{"id":9224,"date":"2015-05-02T15:02:56","date_gmt":"2015-05-02T10:02:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=9224"},"modified":"2015-05-02T15:02:56","modified_gmt":"2015-05-02T10:02:56","slug":"bu-vicdansizin-seirl%c9%99ri","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=9224","title":{"rendered":"“Bu vicdans\u0131z”\u0131n \u015feirl\u0259ri…"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"saqif<\/a>(G\u018fNC \u015eA\u0130R SAQ\u0130F ZEYNALIN \u015eE\u0130RL\u018fR\u0130 HAQQINDA)<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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Yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7m\u0259zd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l\u00a0 onun \u00f6z\u00fc haqq\u0131nda m\u0259lumat verm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Ad\u0131 Saqif,soyad\u0131 Zeynalov. 1990-c\u0131 ild\u0259 La\u00e7\u0131nda anadan olub.1992-ci ild\u0259\u00a0 erm\u0259ni c\u0259lladlar\u0131n\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n qurtulmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ail\u0259si onu La\u00e7\u0131n torpa\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b A\u011fcb\u0259dinin \u201cTaxta k\u00f6rp\u00fc\u201d q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259sin\u0259 \u00fcz tutub.Onlar La\u00e7\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xsa da La\u00e7\u0131n ad\u0131, La\u00e7\u0131n qoxusu, La\u00e7\u0131n sevgisi onun u\u015faq hafiz\u0259snd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmay\u0131b,\u0259ksin\u0259 boy at\u0131b, \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 yol tap\u0131b, qan\u0131na qar\u0131\u015f\u0131b.<\/p>\n

Saqif g\u0259ncdir, h\u0259l\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259lik h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fay\u0131r. A\u011fcab\u0259did\u0259 f\u0259aliyy\u0259t\u00a0 g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n \u201c\u018fl\u0259k\u201d \u0259d\u0259bi m\u0259clisinin \u0259n \u0259rk\u00f6y\u00fcn, \u015f\u0131ltaq \u00fczv\u00fcd\u00fcr.B\u0259z\u0259n k\u00fcsm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u0259han\u0259 axtarma\u011f\u0131 da var. Bunlar\u0131 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 qeyd edir\u0259m ki, Saqifin \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259 d\u0259 bu xarakteri ayd\u0131n hiss etm\u0259k olur. Y\u0259ni,Saqifin \u015feirl\u0259ri onun \u00fcr\u0259yinin g\u00fczg\u00fcs\u00fcd\u00fcr. V\u0259t\u0259n nisgili, el-oba sevgisi,\u00f6z soyuna ba\u011fl\u0131l\u0131q,\u0259rk\u00f6y\u00fcnl\u00fck, davakarl\u0131q bu \u015feirl\u0259rd\u0259 ayd\u0131n hiss olunur. Bu is\u0259 \u015feirl\u0259rin daha s\u0259mimi olmas\u0131na v\u0259 oxucunu yormamas\u0131na s\u0259b\u0259b olur.<\/p>\n

Amma h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n \u00f6nc\u0259,o , yarad\u0131c\u0131 insand\u0131r.Yarad\u0131c\u0131 insan is\u0259 \u00a0yaln\u0131z \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yaratm\u0131r,\u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ya\u015fam\u0131r. Bu insanlar\u0131n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259sind\u0259 ad\u0259t\u0259n \u201cm\u0259n\u201d yox, \u201cbiz\u201d m\u0259fhumu var.Sad\u0259c\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn \u201cbizl\u0259r\u201d o \u201cm\u0259n\u201din \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 c\u0259ml\u0259\u015fir, ona y\u00fckl\u0259nir, onu s\u0131x\u0131r, onu \u0259zir, onu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u00fcr v\u0259 sonunda onu b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcr. O, bu d\u0259rdl\u0259ri t\u0259k d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr, t\u0259k \u00e7ar\u0259 axtar\u0131r :<\/p>\n

