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<\/a>Bu tarix \u00e7ox da uzaq deyil. Barmaq hesab\u0131 saysan, o g\u00fcnl\u0259 m\u0259nim aramda t\u0259qrib\u0259n iki aya yax\u0131n bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t boy g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 bu vaxt\u0131n boyu \u00f6z\u00fc-\u00f6zl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259 kiml\u0259rd\u0259s\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm yaradacaq. \u00c7\u00fcnki m\u0259n h\u0259min o zaman k\u0259siyin\u0259 az qala uzaq bir tarix kimi bax\u0131ram v\u0259 onu s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259yir\u0259m. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 g\u00fcnb\u0259g\u00fcn, anbaan bu da t\u0259sad\u00fcf deyil. Bunun da k\u00f6k\u00fcnd\u0259 bir \u00fcr\u0259k \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nt\u0131s\u0131 dayan\u0131r. V\u0259 m\u0259n…<\/strong><\/em><\/span>B\u0259li, qarl\u0131 bir g\u00fcn idi. H\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259f a\u011f \u00f6rp\u0259y\u0259 b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u0130nan\u0131n ki, h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fin a\u011fappaq oldu\u011fu c\u0259nn\u0259t m\u0259kanda bir qapqara x\u0259tt uzan\u0131b gedirdi. H\u0259min x\u0259tt is\u0259 magistral yol idi. \u0130nana bilmirdim ki, d\u00f6rd t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n diz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xan qar bu yoldan nec\u0259 t\u0259mizl\u0259nib… insanlar \u00f6z i\u015fini nec\u0259 m\u0259suliyy\u0259tl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcbl\u0259r… s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcl\u0259r d\u0259 nec\u0259 rahatl\u0131qla bu yolda avtomobill\u0259rini idar\u0259 edirl\u0259r… yolun k\u0259narlar\u0131 qarla y\u00fckl\u0259nib, yol \u00f6z\u00fc is\u0259 rahat \u015f\u00fct\u00fcy\u0259n avtomobill\u0259rl\u0259. H\u0259min avtomobill\u0259rin birinin s\u0259rni\u015fini d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259m. T\u00fcrkiy\u0259nin bir \u015f\u0259h\u0259rind\u0259n, daha d\u0259qiq ifad\u0259 ets\u0259m, Trabzondan \u00fcz\u00fc da\u011flara t\u0259r\u0259f gedirik. Dostum m\u0259ni arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u00fcnvana, Ya\u015f\u0131l Vadiy\u0259 apar\u0131r. V\u0259 m\u0259n h\u0259m h\u0259y\u0259canla, h\u0259m d\u0259 maraqla ad\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259r \u015feyi ifad\u0259 etdiyi bu yeri g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sir\u0259m. Bir q\u0259rib\u0259 deyim var. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 min il bundan \u00f6nc\u0259 deyilib, amma indiki m\u0259qama uy\u011fun g\u0259lir. Atalar deyir ki, “x\u0259st\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259l\u0259ss\u0259 d\u0259, armud vaxt\u0131nda yeti\u015fir”. Bax, bu m\u0259nada m\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259l\u0259ss\u0259m d\u0259, bu yerl\u0259ri n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r tez g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259, amma yol \u00f6z i\u015find\u0259di, uzand\u0131qca uzan\u0131r. Burda onu da etiraf edim ki, uzanan bu yol m\u0259ni yormur, \u0259ksin\u0259 m\u0259ni al\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 apar\u0131r. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 lap uzaqlara…<\/span>
O uzaqlar m\u0259n\u0259 burda bir az da yax\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, o uzaqlar\u0131n \u0259kiz tay\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n burda g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m, ox\u015far\u0131 il\u0259 burda qar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131ram. Sad\u0259c\u0259, m\u0259n bir m\u0259qam\u0131, bir x\u00fcsusi i\u015far\u0259ni burda qabartmal\u0131yam. O da yolun rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 geni\u015fliyidi. Y\u0259ni bu yol K\u0259lb\u0259c\u0259rin, \u015eu\u015fan\u0131n, La\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n yollar\u0131ndan rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 se\u00e7ilir. Qalan h\u0259r \u015fey oldu\u011fu kimidi – d\u0259r\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, t\u0259p\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, me\u015f\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259, h\u0259tta az qala u\u00e7ub \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259k kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n qayalar da. M\u0259n inan\u0131n ki, havalanm\u0131\u015f adam kimi bax\u0131ram bu m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259y\u0259. Yol dolamalar\u0131 \u015eu\u015fan\u0131 xat\u0131rlad\u0131r… A\u011fsudan \u015eamax\u0131ya qalxan yolu xat\u0131rlad\u0131r… t\u0259bi\u0259tin iki qarda\u015fa eyni c\u00fcr g\u00f6z\u0259llik b\u0259x\u015f etm\u0259si, eyni havan\u0131, suyu, otu, da\u015f\u0131, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yi, a\u011fac\u0131, bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6z\u0259llikl\u0259ri b\u0259x\u015f etm\u0259si s\u00f6zl\u0259 ifad\u0259 edil\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259tin bir \u0259z\u0259m\u0259ti adam\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na, qan\u0131na, ruhuna hopdurur. Burda \u00e7a\u015fmamaq, burda susub lal olmamaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 bu lall\u0131q dilin, doda\u011f\u0131n t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259si yox, b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n heyr\u0259t lall\u0131\u011f\u0131na \u0259sir d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sind\u0259n qidalan\u0131r. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 halda yaln\u0131z d\u0259lic\u0259sin\u0259 “N\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ldi!!!” dem\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fc. Bax, m\u0259n d\u0259 h\u0259min o d\u0259liliyin, o vur\u011funlu\u011fun, o heyranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 idim. Amma bir \u0259limd\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin i\u00e7in\u0259 y\u00fckl\u0259diyi \u00fcr\u0259yin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 idi, \u00fcr\u0259k partalmaq hal\u0131na g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki \u015eu\u015fan\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm, La\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm, K\u0259lb\u0259c\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm. \u00dcr\u0259k o g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rinin m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259sin\u0259 inanmaq zorunda qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Amma…<\/span>
B\u0259li, burda h\u0259r \u015fey do\u011fma idi. Amma bu, qarda\u015f\u0131n eviydi, qarda\u015f\u0131n da\u011f\u0131yd\u0131, qarda\u015f\u0131n \u00e7ay\u0131yd\u0131, qarda\u015f\u0131n \u00e7e\u015fm\u0259si, \u015f\u0259lal\u0259si, qarda\u015f\u0131n Ya\u015f\u0131l Vadisiydi. M\u0259n d\u0259 qarda\u015f ad\u0131na sevinirdim v\u0259 sevin\u0259-sevin\u0259 d\u0259 kiprikl\u0259rimin ucunda d\u00fcym\u0259l\u0259n\u0259n n\u0259mi gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. Amma bacarm\u0131rd\u0131m. \u00c7\u00fcnki misralar imkan vermirdi.<\/span>
Baxd\u0131m, fikrim dola\u015fd\u0131<\/span>
Yoldan saxlatd\u0131 m\u0259ni…<\/span>
G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 \u015feh bula\u015fd\u0131 –<\/span>
Da\u011flar a\u011flatd\u0131 m\u0259ni!..<\/span>
Qayalar g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259<\/span>
\u015e\u0259lal\u0259l\u0259r dizind\u0259…<\/span>
D\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259, d\u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 –<\/span>
Da\u011flar a\u011flatd\u0131 m\u0259ni!..<\/span>
Bulud ilm\u0259, nax\u0131\u015fl\u0131<\/span>
G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fli, h\u0259m ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131…<\/span>
Bir g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131z bax\u0131\u015fl\u0131 –<\/span>
Da\u011flar a\u011flatd\u0131 m\u0259ni!..<\/span>
\u00c7e\u015fm\u0259l\u0259r min bi\u00e7imd\u0259<\/span>
\u00d6p\u0259-\u00f6p\u0259 i\u00e7dim d\u0259!<\/span>
\u00dcr\u0259yimin i\u00e7ind\u0259 –<\/span>
Da\u011flar a\u011flatd\u0131 m\u0259ni!..<\/span>
Ayay\u011f\u0131na s\u0259rildim<\/span>
Vallah, \u00f6ld\u00fcm, dirildim…<\/span>
