{"id":9362,"date":"2015-06-17T16:38:58","date_gmt":"2015-06-17T11:38:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=9362"},"modified":"2015-06-17T18:20:13","modified_gmt":"2015-06-17T13:20:13","slug":"ernest-hemingwey%c9%99-intihar-etm%c9%99k-ucun-icaz%c9%99-almaq-lazim-idi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=9362","title":{"rendered":"Ernest Hemingwey\u0259 intihar etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn icaz\u0259 almaq laz\u0131m idi \u00a0"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0\"hemunquey\"<\/a><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Antiroman-Antibalet<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u201cSa\u011falmaq sa\u011falmamaq t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259di\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u0130tilin v\u0259 Babilin itm\u0259yin\u0259 v\u0259\u201dQuran\u201ddan ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m koordinatlara <\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0ithaf edir\u0259m:<\/strong><\/p>\n

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  1. Oxu, yaln\u0131z bu kitab\u0131 oxu, ucadan oxu v\u0259 d\u0259rk etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f.<\/strong><\/li>\n
  2. Elm ziyanl\u0131 \u015feydi.<\/strong><\/li>\n
  3. V\u0259 s. v\u0259 i.a.<\/strong><\/li>\n<\/ol>\n

    \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

    \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0Birinci\u00a0 kitab<\/strong><\/p>\n

    \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

    \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Yarad\u0131c\u0131 su\u00e7:\u201d Siz\u0259 deyir\u0259m ki, m\u0259n \u00f6lm\u00fcr\u0259m, melo <\/strong><\/p>\n

    \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 qrotesk tribun!\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n

    \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

    \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u201c intihar ed\u0259n atas\u0131n\u0131n evini tikir\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n

    \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015fumer qaynaqlar\u0131ndan<\/strong><\/p>\n

    \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

    \u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n

    son s\u00f6z yerind\u0259n qopub \u00a0\u00f6n s\u00f6z yerin\u0259 \u00a0g\u0259l\u0259n s\u00f6yl\u0259m\u0259:<\/p>\n

    \u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

    \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 duall\u0131\u011f<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

    \u00a0<\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

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    –\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Sa\u011f qab\u0131r\u011fa sola!<\/p>\n

    –\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0Sol qab\u0131r\u011fa sa\u011fa!<\/p>\n

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    Koala s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00a0v\u0259\u00a0 Q\u0259ddafi s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00a0bir-birin\u0259 baxd\u0131lar v\u0259 bu bax\u0131\u015flar \u00a0sanki balet teatr\u0131n\u0131n tama\u015fas\u0131ndak\u0131 bax\u0131\u015flar kimi idi bu v\u0259 balaca \u0259l d\u0259smallar\u0131 paltar ipind\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 halda bu v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 ba\u015fqa \u015feyl\u0259r haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259k v\u0259 realiz\u0259 etm\u0259k ki, sa\u011f qolundan sol aya\u011f\u0131na kimi g\u0259rginliyi hiss edirs\u0259n, n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259s\u0259bi o biri s\u0259hif\u0259ni \u00e7evir\u0259nsayaq, uzun \u0259cn\u0259bi s\u00f6zl\u0259ri t\u0259l\u0259ff\u00fcz ed\u0259 bilm\u0259m\u0259k v\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259m\u0259k, bu nec\u0259 oldu bilmir\u0259m, bu ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c g\u00fcnah \u201ca\u011flama \u0259zizim\u201d m\u0259nas\u0131n\u0131 verirdi.<\/p>\n

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    xat\u0131rlama<\/p>\n

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    H\u0259yat\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259rh\u0259l\u0259si arxada qalanda arxay\u0131n olmaq t\u0259crid olunmaqd\u0131. S\u00fcm\u00fck psixologiyas\u0131n\u0131n duall\u0131\u011f\u0131na k\u00f6m\u0259k etm\u0259k yax\u0131 i\u015f deyil.<\/p>\n

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    h\u0259<\/p>\n

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    –\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O yen\u0259 dayand\u0131?<\/p>\n

    –\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Yox, yox, indi yox.<\/p>\n

    –\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0Orda ba\u015fqa s\u00fcm\u00fck var.<\/p>\n

    –\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M\u0259nc\u0259 bu h\u0259yat s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

    –\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

    –\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O balaca s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 bax, ondan bir az arxada iki g\u0259nc s\u00fcm\u00fck var.<\/p>\n

    –\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Onlar da qa\u00e7\u0131r, el\u0259 deyilmi?<\/p>\n

    –\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u015eeytan da ordad\u0131.<\/p>\n

    –\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ah \u015feytan… do\u011frudan \u015feytan da ordad\u0131?<\/p>\n

    –\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 He\u00e7 n\u0259 dey\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

    –\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Q\u0259rbd\u0259, \u015e\u0259rqd\u0259 bu d\u0259qiq\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259can siqnallar\u0131 bu s\u0259b\u0259b \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bunun m\u0259nas\u0131n\u0131 axtar\u0131rlar.<\/p>\n

    –\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Oh, h\u0259r \u015fey qaydas\u0131ndad\u0131 indi?<\/p>\n

    G\u0259nc s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259rin s\u0259s tonu el\u0259 bil s\u0259madan g\u0259lirdi, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 yerin altindan.<\/p>\n

    S\u00fcm\u00fck k\u00f6lg\u0259l\u0259ri yava\u015fca v\u0259 sakitc\u0259 itirdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

    –\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Oh, b\u00fct\u00fcn qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131 biz burda qalaca\u011f\u0131q?<\/p>\n

    -Dey\u0259s\u0259n narahatsan.<\/p>\n

    -M\u0259n indi \u015famlar haqda fikirl\u0259\u015fir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

    Qaranl\u0131q \u00f6z i\u015find\u0259ydi, Q\u0259rbd\u0259n \u015e\u0259rq\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r. \u015eimal \u00fcf\u00fcql\u0259rind\u0259n yeni qaranl\u0131q g\u0259lirdi \u00fcz\u00fc b\u0259ri.<\/p>\n

    Qaranl\u0131qdan ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259 yox idi.Bir d\u0259 soyuq vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

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    xat\u0131rlatma<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    Balet teatr\u0131nda dekorator s\u00fcni k\u0259rpicl\u0259ri s\u0131rayla d\u00fczd\u00fc.D\u0259lil\u0259r tama\u015fa boyu s\u00fcni k\u0259rpicl\u0259ri ba\u015flar\u0131nda s\u0131nd\u0131ra-s\u0131nd\u0131ra r\u0259qs edir, q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131lar:<\/p>\n

    -M\u0259n itm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

    Bir d\u0259li is\u0259 s\u0259sini ba\u015f\u0131na atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131:<\/p>\n

    –\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M\u0259n itm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

    \u0130tm\u0259yi d\u0259lil\u0259r intihar kimi ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fckl\u0259rind\u0259n bel\u0259 deyirdil\u0259r<\/p>\n

