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\"anar\"<\/a>(hekay\u0259)<\/strong><\/p>\n

B<\/span>u n\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 teleqram idi: \u00abMuradov Oqtaya 29 Bak\u0131dayam Reys 203 Qar\u015f\u0131la\u00bb \u0130mzas\u0131z! 203-c\u00fc reysl\u0259 u\u00e7an t\u0259yyar\u0259 Moskvadan g\u0259lir.\u00a0<\/span>

Amma ax\u0131 kim ola? Moskvadan he\u00e7 k\u0259s g\u0259l\u0259si deyil.\u00a0<\/span>

He\u00e7 kimi g\u00f6zl\u0259mir\u0259m. Bu teleqram\u0131 kim vurub g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n?.. A\u011fl\u0131ma he\u00e7 k\u0259s g\u0259lmir.\u00a0<\/span>

H\u0259l\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, teleqram\u0131 anam al\u0131b. Bac\u0131m alsayd\u0131, g\u00f6r n\u0259 m\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ydi. D\u00fcz bir il m\u0259ni dolayacaqd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

S\u0259h\u0259r erk\u0259n aeroflot avtobusunun yum\u015faq k\u00fcrs\u00fcs\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0259r\u0259l\u0259nib \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 fikir el\u0259yirdim: yax\u015f\u0131, ax\u0131 m\u0259n kimi qar\u015f\u0131lama\u011fa gedir\u0259m?\u00a0<\/span>

Avtobus \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin yuxulu k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n ke\u00e7irdi. M\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k m\u00fcsafirim haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259r\u0259k p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n yatm\u0131\u015f \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri seyr edirdim.\u00a0<\/span>

Yava\u015f-yava\u015f yuxudan oyanan \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin s\u0259h\u0259r m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259l\u0259ri fikirl\u0259rimi yay\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 m\u0259n nam\u0259lum teleqram\u0131n m\u00fc\u0259llifi haqq\u0131nda q\u0259ti bir q\u0259rara g\u0259l\u0259 bilmirdim.\u00a0<\/span>

\u015e\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 s\u00fcbh oba\u015fdandan baxasan. Ancaq o vaxt \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin \u0259sl simas\u0131n\u0131, da\u015f simas\u0131n\u0131, da\u015f varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n.<\/span>
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Bu zaman \u015f\u0259h\u0259r \u00e7\u0131lpaq, adams\u0131z, h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tsizdir, yalx\u0131d\u0131r B\u0259z\u0259k-d\u00fcz\u0259ksizdir, s\u0259ssiz-s\u0259mirsiz, dan\u0131\u015f\u0131qs\u0131z, neon reklams\u0131zd\u0131r. Vitrinl\u0259r d\u0259 s\u00fckuta q\u0259rq olub, afi\u015falar da. Da\u015flar donub, susub, uyuyub.\u00a0<\/span>

T\u0259k-t\u0259nha bir piyadan\u0131n bo\u015f, adams\u0131z, meydana damc\u0131layan add\u0131mlar\u0131. Asfalt\u0131 nax\u0131\u015f-nax\u0131\u015f b\u0259z\u0259y\u0259n nar\u0131n ya\u011f\u0131\u015f – s\u0259h\u0259r ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

Moskvada v\u0259 \u00f6lk\u0259nin ba\u015fqa \u015f\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259 ya\u015fayan b\u00fct\u00fcn dostlar\u0131m\u0131, tan\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 x\u0259yal\u0131ma g\u0259tirirdim – yen\u0259 bir \u015fey \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

M\u00fcxt\u0259lif s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259r\u0259 k\u00f6r\u0259 – he\u00e7 biri ola bilm\u0259zdi. B\u0259lk\u0259 m\u0259nim Bak\u0131 tan\u0131\u015flar\u0131mdan, dostlar\u0131mdan biridir, Moskvadan g\u0259lir, yox ki, yox. He\u00e7 biri ola bilm\u0259z, birc\u0259 Ceyhundan ba\u015fqa.\u00a0<\/span>

Ceyhun ki\u00e7ik qarda\u015f\u0131md\u0131r. Moskvada memarl\u0131q institutunda oxuyur.\u00a0<\/span>

Vaxtil\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 oran\u0131 bitirmi\u015f\u0259m. B\u0259lk\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n Ceyhundur. Yox, ola bilm\u0259z, \u0259vv\u0259la sra\u011fag\u00fcn onunla telefonla dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam, ovqat\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259lx olmas\u0131ndan bildim ki, pulu yoxdur. Onun hal\u0131n\u0131 yax\u015f\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcm.\u00a0<\/span>

\u00d6z\u00fcm d\u0259 bel\u0259 v\u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 az d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Moskvada, evd\u0259n uzaqda pulun qurtara, illah da bayramqaba\u011f\u0131. Ceyhuna dedim ki, dar\u0131xmas\u0131n, pul g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259r\u0259m ona. \u00c7ox da olmasa, h\u0259r halda bayram x\u0259rcliyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn kifay\u0259t ed\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

Odur ki, \u00e7\u0259tin a\u011fl\u0131m k\u0259sir, bu s\u00f6hb\u0259td\u0259n sonra Ceyhun lapdan dura g\u0259l\u0259 Bak\u0131ya. Bir d\u0259 ax\u0131 g\u0259ls\u0259, daha ad\u0131n\u0131 niy\u0259 gizl\u0259dir?\u00a0<\/span>

A\u011fl\u0131ma bir fikir d\u0259 g\u0259ldi. Amma bu fikir – xam x\u0259yal idi. Qeyri-m\u00fcmk\u00fcn \u015fey idi, ba\u015f tutan i\u015f deyildi. Ola bilm\u0259zdi.\u00a0<\/span>

N\u0259 is\u0259, g\u00fcmanlar, f\u0259rziyy\u0259l\u0259r i\u00e7ind\u0259 vurnuxurdum ki, bir d\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm bizim avtobus aeroportun t\u0259z\u0259 binas\u0131na yan al\u0131r.\u00a0<\/span>

Bir memar kimi bu bina m\u0259ni he\u00e7 a\u00e7m\u0131r. M\u0259n, nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, k\u0259nc v\u0259 yenilik\u00e7i bir memar kimi var q\u0259lbiml\u0259 hiss edir\u0259m ki, binan\u0131n layih\u0259sini \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yi m\u0259n\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131rsayd\u0131lar, el\u0259 bir \u015fey tik\u0259rdim ki, ham\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q qalard\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

S\u0259rni\u015finl\u0259r bu binan\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi q\u0259\u015f\u015f edib trapdan y\u0131x\u0131lard\u0131lar.\u00a0<\/span>

Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259d\u0259n sonra a\u00e7\u0131q eyvanda dayan\u0131b indic\u0259 enmi\u015f t\u0259yyar\u0259y\u0259 sar\u0131 bax\u0131rd\u0131m. T\u0259yyar\u0259nin qap\u0131s\u0131na trap \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdil\u0259r, trap\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda h\u0259l\u0259lik t\u0259k birc\u0259 st\u00fcardessa durmu\u015fdu. Mavi kostyumlu st\u00fcardessa.\u00a0<\/span>

Sonra qap\u0131n\u0131n ha\u015fiy\u0259sind\u0259 k\u00f6k bir ki\u015fi g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc, ya\u015f\u0131l \u015flyapas\u0131 vard\u0131. Onun arxas\u0131nca cavan \u0259sg\u0259r g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc, sonra u\u015faql\u0131 arvad, ba\u015fqa bir qad\u0131n, ki\u015fi, qad\u0131n…\u00a0<\/span>

Aman allah! Xam x\u0259yal. Qeyri-m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olan \u015fey. \u00abOla bilm\u0259z\u00bb. B\u0259li, odur ki, var. A\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259l\u0259n v\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131mdan qovdu\u011fum fikir. Trapla h\u00fcnd\u00fcr bir qad\u0131n enirdi.\u00a0<\/span>

Yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 v\u0259 \u0259z\u0259m\u0259tli. Cavan v\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l. Sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n q\u0259rib\u0259 burumu, paltar\u0131n\u0131n qeyri-adiliyi d\u0259rhal onu ba\u015fqalar\u0131ndan ay\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259n onu bir an i\u00e7ind\u0259 – g\u00fcn\u0259\u015flik, qara eyn\u0259kl\u0259rini gey\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r tan\u0131d\u0131m.\u00a0<\/span>

B\u0259lk\u0259 bu geyimd\u0259, bu qiyaf\u0259d\u0259 \u00fcst\u0259lik qara eyn\u0259yi d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 olsayd\u0131, he\u00e7 tan\u0131mayayd\u0131m da. Amma tan\u0131d\u0131m – g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n tan\u0131d\u0131m.\u00a0<\/span>

H\u0259r ehtimala qar\u015f\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn s\u0259rni\u015finl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6z g\u0259zdirirdim, amma art\u0131q y\u00fcz faiz \u0259min idim ki, teleqram ondand\u0131r v\u0259 ipdi ora-bura d\u00f6y\u00fck\u0259r\u0259k m\u0259ni axtar\u0131r.\u00a0<\/span>

– Salam, – dedim.\u00a0<\/span>

– Oqtay, ay allah, m\u0259n d\u0259 dedim, b\u0259lk\u0259 teleqram\u0131m\u0131 almam\u0131san.\u00a0<\/span>

– \u015eeyl\u0259rin hardad\u0131r?\u00a0<\/span>

– He\u00e7 n\u0259yim yoxdur. \u0259zizim, tez m\u0259ni bir yerd\u0259 gizl\u0259t. Tez taksi tapa bil\u0259rik?\u00a0<\/span>

– Bu saat tapar\u0131q. Ged\u0259k. Xan\u0131m xarici k\u0259\u015ffiyyatdan gizl\u0259nir?\u00a0<\/span>

– Taksid\u0259 ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 dan\u0131\u015faram. He\u00e7 inana bilmir\u0259m ki, Bak\u0131dayam. \u018fzizim, amma s\u0259n he\u00e7 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259mis\u0259n.\u00a0<\/span>

Taksinin arxa yerind\u0259 oturmu\u015fduq, o, geri qa\u00e7an aeroport binas\u0131na, yola, h\u00fcnd\u00fcr \u00e7\u0131raqlara h\u0259rislikl\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

-\u018fc\u0259b qiyam\u0259t aeroportdur. Lal Beyrutdak\u0131 aeroporta ox\u015fay\u0131r. \u00c7oxdan tikibl\u0259r bunu?\u00a0<\/span>

\u2014 \u00dc\u00e7 il olar, – dedim. – B\u0259lk\u0259 bir dey\u0259s\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcm ax\u0131…\u00a0<\/span>

\u2014 Bu saat, bu saat, hirsl\u0259nm\u0259. Bilirs\u0259n s\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259yim\u0259 nec\u0259 \u015fadam. El\u0259 s\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259k\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m d\u0259…\u00a0<\/span>

\u00abBel\u0259 alsayd\u0131 n\u0259 vard\u0131 ki – dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm, – bu c\u00fcr xo\u015fb\u0259xtliy\u0259 inanmaq olar? \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 bel\u0259 asan?\u00bb\u00a0<\/span>

– \u00c7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l,- dedim. Yax\u015f\u0131, b\u0259s niy\u0259 bel\u0259 gizlin, sirli?\u00a0<\/span>

– \u018fc\u0259b i\u015fdir, – dey\u0259, t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi v\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131ya ke\u00e7di. – M\u0259n \u0259rli arvadam, ilk e\u015fqimin v\u00fcsal\u0131na g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m, deyirs\u0259n b\u0259s he\u00e7 bir sirr-zad olmas\u0131n?\u00a0<\/span>

\u018fsm\u0259r m\u0259nim u\u015faql\u0131q dostum idi. On il bir sinifd\u0259 oxumu\u015fduq. M\u0259nim qaba\u011f\u0131mdak\u0131 partada oturard\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

V\u00fcsal, ilk e\u015fq, filan… yaland\u0131r. He\u00e7 vaxt m\u0259n onun ilk e\u015fqi olmam\u0131\u015fam. O da m\u0259nim. D\u00fczd\u00fc, bir az xo\u015fuma g\u0259lirdi. Nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, bir az k\u0259sirdim ondan. Amma ilk m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t-filan…\u00a0<\/span>

He\u00e7 yad\u0131ma g\u0259lmir, m\u0259nim ilk m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tim olub, yoxsa yox…\u00a0<\/span>

– Nec\u0259 ba\u015fa sal\u0131m? Bu yax\u0131nda Bolqar\u0131standan qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015f\u0131q. Camal\u0131 Yax\u0131n \u015e\u0259rq \u00f6lk\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n birin\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rirl\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

Camal onun \u0259ridir. B\u00f6y\u00fck diplomatd\u0131r. Do\u011frudan, m\u0259cazi yox, h\u0259rfi m\u0259nada.\u00a0<\/span>

Yalan\u00e7\u0131lar s\u00f6z\u00fc, Avropan\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00f6lk\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yib. Az qala s\u0259firdi, atta\u015fedi n\u0259di. Yox, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259, s\u0259fir yox, amma ax\u0131r vaxtlar dey\u0259s\u0259n, do\u011frudan da atta\u015fe i\u015fl\u0259yirdi.\u00a0<\/span>

Adamlarda q\u0259rib\u0259 bir xasiyy\u0259t var – bir-biriyl\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259l\u0259rini dramatik \u015fablon \u00fczr\u0259 qururlar. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n, \u0259vv\u0259l m\u0259n filank\u0259s haqq\u0131nda \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 fikird\u0259 idim, sonra onu tan\u0131d\u0131m, g\u00f6rd\u00fcm n\u0259 yuvan\u0131n qu\u015fudur.\u00a0<\/span>

V\u0259 yaxud: \u0259vv\u0259l o m\u0259ni a\u00e7mad\u0131, amma sonra g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, q\u0131z\u0131l kimi adamd\u0131r.\u00a0<\/span>

Bu \u015fablonun, bu sxemin s\u0259b\u0259bi, m\u0259nc\u0259, ondad\u0131r ki, h\u0259r adam s\u00f6vqi-t\u0259bii bir dramaturqdur. H\u0259r adamda dramatik inki\u015faf ehtiyac\u0131, xarakteri a\u00e7maq, s\u00fccet h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti yaratmaq, n\u0259 bilim daha n\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131 var.\u00a0<\/span>

