{"id":8598,"date":"2015-02-28T23:43:13","date_gmt":"2015-02-28T19:43:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=8598"},"modified":"2015-02-28T23:43:13","modified_gmt":"2015-02-28T19:43:13","slug":"cavid-q%c9%99dir-sevgi-deyil%c9%99nd%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=8598","title":{"rendered":"Cavid Q\u0259dir &#8211;Sevgi deyil\u0259nd\u0259"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/02\/34410_1c4cpwcatq.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignright wp-image-8599 \" src=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/02\/34410_1c4cpwcatq-300x200.jpg\" alt=\"cavid q\u0259dir\" width=\"228\" height=\"152\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #131313;\"><strong>\u018flli ilin g\u0259lini evd\u0259 t\u0259k olanda o\u011flu-q\u0131z\u0131 aras\u0131nda pay-p\u00fc\u015ft etm\u0259diyi, t\u0259k-t\u00fck qalan \u0259n sevdiyi cehizlik qablar\u0131n\u0131 sildiyi sevgi il\u0259 s\u0259n d\u0259 beynind\u0259ki xatir\u0259l\u0259ri sil\u0259s\u0259n\u2026<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #131313;\">Bu ya\u015f\u0131nda yenid\u0259n do\u011fulmu\u015f kimi ilk anan\u0131, sonra atan\u0131 sev\u0259s\u0259n\u2026 \u0130lk davan qarda\u015f\u0131nla ola, ilk sirrini bac\u0131na ver\u0259s\u0259n. T\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n ba\u015flayasan \u0259lifbaya\u2026<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #131313;\">Bir d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n ki, \u0259n cavan, \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259n\u0259 vurulmusan. O hissi gizl\u0259d\u0259s\u0259n ham\u0131dan k\u0259narlar\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fck d\u0259ft\u0259rl\u0259rinin aras\u0131nda. Gec\u0259l\u0259r t\u0259k olanda yasaq \u0259d\u0259biyyat oxur kimi x\u0259lv\u0259tc\u0259 yasaql\u0131\u011f\u0131n, gizliliyin a\u011fr\u0131 ver\u0259n \u015firinliyini ya\u015fayasan. Bir d\u0259 ay\u0131lasan ki, ham\u0131n\u0131n x\u0259b\u0259ri var gizlinind\u0259n. M\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259rd\u0259n qara g\u00f6zl\u0259riyl\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yir \u015firin-\u015firin. Sonra bir g\u00fcn anlayasan ki, h\u0259v\u0259sdir ham\u0131s\u0131\u2026 El\u0259 xatir\u0259 kimi qals\u0131n d\u0259ft\u0259rl\u0259rin alt\u0131nda\u2026<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #131313;\">\u2026Bir xurmay\u0131 sa\u00e7l\u0131, badamg\u00f6zl\u00fc g\u00f6z\u0259l\u0259 a\u015fiq olasan\u2026 N\u0259 bil\u0259s\u0259n ax\u0131 n\u0259di sevgi, nec\u0259 olur. Gizl\u0259ts\u0259nmi imtahan testl\u0259rinin aras\u0131nda, s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259s\u0259nmi qar d\u0259n\u0259cikl\u0259ri kimi sa\u00e7lar\u0131na? Sevgi o q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox ola ki, a\u011f\u0131na-bozuna baxmadan x\u0259rcl\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 yem\u0259yi bol g\u00f6r\u00fcb \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 s\u00fcrt\u0259n u\u015faq d\u0259c\u0259lliyi il\u0259. O q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tuta ki, ba\u015f\u0131ndan b\u00f6y\u00fck q\u0259l\u0259t\u0259 qalx\u0131\u015fasan, b\u00fct\u00fcn adamlar\u0131 sev\u0259s\u0259n. Sonra yalan\u0131yla qar\u011fadan pendir alan t\u00fclk\u00fc h\u0259yat qapaz\u0131 endirsin: d\u00fc\u015f buludlardan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131, h\u0259yat \u201c\u015firin noyabr\u201d deyil, pay\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259n dekabr da var\u2026 O xurmay\u0131 sa\u00e7l\u0131, badamg\u00f6zl\u00fc g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131z \u015f\u0259kil olub komodun siyirm\u0259sind\u0259 qala\u2026 Bax\u0131b g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, paralell\u0259\u015fib h\u0259r \u015fey, olmayan d\u00fcnya qurmusan. \u0130t arxas\u0131yla g\u00fcl\u00fcr s\u0259n\u0259. Bir s\u0259h\u0259r \u0259l-\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yuyanda \u0259ksin sill\u0259ni tutuzdura qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131n dibind\u0259n. Silkin\u0259s\u0259n. X\u0259yal\u0131n yaxas\u0131ndak\u0131 sanca\u011f\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b buraxasan n\u0259n\u0259l\u0259rin \u0259n saf andlar\u0131 olan \u201cH\u0259zr\u0259tabbas\u201dla h\u0259qiq\u0259t ad\u0131na s\u0131r\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u201cm\u0259n g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, anam\u0131n babas\u0131 