    S\u0259ddam H\u00fcseyn s\u00fcm\u00fck\u00a0 s\u00fcm\u00fck g\u00fcld\u00fc. D\u00fcnya S\u0259ddam H\u00fcseyn s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259\u00a0 dibsiz g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259\u00a0 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 soynmu\u015f\u00a0 Dilruba s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc ba\u015fdan- ayaga acg\u00f6zl\u00fckl\u0259 s\u00fcz\u0259nd\u0259 bu \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259inam\u0131n qiym\u0259tli \u0259laq\u0259si fizionomyas\u0131nda \u00a0stirel s\u0259thl\u0259r kimi u\u00e7an dirba\u015f \u00fcst dodaqdak\u0131 \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fsayaq q\u0131z\u0131l monoqraml\u0131 fincan b\u0259z\u0259n bo\u015flugu doldurmaq \u00e7\u0259tin olur.\u00c7\u0259kisizlikd\u0259 ya\u015famaq \u00e7\u0259tindi.D\u00f6\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcn sag gil\u0259sini \u0259m\u0259rk\u0259n s\u00fcd v\u0259zisinin takt\u0131 kimi olur, ba\u015fqa s\u00f6zl\u0259 a\u011f\u0131z k\u00f6p\u00fckl\u0259nir bel\u0259d\u0259 v\u0259 S\u0259ddam H\u00fcseyn s\u00fcm\u00fck ki\u015fi qartal s\u00fcm\u00fck u\u00e7ucu\u00a0 hidrogen birl\u0259\u015fm\u0259si…<\/p>\n

    S\u0259ddam H\u00fcseyn s\u00fcm\u00fck gecikirdi v\u0259 d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n tavanacan olan g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s almadan \u2013 n\u0259f\u0259s almamaq harmoniyas\u0131 s\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131lan n\u0259f\u0259s kimi olsa da , \u0259slind\u0259 o s\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131lmayan n\u0259f\u0259s l\u00f6vh\u0259sin\u0259 daha \u00e7ox ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130nersiya olan yerd\u0259 susmaq\u00a0 -\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 bu idi, ancaq sivilizasiya silueti \u00e7\u00f6l t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259 i\u00e7 t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259kind\u0259n yax\u0131n idi, ba\u015fqa s\u00f6zl\u0259 sol v\u0259 sa\u011f s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259r qeyri reall\u0131\u011fa haz\u0131r olmaqla onlar\u0131n fiqurlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259z divar\u0131n ucalmas\u0131yla h\u0259y\u0259can h\u0259r yeri b\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

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    yox<\/p>\n

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    -S\u0259nin ideyan var?-\u00a0 \u00f6lk\u0259 imperatoru\u00a0 Ulysses R. McKinleyin\u00a0 s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00a0soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

    -Yox,-\u00a0 onun xan\u0131m\u0131 Karen\u00a0 Wrightsman \u00a0s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00a0cavab verdi-m\u0259nim ideyam yoxdur.<\/p>\n

    Bir d\u0259qiq\u0259 panik yarand\u0131 v\u0259 z\u0259ngin olmayan q\u0259lb orda n\u0259s\u0259 olmu\u015f kimi olmu\u015fdu bu an v\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey d\u0259 y\u0259ni bo\u015f bir \u015fey kimi ke\u00e7ib getm\u0259mi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

    Yen\u0259 g\u0259rginlik idi. Barometr k\u00fcncd\u0259 at\u0131l\u0131b qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 indi onunla he\u00e7 kimin i\u015fi yox idi. \u0130ndi ona inanmaq, inanmaq ki, qaranl\u0131q v\u0259 soyuq olsa bel\u0259 \u00e7ox \u015feyin unudulmas\u0131, t\u0259kc\u0259 ki\u015fi s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00a0 sa\u011fda, qad\u0131n s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00a0solda olmas\u0131 sad\u0259 h\u0259qiq\u0259ti m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259bl\u0259\u015fdirmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

    \u00d6z s\u0259sini e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 diksindi.S\u00f6z\u00fcn d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc qaranl\u0131qda v\u0259 soyuqda demi\u015fdi, \u0259slind\u0259 \u00f6z- \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 demi\u015fdi:<\/p>\n

    -M\u0259n onu g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m.<\/p>\n

    Canl\u0131 v\u0259 oyaq, y\u0259ni i\u015f\u0131qda yox.<\/p>\n

    Qaranl\u0131qda olanda n\u0259l\u0259ris\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259k g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259\u201d m\u0259n s\u0259ni d\u00f6y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m\u201d- anlam\u0131na g\u0259lirdi.<\/p>\n

    G\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb ba\u015fqa n\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259 kimi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

    Qaranl\u0131q v\u0259 soyuq g\u00f6z\u0259l idi. Q\u0259rib\u0259 olan o idi ki, sad\u0259 olan m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259bl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

    Onun s\u0259sind\u0259 q\u0259m vard\u0131 v\u0259 bu q\u0259m onu \u015fad edirdi. He\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilmirdi n\u0259 ba\u015f verib.<\/p>\n

    -\u0130zoterika il\u0259 maraqlan\u0131ram,-sakit olmayan t\u0259rzd\u0259 dedi.<\/p>\n

    Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 add\u0131m atd\u0131\u00a0 v\u0259 ilk d\u0259qiq\u0259d\u0259n gimnastika h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259ri kimi ba\u015flad\u0131 sayma\u011fa. \u015eirin he\u00e7 n\u0259 tapmad\u0131 bu g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259z h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259. Fiziki c\u0259za \u0259lav\u0259 olaraq fikrind\u0259n ke\u00e7di v\u0259 bu\u00a0 yeni bir sual yaratd\u0131 v\u0259 bu c\u0259hd xo\u015f bir nifr\u0259t \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259sas idi h\u0259m d\u0259. Siqnal it\u0259nd\u0259 bu proqram \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn special case idi.<\/p>\n

    -Gedib qay\u0131tma\u011fa yetm\u0259z bu z\u0259hirmar vaxt h\u0259?<\/p>\n

    -Bel\u0259d\u0259 orta \u0259srl\u0259rd\u0259\u00a0 oldu\u011fu kimi \u00e7ox ki\u00e7ik add\u0131mlar atmaq v\u0259 itm\u0259k v\u0259 h\u00fcnd\u00fcr binalarla \u0259hat\u0259 olunmaq v\u0259 buna m\u00fcxt\u0259lif n\u00f6qteyi-n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259rd\u0259n baxmaq… aman Allah, bu \u00e7ox ki\u00e7ik add\u0131mlar gerimi apar\u0131r s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc yoxsa ir\u0259li?B\u0259lk\u0259 yerind\u0259 say\u0131rsan?<\/p>\n

    \u00c7ox ki\u00e7ik add\u0131mlar\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259di,b\u0259s bu itm\u0259k n\u0259 idi g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n?<\/p>\n

    Sual\u0131n cavab\u0131n\u0131 axtar\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

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    t\u0259krar<\/p>\n

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    Epidermis t\u0259lt\u0259l\u015f\u00fcur ruhi prosesl\u0259r zaman\u0131\u00a0 \u00e7\u0259tin n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131rd\u0131. Sinkope orqanizmin \u00fcmumi reaksiyas\u0131na m\u0259nfi t\u0259sir edirdi. Hipnotik m\u00fcalic\u0259 zaman\u0131 tibbin u\u011furu say\u0131lacaq v\u0259 somnanbulizm live birth-in \u00fcr\u0259k ritmini art\u0131racaq v\u0259 yuvenilizm \u00f6l\u00fcm an\u0131 k\u00f6m\u0259k d\u0259 ola bil\u0259rdi.V\u0259 Adams-Stoks-Morqani sindromu h\u0259yat\u0131 boyu adam\u0131 heyr\u0259td\u0259 saxlay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