O ki, qald\u0131 Camalla m\u0259nim m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rim\u0259 – burda he\u00e7 bir dramatik inki\u015faf, d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259, xarakterin a\u00e7\u0131lmas\u0131 v\u0259 bu kimi \u015feyl\u0259r yox idi. \u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n Camal m\u0259ni a\u00e7mad\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

Ondan sonra da he\u00e7 vaxt fikrimi d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259dim. Xo\u015fuma g\u0259lm\u0259di, v\u0259ssalam, bir d\u0259f\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259di v\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259, daima g\u0259lmirdi… Y\u0259ni s\u00f6z\u00fcn d\u00fcz\u00fc, ax\u0131r vaxtlar son yeddi-s\u0259kkiz ild\u0259 he\u00e7 onunla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mi\u015fdik d\u0259.\u00a0<\/span>

Bir d\u0259f\u0259 \u00f6t\u0259ri, Moskvada ona rast g\u0259ldim. Dedi ki, \u018fsm\u0259r do\u011fum evind\u0259dir. V\u0259li\u0259hd g\u00f6zl\u0259yirik. Yad\u0131mdad\u0131r, el\u0259 bel\u0259c\u0259 dedi: v\u0259li\u0259hd g\u00f6zl\u0259yirik.\u00a0<\/span>

Sonralar Bak\u0131da bildim ki, q\u0131zlar\u0131 olub.\u00a0<\/span>

\u018fsm\u0259r Bak\u0131 torpa\u011f\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259can, bir q\u0259d\u0259r s\u00fcni, bir qad\u0259r qeyri-t\u0259bii \u00e7\u0131l\u011f\u0131nl\u0131q vard\u0131, amma indi yava\u015f-yava\u015f bu h\u0259y\u0259\u00e7an, bu \u00e7\u0131l\u011f\u0131nl\u0131q qrim t\u0259kin onun \u00fcz\u00fcndan yuyulub-silinir, yerin\u0259: azac\u0131q \u0259s\u0259bi nigaranl\u0131q ifad\u0259si g\u0259lirdi.\u00a0<\/span>

Amma, kim bilir, b\u0259lk\u0259 bu da onun maskalar\u0131ndan biri idi. S\u0259nin ne\u00e7\u0259 maskan var, – dey\u0259 vaxtil\u0259 m\u0259n ondan x\u0259b\u0259r alard\u0131m.\u00a0<\/span>

O vaxtlar, m\u0259nim bel\u0259 suallar verm\u0259k ya\u015f\u0131m \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, amma bu suallara \u00f6z\u00fcm cavab tapmaq vaxt\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131da idi.\u00a0<\/span>

– Bura bax, – dey\u0259 o, h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 s\u00fckutu, pozdu, amma bu h\u0259v\u0259s \u00f6z\u00fc bir q\u0259d\u0259r saxta idi, – bilirs\u0259n, ham\u0131dan qa\u00e7m\u0131\u015fam. \u018frimd\u0259n, q\u0131z\u0131mdan, dostlar\u0131mdan, h\u0259tta d\u0259rzimd\u0259n – bu g\u00fcn g\u0259r\u0259k onun yan\u0131na ged\u0259ydim.\u00a0<\/span>

D\u00fczd\u00fc, tamam, qa\u00e7mam\u0131\u015fam, birc\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u0259. Gec\u0259 u\u00e7uram geri. G\u0259ldim s\u0259nin ad g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259brik ed\u0259m, amma g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259n \u00e7ox da el\u0259 sevinmirs\u0259n.\u00a0<\/span>

– Bo\u015fla g\u00f6r\u0259k, h\u0259ddind\u0259n art\u0131q \u015fadam ki, g\u0259lmis\u0259n. F\u0259dakarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da laz\u0131m\u0131nca qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndirir\u0259m, h\u0259m d\u0259 ki, hadis\u0259l\u0259ri qabaqlay\u0131rsan. M\u0259nim bu fani d\u00fcnyaya q\u0259d\u0259m basd\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcn bu g\u00fcn deyil, sabahd\u0131r.\u00a0<\/span>

– Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni sabah? Bu g\u00fcn 29-u deyil?\u00a0<\/span>

– El\u0259dir. Amma m\u0259n 30-da anadan olmu\u015fam. 1 May bayram\u0131na h\u0259diyy\u0259 kimi.\u00a0<\/span>

– Yox, – bu s\u00f6z\u00fc el\u0259 q\u0259ti dedi ki, az qala m\u0259ni d\u0259 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259y\u0259 sald\u0131, m\u0259nim lap yax\u015f\u0131 yad\u0131mdad\u0131r ki, siz\u0259 ay\u0131n 29-da g\u0259lmi\u015fdim.\u00a0<\/span>

\u00ab\u0130lahi, g\u00f6r n\u0259yi yad\u0131nda saxlay\u0131b? – dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm v\u0259 hiss etdim ki, q\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259nir\u0259m.\u00a0<\/span>

Q\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259nirdim ki, bu qad\u0131n, indi m\u0259n\u0259 tamamil\u0259 yad olan bu qad\u0131n, Diorun geyiml\u0259ril\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259nmi\u015f bu qranddama m\u0259nim ba\u015f tutmam\u0131\u015f ilk sevdam – uzaq v\u0259 unudulmu\u015f u\u015faql\u0131q r\u0259fiq\u0259m o ax\u015fam\u0131, 29 aprel ax\u015fam\u0131n\u0131, ill\u0259rin, \u00f6lk\u0259l\u0259rin, yad \u00fczl\u0259rin, yad s\u00f6zl\u0259rin i\u00e7ind\u0259n ke\u00e7irib saxlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131r.\u00a0<\/span>

Lap m\u0259nim \u00f6z\u00fcm t\u0259ki. Ax\u0131 m\u0259n d\u0259 o ax\u015fam\u0131 dola\u015f\u0131q \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcn ill\u0259ri, g\u00fcnl\u0259ri i\u00e7ind\u0259 itirib atmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. \u0130ndi d\u0259 o ax\u015fam – r\u0259ngl\u0259ri, s\u0259sl\u0259ri, qoxular\u0131yla birlikd\u0259 i\u00e7imd\u0259dir. O il biz m\u0259kt\u0259bi bitirirdik, anam icaz\u0259 verdi ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn sinfimizi qonaq \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131m.\u00a0<\/span>

Ad g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc d\u0259 30-dan 29-a, \u015f\u0259nb\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u0259 ke\u00e7irtdik. \u0130ndi ne\u00e7\u0259 ill\u0259rd\u0259n sonra o ax\u015fam burada taksid\u0259 bizim aram\u0131zda – \u018fsm\u0259rl\u0259 m\u0259nim aramda idi. O ax\u015fam \u018fsm\u0259rin m\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259tirdiyi n\u0259rgizl\u0259r, bir d\u0259 onun q\u0131sa vurulmu\u015f sa\u00e7lar\u0131. M\u0259hz o ax\u015fam \u018fsm\u0259r u\u015faql\u0131q ill\u0259rinin uzun h\u00f6r\u00fckl\u0259rini k\u0259sdirmi\u015fdi.\u00a0<\/span>

Yad\u0131mdad\u0131r, bizim riyaziyyat m\u00fc\u0259llimimiz Babayev l\u00f6vh\u0259nin qaba\u011f\u0131nda biz\u0259 teoremi izah ed\u0259rk\u0259n q\u0259filc\u0259n susard\u0131, fikr\u0259 ged\u0259rdi, sonra \u0259zb\u0259rd\u0259n \u00d6m\u0259r X\u0259yyam\u0131n, ya F\u00fczulinin bir beytini dey\u0259rdi.\u00a0<\/span>

O, \u015e\u0259rq poeziyas\u0131n\u0131n bilicisi, a\u015fiqi idi. \u018fsm\u0259rin uzun h\u00f6r\u00fckl\u0259rin\u0259 o, – \u015e\u0259bi Yelda dey\u0259rdi Sonra da biz\u0259 ba\u015fa salard\u0131 ki, \u015e\u0259bi Yelda ilin \u0259n uzun kec\u0259si – 22 dekabr kec\u0259sidir.\u00a0<\/span>

\u018fsm\u0259rin sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 q\u0131sa k\u0259silmi\u015f g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 ki\u015finin az qald\u0131 dili tutulsun. D\u00fcz bir h\u0259ft\u0259 d\u0259rsd\u0259 ancaq riyaziyyatla m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olduq. Babayev indi ancaq teoreml\u0259r isbat edir, h\u0259ll etdiyimiz m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259ri yoxlay\u0131r, tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131qlar verirdi.\u00a0<\/span>

Bir h\u0259ft\u0259 sonra l\u00f6vh\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda yen\u0259 bir teoremi izah ed\u0259rk\u0259n. O, bird\u0259n dayand\u0131, biz\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7evrildi v\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259r\u0259 baxd\u0131: – \u0130ndi s\u0259nin sa\u00e7lar\u0131n 22 iyun gec\u0259sidir, – dedi.\u00a0<\/span>

Bu obraz\u0131n \u015e\u0259rq poeziyas\u0131na he\u00e7 bir d\u0259xli yox idi. Onu bizim riyaziyyat m\u00fc\u0259llimimiz icad etmi\u015fdi.\u00a0<\/span>

\u018fntiq\u0259 ki\u015fi idi Babayev. K\u00f6k, yek\u0259p\u0259r, \u00fcr\u0259yia\u00e7\u0131q, gah hirsli, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259, gah xo\u015f, mehriban, gah ac\u0131ql\u0131, gah \u015f\u0259n. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259sli-k\u00fcyl\u00fc. Amma \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 sakit \u00f6ld\u00fc. Sakit v\u0259 s\u0259s-k\u00fcys\u00fcz.\u00a0<\/span>

S\u0259ssiz-s\u0259mirsiz dayanan saat kimi. \u00c7oxumuz onun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc ne\u00e7\u0259 ay ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra bildik. Bel\u0259 uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259n sonra ba\u015fsa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131na getm\u0259k g\u00fcl\u00fcnc \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131. Getm\u0259dim.\u00a0<\/span>

– S\u0259n bildin ki, Babayev \u00f6l\u00fcb?!\u00a0<\/span>

O, q\u0259ml\u0259nm\u0259di, el\u0259 bel\u0259 – \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259r maskas\u0131 taxd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

– H\u0259, yaz\u0131q. Camal dedi m\u0259n\u0259.\u00a0<\/span>

– Camal da bizim m\u00fc\u0259llimimiz idi. O bizim m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 biz doqquzuncu sinifd\u0259 idik. Camal bizd\u0259n vur-tut yeddi-s\u0259kkiz ya\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fck idi. Biz\u0259 ingilis dili d\u0259rsi deyirdi.\u00a0<\/span>

– Yax\u015f\u0131, bir dan\u0131\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcm n\u0259 var, n\u0259 yox. Nec\u0259 ke\u00e7ir \u00f6mr\u00fcn?\u00a0<\/span>

– Bel\u0259 d\u0259, – dey\u0259 h\u0259v\u0259ssiz cavab verdim v\u0259 hiss etdim ki, cavab\u0131m\u0131n soyuqlu\u011fu ona toxundu, odur ki, d\u0259rhal soru\u015fdum:\u00a0<\/span>

– S\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f. S\u0259n nec\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rsan?\u00a0<\/span>

– \u018fla – dedi. – \u018fladan da \u0259la. \u018fsas etibaril\u0259 xaricd\u0259 \u00f6m\u00fcr ke\u00e7iririk. Amma Moskvada da h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131z \u0259la ke\u00e7ir. Yeni evd\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 otaql\u0131 m\u0259nzil. Telefonu, alt\u0131nda qarac\u0131, vannada qara kafel, d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259si plastik…\u00a0<\/span>

– S\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 olub? Niy\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131san. M\u0259g\u0259r m\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 bir \u015fey dedim?\u00a0<\/span>

– Ah, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259ssass\u0131n\u0131z. Q\u0259lbiniz n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r inc\u0259dir. Bir \u015fey dedim? Daha n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n? Dur bir s\u00f6y d\u0259 m\u0259ni. Bir buna bax, s\u0259n allah. M\u0259n at\u0131la-at\u0131la ordan durub g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m bura, el\u0259 bilirs\u0259n asan m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 idi m\u0259nim\u00fcun?\u00a0<\/span>

G\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m ki, o uzaq ax\u015fam\u0131 qaytar\u0131m, o ax\u015fam \u00f6mr\u00fcmun \u0259n xo\u015f g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259n biri idi. Bu c\u0259nab is\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0259kib oturub, qoyub \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc da\u011f ba\u015f\u0131na, he\u00e7 bu g\u00fcn ad g\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 deyil.\u00a0<\/span>

M\u0259n g\u00fcld\u00fcm.\u00a0<\/span>

– \u018fzizim, – dedim, – inan ki, s\u0259nin g\u0259lm\u0259yin\u0259 d\u00fcnyalarca sevinir\u0259m. Bu m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn bayramd\u0131r, \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l h\u0259diyy\u0259dir. S\u0259mimi deyir\u0259m. Amma m\u0259n yaz\u0131q, m\u0259n bi\u00e7ar\u0259 neyl\u0259yim ki, d\u00fcnyaya bu g\u00fcn yox, sabah g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m.\u00a0<\/span>

\u018f\u015fi, bunun n\u0259 \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259ti var? \u018fsas odur ki, s\u0259n g\u0259lmis\u0259n. Bir \u015fey dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131rsan ax\u0131, el\u0259 sirli g\u00f6rk\u0259min var ki, m\u0259n d\u0259 qorxuram bir \u015fey soru\u015fum.\u00a0<\/span>

– Yax\u015f\u0131, qulaq – Bu, yeni bir maska idi. Qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131zl\u0131q, \u015f\u0259n, o\u011flanvari \u015f\u0131ltaql\u0131q maskas\u0131. – Moskvadak\u0131, bolqar atta\u015fesinin arvad\u0131 \u00e7oxdand\u0131r m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259klif edirdi ki, Zaqorska ged\u0259k. M\u0259n d\u0259 raz\u0131l\u0131q verdim, sonra bir r\u0259fiq\u0259mi ona qo\u015fdum, \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 g\u0259ldim bura.\u00a0<\/span>

– Allah, s\u0259n saxla, birc\u0259 diplomatik \u0259ng\u0259ll\u0259r \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

– He\u00e7 bir \u0259ng\u0259l-flan yoxdur. Biz Camalla \u00e7oxdan Bak\u0131ya g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131r\u0131q. Bilirs\u0259n ne\u00e7\u0259 ildir burdan \u00e7\u0131xan\u0131q. Bura g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k az\u0131 bir ay qohumlara-tan\u0131\u015flara qonaq ged\u0259k. Bir d\u0259 ax\u0131 ne\u00e7\u0259 il xaricd\u0259 ya\u015fayandan sonra g\u0259lirik, ad\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fcr.\u00a0<\/span>

