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G\u00f6zl\u0259rimin\u00a0<\/b>i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131<\/b>\u00a0\u2013\u00a0<\/b>\u00f6vladlar\u0131m<\/b><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/b>\u018f\u015fr\u0259f\u00a0<\/b>v\u0259\u00a0<\/b>Aysel\u0259\u00a0<\/b>h\u0259sr\u00a0<\/b>edir\u0259m<\/b><\/p>\n

S\u0259mra t\u0259l\u0259sirdi. Ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, onu bioloji ana\u00ads\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na, do\u011fuldu\u011fu v\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131na kimi ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ev\u0259 taksi laz\u0131mi s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 aparm\u0131r. Paytaxt olmayan G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0131xaclar h\u0259dd\u0259n art\u0131q \u00e7ox idi. S\u0259mra G\u0259nc\u0259ni bu c\u00fcr t\u0259svir etmirdi, onun n\u0259z\u0259rind\u0259 bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259r ancaq q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 k\u0259rpic evl\u0259rd\u0259n ibar\u0259t idi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Xan\u0131m, siz axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z \u00fcnvan burad\u0131r, -s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fcn s\u0259si onu fikrind\u0259n ay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yi \u0259sdi,iki m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li evin \u00fcst\u00fc aqlayla d\u00f6\u015f\u0259nmi\u015fdi. A\u011faclardan sar\u0131-q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 yarpaqlar t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. Aralar\u0131nda ya\u015f\u0131l yarpaqlar da vard\u0131. H\u0259l\u0259 avqustdur ax\u0131\u2026 Yarpaqlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n ke\u00e7ib iri d\u0259mir darvazan\u0131n z\u0259ngini basd\u0131. \u00dcr\u0259yi yerind\u0259n az qala \u00e7\u0131xacaqd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00abD\u0259rman atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ax\u0131, indi \u00fcr\u0259yim niy\u0259 bel\u0259 b\u0259rk vurur. B\u0259lk\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259liyim m\u0259ni bu k\u00f6k\u0259 sal\u0131b. Ayaqlar\u0131m, \u0259ll\u0259rim d\u0259 \u0259sir\u201d<\/p>\n

Qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6nl\u00fckl\u00fc cavan qad\u0131n a\u00e7d\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Jurnalist xan\u0131m sizsiniz?<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259li.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Buyurun, F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m bayaqdan sizi g\u00f6zl\u0259yir.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u201cBir-iki d\u0259qiq\u0259d\u0259n sonra b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259y\u0259can\u0131m, \u0259zab\u0131m arxada qalm\u0131\u015f olacaq\u201d. Qulluq\u00e7u qad\u0131n S\u0259mran\u0131 geni\u015f i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 zala \u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Divarlara m\u0259\u015fhur r\u0259ssamlar\u0131n \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259ri vurulmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

Sakit. O biri qap\u0131dan uca boy, dolu b\u0259d\u0259nli g\u00f6z\u0259l bir qad\u0131n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 S\u0259mra xan\u0131m? \u2013 qad\u0131n yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b onu qucaqlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Xo\u015f g\u0259ldiniz. Biz aktrisalar diqq\u0259t m\u0259rk\u0259zind\u0259 olanda, biz\u0259 yeni ilham g\u0259lir. Sa\u011f olsun c\u0259nab prezident, m\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259m prezident t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00fc, h\u0259m \u201c\u015f\u00f6hr\u0259t ordeni\u201d verdi. Bunlari d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259ndirm\u0259m\u0259k \u0259n az\u0131 nankorluqdur.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n d\u0259 sizin\u2026 yetmi\u015f be\u015f illiyinizi t\u0259brik edir\u0259m, S\u0259mran\u0131n s\u0259si q\u0131r\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u018fyl\u0259\u015fin, \u0259yl\u0259\u015fin, \u2013 F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m ona kresloda yer g\u00f6st\u0259rdi. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 onun qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 G\u00fclya, tez qona\u011f\u0131m\u0131za \u00e7ay g\u0259tir. B\u0259lk\u0259 q\u0259hv\u0259?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yox, el\u0259 \u00e7ay yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

F\u0259xriy\u0259 xan\u0131m i\u015fl\u0259diyi teatrdan, yeni tama\u015falardan dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra ondan g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0259k\u0259 bilmirdi. Onun simas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259 bilmirdi. Bu evd\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey, h\u0259tta F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 ona yad g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Aktrisa sanki taxd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bril\u00adliantlar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u0259riyirdi.<\/p>\n

\u201cG\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n bu xan\u0131m m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259mi bel\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259nib? Bu da\u015f-qa\u015flar n\u0259y\u0259 laz\u0131m idi\u2026 g\u00fcn\u00fcn g\u00fcnorta \u00e7a\u011f\u0131. \u201d<\/p>\n

G\u00fclya ki\u00e7ik masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00e7ay d\u0259stgah\u0131 d\u00fcz\u0259ltdi \u2013 paxlava, \u015f\u0259k\u0259rbura, c\u00fcrb\u0259c\u00fcr m\u00fcr\u0259bb\u0259l\u0259r, konfetl\u0259r. M\u0259t\u00adb\u0259xd\u0259n bad\u0131mcan dolmas\u0131n\u0131n \u0259tri g\u0259lirdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 H\u0259r vaxt paytaxt jurnslistl\u0259ri biz\u0259 t\u0259\u015frif buyurmur, \u00e7oxdan o q\u0259zetd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yirsiniz?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Lap cavanl\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan. Ancaq art\u0131q ne\u00e7\u0259 ill\u0259rdir ki xarici neft \u015firk\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259n birind\u0259 m\u0259tbuat xidm\u0259tinin r\u0259hb\u0259riy\u0259m. Ayda 2 d\u0259f\u0259 q\u0259zet\u0259 m\u0259qal\u0259 verm\u0259yi \u00f6hd\u0259m\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Ail\u0259niz var?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yolda\u015f\u0131m \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 jurnalistdir. \u0130ndi Pol\u015fadad\u0131r, he\u00e7 qay\u0131tmaq ist\u0259mir buralara.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Niy\u0259?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Simas\u0131n\u0131 itirm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

\u201cEl\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259 jurnalistikadan dem\u0259k olar ki, getdim. Bu \u00e7irkab, xaos i\u00e7ind\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259dim. Sad\u0259c\u0259 anam\u0131, h\u0259yat\u0131mdan art\u0131q ist\u0259diyim Tamara xan\u0131m\u0131 burada x\u0259st\u0259 halda qoyub ged\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. El\u0259 bil havas\u0131zl\u0131q \u015f\u0259raitind\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131ram. S\u0259ninl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm d\u0259, F\u0259xriy\u0259 xan\u0131m, anam\u0131n son arzusu idi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259s \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131z var?<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, m\u0259nim bir q\u0131z\u0131m, h\u0259l\u0259 M\u0259ry\u0259m ad\u0131nda bir n\u0259v\u0259m d\u0259 var. Q\u0131z\u0131m Var\u015fava universitetind\u0259 professordur. T\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr edirsiniz iyirmi alt\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131nda doktorluq m\u00fcdafi\u0259 etdi. Sovetoloqdur. Yolda\u015f\u0131 da bir yax\u015f\u0131 bak\u0131l\u0131 o\u011fland\u0131r. Universitetd\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n m\u00fc\u0259llimi olmu\u015fdur.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n ad\u0131 n\u0259dir?<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u015eirin.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z\u0259l add\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259s sizin q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131z var?<\/p>\n

F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri bir an k\u00f6lg\u0259l\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259nim bir o\u011flum var. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6z\u0259l bank\u0131 var. Sa\u011f olsun c\u0259nab prezident.<\/p>\n

\u2013 F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m, m\u0259nim siz\u0259 balaca h\u0259diyy\u0259m var.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bu \u0259tirdir, Diordan\u2026 S\u0259mran\u0131n \u0259ll\u0259ri \u0259sm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 O\u2026 o\u2026 bu m\u0259nim sevdiyim \u0259tirdir, \u2013 sevincini gizl\u0259d\u0259 bilm\u0259di F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bu da \u201cMaks Maradan\u201d \u015farfd\u0131r, \u00fc\u00e7 ay bundan qabaq anamla birg\u0259 Parisd\u0259n ald\u0131q.<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259s niy\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz \u00f6rtm\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz? \u00c7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l \u015farfd\u0131r, \u2013 F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m \u015farf\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131.<\/p>\n

O\u2026 o\u2026 \u00e7ox y\u00fcks\u0259k brenddir\u2026 Bu ki \u00e7ox bahad\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn baha deyil, m\u0259nd\u0259 ayr\u0131lar\u0131 da var.<\/p>\n

\u201cYox, F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m, sad\u0259c\u0259 m\u0259nim \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn s\u00fcqutudur. M\u0259n \u00e7ox ciddi x\u0259st\u0259y\u0259m. \u0130ki g\u00fcn\u0259 kimi \u0259m\u0259liyyat olunmal\u0131yam. M\u0259rk\u0259zi klinik x\u0259st\u0259xanada h\u0259kiml\u0259r dedi ki, \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259ni ed\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r. Ancaq i\u015f qal\u0131b Allaha. S\u0259mra xan\u0131m daimi n\u0259zar\u0259td\u0259 olmal\u0131s\u0131z. X\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ng b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnyan\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcb. Amma, insanlar m\u00fcalic\u0259 olunub, ya\u015fay\u0131rlar.<\/p>\n

Ancaq m\u0259n gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz Allaha dua edir\u0259m ki, Tamara anam kimi ana, Hiday\u0259t doxtur kimi ata, \u015eirin kimi \u00f6vlad, \u018ffrasiyab kimi h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131, balaca n\u0259v\u0259mi m\u00fckafat kimi m\u0259n\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131. \u0130ndi m\u0259nim 53 ya\u015f\u0131m var. \u201d<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u00c7ay\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 soyutmay\u0131n, i\u00e7in.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f st\u0259kanalt\u0131lara qoyulmu\u015f \u00e7ay st\u0259kanlar\u0131ndan birini \u2013 q\u0259n\u015f\u0259rin\u0259 qoyulan\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ba\u015f\u0131 a\u011fr\u0131dan zoqqulday\u0131rd\u0131. \u00dcr\u0259yi bulan\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

T\u0259kc\u0259 qaytarmay\u0131m. \u0130\u00e7diyi \u00e7ay bo\u011faz\u0131na g\u0259lirdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Tualet, tualet haradad\u0131r? \u2013 S\u0259mra \u0259lini a\u011fz\u0131na apard\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc itirmi\u015f F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m onun qoluna girdi, m\u0259rm\u0259r d\u00f6\u015f\u0259nmi\u015f, tualet\u0259 apard\u0131.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra qap\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flama\u011fa macal tapa bilm\u0259di, el\u0259 unitaza qaytard\u0131. A\u011fz\u0131na soyuq su al\u0131b yaxalad\u0131. Unitaz\u0131n suyunu buraxd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cH\u0259, yax\u015f\u0131 aya\u011fa qalxa bildim \u2013 ke\u00e7irtdi beynind\u0259n S\u0259mra.<\/p>\n

Sonra kresloya \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib, \u00e7antas\u0131ndan diktafonu \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131ma tutdu<\/p>\n

\u2013 Siz art\u0131q 60 il\u0259 yax\u0131nd\u0131r ki, s\u0259hn\u0259d\u0259siz. Bu ill\u0259r \u0259rzind\u0259 sizin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259n\u0259td\u0259 istinad n\u00f6qt\u0259si kiml\u0259r olub? Kimi \u00f6z m\u00fc\u0259lliminiz hesab edirsiz?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Sidqi Ruhulla, \u00dclvi R\u0259c\u0259b, M\u0259rziyy\u0259 Davudova, H\u00f6kum\u0259 Qurbanova, Fatma Q\u0259dri, \u018fl\u0259kb\u0259r Seyfi, \u018f\u015fr\u0259f Yusifzad\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259s \u0259n \u00e7ox sevdiyiniz rol hans\u0131 olub?<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u018fn \u00e7ox sevdiyim rol \u201cHamletd\u0259ki\u201d Ofeliya, \u201cKral Lird\u0259ki\u201d Kordeliya.<\/p>\n

Maraql\u0131d\u0131r ki, \u015eekspirin yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 qad\u0131n obrazlar\u0131 i\u00e7ind\u0259 Kordeliya a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131d\u0131r. Qalan qad\u0131n obrazlar\u0131 b\u0259sit v\u0259 el\u0259 d\u0259 a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 deyil. Bizim \u0259d\u0259biyyatdak\u0131 qad\u0131n sur\u0259tl\u0259ri \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131d\u0131rlar.<\/p>\n

M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, M\u0259hin Banu, N\u00fc\u015fab\u0259, h\u0259l\u0259 tarixi q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131m\u0131z Tomris, \u2013 bax m\u0259n \u201cTomrisi\u201d oynayard\u0131m.<\/p>\n

F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m bo\u015fqaba g\u00fclab, z\u0259f\u0259ran \u0259tirli paxlava k\u0259sdi, do\u011franm\u0131\u015f paxlavan\u0131 S\u0259mran\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131na qoydu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bu \u0259sil G\u0259nc\u0259 paxlavas\u0131d\u0131r, \u2013 \u00f6z\u00fcm bi\u015firmi\u015f\u0259m. M\u0259xsusi siz\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259.<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni yax\u0131ndan tan\u0131mayan adamlar he\u00e7 c\u00fcr\u0259 inana bilmirl\u0259r ki, m\u0259n bu sayaq \u015feyl\u0259r bi\u015fir\u0259 bilir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra paxlava g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259kd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kindi, qorxdu ki, yen\u0259 ur\u0259yi qalxar. H\u0259r\u00e7\u0259nd paxlavan\u0131 \u00e7ox sevirdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Siz bilirsiniz ki, g\u00f6rk\u0259mli rus tarix\u00e7isi v\u0259 yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 Karamzin \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u201cRusiya d\u00f6vl\u0259tinin tarixi\u201d \u0259s\u0259rind\u0259 bizim Tomris\u0259 nec\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck d\u0259y\u0259r verib. S\u0259n dem\u0259 Tomris bu ad\u0131n yunanca yaz\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. \u0259slind\u0259 o b\u00f6y\u00fck cari\u00e7an\u0131n ad\u0131 Tamira, Tamarad\u0131r. D\u00fcnyada n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r Tamara var \u2013 Massaqet caricas\u0131n\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 da\u015f\u0131y\u0131r. Bu ad m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 \u00e7ox \u0259ziz add\u0131r.<\/p>\n

F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n yen\u0259 k\u00f6lg\u0259 ke\u00e7di.<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259s sizin Az\u0259rbaycan dramaturgiyas\u0131nda \u0259n \u00e7ox sevdiyiniz rol hans\u0131d\u0131r?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Cabbarl\u0131n\u0131n \u201cAyd\u0131n\u0131nda\u201d G\u00fclt\u0259kin. Bilirsiniz o tama\u015fa ged\u0259nd\u0259 nec\u0259 an\u015flaq olurdu. Ham\u0131 Q\u0259dir M\u0259mm\u0259dliy\u0259, m\u0259n\u0259 baxma\u011fa g\u0259lirdi. Ayaqlar\u0131m\u0131z alt\u0131na says\u0131z-hesabs\u0131z g\u00fcll\u0259r at\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Heyif teatr\u0131n o g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259n. Indi he\u00e7 teatra adam g\u0259lmir, heyif.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Y\u0259qin teatr konyuktur \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259r qoyur tama\u015faya, bu da maraqs\u0131zd\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 S\u0259n\u0259t h\u0259r c\u00fcr konyukturadan uzaq olmal\u0131, ger\u00e7\u0259kliyin f\u00f6vq\u00fcnd\u0259 dayanmal\u0131d\u0131r. S\u0259n\u0259t k\u00fctl\u0259 s\u0259viyy\u0259sin\u0259 enm\u0259m\u0259lidir.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Tam do\u011fru buyurursunuz. Sizin \u00e7ox maraql\u0131, analitik yaz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131z var. Siz m\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng ed\u0259nd\u0259n sonra m\u0259n o\u011flumdan xahi\u015f etdim ki, internetd\u0259 sizim mzqal\u0259l\u0259rinizi taps\u0131n. B\u00f6y\u00fck m\u0259mnuniyy\u0259tl\u0259 oxudum. Anan\u0131z, do\u011fmalar\u0131n\u0131z sizin kimi q\u0131zla f\u0259xr ed\u0259 bil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Sa\u011f olun. \u00c7ox \u015fablon bir sual ver\u0259c\u0259m \u2013g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k planlar\u0131n\u0131z bar\u0259d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fard\u0131n\u0131z\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n ya\u015fda adam\u0131n n\u0259 plan\u0131 ola bil\u0259r? M\u0259n indi b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fc, q\u00fcvv\u0259timi toplay\u0131b, teatr bar\u0259d\u0259 kitab yazacam. Sponsorlu\u011fu da o\u011flum ed\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Siz z\u0259hm\u0259t olmasa m\u0259n\u0259 oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z tama\u015falar\u0131n diskl\u0259rini verin. M\u0259n onlara da baxmaq ist\u0259rdim\u2026 sonra m\u0259qal\u0259ni yazacam. Bir d\u0259 \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rinizi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 G\u00fclya, m\u0259nim tumbu\u00e7kam\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n h\u0259m diskl\u0259ri h\u0259m d\u0259 \u015f\u0259kill\u0259ri g\u0259tir. Siz\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 haz\u0131rlad\u0131m ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u00c7ox sa\u011f olun. B\u0259s sizin o\u011flunuz i\u015fd\u0259n n\u0259 vaxt g\u0259lir? F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rini S\u0259mran\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki r\u0259f\u0259 \u00e7evirdi. S\u0259mra da ora baxd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yi yerind\u0259n qopacaqd\u0131, \u2013 \u201cay Allah, ay Allah m\u0259n niy\u0259 bu saata baxd\u0131m? B\u00fct\u00fcn i\u00e7im h\u0259l\u0259k-v\u0259l\u0259k oldu. Bu h\u0259min q\u0259dim saat idi ki, S\u0259mra onun \u0259qr\u0259bl\u0259rini \u00e7evirmi\u015fdi. Onda S\u0259mran\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131 vard\u0131. H\u0259min bu evd\u0259 (ev onda bel\u0259 t\u0259m-t\u0259raql\u0131 deyildi). Anas\u0131 teatra gec getsin dey\u0259, S\u0259mra divan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, saat\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Qaqa, qaqa, s\u0259n saat\u0131n qapa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7 m\u0259n \u0259qr\u0259bi geri \u00e7evirim. R\u0259\u015fad saat\u0131 onun quca\u011f\u0131ndan ald\u0131, \u0259qr\u0259bi bir saat geri \u00e7\u0259kdi v\u0259 d\u0259rhal da r\u0259f\u0259 qoydu.<\/p>\n

Analar\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259ri girib saata baxd\u0131. \u2013 B\u0131y, h\u0259l\u0259 tezdir ki, vaxta var.<\/p>\n

Sonra \u00fct\u00fc g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb u\u015faqlar\u0131n paltarlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fct\u00fcl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Yar\u0131m saat ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015f telefon z\u0259ng etdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0M\u0259n evd\u0259y\u0259m. H\u0259l\u0259 m\u0259\u015fq\u0259 iki saat var. Ola bilm\u0259z. M\u0259n g\u0259lir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 saata tutdu. Saat i\u015fl\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Kim buna \u0259l vurub?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0M\u0259n yox, m\u0259n yox, \u2013 R\u0259\u015fad qap\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131na gizl\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0S\u0259n? S\u0259n G\u00fclt\u0259kin? (onda S\u0259mran\u0131n ad\u0131 G\u00fclt\u0259kin idi)<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m onun \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n vurdu, sonra sa\u00e7\u0131ndan tutub evin k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Axmaq u\u015faq. Bu g\u00fcn proqon m\u0259\u015fqdir. Nazirlikd\u0259n d\u0259 adamlar g\u0259lib.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Onu vurma, bac\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259, \u0259qr\u0259bi m\u0259n d\u0259yi\u015fdim, \u2013 R\u0259\u015fad a\u011flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m bir-iki \u015fapalaq da ona vurub, ota\u011f\u0131n k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 it\u0259l\u0259di.<\/p>\n

K\u0259nardan bu s\u0259hn\u0259ni s\u0259ssiz-s\u0259mirsiz m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259 ed\u0259n qaynanas\u0131 g\u0259lininin arxas\u0131nca \u2013 g\u00f6r bir u\u015faqlar\u0131 n\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259 qoydun.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Mama, qoy ikisi d\u0259 he\u00e7 olmasa bir saat k\u00fcncd\u0259 dursunlar, b\u0259lk\u0259, a\u011f\u0131llar\u0131 ba\u015flar\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259. F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131b getdi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra bir qurtum \u00e7ay i\u00e7di. R\u0259ngi a\u011farm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Siz x\u0259st\u0259 deyilsiniz ki, \u2013 soru\u015fdu F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m \u2013 yox-yox, sad\u0259c\u0259 yor\u011funam.<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7\u0259ri h\u00fcnd\u00fcrboy, sa\u00e7lar\u0131na d\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f g\u00f6z\u0259l ki\u015fi g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra d\u0259rhal ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, bu qarda\u015f\u0131 R\u0259\u015fadd\u0131r. R\u0259\u015fad \u0259yilib, anas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc. Sonra S\u0259mran\u0131n sol\u011fun b\u0259nizin\u0259 baxd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Xo\u015f g\u0259lmisiniz.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0S\u0259n\u0259 dediyim jurnalist xan\u0131md\u0131r, S\u0259mra Qulub\u0259yova.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0M\u0259n ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

R\u0259\u00e7ad \u00f6z ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7di.<\/p>\n

F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0O\u011flum ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n tac\u0131d\u0131r. Atas\u0131 r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 3 ya\u015f\u0131 vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u201cM\u0259nim d\u0259 bir\u201d, \u2013 beynind\u0259n ke\u00e7irdi S\u0259mra.<\/p>\n

F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m \u00fczr ist\u0259yib, o\u011flunun yan\u0131na ke\u00e7di, n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 arxas\u0131nca qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtm\u0259k yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. S\u0259mra biixtiyar onlar\u0131n x\u0131s\u0131n-x\u0131s\u0131n dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Qurban olum, R\u0259\u015fad, bu qad\u0131na qan\u0131m el\u0259 qaynay\u0131r ki, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 dey\u0259s\u0259n a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131r. Deyir\u0259m, b\u0259lk\u0259 bizd\u0259 qals\u0131n bu gec\u0259?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0N\u0259di, evimiz oteldi? Y\u00fcz d\u0259f\u0259 demi\u015f\u0259m, mama, h\u0259r yet\u0259n\u0259 \u00fcz g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259. G\u00fcnd\u0259 bilirs\u0259n, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r jurnalist g\u0259lir m\u0259nim ofisim\u0259? Tap\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015fam h\u0259r\u0259sin\u0259 be\u015f-on manat verib yola sals\u0131nlar.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Bu el\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 ox\u015fam\u0131r. M\u0259qal\u0259l\u0259rini oxumu\u015fam.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0\u00d6z\u00fcn bil.<\/p>\n

\u201cQurban olum, ay qarda\u015f\u0131m, s\u0259nin he\u00e7 a\u011fl\u0131na da g\u0259lm\u0259z ki, evin\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n kimdir. Biz bir ana b\u0259tnind\u0259 yatm\u0131\u015f\u0131q. Atam\u0131z da eyni ki\u015fi olub\u201d.<\/p>\n

G\u00fclya masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b, yeni s\u00fcfr\u0259 sald\u0131. Nahara t\u0259dar\u00fck g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m bir q\u0259d\u0259r p\u0259rt g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0M\u0259n hesab edir\u0259m ki, s\u0259n\u0259t he\u00e7 vaxt xalqa m\u0259xsus ola bilm\u0259z.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Estetler d\u00fcz deyirdi ki, s\u0259n\u0259t s\u0259n\u0259t \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra diktofonun d\u00fcym\u0259sini basd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Z\u0259hm\u0259t olmasa, bir d\u0259 t\u0259krar edin.<\/p>\n

