{"id":8400,"date":"2015-02-23T21:42:51","date_gmt":"2015-02-23T17:42:51","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=8400"},"modified":"2015-02-23T21:42:51","modified_gmt":"2015-02-23T17:42:51","slug":"kamran-n%c9%99zirli-dorduncu-mohurromandan-parca","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=8400","title":{"rendered":"Kamran N\u018fZ\u0130RL\u0130 — D\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc m\u00f6h\u00fcr(romandan par\u00e7a)"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"kamrann\u0259zirli\"<\/a>\u00a0\u00a0Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 Kamran N\u0259zirli art\u0131q \u201cD\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc M\u00f6h\u00fcr\u201d roman\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7apa haz\u0131rlay\u0131r. Orijinal b\u0259dii-f\u0259ls\u0259fi-psixoloji m\u0259zmuna malik romanda tarixi faktlardan v\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259 istifad\u0259 edilib. \u018fs\u0259rin q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 iki d\u0259f\u0259 qa\u00e7q\u0131nl\u0131q h\u0259yat\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f g\u0259nc az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 q\u0131zd\u0131r. Yeniyetm\u0259lik \u00e7a\u011flar\u0131ndan b\u0259ri taleyin b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131r z\u0259rb\u0259l\u0259rini \u2013 baba, ata, \u0259mi, o\u011ful v\u0259 dig\u0259r qohumlar\u0131n itkisini ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f bu g\u0259nc q\u0131z s\u0131nm\u0131r, T\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259 tibbi t\u0259hsil al\u0131r, v\u0259t\u0259n\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcr, klinikada i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259lir, inadla elmin dal\u0131nca d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, birinci evlilik h\u0259yat\u0131 u\u011fursuz olur, do\u011fma balas\u0131n\u0131 itirir, yen\u0259 \u0259yilmir, elmi ara\u015fd\u0131rmalar\u0131n\u0131 davam etdirir, n\u0259hay\u0259t, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n qibt\u0259 ed\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yi tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f h\u0259kim-psixiatr olur. M\u0259hz bundan sonra o anlay\u0131r ki, insanlar\u0131n psixoloji durumunda b\u00f6y\u00fck problem var.\u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n


\n\u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, d\u00fcnya \u0259halisinin yar\u0131dan \u00e7oxunun psixoloji durumu ac\u0131nacaql\u0131 v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259dir.<\/p>\n

M\u00fcharib\u0259l\u0259r, etnik m\u00fcnaqi\u015f\u0259l\u0259r, qa\u00e7q\u0131nl\u0131q, x\u0259st\u0259likl\u0259r, terrorlar… b\u0259lk\u0259 el\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar psixoloji pozuntularla ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r? Bu, qlobal problemi aradan qald\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259nc alim yollar axtar\u0131r, t\u0259lim proqram\u0131 haz\u0131rlay\u0131r. Onun psixo-analitik m\u00fclahiz\u0259l\u0259ri d\u00fcnya aliml\u0259ri t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n maraqla qar\u015f\u0131lan\u0131r v\u0259 \u0259s\u0259rin q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 ail\u0259-n\u0259sil \u015f\u0259c\u0259r\u0259si fonunda \u00f6z taleyi il\u0259 \u0259cdadlar\u0131n\u0131n ruhi \u0259laq\u0259l\u0259rini ara\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r, birinci, ikinci, \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc v\u0259 d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc n\u0259sil \u0259cdadlar\u0131n\u0131n ac\u0131nacaql\u0131 talel\u0259rinin m\u0259nfi enerjil\u0259rini d\u00fcnyan\u0131 idar\u0259 ed\u0259n gizli q\u00fcvv\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259l\u0259ndirir, bel\u0259likl\u0259, onun elmi m\u00fclahiz\u0259l\u0259ri daha dramatik \u015f\u0259kil al\u0131r; o, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n xilas olunmas\u0131n\u0131n yegan\u0259 d\u00fczg\u00fcn yolunu g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Bu yol n\u0259d\u0259n ibar\u0259tdir? \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, bu m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcrm\u00fc? Romanda lirik-psixoloji epizodlarla yana\u015f\u0131, m\u00fc\u0259llif tarixi s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259r\u0259 d\u0259 istinad edir.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

K.N\u0259zirlinin \u201cD\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc M\u00f6h\u00fcr\u201d roman\u0131ndan bir par\u00e7an\u0131 oxuculara t\u0259qdim edirik.<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

…Banu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, insan\u0131n sinir sistemin\u0259 ilk \u00f6nc\u0259 hava t\u0259sir edir. O, q\u0259ti \u0259min idi ki, d\u00fcnyada ya\u015fayan \u0259ks\u0259r insanlar\u0131n psixi sars\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n \u0259sas s\u0259b\u0259bkar\u0131 da havad\u0131r, daha do\u011frusu, havas\u0131zl\u0131qd\u0131r. O, dar\u0131sqal yataqxana ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rini a\u00e7d\u0131, h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 boyland\u0131. Yamya\u015f\u0131l h\u00fcnd\u00fcr a\u011faclar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda qu\u015flar n\u0259\u011fm\u0259 oxuyurdular, havadan t\u0259r g\u00fcll\u0259rin \u0259tri g\u0259lirdi. S\u0259s-k\u00fcy yox idi, uzaqdan t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rciyin\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131lan darvazalar\u0131n yan\u0131nda bir-iki ma\u015f\u0131n dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. El\u0259 bil bu boyda \u015f\u0259h\u0259rcikd\u0259 he\u00e7 kim ya\u015fam\u0131r, he\u00e7 n\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t etmir, t\u0259kc\u0259 s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r civild\u0259\u015fir, ya\u015f\u0131l \u00e7\u0259m\u0259nlikd\u0259ki g\u00fcll\u0259rin \u0259trind\u0259n v\u0259 \u0259trafdak\u0131 s\u0259liq\u0259-s\u0259hmandan m\u0259st olub bir-birl\u0259rin\u0259 e\u015fq elan edirl\u0259r. Nec\u0259 oldusa, k\u0259ndd\u0259ki evl\u0259ri yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Uzun q\u0131\u015f gec\u0259l\u0259ri p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 qaba\u011f\u0131nda oturub lampa i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda kitab oxuma\u011f\u0131, bac\u0131s\u0131 Reyhan\u0131n h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz, qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131z-qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131z yatmas\u0131, ata-anas\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259-t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 getm\u0259si, gur yanan pe\u00e7in \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131n boyat t\u0259ndir \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259kl\u0259rini q\u0131zd\u0131rmas\u0131, sonra da \u0259ll\u0259ri yana-yana \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k tik\u0259l\u0259rini g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 k\u0259r\u0259 ya\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcrtm\u0259si, bac\u0131s\u0131na v\u0259 ona verm\u0259si… onlar\u0131 xar\u00e7-xar\u00e7la yem\u0259si… sonra ilk d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 yollanmas\u0131n\u0131, daha sonra Gorusdan ona d\u0259ri g\u00f6d\u0259k\u00e7\u0259 al\u0131b g\u0259tirdikl\u0259ri g\u00fcn ata-anas\u0131n\u0131n nec\u0259 sevindikl\u0259rini, b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259r-b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259r bir-birl\u0259riyl\u0259 zarafatla\u015fd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131… daha n\u0259l\u0259ri… xat\u0131rlad\u0131. Sonra Da\u015fd\u0259mirl\u0259 R\u0259\u015fidin ilk d\u0259f\u0259 k\u0259nd\u0259 g\u0259ldiyi g\u00fcn g\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 canland\u0131. El\u0259 bil d\u00fcn\u0259n olmu\u015fdu, h\u0259min g\u00fcn nec\u0259 sevinmi\u015fdil\u0259r! O\u011flanlarla tay-tu\u015flar\u0131 kimi s\u00f6hb\u0259t edir, dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r, g\u00fcl\u00fcr, zarafatla\u015f\u0131r, R\u0259\u015fidin g\u00fclm\u0259li anekdotlar\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fidib u\u011funurdular. Nec\u0259 \u015firin, nec\u0259 maraql\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259r idi!<\/p>\n