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    irsi<\/p>\n

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    -Uh, uh, m\u0259n buna \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

    O \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259min olmal\u0131 idi ki, t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr \u00a0ed\u0259 bil\u0259r b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131.N\u0259f\u0259s almaq \u00e7\u0259tin oldu.\u0130ndi he\u00e7 n\u0259 e\u015fitmirdi.El\u0259 bil ki, he\u00e7 n\u0259yi yox idi daha.<\/p>\n

    Elevatorun yan\u0131ndayd\u0131. Bu lap ilk \u00f6p\u00fc\u015f\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259k ki, \u0259leyhin\u0259 olan \u201cs\u0259n m\u0259ni tan\u0131m\u0131rsan, lakin m\u0259n s\u0259ninl\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t edir\u0259m\u201d-dey\u0259 bilsin.<\/p>\n

    Sakitc\u0259 ona baxanda qaranl\u0131qda daha he\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n qorxmad\u0131.<\/p>\n

    -M\u0259nim s\u0259nin s\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131m var.<\/p>\n

    -Oh,-dedi v\u0259 bel\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc ki, h\u0259r \u015feyi ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb.<\/p>\n

    Bu lap m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259y\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131, y\u0259ni yenid\u0259n elevatorla \u00a0saatlarla s\u00f6hb\u0259t etm\u0259k.Perfekt.<\/p>\n

    Hiss etdi ki, sabah h\u0259r \u015fey sekret d\u0259 ola bil\u0259r, h\u0259l\u0259 ki, istedad\u0131n arxas\u0131nda tan\u0131\u015f olmayan t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb v\u0259 bu t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qay\u0131tmas\u0131 elevatoru fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259yi v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 hiss etm\u0259yi, sanki \u00f6z fokusunu itirm\u0259yi kimi…<\/p>\n

    Bir elevator hans\u0131 ki, s\u0259n onu ilk d\u0259f\u0259 orada g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcn, tutuna bilmi\u015fdin, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 \u201cg\u00f6z \u00fcr\u0259yin aynas\u0131d\u0131\u201d t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcrat\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n oxunmu\u015fdu yaxud \u0259ksin\u0259.Yen\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s almad\u0131 v\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131 hiss etdi.<\/p>\n

    -Yax\u0131n g\u0259l,-dedi.<\/p>\n

    \u018fll\u0259ri elevatorun belini\u00a0 s\u0131\u011fallad\u0131 v\u0259 bu relyef g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259z oldu v\u0259 onda q\u0259mli olmaq v\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 yummaq \u2013ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c, davam v\u0259 son.Bilm\u0259di ki, bu bel\u0259di.\u0130st\u0259di q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rs\u0131n, lakin onun \u00e7iynin\u0259 toxunanda k\u0259nara do\u011fru h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t etdi.<\/p>\n

    -Yox,-dedi-m\u0259n bel\u0259 etm\u0259m\u0259liy\u0259m.<\/p>\n

    Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259di.<\/p>\n

    -Yen\u0259 q\u00fcss\u0259li g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n-dedi.<\/p>\n

    T\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb\u00fcn\u0259 r\u0259gm\u0259n il\u0131q bir n\u0259s\u0259 ke\u00e7di i\u00e7ind\u0259n.<\/p>\n

    -S\u0259n uzun zaman bel\u0259 dayana bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n.<\/p>\n

    Cavab gecikm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

    -\u018fg\u0259r s\u0259n sona q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259niml\u0259 olsan…<\/p>\n

    …Qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u0259rk etm\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tin idi.<\/p>\n

    -D\u00fcn\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259ni ist\u0259yirdim.<\/p>\n

    Barmaqlar bir-birin\u0259 toxunanda dedi bunu.<\/p>\n

    -\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc hiss edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

    -Yox!S\u0259n yox. Bu s\u0259n deyils\u0259n.<\/p>\n

    Bu hissl\u0259r fiziki olaraq \u201che\u00e7 vaxt bel\u0259 etm\u0259mi\u015fdi\u201d- c\u00fcml\u0259sini fikrind\u0259n ke\u00e7irm\u0259yil\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc bel\u0259 hiss etm\u0259mi\u015fdi h\u0259m d\u0259.Qay\u011f\u0131ya qalmaq v\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 bel\u0259 bir \u015feyin olmas\u0131, he\u00e7 vaxt bel\u0259 olmamas\u0131 dem\u0259k idi.<\/p>\n

    -M\u0259n\u0259 inan\u0131rsan?<\/p>\n

    Elevator musiqisi g\u0259lirdi uzaqdan.<\/p>\n

    -Bu s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

    \u018fks s\u0259da.N\u0259 etm\u0259k laz\u0131m idi? N\u0259f\u0259s almad\u0131.<\/p>\n

    -He\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259.<\/p>\n

    Yox…<\/p>\n

    Yox…<\/p>\n

    Yox…<\/p>\n

    C\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m olsun h\u0259r \u015fey.H\u0259l\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s alm\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

    -M\u0259ni e\u015fidirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

    -\u018fc\u0259b q\u0259rib\u0259di.H\u0259r \u015fey q\u0259rib\u0259di.<\/p>\n

    \u018flav\u0259 pauza.<\/p>\n

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    t\u0259krar (ard\u0131)<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    \u0130tilin v\u0259 Babilin itm\u0259si il\u0259 sa\u011f v\u0259 sol s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259rin itm\u0259si aras\u0131nda \u0259laq\u0259 vard\u0131.H\u0259r \u015fey gedirdi, gedirdi v\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 qalm\u0131rd\u0131.\u018fksin\u0259 d\u0259 ola bil\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

    -N\u0259, n\u0259?<\/p>\n

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    qeyri-irsi<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    \u201cend note\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

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    R\u0259ssam Pablo Pikasso s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn natural YAZI r\u0259smi:<\/p>\n

    Meh Setti Off s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00a0Kuala \u00a0s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn quca\u011f\u0131dak\u0131 u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc \u00a0g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259, onun yuxulu g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 ki\u00e7ik bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

    -M\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259rsiz?<\/p>\n

    Meh Setti Off \u00a0s\u00fcm\u00fck Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 yaman ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 bu b\u0259nz\u0259rlikd\u0259 d\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 vard\u0131.B\u0259lk\u0259 \u00a0Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fck el\u0259 Meh Setti Off \u00a0s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00a0\u00f6z\u00fc idi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bel\u0259 deyildi?<\/p>\n

    U\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00a0\u00a0\u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm get-ged\u0259 azald\u0131 v\u0259 yox oldu. O, bilm\u0259di ki, ax\u015fam yatanda h\u0259min u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc \u00a0tavandan sallanan ipd\u0259n as\u0131rlar, k\u0259tili d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kirl\u0259r ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndan.<\/p>\n

