{"id":7887,"date":"2015-01-27T18:04:49","date_gmt":"2015-01-27T14:04:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=7887"},"modified":"2015-01-27T18:04:49","modified_gmt":"2015-01-27T14:04:49","slug":"f%c9%99xri-ugurlu-oglum-sonuncu-dayanacaqda-dus%c9%99c%c9%99k","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=7887","title":{"rendered":"F\u0259xri U\u011furlu — “O\u011flum sonuncu dayanacaqda d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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(Hekay\u0259)<\/p>\n

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Adam p\u0259t\u0259yinin k\u00fcy\u00fc gerid\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. P\u0131rs\u0131m\u0131\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rin, qart\u0131m\u0131\u015f s\u0259sl\u0259rin alt\u0131ndan can\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcb \u00e7\u0131xartm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\n– Bilmir\u0259m bu bazarda m\u0259nim n\u0259 alverim var, ay o\u011ful. Ax\u0131 bizim yediyimiz-i\u00e7diyimiz onsuz da z\u0259h\u0259rdi, o\u011ful, vallah, z\u0259h\u0259rdi\u2026
\n– \u2026
\nA\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r torbalar \u0259ll\u0259rini k\u0259sirdi. \u00c7iskinli k\u00fcl\u0259k g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bat\u0131rd\u0131. Bazar\u0131n pal\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131 aya\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0259kirdi.
\n– Yox, o\u011ful, s\u0259n\u0259 q\u0131ymaram. \u00d6z\u00fcm birt\u0259h\u0259r \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r\u0259m \u015f\u0259l\u0259mi.
\n– \u2026
\nT\u0131xanm\u0131\u015f yolu ma\u015f\u0131nlara d\u0259y\u0259-d\u0259y\u0259 ke\u00e7di. S\u0259kiy\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xa\u00e7\u0131xda arxas\u0131ndan ke\u00e7diyi iri avtobus i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Boz t\u00fcst\u00fc boz havaya duman kimi da\u011f\u0131ld\u0131. Z\u0259h\u0259r ciy\u0259rin\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259di.
\n– Allah\u0131n cans\u0131z d\u0259miri d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n k\u0259silib, o\u011ful. Yerd\u0259-g\u00f6yd\u0259 n\u0259 varsa, ham\u0131s\u0131 q\u0259sdim\u0259 durub.
\n– \u2026
\nDayanacaqda adam adama d\u0259yirdi. \u0130rili-x\u0131rdal\u0131 minikl\u0259r da\u015f\u0131b \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. Qap\u0131lar\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda it\u0259l\u0259\u015f\u0259n yol\u00e7ular bir-birinin \u0259t\u0259yind\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kirdi.
\n– Ham\u0131 balas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na t\u0259l\u0259sir. Ham\u0131 sabah\u0131na maya tutur. Birc\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259m mayas\u0131n\u0131 yey\u0259n, o\u011ful, mayas\u0131 yeyil\u0259n adam doyum bilm\u0259z. Ne\u00e7\u0259 ildi bu g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn bazar\u0131 \u015f\u0259l\u0259md\u0259 ev\u0259 da\u015f\u0131y\u0131ram, yen\u0259 d\u0259 n\u0259 dad bilirik, n\u0259 doyum.
\n– \u2026
\nAx\u015fama do\u011fru bazar seyr\u0259ldikc\u0259 yolun q\u0131raqlar\u0131 bazara d\u00f6n\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00d6z s\u00f6z\u00fc \u00f6z qula\u011f\u0131na \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131, s\u0259sd\u0259-k\u00fcl\u0259kd\u0259 az\u0131b itirdi. S\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yel aparmas\u0131n dey\u0259 s\u0259sini i\u00e7\u0259ri verirdi, \u00fcr\u0259yinin qula\u011f\u0131yla e\u015fidirdi.
\n– Bu basabasda \u00e7\u0259tin biz\u0259 yer olsun, o\u011ful. G\u0259ls\u0259n\u0259 bir az g\u0259z\u0259-g\u0259z\u0259 ged\u0259k, dan\u0131\u015faq, d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015f\u0259k\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– Yox, m\u0259nd\u0259n arxay\u0131n ol, \u015f\u0259l\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259nc\u0259liy\u0259m. Y\u00fck \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 el\u0259 bilir\u0259m n\u0259s\u0259 g\u00fcnah i\u015f tutmu\u015fam. Ged\u0259k. Yol azald\u0131qca yol\u00e7u da seyr\u0259lir, minikl\u0259r bo\u015fal\u0131r. Oturma\u011fa yer olanda min\u0259rik avtobusa.
\n– \u2026<\/p>\n

S\u0259ki eni \u00fc\u00e7 adam\u0131n yerini tutmu\u015fdu. Bir adaml\u0131q yer\u0259 d\u0259 i\u015f\u0131q dir\u0259kl\u0259rini b\u0259rkitmi\u015fdil\u0259r. Qar\u015f\u0131dan g\u0259l\u0259n s\u0259kid\u0259n yola d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb \u015f\u0259l\u0259si \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n a\u011f\u0131r adama yol verirdi.
\n– M\u0259n bu y\u00fck\u00fcn alt\u0131nda y\u00fcz il d\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259rdim, o\u011ful, t\u0259ki y\u00fcz birinci il\u0259 umudum olayd\u0131. D\u00fcnyan\u0131 \u00e7iynimd\u0259 saxlayard\u0131m. T\u0259kc\u0259 s\u0259ni k\u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 apara bilmir\u0259m. Belim q\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r, o\u011ful, belim q\u0131r\u0131l\u0131r.
\n– \u2026
\n– M\u0259n deyirdim s\u0259n m\u0259ni \u00e7iynind\u0259 aparasan. Harda g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcb ya\u015fl\u0131 ata cavan o\u011fulu k\u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 g\u0259zdir\u0259?..
\n– \u2026
\n– Bilirs\u0259n ata niy\u0259 balas\u0131ndan qabaq \u00f6lm\u0259k ist\u0259yir?
\n– \u2026
\n– O\u011flu \u00f6l\u0259n atan\u0131n sonras\u0131 indisind\u0259n qabaq \u00f6l\u00fcr, sabah\u0131 bug\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcr. El\u0259 birc\u0259 bu g\u00fcnl\u0259, bu saatla ya\u015famaq olmur, ay o\u011ful\u2026 M\u0259n s\u0259nin damarlar\u0131ndan qan\u0131m\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnyaya ax\u0131tmaq ist\u0259yirdim, s\u0259nin yadda\u015f\u0131nda sabaha sa\u011f \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259yirdim. S\u0259n m\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcn, o\u011ful, m\u0259ni\u2026
\n– \u2026<\/p>\n

Yol q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 uca evin eyvan\u0131nda bir g\u0259lin u\u015fa\u011f\u0131yla oynay\u0131rd\u0131. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131 at\u0131b-tuturdu, \u00f6p\u00fcrd\u00fc\u2026 \u00f6p\u00fcrd\u00fc, at\u0131b-tuturdu\u2026
\n– O yaz\u0131q da el\u0259 bilir babalar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcd\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcm balas\u0131na d\u0259ym\u0259c\u0259y\u0259k.