tutubmu\u015f\u201d dediyi cin kimi\u2026<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #131313;\"><strong>***<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #131313;\">Sonra, sonra\u2026 Bir qad\u0131na vurulasan\u2026 Bir qad\u0131n ki\u2026 Siz Allah\u0131n(m)\u0131z, m\u0259n dem\u0259yim, siz anlay\u0131n\u2026 \u2013 adam\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n g\u00fcld\u00fcr\u0259n, g\u00fcl\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u00fc qad\u0131na\u2026 Q\u0131z\u0131l\u0131 sa\u00e7lar\u0131na dola\u015fasan. \u018fll\u0259rind\u0259 dustaq olasan, g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 batasan, qollar\u0131nda katarsis\u0259 \u00e7atasan. S\u0259si, h\u0259, s\u0259sini deyir\u0259m\u2026 \u0130srafilin suru kimi l\u0259rz\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259 s\u0259ni.<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #131313;\">Anlayasan ki, Allah var. Bir d\u0259 anlayasan, \u0259rimis\u0259n o q\u0131zda, ikiniz bir adam olmusuz. B\u0259d\u0259nl\u0259rinizin s\u0259rh\u0259ddi itib tamam. Harda ba\u015flay\u0131b, harda bitirs\u0259n, bilm\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n\u2026 G\u00fcn\u00fcn onla ba\u015flay\u0131b, onla bitir baxasan ki\u2026 Ad\u0131 h\u0259r s\u00f6z\u0259 ba\u015flayanda m\u00fcs\u0259lmanlar\u0131n \u201cBismillah\u201d\u0131, h\u0259r g\u00fcn\u00fcn sonunda k\u0259lmeyi-\u015f\u0259had\u0259ti ola\u2026 Suya d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f s\u00fcng\u0259r kimi e\u015fq f\u0131\u015fq\u0131rasan. Pay\u0131z kimi g\u00f6z\u0259l, k\u0259d\u0259rli qad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n g\u00fcld\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fasan. O q\u0259d\u0259r sev\u0259s\u0259n ki, bir d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, ikiniz\u0259 d\u0259 yet\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r a\u015fiqs\u0259n.<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #131313;\">Sonra, h\u0259, sonra\u2026 Gizli bax\u0131\u015fmalar, naz satmalar, buludun arxas\u0131ndan g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n aprel g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm, avqust qaynarl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u0259hdl\u0259r, sentyabr il\u0131ql\u0131\u011f\u0131nda s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r, noyabr s\u0259ssizliyind\u0259 \u0259l-\u0259l\u0259 tutu\u015fmalar, dekabr gec\u0259si q\u0259d\u0259r uzun sar\u0131lmalar\u2026 H\u0259r rastlayanda Allah\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f h\u0259zr\u0259ti Musa kimi olasan. B\u00fct\u00fcn m\u00fcs\u0259lmanlar ild\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 H\u0259cc\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259, g\u00fcn\u00fcn be\u015f vaxt\u0131nda namaz q\u0131landa, xristianlar bazar g\u00fcn\u00fc t\u00f6vb\u0259 ed\u0259nd\u0259, y\u0259hudil\u0259r p\u0259hriz saxlayanda, buddistl\u0259r nirvanaya eri\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259, s\u0259n onu sev\u0259s\u0259n. Anlayasan ki, Allah da \u015fairdi. Yoxsa onun kimi g\u00f6z\u0259l \u015feiri yaza bilm\u0259z. Ad olasan o \u015feir\u0259, qafiy\u0259 olasan. G\u00fcn\u00fcn birind\u0259 h\u0259min \u015feirin b\u0259st\u0259si s\u0259sl\u0259n\u0259 qulaqlar\u0131nda, k\u00f6rp\u0259 \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131.<\/p>\n<p style=\"color: #131313;\">Sonra\u2026 Sonras\u0131 da \u201cd\u00f6vranlar\u0131 pozub, m\u0259clisl\u0259ri da\u011f\u0131dan g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r xo\u015fb\u0259xt\u201d ya\u015fayasan\u2026<\/p>\n<p class=\"bawpvc-ajax-counter\" data-id=\"8598\">Yaz\u0131ya 824 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u018flli ilin g\u0259lini evd\u0259 t\u0259k olanda o\u011flu-q\u0131z\u0131 aras\u0131nda pay-p\u00fc\u015ft etm\u0259diyi, t\u0259k-t\u00fck qalan \u0259n sevdiyi cehizlik qablar\u0131n\u0131 sildiyi sevgi il\u0259 s\u0259n d\u0259 beynind\u0259ki xatir\u0259l\u0259ri sil\u0259s\u0259n\u2026 Bu ya\u015f\u0131nda yenid\u0259n do\u011fulmu\u015f kimi ilk anan\u0131, sonra atan\u0131 sev\u0259s\u0259n\u2026 \u0130lk davan qarda\u015f\u0131nla ola, ilk sirrini bac\u0131na ver\u0259s\u0259n. T\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n ba\u015flayasan \u0259lifbaya\u2026 Bir d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n ki, \u0259n cavan, \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259n\u0259 vurulmusan. 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