\u00dcmid verdi – kiridim –<\/span>
Da\u011flar a\u011flatd\u0131 m\u0259ni!..<\/span>
***\u00a0<\/span>
Yol uzan\u0131r… Biz aradabir ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yolun k\u0259nar\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kib dayan\u0131r\u0131q. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb g\u00f6zl\u0259rimiz\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdiyimiz m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259nin fotosunu da mobil telefonun yadda\u015f\u0131na k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcr\u00fck. Dostum f\u00fcrs\u0259t tapd\u0131qca m\u0259n\u0259 bilgil\u0259r verirdi. \u018fhm\u0259d b\u0259y az qala burdak\u0131 h\u0259r da\u015f\u0131n, h\u0259r a\u011fac\u0131n tarixini bilir, ya\u015f\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259rdard\u0131. Bu da m\u0259ni bir az da h\u0259m onun \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259, h\u0259m d\u0259 bu torpa\u011fa yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r. Y\u0259ni do\u011fludu\u011fu yer haqq\u0131nda h\u0259r \u015feyi bil\u0259n bir Allah b\u0259nd\u0259si bunu bilm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 t\u0259kc\u0259 bir m\u0259lumat kimi yox, h\u0259m d\u0259 bir \u00f6yr\u0259dici kimi x\u0131rdalay\u0131r. \u00c7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r ki, he\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6zd\u0259n yay\u0131nmas\u0131n, \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r ki, h\u0259r \u015fey onun m\u00fcsafiri \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcnk\u00fcl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259 bilsin, \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 apara bilsin. \u018fn maraql\u0131s\u0131 budur ki, o, s\u00f6yl\u0259diyi h\u0259r bir bilgini m\u00fct\u0259x\u0259ssis kimi yox, sad\u0259 bir insan, bir v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015f kimi \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131r. Bunun \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 h\u0259min t\u0259bii qaynaq t\u0259siri ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131r adama. El\u0259 bilirs\u0259n ki, s\u0259n art\u0131q bu bilgil\u0259rin i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259s\u0259n. Nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, \u018fhm\u0259d b\u0259y b\u00fct\u00fcn imkanlar\u0131n\u0131, bacar\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, m\u00fcsafirini bu torpa\u011fa yad kimi yox, do\u011fma adam kimi, buran\u0131n \u00f6vlad\u0131 kimi ba\u011flamaq ist\u0259yi il\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259yir. Bu da \u015f\u0259xs\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 daxili rahatl\u0131q g\u0259tirir, \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc burda q\u0259rib hiss etmir\u0259m. El\u0259 bilir\u0259m ki, \u015eu\u015fadayam, La\u00e7\u0131ndayam, K\u0259lb\u0259c\u0259rd\u0259y\u0259m. Sad\u0259c\u0259, yan\u0131mdak\u0131 \u015fu\u015fal\u0131, la\u00e7\u0131nl\u0131, k\u0259lb\u0259c\u0259rli dostum, qarda\u015f\u0131m yox, \u018fhm\u0259d abidi. Sanki o da m\u0259nim \u00fcr\u0259yimi oxuyur, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckl\u0259rmii, hans\u0131 hissl\u0259r ke\u00e7irdiyimi anlay\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lliverici bir t\u0259bb\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259 bax\u0131b deyir:<\/span>
– Abi, narahat olma, s\u0259ninl\u0259 birlikd\u0259 oralarda da g\u0259z\u0259c\u0259yik. Orda da s\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyi – bulaqlar\u0131, me\u015f\u0259l\u0259ri, \u00e7aylar\u0131 tan\u0131dacaqsan… Orda da m\u0259n \u015f\u0259kill\u0259r \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259m…<\/span>
