{"id":8924,"date":"2015-03-27T22:22:16","date_gmt":"2015-03-27T18:22:16","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=8924"},"modified":"2015-03-27T22:22:16","modified_gmt":"2015-03-27T18:22:16","slug":"gunel-natiq-m%c9%99h%c9%99bb%c9%99t-quslari-esse","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=8924","title":{"rendered":"G\u00fcnel Natiq — M\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t qu\u015flar\u0131 (esse)"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Bir d\u0259f\u0259 bir rus xan\u0131m teleapar\u0131c\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fcsahib\u0259sini oxumu\u015fdum: \u201cYalq\u0131zl\u0131q bilirsiz n\u0259dir? Sizin telefonunuz var, amma z\u0259ngli saat\u0131n\u0131z z\u0259ng \u00e7al\u0131r\u201d.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n d\u0259 t\u0259nhal\u0131\u011f\u0131 mobil telefonla hiss etdim. N\u0259 vaxt ki, mobil telefon m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn z\u0259ngli saat\u0131, g\u00fcnd\u0259liyi v\u0259 t\u0259qvimi \u0259v\u0259z el\u0259di. \u018fsas funksiyas\u0131n\u0131 unutdum bir ara. El\u0259 \u201csaat\u201d dem\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m telefona. \u201cSaat\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259misiz\u201d? \u201cTelefon dem\u0259k ist\u0259dim\u201d-dey\u0259 izah etm\u0259k art\u0131q idi. Onsuz da ham\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 baxanda t\u0259nhal\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u201cM\u0259nd\u0259 xroniki t\u0259nhal\u0131q var\u201d,- dem\u0259k ist\u0259dim bir d\u0259f\u0259. M\u0259n\u0259 diqq\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259 vaxt itirm\u0259yin, m\u0259n t\u0259nhal\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan ayr\u0131la bilm\u0259r\u0259m. Ya da o m\u0259nd\u0259n qopa bilm\u0259z. Biz bir-birimiz\u0259 \u00e7ox ba\u011fl\u0131y\u0131q- M\u0259n v\u0259 t\u0259nhal\u0131q. H\u0259tta mobil telefonum da bizi ay\u0131ra bilm\u0259di. H\u0259tta o adam da, hans\u0131 ki, h\u0259tta m\u0259nim eyn\u0259yimi d\u0259 b\u0259y\u0259nirdi. \u201cD\u00f6rdg\u00f6z\u201d- deyirdi, kefi k\u00f6k olanda. M\u0259n d\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fcm, kefim k\u00f6k olanda. H\u0259r\u00e7\u0259nd ikimiz d\u0259 bilirdik ki, adi bir s\u00f6zd\u0259n inciyib k\u00fcs\u0259 bilir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Amma bu adam\u0131n yax\u015f\u0131 enerjisi var idi, m\u0259ni g\u00fcld\u00fcr\u0259 bilirdi. Qad\u0131nlar onlar\u0131 g\u00fcld\u00fcr\u0259 bil\u0259n adamlar\u0131 xo\u015flay\u0131rlar. Y\u0259qin o da bunu bilirdi. Mobil telefonum da bilirdi. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 o mesajlar\u0131 silm\u0259y\u0259 q\u0131ym\u0131rd\u0131. Yalq\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m da bilirdi bunu. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 \u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xt vaxtlar\u0131mda da yan\u0131mdan ayr\u0131lm\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram, \u0259n pis c\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259rimi sadalay\u0131b ax\u0131rda eyn\u0259k taxd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, lap ax\u0131rda is\u0259 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 demi\u015fdim. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fcn ifad\u0259si d\u0259yi\u015fmirdi, el\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259-g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131, lap ax\u0131rda is\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/p>\n

-B\u00fct\u00fcn keyfiyy\u0259tl\u0259rini \u00e7ox sevdim. \u018fn g\u00f6z\u0259li is\u0259 \u0259n ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 olan\u0131yd\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

Q\u0259rib\u0259 adamd\u0131, he\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nmirdi. Biz ikimiz d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n q\u0259rib\u0259 adamlar\u0131 idik. \u00c7\u00fcnki \u0259n \u00e7ox pi\u015fikl\u0259ri, itl\u0259ri v\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t qu\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 sevirdik. \u201cM\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t qu\u015flar\u0131\u201d- o, tutuqu\u015fulara deyirdi:<\/p>\n