F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m t\u0259krar etdi. S\u0259mra aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, m\u0259n yem\u0259k yey\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. M\u0259n m\u00fctl\u0259q getm\u0259liy\u0259m\u2026<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Yox, yox\u2026 he\u00e7 olmasa bir qism\u0259t \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k k\u0259sin.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Yox, m\u0259n ac deyil\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Q\u0259h\u0259r onu bo\u011furdu. Siz q\u0259zeti izl\u0259yin, sabah yox, o biri g\u00fcn m\u0259qal\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xacaq. V\u0259 F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m onun a\u011flama\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259sin dey\u0259 c\u0259ld qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri alatoranl\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t kor-koran\u0259 hans\u0131 s\u0259mt\u0259 getm\u0259yinin f\u0259rqin\u0259 varmad\u0131. Sonra s\u0259ssiz-s\u0259mirsiz bir dalanda \u00e7inar a\u011fac\u0131na s\u00f6yk\u0259nib, h\u00f6nk\u00fcr-h\u00f6nk\u00fcr a\u011flad\u0131. Bir ya\u015fl\u0131 ki\u015fi ona yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Xan\u0131m, siz\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Yox, el\u0259c\u0259 taksi dayanaca\u011f\u0131na getm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Burada m\u0259xsusi dayanacaqlar olmur, \u2013 ki\u015fi \u0259lini qald\u0131r\u0131b, yanlar\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259n sar\u0131 r\u0259ngli taksini saxlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Hara ged\u0259c\u0259ksiniz?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Avtova\u011fzala.<\/p>\n

Ki\u015fi cibind\u0259n pul \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcy\u0259 uzatd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Yox, yox, m\u0259nim pulum var. S\u0259mra ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n arxa oturaca\u011f\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi. Ma\u015f\u0131n t\u0259rp\u0259ndi. S\u0259mra arxaya baxd\u0131. Ki\u015fi \u0259lind\u0259ki pula bax\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0259mra g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 qara eyn\u0259k taxd\u0131. S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcy\u0259 10 manat pul uzad\u0131b,<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0M\u0259n\u0259 bir \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 adi su al\u0131n z\u0259hm\u0259t olmasa. S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 su k\u00f6\u015fk\u00fcn\u00fcn yan\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259yib bir \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 su ald\u0131. Pulun qal\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 S\u0259mraya uzatd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Ham\u0131s\u0131 sizindir, \u2013 dedi S\u0259mra. S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc t\u0259\u0259c\u00fcbl\u0259ndi, ancaq pullar\u0131 cibin\u0259 qoydu.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Allah \u0259v\u0259zini versin bac\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0\u00c7ox sa\u011f olun.<\/p>\n

Avtobus Bak\u0131ya d\u00fcz be\u015f saatdan sonra \u00e7atd\u0131. S\u0259mra bir taksiy\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib, Molokan ba\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndak\u0131 evin\u0259 g\u0259ldi. Yolda iki d\u0259n\u0259 spazmaqon h\u0259bi i\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n k\u0259skin a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ancaq \u00fcr\u0259yi h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 bulan\u0131rd\u0131. Hamama ke\u00e7ib yuyundu, sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 qurutmam\u0131\u015f pijamas\u0131n\u0131 geydi, yata\u011f\u0131na uzand\u0131. Yatmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir d\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 ketotifen h\u0259bi atd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilm\u0259di ki, yuxuya nec\u0259 getdi. Ancaq uy\u011fusunda o, \u0259lli il bundan qabaq Tbilisini g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin hans\u0131sa k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sind\u0259 iki qad\u0131n dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 bir d\u0259 R\u0259\u015fadla S\u0259mra (onda G\u00fclt\u0259kin).<\/p>\n

F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m:<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00ad M\u0259n \u00e7ox g\u00f6t\u00fcr-qoy el\u0259dim. M\u0259n h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131 davam etdirm\u0259liy\u0259m. M\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tindir. M\u0259nim o\u011flum b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcr, ist\u0259mir\u0259m, yek\u0259l\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259, onun ba\u015f\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 olsun. H\u0259r\u0259 bir qarmaq at\u0131r m\u0259n\u0259.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n\u0259 G\u00fclt\u0259kind\u0259n ayr\u0131lmaq \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259rdir. Ancaq ail\u0259 qurdu\u011fum adam m\u0259n\u0259 \u015f\u0259rt qoyub \u2013 u\u015faqlardan birini. Onda S\u0259mran\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259 balaca g\u0259lincik d\u0259 var idi. F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. O u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 Tamara xan\u0131ma ver\u0259nd\u0259, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri a\u011flamaqdan q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 idi.<\/p>\n

Onda S\u0259mra F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 qucaqlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Mama, detm\u0259, mama, detm\u0259.<\/p>\n

G\u0259linciyi \u0259lind\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. O, h\u0131cq\u0131r\u0131qdan bo\u011fulurdu.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n get, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n z\u0259hri \u00e7atlayacaq.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m art\u0131q geriy\u0259 baxmadan, R\u0259\u015fad\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n tutub, uzaqla\u015fd\u0131. R\u0259\u015fad \u0259lini anas\u0131n\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131. \u00c7\u0131xartd\u0131 ki, \u0259ll\u0259riyl\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n axan ya\u015flar\u0131 silsin.<\/p>\n

Tamara xan\u0131m u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131, \u2013 Ged\u0259k, g\u00f6z\u0259l balam, he\u00e7 bilirs\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r oyuncaqlar alacam.<\/p>\n

U\u015faq \u2013 mama, detm\u0259, mama detm\u0259, \u2013 deyib a\u011fla\u00ady\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Tamara xan\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0He\u00e7 bilirs\u0259n m\u0259n s\u0259ni n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6zl\u0259mi\u015fdim, el\u0259 bil b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6mr\u00fcm boyu.<\/p>\n

Mamam\u0131 ist\u0259yir\u0259m, mama\u2026 mama\u2026 h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131qdan bo\u011fulurdu q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz.<\/p>\n

Tamara xan\u0131m ba\u011fr\u0131na basd\u0131 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131, yeyin-yeyin oyuncaq ma\u011fazas\u0131na getdi. F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n G\u00fclt\u0259kinin ad\u0131n\u0131 verdiyi s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259ri \u0259l \u00e7antas\u0131na qoymu\u015fdu. \u00c7antan\u0131 da u\u015faqla birg\u0259 sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131b gedirdi.<\/p>\n

Ma\u011fazaya \u00e7atanda, art\u0131q t\u0259ngin\u0259f\u0259s olmu\u015fdu. Ancaq u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrm\u0259di. Ma\u011fazaya girdi. U\u015faq bir an oyun\u00adcaqlara bax\u0131b, n\u0259f\u0259sini d\u0259rdi, sonra, sanki anas\u0131 qar\u00ad\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda idi.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Mama detm\u0259, mama detm\u0259, \u2013 dedi.<\/p>\n

Tamara xan\u0131m d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc bu k\u00f6rp\u0259y\u0259, onun g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 h\u0259sr ed\u0259c\u0259k. Ka\u015f xo\u015fb\u0259xt taleli olsun onun \u00f6m\u00adr\u00fc. Allah Tamara xan\u0131m\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n \u0259zab-\u0259ziyy\u0259ti, g\u00f6r\u00add\u00fcy\u00fc i\u015fg\u0259nc\u0259l\u0259ri bu u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n taleind\u0259n uzaq el\u0259sin. El\u0259 g\u00fc\u00adn\u00fc sabahdan Bak\u0131da u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fib \u00f6z anas\u0131n\u0131n v\u0259 ba\u00adlas\u0131n\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 \u2013 S\u0259mra qoyacaq. F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m Tamara xa\u00adn\u0131\u00adma u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n atas\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131n\u0131, h\u0259md\u0259 ya\u015f ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 il\u0259 birg\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn k\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fc olaraq q\u0131z\u0131ndan imtina etm\u0259si bar\u0259d\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259di d\u0259 Tamara xan\u0131ma verdi. Tamara xan\u0131m\u0131 Tiflis\u0259 \u0259misi q\u0131z\u0131 Z\u00fc\u00adleyxa d\u0259v\u0259t etmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

Tamara xan\u0131m G\u0259nc\u0259 teatr\u0131n\u0131n qastrollar\u0131na maraqla ba\u00adx\u0131rd\u0131. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 h\u0259ft\u0259nin birinci g\u00fcn\u00fc h\u0259m Tiflis teatrlar\u0131n\u0131n, h\u0259m d\u0259 G\u0259nc\u0259 teatr\u0131n\u0131n bir ne\u00e7\u0259 aktyoru Batuma g\u0259z\u00adm\u0259y\u0259 getdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Bu g\u0259zintiy\u0259 F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m h\u0259m Z\u00fcleyxan\u0131, h\u0259m d\u0259 Tamara xan\u0131m\u0131 d\u0259v\u0259t etdi. Tamara xan\u0131m \u2013 u\u015faqlar da ged\u0259c\u0259k? \u2013 soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259.<\/p>\n

F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m bu g\u0259zintiy\u0259 iki u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi. Elizabet Teylora ox\u015fayan F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131nda k\u00f6rp\u0259 q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n Tamara xan\u0131m\u0131n ayaqlar\u0131 \u0259sdi. Biixtiyar g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n ya\u015f axma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 atd\u0131, onu ba\u011fr\u0131na basd\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 onun boynuna s\u0131x\u0131b, a\u011flad\u0131. Ham\u0131 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m onun a\u011flamas\u0131na mane olmad\u0131. Bir kims\u0259 s\u0259sini bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xarmad\u0131. Birc\u0259 F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n o\u011flu R\u0259\u015fad dar\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan anas\u0131n\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n tutdu.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Mama, ged\u0259k.<\/p>\n

Tamara xan\u0131m u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yer\u0259 qoymadan<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n\u2026 Sad\u0259c\u0259 bu u\u015faq m\u0259nim q\u0131z\u0131ma ox\u015fay\u0131r, \u2013 dedi.<\/p>\n

Sonra ham\u0131 g\u0259zinti \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tutulan avtobusa mindi.<\/p>\n

Batumda d\u0259niz q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131nda xeyli g\u0259z\u0259nd\u0259n sonra kafel\u0259rin birind\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib Acar xa\u015fapurisi yedil\u0259r. Tamara xan\u0131m u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131ndan buraxmaq ist\u0259mirdi.<\/p>\n

Nec\u0259 ki 18 il bundan qabaq \u00f6z ciy\u0259rparas\u0131n\u0131 sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131b, qatar\u0131n \u00fcmumi vaqonunda uzaq s\u0259hra diyar\u0131 olan Qazax\u0131stana gedirdi. \u018fri h\u0259rbi h\u0259kim Hiday\u0259t d\u0259 s\u00fcrg\u00fcn\u0259 yollan\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. 1944-c\u00fc ilin q\u0131\u015f\u0131 idi. Soyu\u011fa, \u015faxtaya d\u00f6z\u0259 bilm\u0259yib, donub \u00f6l\u0259n x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259ri konvoylar qatar dayanmadan vaqon qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b at\u0131rd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

Qad\u0131nl\u0131-ki\u015fili ham\u0131 \u00e7irkli vaqonun d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259sind\u0259 \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 yer el\u0259mi\u015fdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

T\u0259kc\u0259 aral\u0131qda konvoylar\u0131n ke\u00e7m\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir azac\u0131q yer var idi.<\/p>\n

Konvoylar art\u0131q bir k\u00fctl\u0259y\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f bu adamlar i\u00e7ind\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259 axtar\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u00d6l\u00fcmc\u00fcl olanlar\u0131 da qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b \u00e7\u00f6l-biyabana at\u0131rd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 evl\u0259rind\u0259 olark\u0259n u\u015faq s\u0259t\u0259lc\u0259m olmu\u015fdu. H\u0259min il Az\u011furda q\u0131\u015f \u00e7ox s\u0259rt idi. Soban\u0131 qalamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn odunu uzaq me\u015f\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259tirirdil\u0259r. \u00c7ox vaxt Hiday\u0259t h\u0259kim do\u011frad\u0131\u011f\u0131 odun 3 g\u00fcn \u00f6d\u0259mirdi ail\u0259ni. \u00dcst\u0259lik u\u015faq da ikit\u0259r\u0259fli s\u0259t\u0259lc\u0259m olmu\u015fdu. K\u0259ndd\u0259 ham\u0131n\u0131n doxtur Hiday\u0259t dediyi h\u0259kim \u00f6z balas\u0131na \u00e7ar\u0259 tapa bilm\u0259di. Antibiotik \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Tiflis\u0259 v\u0259 ya Kutais\u0259 getm\u0259k laz\u0131m idi. H\u0259rbi hosbital\u0131n r\u0259isi onun getm\u0259sin\u0259 icaz\u0259 verm\u0259di. \u00c7ar\u0259siz qalan h\u0259kim k\u00f6m\u0259k\u00e7isin\u0259 pul verib, Tiflis\u0259 yola sald\u0131-d\u0259rman\u0131 gecikdirm\u0259k olmaz, k\u00f6rp\u0259 \u0259ld\u0259n ged\u0259 bil\u0259rdi. N\u00f6vb\u0259d\u0259n sonra ev\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259n doxtur Hiday\u0259t i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259 bir d\u0259st\u0259 silahl\u0131 konvoy g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Tamara xan\u0131m \u2013 u\u015faq a\u011f\u0131r x\u0259st\u0259dir, \u2013 dey\u0259nd\u0259, konvoylardan biri avtomat\u0131n k\u00fcp\u00fcyl\u0259 qad\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n vurdu. Hiday\u0259t doxtur konvoyun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 at\u0131landa, ne\u00e7\u0259 avtomat k\u00fcp\u00fc onun ba\u015f\u0131ndan, qarn\u0131ndan d\u0259ydi. Onun qollar\u0131n\u0131 arxadan ba\u011flay\u0131b, \u201cPodl\u0131ye turki\u201d \u2013 dedil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u201cBizim g\u00fcnah\u0131m\u0131z t\u00fcrk, ah\u0131ska t\u00fcrk\u00fc olma\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adm\u0131z\u00add\u0131r,\u201d \u2013 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc Hiday\u0259t h\u0259kim. Qan \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259ri il\u0259 arva\u00add\u0131n\u0131, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 axtard\u0131. Tamara xan\u0131m u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 qal\u0131n yor\u011fana b\u00fc\u00adk\u00fcb, konvoylar\u0131n m\u00fc\u015faiy\u0259ti il\u0259 qarl\u0131-\u00e7ov\u011funlu k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259\u00ady\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. H\u0259kim y\u00fczl\u0259rl\u0259 ellil\u0259ri getdikl\u0259ri yolla ged\u0259c\u0259k Orta Asiyaya \u2013 \u00f6l\u0259nl\u0259r d\u00fcz\u00fcn-d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 at\u0131lacaq, qalanlar baraklarda, ya da qazma evl\u0259rd\u0259 ya\u015fama\u011fa m\u0259hkum olacaqlar.<\/p>\n

Tamara xan\u0131m \u00fcfun\u0259t iyi ver\u0259n vaqonda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 zorla yer tapd\u0131. \u00dc\u00e7 ya\u015fl\u0131 k\u00f6rp\u0259sini \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 daha \u00e7ox s\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Qap\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda, kimins\u0259 barxanas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yer alm\u0131\u015f Hiday\u0259t doxtur, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u00f6z quca\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131. \u00d6z aciz\u00adli\u00adyind\u0259n, k\u00f6m\u0259ksizliyind\u0259n az qala ba\u011f\u0131racaqd\u0131. Ancaq s\u0259\u00adsini i\u00e7in\u0259 sal\u0131rd\u0131. Q\u0259h\u0259r onu bo\u011furdu. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6zg\u0259l\u0259rinin da\u00add\u0131na yet\u0259n h\u0259kim, indi \u00f6z ciy\u0259r paras\u0131na yard\u0131m ed\u0259 bil\u00admirdi. Art\u0131q \u00fc\u00e7 sutkad\u0131r ki, yol gedirdil\u0259r. O, fikirl\u0259\u015fdi ki, \u0259g\u0259r u\u015faq bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saat da tab g\u0259tir\u0259 bils\u0259, yeni b\u0259nd ald\u0131qlar\u0131 yerd\u0259 balas\u0131na k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259 bil\u0259r-y\u0259qin buralarda d\u0259rman tap\u0131lar. \u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259 min d\u0259f\u0259 Allaha dua edirdi ki, m\u0259nzil ba\u015f\u0131na salamat \u00e7ats\u0131nlar. Balas\u0131n\u0131n \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259, Allah onun \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259ssin. He\u00e7 vaxt Allaha inanmayan, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ateist sayan Hiday\u0259t doxtur, indi \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 Allahla dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn t\u00fcf\u0259ng z\u0259rb\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yaralar\u0131 zoqqulduyurdu, ancaq onlar Hiday\u0259t doxtura \u00e7\u0259kdiyi m\u0259n\u0259vi iztirab\u0131n m\u00fcqabilind\u0259 el\u0259 \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259tsiz g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki\u2026<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Kimd\u0259 araq var? \u2013 soru\u015fdu, h\u0259kim.<\/p>\n

S\u00fckut. Konvoylar ona yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0S\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n hal\u0131 pisdir.<\/p>\n

Konvoy \u00e7iyinl\u0259rini \u00e7\u0259kdi \u2013 C\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m olun, \u2013 deyib uzaqla\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Tamara xan\u0131m qalx\u0131b, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u0259rind\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Hi\u00adday\u0259t doxtur s\u0259ssiz-s\u0259mirsiz a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. U\u015faq art\u0131q t\u00f6v\u00ad\u015f\u00fc\u00ady\u00fcrd\u00fc, balaca qarn\u0131 qalx\u0131b-enirdi.<\/p>\n

Tamara xan\u0131m da ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, bu art\u0131q sondur. Bir azdan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n n\u0259f\u0259si dayand\u0131. Konvoylar tez-tez va\u00adqona daxil olur, \u00f6l\u0259n adam axtar\u0131rd\u0131lar. Tamara xan\u0131m d\u00f6\u00ad\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n soyuyan dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na sald\u0131. Q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz\u0131n b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00add\u00fcy\u00fc yor\u011fan islanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Tamara xan\u0131m d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, \u0259g\u0259r u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 onun \u0259lind\u0259n al\u0131b \u00e7\u00f6l-biyabana atsalar, o da \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc vaqondan atacaq, \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 balas\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131nda \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259k. Bu q\u0259rar ona soyuqqanl\u0131l\u0131q g\u0259tirdi. Q\u0259rar q\u0259ti idi. N\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131, n\u0259 \u015fiv\u0259n qopard\u0131. T\u0259kc\u0259 \u0259ri ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, anlad\u0131 ki, Tamara d\u00f6\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n \u2013 balaca S\u0259mran\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131na niy\u0259 verdi.<\/p>\n

Tamara ancaq m\u0259skunla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 yer\u0259 \u00e7atandan sonra, balas\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6\u015f\u00fcnd\u0259n ay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Orada el\u0259 t\u00fcrkl\u0259rin, \u00e7e\u00e7enl\u0259rin d\u0259fn olundu\u011fu q\u0259bris\u00adtanda balaca q\u0259bir qaz\u0131ld\u0131. Balaca S\u0259mra \u0259b\u0259di olaraq s\u0259hrada qald\u0131.<\/p>\n

1956-c\u0131 ild\u0259 s\u00fcrg\u00fcnd\u0259n qay\u0131danda onlar Az\u011fura get\u00adm\u0259dil\u0259r. Ora getm\u0259k \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131r idi. Hiday\u0259t doxtur da, Tamara xan\u0131m da Bak\u0131da m\u0259skunla\u015fma\u011f\u0131 q\u0259rara ald\u0131lar. S\u00fcrg\u00fcnd\u0259n onlar birc\u0259 b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fc \u2013 S\u0259mran\u0131n uyudu\u011fu yerd\u0259n bir ovuc torpaq g\u0259tirdil\u0259r, g\u0259tirdil\u0259r ki, sonralar n\u0259 vaxtsa el\u0259 onlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0259pilsin bu torpaq.<\/p>\n

Onda balaca S\u0259mra d\u0259fn olunandan sonra, Tamara xan\u0131m yata\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. D\u00fcz 2 ay \u00f6l\u00fcm-dirim aras\u0131nda qald\u0131. Onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn f\u0259rqi yox idi ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131n, ya \u00f6lm\u0259yin. Sad\u0259c\u0259 ba\u00adlas\u0131na tez qovu\u015fmaq ist\u0259yirdi. \u00dcr\u0259yinin d\u0259rin\u00adliyind\u0259 o, d\u00fcnyalar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 qibt\u0259 edirdi. Hiday\u0259t dox\u00adturun da 40 illik h\u0259yat\u0131 sanki, ikiy\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc \u2013 1944-c\u00fc ilin q\u0131\u015f\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r \u2013 S\u0259mran\u0131 itir\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r v\u0259 sonra\u2026 El\u0259 bil o, \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n sonra bir h\u0259yat ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2026 Niy\u0259 Tamara onda, yeni il \u0259r\u0259f\u0259si ax\u015fam odun yarma\u011fa getdi. N\u0259 olsun ki, u\u015faq yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259\u2026 soba s\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, otaq soyumu\u015fdu. U\u015faq da yar\u0131lan odunun s\u0259sin\u0259 oyan\u0131b, el\u0259 y\u00fcng\u00fcl gec\u0259 paltar\u0131nda evin arxas\u0131ndak\u0131 bax\u00e7aya d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc \u2013 \u015eaxta Baban\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259ma ulduzlu idi. Balaca S\u0259mraya el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, \u015eaxta Ba\u00adba el\u0259 o ulduzlardan yer\u0259 en\u0259c\u0259k, ona qucaq-qucaq oyun\u00adcaqlar g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259k. O da bu oyuncaqlar\u0131 yan\u0131nda ya\u00adt\u0131z\u00add\u0131racaq. S\u0259h\u0259r d\u0259 yuxudan ay\u0131landa onlarla oy\u00adna\u00adyacaq. G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n \u015eaxta Baba hans\u0131 ulduzdan yer\u0259 enib, onun yan\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k? Tamara xan\u0131m u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yata\u011f\u0131nda tap\u00admayanda q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131, el\u0259 bil a\u011fl\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xacaqd\u0131. S\u0259\u00ads\u0259 qon\u015fuluqda ya\u015fayan \u0259misi q\u0131z\u0131 Z\u00fcleyxa g\u0259ldi. S\u0259mran\u0131 qar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 tapd\u0131. Aya\u011f\u0131nda ayaqqab\u0131 da yox idi.<\/p>\n

Tamara xan\u0131m u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 evd\u0259 olan spirtl\u0259 ovxalad\u0131, \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 iki yor\u011fan \u00f6rtd\u00fc. Gec\u0259 \u0259ri i\u015fd\u0259n qay\u0131danda, art\u0131q u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n h\u0259rar\u0259ti 40 d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259 idi.<\/p>\n

\u201c\u018fg\u0259r onda yan\u0131ma a\u011f\u0131r yaral\u0131 g\u0259tirm\u0259s\u0259ydil\u0259r, odunu \u00f6z\u00fcm yarard\u0131m, Tamara u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n yan\u0131nda qalard\u0131\u201d\u2013 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc Hiday\u0259t doxtur. Bak\u0131ya qay\u0131dandan sonra, Tamara xan\u0131m Molokan ba\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndak\u0131 eyvandan d\u0259st\u0259-d\u0259st\u0259 g\u0259zi\u015f\u0259n u\u015faqlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bax\u00e7a u\u015faqlar\u0131 idil\u0259r. H\u0259rd\u0259n bir t\u0259rbiy\u0259\u00e7il\u0259r onlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131lar da. \u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259n bir gizilti ke\u00e7irdi \u2013 ona daha he\u00e7 k\u0259s \u201cmama\u201d dem\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Onda o bilmirdi ki, \u201c\u00f6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 bir xo\u015fb\u0259xt ili 1963-\u00e7\u00fc ilin xo\u015fb\u0259xt bir yay g\u00fcn\u00fc olacaq. V\u0259 bu \u0259r\u0259f\u0259d\u0259 d\u0259 o, balaca S\u0259mran\u0131 yuxusunda g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259k, onun \u0259lind\u0259n tutub Tiflisin k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259ri il\u0259 g\u0259z\u0259c\u0259k\u201d.<\/p>\n