\n– \u2026
\n– Neyl\u0259sin, o da sabaha ayr\u0131 yol tan\u0131m\u0131r. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k uydurub, bug\u00fcnd\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb qa\u00e7\u0131r. \u0130\u015fdi, bird\u0259n u\u015faq \u0259lind\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259, o g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin d\u0259 i\u00e7 \u00fcz\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131lacaq\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– Deyirs\u0259n q\u0259ddar olmu\u015fam? B\u0259s g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yi \u0259lind\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n adam nec\u0259 olar!.. Adam g\u0259r\u0259k indisind\u0259n qa\u00e7mas\u0131n, o\u011ful. N\u0259 olursa, indi olur, indi olmayan he\u00e7 vaxt olmaz. Adam g\u0259r\u0259k ke\u00e7mi\u015fi d\u0259, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yi d\u0259 indinin ba\u015f\u0131na y\u0131\u011fa bilsin. \u0130ndisi olmayan\u0131n g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yi g\u0259lm\u0259z. El\u0259 hey qa\u00e7ar o g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin dal\u0131nca, ax\u0131rda da bax\u0131b g\u00f6r\u0259r b\u00f6yr\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7diyi n\u0259 boyda ke\u00e7mi\u015f varm\u0131\u015f!.. Qalar bir q\u0131s\u0131r g\u00fcn\u00fcn gec\u0259siyl\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn aras\u0131nda, s\u0259hra kimi yapyal\u0131n bir indinin ortas\u0131nda \u2013 n\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015fi qay\u0131dar, n\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yi g\u0259l\u0259r\u2026 Bel\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259, bel\u0259 bug\u00fcn\u0259 f\u0259l\u0259k d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259ni d\u0259 salmas\u0131n, o\u011ful.
\n– \u2026<\/p>\n

N\u0259f\u0259si k\u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Torbalar\u0131 \u0259lind\u0259n qopar\u0131b, s\u0259kinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259yilmi\u015f a\u011faca s\u00f6yk\u0259di. Ovuclar\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7i k\u0259sik-k\u0259sik olmu\u015fdu. D\u00f6n\u00fcb baxd\u0131: eyvandak\u0131 g\u0259lin u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259ri aparm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. F\u0259l\u0259k m\u00f6hl\u0259t vermi\u015fdi.
\n– Bilir\u0259m, el\u0259 bilirs\u0259n m\u0259nim g\u00fcnah\u0131mdan yoxa \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131san. M\u0259nim g\u00fcnah\u0131m bilirs\u0259n n\u0259d\u0259 olub? M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 s\u0259n kimi yox, \u00f6z g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yim kimi baxm\u0131\u015fam. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm yox, s\u0259nin ke\u00e7mi\u015fin bilmi\u015f\u0259m. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc s\u0259nd\u0259n ay\u0131rmam\u0131\u015fam. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 n\u0259 m\u0259nim g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yim olub, n\u0259 s\u0259nin ke\u00e7mi\u015fin. M\u0259n g\u0259r\u0259k s\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n ay\u0131rayd\u0131m, o\u011ful.
\n– \u2026
\n– H\u0259, bu, g\u00fcnahm\u0131\u015f, o\u011ful, m\u0259n d\u0259 bilm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Heyvan heyvanl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla balas\u0131n\u0131 ay\u0131r\u0131r. H\u0259r k\u0259sin \u00f6mr\u00fc \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 qurtar\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, o\u011ful, h\u0259r k\u0259s \u00f6z indisind\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. Adam h\u0259r n\u0259f\u0259sd\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcb-dirilirmi\u015f. De g\u00f6r\u00fcm ata o\u011fulun, ya o\u011ful atan\u0131n yerin\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s ala bil\u0259rmi?
\n– \u2026
\n– Ancaq m\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259simi s\u0259nl\u0259 al\u0131rd\u0131m. S\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 o\u011fuldan art\u0131q olmusan. O\u011fuldan art\u0131q n\u0259 dem\u0259kdi, o\u011ful?
\n– \u2026
\n– S\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc qism\u0259tim\u0259 t\u00fcp\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m\u2026 Zibilda\u015f\u0131yan ki\u015finin q\u0131z\u0131yla sevi\u015firdim. El\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131z\u0131d\u0131, o\u011ful, dey\u0259rdin ba\u011fban q\u0131z\u0131d\u0131. Soru\u015fsalar yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 Allah\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n olubmu, m\u0259n dey\u0259rdim o q\u0131z g\u00f6r\u00fcb.
\n– \u2026
\n– M\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, o\u011ful, m\u0259nd\u0259\u2026 N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ki atas\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131m\u0131rd\u0131m, el\u0259 bilirdim g\u00fcl ba\u011f\u0131nda b\u0259sl\u0259nib. \u00d6zu d\u0259 gizl\u0259dirdi, deyirdi atam neft buru\u011funda i\u015fl\u0259yir. Bir g\u00fcn \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259ldik. Zibillikd\u0259 e\u015f\u0259l\u0259nirdi. \u00dcst-ba\u015f\u0131ndan neft\u00e7iy\u0259 ox\u015fasa da, yaxas\u0131ndan t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n n\u00f6y\u00fct qaras\u0131 deyildi, zibil qaras\u0131yd\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b bizi g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259ki zir-zibili yer\u0259 at\u0131b \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 yeridi. Q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n sa\u00e7\u0131ndan tutub zibilliy\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Yaz\u0131q q\u0131z g\u00fccl\u0259 sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 onun \u0259lind\u0259n al\u0131b a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya evl\u0259rin\u0259 qa\u00e7d\u0131. Sonra ki\u015fi m\u0259n\u0259 cumdu. \u00c7\u0259kildim, \u015fill\u0259si bo\u015fa \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. T\u0259pik atd\u0131, t\u0259piyini g\u00f6yd\u0259 tutdum. O biri aya\u011f\u0131 axsa\u011f\u0131d\u0131, g\u00f6vd\u0259sini saxlamad\u0131. Ki\u015finin \u00f6z \u00e7\u0259kisi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131q el\u0259di, k\u00fcr\u0259yi yer\u0259 \u00e7atmam\u0131\u015f ba\u015f\u0131 taqq\u0131lt\u0131yla asfalta d\u0259yib geri qay\u0131td\u0131, papa\u011f\u0131 zibilliy\u0259 sar\u0131 diyirl\u0259ndi. Qorxumdan tez ordan qa\u00e7\u0131b uzaqla\u015fd\u0131m. Zibillikd\u0259n arala\u015fma\u011f\u0131na arala\u015fd\u0131m, o\u011ful, di g\u0259l, ondan bet\u0259r zibil\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. Ham\u0131s\u0131 da s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259… Ged\u0259k, o\u011flum, ged\u0259k…
\n– \u2026
\n– Niy\u0259sini bilm\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n, deyim: ax\u0131 m\u0259n zibilda\u015f\u0131yan axsa\u011f\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131ndan y\u00fcks\u0259k insan sortunu nec\u0259 ala bil\u0259rdim?! M\u0259nim o\u011flumu \u00abzibilda\u015f\u0131yan\u0131n n\u0259v\u0259si\u00bb deyin \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rayd\u0131lar? S\u0259nin xo\u015funa g\u0259l\u0259rdi baban\u0131 danasan?
