{"id":7794,"date":"2015-01-22T16:44:54","date_gmt":"2015-01-22T12:44:54","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=7794"},"modified":"2015-01-22T16:55:52","modified_gmt":"2015-01-22T12:55:52","slug":"seymur-su-saclarini-ciynim%c9%99-sixacam","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=7794","title":{"rendered":"Seymur Su &#8212; Sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7iynim\u0259 s\u0131xacam"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"color: #141823;\">G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259k,<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignright\" src=\"https:\/\/fbcdn-sphotos-h-a.akamaihd.net\/hphotos-ak-xpf1\/v\/t34.0-12\/10945404_1381584745483081_1839436215_n.jpg?oh=b58baa958cf34926a6a9ff27ce6af852&amp;oe=54C427AD&amp;__gda__=1422064985_c051743f5bd390bbcff750b90a2d0309\" alt=\"\" width=\"231\" height=\"231\" \/><br \/>\nb\u0259lk\u0259 qalar \u0259l izl\u0259ri..<br \/>\nYa\u015flara toxun bir-bir,<span class=\"text_exposed_show\"><br \/>\nxat\u0131rla d\u0259nizl\u0259ri.<\/span><\/p>\n<div class=\"text_exposed_show\" style=\"color: #141823;\">\n<p>Sa\u00e7\u0131ma s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259k,<br \/>\nT\u0259s\u0259llim olsun \u0259lin..<br \/>\nHe\u00e7 m\u0259nim olmasan da,<br \/>\nNaz\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259k d\u0259c\u0259lin..<\/p>\n<p>\u00dcz\u00fcm\u0259 diqq\u0259tl\u0259<br \/>\nBaxaraq m\u0259hv etm\u0259.<br \/>\nBir d\u0259f\u0259 al\u0131nmad\u0131,<br \/>\nBu d\u0259f\u0259 s\u0259hv etm\u0259<\/p>\n<p>Demir\u0259m sev m\u0259cbur.<br \/>\nN\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yan\u0131ndayam,<br \/>\nBacar\u0131rsan \u00f6ld\u00fcr,<br \/>\nSon d\u0259f\u0259 \u0259fv etm\u0259..<\/p>\n<p>****<\/p>\n<p>A\u011fac<br \/>\n(&#8220;S\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6nc\u0259, s\u0259nd\u0259n sonra..&#8221; kitab\u0131ndan.)<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259n sevgiliy\u0259m qa\u011fay\u0131lar\u0131n s\u0259sl\u0259rin\u0259.<br \/>\ns\u0259n m\u0259nim i\u00e7imd\u0259 \u00e7a\u011flayan d\u0259nizim olmusan..<br \/>\n\u00f6l\u00fcl\u0259r g\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 unudulur,<br \/>\n\u00fc\u00e7\u00fc, yeddisi, q\u0131rx\u0131 unutdurur onlar\u0131..<br \/>\nax\u0131 s\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fc deyils\u0259n,<br \/>\nax\u0131 s\u0259n ill\u0259rl\u0259 do\u011fmala\u015f\u0131rsan..<br \/>\nart\u0131q ne\u00e7\u0259 illik \u0259zizim olmusan..<br \/>\nke\u00e7ib ill\u0259rin:<br \/>\nbirin, ikin, \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn..<br \/>\nmetro \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015flar\u0131nda axtar\u0131rsan m\u0259ni,<br \/>\ns\u0259nsizliyimin borcunu almaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn..<br \/>\nqar\u011f\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131rala,<br \/>\narxamda qalan yollara..<br \/>\ndey\u0259s\u0259n el\u0259 t\u0259kc\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131r g\u00fcc\u00fcn..<\/p>\n<p>he\u00e7 bir \u015fer\u0259, mahn\u0131ya s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fm\u0131r<br \/>\nt\u0259nha gec\u0259l\u0259rin t\u0259k yol\u00e7usunun<br \/>\nyaln\u0131zl\u0131q \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc..<br \/>\no q\u0259d\u0259r uzaqsan ki,<br \/>\no q\u0259d\u0259r ged\u0259r-g\u0259lm\u0259zdir ki, yollar\u0131n<br \/>\ntapa bilm\u0259z s\u0259nin g\u0259zdiyin k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rin<br \/>\nm\u0259nsizlik haray\u0131n\u0131,<br \/>\nBak\u0131n\u0131n \u0259n tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcc\u00fcs\u00fc..