Yuxudan t\u0259r i\u00e7ind\u0259 oyan\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259min g\u00fcn n\u0259 \u00e7ay i\u00e7ir, n\u0259 d\u0259 yem\u0259k bi\u015firirdi. \u018frin\u0259 z\u0259ng edib, g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc r\u00f6yan\u0131 ona s\u00f6yl\u0259yirdi. Hiday\u0259t doxtur da hospital\u0131n r\u0259isind\u0259n bir h\u0259ft\u0259lik m\u0259zuniyy\u0259t \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn icaz\u0259 al\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130ki n\u0259f\u0259rlik bilet al\u0131b Qazax\u0131stana u\u00e7urdular. Karaqanda yax\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 q\u0259bristan\u0131 ziyar\u0259t edib, yenid\u0259n Bak\u0131ya qay\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131lar. S\u00fcrg\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra c\u0259mi 2 d\u0259f\u0259 oralara ayaq bas\u0131blar. G\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra, Tamara xan\u0131m x\u0259st\u0259 hal olurdu. Qon\u015fu rus arvad\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Mat\u0259mi azad burax, yoxsa, \u0259rini d\u0259 itir\u0259rs\u0259n, deyirdi Tamara xan\u0131ma.<\/p>\n

Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259n Tamara xan\u0131m \u0259sdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 Hiday\u0259t doxturun t\u0259kidi il\u0259 Tamara xan\u0131m bax\u00e7aya t\u0259rbiy\u0259\u00e7i i\u015fin\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259ldi. M\u00fcdir\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n qarda\u015f\u0131 Hiday\u0259t doxturun dostu idi. El\u0259 onun vasit\u0259sil\u0259 d\u0259 Tamara xan\u0131m ba\u011f\u00e7a m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259si oldu, n\u0259 vaxtsa bitirdiyi Pedoqoji Texnikumun diplomu g\u0259r\u0259yi oldu. Bel\u0259c\u0259 d\u00fcz 1963-c\u00fc ilin yay\u0131na kimi r\u0259van bir h\u0259yat s\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. H\u0259min ilin yay\u0131nda art\u0131q Tiflisd\u0259 ya\u015fayan \u0259misi q\u0131z\u0131 Z\u00fcleyxa z\u0259ng etdi ona.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0S\u0259n Allah g\u0259lin. Onsuz da m\u0259zuniyy\u0259t g\u00f6t\u00fc\u00adr\u00fcbs\u00fcn\u00fcz.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Hiday\u0259t deyir ki, ba\u011f evimizd\u0259 dinc\u0259l\u0259k.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0A\u011f\u0131z, dinc\u0259l\u0259rsiz d\u0259 \u00f6z ba\u011f evinizd\u0259, qoy bir \u0259ncir, \u00fcz\u00fcm d\u0259ysin, m\u0259n d\u0259 siz\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Do\u011fru deyirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259. H\u0259m d\u0259 burda sizin teatr qastroldad\u0131r. G\u0259nc\u0259 teatr\u0131 \u00e7ox maraql\u0131 tama\u015falar g\u00f6st\u0259rir. Aktrisa\u00adlar\u00addan biri d\u0259 el\u0259 bil Elizabet Teylordur. Bir almad\u0131r, ikiy\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcbl\u0259r. Ke\u00e7\u0259n il tan\u0131\u015f olmu\u015fam onnan, s\u0259ni d\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f ed\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0M\u0259n maraqlanm\u0131ram Elizabet Teylornan.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Yax\u015f\u0131, m\u0259nim x\u0259trim\u0259 g\u0259l.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Baxar\u0131q. Ax\u015fam Hiday\u0259tl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b s\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng ed\u0259r\u0259m. \u00d6p\u00fcr\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0G\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Ax\u015fam yolda\u015f\u0131na he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259di. Ona \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131r g\u0259lirdi Tiflis s\u0259mt\u0259 getm\u0259k. El\u0259 Hiday\u0259t\u0259 d\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r olacaq. Ancaq gec\u0259 yuxuya ged\u0259nd\u0259 k\u00f6rp\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Q\u0131z\u0131 onun \u0259lind\u0259n dart\u0131b, harasa apar\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Hara gedirik g\u00f6z\u0259l balam?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Tiflis\u0259, mama, ged\u0259k Tiflis\u0259, papa da getsin.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0\u201cAllah, bu n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l yuxu idi! Allah, bu n\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt yuxu idi! Allah, niy\u0259 qoydun m\u0259n oyan\u0131m?\u201d<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Hiday\u0259ti oyatd\u0131. Yuxusunu ona da dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Tiflis\u0259 getm\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0\u0130ndi h\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Haz\u0131rla\u015f, m\u0259n gedib bilet al\u0131ram.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Z\u00fcleyxa qatar\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131na o\u011fluyla g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. \u018fri Moskvada doktorlu\u011funu m\u00fcdafi\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259 getmi\u015fdi. Yola d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259zd\u0259n qabaq, Tamara \u0259misi q\u0131z\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Bak\u0131 \u015for qo\u011fal\u0131, \u015f\u0259k\u0259rbura sifari\u015f verdi. \u018frzaqlar\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259n\u0259 kimi az qald\u0131lar qatara geciksinl\u0259r. Z\u00fcleyxa bac\u0131 \u0259v\u0259zi bildiyi \u0259misi q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n g\u0259li\u015fin\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n sevindi.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0S\u0259h\u0259r yem\u0259yind\u0259n sonra onlar\u0131 funikulyora v\u0259 Tiflisin dig\u0259r g\u00f6rm\u0259li yerl\u0259rin\u0259 apard\u0131. Tamara xan\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 bir rahatl\u0131q h\u00f6km s\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7oxdan \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259diyi \u0259misi q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259. Ancaq yox, Z\u00fcleyxa ke\u00e7\u0259n il onlara qonaq g\u0259lmi\u015fdi, yolda\u015f\u0131yla, o\u011fluyla onlar\u0131n ba\u011f evind\u0259 1ay dinc\u0259lmi\u015fdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0\u00dcr\u0259yi gizild\u0259di \u2013 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc yuxu yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, el\u0259 bil h\u0259yat\u0131nda n\u0259s\u0259 m\u00fch\u00fcm bir hadis\u0259 olacaqd\u0131. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0259lb rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 buna g\u00f6r\u0259 tap\u0131b. Yox\u2026 \u0259ksin\u0259, \u00e7ox narahat olmal\u0131yd\u0131 onun \u00fcr\u0259yi.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Ax\u015fama teatra bilet alm\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Elizabet Teylora baxaca\u011f\u0131q?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Siz m\u00fctl\u0259q Emiliya rolunu oynayan aktrisaya diqq\u0259t yetirin. G\u00f6r\u00fcn G\u0259nc\u0259 aktrisas\u0131 \u015eekspiri nec\u0259 t\u0259qdim edir?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Teatr a\u011fz\u0131na kimi doluydu. Ancaq Z\u00fcleyxa Tamaran\u0131 da, Hiday\u0259ti d\u0259 s\u0259hn\u0259 arxas\u0131na \u2013 F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n qrim ota\u011f\u0131na apard\u0131. Aktrisa art\u0131q oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131 rol \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qriml\u0259nib, s\u0259hn\u0259 kostyumunu geymi\u015fdi. Z\u00fcleyxa F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131 qonaqlar\u0131 il\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f etdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Siz\u0259 dediyim \u0259mim q\u0131z\u0131 Tamara, onun h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131, \u00e7ox \u0259ziz yezn\u0259m Hiday\u0259t doxtur.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Siz d\u0259 balacalar, g\u0259lin g\u00f6r\u00fcm bura. Yar\u0131mqaranl\u0131q qrim ota\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 divanda iki u\u015faq \u2013 bir o\u011flan, bir d\u0259 q\u0131z qonaqlara sar\u0131 g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Teatr\u0131n z\u0259ngi \u00e7al\u0131nd\u0131. N\u0259 Tamara xan\u0131m, n\u0259 d\u0259 Hiday\u0259t doxtur yerl\u0259rind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259n\u0259 bilm\u0259dil\u0259r. H\u0259r ikisini sanki iflic vurmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, nec\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131r balana?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Z\u00fcleyxan\u0131n s\u0259si onlar\u0131 ger\u00e7\u0259kliy\u0259 qaytard\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Tamara xan\u0131m h\u0259r iki u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131na al\u0131b, divanda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi, dili-doda\u011f\u0131 \u0259sirdi. Hiday\u0259t doxtur balaca q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131. \u00dcz\u00fcnd\u0259n, g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc. G\u00f6zl\u0259rinin ya\u015f\u0131 dayanmaq bilmirdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m qrim ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259rk el\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Z\u00fcleyxa o\u011flu El\u015fad\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n tutub, otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Bu s\u0259hn\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259k ona a\u011f\u0131r idi.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 Sonra Tamara xan\u0131m u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, onu ba\u011fr\u0131na basd\u0131. \u018flac\u0131 olsayd\u0131 duz kimi yalayard\u0131 onu. U\u015faq a\u011flad\u0131: \u2013 mamam\u0131 ist\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Z\u00fcleyxa bufetd\u0259n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 iki \u015fokolad\u0131 u\u015faqlara verdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Tamara xan\u0131m v\u0259 Hiday\u0259t doxtur a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u2013 parter\u0259 endil\u0259r. Ancaq he\u00e7 biri tama\u015faya baxm\u0131rd\u0131, h\u0259r ikisi n\u0259\u00adz\u0259rl\u0259rini yanlar\u0131nda oturmu\u015f k\u00f6rp\u0259 q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faza y\u00f6n\u0259ltmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Gec\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc yuxunu xat\u0131rlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Mama, Tiflis\u0259 ged\u0259k? Ged\u0259k Tiflis\u0259?, \u2013 soru\u015fmu\u015fdu balaca S\u0259mra.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Tamara xan\u0131m indi anlad\u0131 ki, bu yuxunu \u0259b\u0259s yer\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259yib. G\u0259ldikl\u0259ri bu uzun yol m\u0259hz bu balaca q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f. Z\u00fcleyxa onlara dedi ki, Tiflis\u0259 \u0259b\u0259s yer\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t etm\u0259yib qohumlar\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n da \u0259ri aktyor olmu\u015fdu. Deyirl\u0259r \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck istedad sahibi olub, ancaq h\u0259ddind\u0259n art\u0131q \u00e7ox i\u00e7irdi. Ax\u0131rda beyin iflicind\u0259n h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi. \u0130ndi F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m v\u0259zif\u0259li bir m\u0259murla ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131 qurmaq ist\u0259yir. Ki\u015fi ondan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n birini q\u0259bul ed\u0259c\u0259yini deyib. \u0130ki u\u015faqla \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tin olacaq. F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m da \u2013 m\u0259n u\u015fa\u011f\u0131m\u0131 atas\u0131 deyil\u0259m ki\u2026 N\u0259 anam var, n\u0259 bac\u0131m, yoxsa ver\u0259rdim saxlayard\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0A\u011flamaqdan g\u00f6zl\u0259ri q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 idi.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0M\u0259n onu sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. Amma u\u015fa\u011fa baxanda \u0259lim-aya\u011f\u0131m qurudu \u2013 S\u0259mra d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc yad\u0131ma. Yad\u0131ndam\u0131, qar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n m\u0259n alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m onu quca\u011f\u0131ma. Allah, insan da insana bel\u0259 ox\u015fayarm\u0131? \u2013 Z\u00fcleyxa Tamara xan\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131. \u018fg\u0259r s\u0259n d\u0259, Hiday\u0259t doxtur da raz\u0131 olsan\u0131z m\u0259n F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131ma fikrinizi \u00e7atd\u0131raram.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn bo\u015f olacaq, tama\u015falarda m\u0259\u015fgul deyil, gedib G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259n u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n ya\u015f ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131n\u0131, dig\u0259r s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259ri g\u0259tir\u0259r, siz q\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6z ad\u0131n\u0131za \u00e7evir\u0259rsiniz, in\u015fallah.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0M\u0259n onun aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndak\u0131 tozu \u00f6p\u0259rdim, t\u0259ki u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 biz\u0259 versin. Hiday\u0259t doxtur yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n dedikl\u0259rini ba\u015f\u0131yla t\u0259sdiql\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0\u201cAncaq m\u0259n anlaya bilmir\u0259m, ana \u00f6z \u00f6vlad\u0131ndan nec\u0259 imtina ed\u0259 bil\u0259r?! D\u00fcnyada n\u0259 ilahi sevgi, n\u0259 y\u00fcks\u0259k amal, n\u0259 ideya d\u0259ymir ki, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131ndan imtina ed\u0259s\u0259n\u201d \u2013 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc Tamara xan\u0131m. \u00dc\u00e7 g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra, onlar F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131mla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. N\u0259 Z\u00fcleyxa, n\u0259 d\u0259 Hiday\u0259t doxtur bu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u0259 i\u015ftirak etm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259dil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0\u201cGed\u0259k Tiflis\u0259, mama, ged\u0259k, papa da getsin\u201d \u2013 qula\u011f\u0131na u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259si g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Mama, detm\u0259, mama detm\u0259, \u2013 deyirdi quca\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 u\u015faq.<\/p>\n

Hiday\u0259t doxtur onlar\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131. Z\u00fcleyxa l\u0259v\u0259ngi plov d\u0259ml\u0259mi\u015fdi. Masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 Kinz-Marauli, Axa\u015feni \u00e7ax\u0131rlar\u0131 d\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u2013 T\u0259brik edir\u0259m balan\u0131z\u0131 \u2013 Z\u00fcleyxa Tamara xan\u0131m\u0131 da, Hiday\u0259t doxturu da \u00f6pd\u00fc. Z\u00fcleyxa u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131na c\u00fcrb\u0259c\u00fcr konfetl\u0259r t\u00f6kd\u00fc. Konfetl\u0259r q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz\u0131n xo\u015funa g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Z\u00fcleyxa onu yedizdirdi, sonra da o, el\u0259 oyuncaqlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 yatd\u0131. Hiday\u0259t doxtur balacan\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131na al\u0131b \u00e7arpay\u0131ya uzatd\u0131, \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 y\u00fcng\u00fcl adyal sald\u0131. Z\u00fcleyxan\u0131n o\u011flu El\u015fad u\u015fa\u011fa r\u0259ngli kitablar, albom, karanda\u015flar al\u0131b g\u0259tirdi.<\/p>\n

U\u015faq, dey\u0259s\u0259n yuxu g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc, h\u0259rd\u0259n bir h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Hiday\u0259t doxtur bokallara \u015f\u0259rab s\u00fczd\u00fc. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc Tamaraya tutub \u2013 Allah bizi \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir dedi Z\u00fcleyxaya \u2013 h\u0259r \u015fey \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sa\u011f ol, bac\u0131m, Allah bu balam\u0131z\u0131 \u2013 S\u0259mran\u0131 xo\u015fb\u0259xt el\u0259sin.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Amin!<\/p>\n

Bak\u0131ya qay\u0131td\u0131qda Hiday\u0259t doxturu daha bir yenilik g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi \u2013 onu v\u0259 hospital\u0131n daha bir h\u0259kimini Almaniyaya \u2013 Berlin\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rirdil\u0259r. Bu h\u0259kimin \u00e7oxdank\u0131 arzusu idi. Berlind\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131 ilk il idi. Hiday\u0259t doxtur q\u0131z\u0131ndan soru\u00e7du:<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u015eaxta baba s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 g\u0259tirsin?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Yek\u0259, dan\u0131\u015fan kukla.<\/p>\n

Yeni 1964-c\u00fc il\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn qal\u0131rd\u0131. D\u00fcz iyirmi il bundan qabaq bu sual\u0131 Tamara xan\u0131m da vermi\u015fdi. Cavab\u0131nda h\u0259min cavab\u0131 alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u2013 yek\u0259, dan\u0131\u015fan kukla. Sonra o u\u015faq \u015faxta baban\u0131n g\u0259li\u015fini ulduzlardan g\u00f6zl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

Onlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fc d\u0259 birg\u0259 Berlinin \u0259n iri u\u015faq ma\u011fazas\u0131na getdil\u0259r. Hiday\u0259t doxtur q\u0131z\u0131 il\u0259 karusel\u0259, Tamara g\u0259lincikl\u0259r sat\u0131lan yer\u0259 getdi, iri dan\u0131\u015fan kukla ald\u0131. S\u0259mra g\u00f6rm\u0259sin dey\u0259, g\u0259linciyi arxas\u0131nda gizl\u0259tdi, \u0259rind\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n a\u00e7ar\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131b, oyunca\u011f\u0131 onun baqajnikind\u0259 gizl\u0259tdi. Sonra o biri ma\u011fazaya ke\u00e7ib, yolda\u015f\u0131na yeni il h\u0259diyy\u0259si ald\u0131, \u2013 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 c\u00fcr qalstuk v\u0259 g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f nortsiqar. \u0130yirmi ild\u0259n sonra Tamara xan\u0131m yeni ilin g\u0259li\u015fin\u0259 sevinirdi. \u018fri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259diyy\u0259l\u0259ri \u00e7antas\u0131nda gizl\u0259tdi. \u201cQoy onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 s\u00fcpriz olsun\u201d.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0S\u0259n u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n yan\u0131nda qal, m\u0259n d\u0259 bir az h\u0259rl\u0259nim, sonra gedib nahar ed\u0259rik. S\u0259mra bir oyuncaq meydan\u00e7as\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, o birin\u0259 ke\u00e7irdi. Sevincinin h\u0259ddi-h\u00fcdudu yox idi. Ax\u015fam\u00fcst\u00fc kafed\u0259 oturanda S\u0259mra \u00e7ox yorulmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

Dekabr\u0131n 31-d\u0259 S\u0259mra yatandan sonra, Tamara xan\u0131m ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259linciyi onun yan\u0131na qoydu. \u018frinin h\u0259diyy\u0259sini d\u0259 onun bal\u0131nc\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na qoydu. Gec\u0259 saat 1 olanda, Hiday\u0259t doxtur \u00f6z h\u0259diyy\u0259sini \u2013 \u201cChanel 5\u201d-i arvad\u0131na ba\u011f\u0131\u015flad\u0131. Bird\u0259n S\u0259mran\u0131n q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Mama, papa, bax\u0131n, \u015eaxta baba m\u0259n\u0259 kukla g\u0259tirdi. Kuklan\u0131 \u00f6p\u00fcr, qucaqlay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Hiday\u0259t doxtur g\u0259linciyin d\u00fcym\u0259sini basd\u0131. Kukla h\u0259m yerim\u0259y\u0259, h\u0259m d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Siz \u015eaxta baban\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcn\u00fcz? G\u00f6rd\u00fcn\u00fcz? O hardan g\u0259ldi bizim evimiz\u0259?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Biz p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259ni a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131q, o p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259ldi, s\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131b getdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Siz\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 verdi?<\/p>\n

Tamara xan\u0131m \u0259tir \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259sini g\u00f6st\u0259rdi u\u015fa\u011fa.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0B\u0259 papama he\u00e7 n\u0259 verm\u0259di?<\/p>\n

Hiday\u0259t doxtur \u00e7iyinl\u0259rini \u00e7\u0259kdi. Tamara xan\u0131m-ged\u0259k, ged\u0259k, g\u00f6z\u0259l balam, g\u00f6r\u0259k papaya da h\u0259diyy\u0259 g\u0259tiribmi?! Ola bilm\u0259z ki, \u015eaxta baba yax\u015f\u0131 adamlar\u0131 unutsun. S\u0259mra atas\u0131n\u0131n yor\u011fan\u0131n\u0131, sonra bal\u0131nc\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 Ura, \u015eaxta baba papama da h\u0259diyy\u0259 g\u0259tirib.<\/p>\n

Hiday\u0259t doxtur \u2013 \u201c\u00c7ox sa\u011f ol\u201d \u2013 dedi Tamaraya.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Yox, bunu \u015eaxta baba g\u0259tirdi, mama yox.<\/p>\n

Sonra Tamara xan\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc c\u0259hdd\u0259n sonra Z\u00fcleyxaya z\u0259ng etdi v\u0259 Bak\u0131dak\u0131 evin a\u00e7ar\u0131n\u0131 verdiyi qon\u015fusu S\u0259lmini t\u0259brik etdi. Z\u00fcleyxa dedi ki, bu g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 onu Tiflisd\u0259 F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n o\u011flu R\u0259\u015fad axtar\u0131b tapd\u0131. Ondan G\u00fclt\u0259kinin adresini soru\u00e7du. \u201cM\u0259n d\u0259 dedim ki, onlar xaricd\u0259dirl\u0259r. Hans\u0131 \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 bilmir\u0259m. \u201d O\u011flan \u00e7ox p\u0259rt oldu. Tamara xan\u0131m da p\u0259rt oldu, lakin Hiday\u0259t doxtura he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259di. Onlar Bak\u0131ya d\u00f6n\u0259nd\u0259 art\u0131q 1976-c\u0131 il idi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra h\u0259m rus, h\u0259m alman dill\u0259rini yax\u015f\u0131 bilirdi. Evd\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 az\u0259rbaycanca dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qlar\u0131ndan, onun ana dili d\u0259 q\u00fcsursuz idi. Az\u0259rbaycan dilind\u0259 kitablar\u0131 Hiday\u0259t doxtur q\u0131z\u0131na Bak\u0131dan g\u0259tizdirirdi.<\/p>\n

S\u00fcleyman Sani Axundovun \u201cQorxulu na\u011f\u0131llar\u0131n\u0131\u201d oxuyandan sonra S\u0259mra a\u011flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ikinci d\u0259f\u0259 a\u011flama\u011f\u0131 Stefan Sveyrin \u201cNam\u0259lum qad\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259ktubu\u201d \u0259s\u0259ri \u0259sas\u0131nda \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015f film\u0259 baxandan sonra oldu. Kinoteatrdan \u00e7\u0131xanda, S\u0259mra h\u0259l\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Niy\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131rsan, ba\u015f\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcm?<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Mama o q\u0131za \u00e7ox yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n

\u2013\u00a0 \u00a0Qurban olum, bu filmdir. H\u0259yatda o q\u0259d\u0259r bel\u0259 hadis\u0259l\u0259r olur ki\u2026<\/p>\n

Ev\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b, q\u0259hv\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 S\u0259mra:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Mama, m\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 bir s\u00f6z des\u0259m he\u00e7 kim\u0259 dem\u0259zs\u0259n ki? Lap he\u00e7 kim\u0259. Papaya \u00f6z\u00fcm dey\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n

De, qurban olum, s\u0259nin s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc he\u00e7 k\u0259s\u0259 dem\u0259r\u0259m, \u2013 Tamara xan\u0131m\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 bir t\u0259la\u015f var idi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Mama, bilirs\u0259n, m\u0259n d\u0259 o yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 sevdim.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Hans\u0131 yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131n\u0131?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Kinodak\u0131. M\u0259n\u0259 Stefan Sveyqi tap, n\u0259 olar?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Qoy papa g\u0259lsin, ona s\u0259nin sevgin haqq\u0131nda m\u0259lumat ver\u0259k. Sonra da xahi\u015f ed\u0259k o s\u0259n\u0259 Sveyqi taps\u0131n, \u2013 Tamara xan\u0131m, g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n o q\u0259d\u0259r b\u0259dii \u0259d\u0259biyyat q\u0259hr\u0259manlar\u0131na vurula\u00adcaqsan ki, sonra, sonra da h\u0259yatda \u00f6z sevgini tapacaqsan.<\/p>\n

Bayaqdan qap\u0131 aras\u0131nda dayanan Hiday\u0259t doxtur bu s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 qulaq as\u0131r, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, g\u00fcnl\u0259rin bir g\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131z\u0131 h\u0259yatda \u00f6z sevgisini tapanda, bel\u0259c\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k onlarla.<\/p>\n