Bird\u0259n R\u0259\u015fidin lov\u011fa bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131, ikiba\u015fl\u0131 eyhamlar\u0131 v\u0259 s\u0131rt\u0131q h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259ri yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Q\u0131z el\u0259 bil n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 iyr\u0259ndi, qeyri-ixtiyari dala \u00e7\u0259kildi. \u201cG\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n o, m\u0259niml\u0259 do\u011furdanm\u0131 m\u0259z\u0259l\u0259nirdi? Ya b\u0259lk\u0259…Ax\u0131 bu, he\u00e7 sevgiy\u0259 d\u0259 ox\u015fam\u0131rd\u0131? Yox… yox… bel\u0259 sevgi olmaz! O, n\u0259yi \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi? N\u0259 idi, o, Da\u015fd\u0259mirgild\u0259 n\u0259 dedi m\u0259n\u0259? He\u00e7 yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr! H\u0259, h\u0259, dey\u0259s\u0259n, dedi ki, x\u0259st\u0259dir… yox, el\u0259 dem\u0259di! Dedi o\u011furluq el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lib! Nec\u0259 dedi, yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b… N\u0259s\u0259 o\u011furluqdan s\u00f6hb\u0259t d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, sonra dedi… m\u0259ni… yox… eeee… m\u0259ni o\u011furlaya bilm\u0259z! Eeeeeeee…. Bu hardan d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc yad\u0131ma? Lap u\u015faq kimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m. H\u0259r \u015fey arxada qal\u0131b… o da bir u\u015faql\u0131q \u015f\u0131ltaql\u0131qlar\u0131 idi… Eh, Bak\u0131, Bak\u0131! S\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn burnumun ucu g\u00f6yn\u0259yir! Birc\u0259 ev\u0259 tez \u00e7atsayd\u0131m…\u201d<\/p>\n

lll<\/p>\n

At\u0259\u015fk\u0259sd\u0259n sonrak\u0131 be\u015f ilin t\u0259f\u0259rr\u00fcatlar\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259svir etm\u0259y\u0259 l\u00fczum yoxdur. Camaat kimi Kamal Axundzad\u0259nin ail\u0259si d\u0259 t\u0259dric\u0259n sars\u0131nt\u0131 v\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u0259qq\u0259tl\u0259ri unudurdu. Camaat m\u0259hrumiyy\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n yava\u015f-yava\u015f xilas olurdu. T\u0259dric\u0259n ail\u0259nin rifah\u0131, \u0259hval-ruhiyy\u0259si d\u00fcz\u0259lirdi. Tezlikl\u0259 Reyhanla Da\u015fd\u0259mirin h\u0259r iki ail\u0259nin \u00fczvl\u0259ri il\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259 buzlar \u0259rim\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131, do\u011fmal\u0131q v\u0259 dostluq qalib g\u0259ldi. Xur\u015fud F\u0259rz\u0259lib\u0259yli arvad\u0131 M\u0259nz\u0259rl\u0259 A\u011fcab\u0259dinin K\u0259hrizli k\u0259ndin\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n qabaq u\u015faqlar\u0131n h\u0259r ikisin\u0259 xeyir-dua verdi, b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u0259linin bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 a\u011farm\u0131\u015f sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 (at\u0259\u015fk\u0259sd\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7 ay ke\u00e7mi\u015f \u0130brahimi c\u0259bh\u0259 b\u00f6lg\u0259sind\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259 videokamera \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rk\u0259n erm\u0259ni snayperi vurdu, onun h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 xilas el\u0259m\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmad\u0131!) Da\u015fd\u0259mirl\u0259 Reyhana g\u00f6st\u0259rib el\u0259 bil sonuncu tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 verdi:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Cavan a\u011fbir\u00e7\u0259k anan\u0131zdan mu\u011fayat olun!<\/p>\n