Bir ba\u015f en\u0259r h\u0259r gec\u0259,<\/p>\n

En\u0259r qolumun \u00fcst\u0259.<\/p>\n

B\u0259li, bu bir \u015fair \u00f6mr\u00fcd\u00fcr.\u00a0 Ba\u015fqalar\u0131 \u015firin yuxudayk\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qollar\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 endirib\u00a0 b\u00fct\u00fcn gec\u0259 boyu d\u00fcnyan\u0131 alt-\u00fcst etm\u0259k, probleml\u0259rd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f yolu axtarmaq…<\/p>\n

Qeyd etdiyim kimi g\u0259nc \u015fairin\u00a0 bir \u00e7ox \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259 v\u0259t\u0259n a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 var. V\u0259 bu, ad\u0259t etdiyimiz, ill\u0259rdir m\u00fcxt\u0259lif ba\u015fl\u0131qlarla t\u0259krarlanan, etiraf ed\u0259k ki, oxucuya\u00a0 art\u0131q \u00e7ox s\u00fcni t\u0259sir ba\u011f\u0131\u015flayan yalan\u00e7\u0131 v\u0259t\u0259np\u0259rv\u0259rlik deyil. Saqif \u0259slind\u0259 bu m\u00f6vzuda daha h\u0259ssas olanlardand\u0131r. \u00c7\u00fcnki, o,do\u011fuldu\u011fu m\u0259kan\u0131,torpa\u011f\u0131 t\u0259rk etm\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259cbur edilmi\u015f, \u00e7ad\u0131rlarda ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131n, acl\u0131\u011f\u0131n, s\u0259fal\u0259tin, kas\u0131b\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n v\u0259 \u0259n \u0259sas\u0131 v\u0259t\u0259n i\u00e7ind\u0259 v\u0259t\u0259nsizliyin n\u0259 oldu\u011funu a\u011f\u0131zdan e\u015fitm\u0259mi\u015f, g\u00f6zl\u0259riyl\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f, ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fd\u0131r. Bu \u015feirl\u0259rd\u0259 pafos yoxdur,s\u0259mimiyy\u0259t var, ac\u0131 h\u0259qiq\u0259t var,bu ac\u0131lar\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f \u00fcr\u0259k var. Onun \u201cTraktor ki\u015fi\u201d \u015feirin\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r salaq :<\/p>\n

Qocald\u0131 atam\u0131n o\u011flan\u00a0 belarusu<\/p>\n

V\u0259t\u0259n h\u0259sr\u0259ti onun da belini b\u00fckd\u00fc<\/p>\n

Satd\u0131 ucuz qiym\u0259t\u0259,<\/p>\n

Traktora x\u0259yan\u0259t etdi atam…<\/p>\n

La\u00e7\u0131ndan g\u0259tiril\u0259n yegan\u0259 xatir\u0259ni, yegan\u0259 yadigar\u0131 satma\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 ucuz qiym\u0259t\u0259 satma\u011f\u0131 x\u0259yan\u0259t adland\u0131r\u0131r Saqif. Bu hiss bir \u00e7oxumuzda var. \u0130tirdiyimiz, uzaq d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz \u0259zizl\u0259rimizin hans\u0131sa bir \u0259\u015fyas\u0131n\u0131, geyimini saxlamaqla o \u015f\u0259xsi daim yan\u0131m\u0131zda kimi hiss edir,onu itirs\u0259k sanki o \u015f\u0259xsi itirdiyimizi, ona x\u0259yan\u0259t etdiyimizi\u00a0 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u00fck.Saqifin h\u0259min \u0259zizi is\u0259 La\u00e7\u0131nd\u0131r. V\u0259 La\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n yadigar\u0131 olan traktoru\u00a0 \u201csatma\u011f\u0131\u201d\u00a0 o, \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck ac\u0131 il\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131lay\u0131r.M\u00fc\u0259llif atas\u0131n\u0131 q\u0131nay\u0131r amma bu q\u0131na\u011f\u0131n ard\u0131yca \u0259slind\u0259 atan\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 bunun asan olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 etiraf edirc\u0259sin\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131qlay\u0131r :<\/p>\n