D\u00fcnyan\u0131n yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259zmi\u015fik. H\u0259diyy\u0259-flan, \u00f6z\u00fcn bilirs\u0259n d\u0259…\u00a0<\/span>

M\u0259n daha bu ill\u0259r \u0259rzind\u0259 ham\u0131y\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259diyy\u0259 al\u0131b haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fam, amma he\u00e7 macal el\u0259yib g\u0259l\u0259 bilmirik. Y\u0259qin bu il d\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yik. Bir aya yen\u0259 gedirik xaric\u0259. Amma m\u0259nim… – bird\u0259n o lap u\u015faq kimi dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fczd\u00fc, – \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259r yaman d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u0259.\u00a0<\/span>

Onlar \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131lar. Tez-tez ged\u0259rdim evl\u0259rin\u0259. K\u00f6hn\u0259 pill\u0259k\u0259nin alt\u0131nda iki g\u00f6z ki\u00e7ik otaq. Otaqlar\u0131n birinin p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259si balaca, \u00e7irkli h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130kinci ota\u011f\u0131n yerli-dibli p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259si yox idi.\u00a0<\/span>

Bu otaq indiki kimi yad\u0131mdad\u0131r. Balaca, lampan\u0131n z\u0259if i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u0259d\u0259biyyatdan ifad\u0259 yaz\u0131ya haz\u0131rla\u015fard\u0131q, q\u0131\u015f aylar\u0131nda \u018fsm\u0259rin anas\u0131 kerosinkan\u0131 g\u0259tir\u0259rdi ota\u011fa – bir az q\u0131z\u0131nmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. Anas\u0131 dey\u0259rdi ki, evd\u0259 ki\u015fi olsayd\u0131, bu ota\u011f\u0131n divar\u0131n\u0131 de\u015fib k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 a\u00e7maq olard\u0131. Bel\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n d\u0259niz g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259rdi.<\/span>

M\u00fcharib\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015fqa u\u015faqlar\u0131 kimi, \u018fsm\u0259rin d\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u0259tin olub.\u00a0<\/span>

– B\u0259s niy\u0259 dem\u0259mis\u0259n Camala?\u00a0<\/span>

– Q\u0259rib\u0259 sual verirs\u0259n. Camal\u0131 tan\u0131m\u0131rsan? Yad\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b? O he\u00e7 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259yib.<\/span>

Yox, m\u0259nim yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u018fsm\u0259r m\u0259kt\u0259bi bitir\u0259n kimi Camalla ni\u015fanland\u0131. Camal \u018fsm\u0259r\u0259 k\u00f6hn\u0259 sinif yolda\u015flar\u0131yla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yi qada\u011fan etmi\u015fdi.\u00a0<\/span>

H\u0259tta sinifd\u0259 oxuyan vaxtda da m\u0259n h\u0259rd\u0259n Camal\u0131n ac\u0131ql\u0131 bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 tuturdum.\u00a0<\/span>

\u018fsm\u0259r yolda\u015flar\u0131yla \u00e7ox deyib g\u00fcl\u0259nd\u0259. Bizim ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131z – bizim \u00fcmumi v\u0259t\u0259nimiz idi v\u0259 bu v\u0259t\u0259nd\u0259 Camal q\u0259rib idi. O bunu duyurdu. Ancaq m\u0259n bunu sonralar ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm.\u00a0<\/span>

\u018fsm\u0259r Xarici dill\u0259r institutuna daxil oldu Camal orda d\u0259rs deyirdi, bir ild\u0259n sonra evl\u0259ndil\u0259r, Camal ail\u0259sind\u0259n ayr\u0131, t\u0259k ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131, \u018fsm\u0259r d\u0259 onun evin\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fc. Bir g\u00fcn \u018fsm\u0259r biz\u0259 z\u0259ng el\u0259di v\u0259 ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 qonaq \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. – Ancaq d\u00fcz 12-d\u0259 ha\u00bb\u00a0<\/span>

Biz ham\u0131m\u0131z g\u0259ldik – o\u011flanlar, q\u0131zlar, bir yerd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f, bir-biriyl\u0259 qapaz-qapaz oynayan u\u015faqlar. \u0130ndi d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131ndad\u0131r, \u00f6 g\u00fcn.\u00a0<\/span>

Ba\u015fqa bir al\u0259m\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck. T\u0259rt\u0259miz, h\u0259dsiz s\u0259liq\u0259yl\u0259, h\u0259dsiz z\u00f6vql\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259dilmi\u015f bu m\u0259nzil tamam ba\u015fqa bir d\u00fcnya idi. Bu al\u0259min h\u0259r detal\u0131, h\u0259r \u0259\u015fyas\u0131 qeydi-adi idi v\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259r d\u0259 bu al\u0259min bir \u0259\u015fyas\u0131 idi.\u00a0<\/span>

Amma nigaran, \u00f6z yerini tapa bilm\u0259mi\u015f, narahatl\u0131qla bu yeri axtaran \u0259\u015fyas\u0131, sanki o yeri tap\u0131b, \u0259b\u0259di o yerd\u0259 sabitl\u0259\u015fmak, h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tsizl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k, donub qalmaq ist\u0259y\u0259n bir \u0259\u015fyas\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

\u018fsm\u0259r Camal\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259d\u0259n: \u00abLeksiyadad\u0131r, – dedi, – ikiy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r leksiyada olacaq. \u0130ki saat vaxt\u0131m\u0131z var\u00bb, Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259n ham\u0131 \u00f6zun\u00fc daha da p\u0259rt, narahat hiss etdi. \u018fn \u00e7ox da \u018fsm\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fc.\u00a0<\/span>

\u018fsm\u0259r q\u0131zlara m\u0259nzili g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi. Biz o\u011flanlar is\u0259 otaqda qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q, e\u015fidirdik ki, hardasa siyirtm\u0259l\u0259r \u00e7\u0259kilir, c\u00fcrb\u0259c\u00fcr mexanizml\u0259r v\u0259 cihazlar qurulday\u0131r, hardasa su ax\u0131d\u0131l\u0131r.\u00a0<\/span>

Biz \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz d\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b servant\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 tama\u015fa edirdik. Servant\u0131n i\u00e7i n\u00f6vb\u0259n\u00f6v ekzotik i\u00e7kil\u0259rl\u0259 v\u0259 \u00e7e\u015fid-\u00e7e\u015fid xarici markal\u0131 siqaretl\u0259rl\u0259 dolu idi.\u00a0<\/span>

Sonra \u018fsm\u0259r ham\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 masan\u0131n arxas\u0131nda oturtdu. \u00d6z\u00fc m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7ib, bir bo\u015fqab g\u0259tirdi. Bo\u015fqabda is\u0259… \u0130ndi d\u0259 bunu xat\u0131rlayanda bo\u011faz\u0131m q\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259nir – bo\u015fqabda yeddi d\u0259n\u0259 ucuz ka\u011f\u0131za b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f dondurma var idi – h\u0259r\u0259miz\u0259 biri.\u00a0<\/span>

\u018fsm\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, onlar\u0131 bizim\u00e7\u00fcn alm\u0131\u015f v\u0259 buz dolab\u0131n\u0131n bir g\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259 gizl\u0259tmi\u015fdi. O bizi birc\u0259 buna qonaq ed\u0259 bil\u0259rdi.\u00a0<\/span>

O an \u00f6mr\u00fcmd\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, \u018fsm\u0259ri sevir\u0259m v\u0259 bird\u0259n ist\u0259dim onu g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb burdan qa\u00e7am, he\u00e7 bilmir\u0259m hara, b\u0259lk\u0259 yen\u0259 \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259.\u00a0<\/span>

Bundan sonra onu g\u00f6rm\u0259dim, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0259sad\u00fcf\u0259n bir-iki d\u0259f\u0259 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 rastla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q, bilmir\u0259m, h\u0259r halda yad\u0131mda qalmay\u0131b. Bir q\u0259d\u0259r sonra onlar Bak\u0131dan k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcb getdil\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

– Bax dey\u0259s\u0259n \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7atm\u0131\u015f\u0131q. Evl\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, bu lap t\u0259z\u0259 rayondur.\u00a0<\/span>

– Biz hara ged\u0259c\u0259yik?\u00a0<\/span>

– Biz\u0259, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259, biz\u0259.\u00a0<\/span>

– Yox, yox, n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan? Evd\u0259 anan, qarda\u015f\u0131n.\u00a0<\/span>

– Bac\u0131m, – dedim, – qarda\u015f\u0131m Moskvadad\u0131r. Oxuyur.\u00a0<\/span>

– Harda?\u00a0<\/span>

– Memarl\u0131q institutunda.\u00a0<\/span>

– S\u0259nin kimi, h\u0259? Yax\u015f\u0131, de g\u00f6r\u00fcm i\u015find\u0259n raz\u0131san?\u00a0<\/span>

– Nec\u0259 deyim, \u00fcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259 raz\u0131yam. Bilirs\u0259n ill\u0259r ke\u00e7dikc\u0259 adam\u0131n a\u011fl\u0131 g\u0259lir ba\u015f\u0131na.\u00a0<\/span>

Daha \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc b\u0259\u015f\u0259riyy\u0259tin dahisi hesab el\u0259mirs\u0259n, D\u0259rk el\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 ki, s\u0259n d\u0259 ba\u015fqalar\u0131 kimi s\u0259n, ba\u015fqalar\u0131ndan biris\u0259n, rahatla\u015f\u0131rsan. \u018fs\u0259bil\u0259\u015fmirs\u0259n, h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rsan.\u00a0<\/span>

– G\u00f6z\u0259l f\u0259ls\u0259f\u0259dir. hans\u0131 din\u0259 tap\u0131nm\u0131san? Zaqorska g\u0259r\u0259k s\u0259n ged\u0259ydin.\u00a0<\/span>

– Bax, bu t\u0259z\u0259 \u015feydir. M\u0259ni indiy\u0259c\u0259n bir \u00e7ox \u015feyl\u0259rd\u0259 ittiham edibl\u0259r – k\u00f6hn\u0259p\u0259r\u0259stlikd\u0259 v\u0259 yalan\u00e7\u0131 novatorluqda, konservatizmd\u0259 v\u0259 modernizmd\u0259, \u0259n\u0259n\u0259l\u0259rin \u0259siri olmaqda v\u0259 \u0259n\u0259n\u0259y\u0259 xor baxmaqda, moda dal\u0131nca qa\u00e7maqda v\u0259 modadan geri qalmaqda v\u0259 sair\u0259 v\u0259 sair\u0259.\u00a0<\/span>

Amma dindarl\u0131qda h\u0259l\u0259 ki, ittiham olunmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. A\u011f\u0131llar\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259yib y\u0259qin.\u00a0<\/span>

– Bel\u0259 de. Harda bel\u0259 s\u0259ni ittiham edibl\u0259r. Dem\u0259li, s\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck m\u00fcbahis\u0259l\u0259r do\u011furan bir s\u0259n\u0259tkarsan, h\u0259? M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n Pikasso kimi.\u00a0<\/span>

– Yox, yox, a\u011fl\u0131n ora getm\u0259sin. B\u00fct\u00fcn bu q\u0131z\u011f\u0131n m\u00fcbahis\u0259l\u0259r bizim \u015f\u00f6b\u0259nin daxilind\u0259 c\u0259r\u0259yan edir. \u015e\u00f6b\u0259mizd\u0259 d\u0259 c\u0259mi-c\u00fcml\u0259tan\u0131 s\u0259kkiz adam var. B\u0259nd\u0259nizin \u015f\u0259xsiyy\u0259ti v\u0259 i\u015fi d\u0259 orda m\u00fczakir\u0259 olunur.\u00a0<\/span>

– Yax\u015f\u0131, ax\u0131 s\u0259nin i\u015fin n\u0259d\u0259n ibar\u0259tdir?\u00a0<\/span>

– Rayon mehmanxanalar\u0131n\u0131n layih\u0259l\u0259rini \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m.\u00a0<\/span>

– Oy, Oqtay, \u0259g\u0259r bils\u0259ydin d\u00fcnyada nec\u0259 mehmanxanalar var. Bir mehmanxanalarda ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f\u0131q, iki g\u00f6z ist\u0259yir baxasan.\u00a0<\/span>

Bolqar\u0131standa bilirs\u0259n nec\u0259 otell\u0259r tikibl\u0259r, Zolot\u0131ye peski, Solne\u00e7niy bereq – adam\u0131n a\u011fl\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. S\u0259n g\u0259r\u0259k g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n onlar\u0131. Camalnan m\u0259n…\u00a0<\/span>

\u00abCamalnan m\u0259n\u00bb ifad\u0259si m\u0259ni xeyli \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015fdirdi v\u0259 odur ki, m\u0259n onun s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc a\u011fz\u0131nda qoyub bir q\u0259d\u0259r k\u0259skin x\u0259b\u0259r ald\u0131m.\u00a0<\/span>

– Yax\u015f\u0131, n\u0259 deyirs\u0259n, biz\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259yik?\u00a0<\/span>

– Yox, yox, m\u0259n bura gizli g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m. M\u0259ni g\u0259r\u0259k s\u0259nd\u0259n ba\u015fqa bir kims\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259sin. Tan\u0131\u015f-bili\u015fi n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tuturam. G\u0259l el\u0259 bel\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri g\u0259z\u0259k, g\u00f6st\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259 Bak\u0131n\u0131, kec\u0259 d\u0259 u\u00e7ub ked\u0259c\u0259m. Geriy\u0259 bilet d\u0259 alm\u0131\u015fam. Yax\u015f\u0131m\u0131?\u00a0<\/span>

– B\u0259s \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri nec\u0259 g\u0259z\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n ki, ist\u0259mirs\u0259n s\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259n olsun?\u00a0<\/span>

– Budey, bax, – dey\u0259 o, qara eyn\u0259yini g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 ke\u00e7irdi, – kim m\u0259ni tan\u0131yacaq? Kim tan\u0131yacaq ki, m\u0259n h\u0259min o \u018fsm\u0259r\u0259m? Tan\u0131salar da qoy isbat el\u0259sinl\u0259r ki, m\u0259n\u0259m, g\u00f6r\u0259k ne\u00e7\u0259 isbat ed\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f d\u00f6nd\u00fc:\u00a0<\/span>