Aylar \u00f6td\u00fc. Reyhanla Da\u015fd\u0259mirin ail\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi Qaratelin n\u0259n\u0259 sevincin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131, Reyhan o\u011ful do\u011fdu. Ki\u00e7ik q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259bi\u0259t\u0259n q\u0259rars\u0131z v\u0259 laqeyd olmas\u0131n\u0131 Da\u015fd\u0259mirin q\u0259tiyy\u0259ti v\u0259 m\u0259rdliyi \u00f6rtm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Cavan ail\u0259 ilk vaxtlar \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 d\u0259 olsa, yola gedirdi, art\u0131q onlar\u0131n evind\u0259 u\u015faq b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc. Reyhan ana olandan sonra\u00a0 q\u0259lbind\u0259ki anal\u0131q at\u0259\u015fi yava\u015f-yava\u015f k\u00f6z\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. O, bu sevincin n\u0259d\u0259n ibar\u0259t oldu\u011funu getdikc\u0259 daha \u00e7ox anlay\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259rd\u0259n cavan ana Banuyla komp\u00fcter vasit\u0259siyl\u0259 \u201cd\u0259rdl\u0259\u015fir\u201d, \u0130stanbulda oxuyan bac\u0131s\u0131na giley-g\u00fczar dolu m\u0259ktublar yollay\u0131rd\u0131, bac\u0131s\u0131ndan cavab al\u0131nca \u00e7ox pe\u015fiman olurdu. \u00c7\u00fcnki onun a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 v\u0259 sakitl\u0259\u015fdirici cavablar\u0131n\u0131 oxuyanda anlay\u0131rd\u0131 ki, \u201ca\u011flamaq\u201d he\u00e7 d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 \u0259lam\u0259t deyil, insan bu d\u00fcnyadak\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn probleml\u0259rini \u00f6z\u00fc h\u0259ll etm\u0259lidir, s\u0131z\u0131lt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6zg\u0259d\u0259n gizl\u0259tm\u0259lidir. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 bundayd\u0131 ki, Da\u015fd\u0259mir m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259 g\u00fcll\u0259 yaras\u0131 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, g\u00fcll\u0259 onun buduyla bald\u0131r s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259ri aras\u0131nda ili\u015fib qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. R\u00fctub\u0259t olanda, ya da hava bir balaca tutulanda Da\u015fd\u0259mirin a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bu a\u011fr\u0131lar el\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli olurdu ki, onun \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 az qala Reyhan inild\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Hara gedirdi, hans\u0131 x\u0259st\u0259xanaya m\u00fcraci\u0259t edirdi, bu m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259b \u0259m\u0259liyyat\u0131 he\u00e7 kim boynuna g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u018fvv\u0259la, \u0259m\u0259liyyat \u00e7ox m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259b olacaqd\u0131, \u00e7\u00fcnki z\u0259rif yerdi, omba v\u0259 bald\u0131r s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259rini bir balaca z\u0259d\u0259l\u0259s\u0259ydil\u0259r Da\u015fd\u0259mir \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck \u015fik\u0259st qala bil\u0259rdi. \u0130kincisi, bu \u0259m\u0259liyyat \u00e7ox bahal\u0131yd\u0131, deyirdil\u0259r ki, g\u0259r\u0259k \u0130srail\u0259 ged\u0259s\u0259n, \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 h\u0259kiml\u0259r ordad\u0131, ora getm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 bir \u0259t\u0259k pul laz\u0131md\u0131! Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, m\u00fcharib\u0259 veteran\u0131 qap\u0131-qap\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc, ham\u0131 a\u011f\u0131z b\u00fcz\u00fcr, b\u0259z\u0259n he\u00e7 bir h\u0259kim v\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259xana onu q\u0259bul el\u0259mirdi. B\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00f6vl\u0259t v\u0259 qeyri-d\u00f6vl\u0259t qurumlar\u0131 onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 g\u0259nc veteran\u0131n g\u0259rgin, hirsli, q\u0259z\u0259bli olmas\u0131 evd\u0259 \u00e7ox vaxt \u0259s\u0259bi bir m\u00fchit yarad\u0131rd\u0131. Cavan \u0259r-arvad b\u0259z\u0259n bel\u0259 bir \u0259s\u0259bi m\u00fchitin ucbat\u0131ndan k\u00fcs\u00fcb-bar\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Bar\u0131\u015fan zaman h\u0259r ikisinin kefi durulur, \u201cMin bir gec\u0259\u201d na\u011f\u0131llar\u0131ndak\u0131 q\u0259hr\u0259manlar kimi bir-birl\u0259rini ox\u015fay\u0131b \u0259zizl\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259n h\u0259zz al\u0131rd\u0131lar. Bel\u0259 \u015firin anlarda Reyhan ad\u0259ti \u00fczr\u0259 \u0259rin\u0259 eyni suallar\u0131 verirdi:<\/p>\n

\u2013D\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc de, o ilan do\u011frudan s\u0259nin \u0259lini sancm\u0131\u015fd\u0131? Yoxsa yalandan edirdin, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdin…<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim… Amma ilan do\u011fru\u00e7u ilan idi…- dey\u0259 h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 Da\u015fd\u0259mir d\u0259 eyni cavab\u0131 verir, sonra da g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Sonra Reyhan k\u0259ndd\u0259ki h\u0259y\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tin sonunu onun yad\u0131na sal\u0131rd\u0131, deyirdi:<\/p>\n

\u2013S\u0259n el\u0259 o vaxtdan s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdin ki, m\u0259n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 x\u0259b\u0259r dey\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n, nooldu, indiy\u0259d\u0259k niy\u0259 gizl\u0259dirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

Da\u015fd\u0259mir d\u0259 h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 ona deyirdi ki, o \u201cxo\u015f x\u0259b\u0259r\u201din m\u0259qam\u0131 yeti\u015fm\u0259yib…<\/p>\n

Reyhan da inan\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 u\u015faq kimi \u0259rinin ona dey\u0259c\u0259yi \u201cxo\u015f x\u0259b\u0259r\u201d x\u0259yal\u0131yla ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. Lakin bir d\u0259f\u0259 Da\u015fd\u0259mir dedi ki, s\u0259n dem\u0259, bu \u201cxo\u015f x\u0259b\u0259r\u201d Banuyla ba\u011fl\u0131ym\u0131\u015f. Reyhan bunu bil\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7ox t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb el\u0259di. H\u0259l\u0259 o vaxt R\u0259\u015fidl\u0259 Da\u015fd\u0259mir onlara qonaq g\u0259l\u0259n g\u00fcn dostlar x\u0131s\u0131n-x\u0131s\u0131n p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lda\u015f\u0131blar v\u0259 R\u0259\u015fid Da\u015fd\u0259mir\u0259 deyib ki, m\u0259nim Banudan xo\u015fum g\u0259lir! Da\u015fd\u0259mir d\u0259 dostunun art\u0131q se\u00e7im etdiyini g\u00f6r\u00fcb Reyhan\u0131n dal\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb. O, ilk g\u00fcnl\u0259r el\u0259-bel\u0259, Reyhan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qatmaq ist\u0259yirmi\u015f ki, R\u0259\u015fidl\u0259 Banu t\u0259klikd\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t el\u0259sinl\u0259r, bir-birl\u0259rini daha \u00e7ox tan\u0131s\u0131nlar. \u201cSirr\u201d yaln\u0131z bundan ibar\u0259t imi\u015f. Da\u015fd\u0259mirgild\u0259 olanda is\u0259 R\u0259\u015fidl\u0259 aralar\u0131nda bir balaca s\u00f6z oldu, o da ac\u0131q el\u0259yib getdi. Da\u015fd\u0259mir d\u0259 Reyhana vuruldu, ondan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259di.<\/p>\n