<\/p>\n<p>t\u0259qviml\u0259rin d\u0259 bitdiyi bir n\u00f6qt\u0259 var<br \/>\nbir r\u0259q\u0259mi d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n ke\u00e7ir bu insanlar<br \/>\n\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 saxta g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r<br \/>\nr\u0259ngli geyiml\u0259r al\u0131r a\u011f-qara fikirl\u0259rin aras\u0131ndan s\u0131zaraq..<br \/>\nd\u00fcnyan\u0131n da sona \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6lk\u0259 var<br \/>\nbu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259rin d\u0259 sonuna \u00e7\u0131xacaq<br \/>\nbu yollar\u0131n da ipini tutub saxlayacaq<br \/>\nbir yer var,<br \/>\nbinalar\u0131 ucald\u0131r,<br \/>\ndabanlar\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131 qazaraq..<\/p>\n<p>haralardasa g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi m\u0259\u011flub ed\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259k ki\u00e7ik k\u00f6lg\u0259 var<br \/>\npax\u0131lam onun s\u0259rinliyin\u0259..<br \/>\nh\u0259yat\u0131n sirrl\u0259rini saxlam\u0131\u015fam,<br \/>\novcumda,<br \/>\nbir g\u00fcn \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 dayanarsa ya\u015fan\u0131lanlar..<br \/>\no q\u0259d\u0259r kin y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131b ki, fa\u015fistl\u0259rt\u0259ki<br \/>\narada a\u011f\u0131zdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r,<br \/>\ngetmir he\u00e7 harasa,<br \/>\nd\u0259yir \u00e7iyin\u0259..<br \/>\nb\u0259z\u0259n sad\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259r,<br \/>\nsad\u0259, s\u00f6z\u00fc \u00fczd\u0259 olan insanlar axtar\u0131\u015f\u0131ndayam,<br \/>\nyorulmu\u015fam dayaz bo\u011fazlar\u0131n<br \/>\nk\u0259lm\u0259 d\u0259rinliyin\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n<p>sanki<br \/>\ng\u00f6lm\u0259\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r \u2013 yem\u0259yim<br \/>\nsanki<br \/>\nayaqqab\u0131lar \u2013 \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yim<br \/>\narada dabanlar\u0131m\u0131 i\u015ftahla bat\u0131rmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m<br \/>\nquma, suya, g\u00f6lm\u0259\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r\u0259..<br \/>\narada batmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m ba\u015fdan aya\u011fa kimi<br \/>\npal\u00e7\u0131\u011fa.<br \/>\naclar bel\u0259<br \/>\nist\u0259yir\u0259m, bu s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc duya:<br \/>\no q\u0259d\u0259r acam ki..<\/p>\n<p>h\u0259r \u0259\u015fyan\u0131 \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 y\u0131\u011facam ki,<br \/>\nyand\u0131rarsan.<br \/>\nYanm\u0131\u015f par\u00e7alar\u0131 toplay\u0131b<br \/>\nbu qalm\u0131\u015f son xatir\u0259l\u0259ri<br \/>\n\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7ox \u0259ziz oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn<br \/>\nmuzey\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flayarsan..<br \/>\nG\u00fcneyd\u0259ki g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u0259ki \u0259zginliyi<br \/>\nhopdurarsan \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259<br \/>\nm\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259n quzey\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flayarsan..<br \/>\nm\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259m b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fcr sevgi obyektivimd\u0259 \u015fair olmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn<br \/>\no q\u0259d\u0259r y\u0131\u011fcam ki..<\/p>\n<p>bir qaralamal\u0131q<br \/>\nka\u011f\u0131z\u0131m, v\u0259r\u0259qim var.