    M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 bunda idi ki, h\u0259r evd\u0259 vard\u0131 o u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fck -melo skelet kukla. Meh Setti Off \u00a0s\u00fcm\u00fck d\u0259 as\u0131rd\u0131 u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fck- melo skelet kuklan\u0131 v\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 ona \u201c\u00f6l\u201d-dedi v\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fc , o da, kamal\u0131-\u0259d\u0259bl\u0259 onu apar\u0131b q\u0259bristanl\u0131qda basd\u0131rd\u0131. Bu ilk u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fck – melo skelet kukla idi ki, q\u0259bristanl\u0131qda basd\u0131r\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 buras\u0131 da vard\u0131 ki, Meh Setti Off \u00a0s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00a0basd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fck – melo skelet kuklan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda tac vard\u0131.Onun \u201cSa\u011f v\u0259 sol s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn yeni t\u0259f\u0259kk\u00fcr\u00fc v\u0259 3651 \u00a0ovsun damc\u0131 Budda\u201dkitab\u0131nda da vard\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar .Bu kitaba \u00e7evik yana\u015fmada aqressivlik \u00e7at\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 bu s\u0259rh\u0259dsizliyi bu istiqam\u0259td\u0259 at\u0131lan ilk add\u0131m kimi d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259ndirm\u0259k d\u0259 olard\u0131, h\u0259r\u00e7\u0259nd kitabda xeyli \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmazl\u0131qlar da vard\u0131 v\u0259 bu a\u00e7\u0131q-a\u015fkar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

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    paradoksal<\/p>\n

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    \u201c\u00e7\u0259kinti\u201d\u00a0 silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    Q\u0259ddafi s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn bir d\u0259ft\u0259ri vard\u0131 v\u0259 o \u00f6z fikirl\u0259rini, g\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rini, e\u015fitdikl\u0259rini v\u0259 s. o d\u0259ft\u0259r\u0259 yaz\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 o h\u0259min d\u0259ft\u0259r\u0259 \u201cm\u0259nim kompas\u0131m\u201d-deyirdi.H\u0259min d\u0259ft\u0259r- kompas \u00e7ox qarmaqar\u0131\u015f\u0131q\u00a0 idi, y\u0259ni onun\u00a0 yaz\u0131 t\u0259rzi bel\u0259 idi, yaln\u0131z Q\u0259ddafi s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00f6z\u00fc ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bil\u0259rdi ki, orda n\u0259 yaz\u0131l\u0131b.<\/p>\n

    ***<\/p>\n

    xat\u0131rlatma (ard\u0131)<\/p>\n

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    H\u00fcnd\u00fcr adam s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259r ham\u0131s\u0131 podaqra x\u0259st\u0259liyin\u0259 tutulmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

    Adam s\u00fcm\u00fck\u0131\u0259r Afrika meymunlar\u0131 kimi lap hoppana-hoppana harasa t\u0259l\u0259sirdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

    Duru n\u0259cis g\u00fccl\u00fc g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 ifraz\u0131 yarad\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

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    ***<\/p>\n

    d\u0259rketm\u0259<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    \u201covsun\u201dsilsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

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    \u0130ndi bu \u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259 idi.Ke\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259 qay\u0131tmaq…yox , bu art\u0131q yox idi.Ke\u00e7mi\u015f hissl\u0259r orda qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 bu z\u0259rif d\u0259rindi v\u0259 qaranl\u0131qdayd\u0131:<\/p>\n

    -Bu m\u0259n\u0259m v\u0259 bu m\u0259n\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131 g\u0259tirir.<\/p>\n

    Cavab verm\u0259di \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 John Jefferies s\u00fcm\u00fck v\u0259 \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259 ki, bunu \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 demi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

    Bel\u0259 dem\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcns\u0259 qaranl\u0131qda t\u0259bii olmaq, \u201cnec\u0259 olmaq?\u201d-sual\u0131na cavab kimi h\u0259yat\u0131n m\u0259nas\u0131 v\u0259 m\u0259nas\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan raz\u0131l\u0131q etm\u0259k, irad\u0259li olan h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n bir az da g\u00fcc t\u0259l\u0259b edirdi v\u0259 sentmentall\u0131qdan qa\u00e7ma\u011f\u0131n yolu bundan ke\u00e7irdi. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcnahkar saymaq v\u0259 pis \u015feyl\u0259r haqda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259k ni\u015fangaha toxunanda n\u0259s\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tin v\u0259 n\u0259 ba\u015f verdiyini bilm\u0259k, nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r fantastikdi bu v\u0259 h\u0259min prinsip c\u0259ld v\u0259 sad\u0259 ba\u015fa g\u0259l\u0259n itgi (itm\u0259k) etibarl\u0131,\u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259 ki, yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 Allah bilir o n\u0259 hiss edirdi. He\u00e7 n\u0259.Bir d\u0259qiq\u0259, bir d\u0259qiq\u0259, yox, yox, v\u0259 \u00a03651 ovsun damc\u0131 Budda .Onda bel\u0259 idi.B\u0259s sol s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u0259leyhin\u0259 olan n\u0259ydi?Lent yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259krar geri d\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259nd\u0259 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 etm\u0259di ki, ikisi d\u0259 bird\u0259n n\u0259 olacaqd\u0131sa el\u0259 o da olacaqd\u0131. H\u0259, h\u0259, stop!<\/p>\n

    ………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….<\/p>\n

    Bel\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fdi ki, bu antipatiya…yox bel\u0259 v\u0259h\u015fi ehtiras \u201cd\u0259lil\u0259r he\u00e7 n\u0259d\u0259n qorxmur\u201d v\u0259 bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131 ki, ona h\u0259m d\u0259 xat\u0131rlay\u0131n ki, biz bir az da g\u00fcnahkar…<\/p>\n

    –\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 ?<\/p>\n

    Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yummas\u0131, bu lap \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n getm\u0259y\u0259 ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131.Uzun qaranl\u0131q v\u0259 uzun soyuq arzuolunan kimi Allaha dua etm\u0259k ki, ba\u011f\u0131\u015flas\u0131n g\u00fcnahlar\u0131n\u0131. Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flas\u0131n simvollar\u0131. B\u0259lk\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flama \u00f6z\u00fc a\u011fr\u0131 simvoludu?He\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilmirdi, d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi bir az yoxsa.<\/p>\n

    T\u0259bii olmayan sa\u011f s\u00fcm\u00fck hissl\u0259ri, a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131, g\u00fcnahlar\u0131 tamam ba\u015fqa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn tamam ba\u015fqa hiss\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 yol a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bunda t\u0259bii olmayan qaranl\u0131q v\u0259 soyuq \u201cm\u0259n\u0259 niy\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 deyil?\u201d-sual\u0131na cavab kimi \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 v\u0259 ayaqlar\u0131na baxd\u0131. Sa\u011f s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc a\u011fr\u0131d\u0131.Bu el\u0259 bel\u0259ydi.<\/p>\n