B\u0259li, bu, onun \u00fcr\u0259yinin b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcn g\u00f6st\u0259ricisidi, bu onun \u00fcr\u0259k oxumaq, fikirl\u0259ri duymaq istedad\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259zah\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc. V\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 h\u0259m anlay\u0131ram, h\u0259m d\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n m\u00fctl\u0259q ger\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259\u015f\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 inanma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131ram. S\u0259mimi deyim ki, biz Ya\u015f\u0131l Vadid\u0259 bir \u00e7ay\u0131n k\u0259nar\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259ni seyr ed\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259n daxilimd\u0259 bir ikil\u0259\u015fm\u0259nin \u0259sirin\u0259 \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdim. \u00dcr\u0259yimin yar\u0131 hiss\u0259sinin h\u0259sr\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259kdiyim yerl\u0259r, yar\u0131 hiss\u0259sinin indi \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 g\u0259zdiyim bu torpaqlar\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi z\u0259bt etmi\u015fdi. O g\u00f6z\u0259llikl\u0259 o h\u0259sr\u0259t \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 inanma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. N\u0259hay\u0259t, dig\u0259r abim \u0130brahim hoca \u00e7ox t\u0259mkinli bir \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 dedi ki:<\/span>
– Abi, s\u0259n ikinci v\u0259t\u0259nind\u0259s\u0259n. \u00c7ox da \u00fcz\u00fclm\u0259. Bizim b\u00fct\u00fcn dualar\u0131m\u0131z m\u00fctl\u0259q \u00f6z yerini alacaq. Allah\u0131n k\u00f6m\u0259yi il\u0259 biz d\u0259 s\u0259nin m\u00fcsafirin olaca\u011f\u0131q.<\/span>
B\u0259li, h\u0259m Allah\u0131n k\u00f6m\u0259kliyi il\u0259, h\u0259m d\u0259 bizim irad\u0259mizl\u0259 o h\u0259sr\u0259t\u0259 son qoyulacaq. Buna m\u0259n seyr etdiyim, havas\u0131n\u0131, suyunu dadd\u0131\u011f\u0131m Ya\u015f\u0131l Vadid\u0259 \u0259min oldum v\u0259 el\u0259 ordaca onu da anlad\u0131m ki, bu g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi onun sakinl\u0259ri t\u0259kc\u0259 sevmirl\u0259r, h\u0259m d\u0259 onu qoruyurlar, onu daha da g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259, daha da cilalama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 onlar\u0131n sevgisi t\u00fck\u0259nmir, onlar\u0131n bu g\u00f6z\u0259lliy\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131, vur\u011funlu\u011fu \u015fax\u0259l\u0259nir. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, onlar el\u0259 bu yolu se\u00e7dil\u0259r. Y\u0259ni t\u0259kc\u0259 sevm\u0259k yox, h\u0259m d\u0259 o sevgini qoruyub art\u0131rmaq…<\/span>
G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, bizim \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u00fcnahlar\u0131m\u0131zdan biri d\u0259 o oldu ki, biz \u015eu\u015fan\u0131 sevdik…La\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 sevdik… K\u0259lb\u0259c\u0259ri sevdik… A\u011fdam\u0131 sevdik… F\u00fczulini sevdik… Xocav\u0259ndi sevdik… Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259, itirdiyimiz h\u0259r yeri sevdik. Amma o sevdiyimizi, o sevgimizi qorumad\u0131q, cilalamad\u0131q, \u015fax\u0259l\u0259ndirm\u0259dik. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 u\u011frunda \u015f\u0259hid olma\u011f\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcnl\u00fckl\u0259 bacarmad\u0131q… N\u0259 is\u0259….<\/span>
M\u0259n h\u0259min o Ya\u015f\u0131l Vadini seyr ed\u0259-ed\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmadan p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131\u011f\u0131m misralar\u0131 \u018fhm\u0259d b\u0259y el\u0259 bil yadda\u015f\u0131na yaz\u0131rd\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki o, ma\u015f\u0131nda yolumuzu davam etdir\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259min misralar\u0131n bir-ikisini m\u0259nim \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259di.<\/span>
Baxd\u0131m,<\/span>
baxd\u0131m\u00a0<\/span>
g\u00f6zl\u0259rim<\/span>
ax\u0131b getdi –<\/span>
Uzung\u00f6ld\u0259…<\/span>
Axan g\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259,<\/span>
durulan hisl\u0259rim\u0259<\/span>
l\u0259p\u0259l\u0259r p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131:<\/span>
– seyr etdiyin<\/span>
bu g\u00f6z\u0259lliyin<\/span>
i\u00e7ind\u0259<\/span>
h\u0259r g\u00fcn\u00a0<\/span>
do\u011ful da, \u00f6l d\u0259!<\/span>
Bil ki,<\/span>
C\u0259nn\u0259td\u0259 olacaqsan!<\/span>