Reyhan bu t\u0259z\u0259 v\u0259 k\u00f6hn\u0259 \u201cxo\u015f x\u0259b\u0259r\u201di bac\u0131s\u0131na yazd\u0131, Banu komp\u00fcterind\u0259 Reyhan\u0131n mesaj\u0131n\u0131 oxuyanda dodaqlar\u0131 araland\u0131, yanaqlar\u0131 alland\u0131. Lakin az sonra q\u00fcrur Banuya g\u00fcc g\u0259ldi v\u0259 bac\u0131s\u0131na istehzal\u0131 bir c\u00fcml\u0259 yazd\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u201cM\u0259n bel\u0259 bir adam\u0131n olub-olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlam\u0131ram… Banu\u201d.<\/p>\n

lll<\/p>\n

Banunun ali t\u0259hsilli h\u0259kim-psixiatr kimi Bak\u0131ya d\u00f6nm\u0259si \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 toy-bayrama d\u00f6nd\u00fc. Qaratel gah f\u0259r\u0259hind\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcr, n\u0259mli g\u00f6zl\u0259riyl\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n boyunu, qam\u0259tini, b\u00fct\u00fcn v\u00fccudunu acg\u00f6zl\u00fckl\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259n ke\u00e7irir, arabir \u0259ll\u0259rini q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na, \u00e7iyinl\u0259rin\u0259, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 s\u00fcrt\u00fcr, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc: \u201cG\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n do\u011frudanm\u0131 bu, m\u0259nim q\u0131z\u0131md\u0131r?\u201d<\/p>\n

D\u00fcnyayi-al\u0259m d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi v\u0259 Banu da d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi. Onun makiyaj\u0131, sa\u00e7 d\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc, b\u0259d\u0259n qurulu\u015fu, qa\u015f\u0131-g\u00f6z\u00fc, bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131, oturu\u015fu-duru\u015fu, nitqi, m\u0259ntiqi, \u0259yin-ba\u015f\u0131 tamam d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi. O, bir q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n raz\u0131, bir q\u0259d\u0259r naraz\u0131, bir q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259lim, bir q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0259rt, bir q\u0259d\u0259r dal\u011f\u0131n, bir q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 g\u00fcmrah v\u0259 \u015f\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n Banu olmu\u015fdu. \u00dcz\u00fcnd\u0259n t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm \u0259skik olmurdu, onu g\u00f6r\u0259n yad bir adam\u0131n ilk t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcrat\u0131 yaln\u0131z bu olard\u0131 ki, bu q\u0131z nadir az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 n\u00fcsx\u0259sidir. Yumru sif\u0259tinin almac\u0131qlar\u0131 bir balaca q\u0131zarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, x\u0131rda \u0259tli dodaqlar\u0131 t\u0259bii \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 r\u0259ngini qoruyub saxlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, uzun sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sdirmi\u015fdi, q\u0131sa, lakin bir q\u0259d\u0259r qaba\u011fa \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015f \u00e7\u0259n\u0259sin\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r sallanm\u0131\u015f \u015fabal\u0131d\u0131 h\u00f6r\u00fckl\u0259ri b\u00fct\u00fcn simas\u0131na cazib\u0259li, h\u0259m d\u0259 sirli bir aura vermi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

N\u0259n\u0259si S\u00fcs\u0259n d\u0259rhal naraz\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bildirdi:<\/p>\n

\u2013Nahaq yer\u0259 sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sdirmis\u0259n!<\/p>\n

Bac\u0131s\u0131 Reyhan is\u0259:<\/p>\n

\u2013Bel\u0259 daha yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131, Banu, yara\u015f\u0131r!- deyib \u0259lav\u0259 etdi ki, o da sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sdirm\u0259k ist\u0259yir. Qaratel q\u0131z\u0131na g\u00f6z a\u011fard\u0131b i\u015far\u0259 el\u0259di ki, olmaz…<\/p>\n

Banu g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra babas\u0131 Kamal daha \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi \u201cinqilab\u00e7\u0131\u201d \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015flar etmirdi, lakin yen\u0259 hesab edirdi ki, \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259 v\u0259 d\u00fcnyada ba\u015f ver\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn olaylar\u0131\u00a0 hans\u0131sa \u201cgizli q\u00fcvv\u0259l\u0259r\u201d idar\u0259 edir. Son ill\u0259r bu diri ki\u015fid\u0259n \u0259s\u0259r-\u0259lam\u0259t bel\u0259 qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, g\u00fccd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131rla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, b\u0259z\u0259n t\u0259zyiqi ikiy\u00fcz\u00fc vururdu. Bel\u0259d\u0259 S\u00fcs\u0259nd\u0259n daha \u00e7ox Qaratel narahat olur, d\u0259rhal t\u0259cili yard\u0131m \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Qaratel ya\u015flansa da q\u0131vraql\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 itirm\u0259mi\u015fdi, c\u0259ld idi, ev-e\u015fiy\u0259 \u0259l yetirirdi, m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131. Yem\u0259k haz\u0131rlay\u0131r, paltar yuyur, ev-e\u015fiyi t\u0259mizl\u0259yir, h\u0259l\u0259 bir arada Reyhan\u0131n o\u011fluna da bax\u0131rd\u0131. Reyhan q\u0259zetl\u0259rin birin\u0259 m\u00fcqavil\u0259 il\u0259 i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Da\u015fd\u0259mir is\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 i\u015fsiz idi v\u0259 bu i\u015fsizlik b\u0259z\u0259n onu bezikdirir, az qala intihar h\u0259ddin\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. V\u0259 \u0259n pisi d\u0259 bu oldu ki, onun b\u00fct\u00fcn c\u0259bh\u0259 dostlar\u0131n\u0131 \u0259misi Nadirl\u0259 birlikd\u0259 tutub basm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar i\u00e7\u0259ri. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r g\u0259zirdi ki, \u201cNadirin d\u0259st\u0259si\u201d h\u0259rbi \u00e7evrili\u015f etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirmi\u015f, amma h\u00f6kum\u0259t vaxt\u0131nda ay\u0131ld\u0131 v\u0259 bunun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131. Da\u015fd\u0259miri b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259misin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 yax\u0131n buraxan yox idi. H\u0259tta o, bir d\u0259f\u0259 R\u0259\u015fidin atas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na da getdi. El\u0259-bel\u0259, R\u0259\u015fidd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r bilm\u0259y\u0259 getmi\u015fdi. Seyfi onu h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi qar\u015f\u0131lamad\u0131, ayaq\u00fcst\u00fc \u0259l verib g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259n sonra dedi ki, t\u0259l\u0259sir, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 gedir, \u201cayr\u0131 bir vaxt g\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259n dan\u0131\u015far\u0131q!\u201d Da\u015fd\u0259mir \u00e7ox p\u0259rt oldu, bu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u0259n sonra h\u0259tta \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259k d\u0259 ist\u0259di, amma yax\u015f\u0131 ki, Reyhan onu anlad\u0131, sakitl\u0259\u015fdirdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013Onlar\u0131n \u0259li yuxar\u0131lar\u0131n \u0259t\u0259yind\u0259dir… Hava satmaqla varlanan adamdan n\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirs\u0259n ki? \u018fmini ili\u015fdirdil\u0259r, h\u0259l\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, s\u0259n\u0259 toxunmad\u0131lar…Dar\u0131xma, bizim qap\u0131m\u0131zda da toy olar…- dey\u0259 Reyhan \u00fcmidsiz-\u00fcmidsiz d\u0259rind\u0259n ah \u00e7\u0259kdi. O, h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 ah \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259slind\u0259 arzusu g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 qalan qad\u0131nlar kimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ax\u0131, h\u0259l\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131qdan arzulam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, g\u0259linlik donu geyinsin, el ad\u0259tiyl\u0259 \u00e7al-\u00e7a\u011f\u0131rla k\u00f6\u00e7s\u00fcn, ata-anas\u0131 \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 ona toy \u00e7ald\u0131rs\u0131n. Qism\u0259t olmad\u0131, qo\u015fulub qa\u00e7d\u0131. Da\u015fd\u0259mirin be\u015f-alt\u0131 dost-tan\u0131\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 \u201chadis\u0259\u201dni qeyd el\u0259dil\u0259r, v\u0259ssalam! B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar arxada qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, indi tamam ba\u015fqa zaman idi.<\/p>\n