    G\u0259nc qaranl\u0131q v\u0259 g\u0259nc soyuq h\u0259, h\u0259 bel\u0259 hissl\u0259r ona tan\u0131\u015f idi. Dostdo\u011fma anas\u0131ndan ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259xlaq , y\u0259ni bel\u0259 tarixi analoq optimal q\u0259rar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u201cbu el\u0259 bel\u0259di\u201d fikri \u00a0\u201cn\u0259y\u0259 inan\u0131rsansa o do\u011frudu \u201c-anlam\u0131ndayd\u0131 v\u0259 Mona Lizan\u0131n sa\u011f s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc\u00a0 portretind\u0259kind\u0259n \u00e7ox z\u0259rif \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, el\u0259 bu idi sirli t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00a0 sirri v\u0259 hava attraksionu bel\u0259 yax\u0131n idi s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259.<\/p>\n

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    paradoksal (ard\u0131)<\/p>\n

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    \u201c \u00e7\u0259kinti \u201c silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

    Q\u0259ddafi s\u00fcm\u00fck quru \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc \u00e7eyn\u0259dikc\u0259 insan\u0131n 72 damar\u0131 olmas\u0131 fikri ba\u015f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131.Yadda\u015f\u0131 onu p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kirdi.S\u0259s e\u015fitdi:<\/p>\n

    -S\u0259n \u00f6z t\u0259\u0259b\u0259l\u0259rin\u0259 n\u0259 vermis\u0259n?<\/p>\n

    Cavab gecikm\u0259di:<\/p>\n

    -C\u0259nn\u0259ti vermi\u015f\u0259m, c\u0259nn\u0259ti.<\/p>\n

    Kompas-d\u0259ft\u0259rin\u0259 baxd\u0131.B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar orada qeyd olunmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

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    qeyri irsi(ard\u0131)<\/p>\n

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    \u201cend note\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    -N\u0259 dem\u0259kdi bu ?<\/p>\n

    Bu insan s\u0259sin\u0259 ox\u015fam\u0131rd\u0131.Simpatik olan bu motiv orjinall\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc \u015f\u0259xs\u0259 \u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259 bil\u0259rdi. \u0130zah ilk bax\u0131\u015fda \u201cniy\u0259 bel\u0259 deyirs\u0259n?\u201dl\u0259 bitirdi sonda .<\/p>\n

    D\u00fcnya ona \u0259vv\u0259ld\u0259n mehriban olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131,ancaq bu antimehribanl\u0131qda bir do\u011fmal\u0131q da var idi. Qay\u011f\u0131 geri qay\u0131tm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

    Qaranl\u0131q arzuolunand\u0131.\u00c7oxlu s\u0259sl\u0259r vard\u0131 v\u0259 bu s\u0259sl\u0259r i\u00e7ind\u0259 m\u0259na axtarmaq v\u0259…<\/p>\n

    -B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 siz haql\u0131s\u0131n\u0131z.<\/p>\n

    -Raz\u0131 olmaq el\u0259 do\u011fru olmaqd\u0131.<\/p>\n

    Bilm\u0259di \u00f6zg\u0259 n\u0259 desin.<\/p>\n

    -Arxamca g\u0259lin.<\/p>\n

    Meh Setti Off s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00a0yuxulu kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc v\u0259 bilmirdi ki, n\u0259 ba\u015f verib v\u0259 bunun ke\u00e7ici olmas\u0131 yaxud ke\u00e7ici olmamas\u0131 kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc el\u0259.Buras\u0131 da vard\u0131 ki,o Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 yaman ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

    -Vaxt laz\u0131md\u0131.<\/p>\n

    D\u00f6nm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

    -N\u0259?<\/p>\n

    -H\u0259r \u015fey s\u0259hvdi.<\/p>\n

    Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

    Bo\u015f \u0259lini yell\u0259di.S\u0259si titr\u0259m\u0259di.Birin bilirdi, o birini bilmirdi v\u0259 bu m\u00fcxt\u0259liflik g\u0259tirmirdi he\u00e7 d\u0259.Bir d\u0259qiq\u0259, iki d\u0259qiq\u0259, \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259qiq\u0259. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 rast g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri qonur r\u0259ngd\u0259 idi.<\/p>\n

    Qaranl\u0131q idi.H\u0259yat\u0131nda \u00e7ox \u015feyl\u0259r uzunm\u00fcdd\u0259tli deyildi, y\u0259ni s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn qalan hiss\u0259si d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

    K\u00fcl\u0259k ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.Sa\u011f aya\u011f\u0131 a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0259s tonu he\u00e7 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259mi\u015fdi qaranl\u0131q a\u011fac kimi , h\u0259m d\u0259 d\u0259risayaq\u00a0 yum\u015faq oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sif\u0259tini \u0259ll\u0259ri aras\u0131na ald\u0131.S\u00fcm\u00fck isti deyildi. B\u0259s bu yum\u015faql\u0131q hardand\u0131?<\/p>\n

    Fikirl\u0259\u015fdi b\u0259lk\u0259 o iyi xat\u0131rlayar.Dinm\u0259di.F\u0259rqi var idimi?B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlardan sonra o he\u00e7 bilm\u0259di n\u0259s\u0259 dem\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131, buna hiss etm\u0259m\u0259k d\u0259 dem\u0259k olard\u0131.Emfatik v\u0259…<\/p>\n

    He\u00e7 n\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259m\u0259k…<\/p>\n

    -B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259hv edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

    \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 ox\u015fad\u0131.\u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259\u00a0 ox\u015fayanda \u015f\u0259xsi h\u0259yat\u0131ndak\u0131 nifr\u0259t peyda olmas\u0131 expressionlar kimi peyda olanlar\u0131 \u2013 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259nl\u0259ri , d\u0259rind\u0259n d\u0259rin toxunulmaz halda g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.\u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r oldu\u011fu kimi.Bu haqda he\u00e7 kim\u0259 dem\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n ya\u015f da g\u0259lmi\u015fdi.Adam s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc \u00a0i\u015f\u011fal ed\u0259n nifr\u0259t sevgini k\u0259nar ed\u0259nd\u0259 birg\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l olan , solmaqla qaranl\u0131q fantaziyas\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6n\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xaranda:<\/p>\n

    -Xo\u015flam\u0131ram ki, soru\u015fsam, s\u0259n bilirs\u0259n bunu- dedi.<\/p>\n

    Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fck g\u00fcld\u00fc.<\/p>\n

    Meh Setti Off \u00a0s\u00fcm\u00fck Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 yaman ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131, yaman v\u0259 bu b\u0259nz\u0259rlikd\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 mistik bir \u015fey var idi.<\/p>\n

    ***<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    d\u0259rketm\u0259 (ard\u0131)<\/p>\n

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    \u201covsun\u201dsilsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

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    \u00c7ox salnam\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 bel\u0259 s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn sa\u011f v\u0259 sol s\u00fcm\u00fck olmas\u0131 haqda he\u00e7 n\u0259 yaz\u0131lmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sizi narahat ed\u0259n n\u0259di ax\u0131?Nec\u0259 varsa el\u0259 d\u0259 deyirdi v\u0259 bu \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tin sual idi v\u0259 he\u00e7 kim bu nec\u0259 olub, yaxud \u00a0h\u0259qiq\u0259t hans\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259di\u00a0 bilmirdi. Tale is\u0259 ba\u015fqa \u015fey deyirdi. Tamam ba\u015fqa.<\/p>\n