<br \/>\ng\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmd\u0259 he\u00e7 k\u0259sin g\u00f6rm\u0259diyi<br \/>\n\u015f\u00fcam, i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131m, \u015f\u0259f\u0259qim var<br \/>\nbir d\u0259rmanl\u0131q g\u00fcn qal\u0131b,<br \/>\nbir dual\u0131q m\u0259scid\u0259 gedi\u015fim.<br \/>\nn\u0259 s\u00f6z qal\u0131b,<br \/>\nn\u0259 d\u0259 onlar\u0131 saxlayacaq di\u015fim..<br \/>\nbir n\u0259f\u0259sim var<br \/>\nk\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259rin i\u00e7imd\u0259ki var g\u0259lin\u0259 uy\u011fun<br \/>\nf\u0131rt\u0131na dolu..<br \/>\nbir yuxum var<br \/>\nbir \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck h\u0259yat\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131na d\u00f6zm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn<br \/>\nya\u015fay\u0131ram g\u00f6z\u00fc yumulu..<br \/>\nbir g\u00fcn el\u0259 yatacam ki\u2026<\/p>\n<p>sa\u011f\u0131m solla qal\u0131b m\u00fcbahis\u0259d\u0259,<br \/>\nalt\u0131m \u00fcst\u00fcml\u0259 m\u00fcharib\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259,<br \/>\nh\u0259l\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131dan g\u0259l\u0259n s\u0259nsizlik yumru\u011funu,<br \/>\ngirm\u0259yim\u0259 qada\u011fa qoyulan<br \/>\nxo\u015f g\u00fcnl\u0259r qoru\u011funu,<br \/>\narxadan g\u0259l\u0259n<br \/>\ngedi\u015f pe\u015fman\u00e7\u0131l\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 demir\u0259m..<br \/>\n\u00fcmid \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015flar\u0131,<br \/>\nnifr\u0259t siqnallar\u0131,<br \/>\nsevgi q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131,<br \/>\nqan\u0131m\u0131n damarlar\u0131mla olan<br \/>\nd\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n\u00e7ilikl\u0259rini demir\u0259m..<br \/>\nm\u0259n xaraba \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259<br \/>\nhe\u00e7 k\u0259sin sevm\u0259diyi t\u0131xacam ki..<\/p>\n<p>i\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259m X\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259n,<br \/>\ni\u00e7im titr\u0259yir.<br \/>\ndey\u0259s\u0259n bu g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 yan\u0131ndan ke\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259m<br \/>\nayaqlar\u0131m h\u0259r add\u0131m\u0131nda b\u00fcdr\u0259yir..<br \/>\ndi\u015fl\u0259rim..<br \/>\nsabah xo\u015fb\u0259xtlikl\u0259rini<br \/>\nac\u0131mas\u0131zcas\u0131na \u00e7eyn\u0259yir..<br \/>\nyemi\u015f\u0259m \u00fcmidl\u0259rd\u0259n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 qa\u015f\u0131ql\u0131q,<br \/>\nm\u0259d\u0259m dey\u0259s\u0259n g\u00f6yn\u0259yir.<br \/>\ni\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259m X\u0259z\u0259rin \u00e7irkini..<br \/>\n&#8211; Neynirs\u0259n, bilmirs\u0259n intihard\u0131 bu etdikl\u0259rin?<br \/>\n&#8211; Ehh, onsuz da h\u0259r yer bula\u015f\u0131ql\u0131q..<\/p>\n<p>S\u0259rxo\u015fam bilirs\u0259nmi?<br \/>\nbu g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 Kafkaya d\u00f6nd\u00fcy\u00fcmd\u0259n qorxuram.<br \/>\nqapanm\u0131\u015fam qap\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131na..<br \/>\n\u015f\u0259h\u0259rim, evim, i\u00e7im, s\u00f6z\u00fcm yoxdu &#8211; bir s\u00f6zl\u0259 bo\u015fam<br \/>\nhe\u00e7 h\u0259v\u0259sim d\u0259 qalmay\u0131b<br \/>\nhans\u0131sa bir x\u0259b\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn da\u011f\u0131lam, t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259m, co\u015fam..<br \/>\ng\u0259l qap\u0131m\u0131 d\u00f6y<br \/>\nb\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259r \u015feyin<br \/>\nhirsini, \u0259s\u0259bini s\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xacam<br \/>\nsa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7iynim\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0131xacam ki..