Traktor atam\u0131n La\u00e7\u0131ndan qalan<\/p>\n

Yegan\u0259 yadigar\u0131yd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yad\u0131mdad\u0131: traktorun \u201cayaqqab\u0131\u201ds\u0131nda<\/p>\n

La\u00e7\u0131ndan g\u0259l\u0259n torpa\u011f\u0131<\/p>\n

Y\u0131\u011f\u0131b saxlay\u0131rd\u0131,<\/p>\n

H\u0259r gec\u0259 qoxulay\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n

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Ham\u0131m\u0131za tan\u0131\u015f bir m\u0259s\u0259l var : \u201cD\u0259v\u0259si \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f \u0259r\u0259b\u201d. D\u0259v\u0259si \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015f \u0259r\u0259b \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259yat n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ac\u0131d\u0131rsa,,\u00e7\u0259tindirs\u0259, \u015feird\u0259 haqq\u0131nda b\u0259hs olunan ail\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 \u0259slind\u0259 h\u0259min traktor bir dolan\u0131\u015f\u0131q yeri,\u201d\u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k a\u011fac\u0131\u201dd\u0131r. Ata olmasa traktor, traktor olmasa ata\u00a0 t\u0259kba\u015f\u0131na bu ail\u0259nin ehtiyaclar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6d\u0259y\u0259, doland\u0131ra bilm\u0259z. Qa\u00e7q\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131n, yoxsullu\u011fun sill\u0259 \u2013t\u0259piyi alt\u0131nda ya\u015fayan ail\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn traktor v\u0259 ata eyni m\u0259fhumdur. Onlar\u0131n h\u0259r ikisin\u0259 eyni m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t var. Ac\u0131 da olsa bu, reall\u0131qd\u0131r. G\u0259nc \u015fair h\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259 cans\u0131z g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n d\u0259mirin \u201cs\u0259daq\u0259tini\u201d unuda bilmir v\u0259 ona olan sevgisini d\u0259 gizl\u0259tmir. H\u0259tta atas\u0131n\u0131 ona b\u0259nz\u0259d\u0259r\u0259k bu iki sevgini \u00fcmumil\u0259\u015fdirir:<\/p>\n

\u00c7ox s\u0259daq\u0259tliydi<\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsun<\/p>\n

Atam\u0131 yar\u0131 yolda qoymam\u0131\u015fd\u0131…<\/p>\n

Qoxusu hopmu\u015fdu \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259,<\/p>\n

O qoxu h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 g\u0259lir atamdan.<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l qoxusu<\/p>\n

Atamdan g\u0259l\u0259n mazut qoxusuydu…<\/p>\n

Bir d\u0259f\u0259<\/p>\n

Atam\u0131n t\u00fckl\u00fc sin\u0259sin\u0259,<\/p>\n

Mazutlu \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nanda<\/p>\n

Onun da traktor oldu\u011funu d\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm…<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yi d\u0259 motor kimi i\u015fl\u0259yirdi el\u0259 bil…<\/p>\n

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\u201cBu vicdans\u0131z\u201d \u015feirind\u0259 m\u00fcharib\u0259nin ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 dadan, kas\u0131b\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 ya\u015fayan bir ail\u0259nin simas\u0131nda m\u00fc\u0259llif bir \u00e7ox ail\u0259l\u0259rin eyni taleyini t\u0259svir edib:<\/p>\n

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Yad\u0131mdad\u0131r, qa\u00e7q\u0131n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb<\/p>\n

Bu \u201ccanl\u0131\u201d c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra<\/p>\n

H\u0259r g\u00fcn oyuncaq davalayard\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qurdu\u011fumuz<\/p>\n

Qam\u0131\u015f daxal\u0131 qana \u00e7alxam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m tifilliyiml\u0259…<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn t\u0259p\u0259rli s\u0259si il\u0259<\/p>\n

Atam m\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z verdi:<\/p>\n

\u201cBir az da b\u00f6y\u00fc<\/p>\n

S\u0259n\u0259 velosiped alacam\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cM\u00fctl\u0259q\u201d dey\u0259<\/p>\n