– Yax\u015f\u0131, xalao\u011flu, – dedi. – Hara ged\u0259c\u0259yik.\u00a0<\/span>

– Bax, burda saxla, – dedim. – G\u0259lib \u00e7atd\u0131q. \u00c7ox sa\u011f ol.\u00a0<\/span>

Biz Da\u011f\u00fcst\u00fc parka getdik, a\u00e7\u0131q yay kafesind\u0259 yem\u0259k yedik. B\u00fct\u00fcn \u015f\u0259h\u0259r ayaqlar\u0131m\u0131z alt\u0131nda idi. B\u00fct\u00fcn \u015f\u0259h\u0259r. G\u00f6y d\u0259niz, g\u00f6mg\u00f6y d\u0259niz, bir d\u0259 a\u011f, a\u011fappaq g\u0259mi. Krasnovodska ged\u0259n \u00abQ\u0131r\u011f\u0131z\u0131stan\u00bb g\u0259misi.\u00a0<\/span>

B\u00fct\u00fcn o\u011flan u\u015faqlar\u0131 kimi, biz d\u0259 d\u0259niz s\u0259rg\u00fcz\u0259\u015ftl\u0259ri haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr, X\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 bax\u0131b uzaq limanlar, f\u0131rt\u0131nalar v\u0259 okeanlar\u0131 arzulayard\u0131q. Bel\u0259 vaxtlarda co\u011frafiyan\u0131 da unudurduq. Unudurduq. Unudurduq ki, X\u0259z\u0259r ancaq b\u00f6y\u00fck bir g\u00f6ld\u00fcr.\u00a0<\/span>

D\u00fcnyan\u0131n ba\u015fqa d\u0259nizl\u0259rind\u0259n v\u0259 okeanlar\u0131ndan ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f q\u0259rib bir g\u00f6l – t\u0259bi\u0259tin \u0259caib eksperimenti. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u00f6l\u00fc. \u018fn b\u00f6y\u00fck hovuzu. \u018fn b\u00f6y\u00fck akvariumu.\u00a0<\/span>

\u00abQ\u0131r\u011f\u0131z\u0131stan\u00bb a\u00e7\u0131q d\u0259niz\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f y\u00f6n\u0259l\u0259r\u0259k uzun-uzad\u0131 fit verdi v\u0259 bu fit s\u0259si aramla \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin, d\u0259nizin \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 ax\u0131b \u0259riyirdi.\u00a0<\/span>

– O adan\u0131n ad\u0131 n\u0259dir? – \u018fsm\u0259r \u0259lini \u00fcf\u00fcq\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f uzatd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

– N\u0259rgiz.\u00a0<\/span>

– N\u0259rgiz?\u00a0<\/span>

– \u018fsil ad\u0131 Nargindir. Amma m\u0259n ona N\u0259rgiz deyir\u0259m.\u00a0<\/span>

– H\u0259, h\u0259, Nargin. Yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. U\u015faql\u0131qda o m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7ox sirli v\u0259 \u0259fsan\u0259vi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. El\u0259 ist\u0259yirdim ki, bir ora gedim. Ora getm\u0259k olar?\u00a0<\/span>

– \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n d\u0259niz g\u0259zintisin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131q. Adaya \u00e7\u0131xmayaca\u011f\u0131q, amma onu lap yax\u0131ndan g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n.\u00a0<\/span>

– N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131, ged\u0259k d\u0259 onda.\u00a0<\/span>

– Ax\u015fam ged\u0259rik. Daha romantik olsun. – Hiss el\u0259dim ki, istehza ona toxundu.\u00a0<\/span>

– Ged\u0259k, – dedi.\u00a0<\/span>

– Ged\u0259k. Ya b\u0259lk\u0259 bir \u015fey ist\u0259yirs\u0259n?\u00a0<\/span>

– Yox, yox, n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan? Bilmirs\u0259n ar\u0131qlamaq\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259 m\u00fcsib\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015f\u0259m. \u0130ndi, dey\u0259s\u0259n, normadayam. El\u0259dir?\u00a0<\/span>

– Y\u00fcz faiz.\u00a0<\/span>

– M\u0259n yoq sistemiyl\u0259 ar\u0131qlay\u0131rd\u0131m. Bilirs\u0259n yoq sistemi n\u0259dir?\u00a0<\/span>

\u00abYoq sistemi\u00bb. \u0130ndi o, frans\u0131z xal\u00e7alar\u0131ndan, Kafkadan v\u0259 Antonioninin filml\u0259rind\u0259n, Qali\u00e7in n\u0259\u011fm\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n dan\u0131\u015facaq. Aman allah, bu h\u0259min o \u018fsm\u0259rdirmi? H\u0259min o \u018fsm\u0259r ki, s\u0259kkizinci sinifd\u0259 oxuyanda o\u011flanlar\u0131n tualetind\u0259 bizim sinif curnal\u0131n\u0131 yand\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u018fd\u0259biyyat m\u00fc\u0259llimi ona \u00fc\u00e7 qoymu\u015fdu.<\/span>
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Bu \u018fsm\u0259rin h\u0259yat\u0131nda birinci \u00ab\u00fc\u00e7\u00bb idi. O, b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u0259rsl\u0259rd\u0259n \u0259la al\u0131rd\u0131. X\u0259tti d\u0259 sinifd\u0259 ham\u0131dan yax\u015f\u0131 idi. \u018fd\u0259biyyat m\u00fc\u0259lliminin bu \u00abnam\u0259rdliyi\u00bb \u018fsm\u0259r\u0259 el\u0259 yer el\u0259mi\u015fdi ki, curnal\u0131 yand\u0131rmaqla onun \u00fcr\u0259yi soyumad\u0131.<\/span>
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\u018fd\u0259biyyat m\u00fc\u0259llimind\u0259n d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli intiqam ald\u0131. N\u0259dis\u0259 bu m\u00fc\u0259llimd\u0259n he\u00e7 birimizin xo\u015fu g\u0259lmirdi, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilirdik ki, o, arvad\u0131ndan oddan qorxan kimi qorxur. E\u015fitmi\u015fdik ki, arvad\u0131 ona g\u00f6z verir, i\u015f\u0131q vermir, h\u0259m d\u0259 yaman q\u0131sqancd\u0131r.\u00a0<\/span>

\u018fsm\u0259r d\u0259 bunu bilirdi. Bir g\u00fcn – o g\u00fcn \u0259d\u0259biyyat m\u00fc\u0259llimi s\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n ikinci n\u00f6vb\u0259nin ax\u0131r\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 d\u0259rsd\u0259 olurdu – \u018fsm\u0259r ki\u015finin evin\u0259 gedib yaz\u0131q bir g\u00f6rk\u0259ml\u0259 (masqa taxma\u011f\u0131 u\u015faql\u0131qdan bacar\u0131rd\u0131) m\u00fc\u0259llimin arvad\u0131ndan soru\u015fub: \u00abM\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259 n\u0259 olub, nigaran qalm\u0131\u015f\u0131q, x\u0259st\u0259 deyil ki? Bu g\u00fcn m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259yib\u00bb.\u00a0<\/span>

Bir f\u0131sq\u0131r\u0131q qopmu\u015fdu, g\u0259l g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n. \u018fsm\u0259ri m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n qovacaqd\u0131lar. Babayev birt\u0259h\u0259r girdi qan\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131na. \u018fd\u0259biyyat m\u00fc\u0259llimi is\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bilm\u0259di. G\u00f6zl\u0259rinin alt\u0131nda qapqara dair\u0259l\u0259r vard\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

– \u018fsm\u0259r, yad\u0131ndad\u0131 \u0259d\u0259biyyat m\u00fc\u0259lliminin ba\u015f\u0131na n\u0259 oyun a\u00e7ard\u0131q? Ocaq\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n \u0259hvalat\u0131 yad\u0131nda?\u00a0<\/span>

Dedim ki, \u0259d\u0259biyyat m\u00fc\u0259llimind\u0259n xo\u015fumuz g\u0259lmirdi, h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 o, sinf\u0259 gir\u0259n kimi, ayaqlar\u0131m\u0131zla yeri d\u00f6y\u0259rdik, soru\u015fanda da bu n\u0259dir, cavab verirdik ki, biz n\u0259 bil\u0259k, y\u0259qin a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da ocaq\u00e7\u0131 i\u015fl\u0259yir. O, bizi ba\u015fqa sinif ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7irtdi v\u0259 biz h\u0259r \u015feyi t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n ba\u015flad\u0131q. \u00abBu n\u0259dir, ocaq\u00e7\u0131 da bizim dal\u0131m\u0131zca g\u0259zir\u00bb, dey\u0259 o, t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nirdi.\u00a0<\/span>

\u018fsm\u0259r:\u00a0<\/span>

-Yox, – dedi. – Ocaq\u00e7\u0131 kimdir?\u00a0<\/span>

Ancaq m\u0259n onun yad\u0131na salmad\u0131m. Bel\u0259 \u0259hvalatlar\u0131 unutmusansa, dan\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131n he\u00e7 bir m\u0259nas\u0131 yoxdur. B\u00fct\u00fcn t\u0259f\u0259rr\u00fcat\u0131yla x\u0259yal\u0131nda ya\u015fam\u0131rlarsa, indi onlar\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fark\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 g\u00fclm\u0259li g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, n\u0259 maraql\u0131, n\u0259 m\u0259z\u0259li. Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n ki, bunun duzu n\u0259d\u0259dir.\u00a0<\/span>

D\u0259niz\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131q. S\u0259h\u0259rin bu \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda d\u0259niz ba\u011f\u0131 qoca qar\u0131lar\u0131n, quca\u011f\u0131 k\u00f6rp\u0259li analar\u0131n, u\u015faqlar\u0131n ixtiyar\u0131nda idi. Bir azdan sonra bura pensionerl\u0259r g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, t\u0259sbehli qoca ki\u015fil\u0259r. \u018fyinl\u0259rind\u0259 k\u00f6hn\u0259 penc\u0259kl\u0259r, \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259 q\u0259zetl\u0259r, arxalar\u0131nda \u00f6t\u00fcb getmi\u015f \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u0259ri. Sonsuz s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r \u0130ld\u0259n-il\u0259, g\u00fcnd\u0259n-g\u00fcn\u0259 davam ed\u0259n s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r he\u00e7 d\u0259yi\u015fmirdi, s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259nl\u0259r d\u0259yi\u015firdi. H\u0259r g\u00fcn bura g\u0259l\u0259n qocalardan biri g\u00fcnl\u0259rin bir g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u0259lmir. Sonra ba\u015fqa birisinin yeri bo\u015fal\u0131r.\u00a0<\/span>

Bu yeri t\u0259z\u0259l\u0259ri tutur. T\u0259z\u0259 qocalar. \u00abYeniba\u015flayan\u00bb pensionerl\u0259r. Kims\u0259 g\u0259lir. Kims\u0259 gedir.\u00a0<\/span>

Sonra ax\u015fam d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Bulvar orta ya\u015fl\u0131lar\u0131n olur. \u0130\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra faydal\u0131 g\u0259zintiy\u0259 – terrenkura \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015f adamlar. D\u0259niz havas\u0131yla ciy\u0259r dolusu n\u0259f\u0259s alan m\u00f6t\u0259b\u0259r ki\u015fil\u0259r, qad\u0131nlar… Ala-qaranl\u0131q gizli xiyabanlarda is\u0259 cavanlar – sevi\u015f\u0259nl\u0259r skamyalar\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc o biri t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 \u00e7evirib \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrl\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

Sonra kec\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Gec\u0259nin bir yar\u0131s\u0131nda tamamil\u0259 bo\u015f, adams\u0131z bulvarda milisionerin add\u0131mlar\u0131 ayd\u0131n e\u015fidilir. O t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n halay-valay vuran bir kefcil uzun \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015f m\u0259clisd\u0259n qay\u0131d\u0131r. Say\u0131q milisioner diqq\u0259tl\u0259 onu izl\u0259yir. Amma kefcil kec\u0259qu\u015funun he\u00e7 k\u0259sl\u0259 i\u015fi yoxdur. O he\u00e7 bir qanunu pozmur. \u00d6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn p\u0259sd\u0259n oxuya-oxuya yoluyla gedir.\u00a0<\/span>

Amma indi s\u0259h\u0259rdir. A\u00e7\u0131q, ayd\u0131n bir s\u0259h\u0259r. Uzaq, seyr\u0259k a\u011f buludlar g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 p\u0259r\u0259n-p\u0259r\u0259n da\u011f\u0131l\u0131b, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi tutmurlar, i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 gizl\u0259tmirl\u0259r. Bulvar da u\u015faqlar\u0131n ixtiyar\u0131ndad\u0131r. U\u015faqlar oynay\u0131rlar.\u00a0<\/span>

Koslar\u0131n\u0131, oyuncaqlar\u0131n\u0131 bir-biriyl\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrl\u0259r, Qo\u011fallar\u0131n\u0131, bulkalar\u0131n\u0131 bir-biriyl\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrl\u0259r. Bir d\u0259 \u00f6t\u0259n g\u00fcn \u0259rzind\u0259 d\u00fcnya haqq\u0131nda \u00f6yr\u0259ndikl\u0259ri t\u0259z\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259ri, m\u0259lumatlar\u0131 bir-biriyl\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrl\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

M\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n l\u00f6vh\u0259l\u0259r m\u00fcxt\u0259lif adamlarda bir-birin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r oyad\u0131r, odur ki, \u018fsm\u0259r sual\u0131n\u0131 ver\u0259nd\u0259 fikirl\u0259rimizin eyni m\u0259nzil\u0259 g\u0259lib \u00e7atmas\u0131na t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nm\u0259dim.\u00a0<\/span>

– S\u0259n niy\u0259 evl\u0259nmirs\u0259n?\u00a0<\/span>

G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcnd\u00fcm v\u0259 \u00e7iynimi \u00e7\u0259kdim. N\u0259 m\u0259nzil \u015f\u0259raitimd\u0259n s\u00f6z a\u00e7maq ist\u0259yirdim, n\u0259 d\u0259 ail\u0259 v\u0259ziyy\u0259timd\u0259n. \u0130st\u0259mirdim dey\u0259m ki, evin b\u00f6y\u00fck ki\u015fisi m\u0259n\u0259m, anam qocad\u0131r, bac\u0131m \u00c7imnaz Bak\u0131da oxuyur, qarda\u015f\u0131m Ceyhun Moskvada. H\u0259m d\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar s\u0259b\u0259b deyildi. h\u0259qiq\u0259tin ancaq bir hiss\u0259si, bir \u00e7\u0259r\u0259yi idi. Tam h\u0259qiq\u0259t deyildi.\u00a0<\/span>

