{"id":8859,"date":"2015-03-18T09:48:24","date_gmt":"2015-03-18T05:48:24","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=8859"},"modified":"2015-03-18T09:48:24","modified_gmt":"2015-03-18T05:48:24","slug":"yusif-hansen-birini-sevdim","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=8859","title":{"rendered":"Yusif HANSEN &#8212; Birini sevdim"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/03\/DSC_0092.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignright wp-image-8860 \" src=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2015\/03\/DSC_0092-300x300.jpg\" alt=\"DSC_0092\" width=\"231\" height=\"231\" \/><\/a>\u00a0(ESSE)<\/p>\n<p>Siz he\u00e7 a\u015fiq oldunuzmu? M\u0259n olmad\u0131m.<br \/>\nAmma, sevdim. Birini sevdim. Ki\u00e7ik x\u0259yallar\u0131 var idi. X\u0259yallar\u0131n\u0131 sevdim. Amma, ayr\u0131ld\u0131q. Sevgiy\u0259 r\u0259\u011fm\u0259n ayr\u0131ld\u0131q. Ay\u0131rd\u0131lar bizi.<br \/>\nQoruyub saxlaya bilm\u0259dik sevgimizi.<\/p>\n<p>Uzun ill\u0259r sevgiy\u0259 inanm\u0131rd\u0131m. Onunla qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fana q\u0259d\u0259r. M\u0259n onun sad\u0259liyini sevmi\u015fdim. Evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xandan b\u0259z\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259n, kosmetika vurmayan sad\u0259liyini. He\u00e7 unutmaram. Aprel ay\u0131 idi. Film\u0259 baxma\u011fa getmi\u015fdik. G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc ondan \u00e7\u0259k\u0259 bilmirdim, fikrim kinoda deyil d\u0259, m\u0259hz onda idi. Bir insan nec\u0259 d\u0259 m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s olarm\u0131\u015f ki. Adi \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fm\u0259 s\u0259hn\u0259sind\u0259 gah g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumar, gah da dig\u0259r yer\u0259 baxard\u0131. Bax m\u0259n bel\u0259 bir q\u0131z\u0131 sevmi\u015fdim.<\/p>\n<p>Sevm\u0259k n\u0259dir m\u0259n onunla \u00f6yr\u0259ndim. \u0130ncir Re\u00e7elind\u0259 deyil\u0259n kimi onu m\u0259hz toxunmadan sevm\u0259yi \u00f6yr\u0259ndim.<\/p>\n<p>Gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz dan\u0131\u015fard\u0131q. \u0130nternetd\u0259n sms-\u0259, sms-d\u0259n telefon z\u0259ngl\u0259rin\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259rdik. H\u0259min vaxtlar kas\u0131b idim. Tez-tez mesaj g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn balans\u0131mda pul olmazd\u0131. O is\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n k\u00fcs\u00fcb inciy\u0259rdi. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rdi ki, onu unutmu\u015fam, saym\u0131ram. Amma, h\u0259r gec\u0259 yatmazdan qabaq m\u00fctl\u0259q bar\u0131\u015fard\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki, o k\u00fcs\u00fcl\u00fc yata bil\u0259n insan deyildi. Bax bel\u0259 xarakteri \u00a0var idi.<\/p>\n<p>O vaxtlar \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131r xasiyy\u0259tim var idi. M\u0259ni m\u0259hz oldu\u011fum kimi q\u0259bul etmi\u015fdi. \u00c7ox nadir hallarda bel\u0259 insanla rastla\u015fmaq olar. M\u0259n is\u0259 onu qoruyub saxlaya bilm\u0259dim. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131n \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck s\u0259hvini etdim.<\/p>\n<p>Ayr\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z vaxtdan ill\u0259r ke\u00e7ib. Bir \u015f\u0259kli bel\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259 qalmay\u0131b. Simas\u0131n\u0131 unutmu\u015fam. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fsaq tan\u0131maram. Yaln\u0131z xatir\u0259l\u0259rim qal\u0131b. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 el\u0259 m\u0259hz o xatir\u0259l\u0259rdir, m\u0259ni xo\u015fb\u0259xt olma\u011fa qoymayan.<\/p>\n<p>O g\u00fcn ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131 binan\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda ad\u0131n\u0131 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131m. \u00c7ar\u0259siz idim, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m dayanmadan ax\u0131rd\u0131. Bird\u0259n \u0259lini \u00e7iynim\u0259 qoydu\u011funu hiss etdim. Qula\u011f\u0131ma p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131 il\u0259 dedi. \u201cB\u0259zi e\u015fql\u0259r vard\u0131r, intiqamla b\u0259sl\u0259nir. B\u0259zi e\u015fql\u0259r vard\u0131r, ayr\u0131l\u0131qla g\u00fccl\u0259nir. B\u0259zi e\u015fql\u0259r is\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcr. \u00dcz\u00fclm\u0259, ba\u011f\u0131rma, sava\u015fma. Art\u0131q q\u0259bul etm\u0259k zaman\u0131. B\u0259zi e\u015fql\u0259r vard\u0131r ki, xo\u015fb\u0259xt sonluqla bitm\u0259z. Bizimki el\u0259 bir e\u015fq idi.\u201d H\u0259min an yuxudan ay\u0131ld\u0131m. G\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 ax\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259n h\u0259r g\u00fcn, h\u0259r saat \u00f6l\u00fcr\u0259m. Onu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckc\u0259, xat\u0131rlad\u0131qca. Sonunda m\u0259hv olaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bil\u0259r\u0259k. H\u0259r d\u0259qiq\u0259 bir az da. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u0259 daha da yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131ram. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 el\u0259 o vaxt \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ruhum. Bizi ay\u0131randa. Sad\u0259c\u0259 b\u0259d\u0259nim \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r. He\u00e7 \u00fcz\u00fclm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259z, n\u0259 vaxtsa bir yerd\u0259 olaca\u011f\u0131q. L\u0259n\u0259tl\u0259nmi\u015f d\u00fcnyadan, murdar c\u0259miyy\u0259td\u0259n \u00e7ox uzaqda.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p class=\"bawpvc-ajax-counter\" data-id=\"8859\">Yaz\u0131ya 916 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u00a0(ESSE) Siz he\u00e7 a\u015fiq oldunuzmu? M\u0259n olmad\u0131m. Amma, sevdim. Birini sevdim. Ki\u00e7ik x\u0259yallar\u0131 var idi. X\u0259yallar\u0131n\u0131 sevdim. Amma, ayr\u0131ld\u0131q. Sevgiy\u0259 r\u0259\u011fm\u0259n ayr\u0131ld\u0131q. Ay\u0131rd\u0131lar bizi. Qoruyub saxlaya bilm\u0259dik sevgimizi. Uzun ill\u0259r sevgiy\u0259 inanm\u0131rd\u0131m. Onunla qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fana q\u0259d\u0259r. M\u0259n onun sad\u0259liyini sevmi\u015fdim. Evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xandan b\u0259z\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259n, kosmetika vurmayan sad\u0259liyini. He\u00e7 unutmaram. Aprel ay\u0131 idi. Film\u0259 baxma\u011fa getmi\u015fdik. G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc ondan [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8859"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=8859"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8859\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8861,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8859\/revisions\/8861"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=8859"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=8859"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=8859"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}