Camaat h\u0259r \u015feyi unutmu\u015fdu. O uqandal\u0131 x\u0259st\u0259ni d\u0259 yada salan yox idi. Ax\u0131 kimin n\u0259yin\u0259 laz\u0131m idi \u2013 \u201cspidi\u201d Bak\u0131ya kim g\u0259tirib? Ax\u0131 kim a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259tir\u0259rdi ki, hans\u0131sa sahibkar n\u0259 vaxtsa \u201chava\u201d sat\u0131b? Nec\u0259 olsa, ne\u00e7\u0259 ill\u0259r ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi, d\u00fcnya b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi, \u015f\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r, k\u0259ndl\u0259r, yollar, k\u00f6rp\u00fcl\u0259r… da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n qurulmu\u015fdu. K\u00f6hn\u0259l\u0259r getmi\u015f, t\u0259z\u0259l\u0259r g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Yeni ail\u0259l\u0259r, yeni n\u0259sill\u0259r yeti\u015firdi. O vaxt kiml\u0259r n\u0259 satm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, kiml\u0259r n\u0259 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, bunlar indi camaat \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn duy\u011fusal m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259r deyildi!<\/p>\n

\u018fsas hadis\u0259 buydu ki, Banu T\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259 Tibb fak\u00fclt\u0259sini bitirib h\u0259kim-psixiatr kimi ev\u0259 qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Professor Kamal Axundzad\u0259 v\u0259 onun ail\u0259 \u00fczvl\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bu qay\u0131d\u0131\u015f sonsuz sevincin, habel\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn u\u011fur v\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtlikl\u0259rin \u0259lam\u0259tdar ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c\u0131 kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Uzun ill\u0259r sovetin h\u0259rbi hiss\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 m\u00fch\u0259ndis-alim v\u0259 zabit kimi \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan, sonradan Yerevan Universitetinin h\u0259rbi kafedras\u0131nda i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n, m\u0259cbur\u0259n ordan qovulub Bak\u0131ya \u00fcz tutan bu adam indi t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fc \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131, pensiya al\u0131rd\u0131. Son vaxtlar s\u0259hh\u0259tind\u0259ki probleml\u0259rl\u0259 (o, 90-c\u0131 il Yanvar faci\u0259si g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00fcll\u0259 yaras\u0131 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131) ba\u011fl\u0131 he\u00e7 yerd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259mirdi. Ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 alt\u0131 y\u00fcz manat t\u0259qa\u00fcd pulundan ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 bir g\u0259liri yox idi. Arvad\u0131 S\u00fcs\u0259n xan\u0131m Bak\u0131ya g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t orta m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 co\u011frafiya m\u00fc\u0259llimi i\u015fl\u0259di, s\u0259kkiz saat d\u0259rs y\u00fck\u00fc qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 \u0259m\u0259k haqq\u0131 qad\u0131n\u0131n x\u0131rda-para x\u0259rcl\u0259rini g\u00fccl\u0259 \u00f6d\u0259yirdi. Bundan \u0259lav\u0259 qad\u0131n repetitorluqla da m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olur, \u00fc\u00e7-d\u00f6rd n\u0259f\u0259r \u015fagirdd\u0259n qazand\u0131\u011f\u0131 qeyri-r\u0259smi g\u0259lir onun \u00fc\u00e7 ayda m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 r\u0259smi maa\u015f\u0131na b\u0259rab\u0259r idi. S\u00fcs\u0259n xan\u0131m lap bu yax\u0131nlarad\u0259k \u0259lli-ayaql\u0131yd\u0131, onu qonum-qon\u015fuda diriba\u015f, bacar\u0131ql\u0131, namuslu v\u0259 z\u0259hm\u0259tsev\u0259r qad\u0131n kimi tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131lar. Son on ild\u0259\u00a0\u00a0 Qaratelin, Banu v\u0259 Reyhan\u0131n ev v\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6l i\u015fl\u0259riyl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 \u00f6hd\u0259likl\u0259rini d\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 alsaq, n\u0259n\u0259 dem\u0259k olar ki, ail\u0259nin qay\u011f\u0131 y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fcn yar\u0131dan \u00e7oxunu \u0259lind\u0259, \u00e7iynind\u0259 v\u0259 \u0259n \u0259sas\u0131 is\u0259 q\u0259lbind\u0259 da\u015f\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131. O, h\u0259r g\u00fcn s\u00fcbh tezd\u0259n durur, yem\u0259k haz\u0131rlay\u0131r, t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259-t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 qa\u00e7\u0131r, d\u0259rs deyir, m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n g\u0259lir, gah qaz, i\u015f\u0131q, telefon pullar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6d\u0259yir, gah repetitorluq edir, gah da paltar yuyur, x\u00f6r\u0259k bi\u015firir, evin s\u0259liq\u0259-s\u0259hman\u0131 il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olur, \u0259ri \u015f\u0259hid olan, q\u0259lbi paralanm\u0131\u015f, x\u0259st\u0259hal q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n da qullu\u011funda dururdu. O, tipik Az\u0259rbaycan qad\u0131n\u0131 idi v\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 qad\u0131nlarda oldu\u011fu kimi onun da t\u0259bi\u0259tind\u0259 ev\u0259, ail\u0259y\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131l\u0131q g\u00fccl\u00fc idi. Bu m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s teli Allahdan ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 bir q\u00fcvv\u0259 q\u0131ra bilm\u0259zdi. \u018fg\u0259r Avropa v\u0259 Asiya insan h\u00fcququ t\u0259\u015fkilatlar\u0131 \u00f6z \u00e7oxsayl\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259rin bir g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0259lav\u0259l\u0259r v\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fiklikl\u0259r etm\u0259k fikrin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259l\u0259r v\u0259 \u0259g\u0259r \u201cd\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n evcanl\u0131 qad\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131n h\u00fcququ\u201d nominasiyas\u0131 \u00fczr\u0259 m\u00fckafat t\u0259sis etm\u0259li olsalar, m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t g\u00f6r\u0259rdik ki, siyah\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na Az\u0259rbaycan qad\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 yazs\u0131nlar. B\u0259lk\u0259 o zaman onun z\u0259hm\u0259ti layiqinc\u0259 qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndiril\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Bu ill\u0259r \u0259rzind\u0259 Qaratel anas\u0131n\u0131n Bak\u0131dak\u0131 g\u0259rgin v\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259k h\u0259yat\u0131na mane olmaq ist\u0259mirdi, h\u0259m d\u0259 i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 ac\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131 ki, ona tutarl\u0131 k\u00f6m\u0259k g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259 bilmir. Bir yandan da Reyhan\u0131n onlar\u0131 taleyin \u00fcmidin\u0259 burax\u0131b qa\u00e7mas\u0131 ona \u00e7ox \u0259zab verirdi.<\/p>\n