Sonra fikirl\u0259\u015fdi ki, m\u00fctl\u0259q ona \u00c7ingiz Aytmatovu taps\u0131n, onun \u00ab\u018fsr\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r g\u00fcn\u00bb \u0259s\u0259rini. Bu yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 ham\u0131 oxumal\u0131d\u0131r, illahda ki, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn yerl\u0259rin\u0259 p\u0259r\u0259n-p\u0259r\u0259n s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015f t\u00fcrkl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Hiday\u0259t doxtur art\u0131q bu q\u0259na\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi ki, ail\u0259sini Bak\u0131ya g\u0259tirsin. Q\u0131z\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Onlar Bak\u0131ya d\u00f6n\u0259nd\u0259, art\u0131q 1975-ci il idi. Hiday\u0259t doxtur yenid\u0259n i\u015fl\u0259diyi h\u0259rbi hospitala i\u015f\u0259 girdi, Tamara xan\u0131m evl\u0259rinin yan\u0131ndak\u0131 u\u015faq ba\u011f\u00e7as\u0131na. (tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131qs\u0131z m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmad\u0131). Hiday\u0259t doxtur b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259laq\u0259l\u0259rini i\u015f\u0259 sald\u0131 v\u0259 n\u0259hay\u0259t ki, ba\u011f\u00e7ada vakant olan yeri Tamara xan\u0131ma verdil\u0259r. S\u0259mra is\u0259 160 sayl\u0131 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 getdi. Qon\u015fular\u0131 S\u0259lmi xan\u0131m\u0131n o\u011flu Tofik d\u0259 bu m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 oxuyurdu. Hiday\u0259t doxtur direktordan xahi\u015f etdi ki, S\u0259mran\u0131 da Tofik oxudu\u011fu sinf\u0259 t\u0259yin etsin.<\/p>\n

\u00abTofik u\u015faqdan g\u00f6z-qulaq olar\u00bb, fikrind\u0259n ke\u00e7irtdi Hiday\u0259t doxtur.<\/p>\n

Tofik q\u0131z\u0131 yax\u0131ndan g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdi. S\u0259mra h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 vali\u00addeyn\u00adl\u0259ri il\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259. He\u00e7 bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsun \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259\u00admi\u015f\u00addil\u0259r. \u0130ndi onu m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 birinci d\u0259f\u0259 idi g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. S\u0259mraya yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Salam, m\u0259n Tofik\u0259m, qon\u015funuz, g\u0259mi kapitan\u0131n\u0131n o\u011flu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yad\u0131ma sala bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 S\u0259lmi xalan\u0131 tan\u0131y\u0131rsan?<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259. S\u0259n onun o\u011flusan?<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n g\u0259mi kapitan\u0131 R\u00fcst\u0259m \u018flib\u0259yovun o\u011fluyam, S\u0259lmi \u2013 m\u0259nim anamd\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Sonra q\u0131z\u0131 ba\u015fdan-aya\u011fa s\u00fcz\u00fcb:<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259s m\u0259n\u0259 demi\u015fdil\u0259r ki, s\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259ls\u0259n.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l deyil\u0259m ki?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yox, el\u0259-bel\u0259, suyu \u015firins\u0259n.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Amma atam da, anam da m\u0259n\u0259, \u2013 s\u0259n bizim \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l balam\u0131zsan, \u2013 deyirl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u00fct\u00fcn valideynl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6vladlar\u0131 ham\u0131dan g\u00f6z\u0259ldir.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Ax\u015fam h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 voleybol oynayaca\u011f\u0131q, ist\u0259yirs\u0259n s\u0259n d\u0259 biz\u0259 qo\u015ful.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n voleybol oynama\u011f\u0131 xo\u015flay\u0131ram.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Onda s\u0259ni \u00f6z komandam\u0131za g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Oldu.<\/p>\n

Onlar m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n g\u0259lib, nahar edir, sonra d\u0259rsl\u0259rini haz\u0131rlay\u0131b, ax\u015famlar m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131yla birg\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259bin \u015f\u0259n v\u0259 haz\u0131rcavablar klubunda i\u015ftirak edir, birlikd\u0259 kinoya, teatra gedir, voleybol, loto oynay\u0131rd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

Tofikl\u0259 S\u0259mra oxuduqlar\u0131 kitablar\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015firdi. H\u0259r ikisinin sevdikl\u0259ri Remark idi.<\/p>\n

H\u0259yat \u00f6z axar\u0131 il\u0259 gedirdi. M\u0259kt\u0259bi bitirib, h\u0259r ikisi universitet\u0259 q\u0259bul olundu \u2013 Tofik h\u00fcquq fak\u00fclt\u0259sin\u0259, S\u0259mra jurnalistikaya. H\u0259min il m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131 m\u00fcxt\u0259lif ali m\u0259kt\u0259bl\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259bul olundu. \u00dc\u00e7 ild\u0259n sonra Tofikl\u0259 S\u0259mra ni\u015fanland\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

Valideynl\u0259r xo\u015fb\u0259xt idi. H\u0259yat n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ldir!<\/p>\n

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S\u0259mra ged\u0259nd\u0259n sonra, F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7ox narahat hiss etdi. X\u0259st\u0259hal qad\u0131n\u0131n diskl\u0259ri v\u0259 diktofonu \u00e7antas\u0131na at\u0131b d\u0259rhal getm\u0259yi onu p\u0259rt etdi.<\/p>\n

\u00abB\u0259lk\u0259 o, bizim R\u0259\u015fadla s\u00f6hb\u0259timizi e\u015fitdi? Allah el\u0259m\u0259sin. \u00bb<\/p>\n

F\u0259xriyy\u0259 jurnalist xan\u0131m \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ay\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 pay\u0131 \u2013 bir qutu G\u0259nc\u0259 paxlavas\u0131n\u0131 da ona verm\u0259y\u0259 macal tapmad\u0131. M\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 yem\u0259k yey\u0259n o\u011flunun yan\u0131na ke\u00e7di. O\u011flu g\u00f6zl\u0259rini komp\u00fcterd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259km\u0259d\u0259n, yeyirdi. O, yen\u0259 axtar\u0131\u015fda idi \u2013 M\u0259mm\u0259dli G\u00fclt\u0259kin Q\u0259dir q\u0131z\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yen\u0259 d\u0259 axtar\u0131\u015f\u0131 bo\u015fa \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n

G\u00fclt\u0259kin Hiday\u0259t q\u0131z\u0131 Osmanova \u2013 yox.<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259 ola bilm\u0259z ax\u0131? Bac\u0131m qeyb\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259di ax\u0131? B\u0259lk\u0259 el\u0259 k\u00f6rp\u0259likd\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcb?<\/p>\n

R\u0259\u015fad\u0131n bu axtar\u0131\u015flar\u0131 F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131ma sonsuz \u0259zab verirdi v\u0259 bir d\u0259 \u00fcmid\u2026<\/p>\n

Ke\u00e7mi\u015fi qaytara bils\u0259ydi\u2026 Niy\u0259 \u0259ri b\u00f6y\u00fck istedad sahibi Q\u0259dir M\u0259mm\u0259dli Sibir soyu\u011funa, \u015faxtas\u0131na 15 il tab g\u0259tirdi, araq qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda bel\u0259 aciz qald\u0131?<\/p>\n

\u018fn g\u00f6z\u0259l qad\u0131nlar Q\u0259dir M\u0259mm\u0259dlinin fanatlar\u0131 idi. Ona m\u0259ktublar yaz\u0131r, g\u00fcl g\u0259tirirdil\u0259r. O, is\u0259 F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131 se\u00e7di. Onlar\u0131n sevgisi \u00abAyd\u0131n\u00bbdan ba\u015flad\u0131. Ayd\u0131n \u2013 Q\u0259dir M\u0259mm\u0259dli, G\u00fclt\u0259kin \u2013 F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Sonra rejissorlar Q\u0259dir\u0259 sosializm realizmi \u00fcslubunda yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rd\u0259 ba\u015f rolu verirdil\u0259r, Q\u0259dir imtina edirdi bel\u0259 rollar\u0131 oynamaqdan. Konyukturadan qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131. Sonra rejissorlar Q\u0259dir M\u0259mm\u0259dlini klassik \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rd\u0259 ba\u015f rol oynamaqdan m\u0259hrum etdil\u0259r. O da oynamad\u0131, el\u0259 teatr\u0131n bufetind\u0259 i\u00e7di, i\u00e7di, ham\u0131ya istehza, q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259 baxd\u0131, t\u0259kc\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131 R\u0259\u015fad v\u0259 G\u00fclt\u0259kini quca\u011f\u0131na alanda g\u00f6zl\u0259ri i\u015f\u0131qlan\u0131rd\u0131, simas\u0131na sanki nur \u00e7il\u0259nirdi. H\u0259r tama\u015fada ba\u015f rol alan F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m antraktlarda u\u015faqlar\u0131 ondan g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u018frinin bu hal\u0131ndan utan\u0131rd\u0131, x\u0259cal\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kirdi. Tama\u015fan\u0131n sonunu g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi ki, ev\u0259 getsinl\u0259r. Q\u0259dirin bu g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc daha he\u00e7 k\u0259s g\u00f6rm\u0259sin. Ancaq ham\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr, ham\u0131 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Nifr\u0259t edir\u0259m \u0259tal\u0259t\u0259, nifr\u0259t edir\u0259m ham\u0131ya, b\u0259li, ba\u015f \u00fcst\u0259 dey\u0259n k\u0259sl\u0259r\u0259. Adam ki\u015fi olar.<\/p>\n

1940-c\u0131 il idi. Onda Q\u0259dirin 17 ya\u015f\u0131 vard\u0131. Onda teatr\u0131n gir\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck bir transparant as\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u2013 \u00abVse re\u015faet narod\u00bb. Q\u0259dir \u00abnarod\u00bb s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n x\u0259tt \u00e7\u0259kib yerind\u0259 \u00abStalin\u00bb yazd\u0131. Y\u0259ni h\u0259r \u015feyi Stalin h\u0259ll edir, xalq yox.<\/p>\n

\u2026 V\u0259 bir s\u00f6z\u00fc ba\u015fqas\u0131 il\u0259 \u0259v\u0259z etdiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u00fcz 15 il s\u00fcrg\u00fcnd\u0259 oldu.<\/p>\n

Teatra qay\u0131danda art\u0131q 1956-c\u0131 il idi. ona d\u0259rhal ba\u015f rollar\u0131 verdil\u0259r. Partnyoru da g\u0259nc, g\u00f6z\u0259l, h\u0259l\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 qrim d\u0259ym\u0259mi\u015f F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m oldu. O m\u0259qamlarda Q\u0259dir bilmirdi ki, b\u00f6\u00fck aktyorluq s\u0259n\u0259tinin sirl\u0259rini \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259n, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n 15 ya\u015f ki\u00e7ik olan bu q\u0131z onun \u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u0131n anas\u0131 olacaq. Q\u0259dir d\u0259 son n\u0259f\u0259sin\u0259 kimi onlar\u0131 sev\u0259c\u0259k, \u0259zizl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k, ta i\u00e7ki onu y\u0131xana kimi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Mama, yen\u0259 c\u0259hdim bo\u015fa \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Onlar y\u0259qin bac\u0131m\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 da d\u0259yi\u015fibl\u0259r, y\u0259qin o, ail\u0259 d\u0259 qurub, \u0259rinin soyad\u0131n\u0131 da\u015f\u0131y\u0131r. \u0130ncim\u0259, mama, s\u0259nin g\u00fcnah\u0131n ucbat\u0131ndan m\u0259n \u0259n do\u011fma adam\u0131m\u0131 itirdim. D\u00fczd\u00fcr, iki o\u011flum var. M\u0259n onlarla n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131ram. Amma bizim aram\u0131zda ill\u0259rin s\u0259rh\u0259ddi var. Onlar\u0131n \u00f6z maraq dair\u0259l\u0259ri, \u00f6z ail\u0259l\u0259ri, dostlar\u0131 var. M\u0259nim d\u0259 \u00f6z dostlar\u0131m var, h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131m var, \u2013 ancaq qarda\u015f dey\u0259nim yoxdur. S\u0259n anamsan, bilirs\u0259n ki, dediyin h\u0259r s\u00f6z m\u0259n\u0259 qanundur, \u00f6l\u0259n\u0259 kimi d\u0259 qullu\u011funda duracam. M\u0259n s\u0259ni ikinci d\u0259f\u0259 ail\u0259 qurdu\u011fun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn q\u0131nam\u0131ram. Cavan qad\u0131n idin. \u018fr\u0259 getm\u0259li idin. Atal\u0131\u011f\u0131m da yax\u015f\u0131 insan idi. \u00fcst\u00fcmd\u0259 haqq-say\u0131 var. He\u00e7 vaxt itir\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m el\u0259dikl\u0259rini. M\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc ona \u00e7ox borclu bilir\u0259m. Allah ona r\u0259hm\u0259t el\u0259sin. Sad\u0259c\u0259 s\u0259ni anlaya bilm\u0259dim, bacarmad\u0131m bunu \u2013 s\u0259n \u00f6z \u0259linl\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6zg\u0259sin\u0259 verdin. O u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n g\u0259linciyi \u0259lind\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, o \u0259yilib a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya onu yerd\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bilirs\u0259n, m\u0259n h\u0259r x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 yuxumda o s\u0259hn\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m \u2013 G\u00fclt\u0259kin yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f g\u0259linciyini qald\u0131r\u0131r, a\u011flay\u0131r.<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim yax\u015f\u0131 ail\u0259m var, yax\u015f\u0131 maddi imkan\u0131m var, ancaq m\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259vi rahatl\u0131q tapa bilmir\u0259m \u2013 bac\u0131m\u0131 tapmasam, rahat \u00f6l\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259sdir, b\u0259sdir. S\u0259n bu s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259rinl\u0259 m\u0259nim \u00fcr\u0259yimi par\u00e7alay\u0131rsan, bilirs\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r z\u00fcl\u00fcm verirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, mama.<\/p>\n

R\u0259\u015fad komp\u00fcteri \u00f6rtd\u00fc. Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 bo\u015fqab\u0131 it\u0259l\u0259di. Siqaret qutusunu \u0259lin\u0259 al\u0131b, h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Siz\u0259 yem\u0259k g\u0259tirim? \u2013 G\u00fclya soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yox, ist\u0259mir\u0259m. F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m o biri ota\u011fa ke\u00e7di. Televizorun pultunu \u0259lin\u0259 al\u0131b bir-bir kanallar\u0131 \u00e7evirm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. \u018fslind\u0259 onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259y\u0259 baxma\u011f\u0131n f\u0259rqi yox idi. N\u0259y\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131sa, kor-t\u0259bii bax\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Sonra he\u00e7 G\u00fclyaya buyurmadan, \u00f6z\u00fc m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7ib bir fincan q\u0259hv\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259ltdi. Ac\u0131 q\u0259hv\u0259. Q\u0259lbind\u0259 d\u0259, beynind\u0259 d\u0259 bir bo\u015fluq var idi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n getdim, mama, \u2013 o\u011flunun s\u0259si idi, nahar fasil\u0259sind\u0259n i\u015f\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131. Onun ail\u0259si, yolda\u015f\u0131, o\u011flanlar\u0131, g\u0259linl\u0259ri, n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259ri Maldiv adalar\u0131nda istirah\u0259t edirdil\u0259r. Ke\u00e7\u0259n ay R\u0259\u015fad anas\u0131n\u0131 r\u0259fiq\u0259sinn\u0259n Fransaya yola sald\u0131. F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m \u00f6z sevincini gizl\u0259d\u0259 bilmirdi. R\u0259fiq\u0259si is\u0259 R\u0259\u015fad t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n ona olan bu b\u0259x\u015feyi\u015fi \u00f6l\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yaddan \u00e7\u0131xarmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 dedi. Bu g\u00fcn F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yer tapa bilmirdi. S\u0259mran\u0131n g\u0259tirdiyi \u015farf\u0131 \u00e7iynin\u0259 sald\u0131. Yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, Parisd\u0259 o da bu \u015farfdan g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Sad\u0259c\u0259 \u00e7ox baha oldu\u011fundan kas\u0131b r\u0259fiq\u0259sinin yan\u0131nda alma\u011fa utand\u0131.<\/p>\n

Ax\u015fam olanda du\u015f q\u0259bul edib, ac-susuz yata\u011f\u0131na girdi. Gec\u0259 yatanda yuxusunda Tiflisi g\u00f6rd\u00fc, balaca q\u0131z\u0131 onun ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 qucaqlay\u0131b a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Mama, detm\u0259, mama, detm\u0259. Onun g\u0259linciyi \u0259lind\u0259n yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. U\u015faq \u0259yilib g\u0259linciyi yerd\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

H\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 gir\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259si F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131 yuxudan oyatd\u0131. O\u011flu i\u015fd\u0259nmi, ya hardansa ev\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m tumbo\u00e7kan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoyulmu\u015f dolabdan st\u0259kana su s\u00fczd\u00fc i\u00e7di. Aln\u0131n\u0131 pu\u00e7ur-pu\u00e7ur t\u0259r b\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u00abBu g\u00fcn R\u0259\u015fad yen\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi yad\u0131ma sald\u0131\u2026 Y\u0259qin ona g\u00f6r\u0259 bu yuxunu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm\u00bb. O bilm\u0259di, bilm\u0259di ki, indi h\u0259min uyqunu S\u0259mra da g\u00f6r\u00fcr. R\u00f6yas\u0131nda a\u011flay\u0131r, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 da s\u0259ngid\u0259 bilmir.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra yuxudan duranda h\u0259l\u0259 ala-toranl\u0131q idi. He\u00e7 gec\u0259 paltar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259d\u0259n G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259n \u2013 F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131mdan g\u0259tirdiyi diskl\u0259r\u0259 baxma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Ara-bir \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 kofe d\u0259ml\u0259yib i\u00e7irdi \u2013 ac\u0131, \u015f\u0259k\u0259rsiz. Baxd\u0131qlar\u0131ndan c\u0259mi iki tama\u015fa xo\u015funa g\u0259ldi. Ancaq F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m baya\u011f\u0131 tama\u015faya da \u00f6z oyunu il\u0259 bir \u0259z\u0259m\u0259t verirdi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra indi d\u0259rk etdi ki, niy\u0259 Bak\u0131 dramaturqlar\u0131 \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rini G\u0259nc\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rirl\u0259r \u2013 F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131ma g\u00f6r\u0259.<\/p>\n

Bird\u0259n Bak\u0131 teatr\u0131nda i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n istedads\u0131z, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n raz\u0131 aktrisa g\u0259ldi g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin q\u0259n\u015f\u0259rin\u0259, iyr\u0259n\u0259n kimi oldu S\u0259mra. Aktrisa s\u0259si olmaya-olmaya h\u0259l\u0259 mahn\u0131lar oxuyur, teleekran\u00adlardan \u00f6z n\u0259h\u0259ng villas\u0131n\u0131 n\u00fcmayi\u015f el\u0259tdirirdi. S\u0259n\u0259t d\u0259 jurnalistika kimi reanimasiya d\u00f6vr\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015fay\u0131r. G\u00f6r\u0259n sonra n\u0259 olacaq?<\/p>\n

Yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, Az\u0259rbaycan jurnalistikas\u0131n\u0131n reanima\u00adsi\u00adya d\u00f6vr\u00fcnd\u0259 oldu\u011funu \u018ffrasiyab \u00abAzadl\u0131q\u00bb radiosuna verdiyi m\u00fcsahib\u0259sind\u0259 demi\u015fdi. \u00dcr\u0259yi gizild\u0259di. \u00ab\u018ffrasiyab y\u0259qin aeroporta enib. G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n \u015eirin hamil\u0259liyini nec\u0259 ke\u00e7irir?\u00bb<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra diktofona bir d\u0259 qulaq asd\u0131. F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m haqq\u0131nda yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259qal\u0259ni tamamlad\u0131, redaksiyan\u0131n elektron po\u00e7tuna g\u00f6nd\u0259rdi. Redaktor S\u0259mraya demi\u015fdi ki, onun m\u0259qal\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir s\u0259hif\u0259 yer ay\u0131r\u0131b. Vyorstka s\u0259h\u0259r saat 8-d\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131r. Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, gecikdirm\u0259yin, yoxsa pis v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 qalar\u0131q.<\/p>\n

Art\u0131q saat 7 idi.<\/p>\n

\u00abN\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, m\u0259qal\u0259ni yaza bildim. El\u0259 bildim ki, \u00e7\u0259tin olacaq\u00bb. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 baxd\u0131. Burada da qovaq a\u011faclar\u0131ndan yarpaqlar t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. H\u0259l\u0259 avqust idi ax\u0131. Bu il d\u0259 yarpaq t\u00f6k\u00fcm\u00fc tez ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab dedi ki, \u015eiringil sabah g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

Sabah q\u0131z\u0131 h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 v\u0259 balaca M\u0259ry\u0259ml\u0259 Bak\u0131ya g\u0259lirl\u0259r. \u00dcr\u0259yini sanki g\u00f6y qur\u015fa\u011f\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. \u015eirin ikinci u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. C\u0259mi bir ne\u00e7\u0259 aydan sonra 2-ci d\u0259f\u0259 ana olacaq, in\u015faallah.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n ist\u0259mir\u0259m s\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259s\u0259n. Papa yan\u0131mda olacaq. Sabina da buradad\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Mama, s\u0259n Sabina bac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nnan klinikaya yoxlan\u0131lma\u011fa getdin. Amma \u0259m\u0259liyyata ged\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259n olmal\u0131yam s\u0259nin yan\u0131nda, bir d\u0259 papa.<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259m\u0259liyyat x\u0259rcini d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm \u00f6d\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Qurban olum, h\u0259r \u015fey \u015firk\u0259tin hesab\u0131na olacaq. \u015eirk\u0259td\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n h\u0259r k\u0259s s\u0131\u011fortaya d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, bu bir. \u0130kinci d\u0259, m\u0259n s\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7ox pul al\u0131ram, bu iki. S\u0259n d\u0259, yolda\u015f\u0131n da pulunuzu saxlay\u0131n, \u2013 s\u0259yah\u0259t\u0259 ged\u0259rsiz.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Ged\u0259rsiz yox, ged\u0259rik, in\u015faallah.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mran\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yini yenid\u0259n g\u00f6y qur\u015fa\u011f\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Onda Paris\u0259 Tamara xan\u0131m v\u0259 S\u0259mra getdil\u0259r. Tamara xan\u0131m bu s\u0259f\u0259rd\u0259n ciddi-c\u0259hdl\u0259 imtina edirdi. Amma S\u0259mra ona xarici pasport ald\u0131. Viza a\u00e7d\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fslind\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn i\u015fl\u0259ri turizm agentliyi g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. S\u0259mra ancaq icra\u00e7\u0131 idi.<\/p>\n

Bir d\u0259f\u0259 televizorda Parisd\u0259ki \u00abDisney-Lendi\u00bb g\u00f6st\u0259rir\u00addil\u0259r. Tamara xan\u0131m \u2013 oran\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n u\u015faqlara qibt\u0259 edir\u0259m. \u00c7ox t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf edir\u0259m ki, biz s\u0259n\u0259 oralar\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259 bilm\u0259dik, \u2013 dedi. K\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. Art\u0131q Hiday\u0259t doxtur h\u0259yatda yox idi. o, d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 Tamara xan\u0131m balaca sand\u0131q\u00e7as\u0131nda saxlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ki\u00e7ik torban\u0131 S\u0259mraya g\u00f6st\u0259rdi. Bu torpa\u011f\u0131n yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 atan\u0131n q\u0259brin\u0259, yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 saxlayarsan, m\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259nim \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 t\u00f6k\u0259rs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