– Yoxsa and i\u00e7mis\u0259n ki, subay qalacaqsan?\u00a0<\/span>

B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 haql\u0131d\u0131r. M\u0259nim xasiyy\u0259tim ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131yla, u\u015faqla, arvadla \u00e7\u0259tin uyu\u015fa. Amma bird\u0259n ist\u0259dim \u018fsm\u0259r\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131m ki, bir may g\u00fcn\u00fc, i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131, ayd\u0131n bir may g\u00fcn\u00fc k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 bir \u00abMoskvi\u00e7\u00bb g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Mavi \u00abMoskvi\u00e7\u00bb bir evin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n dal p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259n bir tor ba\u011flama g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Ba\u011flamada c\u00fcrb\u0259c\u00fcr yem\u0259k-i\u00e7m\u0259k \u015feyl\u0259ri, meyv\u0259, g\u00f6y\u0259rti vard\u0131. Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda sa\u011flam b\u0259d\u0259nli, k\u00fcl\u0259\u015f sif\u0259tli, cavan bir ki\u015fn dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

\u018fynind\u0259 q\u0131sa qollu y\u00fcng\u00fcl k\u00f6yn\u0259k vard\u0131. Yan\u0131nda arvad\u0131 dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00dczd\u0259n sifayi, s\u0259liq\u0259yl\u0259 v\u0259 z\u00f6vql\u0259 geyinmi\u015f cavan bir g\u0259lin idi arvad\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

Yan\u0131nda da u\u015faqlar\u0131. G\u00fcl kimi t\u0259rt\u0259miz, s\u0259liq\u0259li geyinmi\u015f, daran\u0131b s\u0131\u011fallanm\u0131\u015f u\u015faqlar\u0131 – yeddi-s\u0259kkiz ya\u015fl\u0131 o\u011flan v\u0259 d\u00f6rd-be\u015f ya\u015fl\u0131 q\u0131z. Bir q\u0259d\u0259r k\u0259narda bu ail\u0259nin dostlar\u0131, onlar da arvad u\u015faqla dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar v\u0259 y\u0259qin ma\u015f\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdil\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

O vaxt bird\u0259n ani bir fikir ke\u00e7di ba\u015f\u0131mdan ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn bu \u015feyl\u0259rd\u0259 baya\u011f\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259 yoxdur v\u0259 m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 azac\u0131q ist\u0259yir\u0259m b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

\u018fsm\u0259r m\u0259ni fikirl\u0259rimd\u0259n ay\u0131rd\u0131:\u00a0<\/span>

– Bilirs\u0259n Moskvayla Bak\u0131n\u0131n f\u0259rqi n\u0259d\u0259dir? Bak\u0131 d\u0259niz\u0259 dir\u0259nir, qatar son dayanaca\u011fa dir\u0259n\u0259n kimi. Bak\u0131 d\u0259nizd\u0259 qurtar\u0131r, bitir, nec\u0259 ba\u015fa sal\u0131m s\u0259ni, bel\u0259 el\u0259 bil ki, d\u0259niz\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr, d\u0259niz\u0259 a\u015f\u0131r, bax bu sahil evl\u0259rinin, a\u011faclar\u0131n\u0131n \u0259ksiyl\u0259 birlikd\u0259 suya d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Amma Moskva… Moskva qurtarm\u0131r, bitmir, yava\u015f-yava\u015f yoxa \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, k\u0259narlar\u0131nda \u0259riyib gedir…\u00a0<\/span>

– B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259n d\u00fcz deyirs\u0259n. Moskva tez-tez m\u0259nim yuxuma girir, ist\u0259yir\u0259m h\u0259r \u015feyi at\u0131b min\u0259m t\u0259yyar\u0259y\u0259, lap s\u0259nin kimi, u\u00e7ub ged\u0259m.\u00a0<\/span>

– Bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r ki adam h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 hardansa harasa getm\u0259k ist\u0259yir.\u00a0<\/span>

– D\u0259rin f\u0259ls\u0259fi fikirdir.\u00a0<\/span>

– B\u0259sdir m\u0259ni dolad\u0131n. \u0130nciy\u0259r\u0259m s\u0259nd\u0259n bax.\u00a0<\/span>

Bulvardan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f getdik.\u00a0<\/span>

– Bir adamnan k\u0259zib el\u0259yirs\u0259n – dey\u0259 o, q\u0259filc\u0259 soru\u015fdu.\u00a0<\/span>

– Yox, – dey\u0259 m\u0259n ani cavab, verdim, sonra d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb t\u0259l\u0259sik: – \u00abh\u0259\u00bb dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim, – dedim. G\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, \u00e7ox gic \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 v\u0259 d\u0259rhal zarafata sald\u0131m, – m\u0259n b\u0259z\u0259n \u00abh\u0259\u00bb yerin\u0259 \u00abyox\u00bb deyir\u0259m.\u00a0<\/span>

\u018fsm\u0259r sakitc\u0259sin\u0259:\u00a0<\/span>

– Olur, – dedi. – M\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcmd\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 yox \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 h\u0259 demi\u015f\u0259m. Amma bu ba\u015fqa s\u00f6hb\u0259tdir.\u00a0<\/span>

– \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri s\u00f6k\u00fcrl\u0259r, K\u00f6hn\u0259 evl\u0259ri, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259ri…\u00a0<\/span>

– S\u0259n n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan, – onun \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t ifad\u0259si vard\u0131. – Ola bilm\u0259z. Bu, tarixdir, ke\u00e7mi\u015fdir. Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n, \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259r memarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n folklorudur, onu \u0259srl\u0259rl\u0259 tikibl\u0259r, m\u00fcxt\u0259lif n\u0259sill\u0259r, m\u00fcxt\u0259lif adamlar.\u00a0<\/span>

– Bilir\u0259m, bilir\u0259m, \u0259zizim. H\u0259r halda ax\u0131 m\u0259n d\u0259 memaram. Deyirs\u0259n ki, \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259r memarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n folklorudur. Bunlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n bilir\u0259m. Amma bir m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 var… Ax\u0131… adamlar bel\u0259 bir \u015f\u0259raitd\u0259 ya\u015faya bilm\u0259zl\u0259r. Bu k\u00f6hn\u0259 evl\u0259r, \u0259yri-\u00fcyr\u00fc k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r, nat\u0259mizlik…\u00a0<\/span>

-D\u00fczd\u00fcr, d\u00fczd\u00fcr, raz\u0131yam s\u0259ninl\u0259. Qoy adamlar\u0131 k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrts\u00fcnl\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

– Evl\u0259r is\u0259 qals\u0131n. G\u00f6z\u0259l fikirdir, Bizim m\u00fcdir e\u015fid\u0259ydi s\u0259nin bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rini, \u015e\u0259h\u0259rin t\u0259n ortas\u0131nda b\u00f6y\u00fck, bo\u015f, adams\u0131z bir \u0259razi – sentimental u\u015faql\u0131q xatir\u0259l\u0259rinin abid\u0259si.\u00a0<\/span>

– Dayan, Oqtay, dayan g\u00f6r\u00fcm. B\u0259sdir yuyub apard\u0131n m\u0259ni. Bura bax, dey\u0259s\u0259n bu d\u00f6ng\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f g\u0259lir. H\u0259 d\u0259, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259, bax, bizim ev ordad\u0131r.\u00a0<\/span>

– Sizin ev orda yoxdur. S\u00f6k\u00fcbl\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

– Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni s\u00f6k\u00fcbl\u0259r? Anam r\u0259hm\u0259tliy\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259 evd\u0259 m\u0259nzil ver\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r, amma m\u0259n el\u0259 bilirdim ki, bu ev qal\u0131b.\u00a0<\/span>

Biz \u018fsm\u0259rgilin evinin xarabalar\u0131na \u00e7atd\u0131q. Qar\u015f\u0131da yar\u0131-s\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f bo\u015f evin \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259siz-k\u00f6zs\u00fcz p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259ri bu xarabalara bax\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

– Bax bu evi g\u0259r\u0259k tan\u0131yasan, sizin evin d\u00fcz qaba\u011f\u0131ndad\u0131r.\u00a0<\/span>

– \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, tan\u0131y\u0131ram. M\u0259sm\u0259 xala bu evd\u0259 olurdu. Novruz qaba\u011f\u0131 \u015f\u0259k\u0259rbura, paxlava bi\u015fir\u0259nd\u0259 iyind\u0259n yata bilmirdik. B\u00fct\u00fcn gec\u0259ni bi\u015fir\u0259rdi. Bilirdik ki, s\u0259h\u0259r biz\u0259 d\u0259 pay g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259k, amma sabaha q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00f6z\u0259 bilmirdik.\u00a0<\/span>

\u018fsm\u0259r \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131ra-\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131ra dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, \u00e7\u00fcnki otaydak\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259 evi da\u011f\u0131dan buldozerin s\u0259si qulaqlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 bat\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Vaqon d\u0259hlizl\u0259ri kimi dar k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r, balkonlar\u0131 vaqon kupel\u0259rinin \u00fcst yerl\u0259ri kimi az qala bir-birin\u0259 toxunan evl\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131n yerind\u0259 indi n\u0259h\u0259ng bo\u015f bir meydan qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 da\u015fl\u0131, k\u0259s\u0259kli, tozlu, \u0259h\u0259ngli meydan.\u00a0<\/span>

Orda, burda at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f laz\u0131ms\u0131z nimda\u015f \u0259\u015fya q\u0131r\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131, hifz olunmu\u015f divar par\u00e7as\u0131n\u0131n g\u0259r\u0259ksiz \u015firli nax\u0131\u015f\u0131, s\u0131n\u0131q aftafa, q\u0131r\u0131q krant, pasl\u0131 boru – bo\u015f meydan.<\/span>

Bu meydan\u0131n t\u0259n ortas\u0131nda q\u0259dim heyvanlar\u0131 xat\u0131rladan xortumlu buldozer i\u015fl\u0259yir, s\u00f6k\u00fcr, da\u011f\u0131d\u0131r, u\u011fulday\u0131rd\u0131, n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 onun n\u00f6mr\u0259si yadda\u015f\u0131mda h\u0259kk olunmu\u015fdu: QTP-44.\u00a0<\/span>

Bilmir\u0259m, n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259, bird\u0259n \u015fer oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m. Buldozerin s\u0259sini bat\u0131rma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015faraq \u018fsm\u0259r\u0259 \u015fer oxuyurdum:\u00a0<\/span>

\u018fyrin-\u00fcyr\u00fcn,\u00a0<\/span>
Dar k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rin,\u00a0<\/span>
G\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259r\u00a0<\/span>
otaqlar\u0131ndak\u0131 b\u0259yaz gec\u0259l\u0259rin,\u00a0<\/span>
damlar\u0131n\u0131n yast\u0131s\u0131,\u00a0<\/span>
i\u00e7inin astas\u0131,\u00a0<\/span>
k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rini\u00a0<\/span>
dolanan add\u0131mlar\u0131n\u00a0<\/span>
h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 t\u0259nha s\u0259si,\u00a0<\/span>
gec\u0259l\u0259rini\u00a0<\/span>
d\u00fcnyada nt\u0259n tarix tik\u0259si,\u00a0<\/span>
i\u00e7ind\u0259n bay\u0131r \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259,\u00a0<\/span>
b\u00f6yuk \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xan t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb\u00fcm,\u00a0<\/span>
o\u011frular\u0131ndan qorxan cibim,\u00a0<\/span>
\u00f6l\u00fcm aya\u011f\u0131ndad\u0131r indi.\u00a0<\/span>
Bi\u00e7ar\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259r,\u00a0<\/span>
\u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259r…\u00a0<\/span>

– Kimin \u015feridir bu?\u00a0<\/span>

– Vaqif V\u0259kilovun, – dedim, – cavan \u015fairdir. Y\u0259qin s\u0259n tan\u0131m\u0131rsan.\u00a0<\/span>

– Bilirs\u0259n, – dedi, – \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 biz el\u0259 bil b\u00f6y\u00fck kommunal m\u0259nzild\u0259 ya\u015fayan kimiydik. Ham\u0131 bir-biri haqq\u0131nda h\u0259r \u015feyi bilirdi. Birinin radiosu \u00e7al\u0131rd\u0131sa, b\u00fctun m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7al\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

Birinin d\u0259rdi, yas\u0131 olanda a\u011fla\u015fma s\u0259si ham\u0131n\u0131n evinin i\u00e7ind\u0259 idi. X\u00f6r\u0259kl\u0259rin iyi d\u0259 h\u0259m\u00e7inin. Bir u\u015faq q\u0131z\u0131lca oldumu, b\u00fct\u00fcn u\u015faqlara d\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi.\u00a0<\/span>

\u018fsm\u0259rin s\u00f6zl\u0259ri m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yax\u0131n idi. Ax\u0131 m\u0259nim al\u0259mimd\u0259 d\u0259 \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin t\u0259krars\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259hz bunda idi.\u00a0<\/span>

Biz \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 qala deyirik. Bir memar kimi, m\u0259nim fikrimc\u0259, Qala – m\u00fcasir \u015f\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259rdir, h\u0259r\u0259 \u00f6z q\u0131n\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259n kimi m\u0259nzilin\u0259, \u00f6z h\u00fccr\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilir, pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259r, pill\u0259k\u0259n meydan\u00e7alar\u0131 da yaln\u0131z k\u00f6rp\u00fcd\u00fcr.\u00a0<\/span>

Bu k\u00f6rp\u00fcd\u0259 qon\u015fular yaln\u0131z t\u0259sad\u00fcf\u0259n k\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bil\u0259rl\u0259r. Bel\u0259 k\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r he\u00e7 vaxt tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011fa, dostlu\u011fa, yax\u0131nl\u0131\u011fa s\u0259b\u0259b ola bilm\u0259z. K\u00f6rp\u00fcl\u0259r, ya da vaqonlar aras\u0131ndak\u0131 buferl\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

Buferl\u0259rd\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olub dostla\u015fmaq olarm\u0131? H\u0259r\u0259 \u00f6z evin\u0259 – \u00f6z kupesin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kilir. Bu kupeli vaqonlar – m\u00fcasir evl\u0259r m\u00fcqabilind\u0259 – \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259r \u00fcmumi vaqondur.\u00a0<\/span>