***\u00a0<\/span>
\u0130nsan yadda\u015f\u0131na n\u0259yis\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr\u0259nd\u0259 y\u0259qin ki, ilk anda onun f\u0259rqin\u0259 varm\u0131r. \u00c7\u00fcnki yadda\u015fa k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 ilk anda n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, hans\u0131 m\u0259qs\u0259d, yadda\u015fa yaz\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldam\u0131r, b\u00fcruz\u0259 vermir. Bu, az qala mexaniki bir proses olur. M\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n zaman ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra, nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, s\u00f6z-s\u00f6z\u00fc \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nd\u0259, hans\u0131sa ox\u015far hadis\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259nd\u0259… Bax, onda yadda\u015fa yaz\u0131lan s\u0259sini \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131r, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6st\u0259rir. Onda ba\u015flay\u0131rsan yadda\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259y\u0259, v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259m\u0259y\u0259… Onda ba\u015flay\u0131rsan h\u0259min o yadda\u015f\u0131n kitab\u0131ndak\u0131n\u0131n mahiyy\u0259tin\u0259 varma\u011fa. M\u0259hz bundan sonra s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259m xo\u015f, h\u0259m d\u0259 nostlaji bir hissin he\u00e7 k\u0259sin e\u015fid\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yi musiqisi s\u0259sl\u0259nir. S\u0259n o musqini \u00fcr\u0259yinl\u0259 dinl\u0259yirs\u0259n, \u00fcr\u0259yinl\u0259 e\u015fidirs\u0259n. T\u0259bii ki, \u00fcr\u0259yin o qabiliyy\u0259td\u0259dirs\u0259. T\u0259bii ki, m\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck h\u0259rfl\u0259rl\u0259 yaz\u0131lan insan\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259tirib bu inc\u0259 m\u0259tl\u0259bi vur\u011fulay\u0131ram, o h\u0259ssas n\u00f6qt\u0259y\u0259 toxunuram. \u018fks halda, top s\u0259siyl\u0259 tar s\u0259sini f\u0259rql\u0259ndirm\u0259y\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bunun he\u00e7 bir \u00f6n\u0259mi yoxdu…<\/span>
B\u0259li, indi \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n iki aya yax\u0131n bir vaxt ke\u00e7\u0259n h\u0259min tarixi m\u0259n t\u0259sad\u00fcfd\u0259n xat\u0131rlamad\u0131m. Arxada qalan \u00e7\u0259r\u015f\u0259nb\u0259 ax\u015fam\u0131 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 dostlar\u0131mla y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. Oturub \u00f6t\u0259n g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259n, ill\u0259rd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131q. S\u00f6z s\u00f6z\u00fc \u00e7\u0259kdi v\u0259 dostlar\u0131mdan biri olan Mehman\u0131n s\u00f6yl\u0259diyi bir xatir\u0259 m\u0259ni m\u0259hz bu m\u00f6vzuya k\u00f6kl\u0259di. \u018fslind\u0259 Mehman\u0131n s\u00f6yl\u0259diyi xatir\u0259nin i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 var idim, m\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259hz onun diqq\u0259ti v\u0259 qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131yla h\u0259min o yerd\u0259, h\u0259min o m\u0259clisd\u0259, h\u0259min o g\u0259zintid\u0259 i\u015ftirak etmi\u015fdim. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 Mehman\u0131n s\u00f6yl\u0259dikl\u0259ri m\u0259ni t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n Ya\u015f\u0131l Vadiy\u0259, Uzung\u00f6l\u0259, M\u0259ry\u0259m ana monastr\u0131na, Zi\u011fana da\u011f\u0131na v\u0259 b\u00fct\u00f6vl\u00fckd\u0259 Trabzona apar\u0131b \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131. M\u0259n d\u0259 h\u0259min m\u0259clisd\u0259n sonra b\u00fct\u00fcn gec\u0259ni h\u0259min o t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcrat\u0131n, xatir\u0259nin i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 ili\u015fib qald\u0131m. Tam s\u0259mimiy\u0259tl\u0259 etiraf edim ki, h\u0259m Mehmana minn\u0259tdar oldum, h\u0259m d\u0259 o yerl\u0259ri gedib g\u00f6rm\u0259yim\u0259 t\u0259\u015f\u0259bb\u00fcs\u00e7\u00fc, s\u0259b\u0259bkar olan \u018fhm\u0259d b\u0259y\u0259! Ax\u0131 m\u0259n h\u0259min s\u0259f\u0259rimd\u0259 h\u0259m d\u0259 \u015eu\u015fan\u0131, La\u00e7\u0131n\u0131, K\u0259lb\u0259c\u0259ri “g\u0259zib” g\u0259lmi\u015fdim. Dem\u0259li, m\u0259nim h\u0259sr\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259kdiyim yerl\u0259rl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 xatir\u0259l\u0259rim d\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015fdi. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259hz Trabzonda yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir \u015feiri yad\u0131ma sald\u0131m.<\/span>