O n\u0259 torpaqd\u0131r ki, mama?<\/p>\n

Tamara xan\u0131m a\u011flad\u0131 v\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi oldu\u011fu kimi S\u0259mraya s\u00f6yl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u2013 S\u0259n m\u0259nim ham\u0131dan uca, ham\u0131dan do\u011fma anamsan. E\u015fidirs\u0259n? S\u0259nd\u0259n ba\u015fqa m\u0259nim anam yoxdur, atamdan ba\u015fqa ayr\u0131s\u0131 yoxdur.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra onun dizl\u0259rini qucaqlad\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 onun ayaqlar\u0131na s\u00f6yk\u0259yib a\u011flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Tamara xan\u0131m sand\u0131q\u00e7adan bir d\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 z\u0259rf \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131 \u2013 bu F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 verdiyi s\u0259nin s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259rindir \u2013 do\u011fum haqq\u0131nda \u015f\u0259had\u0259tnam\u0259 v\u0259 s. M\u0259n ist\u0259mir\u0259m m\u0259nd\u0259n sonra s\u0259n bu m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259td\u0259 t\u0259k qalasan. \u015eirin Pol\u015fada\u2026 He\u00e7 inanm\u0131ram \u018ffrasiyab Bak\u0131ya d\u00f6n\u0259. O, s\u0259ni aparacaq. V\u0259t\u0259nsiz s\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tin olacaq. Ora gets\u0259n, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259laq\u0259l\u0259rin k\u0259sil\u0259c\u0259k\u2026 \u0130st\u0259yir\u0259m m\u0259nd\u0259n sonra he\u00e7 olmasa bir do\u011fma adam\u0131n ola Az\u0259rbaycanda. S\u00f6z ver, s\u00f6z ver ki, m\u0259nd\u0259n sonra qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 \u2026 F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131 tapacaqsan.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra onun h\u0259r iki \u0259ll\u0259rini \u00f6pd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Atan da, m\u0259n d\u0259 kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6m\u00fcr ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f\u0131q, ax\u0131 h\u0259yat \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fcz deyil.<\/p>\n

Atas\u0131n\u0131n ilini ver\u0259nd\u0259n sonra onlar Paris\u0259 yola d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra qabaqcadan anas\u0131na araba ald\u0131. Son vaxtlar s\u0259ks\u0259n s\u0259kkiz ya\u015fl\u0131 Tamara xan\u0131m\u0131n ayaqlar\u0131 \u00e7\u0259tin yer tuturdu. Parisin k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rini d\u0259 taksiyl\u0259 getdikl\u0259ri \u00abDisney-Lend\u0259\u00bb S\u0259mra anas\u0131n\u0131 arabada apard\u0131.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259ri i\u00e7ind\u0259 Tamara xan\u0131m\u0131n \u0259n \u00e7ox xo\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00abZ\u0259f\u0259r ta\u011f\u0131\u00bb v\u0259 H\u00fcqonun ev muzeyi oldu. Sena k\u0259nar\u0131yla g\u0259zintid\u0259n z\u00f6vq ald\u0131. S\u0259mra anas\u0131yla g\u0259miy\u0259 d\u0259 mindi \u2013 Sena \u00e7ay\u0131 il\u0259 Parisin bir t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n o biri t\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 ke\u00e7di. Tamara xan\u0131m istirah\u0259t ed\u0259nd\u0259, S\u0259mra Luvra, Paris-notr-dam kils\u0259sin\u0259, Pompidu \u2013 m\u00fcasir s\u0259n\u0259t muzeyin\u0259 getdi.<\/p>\n

Ax\u015fam el\u0259 otel yem\u0259kxanas\u0131nda y\u00fcng\u00fcl q\u0259lyanalt\u0131 ed\u0259nd\u0259, S\u0259mran\u0131 el\u0259 bil elektrik c\u0259r\u0259yan\u0131 vurdu. Qar\u015f\u0131dak\u0131 g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259 o, \u018ffrasiyab\u0131n \u0259ksini g\u00f6rd\u00fc. \u018fll\u0259riyl\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini \u00f6rtd\u00fc. \u00abQoy bu il\u011f\u0131m yox olsun, yox, yox\u2026 He\u00e7 vaxt yox olmas\u0131n. Ka\u015f g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm il\u011f\u0131m t\u0259krar ola bir d\u0259. \u018ffrasiyab onu qucaqlad\u0131. S\u0259mra onun b\u0259d\u0259ninin \u0259trini hiss etdi. G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259nin x\u0259yal yox, ger\u00e7\u0259klik oldu\u011funu hiss etdi. S\u0259mra ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 onun qollar\u0131 aras\u0131nda gizl\u0259tdi. \u00abAllah, n\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt\u0259m\u2026\u00bb<\/p>\n

\u2013 S\u0259n hardan g\u0259ldin bura, nec\u0259 tapd\u0131n oteli?<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u00c7ox sad\u0259l\u00f6hv suallar verirs\u0259n. Avropada \u015fengen vizas\u0131 var. S\u0259rh\u0259dl\u0259r a\u00e7\u0131qd\u0131. Otelin d\u0259 ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131n, \u2013 sonra Tamara xan\u0131ma \u00fczrxahl\u0131q edib, onunla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n yorulmu\u015fam, istirah\u0259t etm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m. M\u0259ni, z\u0259hm\u0259t olmasa \u00f6z ota\u011f\u0131ma qald\u0131r\u0131n, \u2013 dedi Tamara xan\u0131m. \u00abAnan\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi onun \u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyind\u0259dir\u00bb, \u2013 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab onun arabas\u0131n\u0131 lift\u0259 sar\u0131 apard\u0131. S\u0259mra anas\u0131n\u0131n yata\u011f\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b, onu uzand\u0131rd\u0131. Televizorun pultunu yan\u0131na qoydu.<\/p>\n

Lap u\u015faql\u0131qdak\u0131 kimi soru\u015fdu:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Mama, olar m\u0259n \u018ffrasiyabla gedim g\u0259zm\u0259y\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Olar, olar, \u2013 Tamara xan\u0131m g\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab S\u0259mran\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bron el\u0259diyi ota\u011fa apard\u0131. Onun sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 qoxulad\u0131. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc, b\u0259d\u0259nini \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259rq etdi. N\u0259f\u0259si bo\u011fula-bo\u011fula: \u2013 Dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131m s\u0259nsiz. \u00c7ox dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131m\u2026 H\u0259r ikisinin ayaqlar\u0131 alt\u0131ndan yer qa\u00e7d\u0131. G\u00f6y yer\u0259 endi.<\/p>\n

Art\u0131q gec\u0259 idi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Ged\u0259k s\u0259n\u0259 Tuluz Lotrekin Mulen-Ruyunu g\u00f6st\u0259rim\u2026<\/p>\n

Birlikd\u0259 Mulen-Ruy kafesind\u0259 canl\u0131 musiqiy\u0259 qulaq as\u0131rd\u0131lar. Ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131 otel buralara yax\u0131n idi. Qay\u0131tmaqlar\u0131na 2 g\u00fcn qalm\u0131\u015f \u018ffrasiyab S\u0259mra v\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131 Parisin \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 ma\u011fazalar\u0131na apard\u0131, xeyli pal-paltar, h\u0259diyy\u0259l\u0259r ald\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

\u00abMaks-Maradan\u00bb \u015eirin v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015farflar ald\u0131. \u018ffrasiyab onlar\u0131 aeroportdan Bak\u0131ya yola sal\u0131b, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 Var\u015favaya u\u00e7du. Parisd\u0259n qay\u0131dandan sonra Tamara xan\u0131m he\u00e7 bir ay ya\u015famad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Allah s\u0259ni xo\u015fb\u0259xt el\u0259sin, bala. S\u0259n atan\u0131n da, m\u0259nim d\u0259 h\u0259yatda \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck sevincimiz, xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyimiz oldun. Allah s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn iztirablar\u0131 bir d\u0259 urcah el\u0259m\u0259sin. Sonra S\u0259mra onu yuyundurub, yata\u011f\u0131na uzand\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yuxuda Tamara xan\u0131m 1944-c\u00fc ili g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Ulduzlardan \u015eaxta baban\u0131n g\u0259li\u015fini g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n S\u0259mra n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 Z\u00fcleyxan\u0131n deyil, atas\u0131n\u0131n quca\u011f\u0131nda idi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Mama, d\u0259l, mama d\u0259l, biz s\u0259ni d\u00f6zl\u0259dik, \u2013 S\u0259mra ona \u0259l edirdi. H\u0259r yan b\u0259m-b\u0259yaz qar idi. Hiday\u0259t doxtur arvad\u0131na bax\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

Tamara xan\u0131m soyuq qar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fc il\u0259 onlara sar\u0131 getdi. He\u00e7 \u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

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N\u0259n\u0259sinin d\u0259fnin\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n \u015eirin d\u0259, yolda\u015f\u0131 Zaur da, balaca M\u0259ry\u0259m d\u0259 israr edirdil\u0259r ki, S\u0259mra he\u00e7 olmasa bir ayl\u0131\u011f\u0131na onlarla birg\u0259 Var\u015favaya getsin.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yox\u2026 M\u0259n n\u0259n\u0259nin 40-\u0131n\u0131 verm\u0259liy\u0259m.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra s\u0259hh\u0259ti il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 problemi he\u00e7 kim\u0259 dem\u0259di. Sad\u0259c\u0259 yax\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131n q\u0259lbini q\u0131rmaq ist\u0259m\u0259di. V\u0259 h\u0259m d\u0259 G\u0259nc\u0259y\u0259 getm\u0259liydi. Bu anas\u0131n\u0131n son arzusu idi.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259n qay\u0131dandan sonra o yaln\u0131z v\u0259 yaln\u0131z \u015f\u0259h\u0259r s\u0259s-k\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fmaq, bir k\u00fcnc\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilib \u018ffrasiyab\u0131n v\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n g\u0259lm\u0259sini g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

Qon\u015fu S\u0259lmi xalan\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fc. S\u0259lmi xala yuxudan yenic\u0259 durmu\u015fdu. M\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 g\u0259lininin s\u0259si g\u0259lirdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259s U\u011fur hardad\u0131r?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yat\u0131r, \u00e7ox yor\u011fundur, q\u0131z\u0131m. Qoy dinc\u0259lsin.<\/p>\n

Onlar qonaq ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7dil\u0259r. G\u0259lin d\u0259 S\u0259mraya \u00abxo\u015f g\u0259ldin\u00bb dedi. \u00c7ay t\u0259dar\u00fck\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra \u0259lind\u0259ki z\u0259rfi masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu. Sonra fikirl\u0259\u015fib, i\u00e7ind\u0259kini \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 S\u0259lmi xala, bu U\u011furun d\u00f6rd illik t\u0259hsil haqq\u0131d\u0131r, h\u0259m d\u0259 o, cavan o\u011fland\u0131r, \u00fcr\u0259yi n\u0259 ist\u0259yir alars\u0131z.<\/p>\n

Zarafat deyil, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin h\u00fcquq\u015f\u00fcnas\u0131 olacaq.<\/p>\n

G\u0259lin ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 donmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Burada 15 min manatd\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Ay q\u0131z\u0131m, bu q\u0259d\u0259r pulu biz g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259 bilm\u0259rik. Bu a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fckd\u00fcr, alt\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xa bilm\u0259rik.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n bunu borc vermir\u0259m. Bu m\u0259nim U\u011fura universitet\u0259 girdiyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 el\u0259diyim h\u0259diyy\u0259dir. Bir d\u0259 ki, bu m\u0259nim ayl\u0131q \u0259m\u0259k haqq\u0131m\u0131n bir hiss\u0259sidir. Tofikin o\u011flu oxumal\u0131d\u0131r\u2026<\/p>\n

\u2013 Sa\u011f ol, ay bala, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcm qaba\u011f\u0131nda olsun.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u00c7ox sa\u011f olun, S\u0259mra xan\u0131m. S\u0259s-k\u00fcy\u0259 oyanan U\u011fur ota\u011fa girib S\u0259mran\u0131 \u00f6pd\u00fc. U\u015faq el\u0259 bil Tofikin \u00f6z\u00fcyd\u00fc, el\u0259 bil onun klonu idi. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131lar bir-birl\u0259rin\u0259. Bir st\u0259kan \u00e7ay i\u00e7ib, S\u0259mra \u00f6z m\u0259nzilin\u0259 d\u00f6nd\u00fc, qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259, el\u0259 bil onu m\u0259cbur el\u0259dil\u0259r ki, geri baxs\u0131n. Baxd\u0131. S\u0259lmi xala \u0259ll\u0259rini g\u00f6y\u0259 qald\u0131r\u0131b, a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

D\u0259rhal S\u0259lmi xalan\u0131n ayr\u0131 bir vaxt dediyi s\u00f6zl\u0259r d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc yad\u0131na.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Balam\u0131 niy\u0259 b\u0259db\u0259xt el\u0259din? Getdiyin o\u011flan\u0131n n\u0259yi balamdan art\u0131qd\u0131r?<\/p>\n

Bunun izah\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 S\u0259mra da bilmirdi. Tofikin \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc qaytar\u0131b, \u018ffrasiyaba getm\u0259yi bir tale yaz\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Novxan\u0131da ba\u011f evin\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259 S\u0259mra \u018ffrasiyab\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Onun ail\u0259si ba\u011f qon\u015fular\u0131yd\u0131. G\u00f6rd\u00fc v\u0259 q\u0259lbind\u0259n bir gizilti ke\u00e7di. \u00c7ox vaxt onunla \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn S\u0259mra evd\u0259n e\u015fiy\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Tamara xan\u0131m q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259z\u0259mm\u0259t edirdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Qurban olum, bala, havaya \u00e7\u0131x, d\u0259niz\u0259 get. Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr\u0259m ki, s\u0259n d\u00f6rd divar aras\u0131nda oturma\u011fam\u0131 g\u0259ldin? N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r kitab oxumaq olar? N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ev i\u015fi g\u00f6rm\u0259k olar? S\u0259mra nahardan sonra y\u0131\u011f\u0131lan qab-qaca\u011f\u0131 yudu, otaqlar\u0131n tozunu ald\u0131, sonra du\u015f q\u0259bul edib, uzun \u00e7it sarafan\u0131n\u0131 \u0259ynin\u0259 geydi. Bay\u0131rda atas\u0131 ba\u011f qon\u015fular\u0131nnan n\u0259rd oynay\u0131rd\u0131. Tamara xan\u0131m q\u0259dim mis samovara k\u00f6m\u00fcr at\u0131rd\u0131. Ax\u015fam yen\u0259 d\u0259 qon\u015fular\u0131 \u2013 profes\u00adsor ail\u0259si, o\u011fullar\u0131 m\u0259\u015fhur jurnalist \u018ffrasiyab Qulub\u0259yov (ke\u00e7\u00admi\u015f\u00add\u0259 o boks \u00fczr\u0259 Bak\u0131 \u00e7empionu olmu\u015fdur). \u018ffrasiyab tut a\u011fa\u00adc\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib, \u00e7ay i\u00e7\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r. Tamara xan\u0131m da, \u018ff\u00adra\u00adsiyab\u0131n anas\u0131 da el\u0259 ba\u011fda bi\u015firdikl\u0259ri m\u00fcr\u0259bb\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n g\u0259\u00adtirir, samovar \u00e7ay\u0131ndan i\u00e7irdil\u0259r. \u018ffrasiyab jurnalist idi, q\u0259zet\u00adl\u0259\u00adrin birind\u0259 \u00e7ox sanball\u0131, analitik yaz\u0131lar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0259mra he\u00e7 a\u011f\u00adl\u0131na da g\u0259tir\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi ki, bu m\u0259qal\u0259l\u0259rin m\u00fc\u0259llifi bel\u0259 g\u0259nc v\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ldir. Onu g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 S\u0259mran\u0131n sanki n\u0259f\u0259si dayan\u0131rd\u0131, ayaq\u00adlar\u0131 tutulurdu. S\u0259mra ham\u0131dan qabaq \u00abgec\u0259niz xeyr\u0259 qal\u00ads\u0131n\u00bb deyib, \u00e7ay s\u00fcfr\u0259sini t\u0259rk edirdi. Sonra uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t yuxu\u00adya ged\u0259 bilmirdi. C\u0131rc\u0131ramalar\u0131n s\u0259sin\u0259 qulaq as\u0131rd\u0131, Tofiki x\u0259\u00adyal\u0131na g\u0259tirirdi, ancaq g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 \u018ffrasiyab\u0131n sur\u0259ti g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 bu yay \u00f6zg\u0259 bir yay idi. S\u0259mra onun t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u0259 yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 obraz idi. \u0130ndi ger\u00e7\u0259kliy\u0259 \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdi. \u018fla\u00adc\u0131 olsayd\u0131, \u018ffrasiyab qalan \u00f6mr\u00fcnd\u0259n imtina ed\u0259rdi, \u2013 t\u0259ki S\u0259m\u00adra onun yan\u0131nda olsun. F\u0259q\u0259t, bu q\u0131z \u00f6zg\u0259 o\u011flan\u0131n ni\u00ad\u015fan\u00adl\u0131s\u0131 idi. Bu pay\u0131z toylar\u0131 olas\u0131d\u0131r. Sentyabrda\u2026 indi avqustdur. \u2013 \u018ffrasiyab\u0131n beyninin qapa\u011f\u0131 qalx\u0131rd\u0131, \u00fcr\u0259yi ye\u00adrind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xacaqd\u0131 el\u0259 bil.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra qon\u015fular\u0131 il\u0259 salamla\u015f\u0131b, \u00fcz\u00fcm meyv\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 sar\u0131 get\u00addi, sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 arxadan y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b, sancaqlad\u0131. Atas\u0131yla n\u0259rd oy\u00adnayan ki\u015fi h\u0259min adam\u0131n atas\u0131yd\u0131. S\u0259mra onun ad\u0131n\u0131 \u2013 \u018ff\u00adrasiyab s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc x\u0259yal\u0131nda da demirdi. Bu s\u00f6z ona sonsuz a\u011fr\u0131 verirdi, b\u00fct\u00fcn ruhu x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259nirdi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra meyv\u0259l\u0259rin arxas\u0131nda, d\u0259nizin 3-4 add\u0131ml\u0131\u011f\u0131nda olan k\u00f6hn\u0259 qay\u0131\u011fa sar\u0131 getdi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra c\u0131rc\u0131ramalar\u0131n s\u0259sini dinl\u0259di. Ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, d\u00fcn\u00adyada bu s\u0259sd\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l s\u0259s yoxdur. Ke\u00e7ib k\u00f6hn\u0259 qay\u0131\u011f\u0131n otu\u00adraca\u011f\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259niz\u0259 tutdu. Q\u00fcrub g\u00fcn\u0259\u015finin i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u0259nizi q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 r\u0259ng\u0259 boyam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00abBu i\u015f\u0131q da Allah\u0131n i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131r\u2026 Allah\u0131m, m\u0259nim q\u0259lbim\u0259 bir rahatl\u0131q ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, m\u0259ni g\u00fcnahlardan qoru\u2026 M\u0259n rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 itirmi\u015f\u0259m\u2026 Qoy m\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259lki S\u0259mra olum, qoy Tofikl\u0259 xo\u015f\u00adb\u0259xt olum. Bu adam\u0131 m\u0259nim xatir\u0259l\u0259rimd\u0259n d\u0259 uzaqla\u015fd\u0131r\u2026\u00bb<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra he\u00e7 x\u0259yal\u0131nda da \u018ffrasiyab ad\u0131n\u0131 demirdi. Qor\u00adxurdu, qorxurdu ki, bu ad onun x\u0259yal\u0131na, fikrin\u0259, q\u0259lbin\u0259 h\u0259kk olunar.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra onun n\u0259f\u0259sini e\u015fitdi. O, tez-tez n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131rd\u0131, el\u0259 bil t\u00f6y\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u018ffrasiyab\u0131n n\u0259f\u0259si onun boynunu isitdi. Bir anl\u0131q yer d\u0259, g\u00f6y d\u0259 birl\u0259\u015f\u0259c\u0259kdi. S\u0259mra he\u00e7 bilm\u0259di ki, onun g\u00fccl\u00fc qollar\u0131 aras\u0131ndan nec\u0259 qa\u00e7d\u0131. O, anas\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259sini e\u015fitdi, bey\u00adnin\u00add\u0259 onun s\u0259si \u018ffrasiyab\u0131n s\u0259sin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u2013 m\u0259n s\u0259nsiz ya\u015famaq ist\u0259mir\u0259m\u2026 S\u0259si bo\u011fulurdu.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6zg\u0259siyl\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt ola bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yax\u015f\u0131 adam olsa bel\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259 oldu s\u0259n\u0259, \u00f6mr\u00fcm-g\u00fcn\u00fcm? \u2013 Tamara xan\u0131m q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n he\u00e7 kim\u0259 baxmadan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ev\u0259 salma\u011f\u0131ndan anlad\u0131 ki, n\u0259s\u0259 olub.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra a\u011flad\u0131. \u018ffrasiyab\u0131n ona dediyini s\u00f6yl\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259s s\u0259n? S\u0259n?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Mama, m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tindir. Tofik \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 o\u011fland\u0131r, am\u00adma m\u0259n \u018ffrasiyabs\u0131z\u2026 Onsuz h\u0259yat m\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u0259qq\u0259t olacaq.<\/p>\n

Qon\u015fular \u00e7ay masas\u0131ndan durub getdil\u0259r. Ev\u0259 gir\u0259n Hiday\u0259t doxdur arvad\u0131n\u0131n v\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n a\u011flad\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Tamara xan\u0131m ona \u0259hvalat\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 S\u0259mran\u0131n hissl\u0259rin\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259t etm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r, \u2013 dedi Hiday\u0259t doxdur.<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259s m\u0259n\u0259 bac\u0131 \u0259v\u0259zi olmu\u015f S\u0259lmi?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Tofik q\u0131z\u0131l o\u011fland\u0131r. \u2013 Hiday\u0259t doxdur siqaret \u00e7\u0259kdi. \u2013 \u00d6z\u00fcm dan\u0131\u015faram Tofikn\u0259n.<\/p>\n

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S\u0259mran\u0131n \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc el\u0259 bil g\u00f6y qur\u015fa\u011f\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Allah, ya\u015famaq n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ldir!!! Onun x\u0259yallar\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259z\u0259y\u0259n insan ger\u00e7\u0259kd\u0259 onun \u00f6m\u00fcr-g\u00fcn yolda\u015f\u0131 oldu.<\/p>\n

Ancaq onun \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 bir gizilti vard\u0131 \u2013 Tofik. Onlar ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259, Tofikin r\u0259ngi a\u011fappaq idi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, \u2013 dedi S\u0259mra. \u2013 Xo\u015fb\u0259xt ol.<\/p>\n

Sonra el\u0259 bil \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 dediyi kimi \u2013 ki\u015fil\u0259rin a\u011flama\u011f\u0131 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t olur, \u2013 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131yla s\u00f6yl\u0259di Tofik.<\/p>\n

Onun q\u0259ddi \u0259yilmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra yeyin add\u0131mlarla ondan uzaqla\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Toy g\u00fcn\u00fc Hiday\u0259t doxtur da, Tamara xan\u0131m da, S\u0259mra da fikirl\u0259\u015fdil\u0259r ki, el\u0259 ba\u011f evind\u0259n k\u00f6\u00e7s\u00fcn g\u0259lin. S\u0259lmid\u0259n, To\u00adfik\u00ad\u00add\u0259n ay\u0131bd\u0131. Qoy onlar S\u0259mran\u0131n \u00f6zg\u0259 ev\u0259 g\u0259lin getm\u0259yini g\u00f6rm\u0259sinl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131q S\u0259lmi. Onsuz da Tofiki t\u0259k b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u018fri d\u0259\u00adniz\u00add\u0259 batandan sonra, h\u0259yat\u0131n h\u0259m d\u0259 maddi \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259ri d\u0259 onun z\u0259rif \u00e7iyinl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, Tofik anas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fc\u00adman\u0131n\u0131 do\u011frultdu \u2013 ona ba\u015fucal\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259tir\u0259n \u00f6vlad oldu. Allah xo\u015fb\u0259xt el\u0259sin.<\/p>\n

Tofik uzun ill\u0259r evl\u0259nm\u0259di. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 S\u0259mra \u015eirinl\u0259 valideynl\u0259rin\u0259 ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259, Tofik \u015eirini quca\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131, \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u2013 S\u0259n indi hardasan, Tofik?<\/p>\n

\u2013 H\u00fcquq m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259txanas\u0131nda v\u0259kil i\u015fl\u0259yir\u0259m. \u0130\u015fin d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259, de, \u2013 zarafat el\u0259di Tofik.<\/p>\n

Onda S\u0259mran\u0131n a\u011fl\u0131na da g\u0259lm\u0259zdi ki, n\u0259 vaxtsa Tofik ona tap\u0131lmayan dava-d\u0259rmanlar alacaq, h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 xilas ed\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

