{"id":8086,"date":"2015-02-04T12:06:19","date_gmt":"2015-02-04T08:06:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=8086"},"modified":"2015-02-04T12:06:19","modified_gmt":"2015-02-04T08:06:19","slug":"ayb%c9%99niz-%c9%99lyar-tale-hara-g%c9%99ldi-suruyur-m%c9%99ni","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=8086","title":{"rendered":"Ayb\u0259niz \u018flyar — Tale hara g\u0259ldi s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcr m\u0259ni"},"content":{"rendered":"

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“Ayb\u0259niz” deyirs\u0259n,
\nad\u0131m n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r —
\nG\u00f6z\u0259l \u015feir imi\u015f s\u0259nin dilind\u0259.
\nBir d\u0259 “Ayb\u0259niz” de,
\nYox, daha dem\u0259,
\n\u015feirl\u0259r q\u0131sqanar ad\u0131ma m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

* * *<\/p>\n

\u015eeir yazmaq
\nHam\u0131n\u0131 sevm\u0259kdir.<\/p>\n

V\u0259
\nSevm\u0259m\u0259kdir \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u015eeir yazmaq
\npay\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n sevgid\u0259n
\nh\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259 bir par\u00e7a b\u0259x\u015f etm\u0259kdir
\n\u00f6mr\u00fcn uzunu…<\/p>\n

* * *<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l \u015feirim s\u0259ni sevm\u0259kdir!
\nSin\u0259n\u0259 ba\u015f qoydu\u011fumda g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yummadan g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm \u0259n \u015firin yuxulard\u0131r…
\nS\u0259n m\u0259nd\u0259 qalan yegan\u0259 v\u0259 etibarl\u0131 dost kimis\u0259n,
\nH\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ixtiyar\u0131msan.
\n\u0130xtiyar\u0131mdasan!
\n\u018fn g\u00f6z\u0259l sevgil\u0259rd\u0259n yaran\u0131r \u015feirl\u0259r, y\u00fczl\u0259rl\u0259 \u015feirin h\u0259s\u0259d \u00e7\u0259kdiyi z\u00fcmz\u00fcm\u0259ms\u0259n s\u0259n!
\nYad\u0131mda qalan, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 dolanda \u0259lim\u0259 almaq ist\u0259diyim, cizgil\u0259rini he\u00e7 unutmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m a\u011f v\u0259r\u0259qs\u0259n, \u00fcr\u0259yim kimi t\u0259miz…<\/p>\n

* * *<\/p>\n

Daha oturmayacam p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259min \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259,
\nH\u0259r g\u00fcn bir az daha saralmayacaq yarpaqlar.
\nBa\u011flanacaq p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259min i\u015f\u0131q qap\u0131s\u0131.<\/p>\n

V\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn bir az daha az dar\u0131xacam,
\nA\u011flamaq ehtiyac\u0131m t\u0259rk ed\u0259c\u0259k m\u0259ni.
\nDaha oturmayacam p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259min \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259,
\nK\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259ri buraxmayacam i\u00e7\u0259ri.<\/p>\n

P\u0259rd\u0259l\u0259rim r\u0259qs etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k sevincd\u0259n,
\nDaha az hiss ed\u0259c\u0259m qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131,
\nP\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259min o \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259,
\narxas\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f bit\u0259n x\u0259yal\u0131n\u0131.
\nV\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn bir az daha itir\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

\n

* * *<\/p>\n

s\u0259ssiz gec\u0259l\u0259r insan\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr,
\nb\u00fct\u00fcn zamanlarda e\u015fitdiyim f\u0259rqli n\u0259\u011fm\u0259l\u0259rin \u0259siriy\u0259m .
\nsevgi n\u0259\u011fm\u0259sind\u0259 unutdu\u011fum \u00f6z\u00fcms\u0259n,
\nayr\u0131l\u0131q n\u0259\u011fm\u0259sind\u0259 sevdiyimi anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m.<\/p>\n

t\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259kd\u0259n qorxa-qorxa gizl\u0259ndiyim,
\nancaq art\u0131q gecikdiyim,
\nart\u0131q y\u00fcz il gecikdiyim s\u0259ad\u0259tims\u0259nmi\u015f.
\nu\u011fultular\u0131nda h\u0259yat g\u0259zdiyimiz r\u00fczgarlar yen\u0259 d\u0259
\nhakim ye\u011fan\u0259 biz\u0259 aid olan,
\namma \u0259slind\u0259 hakim oldu\u011fumuzu z\u0259nn etdiyimiz m\u0259nliyimiz\u0259.<\/p>\n