Asta-asta<\/span>
t\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259d\u0259n<\/span>
g\u0259zib dola\u015f\u0131ram<\/span>
he\u00e7 n\u0259<\/span>
v\u0259 he\u00e7 kimi<\/span>
axtarm\u0131ram –<\/span>
tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259ri…<\/span>
Sad\u0259c\u0259<\/span>
maraqla bax\u0131ram<\/span>
h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259<\/span>
v\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259 –<\/span>
yadda\u015f\u0131ma<\/span>
k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr\u0259-k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr\u0259<\/span>
g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rimi<\/span>
h\u0259m d\u0259 yan\u0131mdan<\/span>
\u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259ri…<\/span>
B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar<\/span>
h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131n\u00a0<\/span>
b\u0259lli<\/span>
bir Trabzon xatir\u0259l\u0259ri…<\/span>
H\u0259, bilmir\u0259m, bu xatir\u0259l\u0259rim sizl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r maraql\u0131 oldu. Amma tam s\u0259mimiyy\u0259tl\u0259 etiraf edir\u0259m ki, bu d\u00fcnyada Allah h\u0259r \u015fey c\u00fct yarad\u0131b, h\u0259r \u015feyin \u0259kiz tay\u0131, h\u0259r \u015feyin tam yar\u0131 hiss\u0259si var. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259ni d\u00fczg\u00fcn anlay\u0131n. M\u0259n g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rimi indinin \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, o m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259t\u0259 getm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n \u00f6nc\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. Sad\u0259c\u0259, orda g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rim burda g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rimin \u0259kiz tay\u0131 olmaqla yana\u015f\u0131 daha b\u00f6y\u00fck, daha \u0259z\u0259m\u0259tli v\u0259 daha co\u015fqulu par\u00e7as\u0131 idi. Tanr\u0131 o yerl\u0259r\u0259 q\u0131ymas\u0131n! Tanr\u0131 o yerl\u0259rin \u0259kiz tay\u0131n\u0131, ox\u015far\u0131n\u0131 qaytarmaqda biz\u0259 yard\u0131m\u00e7\u0131 olsun! M\u0259nim ist\u0259yim, m\u0259nim dil\u0259yim ancaq budur.<\/span><\/p>\n
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C\u0259nn\u0259ti g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259s\u0259n… Bu tarix \u00e7ox da uzaq deyil. Barmaq hesab\u0131 saysan, o g\u00fcnl\u0259 m\u0259nim aramda t\u0259qrib\u0259n iki aya yax\u0131n bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t boy g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 bu vaxt\u0131n boyu \u00f6z\u00fc-\u00f6zl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259 kiml\u0259rd\u0259s\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm yaradacaq. \u00c7\u00fcnki m\u0259n h\u0259min o zaman k\u0259siyin\u0259 az qala uzaq bir tarix kimi bax\u0131ram v\u0259 onu s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259yir\u0259m. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 g\u00fcnb\u0259g\u00fcn, anbaan bu da t\u0259sad\u00fcf […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":4132,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8803"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=8803"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8803\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8804,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8803\/revisions\/8804"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/4132"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=8803"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=8803"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=8803"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}