\n– \u2026
\n– G\u0259lm\u0259zdi, d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda g\u0259lm\u0259zdi. H\u0259l\u0259 s\u0259n onun quca\u011f\u0131nda nec\u0259 oturacaqd\u0131n, kirli \u0259ll\u0259rini s\u0259nin telin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259n nec\u0259 d\u00f6z\u0259c\u0259kdim?!.. H\u0259, \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 dedim yaman zibil\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m. Dava-dala\u015f\u0131 b\u0259han\u0259 el\u0259yib q\u0131zdan qopmaq ist\u0259dim, ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn axtar\u0131b-aramad\u0131m onu. Handan-hana \u00f6z\u00fc g\u0259lib tapd\u0131 m\u0259ni, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 ax\u0131td\u0131, atas\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yd\u00fckc\u0259 s\u00f6yd\u00fc, qar\u011f\u0131d\u0131qca qar\u011f\u0131d\u0131. Dedim daha olan olub, ke\u00e7\u0259n ke\u00e7ib, ind\u0259n bel\u0259 s\u0259nin atanla \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m. El\u0259 bunu dediyimi g\u00f6rd\u00fcm, qolumun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259c\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n getdi\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– D\u00fcz deyirs\u0259n, o\u011ful, s\u00f6hb\u0259t \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259kd\u0259 deyildi, \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259rdim, lap o yana da ke\u00e7\u0259rdim. S\u00f6hb\u0259t s\u0259nin baban\u0131n kim olma\u011f\u0131ndayd\u0131, o\u011ful, s\u0259nin baban\u0131n\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– Sonra yen\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck. Ancaq daha m\u0259n ona s\u0259nin anan kimi baxmad\u0131m. \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 dedim o m\u0259nd\u0259n ayr\u0131lmaq ist\u0259mirs\u0259, m\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb?.. Bundan sonra zibilda\u015f\u0131yan ki\u015fid\u0259 n\u0259 yan\u0131\u011f\u0131m qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131sa, ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. Yaz\u0131q q\u0131z\u0131n dodaqlar\u0131, \u00e7\u0259n\u0259si, d\u00f6\u015fl\u0259ri, sin\u0259si di\u015fl\u0259k-di\u015fl\u0259k, sortuq-sortuq olurdu. Bird\u0259n onu ataram dey\u0259 s\u0259sini d\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xartm\u0131rd\u0131. Ax\u0131r\u0131 zibilda\u015f\u0131yanda he\u00e7 hay\u0131f\u0131m qalmad\u0131 \u2013 q\u0131z\u0131 r\u00fcsvay\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q qorxusundan d\u0259li oldu, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0259 d\u0259rdd\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yi yar\u0131ld\u0131. Ham\u0131s\u0131 da s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, ay o\u011ful, s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– Onda ananla yenic\u0259 ni\u015fanlanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. Getdiyimiz yerd\u0259 q\u0259fil qar\u015f\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Sift\u0259-sift\u0259 el\u0259 bil tan\u0131mad\u0131; z\u0259ndl\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 bax\u0131b n\u0259yis\u0259 yada salmaq ist\u0259yirdi. O axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131 n\u0259ydis\u0259, yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259yilib yerd\u0259n da\u015f g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc, bir-iki yol qorxutdusa da, da\u015f\u0131 biz\u0259 atmad\u0131, yer\u0259 atd\u0131. Sonra q\u0259fil g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fc kimi q\u0259fil d\u0259 g\u00f6zd\u0259n itdi\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– Daha onu g\u00f6rm\u0259dim. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, atas\u0131 \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra d\u0259lixanaya aparm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Eeyyy, ay o\u011ful, bilirs\u0259n d\u0259lixanada d\u0259lil\u0259ri nec\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcrl\u0259r?..
\n– \u2026
\n– Yox, a\u011flam\u0131ram, o\u011ful, n\u0259y\u0259 a\u011flayacam, kim\u0259 a\u011flayacam?! M\u0259nim \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc a\u011flama\u011fa sin\u0259si da\u011fl\u0131 bir qo\u015fun arvad g\u0259r\u0259k. Yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 m\u0259n a\u011flayas\u0131 bir adam da yoxdu, o\u011ful\u2026
\n– \u2026<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00f6y ma\u015f\u0131n s\u0259kiy\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b saxlad\u0131. S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fcn yan\u0131nda oturan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b onu haraylad\u0131: \u00abA ki\u015fi, bir yerimiz var, g\u0259l otur, hara deyirs\u0259n aparaq, bu gedi\u015fl\u0259 ha\u00e7ana gedib \u00e7\u0131xarsan?\u00bb
\n– Yox, ay bala, biz iki n\u0259f\u0259rik, yeriniz dar olar, gedin.
