d\u0259m, evsizliy\u0259 d\u0259. Bu n\u0259dir ki? M\u0259nim okean b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259 q\u00fcrurla qabaran sin\u0259md\u0259 qaba\u011f\u0131ma at\u0131lan q\u0259pikl\u0259rin s\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 hiss etmi\u015f\u0259m, ham\u0131n\u0131n yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259n, al\u00e7ald\u0131lan s\u0259filin n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdiyini bilmi\u015f\u0259m. H\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 r\u0259\u011fm\u0259n, h\u0259yat davam edir. Ya\u015fayanlar haqda h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 daha az dan\u0131\u015f\u0131l\u0131r. S\u0259n m\u0259nim soyad\u0131m\u0131 da\u015f\u0131y\u0131rsan, \u00c7aplini…
\nBu ad yar\u0131m \u0259srd\u0259n \u00e7ox b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnyan\u0131 g\u00fcld\u00fcr\u00fcb; m\u0259nim a\u011flamalar\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131nda bu g\u00fclm\u0259l\u0259r n\u0259dir ki? S\u0259nin d\u00fcnyan ancaq r\u0259qs v\u0259 musiqid\u0259n ibar\u0259tdir… Ceraldin, bir gec\u0259 yar\u0131s\u0131 o m\u0259\u015fhur s\u0259hn\u0259d\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 varl\u0131 tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 unut, amma mindiyin taksinin s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcs\u00fcnd\u0259n arvad\u0131n\u0131n hal-\u0259hval\u0131n\u0131 soru\u015fma\u011f\u0131 unutma. B\u0259lk\u0259 arvad\u0131 hamil\u0259dir, b\u0259lk\u0259 do\u011fulacaq ilk u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn paltar alma\u011fa pulu yoxdur he\u00e7… \u018fg\u0259r bel\u0259dirs\u0259, onun cibin\u0259 pul qoy. Kredit Bank\u0131na tap\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015fam, b\u00fct\u00fcn ehtiyaclar\u0131n\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131layacaqlar. Arada metroya, avtobusa min, \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri g\u0259z. \u0130nsanlara bax, yax\u015f\u0131 m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259 el\u0259 onlar\u0131…Dul v\u0259 yetiml\u0259rin g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 bax. He\u00e7 olmasa g\u00fcnd\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 de: “M\u0259n d\u0259 onlardan biriy\u0259m!”. B\u0259li, \u0259ziz q\u0131z\u0131m, unutma, s\u0259n d\u0259 onlardansan…
\nS\u0259n\u0259t g\u00f6y\u0259 u\u00e7maq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn adama qanad taxana q\u0259d\u0259r onun dabanlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcr. Bir g\u00fcn tama\u015fa\u00e7\u0131 qaba\u011f\u0131nda y\u00fcks\u0259ldiyini hiss ets\u0259n, s\u0259hn\u0259d\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f, \u00e7\u0131x k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259…Bir taksi tut, get Parisin k\u0259nar k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259…El\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 tan\u0131y\u0131ram oralar\u0131. Orda r\u0259qqas\u0259l\u0259r g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n; aralar\u0131nda s\u0259n\u0259 ox\u015fayan\u0131 da var, s\u0259nd\u0259n daha ar\u0131q, daha q\u00fcrurlular\u0131 da…Teatrdak\u0131 parlaq s\u0259hn\u0259 i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 orada yoxdur. Onlar\u0131n s\u0259hn\u0259 i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 Ayd\u0131r. Bax onlara, diqq\u0259tl\u0259 bax! S\u0259nd\u0259n d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 r\u0259qs edirl\u0259r, el\u0259dirmi? Etiraf el\u0259 bunu…S\u0259nd\u0259n daha yax\u015f\u0131 r\u0259qs ed\u0259n, s\u0259nd\u0259n daha yax\u015f\u0131 rol oynayan birini g\u00f6rs\u0259n n\u0259 vaxtsa, bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yad\u0131na sal: “H\u0259l\u0259 \u00c7arlinin ail\u0259sind\u0259n fayton s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcs\u00fcn\u0259 pis s\u00f6z dey\u0259n, ya da Sena \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131n sahilind\u0259 dil\u0259n\u0259n birini \u0259l\u0259 salan insan \u00e7\u0131xmay\u0131b”. \u00c7arli bu d\u00fcnyadan ged\u0259c\u0259k, Ceraldin! S\u0259nin h\u0259yat\u0131n is\u0259 davam ed\u0259c\u0259k. He\u00e7 vaxt yoxsullu\u011fu g\u00f6rm\u0259yini ist\u0259mir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

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\u00c7arli \u00c7aplin v\u0259 ail\u0259si. \u00a0\u00a0Una O’Nill\u0259 \u00c7arli \u00c7aplinin 8 \u00f6vlad\u0131 olub.<\/div>\n