* * *<\/p>\n

Qad\u0131n olmaq ki\u015fil\u0259ri m\u0259mnun etm\u0259kmi\u015f,
\nYox, yox, ki\u015fil\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qad\u0131n olmaq
\nbir yataq dolusu s\u0259ad\u0259tmi\u015f y\u0259qin.<\/p>\n

Qad\u0131n olmaq,
\nfaci\u0259ni sev\u0259nl\u0259rin alovuna alov qatmaqm\u0131\u015f.
\nBir d\u0259 qad\u0131n olmaq,
\nbir ki\u015fiy\u0259 ki\u015fi oldu\u011funu
\nd\u0259rk etdir\u0259nd\u0259n sonra
\nonun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn diri ik\u0259n \u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259rmi\u015f.<\/p>\n

N\u0259dir qad\u0131n olmaq?
\nQad\u0131n olmaq,
\nbir ki\u015finin s\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259r verdiyi q\u0259d\u0259rdir.
\nEl\u0259 h\u0259min ki\u015finin
\nki\u015fi olmas\u0131 kimi
\nbir \u015feydir qad\u0131n olmaq.<\/p>\n

D\u00fcnyan\u0131n<\/p>\n

G\u0259ldim, Allah qorusun,
\nGedi\u015fi n\u0259hs d\u00fcnyan\u0131n.
\nHaqq yolunu g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm,
\nZ\u00fclm\u00fcn\u0259 b\u0259hs d\u00fcnyan\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Kim dedi \u015fahd\u0131r zaman?
\n\u018fzab\u0131n \u00e7\u0259kdim, aman!
\nM\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti lal kaman,
\nE\u015fqi q\u0259f\u0259s d\u00fcnyan\u0131n.<\/p>\n

B\u00fcdr\u0259m\u0259di aya\u011f\u0131m,
\nVicdan oldu daya\u011f\u0131m.
\nTutulacaq qula\u011f\u0131m,
\nS\u0259sini k\u0259s d\u00fcnyan\u0131n.<\/p>\n

K\u0259l\u0259fl\u0259ri dola\u015fd\u0131,
\n\u00c7irkablara bula\u015fd\u0131.
\nHaya, k\u00fcy\u0259 ula\u015fd\u0131,
\nG\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc s\u0259s d\u00fcnyan\u0131.<\/p>\n

K\u0259ml\u0259ri can \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fctd\u00fc,
\nD\u0259ml\u0259ri kama yetdi.
\nAld\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131na getdi,
\nH\u0259d\u0259r-h\u0259v\u0259s d\u00fcnyan\u0131.<\/p>\n

\n

H\u0259r \u015fey vard\u0131<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni ald\u0131n quca\u011f\u0131na sevginin,
\nDem\u0259k bel\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt olur bir qad\u0131n.
\nSonra atd\u0131n oca\u011f\u0131na sevginin,
\nMinn\u0259tdaram, s\u0259n bunu da bacard\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Pill\u0259-pill\u0259 bu arzular ucald\u0131,
\nDir\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 buludlara dayand\u0131q.
\nV\u0259dd\u0259n ba\u015fqa aram\u0131zda n\u0259 qald\u0131?
\nTez olsa da, gec olsa da, oyand\u0131q.<\/p>\n

Bu sevgini ciddi-ciddi yaratd\u0131n,
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcnm\u00fc aldad\u0131rsan s\u0259n kimi?
\nSonra el\u0259 ciddi-ciddi unutdun,
\nCiddi oldun s\u0259n bu q\u0259d\u0259r, deyilmi?<\/p>\n

Bir sevgini son m\u0259nzil\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcn,
\nBasd\u0131r m\u0259ni g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259ki k\u00f6lg\u0259d\u0259.
\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259 ki, t\u0259kc\u0259 m\u0259ni itirdin,
\nH\u0259r \u015fey vard\u0131 itirdiyin sevgid\u0259.<\/p>\n