\n\u018flinin havas\u0131yla ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 it\u0259l\u0259di. Ma\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131lar bir-birin\u0259 baxd\u0131lar, sonra s\u00fcr\u00fcb getdil\u0259r\u2026
\n– Onda \u015feirl\u0259rim yenic\u0259 \u00e7ap olunmu\u015fdu, ham\u0131s\u0131 da sevgi \u015feirl\u0259riydi. S\u00f6z\u00fcn-s\u0259n\u0259tin say\u0131lan \u00e7a\u011flar\u0131yd\u0131, ad\u0131m dill\u0259r\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Yoxsa el\u0259 bilirs\u0259n anan m\u0259ni b\u0259y\u0259n\u0259rdi? Varl\u0131 evin, k\u00fcbar n\u0259slin q\u0131z\u0131yd\u0131, evl\u0259rind\u0259 yem\u0259yi g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f \u00e7\u0259ng\u0259l-qa\u015f\u0131qla yeyirdil\u0259r. Vara-pula ehtiyaclar\u0131 yoxudu, onlar\u0131n xo\u015funa g\u0259lm\u0259kd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc bir az a\u011fl\u0131n, ondan bir az \u00e7ox ad-san\u0131n, bir d\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f adamlar\u0131n inam\u0131 olsa, yet\u0259rdi. M\u0259n s\u0259ni el\u0259 bir evd\u0259n-ocaqdan u\u00e7urtmaq ist\u0259yirdim, o\u011ful. Zibillikd\u0259n m\u0259n dediyim yer\u0259 gedib \u00e7atma\u011fa \u00fc\u00e7 \u00f6m\u00fcr d\u0259 yetm\u0259zdi.
\n– \u2026
\n– Deyirs\u0259n b\u0259s m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm kim olmu\u015fam? M\u0259nim babam, o\u011ful, mahal\u0131n \u0259n say\u0131lan, varl\u0131-hall\u0131 ki\u015fisi olub; ilx\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7 ilx\u0131\u00e7\u0131, nax\u0131r\u0131n\u0131 be\u015f nax\u0131r\u00e7\u0131 otar\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 d\u00f6rd dil bilirmi\u015f, h\u00f6kum\u0259t d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259s\u0259ymi\u015f, pad\u015fahdan b\u0259ylik alacaqm\u0131\u015f. Nolsun atam ac\u0131ndan \u00f6l\u00fcb, babamdan qalanlar\u0131n yiy\u0259si olmay\u0131b? \u018fv\u0259zind\u0259 atam babam\u0131 \u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259 qoymay\u0131b, g\u00f6d\u0259k \u00f6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 macal tap\u0131b babam\u0131n qan\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259nim damar\u0131ma ax\u0131d\u0131b.
\n– \u2026
\n– D\u00fczd\u00fc, m\u0259n d\u0259 babam\u0131n yerini tuta bilm\u0259dim. B\u00fcn\u00f6vr\u0259m olmad\u0131, o\u011ful, b\u00fcn\u00f6vr\u0259m. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm m\u0259nd\u0259n olsa-olsa el\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 b\u00fcn\u00f6vr\u0259 olar. S\u0259nin b\u00fcn\u00f6vr\u0259n, o\u011ful, s\u0259nin\u2026 Babam\u0131n amanat\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259 \u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm, dedim onun qisas\u0131n\u0131 f\u0259l\u0259kd\u0259n s\u0259n alarsan. Ustadlar m\u0259nim b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yimd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar, ancaq m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 he\u00e7 bir g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k-zad qurmurdum. S\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6zg\u0259 hans\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k m\u0259ni arzuma yetir\u0259rdi?!
\n– \u2026
\n– Arzu dey\u0259nd\u0259, o\u011ful, m\u0259nim he\u00e7 \u00f6z arzum da yoxudu. Ata-babam\u0131n s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259ri can\u0131mda \u015faqq\u0131lda\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, gec\u0259l\u0259r s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcn a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131ndan yatamm\u0131rd\u0131m. M\u0259nim arzum onlar\u0131n arzusuydu. M\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n bir n\u0259rdivan d\u00fcz\u0259ldib s\u0259ni onlar\u0131n arzusuna \u00e7\u0131xartmaq ist\u0259yirdim. B\u0259lk\u0259 ondan sonra s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259rim dinc\u0259l\u0259ydi\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– M\u0259nim b\u00fct\u00fcn umudlar\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259 ba\u011flama\u011f\u0131m anan\u0131n xo\u015funa g\u0259lmirdi. Ondan olsa, he\u00e7 s\u0259ni d\u0259 do\u011fmazd\u0131. M\u0259n az\u0131ndan \u00fc\u00e7 o\u011ful ist\u0259yirdim, o he\u00e7 birin\u0259 durmurdu. Onun b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcy\u00fc d\u00fcnyada \u00f6zg\u0259nin c\u0259fas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k gerilik say\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. O he\u00e7 babas\u0131n\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 da d\u00fcz-\u0259m\u0259lli bilmirdi. Onun k\u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 n\u0259 anas\u0131na, n\u0259 balas\u0131na yer vard\u0131. S\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc day\u0259 tutdurmu\u015fdu, s\u00fcd\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6zg\u0259 verirdi, laylan\u0131 \u00f6zg\u0259 deyirdi. Bar\u0131 bir gec\u0259 \u0259ziyy\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259km\u0259dik, s\u0259sin\u0259 oyanmad\u0131q\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– \u00c7\u0131\u011f\u0131rt\u0131n g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 anan cinl\u0259nib \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131, bula\u015f\u0131q \u0259sgil\u0259rini g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 iyr\u0259nib \u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc, \u00f6d\u00fc a\u011fz\u0131na g\u0259lirdi. Do\u011fulanda onu yaman incitmi\u015fdin, s\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flaya bilmirdi. Durum deyim \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131 \u2013 bu da yalan olar, o yaz\u0131q he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131 da bacarm\u0131rd\u0131. Bel\u0259si ya\u015famaq bilm\u0259z, o\u011ful, s\u0259nin anan kimisini ancaq ya\u015fatmaq olar.
\n– \u2026
\n– H\u0259, o da o biri q\u0131zlar kimi m\u0259nim \u015feirl\u0259rimd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015fadan n\u0259s\u0259 tapm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ona n\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn, n\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259nim balam g\u0259r\u0259yidi. Ona m\u0259n g\u0259r\u0259yidim, o\u011ful, t\u0259kc\u0259 m\u0259n. O \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259nim \u0259liml\u0259 ya\u015fatmaq ist\u0259yirdi. \u015eeirl\u0259rimin i\u00e7ind\u0259 e\u015f\u0259l\u0259nib \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc axtar\u0131rd\u0131, s\u0259tirl\u0259ri \u0259l\u0259k-v\u0259l\u0259k el\u0259yirdi: burda n\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259mis\u0259n, bunu hans\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 yazm\u0131san, filan misrada kimi fikrind\u0259 tutmusan, filan t\u0259svir m\u0259n\u0259 niy\u0259 ox\u015fam\u0131r?.. Bilirs\u0259n bu n\u0259 dem\u0259kdi?