M\u00fcjd\u0259l\u0259di d\u0259…<\/p>\n

B\u0259llidir ki,h\u0259r bir valideyin \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u0259y\u0259, onlar\u0131 laz\u0131mi m\u0259qama \u00e7atd\u0131rma\u011fa h\u0259sr edir.Bu \u015feird\u0259 is\u0259 Saqif \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n tez b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259sini t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf hissi il\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131layan ata obraz\u0131n\u0131 yaratmaqla \u0259slind\u0259 bu ail\u0259l\u0259rin t\u0259kc\u0259 maddi yox, n\u0259 boyda m\u0259n\u0259vi s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 dil\u0259 g\u0259tirir. \u00d6vlad\u0131na etdiyi v\u0259di maddi s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n yerin\u0259 yetir\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259n ata o q\u0259d\u0259r sars\u0131nt\u0131 ke\u00e7irir ki, art\u0131q \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f oldu\u011fu bel\u0259 onu sevindirm\u0259k \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 \u201ct\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf\u201dl\u0259ndirir:<\/p>\n

\u018fslind\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131n b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259yini<\/p>\n

\u0130st\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn kas\u0131b atalar kimi<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim d\u0259 atam b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259yimi ist\u0259mirdi.<\/p>\n

Yan\u0131mda x\u0259cal\u0259t olaca\u011f\u0131ndan qorxurmu\u015f kimi<\/p>\n

Ax\u015famlar ev\u0259 m\u0259n yatandan sonra g\u0259lib,<\/p>\n

S\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r m\u0259n durmam\u0131\u015fdan gedirdi…<\/p>\n

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H\u0259rd\u0259n q\u0259z\u0259b dolu bax\u0131\u015flarla m\u0259n\u0259 zill\u0259nib<\/p>\n

Anama bel\u0259 dey\u0259rdi:<\/p>\n

\u201cBu vicdans\u0131z nec\u0259 d\u0259 tez b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fc\u201d…<\/p>\n

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Yuxar\u0131dak\u0131 \u015feirin motivini g\u0259nc \u015fair Emin Pirinin bir \u015feirind\u0259 d\u0259 oxuyuruq:<\/p>\n

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\u201c\u00c7\u0259tin ke\u00e7ib u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131m,<\/p>\n

Ayaqqab\u0131m y\u0131rt\u0131lard\u0131,<\/p>\n

B\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259nd\u0259 aya\u011f\u0131m…<\/p>\n

Aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131z b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259sin dey\u0259<\/p>\n

Dua etmisinizmi he\u00e7?!\u201d<\/p>\n

B\u0259li, dem\u0259k ki, bu tale, bu a\u011fr\u0131, bu h\u0259sr\u0259t m\u00fcharib\u0259nin z\u0259rb\u0259sini alm\u0131\u015f bir \u00e7ox u\u015faqlar\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n bir par\u00e7as\u0131 imi\u015f. Bu m\u00f6vzunun \u015fer\u0259 g\u0259li\u015fi is\u0259 h\u0259min h\u0259yat\u0131n i\u015ftirak\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 olan u\u015faqlar\u0131n q\u0259l\u0259mi il\u0259 daha t\u0259sirli al\u0131n\u0131b.<\/p>\n

V\u0259t\u0259n a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131\u00a0 Saqifin sevgi \u015feirl\u0259rinin d\u0259 i\u00e7in\u0259 s\u0131z\u0131b.\u00a0 M\u00fc\u0259llifin \u201cBir sevda qal\u0131q…\u201d adl\u0131 \u015feirind\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi:<\/p>\n