    Sa\u011f s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 baxanda \u201cm\u0259nd\u0259n incim\u0259yin\u201d-dem\u0259si harda ki, olmas\u0131 vacib idi, m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259li bir i\u015f kimi niy\u0259 susursunuz \u00a0mistik dialoqlarla \u00a0bu kosmik ritorika da.He\u00e7 olmasa n\u0259s\u0259 deyin v\u0259 bel\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli m\u00fcdrik deyim t\u0259rzi bel\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r ki, g\u00fcnahkar yen\u0259 sol s\u00fcm\u00fck idi?V\u0259 bel\u0259 natural tarix d\u0259 praktiki v\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fckerudusiya s..o ..l\u00a0 s\u00fc..m…\u00fck vicdanla des\u0259k okeanda qum s\u00fcm\u00fck kimi bu ki, sa\u011f s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u0259ksidi.<\/p>\n

    -Ya\u015famaqdan kim bezib ki?He\u00e7 dil\u0259n\u00e7i s\u00fcm\u00fck d\u0259 bezm\u0259yib. B\u0259lk\u0259 kral s\u00fcm\u00fck bezib?B\u0259lk\u0259 dil\u0259n\u00e7i s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn arvad\u0131 s\u00fcm\u00fck yaxud kral s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00a0xan\u0131m\u0131 s\u00fcm\u00fck bezib?<\/p>\n

    Dil\u0259n\u00e7i sa\u011f v\u0259 sol s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259r kral sol s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn ayaqlar\u0131na d\u00f6\u015f\u0259nmi\u015fdil\u0259r. Susmu\u015fdu h\u0259r \u015fey v\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259s.T\u0259kc\u0259 kral s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00a0xan\u0131m\u0131 s\u00fcm\u00fck q\u0131m\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.H\u0259yat-h\u0259r k\u0259s- he\u00e7 n\u0259-v\u0259 n\u0259tic\u0259!3651 ovsun damc\u0131 Budda \u00a0sa\u011f s\u00fcm\u00fck-3651 \u00a0ovsun\u00a0 damc\u0131 Budda \u00a0(bu bar\u0259d\u0259 ancaq Ernest Hemingwey s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00a0bilir, oxuculara he\u00e7 bir m\u0259lumat h\u0259l\u0259 ki, \u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, m\u0259nc\u0259 yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 h\u0259r sirri oxucuya a\u00e7ma\u011fa borclu deyil v\u0259 umumiyy\u0259tl\u0259 \u0259s\u0259r oxucu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyil v\u0259 m\u0259n bu bar\u0259d\u0259 artiq internetd\u0259 getmi\u015f yazimda yazm\u0131\u015fam) \u00a0\u00a0sol s\u00fcm\u00fck. C\u0259nn\u0259t- c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m! V\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcnl\u00fckl\u0259 s\u00fcrrealizm b\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc al\u0259mi. Hmmmmmm.<\/p>\n

    Psixator sol s\u00fcm\u00fck hissl\u0259rin b\u00fct\u00fcn qammalar\u0131 il\u0259 \u00a0tez-tez v\u0259 t\u0259krar-t\u0259krar \u00a0deyirdi \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259:<\/p>\n

    -Bu oyun idi. Bu oyun idi.<\/p>\n

    -Niy\u0259 bel\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrsunuz? Niy\u0259 bel\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz?<\/p>\n

    -Bunu m\u0259n bilmirdim. Bunu m\u0259n bilmirdim.<\/p>\n

    -Hans\u0131 fikri? Hans\u0131 fikri?<\/p>\n

    -3651 \u00a0\u00a0ovsun damc\u0131 Budda \u00a0versiyas\u0131n\u0131. 3651 \u00a0ovsun damc\u0131 \u00a0Budda versiyas\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

    -S\u0259ni sevir\u0259m. S\u0259ni sevir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

    -Q\u0131sa add\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131.Q\u0131sa add\u0131mlar\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

    -Q\u0259rib\u0259 yuxular\u0131n\u0131. Q\u0259rib\u0259 yuxular\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

    -Qara gec\u0259ni. Qara gec\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

    -Soyu\u011fu, sopsoyu\u011fu.Soyu\u011fu, sopsoyu\u011fu.<\/p>\n

    -\u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n inan,ist\u0259yirs\u0259n inanma. \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n inan, ist\u0259yirs\u0259n inanma.<\/p>\n

    -U\u00e7an \u0259ll\u0259rinin maneras\u0131n\u0131.U\u00e7an \u0259ll\u0259rini maneras\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

    -Ancaq bu, ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259.Ancaq bu , ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259.<\/p>\n

    -M\u0259n bilmir\u0259m.M\u0259n bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

    -Sakit deyil\u0259m. Sakit deyil\u0259m.<\/p>\n

    -Ritorik olan budu?Ritorik olan budu?<\/p>\n

    -D\u0259lis\u0259n? D\u0259lis\u0259n?<\/p>\n

    -H\u0259. H\u0259.<\/p>\n

    -M\u0259n d\u0259. M\u0259n d\u0259.<\/p>\n

    -M\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259 n\u0259di? M\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259 n\u0259di?<\/p>\n

    -Q\u0259lb fakt\u0131.Q\u0259lb fakt\u0131.<\/p>\n

    -B\u0259lk\u0259 fakt yoxdu. B\u0259lk\u0259 fakt yoxdu.<\/p>\n

    -He\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259. He\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259.<\/p>\n

    -S\u0259n d\u0259. S\u0259n d\u0259.<\/p>\n

    -Bu n\u0259di? Bu n\u0259di?<\/p>\n

    -Psevdoh\u0259yat. Psevdoh\u0259yat.<\/p>\n

    -Mahn\u0131dak\u0131 kimi. Mahn\u0131dak\u0131 kimi.<\/p>\n

    -H\u0259. H\u0259.<\/p>\n

    -G\u0259l oxuyaq. G\u0259l oxuyaq.<\/p>\n

    -Oxuyaq. Oxuyaq:<\/p>\n

    …………………………………………………………….<\/p>\n

    \u00dcmid birinci \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u00dcmid birinci \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

    H\u0259r \u015fey \u0259s\u0259bd\u0259n ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi.H\u0259r \u015fey \u0259s\u0259bd\u0259n ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

    Si-lya-sol-fa-mi-re-do.Si-lya-sol-fa-mi-re-do.<\/p>\n

    Pauza.Pauza.<\/p>\n

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    \u015f\u0259kill\u0259nm\u0259: ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n \u015f\u00fcuru<\/p>\n

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    \u201cox\u015far fiqurlar\u0131n olmamas\u0131\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

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    Ernest \u00a0Hemingwey \u00a0s\u00fcm\u00fcykd\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259lik vard\u0131.Narahat halda \u201cm\u0259n bilmir\u0259m\u201d \u2013dey\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u00fcs\u00fc bu idi ki, bu h\u0259qiq\u0259t d\u0259 ola bil\u0259r v\u0259 bu epizodu unutma\u011f\u0131n \u00e7\u0259tin oldu\u011funu izah etm\u0259yin \u00e7\u0259tinliyi \u201cs\u0259n burda deyils\u0259n\u201dl\u0259 bit\u0259nd\u0259 o bel\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fmirdi.<\/p>\n