\n– \u2026
\n– Dem\u0259li, bu adamlar\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 \u015feir yazd\u0131ran duy\u011fu-filan \u00e7\u0259kmirmi\u015f \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259. S\u0259nin anan da, o biri q\u0131zlar da m\u0259nim \u015feirl\u0259rimd\u0259 axtar\u0131b tapd\u0131qlar\u0131 \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 vurulmu\u015fdular. S\u00f6zd\u0259n yonulan heyk\u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 vurulmu\u015fdular. M\u0259n d\u0259 sifari\u015fi yax\u015f\u0131 yerin\u0259 yetir\u0259n usta kimi onlar\u0131n kar\u0131na g\u0259lmi\u015fdim. Ham\u0131s\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 vurulmu\u015fdu, ham\u0131s\u0131 \u00f6z d\u0259rdind\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcrd\u00fc, o\u011ful. Birc\u0259 ondan savay\u0131, zibilda\u015f\u0131yan\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131ndan savay\u0131\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– Yoox, o he\u00e7 bilmirdi m\u0259n n\u0259 i\u015fin-s\u0259n\u0259tin yiy\u0259siy\u0259m, bilmirdi ke\u00e7mi\u015fim nolub, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yim nolacaq. El\u0259c\u0259 \u0259riyib can\u0131ma hopmaq ist\u0259yirdi, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc pu\u00e7 el\u0259yib m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259yirdi. Yoxa \u00e7\u0131xmaqdan ba\u015fqa bir umaca\u011f\u0131 yoxudu.
\n– \u2026
\n– Ancaq anan el\u0259 bilirdi o \u015feirl\u0259r ondan savay\u0131 kims\u0259y\u0259 yaz\u0131la bilm\u0259z. O s\u0259tirl\u0259rin nec\u0259 bir zibild\u0259n yarand\u0131\u011f\u0131 onun yuxusuna da girm\u0259zdi. M\u0259nim yazd\u0131qlar\u0131mdan birc\u0259 yol da \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259di, birc\u0259 misram\u0131 da x\u0259yan\u0259t ba\u015f\u0131nda yaxalamad\u0131. \u015e\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259k ona s\u0259rf el\u0259mirdi. T\u0259kc\u0259 o yaz\u0131qla q\u0259fil qabaqla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z g\u00fcn\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– Q\u0131z\u0131n m\u0259nim i\u00e7im\u0259 baxma\u011f\u0131ndan anan\u0131n dala\u011f\u0131 sancm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Soru\u015fdu o q\u0131z s\u0259n\u0259 niy\u0259 el\u0259 d\u0259rin baxd\u0131? Dedim, g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, kim\u0259s\u0259 ox\u015fad\u0131b\u2026 O yaz\u0131q m\u0259ni do\u011frudan tan\u0131mam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00dczd\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 tan\u0131may\u0131b i\u00e7im\u0259 boylanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, i\u00e7imi tan\u0131ma\u011fa da t\u0259p\u0259ri \u00e7atmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. D\u0259li tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan qorxar, o da bizd\u0259n qorxub qa\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u2026
\n– \u2026
\nDan\u0131\u015fa-dan\u0131\u015fa sonrak\u0131 dayanaca\u011fa \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Burda da adam adam\u0131 minirdi. Oturacaqlar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015f \u00e7arda\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131nda diz qatlay\u0131b torbalar\u0131 iki aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na y\u0131\u011fd\u0131. Ovcuna yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 ehmalca aralay\u0131b \u0259ll\u0259rinin i\u00e7ini ovu\u015fdurdu. Ovcundak\u0131 k\u0259sikl\u0259r \u00f6m\u00fcr x\u0259tl\u0259rini do\u011fram-do\u011fram, q\u0131r\u0131q-q\u0131r\u0131q, pozuq-pozuq el\u0259mi\u015fdi.
\n– Yox, balam, dey\u0259n biz\u0259 burda da yer olmayacaq. G\u0259l bir az da ged\u0259k, o\u011flum, dan\u0131\u015faq, d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015f\u0259k\u2026 \u0130r\u0259lid\u0259 seyr\u0259klik olar el\u0259 bilir\u0259m.
\n– \u2026<\/p>\n

Yen\u0259 yolun q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, yola yolda\u015f oldu.
\n– \u00d6mr\u00fcm boyu yol q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131yla getdim, o\u011flum. Birc\u0259 yol yolun yiy\u0259si olmad\u0131m. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc s\u0259n\u0259 yol el\u0259dim, dedim, \u00fcst\u00fcmd\u0259n adlay\u0131b ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259rimi g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259rim\u0259 calayasan. S\u0259n d\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcmd\u0259n getm\u0259din, \u00fcst\u00fcmd\u0259 getdin.
\n– \u2026
\n– Yad\u0131ndam\u0131 dava ba\u015flayanda yen\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rman\u0131b ortaya \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. El\u0259 bilirs\u0259n v\u0259t\u0259nd\u0259n, mill\u0259td\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc oda at\u0131rd\u0131m?! He\u00e7 do\u011fmaca k\u0259ndim\u0259 ill\u0259rl\u0259 y\u00f6n\u00fcm d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fc. O k\u0259ndd\u0259 m\u0259nim babam\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 durub da\u011f kimi ki\u015fini Sibir\u0259 s\u00fcrd\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r, atam\u0131 yurdundan did\u0259rgin salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. M\u0259n o torpa\u011f\u0131n, o adamlar\u0131n n\u0259yini sev\u0259c\u0259kdim?! B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n onlardan babam\u0131n qisas\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131rd\u0131\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– Yoox, o\u011ful, m\u0259nim \u0259ll\u0259\u015fdiyim s\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fcyd\u00fc. M\u0259nim v\u0259t\u0259nim d\u0259, mill\u0259tim d\u0259, dinim-iman\u0131m da s\u0259nidin, o\u011ful.
\n– \u2026
\n– Yad\u0131nda olar, bir ara acl\u0131q-q\u0131tl\u0131q ba\u015flayanda, d\u00fckanlar bo\u015falanda, pul ka\u011f\u0131za d\u00f6n\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259n yaman d\u0259bd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. Camaat \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k hay\u0131na qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, s\u00f6z-s\u0259n\u0259t kimin vecin\u0259ydi?! Baban m\u00fcflis olmu\u015fdu, day\u0131lar\u0131n d\u0259bd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f paltar geyirdi. Yad\u0131ndam\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 \u0259t yemirdik, \u015forbayla ke\u00e7inirdik. Daha anan da m\u0259ni ki\u015fi saym\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130kimizi d\u0259 saym\u0131rd\u0131! \u015e\u0259h\u0259rin g\u00f6b\u0259yind\u0259ki evimizi sat\u0131b ucqara k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fck, yad\u0131ndam\u0131? Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t d\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 bel\u0259 girl\u0259dik\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– Ancaq m\u0259nim acl\u0131q-pulsuzluq-filan vecim\u0259 deyildi. S\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc bir i\u015f g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259m\u0259yim \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc m\u0259ni. G\u00f6z\u00fcm g\u00f6r\u0259-g\u00f6r\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yim pu\u00e7 olub gedirdi.