O vaxt \u018ffrasiyab bir qrup jurnalistl\u0259 Amerikada t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259 m\u00fcbadil\u0259sind\u0259 idi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mran\u0131n yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir m\u0259qal\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, i\u015fl\u0259diyi q\u0259zetin redaktorunu i\u015fd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131lar, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc is\u0259 polis idar\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u00add\u0131lar. S\u0259mra oraya t\u0259k getm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi, atas\u0131n\u0131n i\u015fd\u0259n g\u0259l\u00adm\u0259yini g\u00f6zl\u0259di. Ancaq polis idar\u0259sinin \u0259m\u0259liyyat \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r el\u0259dil\u0259r ki, yar\u0131m saat \u0259rzind\u0259 o, idar\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259s\u0259, arxas\u0131nca polis n\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259ri g\u00f6nd\u0259ril\u0259c\u0259k, S\u0259mra zorla apar\u0131lacaq.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra ikinci hamil\u0259liyini ke\u00e7irirdi. \u018ffrasiyab da, S\u0259mra da \u00f6zl\u0259rini sanki g\u00f6y\u00fcn yeddinci qat\u0131nda hiss edirdil\u0259r. Onlar\u0131n bu sevinci h\u0259r ikisinin valideynl\u0259rin\u0259 siray\u0259t edirdi \u2013 onlar xo\u015fb\u0259xt qocal\u0131q ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, \u0259g\u0259r bu g\u00fcn i\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fc olsayd\u0131, he\u00e7 olmasa i\u015f yolda\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n biriyl\u0259 ged\u0259rdi polis \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sin\u0259.<\/p>\n

Paltar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fib getdi. \u00d6z ota\u011f\u0131nda musiqi d\u0259rsl\u0259rini haz\u0131rlayan \u015eirin, anas\u0131n\u0131n getm\u0259yini duydu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Mama, olar m\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259nn\u0259n gedim?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yox, q\u0131z\u0131m. M\u0259n tez g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m. S\u0259n m\u0259\u015f\u011ful ol.<\/p>\n

\u015eirin art\u0131q d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc sinf\u0259 gedirdi. O, h\u0259m d\u0259 musiqi m\u0259kt\u0259bind\u0259 t\u0259hsil al\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0259mra pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259ri a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 en\u0259nd\u0259, \u015eopenin prel\u00fcd\u00fcn\u00fc e\u015fitdi.<\/p>\n

Evl\u0259rinin yan\u0131nda polis ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. S\u0259mra taksiy\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 o ma\u015f\u0131n da yerind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

\u00abN\u0259 pis i\u015f oldu ki, \u018ffrasiyab\u0131n valideynl\u0259ri ba\u011fdan h\u0259l\u0259 qay\u0131tmay\u0131blar. U\u015faq evd\u0259 t\u0259k qald\u0131. Onlar h\u0259l\u0259 sabah g\u0259l\u0259\u00adc\u0259kl\u0259r\u00bb, \u2013 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc S\u0259mra.<\/p>\n

\u018fm\u0259liyyat m\u00fcv\u0259kkilinin \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n z\u0259hrimar t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. O, he\u00e7 S\u0259mran\u0131n salam\u0131n\u0131 da almad\u0131. Ancaq S\u0259mra stul \u00e7\u0259kib \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 O m\u0259qal\u0259ni s\u0259n yaz\u0131bsan? B\u0259y\u0259m bizim res\u00adpub\u00adli\u00adka\u00adm\u0131z\u00adda korrupsiya, r\u00fc\u015fv\u0259t var? Respublika korrupsiya toruna b\u00fcr\u00fc\u00adn\u00fcb? Bel\u0259 yazm\u0131san?<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259li, bel\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fam.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Q\u0259l\u0259t eliyib yaz\u0131bsan.<\/p>\n

\u2013 S\u00f6zl\u0259rinin h\u0259ddini bil.<\/p>\n

\u2013 S\u0259sini k\u0259s, qanc\u0131q. Bizim h\u00f6rm\u0259tli \u2026. c\u0259nablar\u0131na \u015f\u0259r atan\u0131 d\u00fcnya i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131na h\u0259sr\u0259t qoyar\u0131q.<\/p>\n

\u2013 T\u0259hqir el\u0259m\u0259, buna s\u0259nin haqq\u0131n yoxdur.<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259 haqq azz? Haqq \u2013 g\u00fccd\u0259dir.<\/p>\n

\u018fm\u0259liyyat m\u00fcv\u0259kkili S\u0259mran\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131. Duruxdu, aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b ona yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131 \u2013 amma s\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259ls\u0259n.<\/p>\n

\u018flini onun sa\u00e7lar\u0131na apard\u0131. S\u0259mra c\u0259ld aya\u011fa durdu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u018flini m\u0259n\u0259 vurma.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yax\u015f\u0131, ke\u00e7 \u0259yl\u0259\u015f.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mran\u0131n dizl\u0259ri \u0259sirdi. \u018fm\u0259liyyat m\u00fcv\u0259kkili onun qaba\u011f\u0131na ka\u011f\u0131z, avtoq\u0259l\u0259m qoydu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yaz ki, q\u0259l\u0259t eliyib bu m\u0259qal\u0259ni yazm\u0131\u015fam, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 da da\u015fa d\u00f6ym\u00fc\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 T\u0259hqir etm\u0259, dedim s\u0259n\u0259, m\u0259n v\u0259kil t\u0259l\u0259b edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Az yaz ka\u011f\u0131za dedikl\u0259rimi, yazmasan sa tualet t\u0259mizd\u0259tdir\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Al\u00e7aq, \u015f\u0259r\u0259fsiz.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mran\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 q\u0131\u011f\u0131lc\u0131m \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 z\u0259rb\u0259d\u0259n S\u0259mran\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 gic\u0259ll\u0259ndi. Aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. \u2013 V\u0259kil t\u0259l\u0259b edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mran\u0131n s\u0259si bom-bo\u015f s\u0259hrada \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131ran t\u0259nha insan\u0131n s\u0259sin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u015e\u0259r\u0259fsiz, biqeyr\u0259t\u2026<\/p>\n

D\u0259y\u0259n\u0259k z\u0259rb\u0259si onun ba\u015f\u0131na, qarn\u0131na d\u0259yirdi. M\u00fcva\u00adzi\u00adn\u0259\u00adtini saxlaya bilm\u0259yib, S\u0259mra y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn v\u00fccudunu d\u00f6\u00adz\u00fclm\u0259z a\u011fr\u0131 b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. Polis m\u00fcv\u0259kkili qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b d\u0259hlizd\u0259kil\u0259ri \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u018f, g\u0259lin g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcn, bunu qan apard\u0131. Deyin ki, aya\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcm indi medekspertl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015facam\u2026 Siz t\u0259cili yard\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131n.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra daha he\u00e7 n\u0259, he\u00e7 kimi e\u015fitm\u0259di. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7anda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc x\u0259st\u0259xana palatas\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Alatoranl\u0131q i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u00f6z valideynl\u0259rini, \u018ffrasiyab\u0131n ata-anas\u0131n\u0131, balaca \u015eirini v\u0259 Tofikl\u0259 onun cavan arvad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. \u018ffrasiyab h\u0259l\u0259 iki g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kdi. Yen\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 qaranl\u0131q \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc. Bu qaranl\u0131q i\u00e7ind\u0259 o, Novxan\u0131dak\u0131 ba\u011f evl\u0259rini, s\u0131n\u0131q qay\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. \u018ffrasiyab\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc \u2013 o, a\u011f futbolkada, cins \u015falvarda idi. Allah, onun n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00f6rk\u0259mi, n\u0259 yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 boy-buxunu var idi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yox, yox\u2026 M\u0259nim barma\u011f\u0131mda \u00f6zg\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fc var.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra onun g\u00fccl\u00fc qollar\u0131 aras\u0131ndan nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xa bildi? \u0130xtiyar\u0131 olsayd\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt \u00e7\u0131xmazd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u018ffrasiyab\u2026<\/p>\n

\u2013 H\u0259kim, h\u0259kim!!! X\u0259st\u0259nin hal\u0131 qar\u0131\u015f\u0131b.<\/p>\n

Ham\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259si bir-birin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. S\u0259mra yen\u0259 qaranl\u0131q i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u018ffrasiyab\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. O, \u0259lind\u0259 \u015fampan s\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f q\u0259d\u0259h atas\u0131na, sonra da anas\u0131na:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Siz bizi t\u0259brik ed\u0259 bil\u0259rsiz, n\u0259hay\u0259t, uzun ill\u0259rd\u0259n sonra bizim ikinci \u00f6vlad\u0131m\u0131z olacaq\u2026<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab\u0131n anas\u0131 Xuraman xan\u0131m S\u0259mran\u0131 da, o\u011flunu da qucaqlay\u0131b \u00f6pd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u00c7ox \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr Allah\u0131n bu g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u0259. \u2013 Atas\u0131 M\u0259cid m\u00fc\u0259llim S\u0259mran\u0131n aln\u0131ndan \u00f6pd\u00fc. \u2013 Xo\u015fb\u0259xt taleli \u00f6vlad olsun.<\/p>\n

Sonra yan\u0131nda dayanan \u015eirini qucaqlay\u0131b:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Qoy \u015eirin kimi a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 v\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l olsun.<\/p>\n

Q\u0259d\u0259hl\u0259r bir-birin\u0259 d\u0259ydi.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab\u2026 S\u0259mra d\u0259rin yuxuya getdi.<\/p>\n

X\u0259st\u0259xanadan onu \u018ffrasiyab \u00e7\u0131xartm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. A\u00e7\u0131q boz kostyumda, qara k\u00f6yn\u0259kd\u0259, qara, t\u0259mizlikd\u0259n par\u0131ldayan ayaqqab\u0131larda.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mran\u0131 qucaqlay\u0131b ba\u011fr\u0131na basd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Dar\u0131xma, dar\u0131xma, s\u0259nin qisas\u0131n\u0131 yerd\u0259 qoymayacam.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 bir canavar ba\u015f qald\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00abBu qisas bir az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 ki\u015fisinin qisas\u0131 olacaq, bir erk\u0259k canavar\u0131n qisas\u0131 olacaq\u00bb \u2013 \u018ffrasiyab ke\u00e7irtdi beynind\u0259n. \u2013 Az qal\u0131b.<\/p>\n

Ax\u015fam Tamara xan\u0131m \u018ffrasiyaba dedi ki, \u0259g\u0259r Tofik olmasayd\u0131 S\u0259mra \u00f6l\u0259 bil\u0259rdi. X\u0259st\u0259xanada dava-d\u0259rman yox idi. Ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 Tofik sa\u011f olsun, o ald\u0131, g\u0259tirdi.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab\u0131n qa\u015flar\u0131 d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n

Hiday\u0259t doxtur kresloda oturub g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 silirdi. O, art\u0131q qocalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00c7\u0259liksiz g\u0259z\u0259 bilmirdi.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab h\u0259r ota\u011fa S\u0259mran\u0131n sevdiyi a\u011f yas\u0259m\u0259nl\u0259r qoymu\u015fdu. H\u00fcnd\u00fcr b\u00fcllur vazalara qoyulan bu \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259r ev\u0259 bir b\u0259yazl\u0131q g\u0259tirirdi. Xuraman xan\u0131m fisincan plov bi\u015firmi\u015fdi. M\u0259cid m\u00fc\u0259llim \u015eirini musiqi m\u0259kt\u0259bin\u0259 aparm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u018ffrasiyab g\u00f6zl\u0259rini S\u0259mradan \u00e7\u0259kmirdi.<\/p>\n

\u00abAlacam s\u0259nin qisas\u0131n\u0131, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015f \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcl\u0259n k\u00f6rp\u0259min d\u0259 qisas\u0131n\u0131 alacam. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 nec\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r, el\u0259. Bir ki\u015fi kimi\u2026\u00bb<\/p>\n

O, iki g\u00fcn i\u015f\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131. M\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n dair\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 x\u00fcsusi q\u0259ddarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 tan\u0131nan h\u0259min polis m\u00fcv\u0259kkilini g\u00fcdd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab onun \u015f\u0259klini tap\u0131b S\u0259mraya g\u00f6st\u0259rdi. Onun r\u0259ngi daha da avaz\u0131d\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Budur? Tan\u0131d\u0131n?<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra ba\u015f\u0131yla t\u0259sdiql\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259lk\u0259 m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259y\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

\u2013 Hans\u0131 m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259y\u0259? S\u0259n bilmirs\u0259n m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259 kimi m\u00fcdafi\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259k? S\u0259n bilmirs\u0259n bizd\u0259 azad m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259 yoxdur?<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab \u0259m\u0259liyyat m\u00fcv\u0259kkilini o gec\u0259 i\u015fd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda tutdu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bir be\u015f d\u0259qiq\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tim var s\u0259nn\u0259n.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Buyur.<\/p>\n

M\u00fcv\u0259kkilin a\u011fl\u0131na da g\u0259lm\u0259zdi ki, bel\u0259 yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131, \u015f\u0131q geymi\u015f bir adam ona qar\u015f\u0131 pislik ed\u0259 bil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bir az q\u0131ra\u011fa \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259k.<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn var?<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sanki qan \u00f6rtm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Bir dumbuz \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259, iki qarn\u0131na. M\u00fcv\u0259kkil d\u0259 ona cavab z\u0259rb\u0259l\u0259ri vururdu. Onun vurdu\u011fu dumbuz \u018ffrasiyab\u0131n burnuna d\u0259ydi. Onun burnundan qan a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 O\u011fra\u015f, s\u0259n m\u0259nim arvad\u0131ma \u0259l qald\u0131rd\u0131n?<\/p>\n

Ke\u00e7mi\u015fd\u0259 boks rinqind\u0259 vuru\u015fdu\u011fu kimi, \u018ffrasiyab a\u011f\u0131r z\u0259rb\u0259l\u0259rini endirirdi ona. M\u00fcv\u0259kkil d\u0259 g\u00fccl\u00fc idi. Ancaq onun z\u0259rb\u0259l\u0259ri kort\u0259bii idi. \u018fn n\u0259hay\u0259t \u018ffrasiyab cibind\u0259n b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, m\u00fcv\u0259kkilin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 dizl\u0259ri aras\u0131na sald\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 D\u0259ym\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ist\u0259s\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 pul ver\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 T\u00fcp\u00fcr\u00fcm s\u0259nin puluna.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab he\u00e7 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini q\u0131rpmadan onun bir qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259sdi. Sonra b\u0131\u00e7aqla onun \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 bir \u015f\u0131r\u0131m \u00e7\u0259kdi \u2013 Bu da \u00f6vlad\u0131m\u0131n qisas\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

B\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 m\u00fcv\u0259kkilin qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259smala b\u00fck\u00fcb cibin\u0259 qoydu. \u00d6z ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131na sar\u0131 getdi. M\u00fcv\u0259kkil yer\u0259 y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131. Yolnan ke\u00e7\u0259n t\u0259k-t\u0259k adamlar dala\u015fanlardan d\u0259rhal bir bigan\u0259likl\u0259 uzaqla\u015f\u0131r, he\u00e7 k\u0259s \u015fahid qismind\u0259 bel\u0259 polis idar\u0259sin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011f evl\u0259rin\u0259 \u2013 Novxan\u0131ya s\u00fcrd\u00fc. Yol\u00fcst\u00fc b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131 da, d\u0259smala b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f qula\u011f\u0131 da, d\u0259niz\u0259 atma\u011fa q\u0131ymad\u0131 \u2013 \u00abD\u0259niz murdarlanar\u00bb \u2013 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc, zibilliy\u0259 tullad\u0131. Burada o q\u0259d\u0259r sahibsiz itl\u0259r var idi ki\u2026 Ham\u0131s\u0131 \u018ffrasiyab\u0131n atd\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 cumdu. \u018ffrasiyab\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 ba\u015f qald\u0131rm\u0131\u015f canavar sakitl\u0259\u015fdi, rahat oldu. Ba\u011fa \u00e7atanda, kostyumunu, k\u00f6yn\u0259yini \u2013 ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 yand\u0131rd\u0131. Sonra d\u0259niz\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb xeyli \u00fczd\u00fc. Su soyuq idi. Aprel idi. \u018ffrasiyab d\u0259nizd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, il\u0131q du\u015f q\u0259bul etdi. Ki\u00e7ik q\u0259hv\u0259danda q\u0259hv\u0259 bi\u015firdi. Fincan\u0131na c\u0259mi bir d\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259nd atd\u0131. Bu da b\u0259sdir. \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, q\u0259hv\u0259ni o, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ac\u0131 i\u00e7irdi.<\/p>\n

Siqaret yand\u0131rd\u0131. Gec\u0259 yar\u0131 televizoru a\u00e7d\u0131. Kriminal xronikada h\u0259min \u0259m\u0259liyyat m\u00fcv\u0259kkilinin eyb\u0259c\u0259r hala d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f, qulaqs\u0131z \u015f\u0259klini g\u00f6st\u0259rirdil\u0259r. \u00abNam\u0259lum \u015f\u0259xsl\u0259r (\u015f\u0259xs yox, \u015f\u0259xsl\u0259r) t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n xeyli x\u0259sar\u0259t yetirilmi\u015f, qula\u011f\u0131 k\u0259silmi\u015fdir\u00bb.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, bu \u0259claf \u0259m\u0259liyyat\u00e7\u0131 onun ad\u0131n\u0131 ver\u0259 bil\u0259rdi ax\u0131. Onda istintaqda bu \u0259m\u0259liyyat\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n t\u00f6r\u0259tdiyi i\u015f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 ona c\u0259za veril\u0259 bil\u0259rdi (\u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259, \u0259g\u0259r beyn\u0259lxalq qurumlar qar\u0131\u015fsayd\u0131lar i\u015f\u0259). \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 ki, \u018ffrasiyab b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259laq\u0259l\u0259rini i\u015f\u0259 sal\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fc c\u0259za almadan onu c\u0259zaland\u0131ra bil\u0259rdi\u2026 F\u0259q\u0259t, bu onun ki\u015fi heysiyyat\u0131na toxunard\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc, ail\u0259sini al\u00e7alm\u0131\u015f bil\u0259rdi. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 o, \u00f6z\u00fc intiqam almaq ist\u0259di. Lap h\u0259bs olunsa bel\u0259. O, t\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259 ki\u015fi kimi girib, ki\u015fi kimi \u00e7\u0131xacaqd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2026\u018fm\u0259liyyat m\u00fcv\u0259kkili onun ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 qorxdu. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 lap yuxar\u0131 v\u0259zif\u0259d\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n qohumuna g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kindi. Onun ad\u0131n\u0131n hallanmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259m\u0259di.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab\u0131n b\u0259d\u0259ni ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 z\u0259rb\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n gizild\u0259yirdi. \u018fm\u0259liyyat\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n da z\u0259rb\u0259l\u0259ri g\u00fccl\u00fc idi. Ancaq \u018ffrasiyab onu ram ed\u0259 bildi.<\/p>\n

O, televizoru s\u00f6nd\u00fcrd\u00fc S\u0259mran\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc, balaca \u015eirini fikirl\u0259\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

T\u0259ki \u015eirin b\u00f6y\u00fcs\u00fcn, xo\u015fb\u0259xt olsun. O, art\u0131q Qara Qarayevin vals\u0131n\u0131, \u015eopenin prel\u00fcdl\u0259rini \u00e7al\u0131r pianoda. \u00abAncaq onun musiqi\u00e7i olmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259m\u0259zdim. S\u0259n\u0259t adamlar\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259yatlar\u0131 m\u0259\u015f\u0259qq\u0259tli olur. A\u011f\u0131r maddi durumlar\u0131 olur onlar\u0131n. Ba\u015f\u0131m \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131r bu u\u015faqda s\u0259n\u0259t\u0259, teatra h\u0259v\u0259s hardand\u0131r. H\u0259r h\u0259ft\u0259 m\u0259ni d\u0259, anas\u0131n\u0131 da teatra apartd\u0131r\u0131r. N\u0259 bizd\u0259, n\u0259 d\u0259 S\u0259mragilin ail\u0259sind\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259t adam\u0131 olmay\u0131b ax\u0131\u00bb.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab xat\u0131rlad\u0131 ki, \u00fc\u00e7 il bundan \u00f6nc\u0259 S\u0259mran\u0131 v\u0259 \u015eirini Tamaraxan\u0131mgil\u0259 aparm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fc telestudiyaya i\u015f\u0259 getdi. Onun \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn m\u00fc\u0259llif proqram\u0131 var idi. Verili\u015f \u00e7ox populyar idi. H\u0259min g\u00fcn \u018ffrasiyaba n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r z\u0259ng oldu. Ham\u0131 verili\u015fin \u00e7ox y\u00fcks\u0259k s\u0259viyy\u0259d\u0259 olma\u011f\u0131ndan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab\u0131n \u0259hval-ruhiyy\u0259si \u00e7ox y\u00fcks\u0259k idi. Kitab ma\u011fazas\u0131na gedib \u015eirin\u0259 r\u0259ngli kitablar, karanda\u015flar, sonra \u00abParf\u00fcm de Fransdan\u00bb S\u0259mraya \u0259tir ald\u0131. O, \u00abDiordan\u00bb olan \u0259tirl\u0259ri \u00e7ox sevirdi.<\/p>\n

Ancaq pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259ri \u00e7\u0131xanda q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitdi. \u0130ki pill\u0259k\u0259ni bird\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Qap\u0131n\u0131n z\u0259ngini basd\u0131. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131qlar\u0131 g\u0259lirdi qulaqlar\u0131na. \u018fs\u0259bd\u0259n qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6ym\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Qap\u0131n\u0131 S\u0259mra a\u00e7d\u0131. \u018ffrasiyab ayaqqab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xartmadan ota\u011fa ke\u00e7di.<\/p>\n

\u015eirin zalda xal\u00e7an\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 oturub, z\u00fcl\u00fcm-z\u00fcl\u00fcm a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259 olub? U\u015faq niy\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131r?<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u015eirin musiqi m\u0259kt\u0259bin\u0259 getm\u0259k ist\u0259yir, mama qoymur.<\/p>\n

\u2013 O s\u0259n\u0259t adam\u0131 olsa, m\u0259n q\u0259bird\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259r\u0259m, \u2013 \u0259s\u0259bi halda dill\u0259ndi Tamara xan\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab qaynanas\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt bel\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra s\u00f6yl\u0259di ki, bu g\u00fcn \u015eiringilin m\u0259kt\u0259bin\u0259 musiqi m\u0259kt\u0259bind\u0259n m\u00fc\u0259llim g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Musiqi m\u0259kt\u0259bind\u0259 oxumaq ist\u0259y\u0259n u\u015faqlar\u0131n adlar\u0131n\u0131 yaz\u0131rm\u0131\u015f, \u015eirin d\u0259 \u0259lini qald\u0131r\u0131b, ad\u0131n\u0131 yazd\u0131r\u0131b. Amma mama n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 ist\u0259mir \u015eirin musiqiy\u0259, s\u0259n\u0259t\u0259 alud\u0259 olsun.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131, \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n-g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc. Ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 kitablar\u0131, karanda\u015flar\u0131 v\u0259 albomu \u015eirin\u0259 verdi. U\u015faq sakitl\u0259\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Tamara xan\u0131m, \u015eirinin musiqi m\u0259kt\u0259bin\u0259 getm\u0259yinin n\u0259yi pisdir ki? Siz qorxursuz ki, Allah el\u0259m\u0259sin, ucuz \u015fou-biznes\u0259 maraq yarana bil\u0259r?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yox, sad\u0259c\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, s\u0259n\u0259td\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r uzaq olsa, bir o q\u0259d\u0259r yax\u015f\u0131 olar.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bizim el\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l qad\u0131n s\u0259n\u0259t\u00e7il\u0259rimiz var ki. El\u0259 Fir\u0259ngiz \u018flizad\u0259ni g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259k. Ka\u015f m\u0259nim q\u0131z\u0131m da el\u0259 b\u0259st\u0259kar olsun.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yox, m\u0259n qorxuram.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n siz\u0259 s\u00f6z verir\u0259m, Tamara xan\u0131m, \u0259g\u0259r onun b\u00f6y\u00fck istedad\u0131 olmasa, m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm onu musiqi m\u0259kt\u0259bind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xaracam. H\u0259l\u0259lik qoy getsin. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131 s\u0131nd\u0131rmaq laz\u0131m deyil. Anam da musiqi m\u0259kt\u0259bini f\u0259rql\u0259nm\u0259 il\u0259 bitirdi. Ancaq ax\u0131rda tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f fizik-alim oldu.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259ri Tamara xan\u0131ma t\u0259sir etdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bilir\u0259m ki, m\u0259n ist\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259, ist\u0259m\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259, s\u0259n bildiyini ed\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. S\u0259nin q\u0131z\u0131nd\u0131r. Haqq\u0131n var. Amma m\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259td\u0259n qorxuram.<\/p>\n