B\u00f6ld\u00fcl\u0259r ikiy\u0259 bizi<\/p>\n

Birimiz \u015eimal olduq,<\/p>\n

Birimiz C\u0259nub.<\/p>\n

Biz ki, ayr\u0131lmazd\u0131q he\u00e7.<\/p>\n

Bu \u015feird\u0259 iki sevgid\u0259n b\u0259hs olunur. Saqif iki sevgini, iki ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131, iki g\u00f6yn\u0259rtini, iki h\u0259sr\u0259ti bir \u015feir\u0259 s\u0131\u011fd\u0131r\u0131b, bir \u015feird\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131b. Bunlardan biri onun \u00fcr\u0259yini al\u0131b ged\u0259n v\u0259 ya getm\u0259y\u0259\u00a0 m\u0259cbur edil\u0259n yar, dig\u0259ri is\u0259 yen\u0259 d\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fcn\u0259n, iki yer\u0259 par\u00e7alanan\u00a0 V\u0259t\u0259ndir. H\u0259r iki sevgi 3-c\u00fc t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n par\u00e7alan\u0131b. H\u0259r iki ayr\u0131l\u0131q\u00a0 bu sevgini unutdura bilm\u0259yib, \u0259ksin\u0259 , t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259r h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259\u00a0 bir-birin\u0259 can at\u0131b, v\u00fcsala \u00e7atmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yan\u0131b, qovrulub :<\/p>\n

Biz he\u00e7 vaxt\u0131 tam b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u0259dik<\/p>\n

H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bir sevda qal\u0131q qald\u0131 aram\u0131zda…<\/p>\n

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V\u0259 ya :<\/p>\n

Biri g\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc t\u00f6kd\u00fc,<\/p>\n

Biri yerimizi s\u00f6kd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Taleyimiz bir saps\u0131z iyn\u0259y\u0259 qald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Aram\u0131zda olan sevgi<\/p>\n

Xudaf\u0259rin k\u00f6rp\u00fcs\u00fc t\u0259k<\/p>\n

G\u00f6yn\u0259y\u0259-g\u00f6yn\u0259y\u0259 qald\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yarad\u0131c\u0131 insan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259n \u0259sas keyfiyy\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259n biri onun m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259\u00e7ilik qabiliyy\u0259tinin olmas\u0131d\u0131r.M\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259\u00e7i insan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259traf\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc \u0259n x\u0131rda, adi bir h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t, bir \u0259\u015fya, bir k\u0259s d\u0259 yarad\u0131lacaq \u0259s\u0259rin m\u00f6vzusuna \u00e7evril\u0259 bilir. Saqif d\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc, ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131, hiss etdiyi m\u0259qamlar\u0131 \u00f6z bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan ke\u00e7irib s\u00f6z\u0259 \u00e7evirm\u0259yi bacar\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131, ya\u011fmurlu hava h\u0259r zaman insanlarda romantik hissl\u0259r oyad\u0131r, duy\u011fusal anlar ya\u015fad\u0131r.T\u0259bii ki, isti odam\u0131zda, bir fincan \u00e7ay qar\u015f\u0131m\u0131zda,h\u0259zin musiqinin s\u0259das\u0131 alt\u0131nda , p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dayan\u0131b ucal\u0131qlar\u0131n yer\u0259 s\u0259pdiyi ya\u011f\u0131\u015f damlalar\u0131n\u0131 seyr etm\u0259k , musiqinin s\u0259sin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fan ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n s\u0259sini qulaqlar\u0131m\u0131zdan beynimiz\u0259,\u00fcr\u0259yimiz\u0259 \u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259k g\u00f6z\u0259ldir. Y\u0259ni h\u0259r zaman ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259l t\u0259r\u0259fini g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fck. Amma ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n dig\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fini g\u00f6r\u0259n,soyuq ya\u011f\u0131\u015fda islanan,evin\u0259 daman,ayaqyal\u0131n,ac, kas\u0131b insanlar\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 baxma\u011f\u0131 bacaran Saqif yaz\u0131r :<\/p>\n

Burda ya\u011f\u0131\u015fdan sonra<\/p>\n

Yollar\u0131n \u00e7alas\u0131na qarmaq sallayar u\u015faqlar…<\/p>\n

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Y\u00fckl\u00fc qay\u0131q kimi<\/p>\n