Ail\u0259 n\u0259 yoxsul, n\u0259 d\u0259 varl\u0131 deyildi. Dolan\u0131\u015f\u0131q v\u0259 h\u0259yat t\u0259rzin\u0259 baxanda onlara orta t\u0259b\u0259q\u0259nin n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259ri d\u0259 dem\u0259k olmazd\u0131. Bu evd\u0259 \u0259n z\u0259ngin s\u00fcfr\u0259 qonaq-qara olanda v\u0259 bir d\u0259 bayram g\u00fcnl\u0259ri a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Bel\u0259 vaxtlarda professor x\u00fcsusi canf\u0259\u015fanl\u0131qla sifari\u015fl\u0259r verir, d\u00fckan-bazara gedib laz\u0131m olan \u0259rzaq, ya da t\u0259r\u0259v\u0259z n\u00f6v\u00fc al\u0131b g\u0259tirir, q\u0131z\u0131 v\u0259 arvad\u0131na \u015f\u0259stl\u0259 deyirdi ki, filan yem\u0259yi bi\u015firin. S\u00fcs\u0259n xan\u0131ma el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, q\u0131z\u0131 v\u0259 n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259ri q\u0259dim milli yem\u0259kl\u0259rimizi tamam unudub, dara\u015f\u0131blar d\u00f6n\u0259rl\u0259r\u0259, ya da MakDonaldz zir-zibill\u0259rin\u0259. Reyhana, daha sonralar is\u0259 Banuya\u00a0 da tez-tez deyirdi ki, \u00e7\u00f6ld\u0259-bay\u0131rda o zir-zibill\u0259rd\u0259n yem\u0259sinl\u0259r, m\u0259d\u0259l\u0259ri pozular. Bundan ba\u015fqa n\u0259n\u0259 fisincan plovun, yaxud da tur\u015fulu a\u015f\u0131n nec\u0259 bi\u015firilm\u0259sini d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131na v\u0259 n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 izah edirdi, yen\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcn ki, yaddan \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131rlar. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 arvad hirsl\u0259ndi, d\u0259rhal Qaratel\u0259 \u0259mr etdi ki, d\u0259ft\u0259r-q\u0259l\u0259m g\u0259tirsin, onun dedikl\u0259rini s\u0131rayla yazs\u0131n. Bel\u0259c\u0259, o, h\u0259r hans\u0131 x\u00f6r\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259yi n\u0259d\u0259n sonra vurma\u011f\u0131n, qaynatma\u011f\u0131n vacib oldu\u011funu h\u0259m q\u0131z\u0131na, h\u0259m d\u0259 Reyhana ba\u015fa sald\u0131. U\u015faqlar ona \u201cm\u00fc\u0259llim\u201d kimi baxm\u0131rd\u0131, ona b\u0259z\u0259n zarafatla \u201calim n\u0259n\u0259\u201d dey\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259t edirdil\u0259r. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 (bu, lap \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r olmu\u015fdu, o vaxt Bak\u0131ya t\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdil\u0259r!) Banuyla Reyhan \u201cBe\u015fm\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li evin alt\u0131nc\u0131 m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259si\u201d kitab\u0131n\u0131 m\u00fczakir\u0259 edirdil\u0259r. Bu roman\u0131 q\u0131zlar\u0131n h\u0259r\u0259si bir c\u00fcr ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, ba\u015flad\u0131lar m\u00fcbahis\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259. Nec\u0259 oldusa, n\u0259n\u0259 q\u0131zlar\u0131n m\u00fcbahis\u0259 etdiyini e\u015fitdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Noolub, a bala, niy\u0259 q\u0131r\u0131rs\u0131z bir-birinizi?- soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259n\u0259, de g\u00f6r\u00fcm, he\u00e7 be\u015fm\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li evin alt\u0131nc\u0131 m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259si olarm\u0131?<\/p>\n