    Yen\u0259 qaranl\u0131qd\u0131 v\u0259 kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r natural olan limitsiz hissl\u0259r ki\u00e7ik v\u0259 bo\u015f st\u0259kanda b\u00f6y\u00fck qaranl\u0131q v\u0259 orjinal bayqu\u015flar daha yax\u015f\u0131 u\u00e7urdular bel\u0259d\u0259 v\u0259 bu \u00fczs\u00fcz v\u0259 semantik olana daha ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259 \u0259lav\u0259 etm\u0259m\u0259k, ola bilsin ki, magik olan h\u0259r \u015fey haqda fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 bu s\u0259ssizlik onu daha da \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015fdirirdi v\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tin n\u0259f\u0259s almas\u0131yla h\u0259r \u015fey daha bitm\u0259di v\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259m\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyildi:<\/p>\n

    -S\u0259nnnnnnnnnnnnn…<\/p>\n

    -N\u0259?<\/p>\n

    P\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131:<\/p>\n

    -M\u0259n\u0259 qulaq as.<\/p>\n

    H\u0259r \u015fey h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tsiz idi.S\u0259s vard\u0131. Siqnal yoxdu.Bilirdi ki, n\u0259s\u0259 ona sar\u0131 g\u0259lir.<\/p>\n

    -Oh, yox. Yox.<\/p>\n

    -Bel\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131ma g\u00f6r\u0259 bu ideya itirilmi\u015f , b\u0259lk\u0259 itiril\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 bunlar\u0131n f\u0259rqinin g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 g\u00fcman ki, onun\u00e7un a\u00e7\u0131q qalan suallar vard\u0131 v\u0259 bu suallara cavab onun n\u0259 etdiyi v\u0259 n\u0259 ist\u0259diyil\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259dar olanlard\u0131.<\/p>\n

    -S\u0259hv n\u0259d\u0259di?<\/p>\n

    Birlikd\u0259 \u201cYox. M\u0259n\u0259 cavab laz\u0131md\u0131\u201d-dey\u0259nd\u0259 \u201ch\u0259, h\u0259, h\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259 bu cavab\u0131 bilm\u0259k vacibdi\u201d-cavab\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitdi.<\/p>\n

    -Bir d\u0259qiq\u0259. Burda m\u0259n\u0259 laz\u0131m olacaq n\u0259s\u0259 var.<\/p>\n

    -Bu m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fc?<\/p>\n

    -Yox.Min k\u0259r\u0259 yox.<\/p>\n

    -N\u0259s\u0259 s\u0259hvdi.Bax bu d\u0259qiqdi.<\/p>\n

    -Bu h\u0259l\u0259 ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131cd\u0131.<\/p>\n

    -M\u0259n el\u0259 dem\u0259dim.<\/p>\n

    -\u00dcz\u00fcm\u0259 bax.N\u0259 dedim s\u0259n\u0259?<\/p>\n

    -N\u0259 dedim s\u0259n\u0259.<\/p>\n

    -Yax\u015f\u0131san?<\/p>\n

    Sarah\u00a0 Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00a0davama\u00a0 ehtiyac\u0131 olmas\u0131, baxmayaraq\u00a0 ki, Ernest Hemingwey s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00a0\u00fcmidin birinci \u00f6lm\u0259sil\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fdi ki, onun davama ehtiyac\u0131 var?<\/p>\n

    -Xat\u0131rlay\u0131rsan, onda ki, bildin \u00a0bu h\u0259qiq\u0259tdi, bilm\u0259dim\u00a0 \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r n\u0259d\u0259n rastla\u015fmam\u0131\u015f\u0131q.<\/p>\n

    -Yax\u015f\u0131 olard\u0131 ki…<\/p>\n

    -\u015e\u015f\u015fhhh!Qulaq as…<\/p>\n

    Bu mubahis\u0259 predmeti idi.<\/p>\n

    -\u0130caz\u0259 ver s\u0259n\u0259 bir m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t verim.<\/p>\n

    S\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn sonunda\u201dyoung lady\u201d-dem\u0259k ist\u0259di, dilinin ucundan qaytard\u0131 v\u0259 \u0259lav\u0259 etdi:<\/p>\n

    -\u00c7ox, \u00e7ox \u00fczr ist\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

    Kims\u0259 biziml\u0259 g\u0259lir.<\/p>\n

    -Kims\u0259 bizi izl\u0259yir dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n b\u0259lk\u0259?<\/p>\n

    -Yox.Yox, \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259 ki, yox.<\/p>\n

    -Bel\u0259 dem\u0259yim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla.<\/p>\n

    Hiss etdi ki, bel\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259yir:\u201dLet me help you\u201d. Dem\u0259di.<\/p>\n

    Bu n\u0259 idi?N\u0259 ba\u015f vermi\u015fdi?He\u00e7 vaxt?\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 n\u0259yis\u0259 s\u0259hv ed\u0259 bil\u0259rdi, lakin bunu t\u0259krarlamaq bu art\u0131q ciddi i\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

    Bu s\u00fckutun davam\u0131ydi v\u0259 Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00a0davama ehtiyac\u0131 olmas\u0131 t\u0259rk etm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l\u00a0 bu atmosferd\u0259 bu he\u00e7 d\u0259 sad\u0259 deyildi v\u0259 bu \u00e7ox optimistik idi h\u0259m d\u0259.<\/p>\n

    Ernest Hemingwey\u00a0 s\u00fcm\u00fck:<\/p>\n

    -S\u0259n \u00e7ox mehribansan, \u2013 dey\u0259nd\u0259 \u00a0yer\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n h\u00f6r\u00fcm\u00e7\u0259k ba\u011f\u0131rsaqlar\u0131nda \u00a0bir ciddilik v\u0259 d\u0259rin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259,\u0259li \u00fcr\u0259yinin ba\u015f\u0131nda ,dal\u011f\u0131n v\u0259 x\u00fcsusi h\u0259ssasl\u0131q, h\u0259r \u015feyin yoxa do\u011fru getdiyi anda qatmaqar\u0131\u015f\u0131q \u015f\u0259kild\u0259, etm\u0259li oldu\u011funu etm\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 gecikm\u0259si v\u0259 bu ovqat\u0131n m\u0259nal\u0131 v\u0259 m\u0259nas\u0131z \u015feyl\u0259r qovu\u015fu\u011funda xilas\u0131 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn idi.\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmayanlar\u0131 h\u0259r\u00e7\u0259nd ki, d\u00fczg\u00fcn n\u00f6qt\u0259d\u0259 tapmaq v\u0259 eyni zamanda daha d\u0259rin\u0259 enm\u0259k \u00e7ox m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259b \u015feyl\u0259ri asanla\u015fd\u0131racaqd\u0131 v\u0259 bunun yerd\u0259 qalan he\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259 aidiyyat\u0131 yox idi.Yer\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n h\u00f6r\u00fcm\u00e7\u0259k ba\u011f\u0131rsaqlar\u0131nda n\u0259s\u0259 vard\u0131. Bu el\u0259 bil Nuhun g\u0259misinin g\u0259li\u015fin\u0259 i\u015far\u0259ydi.He\u00e7 vaxt bel\u0259 olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 qeyri-t\u0259bii olan f\u0259rqli al\u0259md\u0259 illuziya t\u0259sirind\u0259 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olan m\u00fcmk\u00fcns\u00fczd\u00fc v\u0259 bu bo\u015fluqda ya\u015famaq da ya\u015famamaq kimi bir \u015fey idi v\u0259 onda ayd\u0131n oldu ki,\u201dFor\u00a0 whom the bell tolls.\u201d<\/p>\n