Batar bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 \u00e7irkli ya\u011f\u0131\u015f sular\u0131nda…<\/p>\n

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Qar\u011f\u0131lar\u0131 at kimi minib<\/p>\n

Ev\u0259 \u00e7aparlar kor \u2013pe\u015fman,<\/p>\n

\u018fll\u0259rind\u0259 bo\u015f qablar…<\/p>\n

Ax\u015fam yuxuda \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 bal\u0131q q\u0131zardar<\/p>\n

\u018fri i\u015fsiz arvadlar…<\/p>\n

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Saqif Zeynal\u0131n\u00a0 lirik \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259 unutmaq, unudulmaq m\u00f6vzusu geni\u015f yer tutur. \u015eair b\u0259z\u0259n sakit-sakit unutma\u011fa meyl edirs\u0259, b\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259sin e\u015fidib-duya bil\u0259c\u0259yi \u015f\u0259kild\u0259, usyankarcas\u0131na, \u00e7\u0131l\u011f\u0131ncas\u0131na yeri-g\u00f6y\u00fc s\u00f6k\u00fcb-t\u00f6km\u0259k, unutmaq, bir daha xat\u0131rlamamaq v\u0259 xat\u0131rlanmamaq ist\u0259yir. Lakin b\u00fct\u00fcn unutmaq ist\u0259yi il\u0259 yaz\u0131lan \u015feirl\u0259rd\u0259n bir n\u0259tic\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r ki, \u0259slind\u0259 \u201cunutmaq \u201c sad\u0259c\u0259 s\u00f6zd\u00fcr. \u0130st\u0259y\u0259r\u0259kd\u0259n unutmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil. Bir \u015fey v\u0259 ya bir k\u0259s xat\u0131rlan\u0131rsa, dem\u0259k unudulmay\u0131b, unudulubsa xat\u0131rlanmamal\u0131d\u0131r. Lakin bu m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcrm\u00fc? Xatir\u0259l\u0259ri yadda\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdan silm\u0259k \u00f6z \u0259limizd\u0259dirmi? T\u0259bii ki yox. Biz unutma\u011fa yaln\u0131z c\u0259hd ed\u0259 bil\u0259rik, amma bunu bacarmar\u0131q. Unutmaqdan\u00a0 s\u00f6z sald\u0131qsa,Saqifin\u00a0 \u201cYa\u011fmurlu mesaj\u201d \u015feirin\u0259 d\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r salmal\u0131y\u0131q.\u015eeird\u0259 \u015fair v\u0259fas\u0131z sevgilisind\u0259n \u015fikay\u0259t edir,i\u00e7ind\u0259ki \u201cM\u0259n\u201d il\u0259 \u00e7arp\u0131\u015f\u0131r, vuru\u015fur. \u201cQap\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259st\u0259yind\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n \u0259l yeri\u201d d\u0259, \u201cYa\u011f\u0131\u015fdan islanm\u0131\u015f torpaq qoxusu\u201d da o v\u0259fas\u0131z\u0131 xat\u0131rlatma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Amma \u0259\u015fyalar i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 lirik q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131n \u201ct\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 duranlar\u201d da var. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259n :<\/p>\n

Gec\u0259 ba\u015fdan-ba\u015fa hicran qoxuyur,<\/p>\n

Anam\u0131n yollad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00e7aydan bayaqdan<\/p>\n

Soban\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 mahn\u0131 oxuyur:<\/p>\n

\u201cUnut onu,<\/p>\n

Unut getsin…\u201d<\/p>\n

Lirik q\u0259hr\u0259man \u00e7aydan\u0131n\u0131n z\u00fcmz\u00fcm\u0259sini\u00a0 \u00f6z ist\u0259yin\u0259 uy\u011fun olaraq q\u0259bul edir,ist\u0259diyi yer\u0259 yozur v\u0259 bu yozumuna inanaraq bunu bir d\u0259st\u0259k kimi q\u0259bul edir, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 sevinir, t\u0259skinlik tap\u0131r, \u00e7aydan\u0131n z\u00fcmz\u00fcm\u0259si say\u0259sind\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 haqq qazand\u0131r\u0131r. Amma…\u00a0 Amma \u015feirin sonlu\u011fu ba\u015fqa bir \u015fey\u00a0 deyir :<\/p>\n