\n– \u2026
\n– Bu t\u0131nc\u0131xan yerimd\u0259 f\u0259l\u0259k el\u0259 bil suyu m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc buland\u0131rd\u0131, \u00e7\u0131rman gir i\u00e7in\u0259, dedi, n\u0259 tuta bilirs\u0259n, tut\u2026 M\u0259n d\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rmand\u0131m, n\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rmand\u0131m! Q\u0259l\u0259mimd\u0259n qan damd\u0131! Misralar\u0131m avtomat kimi atd\u0131, s\u0259tirl\u0259rim pulemyot kimi \u015faqq\u0131ldad\u0131. N\u00f6qt\u0259m, verg\u00fcl\u00fcm, nidam ka\u011f\u0131za g\u00fcll\u0259 kimi d\u0259ydi\u2026 Daha t\u0259kc\u0259 qad\u0131nlar yox, b\u00fct\u00fcn mill\u0259t \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259nim \u015feirimd\u0259 axtar\u0131rd\u0131. \u00c7iyinl\u0259rd\u0259 g\u0259zirdim. Milyon adam bird\u0259n \u0259l \u00e7al\u0131rd\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259. Anan yen\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259nib-d\u00fcz\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. D\u00fcnyan\u0131 qana \u00e7alxay\u0131rd\u0131m, o\u011ful, qana! Ham\u0131s\u0131 da s\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fcyd\u00fc, o\u011flum, s\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– \u00d6z\u00fcn yax\u015f\u0131 bilirs\u0259n, davada \u00f6l\u00fcm-itim d\u0259 olur, ucalmaq da. S\u0259n bil\u0259n, atan s\u0259ni \u00f6z \u0259liyl\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259 n\u0259 deyib g\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015fdi? \u00d6lm\u0259y\u0259? B\u0259lk\u0259 m\u0259nim nam\u0259rd k\u0259nd\u00e7il\u0259rimi qoruma\u011fa?
\n– \u2026
\n– M\u0259n davan\u0131 s\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc q\u0131z\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131m, o\u011ful, q\u0259hr\u0259man olma\u011f\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259n\u0259 meydan a\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131m. S\u0259ni c\u0259bh\u0259y\u0259 yola sald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259n sonra bilirs\u0259nmi n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r cavan d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259 k\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fc getdi! M\u0259n mill\u0259ti s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 aya\u011fa qald\u0131rd\u0131m, o\u011ful, dedim s\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k-dayaq olsunlar. Qo\u015funun olsunlar, \u0259sg\u0259rin olsunlar\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– Yox, ay o\u011ful, d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n n\u0259di, he\u00e7 \u00f6z torpa\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda da g\u00f6z\u00fcm olmay\u0131b. Torpaq n\u0259di \u2013 s\u0259nin aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n tozu. O tozu q\u0131z\u0131l tozuna d\u00f6nd\u0259rs\u0259n, s\u0259n d\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259rdin.
\n– \u2026
\n– S\u0259n d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fd\u0259n at belind\u0259 qay\u0131tsayd\u0131n, at\u0131n\u0131n d\u0131rna\u011f\u0131ndan qopan da\u015f da d\u00f6n\u00fcb q\u0131z\u0131l olacaqd\u0131. Bizd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc daha s\u0259nin-m\u0259nim s\u00f6hb\u0259ti qalmayacaqd\u0131. Bu torpaqda, bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 n\u0259 varsa, adamlar\u0131n evind\u0259, e\u015fiyind\u0259, cibind\u0259 n\u0259 varsa, ham\u0131s\u0131 s\u0259nin olacaqd\u0131. S\u0259nin \u2013 m\u0259nim o\u011flumun, atam\u0131n n\u0259v\u0259sinin, babam\u0131n n\u0259tic\u0259sinin. Onda babam\u0131n itirdiyi bir yana, qazana bilm\u0259diyi d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qay\u0131dacaqd\u0131\u2026 D\u00fcz demir\u0259m?
\n– \u2026<\/p>\n

Torbalardan birinin qulpu q\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131, i\u00e7ind\u0259kil\u0259r da\u011f\u0131l\u0131b s\u0259kinin sa\u011f\u0131na-soluna diyirl\u0259ndi. \u018flind\u0259kil\u0259ri bir a\u011faca s\u00f6yk\u0259yib t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259nl\u0259ri d\u0259nl\u0259di. Torban\u0131n q\u0131r\u0131q qulpunu o biri tay\u0131na d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259di. Yan\u0131ndan \u00f6t\u0259n bir o\u011flan y\u00fck\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259l atmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 qoymad\u0131.
\n– K\u00f6m\u0259yim var, ay bala, s\u0259n get, yolundan qalma.<\/p>\n

O\u011flan \u00e7a\u015fq\u0131n-\u00e7a\u015fq\u0131n sa\u011fa-sola boyland\u0131, sonra yoluna d\u00fcz\u0259ldi. O\u011flan\u0131n dal\u0131nca o da s\u0259hrada y\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xan y\u00fckl\u00fc \u0259sg\u0259r kimi yolu \u0259lin\u0259 ald\u0131.