\n

A\u011f qar<\/p>\n

Bu gec\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259tin qara \u00e7evirib,
\nYa\u011f\u0131r \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za qar.
\nBu d\u00fcnya \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc hara \u00e7evirib?
\nH\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259n ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131za var.<\/p>\n

Ayr\u0131l\u0131q qoxusu g\u0259lir havadan,
\n\u00dcmidin i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 qar kimi b\u0259yaz.
\nK\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc bu sim\u0259 k\u00f6kl\u0259y\u0259n adam,
\nN\u0259 \u015faxta hiss ed\u0259r, n\u0259 buz, n\u0259 ayaz.<\/p>\n

Ya\u011f\u0131r a\u011faclar\u0131n qar \u00e7\u0131\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ri,
\nG\u00f6yl\u0259rin g\u0259lini torpa\u011fa qonaq.
\n\u00dc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcr gec\u0259l\u0259r Ay \u00fczl\u00fc p\u0259ri,
\n\u00dc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcr sabahlar G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f adl\u0131 da\u011f.<\/p>\n

Daha yarpaqlam\u0131r qar a\u011faclar\u0131,
\nDaha boz s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r qar dimdikl\u0259mir.
\nG\u00f6yl\u0259rin a\u011f g\u00fcn\u0259 ya\u011fan a\u011f qar\u0131,
\nQara damlar altda q\u0259ml\u0259ri g\u00f6rm\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

YOXSA S\u018fN YEN\u018f D\u018f SEV\u0130RS\u018fN N\u018fD\u0130R<\/p>\n

Ayr\u0131l\u0131q i\u00e7ind\u0259 batm\u0131\u015fam n\u0259d\u0259n?
\nBir ac\u0131 t\u0259s\u0259lli b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcr m\u0259ni.
\nTanr\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u0259mmi m\u0259n?
\nTale hara g\u0259ldi s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcr m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

Qurutdu g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc pay\u0131z yell\u0259ri,
\n\u018fsdi h\u0259yat\u0131ma bir d\u0259li r\u00fczgar.
\n\u0130ndi taleyimin k\u00f6rp\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259ri,
\nYen\u0259 buz ba\u011flay\u0131b, eh, kim\u0259 n\u0259 var.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r gizl\u0259nim \u00f6z\u00fcm-\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n,
\nQa\u00e7ma\u011fa-getm\u0259y\u0259 yer tapamm\u0131ram.
\nBir e\u015fqin qiyam\u0131 ax\u0131r g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n,
\nG\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n yen\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n g\u00fcnahkaram?<\/p>\n

De, n\u0259 tez unutdun, amans\u0131z pay\u0131z,
\n\u00c7\u0131rpm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259rdini bir-bir.
\nH\u0259yat \u00f6z h\u00f6km\u00fcn\u00fc verdi amans\u0131z,
\nYoxsa s\u0259n yen\u0259 d\u0259 sevirs\u0259n n\u0259dir?<\/p>\n

Taleyin s\u0259rt \u00fcz\u00fc d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259zmi yada?
\nCan verir s\u00f6zl\u0259r\u0259 s\u0131zlayan yaram.
\nTanr\u0131m yen\u0259 m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flasa da,
\nM\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc ba\u011f\u0131\u015flamaram.<\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 801 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

“Ayb\u0259niz” deyirs\u0259n, ad\u0131m n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r — G\u00f6z\u0259l \u015feir imi\u015f s\u0259nin dilind\u0259. Bir d\u0259 “Ayb\u0259niz” de, Yox, daha dem\u0259, \u015feirl\u0259r q\u0131sqanar ad\u0131ma m\u0259ni. * * * \u015eeir yazmaq Ham\u0131n\u0131 sevm\u0259kdir. V\u0259 Sevm\u0259m\u0259kdir \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc. \u015eeir yazmaq pay\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n sevgid\u0259n h\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259 bir par\u00e7a b\u0259x\u015f etm\u0259kdir \u00f6mr\u00fcn uzunu… * * * M\u0259nim \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l \u015feirim s\u0259ni sevm\u0259kdir! Sin\u0259n\u0259 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":8087,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[15,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8086"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=8086"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8086\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8088,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8086\/revisions\/8088"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/8087"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=8086"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=8086"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=8086"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}