Sevinci, k\u0259d\u0259ri, narahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131, yuxusu m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259r\u0259k \u00fcmumi vaqon. Davalar\u0131, qeyb\u0259tl\u0259ri, iyl\u0259ri – m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259r\u0259k, toylar\u0131, yaslar\u0131, qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131 m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259r\u0259k. M\u00fcasir \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015e\u0259h\u0259rin n\u0259yi var? Nat\u0259mizliyi, \u00e7irki, narahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131, yamaqlar\u0131…\u00a0<\/span>

Qoca sif\u0259tinin q\u0131r\u0131\u015flar\u0131 kimi \u0259yri-\u00fcyr\u00fc k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259ri. Yanp\u00f6rt\u00fc; dayanm\u0131\u015f \u015fik\u0259st, \u0259lil evl\u0259ri. B\u0259li…\u00a0<\/span>

Amma bir d\u0259 insaniliyi, \u00fcnsiyy\u0259t sevinci, \u00fcmumi taleyin \u0259v\u0259zsizliyi ki, onun yerini he\u00e7 n\u0259 verm\u0259z. Bir d\u0259 bizim u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z. H\u0259r da\u015fda izi qalan u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z. – Budur, \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

Babalar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ya\u015fay\u0131\u015f\u0131, diriliyi, \u00f6mr\u00fc-g\u00fcn\u00fc.\u00a0<\/span>

– B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 n\u0259yl\u0259 \u0259v\u0259z ed\u0259c\u0259ksiniz, Oqtay, – dey\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259r yen\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259nim fikirl\u0259rim\u0259 cavab verirmi\u015f kimi soru\u015fdu: – \u015e\u00fc\u015f\u0259d\u0259n v\u0259 betondan t\u0259z\u0259 evl\u0259r tik\u0259c\u0259siniz, el\u0259mi, modern qutular?\u00a0<\/span>

– B\u0259li, – dedim, – \u00e7al\u0131\u015f ki, hissl\u0259rini bir balaca cilovlayasan v\u0259 a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131-ba\u015fl\u0131 fikir el\u0259. Adamlar g\u0259r\u0259k rahat ya\u015fas\u0131nlar, evl\u0259rind\u0259 h\u0259r bir rahatl\u0131q olsun. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 onlar\u0131 burdan k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r.\u00a0<\/span>

B\u0259s evl\u0259r n\u0259 olsun? \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, tarixi \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259t\u0259 malik olan binalar saxlan\u0131lacaq.\u00a0<\/span>

– Tarixi \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259t\u0259 malik binalar! M\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn tarixi \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259t\u0259 malik olan bina – anadan oldu\u011fum evdir. Anadan oldu\u011fum, b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcy\u00fcm, ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ev.\u00a0<\/span>

O m\u0259ni \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

– Yax\u015f\u0131, – dedim, – \u00e7ox k\u00f6z\u0259l, b\u0259s onda niy\u0259 \u0259liv\u0259 f\u00fcrs\u0259t d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n kimi bu \u0259ziz-x\u0259l\u0259f evi t\u0259rk etdin? – Bunu dem\u0259yim\u0259 pe\u015fman oldum. G\u0259r\u0259k dem\u0259y\u0259ydim.\u00a0<\/span>

O cavab verm\u0259di. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 add\u0131m atd\u0131. Ke\u00e7mi\u015f evl\u0259ri s\u0259mt\u0259.\u00a0<\/span>

Dayand\u0131. Evl\u0259ri bax bu yerd\u0259 idi. Ota\u011f\u0131 da bax burda. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259siz ota\u011f\u0131. \u00c7arpay\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na anas\u0131 k\u00f6hn\u0259 xal\u00e7a vurmu\u015fdu – evd\u0259 olan \u0259n qiym\u0259tli \u015fey bu xal\u00e7a idi. Xal\u00e7a \u018fsm\u0259ri divar\u0131n r\u00fctub\u0259tind\u0259n qoruyurdu. \u018fsm\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259 sar\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fc.\u00a0<\/span>

– Ged\u0259k, – dedi.\u00a0<\/span>

\u0130st\u0259dim onun ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qatam, q\u0259mli xatir\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n ay\u0131ram, \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin t\u0259z\u0259 plan\u0131 haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131m.\u00a0<\/span>

– Dayan, – dedi. Dayand\u0131q. O, n\u0259y\u0259s\u0259 qulaq verirdi. M\u0259n d\u0259 dinl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nin o tay\u0131ndan iki arvad ke\u00e7irdi v\u0259 bir-biriyl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131:\u00a0<\/span>

– A\u011f\u0259z, qarag\u00fcn\u0259 deyir\u0259m, ba\u015f\u0131v\u0131n \u00e7ar\u0259sini q\u0131l, \u015fo\u011f\u0259ribn\u0259n i\u015fin olmas\u0131n…\u00a0<\/span>

– Qadam onun a\u011fz\u0131na, ba\u015f\u0131nda a\u011fl\u0131 olsayd\u0131, g\u0259d\u0259ni onun-bunun qap\u0131s\u0131na salmazd\u0131 ki…\u00a0<\/span>

Arvadlar tini buruldular va \u018fsm\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259 \u0130ngilt\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. \u0130ki il bundar qabaq onlar \u0130ngilt\u0259r\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131lar v\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259r oran\u0131n s\u0259mas\u0131ndan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, Orda g\u00f6y, – deyirdi, el\u0259 al\u00e7aqd\u0131r, el\u0259 bil \u0259lini uzatsan – H\u0259m d\u0259 el\u0259 bil solub. El\u0259 bil buludlar\u0131 g\u00f6y\u0259 divar ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 – oboy kimi \u00e7\u0259kibl\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

Sonra biz Xan saray\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 girdik. Daxili h\u0259y\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n ke\u00e7dik, pill\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 dayand\u0131q. G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n institutda, i\u015fd\u0259 m\u0259n bu abid\u0259ni ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 t\u0259dqiq etmi\u015f\u0259m, k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m, \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015f\u0259m, \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/span>

Amma el\u0259 bil indi onu ilk d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm. M\u0259n onun s\u0259thl\u0259rinin dahiyan\u0259 ah\u0259ngin\u0259, t\u0259nas\u00fcbl\u0259rinin simmetriyas\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131na sanki yenid\u0259n valeh olurdum. Divanxanan\u0131n m\u00fcbh\u0259m ala-qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131, daxili h\u0259y\u0259tl\u0259rin sakitliyi, saray\u0131n \u0259z\u0259m\u0259ti – el\u0259 bil b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar \u0259n d\u0259rin m\u0259nas\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131. Xan saray\u0131n\u0131n b\u00f6y\u00fck meydan\u0131nda dayan\u0131b\u00a0<\/span>

\u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259sin\u0259 tama\u015fa edirdik. M\u0259n da\u015f\u0131n m\u00fcdrikliyi haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar n\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck s\u0259ad\u0259tdir.\u00a0<\/span>

M\u0259n \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259r k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rinin ad l\u00f6vh\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259, hans\u0131sa di\u015f h\u0259kiminin elan\u0131na bax\u0131rd\u0131m v\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259lirdi ki, bu yaz\u0131lar \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin \u0259b\u0259di da\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259hqir edir, \u0259d\u0259bsiz g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. El\u0259 bil Miloslu Veneraya nax\u0131\u015f vurublar.\u00a0<\/span>

…O ax\u015fam, aprelin 29-da bizd\u0259n da\u011f\u0131l\u0131\u015fanda, m\u0259n d\u0259 ham\u0131yla birlikd\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. \u018fsm\u0259ri \u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259kdim. Bir az geri qald\u0131q u\u015faqlardan, bird\u0259n tinba\u015f\u0131nda \u018fsm\u0259rin \u00e7\u0259km\u0259sinin daban\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

M\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131n saxlad\u0131m v\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 taksiy\u0259 mindik. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc el\u0259 itirdim ki, sa\u011fa \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259, sola ged\u0259k dedim.\u00a0<\/span>

\u018fsm\u0259r:\u00a0<\/span>

– Bu\u011fda, arpa, – dedi.\u00a0<\/span>

Bizim idman m\u00fc\u0259llimimiz bel\u0259 dey\u0259rdi. M\u0259\u015fql\u0259r zaman\u0131 bir adam t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259nd\u0259 sa\u011fla solu \u00e7a\u015fd\u0131randa idman m\u00fc\u0259llimimiz dey\u0259rdi ki, solu-sa\u011f\u0131 yad\u0131nda saxlaya bilmirs\u0259ns\u0259, yad\u0131nda saxla arpa bu yana, bu\u011fda o yana. Bu da onun zarafat\u0131 idi.\u00a0<\/span>

Bz taksiyl\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259rgilin evin\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131b ma\u015f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck. Qap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda ayr\u0131landa \u018fsm\u0259r bird\u0259n diqq\u0259tl\u0259 (indiki vaxt\u0131m olsayd\u0131 dey\u0259rdim ki, i\u015fv\u0259yl\u0259) m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131b x\u0259b\u0259r ald\u0131:\u00a0<\/span>

– B\u0259s s\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 bir \u015fey dem\u0259k ist\u0259mirs\u0259n? Yen\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr ki, fikir ax\u0131n\u0131m\u0131z bir m\u0259nzil\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131 v\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259rin s\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 bu s\u0259f\u0259r d\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nm\u0259dim:\u00a0<\/span>

– Yad\u0131nda o ax\u015fam m\u0259nim \u00e7\u0259km\u0259min daban\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, s\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259ni \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fcn. – Bir az susandan sonra \u0259lav\u0259 etdi. – H\u0259r \u015fey ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr ola bil\u0259rdi.\u00a0<\/span>

Ancaq m\u0259n ke\u00e7mi\u015fi \u00e7\u00f6z\u0259l\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259mirdim. U\u015faql\u0131qdan biz daima n\u0259 is\u0259 itiririk. B\u0259z\u0259n adam lap mat qal\u0131r. Adam harda, ha\u00e7an bu q\u0259d\u0259r \u015fey y\u0131\u011f\u0131b ki, el\u0259 hey itir\u0259-itir\u0259 yen\u0259 d\u0259 n\u0259 n\u0259 is\u0259 saxlay\u0131r.\u00a0<\/span>

– Acmam\u0131san ki, h\u0259l\u0259?\u00a0<\/span>

– H\u0259l\u0259 yox. Bir-iki saatdan sonra.\u00a0<\/span>

– Yax\u015f\u0131. \u0130ndi saat ikidir. \u0130ki saat da vaxt\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259k.\u00a0<\/span>

– \u018fc\u0259b n\u0259zak\u0259tlis\u0259n. Dem\u0259li, m\u0259niml\u0259 s\u0259n vaxt\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcrs\u0259n.\u00a0<\/span>

– Yax\u015f\u0131, s\u00f6zd\u0259n s\u00f6z \u00e7\u0131xartma. \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n, ged\u0259k kinoya.\u00a0<\/span>

– Kinoya? Ged\u0259k.\u00a0<\/span>

Biz filmin lap \u0259vv\u0259lin\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131q. S\u0259n\u0259dli film idi. \u00abYaponiya m\u00fcharib\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259\u00bb. M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259dli filml\u0259ri xo\u015flay\u0131ram – bu filmd\u0259 is\u0259 yapon xronikas\u0131n\u0131n nadir kadrlar\u0131 vard\u0131: \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 m\u0259hkum pilotlar – kamikadzel\u0259r u\u00e7u\u015fqaba\u011f\u0131. Adam\u0131n \u0259ti \u00fcrp\u0259\u015firdi.<\/span>

– Bir onlar\u0131n sif\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 bax, – dey\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259r qula\u011f\u0131ma p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131. – D\u0259h\u015f\u0259tdir.\u00a0<\/span>

U\u00e7u\u015fdan qabaq onlar\u0131n ham\u0131s\u0131na sakeyapon ara\u011f\u0131 verir dil\u0259r, t\u0259yyar\u0259y\u0259 qalxa-qalxa onlar\u0131 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n kino-kameraya baxark\u0259n bilirdil\u0259r ki, qar\u015f\u0131da onlar\u0131 yaln\u0131z \u00f6l\u00fcm g\u00f6zl\u0259yir v\u0259 art\u0131q he\u00e7 bir \u015fey onlar\u0131 bu \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n qurtara bilm\u0259z.\u00a0<\/span>

– G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, onlar havaya qalxanda n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r? – dey\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259r soru\u015fdu. – Fikirl\u0259rini d\u0259yi\u015fmirl\u0259rmi\u015f ki? Ona diktor cavab verdi:\u00a0<\/span>

– Kamikadzel\u0259r yerd\u0259n qalxan kimi h\u0259yatla \u0259b\u0259di vidala\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. Geri qay\u0131tmaq\u00e7\u00fcn onlar\u0131n t\u0259yyar\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 benzin t\u00f6km\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

Sa\u011f \u0259limd\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259rin barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131n \u0259s\u0259bi titr\u0259yi\u015fini duydum. Sonra sa\u011f yana\u011f\u0131mda onun sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131, sa\u011f \u00e7iynimd\u0259 onun ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 hiss etdim. Lap yax\u0131ndan onun vurdu\u011fu \u0259trin xo\u015f, m\u0259stedici qoxusu g\u0259ldi. M\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259li bir u\u015faq ist\u0259yi oyand\u0131, onu \u00f6pm\u0259k ist\u0259dim, amma yen\u0259 d\u0259, ne\u00e7\u0259 il bundan qabaqk\u0131 kimi \u00f6pm\u0259dim. \u0130\u015f\u0131q yand\u0131. Film qurtard\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

– Bu d\u0259h\u015f\u0259td\u0259n sonra yax\u015f\u0131ca nahar el\u0259m\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r, – dey\u0259 o, qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131z v\u0259 \u015f\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. – Yaman acm\u0131\u015fam. Yax\u015f\u0131 kabab yem\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Deyirl\u0259r burda \u0259ntiq\u0259 bir kababxana a\u00e7\u0131blar.\u00a0<\/span>

– H\u0259. Biri var Bin\u0259q\u0259did\u0259. Amma ora uzaqd\u0131r. Biri d\u0259 Bay\u0131ldad\u0131r. Ged\u0259k ora.\u00a0<\/span>

– Ged\u0259k.\u00a0<\/span>

Kababxana ki\u015fil\u0259rl\u0259 dolu idi. \u018fsm\u0259r qad\u0131n \u00e7insinin yegan\u0259 n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259si idi.\u00a0<\/span>