\n– Sava\u015f n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r uzansa, meydan n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r gen\u0259ls\u0259, s\u0259rk\u0259rd\u0259nin q\u0259nim\u0259ti bir o q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox olar. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n meydan\u0131 soyuma\u011fa qoymurdum. Toplar-t\u00fcf\u0259ngl\u0259r yat\u0131\u015fanda q\u0259l\u0259mim top kimi a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131b yatanlar\u0131 s\u0259ks\u0259ndirirdi. Mill\u0259tin can\u0131na bir ucdan od at\u0131rd\u0131m, cavanlar\u0131 k\u00f6r\u00fckl\u0259yirdim. Ax\u0131 bizim davam\u0131z h\u0259l\u0259 ir\u0259lid\u0259ydi. S\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb b\u00fct\u00fcn ordunun ba\u015f\u0131nda durmal\u0131yd\u0131n, generallar buyruq\u00e7un olmal\u0131yd\u0131. S\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 a\u011f a\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, g\u00f6y g\u00f6yl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u00f6nm\u0259liydi. O boyaqlar ham\u0131s\u0131 s\u0259ni b\u0259z\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn boyanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, o\u011flum\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– S\u0259n da\u015f \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 otursan, da\u015f\u0131n taxt olmal\u0131yd\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131na h\u0259sir qoysan, h\u0259sirin tac olmal\u0131yd\u0131. F\u0259l\u0259yin f\u0259rmanlar\u0131 s\u0259nin barma\u011f\u0131nla m\u00f6h\u00fcrl\u0259nm\u0259liydi. Q\u0131zlar\u0131n b\u0259tni s\u0259nin toxumuna yerikl\u0259m\u0259liydi, arvadlar\u0131n b\u0259tni qudurub bar\u0131n\u0131 yem\u0259liydi\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– H\u0259l\u0259 bu haras\u0131d\u0131?! Ya\u011f\u0131 q\u0131zlar\u0131 da atalar\u0131n\u0131, \u0259rl\u0259rini, u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131 at\u0131b g\u0259lib s\u0259nin bayra\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6p\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r, s\u0259nd\u0259n d\u00f6l tutacaqd\u0131lar. D\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n qalas\u0131n\u0131n a\u00e7ar\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131na m\u0259cm\u0259yid\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kdi, o\u011ful, ya\u011f\u0131 qoru\u011funun kilidi a\u00e7ar\u0131nla s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259kdi\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– Uzaq-uzaq \u00f6lk\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 alab\u0259z\u0259k q\u0131zlar ax\u0131\u015facaqd\u0131. Babam\u0131n toxumu b\u00fct\u00fcn yer \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0259pil\u0259c\u0259kdi. Min-min ill\u0259r sonra da m\u0259nim qan\u0131m bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n damar\u0131nda h\u0259rl\u0259n\u0259c\u0259kdi\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– \u018fn uca da\u011f\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131ndan biz\u0259 salam g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259kdin, biz d\u0259 s\u0259n varsan dey\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc arxal\u0131, k\u00f6m\u0259kli bil\u0259c\u0259kdik\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– S\u0259ni o da\u011f\u0131n \u0259t\u0259yind\u0259 vurdular, o\u011flum, d\u0259r\u0259l\u0259r yuyat yerin, da\u011flar ba\u015fda\u015f\u0131n oldu\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– M\u0259n s\u0259ni \u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259mi g\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015fdim, o\u011ful?!
\n– \u2026<\/p>\n

\u015e\u0259l\u0259ni yer\u0259 qoyub cibind\u0259n \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131.
\n– O g\u00fcn yen\u0259 o q\u0131z g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Ax\u0131 bu n\u0259 t\u0259h\u0259r olan i\u015fdi, on il bir yerd\u0259 oxumusuz, q\u0131z\u0131n s\u0259ni sevdiyini bilm\u0259mis\u0259n? Dediyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, ona he\u00e7 m\u0259h\u0259l d\u0259 qoymam\u0131san.
\n– \u2026
\n– H\u0259, s\u0259n c\u0259bh\u0259d\u0259 olanda da g\u0259lmi\u015fdi, m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00fcnvan\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259mi\u015fdi. Ancaq s\u0259nin \u00e7antandan onun bir m\u0259ktubu da \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131. Bilmir\u0259m yazmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, yoxsa m\u0259ktub s\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7atmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Davada h\u0259r \u015fey olur, m\u0259ktub n\u0259di, adam az\u0131r, d\u0259st\u0259 az\u0131r, qo\u015fun az\u0131r\u2026 S\u0259n onun m\u0259ktubunu c\u0131r\u0131b atmazd\u0131n, o\u011ful, el\u0259mi?
\n– \u2026
\n– Atmazd\u0131n\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– H\u0259, qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131m, g\u00f6rd\u00fcm boynub\u00fck\u00fck durub. Ona baxanda \u00f6z d\u0259rdim yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, o\u011ful, boynum burulur\u2026 N\u0259 onun dili s\u00f6z tutdu, n\u0259 m\u0259nim. Handan-hana \u00e7\u0259n\u0259si titr\u0259y\u0259-titr\u0259y\u0259 s\u0259nin \u015f\u0259klini ist\u0259di. G\u0259tirdim verdim. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc pill\u0259k\u0259nd\u0259n nec\u0259 u\u00e7urlad\u0131sa, g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc yumub a\u00e7\u0131nca yoxa \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. S\u0259si \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n geri qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fcs\u00fc ax\u0131b pill\u0259k\u0259nin aya\u011f\u0131na \u00e7atanacan yerimd\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259n\u0259 bilm\u0259dim… Onun da a\u00e7ar\u0131 s\u0259nin \u0259lind\u0259 getdi, o\u011ful. Lap d\u00fcnyan\u0131n o ba\u015f\u0131nda sa\u011f g\u0259zib-dolansayd\u0131n, yen\u0259 o \u015f\u0259kild\u0259n \u00e7ox k\u00f6m\u0259k olard\u0131n ona\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– S\u0259ni m\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcm, o\u011flum, m\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcm\u2026
\n– \u2026<\/p>\n

\u015e\u0259kli cibin\u0259 qoyub \u015f\u0259l\u0259ni g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00c7iskin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259-g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 iyn\u0259 kimi bat\u0131rd\u0131.
\n– B\u0259lk\u0259 he\u00e7 do\u011fulmasayd\u0131n, yax\u015f\u0131 olard\u0131. \u00d6lm\u0259yi d\u0259 bilm\u0259zdin\u2026 Ananla \u0259lbir olub s\u0259n\u0259 yaman tor toxuduq, yaxan\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 tan\u0131td\u0131q. Kim deyir s\u0259ni \u00f6zg\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcb, o\u011ful?! Kim deyirs\u0259, yalan deyir, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck!
\n– \u2026
\n– S\u0259ni biz \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fck, o\u011flum, do\u011fmaca atan \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fc, anan \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\n– \u2026
\nYolu yar\u0131 el\u0259mi\u015fdi. Evl\u0259rin\u0259 ged\u0259n avtobus q\u0259fil b\u00f6yr\u00fcnd\u0259 saxlad\u0131. S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc qon\u015fu evd\u0259 olurdu, onu \u00fczd\u0259n tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Cavanlar y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259lind\u0259n ald\u0131lar, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0259 qolundan tutub salona qald\u0131rd\u0131lar. Qo\u015fa yerin birind\u0259 oturub o birini o\u011fluna saxlad\u0131. Ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 qalan yol\u00e7ular ondan incim\u0259dil\u0259r. Onun \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131na da fikir verm\u0259dil\u0259r. Al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar.