S\u00fcs\u0259n xan\u0131m n\u0259d\u0259n s\u00f6hb\u0259t getdiyini d\u0259rhal anlad\u0131, \u00e7\u00fcnki bu \u0259s\u0259ri o, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 oxumu\u015fdu, bir anl\u0131q duruxdu, \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259rini q\u0131nad\u0131. \u201cYen\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131lar h\u00f6c\u0259td\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259!\u201d (Bac\u0131lar art\u0131q analar\u0131n\u0131n dara\u011f\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 yox, kitablar \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 m\u00fcbahis\u0259 edirdil\u0259r. Lap bu yax\u0131nlarda \u201cQara paltarl\u0131 qad\u0131n\u201d \u015feirini m\u00fczakir\u0259 etmi\u015fdil\u0259r, sonda yen\u0259 dava-dala\u015fa \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar, biri deyirdi m\u0259nc\u0259, o \u015fair o \u015feiri anam\u0131za yaz\u0131b, o da daim qara paltar geyinir, d\u0259rd \u00e7\u0259kir, g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 t\u00f6k\u00fcr atam\u0131z \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn… o biri deyirdi ki, ax\u0131 atam\u0131z anam\u0131z\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt a\u011flatmay\u0131b, ona h\u0259r zaman n\u0259vazi\u015f g\u00f6st\u0259rib… yox, s\u0259n d\u00fcz demirs\u0259n, \u015fair o \u015feiri nam\u0259lum qad\u0131na yaz\u0131b…<\/p>\n

N\u0259hay\u0259t, S\u00fcs\u0259n xan\u0131m n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcs\u0259, zarafata sal\u0131b cavab verdi:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Olar, a bala, niy\u0259 olmur? \u018fslind\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llif o qad\u0131n obraz\u0131n\u0131 \u201calt\u0131nc\u0131 m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259y\u0259\u201d qald\u0131r\u0131b, y\u0259ni o qad\u0131n\u0131 ucald\u0131b… Siz bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259ri ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259zsiniz…<\/p>\n

Q\u0131zlar susdular, bel\u0259likl\u0259, m\u00fcbahis\u0259 s\u00fclh yolu il\u0259 \u201ch\u0259ll\u201d olundu.<\/p>\n

Son ill\u0259r n\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fccd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, daha m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 getmirdi. Dini kitablar oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, M\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s Kitab\u0131n az\u0259rbaycancaya t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259 edilmi\u015f variant\u0131n\u0131 dem\u0259k olar ki, \u0259zb\u0259r bilirdi, ay\u0259l\u0259rin t\u0259fsirini d\u0259 ver\u0259 bilirdi. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn dediyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, bu istedad ona ilahid\u0259n verilib. Amma ail\u0259ni yax\u0131ndan tan\u0131yanlar bilirdil\u0259r ki, S\u00fcs\u0259n xan\u0131m\u0131n atas\u0131 N\u0259minli Hac\u0131 \u0130sg\u0259nd\u0259r \u00fcl\u0259ma olub, \u0130sfahanda ali ruhani m\u0259kt\u0259bini bitiribmi\u015f, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131-qaras\u0131 birc\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131 S\u00fcs\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 \u015f\u0259ri\u0259t v\u0259 \u0130slamla ba\u011fl\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn bildikl\u0259rini o \u00f6yr\u0259dibmi\u015f. Sonradan S\u00fcs\u0259ngil \u0130ran Astaras\u0131ndan Sovet Astaras\u0131na k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcbl\u0259r. Qad\u0131n orda h\u0259rbi qulluqda olan Kamal Axundzad\u0259 il\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olmu\u015f v\u0259 bel\u0259likl\u0259 d\u0259 onlar evl\u0259nmi\u015fl\u0259r. Daha sonralar is\u0259 ail\u0259 h\u0259rb\u00e7i h\u0259yat\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fd\u0131- onlar Sovet \u0130ttifaq\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fcxt\u0259lif regionlar\u0131nda olmu\u015f, n\u0259hay\u0259t, Kamal\u0131n do\u011fuldu\u011fu Erm\u0259nistana qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. H\u0259r halda, g\u00f6z qaba\u011f\u0131nda olan\u0131 buydu ki, S\u00fcs\u0259n xan\u0131m\u0131n t\u0259bii z\u0259kas\u0131 vard\u0131 v\u0259 son ill\u0259r camaat qad\u0131na daha ehtiramla yana\u015f\u0131r, dini t\u0259liml\u0259rl\u0259, \u015f\u0259ri\u0259tl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 moiz\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 maraqla qulaq as\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Banu T\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n qabaq ail\u0259nin h\u0259yat\u0131nda daha m\u00fch\u00fcm bir hadis\u0259 ba\u015f verdi: onlar\u0131n ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131 k\u00f6hn\u0259 \u00fcslublu be\u015fm\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li evin s\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259yini, \u0259v\u0259zind\u0259 is\u0259 Yeni Yasamalda be\u015fotaql\u0131 m\u0259nzil veril\u0259c\u0259yini bildirdil\u0259r. \u0130lk vaxtlar ail\u0259 \u00e7ox p\u0259ri\u015fan oldu, \u00fcmidsizlik v\u0259 nigaran\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q ev\u0259 h\u00fcznl\u00fc bir \u0259hval-ruhiyy\u0259 g\u0259tirdi- adam\u0131 \u00f6z s\u0131\u011f\u0131naca\u011f\u0131ndan, evind\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc d\u0259f\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xardasan, h\u0259l\u0259 bu da azm\u0131\u015f kimi, bu boyda \u201cxru\u015f\u015fovka\u201dn\u0131 ver\u0259s\u0259n buldozerin alt\u0131na, nec\u0259 olarsan?! Buna ox\u015far sars\u0131nt\u0131 hallar\u0131n\u0131 Qaratel iki d\u0259f\u0259 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, birinci d\u0259f\u0259 A\u011fd\u00fcd\u0259n did\u0259rgin d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259, ikinci d\u0259f\u0259 La\u00e7\u0131ndan qa\u00e7\u0131b g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259… Ata-anas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 bel\u0259 hal tan\u0131\u015f idi, \u00e7\u00fcnki h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259rdl\u0259ri istiydi, soyumam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 bu x\u0259b\u0259r\u0259 bir o q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259t verm\u0259dil\u0259r. Lakin…h\u0259yat\u0131n get-ged\u0259 daha maraql\u0131, daha c\u0259zbedici oldu\u011fu bir vaxtda q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n g\u0259lib dedil\u0259r ki, s\u0259nin evini s\u00f6k\u00fcr\u00fck, yerind\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6yd\u0259l\u0259n, ya da \u015fadl\u0131q saray\u0131 tikirik, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259, onlara yer el\u0259di. Ail\u0259 bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bilm\u0259di, he\u00e7 olmasa \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 kompensasiya vers\u0259l\u0259r, d\u0259rdin yar\u0131s\u0131 ola bil\u0259rdi. Sonradan bu sars\u0131nt\u0131l\u0131 anlar v\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259r d\u0259 t\u0259bii axarlara qovu\u015fdu. Kamal b\u00fct\u00fcn ke\u00e7mi\u015f \u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259rini, d\u00f6vl\u0259t \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, v\u0259t\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn can qoydu\u011fu namuslu \u0259m\u0259yini unutdu, bu g\u00fcn\u00fcn ger\u00e7\u0259k cazib\u0259 q\u00fcvv\u0259siyl\u0259 bar\u0131\u015fmal\u0131 oldu. B\u00fct\u00fcn \u00fcmid v\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259canlar Yeni Yasamaldak\u0131 h\u00fcnd\u00fcrm\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li ya\u015fay\u0131\u015f binas\u0131na ba\u011fland\u0131. G\u00fcnl\u0259rin bir g\u00fcn\u00fc Sosial T\u0259minat Nazirliyi Qaratel\u0259 q\u0259hr\u0259man \u015f\u0259hid ail\u0259si oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir minik ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 da ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131. Ail\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc qara kabus kimi alan dumanl\u0131 g\u0259rginlikl\u0259r bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 yox oldu. Amma professorun ke\u00e7irdiyi \u0259s\u0259b sars\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131 ucbat\u0131ndan ke\u00e7mi\u015f yaralar\u0131 sanki oyanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, i\u00e7ind\u0259 ba\u015f qald\u0131ran a\u011fr\u0131lar get-ged\u0259 \u015fidd\u0259tl\u0259ndi v\u0259 o, q\u0131z\u0131na veril\u0259n minik ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131ndan bir q\u0259d\u0259r istifad\u0259 ed\u0259nd\u0259n sonra onu h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 saxlad\u0131, dedi:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Daha s\u00fcr\u0259 bilmir\u0259m, qoy qals\u0131n, Banu g\u0259lib s\u00fcr\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259likl\u0259, Banu g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn sonra ail\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn biri-birinin dal\u0131nca \u0259lam\u0259tdar hadis\u0259l\u0259r ba\u015f verdi: tezlikl\u0259 Yeni Yasamaldak\u0131 \u00e7oxm\u0259nzilli h\u00fcnd\u00fcr ya\u015fay\u0131\u015f binas\u0131n\u0131n sonuncu m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259sind\u0259ki t\u0259mir edilmi\u015f, h\u0259r c\u00fcr avadanl\u0131qla t\u0259chiz olunmu\u015f be\u015f -otaql\u0131 m\u0259nzilin a\u00e7ar\u0131n\u0131 Kamal Axundzad\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259qdim el\u0259dil\u0259r. Onlar d\u0259rhal yeni m\u0259nzil\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fcl\u0259r. Ordan b\u00fct\u00fcn Bak\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ail\u0259 Yeni ili t\u0259z\u0259 m\u0259nzild\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131lama\u011fa haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Dekabr ay\u0131n\u0131n sonuncu g\u00fcn\u00fc idi…<\/p>\n