Mart ax\u015fam\u0131,<\/p>\n

Ya\u011fmurlu bir gec\u0259<\/p>\n

S\u0259n\u0259 mesaj yaz\u0131ram…<\/p>\n

Oxuyarsan s\u0259ssizc\u0259.<\/p>\n

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V\u0259ssalam. \u00dcr\u0259k unutma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131,barmaqlar \u00f6z i\u015fini g\u00f6rd\u00fc…<\/p>\n

Yuxar\u0131da qeyd etdiyim ki, unudulan bir \u015fey xat\u0131rlanmaz.\u00a0 Xat\u0131rlanan bir \u015fey is\u0259 unudula bilm\u0259z. Saqif is\u0259 ba\u015fqa bir \u015feird\u0259\u00a0 bunu \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259m\u0259xsus \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 ifad\u0259 edir. Unutmaq ist\u0259yinin \u00e7ar\u0259si\u00a0 el\u0259 xat\u0131rlamaqd\u0131r kimi :<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni unudacam deiyim o g\u00fcn<\/p>\n

Ad\u0131n\u0131 qoymu\u015fdum dilimin altda…<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yimiz a\u011fr\u0131yanda dilimizin alt\u0131na m\u0259lh\u0259m qoyuruq ki,a\u011fr\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 k\u0259ssin, unutdursun. G\u0259nc \u015fairin lirik q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 onu a\u011fr\u0131dan, incid\u0259n, hissl\u0259rin\u0259 hakim k\u0259sil\u0259n etibars\u0131z g\u00f6z\u0259li unutmaq, onun a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131ndan qurtulmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dilinin\u00a0 alt\u0131na qoyma\u011fa vasit\u0259 tap\u0131r. Bu vasit\u0259 is\u0259 o g\u00f6z\u0259lin ad\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Bu\u00a0 kimi \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259 \u0259slind\u0259 lirik q\u0259hr\u0259man he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 unutmaq v\u0259 unudulmaq ist\u0259mir.Unudulmaq ist\u0259rk\u0259n bel\u0259 unudulmamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir i\u015f\u0131q ucu axtar\u0131r. Y\u0259ni, dili s\u00f6yl\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, q\u0259lbi s\u00f6yl\u0259mir.Bir s\u00f6zl\u0259 Saqifin unudub-unudulmaq q\u0259rar\u0131 \u00fcr\u0259ksizdir, s\u0259thidir, i\u00e7d\u0259n deyil:<\/p>\n

Sinfin k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259,<\/p>\n

Bir aya\u011f\u0131 \u00fcst\u0259<\/p>\n

\u00dcz\u00fc divara<\/p>\n

\u0259ll\u0259ri yuxar\u0131 dayanan cocuqlar kimi<\/p>\n

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bir \u00fcz\u00fc \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259<\/p>\n

k\u00f6ks\u00fcm\u00fcn k\u00fcnc\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6m\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yimi d\u0259 al\u0131b<\/p>\n

Ham\u0131dan g\u00f6z o\u011furlay\u0131b,<\/p>\n

Ham\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn o\u011furlay\u0131b<\/p>\n

Getm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m…<\/p>\n

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G\u0259nc \u015fairin \u0259ks\u0259r \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259n ayd\u0131n olur ki, o, b\u00f6y\u00fck m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t axtar\u0131\u015f\u0131ndad\u0131r, h\u0259l\u0259 ist\u0259diyini tapmay\u0131b.Ruhunu v\u0259cd\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259n,onu b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u0259n, d\u00fcnyalara s\u0131\u011fmayan sevginin h\u0259sr\u0259tind\u0259dir:<\/p>\n

Vuruldu\u011fum g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259r d\u0259,<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7imd\u0259n oxlamaz m\u0259ni<\/p>\n