Bir an F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n sur\u0259ti g\u0259ldi g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin q\u0259n\u015f\u0259rin\u0259. Tamara xan\u0131m n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rini S\u0259mraya \u00e7evirdi. O, anas\u0131yla \u0259rinin m\u00fckalim\u0259sini dinl\u0259yirdi. \u00dcz\u00fcnd\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm var idi.<\/p>\n

Ert\u0259si g\u00fcn \u018ffrasiyab \u015eirini d\u0259rsd\u0259n sonra musiqi m\u0259kt\u0259bin\u0259 apard\u0131 \u2013 h\u0259m direktorla, h\u0259m d\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t etdi.<\/p>\n

N\u0259v\u0259sinin musiqi m\u0259kt\u0259bin\u0259 getm\u0259sin\u0259 Xuraman xan\u0131m \u00e7ox sevindi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259hay\u0259t, bu piano \u00f6z yiy\u0259sini tapd\u0131, \u2013 dedi Xuraman xan\u0131m.<\/p>\n

M\u0259cid m\u00fc\u0259llim d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, u\u015faq el\u0259 bir d\u0259n\u0259 \u00fcmumt\u0259hsil m\u0259kt\u0259bind\u0259 t\u0259hsil alsa yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Lakin Hiday\u0259t doxtur Tamara xan\u0131m\u0131n nigaran\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlay\u0131rd\u0131, q\u0259lbini bir narahatl\u0131q b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab S\u0259mraya z\u0259ng edib dedi ki, bu gec\u0259 ba\u011f evind\u0259 qalacaq, mamama da deyn\u0259n narahat olmas\u0131nlar. \u018ffrasiyab yata\u011f\u0131na uzand\u0131. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, \u0259m\u0259liyyat m\u00fcv\u0259kkili arxaland\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fck v\u0259zif\u0259 sahibi vasit\u0259sil\u0259 ondan ayr\u0131 c\u00fcr hay\u0131f \u00e7\u0131xacaq. V\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 da\u2026<\/p>\n

He\u00e7 bir ay ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015f telekanallar\u0131n birind\u0259 apard\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u00fc\u0259llif proqram\u0131 ba\u011fland\u0131. \u015eirk\u0259tin direktoru ona birm\u0259nal\u0131 \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 bildirdi ki, bu yuxar\u0131dan veril\u0259n tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131qd\u0131r. \u2013 A\u011fa deyir s\u00fcr d\u0259r\u0259y\u0259, dem\u0259k s\u00fcrm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u2013 S\u0259n lakeys\u0259n, ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n, lakey \u2013 jurnalist. Adam ki\u015fi olar.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u00c7\u0131x m\u0259nim ota\u011f\u0131mdan.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Q\u0259ssab. S\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt jurnalist olmayacaqsan. Q\u0259ssabdan n\u0259 jurnalist? \u2013 \u018ffrasiyab hirsl\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131b \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. \u0130\u015f\u00e7il\u0259r \u015fok i\u00e7ind\u0259 idil\u0259r. \u018ffrasiyab \u0259slind\u0259 onlar\u0131n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckl\u0259rini dedi, i\u015f\u00e7il\u0259rn\u0259n sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b studiyan\u0131 t\u0259rk etdi.<\/p>\n

Sonra onu q\u0259zet redaktorlar\u0131ndan biri yan\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 H\u0259r bir redaktor \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015f\u0259r\u0259fdir sizin kimi jurnalistl\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k. M\u0259n siz\u0259 y\u00fcks\u0259k maa\u015f v\u0259 qonorar v\u0259d edir\u0259m \u2013 ancaq bir \u015f\u0259rtim olacaq \u2013 bu m\u00fcxalif\u0259tn\u0259n he\u00e7 c\u00fcr bar\u0131\u015fa bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab d\u0259rhal \u015eu\u015fan\u0131n verilm\u0259sini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Televiziyaya m\u00fcsahib\u0259 ver\u0259n ordu komandan\u0131 \u2013 \u0259g\u0259r \u015eu\u015fa gets\u0259, m\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131ma bir g\u00fcll\u0259 \u00e7axacam, \u2013 dedi. \u015eu\u015fa getdi, ba\u015f\u0131na g\u00fcll\u0259 \u00e7axmad\u0131, he\u00e7 bir roqatka da atmad\u0131. \u0130ndi, ordu komandiri \u00f6z biznesiyl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011fuldur. Sonra ayr\u0131 m\u00fcxalif\u0259t n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259ri g\u0259ldi g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin qaba\u011f\u0131na \u2013 \u0259qid\u0259 dostlar\u0131n\u0131 pula, v\u0259zif\u0259y\u0259 satanlar.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n ist\u0259yir\u0259m siz bir n\u00fcfuzlu q\u0259l\u0259m sahibi kimi (o bir m\u00fcxalif\u0259t liderinin ad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kdi) h\u0259min adam haqq\u0131nda iri bir yaz\u0131 yazas\u0131z, onun mavi olma\u011f\u0131ndan v\u0259 s. Camaat siz\u0259 inanacaq. Deputatlardan birin\u0259 bu c\u00fcr tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131q verildi, o da deyildiyi kimi parlamentd\u0259 s\u0259sl\u0259ndirdi. \u018fv\u0259zind\u0259 d\u0259nizin q\u0131ra\u011f\u0131nda yeni istifad\u0259y\u0259 verilmi\u015f 14 m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li evin b\u00fct\u00f6v bir m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259si o deputata ba\u011f\u0131\u015fland\u0131, \u00fcst\u0259lik t\u0259z\u0259 \u0259n bahal\u0131 \u00abcip\u00bb, qohumlar\u0131na v\u0259zif\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bizd\u0259 deputatlar se\u00e7ilmir, t\u0259yin olunurlar, \u2013 \u018ffrasiyab aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n he\u00e7 k\u0259s\u0259 \u015f\u0259r ata bilm\u0259r\u0259m. Sa\u011f olun, \u2013 d\u00f6n\u00fcb getdi.<\/p>\n

Hardan d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc \u015eu\u015fa yad\u0131na? Niy\u0259 xat\u0131rlad\u0131 bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri? \u018ffrasiyab da onda 2 n\u0259f\u0259r jurnalist dostuyla bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin m\u00fcdafi\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259lin\u0259 silah ald\u0131. \u015e\u0259h\u0259r m\u00fcdafi\u0259 olunurdu ax\u0131, daha do\u011frusu \u018ffrasiyabgilin d\u0259st\u0259si \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin gir\u0259c\u0259yini qoruyurdu. Onda \u018ffrasiyab n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r qan g\u00f6rd\u00fc, \u00f6l\u00fcm g\u00f6rd\u00fc. \u00d6z\u00fc-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259rar verdi \u2013 \u00f6l\u0259n\u0259 kimi d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k. \u018ffrasiyab orada olanda d\u0259rk etdi ki, q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 bizd\u0259n \u00e7ox uzaqd\u0131. Niy\u0259 bel\u0259 oldu ax\u0131? Niy\u0259 ordu komandan\u0131 geri \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259k \u0259mrini verdi? Niy\u0259 geri \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259liydik? B\u00fct\u00fcn m\u00fcharib\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ir\u0259li getm\u0259k \u0259mri verilir, b\u0259s bizd\u0259 niy\u0259 geri \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259k \u0259mri verildi? V\u0259t\u0259n bel\u0259mi m\u00fcdafi\u0259 olunar?<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab bu suallar\u0131n cavab\u0131n\u0131 sonralar da tapa bilm\u0259di. \u015eu\u015fa itiril\u0259nd\u0259n sonra, k\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fcl\u0259r d\u0259 burax\u0131ld\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyabgil silahlar\u0131n\u0131 komandanl\u0131\u011fa t\u0259hvil verib, Bak\u0131ya qay\u0131td\u0131lar. \u0130ndi o jurnalistl\u0259r \u2013 biri Kanadada, biri Hollandiyada ya\u015fay\u0131r. H\u0259r ikisi deyirdi ki, v\u0259t\u0259nd\u0259n ayr\u0131 ya\u015famaq c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m \u0259zab\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab hesab edirdi ki, v\u0259t\u0259nd\u0259n uzaqda ya\u015famaq \u2013 intihara b\u0259rab\u0259rdir.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab \u00abgeri \u00e7\u0259kilin\u00bb dey\u0259n komandirin sin\u0259sind\u0259n yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u2013 Hara gedirik? \u015eu\u015fan\u0131 kim\u0259 qoyub gedirik?<\/p>\n

Ham\u0131m\u0131z burda qalacay\u0131q.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Ba\u011f\u0131rma, yoxsa t\u0259p\u0259n\u0259 bir g\u00fcll\u0259 \u00e7axacam.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Ki\u015fi d\u00f6ys\u0259n, vurmasan.<\/p>\n

Onlar \u0259lb\u0259yaxa oldular. Komandir avtomat\u0131 \u018ffrasiyaba tu\u015flayanda \u018ffrasiyab\u0131n dostu M\u00fcbariz \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc onun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 atd\u0131. G\u00fcll\u0259 g\u00f6y\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. Onlar\u0131 aralad\u0131lar. H\u0259r\u0259sini bir ma\u015f\u0131na sald\u0131lar. Onlar geri \u00e7\u0259kildi.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab \u0259yal\u0259t q\u0259zetl\u0259rinin birin\u0259 i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259ldi. \u00d6z\u00fc qabaqcadan \u015f\u0259rt k\u0259sdi ki, h\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 ancaq beyn\u0259lxalq m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 analitik yaz\u0131 ver\u0259c\u0259k. Redaktor raz\u0131 oldu.<\/p>\n

Q\u0259zet xarici donordan ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 maliyy\u0259 yard\u0131m\u0131 hesab\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, maa\u015f y\u00fcks\u0259k idi. H\u0259m d\u0259 Qafqaz universitetind\u0259 yeni a\u00e7\u0131lan jurnalistika kafedras\u0131nda m\u00fc\u0259llim kimi f\u0259aliyy\u0259t\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. H\u0259min il \u018flib\u0259y H\u00fcseynzad\u0259nin yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 dissertasiyan\u0131 m\u00fcdafi\u0259 etdi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra telekanallar\u0131n birind\u0259 ingilis dilind\u0259 h\u0259ft\u0259lik icmal apar\u0131rd\u0131. D\u00fcnya bank\u0131nda h\u0259m ingilis, h\u0259m d\u0259 alman dill\u0259rind\u0259 sinxron t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259 edirdi. H\u0259rd\u0259n ev\u0259 \u00e7ox gec g\u0259lirdi. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 \u0259cn\u0259bi qonaqlar\u0131 otel\u0259 m\u00fc\u015faiy\u0259t etdi. \u018ffrasiyaba z\u0259ng edib dedi harda olma\u011f\u0131n\u0131. \u018ffrasiyab s\u0259h\u0259ri g\u00fcn onu i\u015f\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa qoymad\u0131. Bank S\u0259mran\u0131n getm\u0259sin\u0259 raz\u0131 deyildi. Ancaq \u018ffrasiyab\u0131n q\u0259rar\u0131 q\u0259ti oldu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n ist\u0259mir\u0259m s\u0259n ki\u015fil\u0259rn\u0259n otell\u0259rd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259s\u0259n. H\u0259m d\u0259 sinxron t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259 s\u0259nin s\u0259hh\u0259tin\u0259 d\u0259 pis t\u0259sir ed\u0259 bil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mran\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131xd\u0131. Sonra onun \u0259riz\u0259sini \u00f6z\u00fc apard\u0131 banka. \u018fcn\u0259bi neft \u015firk\u0259tind\u0259n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 t\u0259klif S\u0259mran\u0131 da, \u018ffrasiyab\u0131 da \u00e7ox sevindirdi. T\u0259cili CV-ni g\u00f6nd\u0259rdi ora. On g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra \u015firk\u0259tin m\u0259tbuat xidm\u0259tinin r\u0259hb\u0259ri \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l bir xan\u0131m (deyirdil\u0259r o, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u00e7ox halal v\u0259 d\u00fczg\u00fcn adamd\u0131r) S\u0259mran\u0131 m\u00fcsahib\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Xan\u0131m v\u0259 yan\u0131nda daha iki n\u0259f\u0259r S\u0259mraya xeyli sual verdil\u0259r, s\u00f6hb\u0259t el\u0259dil\u0259r. Ax\u0131rda m\u0259tbuat xidm\u0259tinin r\u0259hb\u0259ri:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Siz sabahdan i\u015f\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcl\u00fcrs\u00fcz.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra \u00e7ox sevindi. Ayda iki d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259qal\u0259 verdiyi q\u0259zetd\u0259n o, \u00e7ox az qonorar al\u0131rd\u0131. Televiziyada da ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 pul \u00e7ox deyildi. Ancaq burada\u2026 \u00e7ox \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, h\u0259r \u015fey \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 olacaq.<\/p>\n

Uzaq, uzaq jurnalistikadan. M\u0259tbuat \u015furas\u0131n\u0131n ke\u00e7irdiyi sonuncu qurultay d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc yad\u0131na.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra sanki \u00e7irkaba batm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 \u2013 o n\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015flar idi, o n\u0259 publika idi. T\u0259kc\u0259 \u015eirm\u0259mm\u0259d m\u00fc\u0259llim h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi samball\u0131 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f etdi. Zalda oturan adamlar n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 S\u0259mraya Sovet filml\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc kolxoz\u00e7ular\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131. Qurultay da kolxoz idar\u0259sinin y\u0131\u011f\u0131nca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259tbuat \u015furas\u0131n\u0131n katibi \u0259lind\u0259 yaz\u0131l\u0131 v\u0259r\u0259q tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 adamlara yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b idar\u0259 hey\u0259tin\u0259 kiml\u0259rin ad\u0131n\u0131 qeyd etm\u0259yi xahi\u015f edirdi. Sonra adlar\u0131 he\u00e7 k\u0259s\u0259 m\u0259lum olmayan, \u00fcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259 jurnalistikadan uzaq olan adamlar \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f edib, h\u0259r k\u0259s ona ba\u011f\u0131\u015flanan ma\u015f\u0131n, pul \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259tbuat \u015furas\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259drin\u0259 minn\u0259tdarl\u0131q bildirirdi. Zalda reket \u00abjurnalistl\u0259r\u00bb d\u0259 oturmu\u015fdu. Onlar da \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f edib reketl\u0259rl\u0259 m\u00fcbariz\u0259d\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra qurultay\u0131n sonunu g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259di. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 bir bo\u015fluq, bir m\u0259yusluq vard\u0131. He\u00e7 c\u00fcr ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilmirdi ki, onu bu qurultaya niy\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131lar, kim \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Sanki bir \u00e7amurlu\u011fa bat\u0131b, \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab d\u00fcz deyir ki, \u00abjurnalistika reanimasiya d\u00f6vr\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015fay\u0131r\u00bb. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn x\u0259st\u0259xanada reanimasiyada yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131. Onda h\u0259m \u00f6z, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u018ffrasiyab\u0131n valideynl\u0259ri n\u00f6vb\u0259yl\u0259 yan\u0131nda qal\u0131rd\u0131lar. Bir gec\u0259 d\u0259 Tofik \u00f6z d\u00fcnya g\u00f6z\u0259li g\u0259nc arvad\u0131 il\u0259 onun ke\u015fiyini \u00e7\u0259kdi. \u018ffrasiyab g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 onlar getdi. Tofikin arvad\u0131 m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259 idi, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n 12-13 ya\u015f cavan idi. S\u0259mra onun CV-i g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u00c7ox g\u00fcman ki, neft \u015firk\u0259tind\u0259 hans\u0131sa sosial layih\u0259d\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. S\u0259mra onu ingilis dilini \u00f6yr\u0259nsin dey\u0259 ingilis dili kurslar\u0131na yazd\u0131rd\u0131. M\u00fc\u0259llimin pulunu S\u0259mra \u00f6z\u00fc verirdi.<\/p>\n

Tofikin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra S\u0259mra onlara k\u00f6m\u0259k edirdi, U\u011furun b\u00fct\u00fcn probleml\u0259rini h\u0259ll etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

1993-c\u00fc ild\u0259 F\u00fczuli rayonu erm\u0259nil\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n i\u015f\u011fal edil\u0259nd\u0259, Tofik d\u0259 \u0259lin\u0259 silah al\u0131b c\u0259bh\u0259y\u0259 yola d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. S\u0259lmi xala h\u0259r g\u00fcn a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. Ora Tofikin r\u0259hm\u0259tlik atas\u0131n\u0131n v\u0259t\u0259ni idi. bir ne\u00e7\u0259 il bundan qabaq Tofikin atas\u0131 d\u0259nizd\u0259 tufana d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. B\u00fct\u00fcn ekipaj m\u0259hv oldu. atas\u0131n\u0131n meyitini \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra tapd\u0131lar. B\u0259zi d\u0259niz\u00e7il\u0259rin meyitl\u0259ri \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmad\u0131. Onda Tofik israrla t\u0259kid etdi ki, atas\u0131 F\u00fczulid\u0259 d\u0259fn olunsun.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Atam m\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 deyirdi ki, \u00f6ls\u0259m, m\u0259ni F\u00fczulid\u0259, \u00f6z k\u0259ndimizd\u0259 \u2013 Veys\u0259llid\u0259 d\u0259fn ed\u0259rs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Tofik onu do\u011fuldu\u011fu yerd\u0259 torpa\u011fa tap\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab Hiday\u0259t doxturu g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb F\u00fczuliy\u0259 getdi.<\/p>\n

F\u00fczuliy\u0259 \u00e7atana kimi qabaqlar\u0131na ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 yaral\u0131larla dolu ma\u015f\u0131n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Tofikin atas\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259fnind\u0259n qay\u0131danda onlar\u0131n ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n qaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 iki \u0259li avtomatl\u0131 \u0259sg\u0259r k\u0259sdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Qurban olum, \u0259mi, burda yaral\u0131m\u0131z var, qan apar\u0131r. K\u00f6m\u0259k edin onu yax\u0131nl\u0131qdak\u0131 s\u0259yyar hospitala \u00e7atd\u0131raq. \u018ffrasiyab da, Hiday\u0259t doxtur da c\u0259ld ma\u015f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb yaral\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rmaqda \u0259sk\u0259rl\u0259r\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k etdil\u0259r. Dal oturacaqda ona yer el\u0259dil\u0259r. \u018fsg\u0259rin aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n qan\u0131 dayanm\u0131rd\u0131. Hiday\u0259t doxtur cibind\u0259n t\u0259miz d\u0259smal\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b \u018ffrasiyab\u0131n yand\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 al\u0131\u015fqan\u0131n oduna tutdu. \u018ffrasiyab da \u00f6z d\u0259smal\u0131n\u0131 yand\u0131rd\u0131, onun k\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259sg\u0259rin yaras\u0131na basd\u0131 Hiday\u0259t doxtur. \u018fsg\u0259rl\u0259rd\u0259n biri \u00f6z gimnastyorkas\u0131n\u0131 yaral\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

S\u0259yyar hospitalda \u0259sg\u0259rin aya\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 q\u0259lp\u0259ni Hiday\u0259t doxtur \u00f6z\u00fc \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131. Sonra h\u0259r ikisi yenid\u0259n c\u0259bh\u0259 x\u0259ttin\u0259 qay\u0131dan \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259rl\u0259 vidala\u015f\u0131b, Bak\u0131ya d\u00f6nd\u00fcl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Tofik F\u00fczulid\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n u\u00e7an qrad g\u00fcll\u0259l\u0259rinin alt\u0131ndan salamat qay\u0131d\u0131b evin\u0259 \u2013 anas\u0131n\u0131n, yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n, k\u00f6rp\u0259 o\u011flunun yan\u0131na. Ancaq F\u00fczulinin d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n al\u0131nmas\u0131 onun heysiyyat\u0131na, q\u00fcruruna toxunurdu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131r ya\u015famaq, demi\u015fdi anas\u0131na. El\u0259 bil F\u00fczulinin itirilm\u0259sind\u0259 m\u0259nim d\u0259 g\u00fcnah\u0131m var. \u2013 deyir S\u0259lmi xan\u0131ma. He\u00e7 c\u00fcr rahatl\u0131q tapa bilmirdi balam, \u2013 S\u0259lmi xala \u0259ll\u0259rini sin\u0259sind\u0259 \u00e7arpazlay\u0131b dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 h\u00fczr yerin\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259. Tofikim o c\u00fcr od-alovdan salamat \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131, burda adi avtomobil q\u0259zas\u0131nda h\u0259lak oldu. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n iki ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qeyd el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131q. B\u0259lk\u0259 v\u0259kil o\u011flum atas\u0131n\u0131n xiff\u0259tini el\u0259yirdi. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fc onsuz da az-az g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc \u2013 g\u0259mi Bak\u0131ya d\u00f6n\u0259nd\u0259. B\u0259lk\u0259 F\u00fczulinin d\u0259rdini \u00e7\u0259kirdi \u2013 o da\u011f\u0131lan, viran qalan F\u00fczulinin. M\u0259n f\u0259xr edirdim ki, balam v\u0259kildir. M\u0259n v\u0259kil anas\u0131yd\u0131m, ay camaat, indi he\u00e7 n\u0259 d\u00f6yl\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Durdu\u011fu yerd\u0259 d\u0259 adam\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n rulmu \u00e7\u0131xar. O\u011flum i\u00e7\u0259n deyildi ax\u0131.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r k\u0259s \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, anan\u0131 sakit etsin. \u015e\u0259kild\u0259n Tofikin nurlu, cazib\u0259dar sif\u0259ti sanki onu a\u011flayanlara deyirdi \u2013 biz g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yik. S\u0259mra \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc ona qaytaranda, Tofikin r\u0259ngi avaz\u0131d\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u2013 Eybi yox\u2026 Biz s\u0259nn\u0259n g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yik. Sonra da t\u0259l\u0259sik \u2013 \u00e7\u0131x get\u2026 ki\u015fil\u0259rin a\u011flama\u011f\u0131 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t olur. Get.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi S\u0259mra onu a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, Tofikin u\u015fa\u011f\u0131, ail\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ed\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini, ind\u0259n bel\u0259 S\u0259mra ed\u0259c\u0259k. V\u0259 el\u0259di d\u0259. \u018ffrasiyab da bacard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 edirdi u\u015faq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, S\u0259lmi xala \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. Ancaq \u018ffrasiyab\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 S\u0259lmi xalan\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fc k\u00f6lg\u0259l\u0259nirdi, qa\u015flar\u0131 d\u00fcy\u00fcml\u0259nirdi.<\/p>\n