\n– S\u0259nd\u0259n sonra yaraqlan\u0131b c\u0259bh\u0259y\u0259 getm\u0259k ist\u0259dim. H\u0259l\u0259 qolumda g\u00fcc, dizimd\u0259 t\u0259p\u0259r vard\u0131. O vaxtacan d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nd\u0259n gileyli deyildim \u2013 m\u0259nim o\u011fluma meydan a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar ax\u0131, s\u0259ni q\u0259hr\u0259man el\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r\u2026 Ancaq onlar m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fcll\u0259 atd\u0131lar, m\u0259nim sabah\u0131m\u0131 gec\u0259nin b\u0259tnind\u0259n sald\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u0130nd\u0259n bel\u0259 m\u0259nim gec\u0259m n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r uzun olsa da, s\u0259h\u0259rim a\u00e7\u0131lmaz. M\u0259n daha axtalanm\u0131\u015f qoca yab\u0131yam, ind\u0259n bel\u0259 bu torpaqda m\u0259nim bir toxumum da c\u00fcc\u0259rm\u0259z, o\u011ful, c\u00fcc\u0259rm\u0259z\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– Bilirs\u0259nmi d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259 niy\u0259 getm\u0259dim? Gets\u0259ydim, d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nin u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da, k\u00f6rp\u0259sini d\u0259 g\u00fcll\u0259d\u0259n ke\u00e7ir\u0259c\u0259kdim. Qorxdum s\u0259n d\u0259 o k\u00f6rp\u0259l\u0259rin i\u00e7ind\u0259 olasan, o\u011flum.
\n– \u2026
\n– Yad\u0131ndad\u0131 d\u0259rvi\u015f dostum n\u0259 deyirdi? Deyirdi vaxts\u0131z \u00f6l\u0259n yer \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 bir d\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131r. Adam adam\u0131n \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259s\u0259 bilm\u0259z, deyirdi, k\u0259s\u0259rs\u0259n, k\u0259sdiyinin bir n\u00f6vb\u0259sini iki el\u0259y\u0259rs\u0259n, \u00fc\u00e7 el\u0259y\u0259rs\u0259n. G\u00f6yd\u0259kil\u0259r yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u00f6vb\u0259 tutublar, deyirdi, ancaq yerd\u0259n qovulanlar yer\u0259 n\u00f6vb\u0259siz qay\u0131dar\u2026 M\u0259n bel\u0259 s\u00f6zl\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7ox da inanmaram, o\u011ful, \u00f6z\u00fcn bilirs\u0259n. Ancaq d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259 dart\u0131nanda s\u0259ni yuxuda g\u00f6rdum. G\u00f6rd\u00fcm d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259 do\u011fulmusan. Burdak\u0131 k\u00f6rp\u0259liyin nec\u0259ydis\u0259, ordak\u0131 da el\u0259ydi. Burda hans\u0131 dild\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131nsa, orda da o dild\u0259 \u00e7\u0131r-\u00e7\u0131r \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131n\u2026 M\u0259n o yuxunu g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259rvi\u015fin hesab\u0131yla s\u0259n el\u0259 k\u00f6rp\u0259 olard\u0131n. Qorxdum, o\u011ful, ged\u0259m s\u0259ni \u00f6z \u0259liml\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259m. O k\u00f6rp\u0259likd\u0259 s\u0259ni \u00e7\u0259tin \u00fczd\u0259n tan\u0131yayd\u0131m.
\n– \u2026
\n– B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb cavan olanda dava yen\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131\u015facaq. D\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n d\u0259st\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131nda ata yurduna h\u00fccum \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. U\u015faqlar\u0131, qocalar\u0131 q\u0131l\u0131ncdan ke\u00e7ir\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. O vaxta qalsaq, b\u0259lk\u0259 ananla m\u0259ni d\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n, o\u011ful, tan\u0131mayacaqsan bizi. He\u00e7 indi d\u0259 tan\u0131mazsan, yaman d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fik, o\u011flum, yaman, yaman\u2026
\n– \u2026
\n– Eeyyy, ay o\u011ful, adam g\u0259r\u0259k indisini el\u0259 ya\u015faya, el\u0259 bil d\u00fcnyada n\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015f olub, n\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k \u2013 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 indi olub. Yoxsa m\u0259nim kimisinin indisind\u0259n n\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar \u2013 ke\u00e7mi\u015fim d\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcb, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yim d\u0259. G\u0259l indi ya\u015fa g\u00f6r\u00fcm, nec\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rsan!..
\n– \u2026<\/p>\n

Sonuncuya h\u0259l\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 dayanacaq qal\u0131rd\u0131. Yol evl\u0259rinin yan\u0131ndan ba\u015flay\u0131b evl\u0259rinin yan\u0131nda da qurtar\u0131rd\u0131. Sona q\u0259d\u0259r getm\u0259y\u0259 h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259si \u00e7atmad\u0131. Bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 dar\u0131ld\u0131, t\u0131nc\u0131xd\u0131, yerind\u0259n dik\u0259lib s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc haraylad\u0131.
\nAvtobusun \u0259yl\u0259ci ulad\u0131. Oturanlar qabaqk\u0131 oturaca\u011fa d\u0259yib qay\u0131td\u0131lar.
\n– M\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm bir az h\u0259rl\u0259nim, o\u011ful, havam \u00e7atm\u0131r. S\u0259n ay\u0131n-oyunu apar ev\u0259, anan bazarl\u0131q g\u00f6zl\u0259yir. He\u00e7 bilmir\u0259m o bazarda n\u0259 alverim var\u2026
\n– \u2026<\/p>\n

Durub ir\u0259li ke\u00e7di. Torbalar oturdu\u011fu yerd\u0259 qald\u0131. \u0130ki n\u0259f\u0259rlik yolpulunu s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fcn ovcuna qoydu:
\n– O\u011flum sonuncu dayanacaqda d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k\u2026<\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 891 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

(Hekay\u0259) Adam p\u0259t\u0259yinin k\u00fcy\u00fc gerid\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. P\u0131rs\u0131m\u0131\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rin, qart\u0131m\u0131\u015f s\u0259sl\u0259rin alt\u0131ndan can\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcb \u00e7\u0131xartm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. – Bilmir\u0259m bu bazarda m\u0259nim n\u0259 alverim var, ay o\u011ful. Ax\u0131 bizim yediyimiz-i\u00e7diyimiz onsuz da z\u0259h\u0259rdi, o\u011ful, vallah, z\u0259h\u0259rdi\u2026 – \u2026 A\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r torbalar \u0259ll\u0259rini k\u0259sirdi. \u00c7iskinli k\u00fcl\u0259k g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bat\u0131rd\u0131. Bazar\u0131n pal\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131 aya\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0259kirdi. – Yox, o\u011ful, s\u0259n\u0259 q\u0131ymaram. \u00d6z\u00fcm birt\u0259h\u0259r \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r\u0259m […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":7888,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7887"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=7887"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7887\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7889,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7887\/revisions\/7889"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/7888"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=7887"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=7887"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=7887"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}