V\u0259 ya:<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yim zaman k\u00fcr\u0259si,<\/p>\n

Bi\u015fib-d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tim.<\/p>\n

Soyudu, h\u0259r g\u00fcn soyudu,<\/p>\n

\u00d6t\u00fcb-ke\u00e7di m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tim.<\/p>\n

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Saqif h\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259ncdir. \u0130st\u0259r \u00f6m\u00fcr yolunda, ist\u0259r yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda h\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7ooox d\u00fcz\u0259li\u015fl\u0259r etm\u0259li, \u00e7ox manel\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n ke\u00e7m\u0259li, el\u0259 yuxar\u0131dak\u0131 misralardak\u0131 kimi bi\u015fib-d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259lidir. \u015eeirl\u0259rind\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259n n\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7arpan q\u00fcsurlara toxunmaq ist\u0259m\u0259dim. Amma bu el\u0259 yoldur ki, q\u00fcsursuz, birba\u015fa ke\u00e7m\u0259k olmur. M\u0259hz etdiyimiz s\u0259hvl\u0259r say\u0259sind\u0259 biz do\u011fru yola istiqam\u0259tl\u0259n\u0259 bilirik. Ba\u015fqa \u015fairl\u0259rin \u015feirl\u0259rinin motivl\u0259rini b\u0259z\u0259n onun \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259 d\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131q hiss etm\u0259k olur. Amma ilk q\u0259l\u0259m t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 bu, bir \u00e7oxlar\u0131n\u0131n ke\u00e7diyi yoldur. R\u0259ssam hans\u0131sa r\u0259ngi alana q\u0259d\u0259r bir \u00e7ox r\u0259ngl\u0259ri bir-birin\u0259 qatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi ilk q\u0259l\u0259m t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n t\u0259sirl\u0259rin olmas\u0131, m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n ox\u015farl\u0131qlar\u0131n olmas\u0131 normal hald\u0131r. \u018fsas olan budur ki, h\u0259min s\u00f6zl\u0259rin qar\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan\u00a0 \u00f6z s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tapa bil\u0259s\u0259n, dey\u0259 bil\u0259s\u0259n.\u0130nan\u0131ram ki, Saqif m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n zamandan sonra \u00f6z s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc dey\u0259 bil\u0259n \u015fairl\u0259rd\u0259n olacaqd\u0131r.\u00c7\u00fcnki, o axtar\u0131\u015fdad\u0131r, n\u0259 is\u0259 tapma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r, z\u0259hm\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kir, ir\u0259liy\u0259 add\u0131mlamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259lind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259ni edir.Biz\u0259 is\u0259 yaln\u0131z g\u0259nc \u015fair\u0259 s\u0259hvsiz, asan yol arzulamaq qal\u0131r.Yolun a\u00e7\u0131q olsun Saqif !!!<\/p>\n

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(G\u018fNC \u015eA\u0130R SAQ\u0130F ZEYNALIN \u015eE\u0130RL\u018fR\u0130 HAQQINDA)   Yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7m\u0259zd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l\u00a0 onun \u00f6z\u00fc haqq\u0131nda m\u0259lumat verm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m. Ad\u0131 Saqif,soyad\u0131 Zeynalov. 1990-c\u0131 ild\u0259 La\u00e7\u0131nda anadan olub.1992-ci ild\u0259\u00a0 erm\u0259ni c\u0259lladlar\u0131n\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n qurtulmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ail\u0259si onu La\u00e7\u0131n torpa\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b A\u011fcb\u0259dinin \u201cTaxta k\u00f6rp\u00fc\u201d q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259sin\u0259 \u00fcz tutub.Onlar La\u00e7\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xsa da La\u00e7\u0131n ad\u0131, La\u00e7\u0131n qoxusu, La\u00e7\u0131n sevgisi onun u\u015faq hafiz\u0259snd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmay\u0131b,\u0259ksin\u0259 boy […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":6476,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[17,3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9224"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=9224"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9224\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":9227,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9224\/revisions\/9227"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/6476"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=9224"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=9224"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=9224"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}