Onun qeyri-adi g\u00f6rk\u0259mi, geyimi ham\u0131n\u0131n diqq\u0259tini c\u0259lb edirdi v\u0259 bizi h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259r s\u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. ham\u0131 bir balaca, ya \u0259m\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 d\u0259m idi v\u0259, biz bu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n t\u0259n ortas\u0131nda dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. H\u0259l\u0259 ki, ancaq bax\u0131rd\u0131lar, amma qorxurdum s\u00f6z-zad da ats\u0131nlar, odur ki bura g\u0259ldiyimiz\u0259 lap-pe\u015fman olmu\u015fdum.\u00a0<\/span>

Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, bufet\u00e7i m\u0259ni tan\u0131d\u0131, m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni d\u0259rhal ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc v\u0259 biz\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131b p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 qaba\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 masan\u0131n arxas\u0131na apard\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

M\u0259n arxam d\u0259niz\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f oturdum. \u018fsm\u0259r is\u0259 arxas\u0131 camaata, \u00fcz\u00fc d\u0259niz\u0259 oturmu\u015fdu v\u0259 m\u0259n sifari\u015f ver\u0259n m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 \u00e7iynim \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259niz\u0259 v\u0259 \u00fcf\u00fcqd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n \u00e7at\u0131lmaz Nargin adas\u0131na bax\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

– N\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259c\u0259yik?\u00a0<\/span>

– \u015eampan, – dedi. – Bilir\u0259m, bu lap g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015flikdir, kababla, \u015famdan i\u00e7m\u0259zl\u0259r, amma m\u0259n ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Yad\u0131ndam\u0131 o ax\u015fam, sizd\u0259…\u00a0<\/span>

B\u0259li, yad\u0131mda idi. Yad\u0131mda idi ki, o ax\u015fam bizd\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259r h\u0259yat\u0131nda ilk d\u0259f\u0259 \u015famdan i\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Amma onun u\u015faql\u0131q xatir\u0259l\u0259rinin sentimental q\u00fcss\u0259si m\u0259ni yava\u015f-yava\u015f \u0259s\u0259bil\u0259\u015fdirirdi.\u00a0<\/span>

H\u0259yat\u0131n pozulmaz m\u0259ntiqin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 ke\u00e7ib ged\u0259nl\u0259ri qaytarmaq c\u0259hdi kim\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259kdir. \u018fsm\u0259r niy\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn olub ke\u00e7\u0259nl\u0259ri qaytarmaq, xatir\u0259l\u0259ri oyatmaq ist\u0259yir. Bura niy\u0259 g\u0259lib?\u00a0<\/span>

\u00d6t\u0259n g\u00fcnl\u0259rin\u0259 ziyar\u0259t\u0259mi? Kim\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r bu ziyar\u0259t? Hiss edirdim ki, ovqat\u0131m getdikc\u0259 t\u0259lx olur, qar\u015f\u0131dak\u0131 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n s\u0259kiy\u0259 mismar kimi vurulmu\u015f d\u00fcmd\u00fcz a\u011faclara bax\u0131rd\u0131m v\u0259 qan\u0131m daha da qaral\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

Kabab g\u0259tirdil\u0259r, g\u00f6y-g\u00f6y\u0259rti, tur\u015fu…\u00a0<\/span>

– Y\u00fcz ildir k\u0259v\u0259r yem\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, – dey\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259r l\u0259zz\u0259tl\u0259 k\u0259v\u0259r\u0259 kiri\u015fmi\u015fdi. Xidm\u0259t\u00e7i \u015fampanlar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

– S\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fclm\u0259li bir \u015fey dan\u0131\u015f\u0131m. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 balaca bir diplomatik m\u0259clis vard\u0131. Camal da xidm\u0259t\u00e7ini k\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259di, \u015fampan\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fc a\u00e7ma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

T\u0259rs kimi \u015fampan\u0131n t\u0131xa\u00e7\u0131 s\u0131\u00e7rad\u0131, gedib d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc Lat\u0131n Amerikas\u0131 \u00f6lk\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n birinin s\u0259firinin bo\u015fqab\u0131na, Camal\u0131n r\u0259ngi-rufu qa\u00e7d\u0131, m\u0259n d\u0259 qorxumdan \u0259sirdim. Amma allaha \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr, s\u0259fir bam\u0259z\u0259 adam imi\u015f, zarafata sald\u0131, ke\u00e7ib ketdi. – \u018fsm\u0259r bir qurtum \u015fampan i\u00e7di. – Yax\u015f\u0131, sa\u011f ol, i\u00e7\u0259k s\u0259nin sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131na.\u00a0<\/span>

– Yox, bir dayan, t\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259. Birinci tost s\u0259nin sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131na. M\u0259n \u00e7ox \u015fadam, \u00e7ox, lap \u00e7ox \u015fadam ki, s\u0259n g\u0259lmis\u0259n.\u00a0<\/span>

Birinci bad\u0259ni i\u00e7\u0259n kimi ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm ki, bu g\u00fcn m\u0259n\u0259 \u015fampandan bir \u015fey olmayacaq, daha \u0259sasl\u0131 bir \u015fey laz\u0131md\u0131r.\u00a0<\/span>

– Etiraz etmirs\u0259ns\u0259 m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00e7\u00fcn araq sifari\u015f el\u0259yim.\u00a0<\/span>

– El\u0259 d\u0259.\u00a0<\/span>

Araq st\u0259kan\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ma \u00e7\u0259kdim v\u0259 hiss etdim ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn t\u0259f\u0259rr\u00fcatlar, x\u0131rda detallar ham\u0131s\u0131 \u0259riyib gedir v\u0259 \u0259sas \u015feyl\u0259r qal\u0131r. M\u0259nim x\u0259yal\u0131mda da ke\u00e7mi\u015f oyan\u0131rd\u0131, tik\u0259-tik\u0259, par\u00e7a-par\u00e7a oyan\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

Amma qeyri-real u\u015faql\u0131q ill\u0259rinin ke\u00e7mi\u015fi yox. Ke\u00e7mi\u015f ill\u0259rin \u0259rzind\u0259 hissi varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 itirmi\u015fdi, sad\u0259c\u0259 hadis\u0259l\u0259r, faktlar sadal\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 he\u00e7 bir duy\u011fu oyatm\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

M\u0259nim x\u0259yal\u0131mda yax\u0131n ke\u00e7mi\u015f – h\u0259l\u0259 solub s\u00f6nm\u0259mi\u015f, uzaqla\u015f\u0131b itm\u0259mi\u015f ke\u00e7mi\u015f – t\u0259hsil ill\u0259rim, Moskva canlan\u0131rd\u0131. O ill\u0259r, o k\u00fcnl\u0259r ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131m h\u0259l\u0259 ir\u0259lid\u0259 idi.\u00a0<\/span>

Q\u0259rib\u0259, dumanl\u0131 arzularla, x\u0259yallarla dolu \u00f6mr\u00fcm – h\u0259l\u0259 ancaq k\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k idi. \u00d6m\u00fcr t\u0259r\u0259zimin ke\u00e7mi\u015f g\u00f6z\u00fc y\u00fcng\u00fcl idi, g\u00f6y\u00fcn \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 qalxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k g\u00f6z\u00fc a\u011f\u0131r idi, dolu idi, y\u00fck\u00fcnd\u0259n a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.\u00a0<\/span>

Qar\u015f\u0131mdak\u0131 h\u0259yat b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fcy\u00fc v\u0259 t\u0259xminiliyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 s\u0259rh\u0259dsiz-k\u0259nars\u0131z, formas\u0131z v\u0259 sahilsiz bir \u015fey kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. El\u0259 bil uzaqdan yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n nam\u0259lum bir \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin peyzac\u0131yd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

H\u0259r \u015fey d\u0259 bir az duman i\u00e7ind\u0259 idi. El\u0259 bil ekranda fokusu d\u00fcz\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015f film\u0259 bax\u0131rsan. Bu dumanl\u0131 m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n- dumanl\u0131 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin siqnal i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 kimi, televiziya q\u00fcll\u0259sinin q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 kimi ayr\u0131-ayr\u0131 n\u00f6qt\u0259l\u0259r k\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc – hadis\u0259l\u0259r, q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259l\u0259r, d\u00f6y\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

Ancaq bu g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131qca, ya\u015f\u0131n artd\u0131qca, k\u0259nd kinomexanikinin g\u00f6st\u0259rdiyi film-d\u0259ymi\u015f kimi fokus d\u00fcz\u0259lir, duman \u00e7\u0259kilir, duman\u0131n arxas\u0131ndan real h\u0259yat \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r – real h\u0259yat\u0131n konturlar\u0131, formalar\u0131, sahill\u0259ri, s\u0259rh\u0259dl\u0259ri v\u0259 onda bir \u00e7ox \u015feyl\u0259ri ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259, d\u00fczg\u00fcn g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131rsan.\u00a0<\/span>

Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n ki, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n r\u0259ngi bozdur v\u0259 ayr\u0131-ayr\u0131 hadis\u0259l\u0259r, q\u0259rib\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259r varsa da, onlar vadil\u0259r kimi vaxt\u0131n sonsuz s\u0259hras\u0131nda itib gedibl\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

H\u0259yat el\u0259 uzundur ki, parlaq ola bilm\u0259z.\u00a0<\/span>

V\u0259 ancaq sonda – ax\u0131b getmi\u015f ke\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcb n\u0259z\u0259r salark\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getdiyin, \u0259b\u0259di t\u0259rk etdiyin \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 baxan kimi, ona baxark\u0259n, yen\u0259 d\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n ki, bu arxada qalan \u015f\u0259h\u0259r, bu m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259, bu ax\u015fam qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259zl\u0259\u015f\u0259n ke\u00e7mi\u015find\u0259 h\u0259r halda n\u0259s\u0259 var – hadis\u0259l\u0259r, sevincl\u0259r, q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259l\u0259r, m\u0259\u011flubiyy\u0259tl\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

V\u0259 indi onlar\u0131 k\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n – t\u0259rk etdiyin \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin ax\u015fam qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda televiziya q\u00fcll\u0259sinin i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi.\u00a0<\/span>

\u0130\u00e7\u0259n kimi ba\u015flay\u0131ram \u00e7\u0259r\u0259nl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259, d\u0259rin q\u0131r\u0131ldatma\u011fa. Nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, st\u0259kanda tufan. Amma su st\u0259kan\u0131nda yox, araq st\u0259kan\u0131nda…\u00a0<\/span>

\u00c7ax\u0131rla d\u0259m olmaq – i\u015fd\u0259 pill\u0259-pill\u0259 qalxmaq kimidir. B\u0259s araq? Bir st\u0259kan b\u0259sdir. Bir st\u0259kandan sonra kim ist\u0259s\u0259n olursan. \u0130\u00e7\u0259n kimi Moskvadayam. T\u0259yyar\u0259siz, qatars\u0131z, pulsuz, biletsiz.\u00a0<\/span>

Daraqomilov k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259sind\u0259 yas\u0259m\u0259nl\u0259r a\u00e7\u0131r, b\u00fct\u00fcn dostlar\u0131m yan\u0131mdad\u0131r, d\u00fcnyada n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r k\u00f6z\u0259l \u015feyl\u0259r var – ax\u015fam radio xoru, \u00abk\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 su s\u0259pmi\u015f\u0259m\u00bb mahn\u0131s\u0131, Moskva may\u0131, ki\u015fi dostlu\u011fu, arvad barmaqlar\u0131 – uzun s\u0259rin barmaqlar, d\u0259niz, yaz\u0131n erk\u0259n \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda torpaq, Zu\u011fulbada ayl\u0131 kec\u0259, A\u011fsu dolamalar\u0131n\u0131 ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra ya\u011f\u0131\u015f, Tallinin q\u0131\u015f\u0131, K\u00fcrc\u00fcstan, bir d\u0259 Heminqueyin yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 iri, l\u0259ng atlar – Monsuri park\u0131ndak\u0131 atlar, Monsuri park\u0131 Parisd\u0259dir…\u00a0<\/span>

Parisd\u0259 d\u0259, m\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt olmam\u0131\u015fam. Bir d\u0259 \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin \u0259b\u0259di da\u015flar\u0131 – he\u00e7 k\u0259sin da\u011f\u0131d\u0131b sovura bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yi da\u015flar. \u018fsm\u0259r\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ki, bir d\u0259f\u0259 bir dostumla \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdik. Q\u0259dim hamam\u0131 s\u00f6k\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

Kimins\u0259 s\u0259hlankarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ucundan hamama tarixi abid\u0259 l\u00f6vh\u0259sini vurmay\u0131blar, cavan, sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n buldozer\u00e7i d\u0259 entuziastlar mahn\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 oxuya-oxuya m\u00fcdhi\u015f ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131 bu yaz\u0131q, bi\u00e7ar\u0259, sanki qorxusundan b\u00fcz\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb qalm\u0131\u015f tikintinin d\u00fcz \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. Biz haray-h\u0259\u015fir qald\u0131rd\u0131q. \u00abM\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 var, – dedi, – m\u0259n\u0259 deyibl\u0259r, m\u0259n d\u0259 s\u00f6k\u00fcr\u0259m.\u00a0<\/span>

Yolda\u015f\u0131m qa\u00e7d\u0131 ora-bura z\u0259ng el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259, m\u0259n d\u0259 oturdum buldozerin par\u00e7\u0131na. Buldozer\u00e7iy\u0259 dedim ki, h\u00fcn\u0259rin var, m\u0259ni burdan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr.\u00a0<\/span>

– Bilirs\u0259n g\u0259l n\u0259yin sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131na i\u00e7\u0259k? Bax, s\u0259n Moskvadan u\u00e7ub g\u0259lmis\u0259n. Camalla d\u00fcnyan\u0131n yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259zmisiz. Amma \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 s\u0259yah\u0259t bilirs\u0259n hans\u0131d\u0131r? Bilmirs\u0259n… \u018fn yax\u015f\u0131 s\u0259yah\u0259t araq \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259sinin bo\u011faz\u0131ndan dibin\u0259 s\u0259yah\u0259t etm\u0259kdir. G\u0259l bax bu s\u0259yah\u0259tin sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131na i\u00e7\u0259k.\u00a0<\/span>

Bu m\u0259nim \u0259n\u0259n\u0259vi tostumdur. Kimins\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tovlamaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 bu tostu deyir\u0259m. B\u0259s \u018fsm\u0259r\u0259 niy\u0259 bunu dedim? Ancaq daha \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc saxlaya bilmirdim. Dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r, dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r, dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m.\u00a0<\/span>