\u2026\u018ffrasiyab valideynl\u0259rini itir\u0259nd\u0259n sonra Torqov\u0131dak\u0131 evl\u0259rini Beyn\u0259lxalq t\u0259\u015fkilatlar\u0131n birin\u0259 ayda yeddi min manata 10 illiyin\u0259 icar\u0259y\u0259 verdi, \u00f6zl\u0259ri S\u0259mran\u0131n valideynl\u0259rinin yan\u0131na k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fcl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Hiday\u0259t doxtur \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 \u018ffrasiyaba min d\u0259f\u0259 sa\u011f ol dedi ki, k\u00fcr\u0259k\u0259ni onun s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yer\u0259 salmad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018fyal\u0259t q\u0259zeti ba\u011fland\u0131. \u018ffrasiyab el\u0259 bil vakuuma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u018fll\u0259ri ka\u011f\u0131z-q\u0259l\u0259msiz dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Televizora ancaq boks oyunlar\u0131 v\u0259 futbol g\u00f6st\u0259ril\u0259nd\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130yr\u0259nirdi telekanallardan. Ora \u00e7\u0131xan adamlar sanki zonbiy\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Eyni s\u00f6zl\u0259r, eyni m\u0259ddahl\u0131q. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, Az\u0259rbaycanda \u015fairl\u0259r f\u0259xriyy\u0259l\u0259ri daha yax\u015f\u0131 yaz\u0131rlar, n\u0259inki adi \u015feiri. 3-4 n\u0259f\u0259r \u015fair, yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 istisna olmaqla ham\u0131 m\u0259ddahl\u0131qla m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olur. V\u0259 onlara c\u00fcrb\u0259c\u00fcr ordenl\u0259r, medallar verilir, xalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131, xalq \u015fairi ad\u0131 verilir. Q\u0259zet redaktorlar\u0131, guya m\u00fcxalif olanlar da (yen\u0259 1-2 n\u0259f\u0259r istisna olmaqla) sat\u0131n al\u0131n\u0131r, m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n sifari\u015fl\u0259ri h\u0259yata ke\u00e7irirl\u0259r. Art\u0131q m\u00fcxalif\u0259t q\u0259zeti hans\u0131sa m\u0259muru pisl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 \u018ffrasiyab anlay\u0131rd\u0131 ki, bu m\u0259mur v\u0259zif\u0259sind\u0259n ged\u0259c\u0259k \u2013 yuxar\u0131da bel\u0259 q\u0259rar veribl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 dostlar\u0131n\u0131n yeni q\u0259zet a\u00e7maq t\u0259klifini \u018ffrasiyab q\u0259bul etm\u0259di. El\u0259 bu vaxt Pol\u015fada ya\u015fayan dostlar\u0131 onu bu \u00f6lk\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u00c7ox \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, balan da bu \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r, xo\u015fb\u0259xtdir. U\u011furlar\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fidib sevinirik.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Fikirl\u0259\u015fir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mrayla s\u00f6hb\u0259ti \u00e7\u0259tin al\u0131nd\u0131.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n bu son h\u0259ft\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259r ke\u00e7irdiyimi g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n. \u00abAzadl\u0131qda\u00bb \u00e7\u0131xan m\u0259qal\u0259md\u0259n sonra m\u0259n\u0259 rahatl\u0131q yoxdur. M\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259qib olacam? N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259hdidl\u0259r\u0259 m\u0259ruz qalacam? Bel\u0259 ya\u015famaq olmur ax\u0131. M\u0259n jurnalist\u0259m, m\u0259n yazmasam, el\u0259 bil, ya\u015fam\u0131ram. K\u0259nardan seyr\u00e7i olma\u011f\u0131 da bacarm\u0131ram. Yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131q, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k namin\u0259 m\u00fcbariz\u0259 aparmal\u0131y\u0131q. \u0130st\u0259mir\u0259m simas\u0131z\u00adla\u00ad\u015fam. Bilirs\u0259n ki, m\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6z m\u00f6vqeyimi qorumu\u015fam. \u0130ndi m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tindir. Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f m\u0259ni. M\u0259n simam\u0131 itirm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m. \u00d6z\u00fcn jurnalistikam\u0131z\u0131n g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n ax\u0131. Q\u00fcrubdur, S\u0259mra, jurnalistikam\u0131z q\u00fcrub d\u00f6vr\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015fay\u0131r. M\u0259n \u00e7ox \u015fadam ki, s\u0259n vaxt\u0131nda getdin m\u0259tbuatdan.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n anam\u0131 t\u0259k qoya bilm\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt raz\u0131 olmaram ki, Tamara xan\u0131m burada t\u0259k ya\u015fas\u0131n. Onu \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczl\u0259 aparar\u0131q.<\/p>\n

\u2013 O, getm\u0259z. M\u0259n bilir\u0259m bunu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n s\u0259nsiz ya\u015faya bilm\u0259r\u0259m, S\u0259mra.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n d\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Onda fikirl\u0259\u015f, Tamara xan\u0131mla da dan\u0131\u015f. Bizim art\u0131q orada evimiz var. \u0130\u015fimiz d\u0259 olacaq. B\u00f6y\u00fck beyn\u0259lxalq media layih\u0259sind\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn t\u0259klif alm\u0131\u015fam \u2013 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 r\u0259hb\u0259r i\u015fd\u0259. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, o evi ald\u0131q.<\/p>\n

\u2013 S\u0259n getm\u0259.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n gedib i\u015fl\u0259rimizi qaydaya sal\u0131b, qay\u0131d\u0131b s\u0259ni v\u0259 maman\u0131 aparacam. \u018ffrasiyab getdi. Bu onlar\u0131n evl\u0259ndikl\u0259ri vaxtdan ikinci ayr\u0131l\u0131qlar\u0131 idi \u2013 bir d\u0259f\u0259 \u018ffrasiyab \u015eu\u015fan\u0131 m\u00fcdafi\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259, ikinci d\u0259f\u0259 Pol\u015faya getdi. \u00abH\u0259, \u00e7\u0259tindir onsuz ya\u015famaq. El\u0259 bil havas\u0131zl\u0131q \u015f\u0259raitin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m, bo\u011fuluram. \u00dcst\u0259lik mamam\u0131n s\u0259hh\u0259ti pisl\u0259\u015fir\u2026 Bir d\u0259n\u0259 onu Paris\u0259 aparsayd\u0131m\u2026 Qocalanda da insanlar el\u0259 bil u\u015faqla\u015f\u0131r. Mama Disney-Lendi g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u00bb.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra min k\u0259r\u0259 Allaha \u015f\u00fckr edirdi ki, onun arzusunu yerin\u0259 yetirdi. Onda Parisd\u0259 olanda, \u018ffrasiyabla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 onun he\u00e7 a\u011fl\u0131na bel\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259di ki, \u018ffrasiyabla bel\u0259 tez \u2013 he\u00e7 bir ay ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015f yenid\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r. Onda Tamara xan\u0131m\u0131n d\u0259fnin\u0259 \u015eirin d\u0259, yolda\u015f\u0131 Zaur da, balaca M\u0259ry\u0259m d\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 Tamara xan\u0131m\u0131n Qaza\u011f\u0131stan q\u0259bristan\u0131ndan g\u0259tirdiyi torpa\u011f\u0131 onun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 ham\u0131s\u0131 bir yerd\u0259 s\u0259p\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

Ax\u015fam adamlar da\u011f\u0131landan sonra, S\u0259mra onlara anas\u0131n\u0131n dedikl\u0259rini dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131, a\u011flad\u0131. Sonra onun verdiyi s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259ri \u015eirin\u0259 verdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Mama, n\u0259n\u0259m d\u00fcz deyir, \u2013 s\u0259n G\u0259nc\u0259y\u0259 get, bu onun son arzusu idi. O, yerin\u0259 yetm\u0259lidir. \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n, biz d\u0259 s\u0259nn\u0259n ged\u0259k?<\/p>\n

\u2013 Yox, laz\u0131m deyil.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n ora t\u0259k ged\u0259c\u0259m. \u018fslind\u0259 getm\u0259y\u0259 he\u00e7 mara\u011f\u0131m da yoxdur. Sad\u0259c\u0259 anam\u0131n xahi\u015fini yerin\u0259 yetir\u0259c\u0259m. \u018ffrasiyab siqaret yand\u0131r\u0131b, eyvana \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Zaur da, M\u0259ry\u0259m d\u0259 onun yan\u0131na ke\u00e7dil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u015eirin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 anas\u0131n\u0131n sin\u0259sin\u0259 qoyub, yava\u015fca p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Mama, bizim ikinci \u00f6vlad\u0131m\u0131z olacaq. Be\u015f aydan sonra.<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131, g\u00f6z\u0259l balam. Dodaqlar\u0131 qa\u00e7d\u0131 \u2013 anas\u0131 da ona g\u00f6z\u0259l balam deyirdi. Yeddi g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra \u018ffrasiyab da, \u015eiringil d\u0259 Pol\u015faya u\u00e7dular. S\u0259mra anas\u0131n\u0131n q\u0131rx m\u0259rasimini verm\u0259liydi, h\u0259m d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n k\u0259skin a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 ara vermir. Onu m\u00fcayin\u0259 ed\u0259n h\u0259kim \u2013 \u00abM\u00fctl\u0259q tomoqrafiya laz\u0131md\u0131r\u00bb dedi. S\u0259mra \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00f6nd\u0259ri\u015f yazd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Sonra g\u00f6nd\u0259ri\u015f onkoloji klinikaya yaz\u0131ld\u0131. Diaqnoz t\u0259sdiql\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259n sonra S\u0259mra G\u0259nc\u0259y\u0259 \u2013 anas\u0131n\u0131n son arzusunu yerin\u0259 yetirm\u0259y\u0259, \u00f6z bioloji anas\u0131yla, doq\u011fma qarda\u015f\u0131yla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 getdi.<\/p>\n

\u0130ndi s\u0259h\u0259rdir. D\u00fcn\u0259n \u018ffrasiyab z\u0259ng edib, dedi ki, sabah ev\u0259 g\u0259lir. Ert\u0259si g\u00fcn \u015eiringil g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k. Onlar\u0131n i\u015fi tamamlan\u0131b, ta oktyabra kimi bo\u015fdular.<\/p>\n

\u2026S\u0259mra yata\u011f\u0131n\u0131 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131. Saata baxd\u0131. \u018fqr\u0259bl\u0259r saat 11-i g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi. \u00dcr\u0259yi \u015fidd\u0259tl\u0259 d\u00f6y\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131 \u2013 b\u0259s t\u0259yyar\u0259 \u00e7oxdan enib ax\u0131 \u2013 \u018ffrasiyab niy\u0259 g\u0259lmir? \u00dcr\u0259yi gizild\u0259di. Z\u0259ng etdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Pol\u015fadan g\u0259l\u0259n t\u0259yyar\u0259 6 saatd\u0131r Bak\u0131da enib. He\u00e7 bir hadis\u0259-filan olmay\u0131b.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra d\u0259st\u0259yi yerin\u0259 qoydu. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259ni a\u00e7d\u0131, hamam ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7ib, du\u015f q\u0259bul etdi, sonra U\u011furu \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b, yax\u0131nl\u0131qdak\u0131 k\u00f6\u015fkd\u0259n m\u0259qal\u0259si \u00e7\u0131xan q\u0259zeti alma\u011f\u0131 xahi\u015f etdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bir on d\u0259n\u0259 alarsan, bala. \u018ffrasiyab z\u0259ng etdi \u2013 S\u0259mran\u0131n ayaqlar\u0131, \u0259ll\u0259ri \u0259sdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 S\u0259n hardasan?<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n ev\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131ram. G\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 ba\u015fa salaram.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra bilmirdi ki, \u018ffrasiyab onu narahat etm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, s\u0259h\u0259ri aeroportun g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259 zal\u0131nda a\u00e7\u0131b, sonra is\u0259 o, S\u0259mran\u0131 \u0259m\u0259liyyat ed\u0259c\u0259k m\u0259\u015fhur professorun g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 gedib.<\/p>\n

T\u0259xmin\u0259n bir saat onnula s\u00f6hb\u0259t edib, professor ona \u00fcmid verib. \u00abMetastaz ba\u015flamay\u0131b. Vaxt\u0131nda m\u00fcraci\u0259t edib. Ancaq \u0259m\u0259liyyatdan sonra m\u0259n siz\u0259 d\u0259qiq dey\u0259c\u0259m\u00bb.<\/p>\n

Az qala on g\u00fcn idi ki, professorla m\u0259ktubla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u018ffrasiyab bu m\u0259\u015fhur t\u00fcrk professoru haqq\u0131nda m\u0259lumatlar\u0131, r\u0259yl\u0259ri internet s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n \u00f6yr\u0259ndi. \u018fn g\u00f6rk\u0259mli m\u00fct\u0259\u00adx\u0259s\u00adsisl\u0259r onun haqq\u0131nda \u00e7ox y\u00fcks\u0259k r\u0259y s\u00f6yl\u0259yirdil\u0259r. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 \u018ffrasiyab S\u0259mran\u0131 Amerikaya aparmaq fikrind\u0259n da\u015f\u0131nd\u0131. H\u0259l\u0259lik da\u015f\u0131nd\u0131. Londondan qay\u0131dan h\u0259kim \u018ffrasiyabla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u00ad\u015f\u00fc\u00adn\u00fc bu g\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259yin etdi. \u018ffrasiyab \u015eiringilin aviabiletl\u0259rini \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 verib, \u00f6z biletini bir g\u00fcn qaba\u011fa d\u0259yi\u015fdirdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 \u00c7ox \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, Allah, m\u0259n\u0259 yen\u0259 \u00fcmid verdin.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab qap\u0131n\u0131n z\u0259ngini basanda, S\u0259mra art\u0131q geyin\u00admi\u015f, \u0259tirl\u0259nmi\u015fdi, g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 s\u00fcrm\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdi. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, sa\u00adbah x\u0259st\u0259xanaya \u0259m\u0259liyyata ged\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 bax bel\u0259c\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259\u00adn\u0259c\u0259k \u2013 \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 qoy g\u00f6z\u0259l olum\u00bb.<\/p>\n

U\u011furun g\u0259tirdiyi q\u0259zetl\u0259ri masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fczm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, bu onun yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 son m\u0259qal\u0259dir. G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di\u2026 \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn q\u00fcrubudur\u2026 \u2013 beynind\u0259n ke\u00e7irtdi. Qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab onu qollar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131nda s\u0131xd\u0131 \u2013 bax, he\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n qorxma. M\u0259n s\u0259ni \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn d\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259sind\u0259n qoparacam, e\u015fidirs\u0259n, s\u0259nin h\u0259kiminl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm, h\u0259r \u015fey yax\u015f\u0131 olacaq. Laz\u0131m olsa m\u0259n s\u0259ni \u0130zrail\u0259, Amerikaya aparacam. Ancaq s\u0259ni qoparacam \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn \u0259lind\u0259n. E\u015fidirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sald\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259s s\u0259n niy\u0259 \u015eiringiln\u0259n g\u0259lm\u0259din?<\/p>\n

\u2013 S\u0259nin professorun m\u0259nn\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fc bu g\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259r saat 10-a t\u0259yin etmi\u015fdi. Biz bileti sabaha alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q, \u0259m\u0259liyyat g\u00fcn\u00fc burda olma\u011f\u0131 n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tutmu\u015fduq.<\/p>\n

\u2013 G\u0259r\u0259k \u015eirini o v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 qoymayayd\u0131n g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u2013 O, \u00f6z\u00fc \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259di, a\u011flad\u0131. U\u015faq kimi. Zaur da onu t\u0259k qoymur. \u00c7ox yara\u015f\u0131rlar bir-birl\u0259rin\u0259. \u018ffrasiyab onun sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ox\u015fad\u0131. \u00abSa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259sr\u0259ti \u0259ll\u0259rimi g\u00f6yn\u0259dir\u00bb \u2013 ke\u00e7irtdi \u018fli K\u0259rimin \u015feirini beynind\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Bird\u0259n n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259ri masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoyulmu\u015f q\u0259zetl\u0259r\u0259 sata\u015fd\u0131. \u015e\u0259kild\u0259ki qad\u0131n S\u0259mraya nec\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259qal\u0259y\u0259 baxd\u0131. Sanki indi ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, \u015eirin niy\u0259 teatra, s\u0259n\u0259t\u0259 bel\u0259 meylli idi. Ax\u0131rda polonistika \u00fczr\u0259 m\u00fct\u0259x\u0259ssis oldu \u015eirin. \u0130ndi Var\u015fava universitetind\u0259 adl\u0131-sanl\u0131 m\u00fc\u0259llimdir, b\u0259dii t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259 il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011fuldur. Ke\u00e7\u0259n il bir az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131 qad\u0131n yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n \u0259s\u0259rini polyak dilin\u0259 t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259 etmi\u015fdi, universitetd\u0259 bu kitab\u0131n prezentasiyas\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259\u015fkil etmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

Ancaq sra\u011fag\u00fcn anas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn a\u011flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Q\u0259lyanalt\u0131dan sonra \u018ffrasiyab \u00e7antas\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131, oradan S\u0259mra \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259tri v\u0259 bir d\u0259n\u0259 \u00abZubrovka\u00bb ara\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Bundan birini d\u0259 s\u0259nin h\u0259kimin\u0259 verdim. \u00c7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l i\u00e7kidir \u2013 \u018ffrasiyab yataq ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7di. H\u0259kiml\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fandan sonra q\u0259lbin\u0259 bir rahatl\u0131q \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u0130ndi ne\u00e7\u0259 sutka yuxusuzlu\u011fun \u0259v\u0259zini \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra sabahk\u0131 g\u00fcn\u0259 haz\u0131rl\u0131q g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131 \u2013 pijama, xalat, duru sabun, di\u015f pastas\u0131, f\u0131r\u00e7a qoydu \u00e7antas\u0131na \u2013 \u00abB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 sa\u011f qalaram\u00bb. \u2013 Yen\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 ba\u015flad\u0131. \u0130ki h\u0259b \u00abspazmoqon\u00bb atd\u0131. Sonra maa\u015f kart\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 kodu yaz\u0131b komodun siyirtm\u0259sin\u0259 qoydu. Art\u0131q \u00fc\u00e7 il idi ki, S\u0259mra neft \u015firk\u0259tind\u0259 m\u0259tbuat xidm\u0259tinin r\u0259hb\u0259ri idi. Ke\u00e7mi\u015f m\u00fcdir o g\u00f6z\u0259l xan\u0131m art\u0131q \u015firk\u0259tin vitse-prezidenti idi. M\u0259hz onun t\u0259qdimat\u0131na \u0259sas\u0259n S\u0259mran\u0131 r\u0259hb\u0259r qoydular. O, U\u011fur \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bankomatdan pul \u00e7\u0131xardanda, hesab\u0131nda az qala yeddi r\u0259q\u0259mli v\u0259sait var idi. H\u0259m d\u0259 \u0259cn\u0259bi kiray\u0259ni\u015finl\u0259r d\u0259 illik pulu h\u0259r il oldu\u011fu kimi bu il d\u0259 qabaqca ke\u00e7irmi\u015fdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab ax\u015fam oyand\u0131. Restorana z\u0259ng edib xeyli q\u0259lyanalt\u0131, bal\u0131q, isti yem\u0259kl\u0259r sifari\u015f verdi. \u00abU\u015faqlar da sabah burada olacaqlar\u00bb.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Ax\u015fam ne\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259tirsinl\u0259r? \u2013 soru\u015fdu \u018ffrasiyab.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Saat 9, 10-un yar\u0131s\u0131na \u2013 b\u00fct\u00fcn gec\u0259ni oturar\u0131q.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Oldu.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab eyvana \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Siqaret yand\u0131rd\u0131. Eyvandan g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n d\u0259niz\u0259 baxd\u0131. D\u0259nizd\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u0259mi var idi. Onlar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 bir b\u0259yaz n\u0259h\u0259ng \u00abAz\u0259rbaycan\u00bb adl\u0131 bir g\u0259mi d\u0259 var idi. Ancaq onun i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 yanm\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fynin\u0259 y\u00fcng\u00fcl \u00e7it kofta v\u0259 a\u011f k\u0259tan \u015falvar geymi\u015f S\u0259mra onun yan\u0131na g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n

\u00abBu g\u00f6rk\u0259md\u0259 S\u0259mra lap cavan g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr\u00bb \u2013 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc \u018ffrasiyab. \u00abS\u0259ni \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn p\u0259nc\u0259sind\u0259n qoparacam, s\u0259n\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnyan\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259c\u0259m\u00bb. V\u0259 h\u00fcnd\u00fcrd\u0259n:<\/p>\n

\u2013 S\u0259n sa\u011falan kimi, biz Pol\u015faya ged\u0259rik.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n Az\u0259rbaycans\u0131z ya\u015faya bilm\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 B\u0259s m\u0259nsiz?<\/p>\n

\u2013 S\u0259nsiz d\u0259, s\u0259n bilirs\u0259n bunu. \u0130st\u0259mir\u0259m tale m\u0259ni bel\u0259 dilemma qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda qoysun.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bir bax \u00abAz\u0259rbaycan\u00bb g\u0259misin\u0259 \u2013 i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 yanm\u0131r. Bilm\u0259k olmaz, yanacaq, ya yox. He\u00e7 inanm\u0131ram yanma\u011f\u0131na.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mran\u0131n telefonu z\u0259ng el\u0259di. O, n\u00f6mr\u0259y\u0259 baxd\u0131. Tan\u0131\u015f deyildi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Alo, e\u015fidir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Salam, dan\u0131\u015fan R\u0259\u015fad M\u0259mm\u0259dlidir. Siz d\u00fcn\u0259n bizd\u0259 olmusuz \u2013 G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u2013 M\u0259n d\u00fcn\u0259n F\u0259xriyy\u0259 xan\u0131mgild\u0259 olmu\u015fam.<\/p>\n

\u2013 O, m\u0259nim anamd\u0131r. M\u0259n Bak\u0131ya iclasa g\u0259lirdim. Anam xahi\u015f etdi ki, sizi g\u00f6r\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mran\u0131n telefon tutdu\u011fu \u0259li \u0259sm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. El\u0259 bil, b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259n elektrik c\u0259r\u0259yan\u0131 ke\u00e7irdi. Anam siz\u0259 paxlava g\u00f6nd\u0259rib. D\u00fcn\u0259n siz t\u0259l\u0259sik getdiniz, anam ver\u0259 bilm\u0259di. M\u0259n sizi harada g\u00f6r\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m?<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra \u018ffrasiyaba baxd\u0131. O, g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di, yava\u015fcadan \u00abevd\u0259\u00bb dedi. S\u0259mra telefonun s\u0259sini b\u0259rk qoydu\u011fundan, \u018ffrasiyab onlar\u0131n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fidirdi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Evimizd\u0259. Yolda\u015f\u0131m da, m\u0259n d\u0259 sizi ax\u015fam saat 9-da bizd\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yik. S\u0259mra R\u0259\u015fada \u00fcnvan\u0131 dedi.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Oldu, xan\u0131m. Saat 9-da sizd\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n

\u2013 N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, qarda\u015f\u0131n g\u0259lir. \u00abZubrovkan\u0131\u00bb bir yerd\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259rik.<\/p>\n

S\u0259mra d\u0259niz\u0259 baxd\u0131. Art\u0131q qaranl\u0131q d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. S\u0259mra \u0259lini \u018ffrasiyab\u0131n qoluna vurdu.<\/p>\n

\u2013 Bax, bax, \u2013 \u00abAz\u0259rbaycan\u00bb adl\u0131 g\u0259minin i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 yand\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u018ffrasiyab g\u0259miy\u0259 baxd\u0131 \u2013 B\u0259mb\u0259yaz g\u0259mi i\u015f\u0131\u011fa q\u0259rq olmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

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(povest) G\u00f6zl\u0259rimin\u00a0i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131\u00a0\u2013\u00a0\u00f6vladlar\u0131m \u00a0\u018f\u015fr\u0259f\u00a0v\u0259\u00a0Aysel\u0259\u00a0h\u0259sr\u00a0edir\u0259m S\u0259mra t\u0259l\u0259sirdi. Ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, onu bioloji ana\u00ads\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na, do\u011fuldu\u011fu v\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131na kimi ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ev\u0259 taksi laz\u0131mi s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 aparm\u0131r. Paytaxt olmayan G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0131xaclar h\u0259dd\u0259n art\u0131q \u00e7ox idi. S\u0259mra G\u0259nc\u0259ni bu c\u00fcr t\u0259svir etmirdi, onun n\u0259z\u0259rind\u0259 bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259r ancaq q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 k\u0259rpic evl\u0259rd\u0259n ibar\u0259t idi. \u2013 Xan\u0131m, siz axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z \u00fcnvan burad\u0131r, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":8632,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8631"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=8631"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8631\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8633,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8631\/revisions\/8633"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/8632"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=8631"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=8631"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=8631"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}