<\/p>\n<p>par\u00e7a-par\u00e7a, hiss\u0259-hiss\u0259 olub<br \/>\nevinin dam\u0131na ya\u011facam ki,<br \/>\n\u0259ll\u0259rini g\u00f6y\u0259 qald\u0131r\u0131b<br \/>\ndua ed\u0259s\u0259n Allaha<br \/>\nm\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn<br \/>\nne\u00e7\u0259 ill\u0259rd\u0259n sonra<br \/>\nbirinci d\u0259f\u0259..<br \/>\nbel\u0259 bir savaba bataram s\u0259nin kimi dindar dilind\u0259n bel\u0259 des\u0259k..<br \/>\nb\u0259lk\u0259 dua ed\u0259s\u0259n Allaha<br \/>\nm\u0259ni s\u0259b\u0259b g\u0259tir\u0259r\u0259k?<br \/>\nm\u0259n qalmama\u011fa haz\u0131ram uza\u011f\u0131nda..<br \/>\nb\u0259lk\u0259 o sevdiyin Allaha do\u011fru t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259k?<br \/>\nt\u00f6vb\u0259 etm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m<br \/>\ns\u0259nin \u0259ll\u0259rinl\u0259 gedim onun h\u00fczuruna<br \/>\nm\u0259n g\u00fcnahlar\u0131m\u0131n say\u0131n\u0131-hesab\u0131n\u0131 itir\u0259n<br \/>\nsay\u011facam ki\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Qay\u0131dacam,<br \/>\ng\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 bir daha el\u0259 baxacam ki,<br \/>\nqorxmayacaqsan \u0259vv\u0259lkit\u0259k..<br \/>\ni\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 prospektin<br \/>\nma\u015f\u0131n \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259, fotoqraflara baxmas\u0131 kimi<br \/>\nm\u0259n el\u0259 bir a\u011facam ki,<br \/>\nyarpaqlar\u0131m\u0131 al\u0131b aparan q\u0131z\u0131l pay\u0131z\u0131n<br \/>\nq\u0131\u015fdan qorxub qa\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131<br \/>\ndaldaland\u0131\u011f\u0131<br \/>\ns\u0131n\u0131q, s\u00f6k\u00fck daxmas\u0131 kimi..<br \/>\n\u0259riyib, \u0259riyib, s\u00fcz\u00fclm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m<br \/>\nk\u00f6yn\u0259yimin i\u00e7ind\u0259<br \/>\nya\u011f\u0131\u015f damc\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259k bo\u015flu\u011fumdan<br \/>\nd\u00f6\u015f q\u0259f\u0259sim\u0259 \u015f\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131yla axmas\u0131 kimi..<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"bawpvc-ajax-counter\" data-id=\"7794\">Yaz\u0131ya 975 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259k, b\u0259lk\u0259 qalar \u0259l izl\u0259ri.. Ya\u015flara toxun bir-bir, xat\u0131rla d\u0259nizl\u0259ri. Sa\u00e7\u0131ma s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259k, T\u0259s\u0259llim olsun \u0259lin.. He\u00e7 m\u0259nim olmasan da, Naz\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259k d\u0259c\u0259lin.. \u00dcz\u00fcm\u0259 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 Baxaraq m\u0259hv etm\u0259. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 al\u0131nmad\u0131, Bu d\u0259f\u0259 s\u0259hv etm\u0259 Demir\u0259m sev m\u0259cbur. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yan\u0131ndayam, Bacar\u0131rsan \u00f6ld\u00fcr, Son d\u0259f\u0259 \u0259fv etm\u0259.. **** A\u011fac (&#8220;S\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6nc\u0259, s\u0259nd\u0259n sonra..&#8221; [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":7710,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[15,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7794"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=7794"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7794\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7796,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7794\/revisions\/7796"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/7710"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=7794"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=7794"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=7794"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}