Deyirdim ki, he\u00e7 vaxt bir adam ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k.\u00a0<\/span>

Deyirdim ki, allah yoxdur, amma m\u0259n bir d\u0259f\u0259 onu e\u015fitdim: A\u00e7arlar\u0131n z\u0259ngind\u0259n e\u015fitdim. Bu a\u00e7arlarla o bizi – insanlar\u0131 t\u0259klik kameralar\u0131nda ba\u011flay\u0131b, indi d\u0259 g\u0259zir \u00f6z\u00fcy\u00e7\u00fcn, a\u00e7arlar\u0131n\u0131 cinkild\u0259dir.\u00a0<\/span>

Amma bu t\u0259klik kameralar\u0131nda insanlar ham\u0131s\u0131 eyni \u015feyl\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u00fcr – ulduzlar\u0131, ay\u0131, buludlar\u0131, \u00e7arm\u0131xa \u00e7\u0259kilmi\u015f s\u0259man\u0131n bir tik\u0259sini, bir udumunu, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131 – bizim \u00fcmumi \u0259razimizi. H\u0259r adam\u0131n h\u0259qiq\u0259ti onun i\u00e7ind\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r.\u00a0<\/span>

Seyf kimi, \u015fkaf kimi. Bu seyfi, bu \u015fkaf\u0131 ba\u015fqas\u0131 a\u00e7a bilmir, \u00e7\u00fcnki birinin a\u00e7ar\u0131 ba\u015fqas\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr. H\u0259r adam \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 torpa\u011fa onun a\u00e7arlar\u0131n\u0131 da basd\u0131r\u0131rlar. Biz \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 torpa\u011fa bizi – he\u00e7 bir vaxt a\u00e7\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f \u015fkaflar\u0131 basd\u0131racaqlar.\u00a0<\/span>

Aman allah, m\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r bo\u015f-bo\u015f dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. D\u0259m olsam da, bird\u0259n hiss el\u0259dim ki, o, m\u0259n\u0259 qulaq asm\u0131r v\u0259 harasa bax\u0131r.\u00a0<\/span>

– Hara bax\u0131rsan? – dey\u0259 m\u0259n k\u0259skin soru\u015fdum.\u00a0<\/span>

– Orda g\u00fczg\u00fc var. G\u00fczg\u00fcy\u0259 bax\u0131ram g\u00f6r\u0259m m\u0259n hans\u0131 c\u00fcr \u015fkafa ox\u015fay\u0131ram.\u00a0<\/span>

D\u0259niz\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f getdik. G\u0259miy\u0259 iki bilet ald\u0131m.\u00a0<\/span>

D\u0259nizd\u0259n \u0259s\u0259n k\u00fcl\u0259k \u018fsm\u0259rin sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259b s\u0259liq\u0259sini alt-\u00fcst edirdi, o iki \u0259ll\u0259 yayl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b, sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 birt\u0259h\u0259r qoruma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. M\u0259n onun \u00e7iyinl\u0259rini qucaqlad\u0131m.\u00a0<\/span>

G\u0259mi \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n get-ged\u0259 uzaqla\u015f\u0131r, d\u0259nizin \u00e7il-\u00e7\u0131raqlar\u0131n\u0131n \u0259ksin\u0259 boyanm\u0131\u015f i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n a\u011f\u0131r qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131na do\u011fru gedirdi. Televiziya q\u00fcll\u0259sinin konturlar\u0131 itmi\u015fdi, onun q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131-gec\u0259nii d\u00fcym\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

-\u018fsm\u0259r d\u0259smal\u0131yla \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6rtd\u00fc, ancaq aln\u0131 v\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri a\u00e7\u0131q qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Aln\u0131 v\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri k\u00f6z\u0259l idi. M\u0259n onun. ba\u015f yayl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb aln\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini \u00f6rtd\u00fcm. \u0130ndi burnu, dodaqlar\u0131, \u00e7\u0259n\u0259si a\u00e7\u0131q qal\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 onlar da k\u00f6z\u0259l idi.\u00a0<\/span>

M\u0259n yayl\u0131qla onun sif\u0259tinin m\u00fcxt\u0259lif t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259rini \u00f6rt\u00fcrd\u00fcm v\u0259 h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 qalan hiss\u0259l\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259l, kamil idil\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

G\u0259mi uzun bir fit verdi v\u0259 geri d\u00f6nm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. M\u0259n barmaqlar\u0131m\u0131 onun s\u0259rin \u0259lind\u0259 g\u0259zdirdim.\u00a0<\/span>

– \u018fzizim, – dedim, – s\u0259nin be\u015f barma\u011f\u0131n varm\u0131\u015f.\u00a0<\/span>

– Q\u0259rib\u0259dir, el\u0259mi, q\u0259rib\u0259dir ki, alt\u0131barmaq deyil\u0259m. O bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri yayl\u0131\u011f\u0131n dal\u0131ndan dedi, m\u0259n yayl\u0131\u011f\u0131 onun dodaqlar\u0131ndan qopard\u0131m v\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259ri \u00f6pm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m. M\u0259n hiss el\u0259dim ki, yayl\u0131\u011f\u0131 boynuma ke\u00e7irdi v\u0259 b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk dartd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

Onun sif\u0259tinin b\u00fct\u00fcn formalar\u0131n\u0131, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259zalar\u0131n\u0131 duyur v\u0259 \u018fsm\u0259rin p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fidirdim.\u00a0<\/span>

– Bax, g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259nmi, s\u0259ni buxovlad\u0131m, yayl\u0131\u011f\u0131mla. Biz aerodroma gedirdik v\u0259 m\u0259nim fikirl\u0259rim quma batm\u0131\u015f ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7arxlar\u0131 kimi bir yerd\u0259 h\u0259rl\u0259nirdi. h\u0259rl\u0259nib eyni br c\u00fcml\u0259y\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131: \u00abSahil boyu s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015f bal\u0131q\u00e7\u0131 komalar\u0131…\u00bb Bu q\u0131r\u0131q c\u00fcml\u0259 hardan d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc beynim\u0259. Onun m\u0259nas\u0131 n\u0259 idi, o kimd\u0259n, n\u0259d\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 n\u0259y\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bu c\u00fcml\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn q\u0259lbimi titr\u0259dir, a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131r?\u00a0<\/span>

\u018fsm\u0259r m\u00fchacirl\u0259rd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. M\u00fcxt\u0259lif \u00f6lk\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 rast g\u0259ldiyi m\u00fchacirl\u0259rd\u0259n. B\u0259zil\u0259rinin g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n g\u00fcz\u0259ran\u0131 da pis ke\u00e7mir, amma ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 eyni bir ifad\u0259 var – q\u0259riblik, yalq\u0131zl\u0131q ifad\u0259si.\u00a0<\/span>

M\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ki, b\u0259lk\u0259 biz d\u0259, \u018fsm\u0259r d\u0259, m\u0259n d\u0259 m\u00fchacirik. B\u00f6y\u00fckl\u0259r diyar\u0131na u\u015faql\u0131q \u00f6lk\u0259sind\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015f m\u00fchacirl\u0259r. Geri qay\u0131tmaq imkan\u0131ndan \u0259b\u0259di m\u0259hrum olmu\u015f m\u00fchacirl\u0259r. V\u0259t\u0259nl\u0259riy\u00e7\u00fcn q\u0259ribs\u0259mi\u015f m\u00fchacirl\u0259r.\u00a0<\/span>

– Dem\u0259li, birc\u0259 H\u0259\u015ft\u0259rxanda d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yik, s\u0259h\u0259r d\u0259 Moskvadayam. Heyf ki, s\u0259nin ad g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u0259 qala bilm\u0259dim, Bir g\u00f6r s\u0259n allah\u2026 – sonra o \u0259lav\u0259 etdi: – H\u0259l\u0259 ki, Moskvaday\u0131q, g\u0259l. Camalla m\u0259n \u00e7ox \u015fad olar\u0131q. \u00abYen\u0259 d\u0259 Camalla m\u0259n!\u00bb\u00a0<\/span>

– M\u0259n bilmirdim ki, Camal bel\u0259 m\u0259ns\u0259b qazan\u0131b. Diplomatik m\u0259clisl\u0259rd\u0259 \u015fampan a\u00e7maq nadir \u015f\u0259xsl\u0259r\u0259 n\u0259sib olan s\u0259ad\u0259tdir.\u00a0<\/span>

– Yax\u015f\u0131, ac\u0131dil olma, o, ayr\u0131 i\u015fl\u0259rl\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olur.\u00a0<\/span>

– Bilir\u0259m, bilir\u0259m, onun \u0259lind\u0259n h\u0259r i\u015f g\u0259lir. S\u0259hv el\u0259mir\u0259ms\u0259, cavanl\u0131qda \u00e7\u0259km\u0259\u00e7i olub.\u00a0<\/span>

– S\u0259n is\u0259 cavanl\u0131qda da axmaq olmusan, el\u0259 indi d\u0259 axmaqsan. B\u0259li, Camal \u00e7\u0259km\u0259\u00e7ilik el\u0259yib, b\u00f6y\u00fck, ail\u0259 saxlay\u0131b v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 oxuyub. Bel\u0259 \u015fey\u0259 ri\u015fx\u0259nd el\u0259m\u0259k ay\u0131bd\u0131r.\u00a0<\/span>

M\u0259n do\u011frudan da x\u0259cal\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kdim. T\u0259yyar\u0259y\u0259 yar\u0131m saatdan sonra min\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r, biz aeroportun kafesind\u0259 oturmu\u015fduq, vaxt \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131r ke\u00e7irdi. El\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259r olur ki, lim-h\u0259lim doludurlar, he\u00e7 bilmirs\u0259n nec\u0259 ke\u00e7irl\u0259r. Bo\u015f d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259 olur, i\u00e7ilmi\u015f \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 kimi, bilmirs\u0259n onlar\u0131 neyl\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n. Minik elan ed\u0259nd\u0259 rahat n\u0259f\u0259s ald\u0131m\u00a0<\/span>

– Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, bir az art\u0131q-\u0259skik dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, – dedim.\u00a0<\/span>

– Eybi yoxdur,- o h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 incik idi.\u00a0<\/span>

– \u0130ndi dedikl\u0259rim he\u00e7, bayaq kababxanada da \u00e7ox s\u0259feh s\u00f6zl\u0259r dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m.\u00a0<\/span>

– Ke\u00e7\u0259r, – dedi v\u0259 bu ondan e\u015fitdiyim son s\u00f6zl\u0259r idi.\u00a0<\/span>

Trap\u0131n yuxar\u0131 pill\u0259sind\u0259n \u00e7evrilib, \u0259l el\u0259di, sonra t\u0259yyar\u0259nin qaranl\u0131q qap\u0131s\u0131nda qeyb oldu. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259d\u0259n sonra o, uca qara k\u00f6yd\u0259 iki q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131, bir ya\u015f\u0131l i\u015f\u0131q n\u00f6qt\u0259si idi. \u0130yirmi d\u0259qiq\u0259 d\u0259 ke\u00e7di, ay\u0131n otuzu oldu v\u0259 m\u0259nim sinnim bir ya\u015f artd\u0131. Bu vaxt m\u0259n \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m v\u0259 kec\u0259 vitrinl\u0259rinin i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 soyuq, soyuq idi.\u00a0<\/span>

Amma n\u0259 is\u0259 xo\u015f bir rahatl\u0131q hissi, azadl\u0131q, asud\u0259lik hissi i\u00e7imi doldurmu\u015fdu. M\u0259n i\u015fim-pe\u015f\u0259m haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, sabah, yox, art\u0131q bu k\u00fcn s\u0259h\u0259r i\u015f masam\u0131n ard\u0131na ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259m.\u00a0<\/span>

Masam\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki b\u00f6y\u00fck a\u011f plan\u015fet haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm, fikirl\u0259\u015firdim ki, tu\u015fun n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 iyi var, yax\u015f\u0131 q\u0259dd\u0259nmi\u015f q\u0259l\u0259ml\u0259rin n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l formas\u0131 var.\u00a0<\/span>

Bir d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm ki, i\u015fd\u0259n, f\u0259aliyy\u0259td\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l d\u00fcnyada n\u0259 var v\u0259 bunlar\u0131n olmamas\u0131 n\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck faci\u0259dir. B\u00f6y\u00fck \u015f\u0259h\u0259r – m\u0259nim pe\u015f\u0259m – \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 ax\u0131rd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

S\u0259h\u0259r m\u0259ni yuxudan bac\u0131m\u0131n cingiltili s\u0259si oyatd\u0131.\u00a0<\/span>

– T\u0259brik edir\u0259m, t\u0259brik edir\u0259m. B\u00f6y\u00fck o\u011flan olasan, balaca bac\u0131n\u0131 incitm\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n. – \u018fyilib m\u0259ni \u00f6pd\u00fc, – s\u0259n\u0259 teleqram g\u0259lib. H\u0259\u015ft\u0259rxandan. G\u00fcrc\u00fcd\u0259ndir.\u00a0<\/span>

M\u0259n teleqram\u0131 qapd\u0131m. \u0130ki s\u00f6z. \u00abT\u0259brik. \u00f6p\u00fcr\u0259m.\u00bb Bir d\u0259 imza: \u00abKamikadze\u00bb.<\/span>

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  (hekay\u0259) Bu n\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 teleqram idi: \u00abMuradov Oqtaya 29 Bak\u0131dayam Reys 203 Qar\u015f\u0131la\u00bb \u0130mzas\u0131z! 203-c\u00fc reysl\u0259 u\u00e7an t\u0259yyar\u0259 Moskvadan g\u0259lir.\u00a0Amma ax\u0131 kim ola? Moskvadan he\u00e7 k\u0259s g\u0259l\u0259si deyil.\u00a0He\u00e7 kimi g\u00f6zl\u0259mir\u0259m. Bu teleqram\u0131 kim vurub g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n?.. A\u011fl\u0131ma he\u00e7 k\u0259s g\u0259lmir.\u00a0H\u0259l\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, teleqram\u0131 anam al\u0131b. Bac\u0131m alsayd\u0131, g\u00f6r n\u0259 m\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ydi. D\u00fcz bir il m\u0259ni dolayacaqd\u0131.\u00a0S\u0259h\u0259r […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":3627,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8809"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=8809"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8809\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8810,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8809\/revisions\/8810"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/3627"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=8809"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=8809"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=8809"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}