Qaratelin sa\u00e7lar\u0131 a\u011farm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130ll\u0259r onun k\u00fcbar qam\u0259tini bir q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 \u0259ymi\u015f, yadda\u015f\u0131na da \u0259l g\u0259zdirmi\u015fdi. Qad\u0131n \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi oturub-durmur, h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t v\u0259 davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131nda a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131q hiss edirdi. S\u00fcs\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259n bir k\u00fcnc\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilib namaz q\u0131l\u0131r, Allaha dua edir, yalvar\u0131rd\u0131 ki, he\u00e7 olmasa, q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n bundan sonrak\u0131 \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc rahat v\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt el\u0259sin. \u201cAlim n\u0259n\u0259\u201d ilin son gec\u0259sini layiqli qar\u015f\u0131lamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259ll\u0259\u015fib z\u0259ngin yem\u0259kl\u0259r haz\u0131rlayan ail\u0259nin bayram s\u00fcfr\u0259sin\u0259 qat\u0131lmad\u0131. Banu, Reyhan v\u0259 Da\u015fd\u0259mirin, \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015fl\u0131 balaca Ruslan\u0131n t\u0259kidl\u0259rin\u0259 baxmayaraq, \u00f6z ota\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kilib M\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s Kitab\u0131 \u0259lin\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Gur i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131, geni\u015f m\u0259nzild\u0259 n\u0259v\u0259si Banu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn niyy\u0259t el\u0259di, Qurana baxd\u0131. \u201cBismillah\u201d deyib Kitab\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 sata\u015fan ilk c\u00fcml\u0259ni oxudu: \u201cAllah b\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259rini \u0259min-amanl\u0131q yurduna \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131r v\u0259 ist\u0259diyini do\u011fru yola sal\u0131r…\u201d. N\u0259n\u0259nin sevincd\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri ya\u015fard\u0131, Kitab\u0131 ehmalca \u00f6rt\u00fcb g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu, \u00f6pd\u00fc. O biri ota\u011fa yeridi, i\u00e7kid\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n \u0259rin\u0259 v\u0259 yor\u011fun g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n Qaratel\u0259 dedi: \u201cBanu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yax\u015f\u0131 g\u0259ldi, \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr Allaha! \u0130\u015fi d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259r, in\u015fallah!\u201d. Sonra su sonas\u0131 kimi ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131n ucunda m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan Banuya \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc tutub \u0259lav\u0259 etdi: \u201cYanvar ay\u0131 u\u011furlu olacaq, n\u0259n\u0259 qurban! Baxarsan, m\u0259nim dualar\u0131m\u0131 Allah e\u015fid\u0259c\u0259k!\u201d.<\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 841 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u00a0\u00a0Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 Kamran N\u0259zirli art\u0131q \u201cD\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc M\u00f6h\u00fcr\u201d roman\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7apa haz\u0131rlay\u0131r. Orijinal b\u0259dii-f\u0259ls\u0259fi-psixoloji m\u0259zmuna malik romanda tarixi faktlardan v\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259 istifad\u0259 edilib. \u018fs\u0259rin q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 iki d\u0259f\u0259 qa\u00e7q\u0131nl\u0131q h\u0259yat\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f g\u0259nc az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 q\u0131zd\u0131r. Yeniyetm\u0259lik \u00e7a\u011flar\u0131ndan b\u0259ri taleyin b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011f\u0131r z\u0259rb\u0259l\u0259rini \u2013 baba, ata, \u0259mi, o\u011ful v\u0259 dig\u0259r qohumlar\u0131n itkisini ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f bu g\u0259nc q\u0131z s\u0131nm\u0131r, T\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259 tibbi t\u0259hsil […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8400"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=8400"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8400\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8402,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8400\/revisions\/8402"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=8400"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=8400"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=8400"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}