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Bu m\u0259ktubla birlikd\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ek d\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rir\u0259m. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ist\u0259yirs\u0259n, x\u0259rcl\u0259. Amma yadda saxla: \u0130ki frank \u00f6z\u00fcn x\u0259rcl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259, \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc frank\u0131 ba\u015fqas\u0131na x\u0259rcl\u0259. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc frank s\u0259nin deyil, tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131n, g\u00f6rm\u0259diyin, bir frank\u0131n h\u0259sr\u0259ti il\u0259 ya\u015fayan\u0131nd\u0131r. O insan\u0131 tapmaq \u00e7\u0259tin deyil. H\u0259r k\u00fcncd\u0259 yoxsul adamlar g\u00f6r\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n, t\u0259ki s\u0259n g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259! M\u0259n bu \u015feytan\u0131n insan\u0131n a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndan nec\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildiyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn puldan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131ram. Uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t sirkd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, ip \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki k\u0259ndirbazlara qorxu il\u0259 baxm\u0131\u015fam. Bil ki, \u0259ziz q\u0131z\u0131m, insan\u0131n aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fm\u0259siyl\u0259 yer\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259yi k\u0259ndirbazlar\u0131n o ipd\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yind\u0259n daha asand\u0131r. S\u0259n bu gec\u0259 brilyant\u0131n cazib\u0259sin\u0259 aldana, ist\u0259r-ist\u0259m\u0259z yer\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n. G\u00fcn g\u0259l\u0259r, bir \u015fahzad\u0259nin \u00fcz\u00fc s\u0259ni \u0259sir alar. Bax o g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra s\u0259n art\u0131q t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259siz k\u0259ndirbaz olacaqsan. \u0130p is\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259sizl\u0259r\u0259 x\u0259yan\u0259t edir. He\u00e7 vaxt q\u0131z\u0131l v\u0259 da\u015f-qa\u015flara g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yini satma. Unutma ki, \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck brilyant g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fdir v\u0259 b\u0259xtimizd\u0259n d\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 b\u0259rab\u0259r i\u015f\u0131qland\u0131r\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\"Una
\n\u0130\u015fdir, bir g\u00fcn sevs\u0259n, se\u00e7diyin insan\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn q\u0259lbinl\u0259 sev. \u0130\u015finin \u00e7\u0259tin oldu\u011funu bilir\u0259m. \u0130ndi b\u0259d\u0259nini g\u00f6z\u0259l ip\u0259k par\u00e7alar b\u0259z\u0259yir. S\u0259n\u0259t \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259hn\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131lpaq da \u00e7\u0131xa bil\u0259rs\u0259n. Amma o s\u0259hn\u0259d\u0259n saf, t\u0259miz v\u0259 q\u00fcsursuz enm\u0259lis\u0259n. M\u0259n qocalm\u0131\u015fam, s\u00f6zl\u0259rim s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fclm\u0259li g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259 bil\u0259r. Amma m\u0259nc\u0259, s\u0259nin \u00e7\u0131lpaq b\u0259d\u0259nin \u00e7\u0131lpaq ruhuna vurulan insana aid olmal\u0131d\u0131r. Neyl\u0259yim, bu m\u00f6vzuda bir az geri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259liy\u0259m… B\u0259lk\u0259 fikirl\u0259rim 10 il \u0259vv\u0259ld\u0259 ili\u015fib qal\u0131b. Qorxma, Ceraldin, bu 10 il s\u0259ni qocaltmaz. M\u0259n s\u0259nin bu \u00e7\u0131lpaq adada boyun \u0259y\u0259n \u0259n ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 insan olma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Atalar v\u0259 u\u015faqlar aras\u0131nda h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 probleml\u0259r olur. M\u0259n\u0259 m\u00fcharib\u0259 elan et, \u0259ziz q\u0131z\u0131m, fikirl\u0259rim\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 m\u00fcharib\u0259 elan et. M\u0259n ita\u0259tkar u\u015faqlar\u0131 sevmir\u0259m. Bu m\u0259ktubumun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131m d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mi\u015f bu Yeni il gec\u0259sinin m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259r gec\u0259si oldu\u011funa inanmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Bir m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259 ba\u015f verm\u0259yini v\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259diyim h\u0259r \u015feyi d\u00fcz ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yini ist\u0259yir\u0259m.
\n\u00c7arli qocal\u0131b, Ceraldin, \u00e7ox qocal\u0131b. S\u0259n gec-tez qara paltarlar geyinib m\u0259zar\u0131ma g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. \u0130ndi s\u0259nin \u0259hval\u0131n\u0131 korlamaq ist\u0259mir\u0259m, amma arada g\u00fczg\u00fcy\u0259 bax. Orda m\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. Damarlar\u0131nda m\u0259nim qan\u0131m ax\u0131r. \u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m ki, m\u0259nim damarlar\u0131mdak\u0131 qan axmaz olanda atan \u00c7arlini unutmayasan.
\nM\u0259n m\u0259l\u0259k olmam\u0131\u015fam, amma h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 insan olma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam.
\nS\u0259n d\u0259 el\u0259 ol.
\n\u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni, Ceraldin.
\nS\u0259nin \u00c7arlin”.<\/span><\/i><\/b><\/p>\n

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