-Burda yeni bir qu\u015f alanda m\u00fctl\u0259q \u0259lav\u0259 bir q\u0259f\u0259s d\u0259 almal\u0131san. \u00c7\u00fcnki ana q\u0259f\u0259sd\u0259ki o biri qu\u015flar onu ist\u0259m\u0259yib incid\u0259 bil\u0259r. Qu\u015f da insan kimidir, h\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yi isinmir. Evd\u0259 t\u0259k bir erk\u0259k qu\u015fum vard\u0131. T\u0259k qalmas\u0131n dey\u0259 di\u015fisini d\u0259 alacaqd\u0131m.\u00a0 Amma t\u0259z\u0259 qu\u015fun q\u0259riblik \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n, ist\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n d\u0259 ehtiyat edirdim. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 di\u015fi qu\u015fla b\u0259rab\u0259r h\u0259r ehtimala qar\u015f\u0131 \u0259lav\u0259 bir q\u0259f\u0259s d\u0259 ald\u0131m.\u00a0 Ev\u0259 g\u0259tirdim. El\u0259 bil qu\u015flar bu an\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdil\u0259r; el\u0259 bil bir-birl\u0259rini lap \u00e7oxdan tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131lar. H\u0259sr\u0259tlil\u0259r kimi bir-birl\u0259rin\u0259 \u201csar\u0131ld\u0131lar\u201d. Y\u0259qin ki, \u201csevgi\u201d deyil\u0259n \u015fey bu idi.<\/p>\n

O, qu\u015flar haqqnda dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r, hardasa zarafata sal\u0131rd\u0131. Amma m\u0259n bilirdim ki, \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc o, bu c\u00fcr ifad\u0259 edir. Onun h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n \u0259n q\u0259rib m\u0259qam\u0131 o tutuqu\u015fularla ba\u011fl\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n

-Onlar m\u0259ni anlay\u0131rd\u0131, s\u0259n inan\u0131rsan?<\/p>\n

M\u0259n inan\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

-Bizim aram\u0131zda q\u0259rib\u0259 bir t\u0259mas vard\u0131. Sanki bir-birimizi hiss edirdik. M\u0259nim h\u0259yatdan k\u00fcsd\u00fcy\u00fcm vaxtlar idi. \u2013deyirdi o.<\/p>\n

Aram\u0131zda sulug\u00f6z olan m\u0259n idim, tutuqu\u015fulardan dan\u0131\u015fanda is\u0259 ikimizin d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolurdu.<\/p>\n

-Onlar\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259 m\u0259n s\u0259b\u0259b oldum- deyirdi.<\/p>\n

Qu\u015flarla ba\u011fl\u0131 bu hekay\u0259t do\u011frudan \u00e7ox k\u0259d\u0259rli idi. Onlar\u0131n ba\u011fr\u0131 \u00e7atlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131- istid\u0259n.<\/p>\n

-M\u0259n onlar\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131nda qoyub siqaret alma\u011fa getdim. \u015e\u00fc\u015f\u0259l\u0259r ba\u011fl\u0131 idi. He\u00e7 n\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259lm\u0259di\u2026 Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259d\u0259n sonra qay\u0131td\u0131m\u2026 Yerimd\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdim\u2026 Arxadan s\u0259s g\u0259lmirdi\u2026 Halbuki onlar m\u0259ni g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259ri an s\u0259s-s\u0259s\u0259 ver\u0259rdil\u0259r. He\u00e7 vaxt bel\u0259 s\u0259ssiz olmazd\u0131lar\u2026 M\u0259n arxaya \u00e7evrildim v\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

O \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131nay\u0131r, he\u00e7 c\u00fcr ba\u011f\u0131\u015flaya bilmirdi.<\/p>\n

H\u0259min vaxt o evd\u0259n k\u00fcsm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, \u0259slind\u0259 bird\u0259f\u0259lik ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 yaln\u0131z o qu\u015flar\u0131- m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t qu\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

-Onlar m\u0259ni anlay\u0131rd\u0131lar\u2026 -deyirdi o.<\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n onu o qu\u015flar kimi anlaya bilm\u0259dim.
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 m\u0259nim d\u0259 ba\u011fr\u0131m \u00e7atlad\u0131, n\u0259 bilim.
\nM\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fcm b\u0259lk\u0259.
\nOndan da, \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n d\u0259, yalq\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan da x\u0259b\u0259rsiz\u2026.<\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 o, bunda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcnahkar bildi. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259di. Geri d\u00f6n\u0259nd\u0259 \u201carxa oturaca\u011fa\u201d bax\u0131b \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259km\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

Mobil telefon s\u0259ssizd\u0259ydi.<\/p>\n

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Yaz\u0131ya 1542 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Bir d\u0259f\u0259 bir rus xan\u0131m teleapar\u0131c\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fcsahib\u0259sini oxumu\u015fdum: \u201cYalq\u0131zl\u0131q bilirsiz n\u0259dir? Sizin telefonunuz var, amma z\u0259ngli saat\u0131n\u0131z z\u0259ng \u00e7al\u0131r\u201d. M\u0259n d\u0259 t\u0259nhal\u0131\u011f\u0131 mobil telefonla hiss etdim. N\u0259 vaxt ki, mobil telefon m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn z\u0259ngli saat\u0131, g\u00fcnd\u0259liyi v\u0259 t\u0259qvimi \u0259v\u0259z el\u0259di. \u018fsas funksiyas\u0131n\u0131 unutdum bir ara. El\u0259 \u201csaat\u201d dem\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131m telefona. \u201cSaat\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259misiz\u201d? \u201cTelefon dem\u0259k ist\u0259dim\u201d-dey\u0259 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16,14,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8924"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=8924"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8924\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8926,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8924\/revisions\/8926"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=8924"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=8924"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=8924"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}