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    qurban<\/p>\n

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    \u201cinanc\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

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    G\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f s\u00fcm\u00fck hans\u0131 ki, 3651 ovsun damc\u0131 \u00a0Budda \u00a0\u0259vv\u0259l qurtarmaya o soyuq v\u0259 qaranl\u0131q gec\u0259 kimi \u018fzra q\u0259bristanl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 avadanl\u0131qlar ki\u00e7ik t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259 \u201cbunun m\u0259nas\u0131 n\u0259dir?\u201d-dey\u0259 soru\u015fanda cavab gecikm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

    -O.K. Qulaq as\u0131n.Siz m\u0259ni\u00a0 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259lisiniz v\u0259 bunu e\u015fitm\u0259lisiniz.<\/p>\n

    Divar\u0131n arxas\u0131ndak\u0131 s\u0259rdab\u0259d\u0259 \u00e7oxlu c\u0259naz\u0259 \u00a0s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259ri \u00a0a\u015fkar olunmu\u015fdu ki, t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb etm\u0259m\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyildi.D\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00e7\u00fc s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259rin \u00a0\u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259 niz\u0259 vard\u0131, ba\u015flar\u0131nda tunc d\u0259bilq\u0259. B\u0259z\u0259k \u0259\u015fyalar\u0131 qad\u0131n sumukl\u0259rind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r verirdi.<\/p>\n

    Sa\u011f v\u0259 sol s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259r \u00f6zl\u0259rini h\u00f6kmdar s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00a0qurban vermi\u015fdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

    N\u0259f\u0259s almadan qulaq asmaq v\u0259 \u201c\u0259lini m\u0259n\u0259 ver\u201d-dey\u0259nd\u0259 spased\u0259ki k\u00f6lg\u0259l\u0259r nec\u0259 varsa el\u0259 d\u0259 \u201cm\u0259n\u0259m-m\u0259n\u0259m\u201d- dey\u0259n h\u00f6kmdar s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259rin\u0259 intizars\u0131z qalmad\u0131, yox, orada bir bax\u0131\u015f , yox h\u0259dsiz s\u00fcm\u00fck bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 onlar\u0131n yen\u0259 d\u0259 h\u00f6kmdar s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259rinin qullu\u011funda olmalar\u0131ndan deyirdi.<\/p>\n

    -Siqnal qutusu itdi?<\/p>\n

    -Yox. Bu x\u00fcsusi m\u0259qs\u0259d idi.<\/p>\n

    -Siz k\u00f6m\u0259ksizsiniz.<\/p>\n

    -G\u00f6zl\u0259, m\u0259n d\u0259 sizinl\u0259 g\u0259lir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

    \u00dcr\u0259yi s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 vurmad\u0131 v\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259di..Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259di ki, ona n\u0259 olub.Nec\u0259 olub beynind\u0259n h\u0259r \u015fey silinib. Bilm\u0259di a\u011flas\u0131n yoxsa\u00a0 g\u00fcls\u00fcn.Bu s\u00f6z\u00fc bir d\u0259…<\/p>\n

    Stop.Kims\u0259 vard\u0131m\u0131 orda?<\/p>\n

    Soyuq idi. Soldan sa\u011fa f\u0131rlan\u0131rd\u0131 h\u0259r \u015fey.K\u00fcr\u0259nin daxilind\u0259 f\u0259ls\u0259fi fiqurlar var idi.<\/p>\n

    G\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fcn idar\u0259edici q\u00f6vsvari s\u0259ma cisiml\u0259ri gec\u0259- g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fc \u0259ks etdir\u0259n 6-9\u00a0 u<\/p>\n

    \u0259ks etdirirdi.No comment.<\/p>\n

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    \u015f\u0259kill\u0259nm\u0259: ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n \u015f\u00fcuru ( ard\u0131)<\/p>\n

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    \u201c ox\u015far fiqurlar\u0131n olmamas\u0131\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

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    Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00fcr\u0259yi s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 vururdu.A\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7a bilmirdi.Q\u0259rib\u0259 idi h\u0259r \u015fey.Bilmirdi ona n\u0259 olub? N\u0259 ba\u015f verib?Stop!\u00c7at\u0131\u015fmazl\u0131q h\u0259m onundu, h\u0259m d\u0259 onun deyildi.\u018flin\u0259 toxunanda hiss etdi ki, bu \u0259l onun \u0259li deyil.Daxili\u00a0 m\u0259kan o m\u0259kanda\u00a0 deyildi.Daxili olanla xarici olanlar ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131cdan n\u0259y\u0259 i\u015far\u0259 edirdi?Prinsipc\u0259 bu n\u0259 idi?<\/p>\n

    D\u0259folunmazl\u0131q z-d\u0259n a-ya q\u0259d\u0259r bu taml\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc yen\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n v\u0259 qeyri m\u0259n deyirdi.Subyekt subyekt idi, h\u0259m d\u0259 obyekt olmal\u0131yd\u0131.Yox.<\/p>\n

    Sarah Xaraba\u00a0 s\u00fcm\u00fck el\u0259 trayektoriya\u00a0 c\u0131z\u0131rd\u0131 ki, onun sah\u0259sini v\u0259 h\u0259cmini m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n etm\u0259k olurdu.<\/p>\n

    Ernest Hemingwey\u00a0 s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00a0is\u0259 el\u0259 trayektoriya c\u0131zm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, onun sah\u0259sini, n\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259cmini hesablamaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyildi. Bu s\u00f6yl\u0259m t\u00fcst\u00fcl\u00fc al\u0259m\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyin(n\u0259tic\u0259nin)yerli-dibli bamba\u015fqa \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmazl\u0131qdan qurtulmaqla v\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi alt-\u00fcst etm\u0259yil\u0259 v\u0259 sonda t\u0259kzib\u0259 yer qalmama\u011f\u0131yla, g\u00f6t\u00fcr-qoy etm\u0259d\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qaytarmas\u0131, gileyin t\u0259rsin\u0259 olaraq \u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259 t\u0259rzd\u0259 s\u0259s-k\u00fcy yarad\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 h\u00f6r\u00fcm\u00e7\u0259yin yer\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n ba\u011f\u0131rsaqlar\u0131 dar\u0131xmaqdan \u00f6tr\u00fc dar\u0131xanda he\u00e7 n\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k olmurdu.<\/p>\n

    \u00c7ay dal\u011falar\u0131 h\u00f6r\u00fcm\u00e7\u0259yin yer\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n ba\u011f\u0131rsaqlar\u0131na daha xo\u015f g\u0259lirdi v\u0259 q\u00fcvv\u0259 haqq\u0131nda fikirl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 ciddi v\u0259 t\u00fchaf\u00a0 u\u011fultular get -ged\u0259 g\u00fccl\u0259nirdi ki, bu da h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tin g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259yi\u015firdi.Ola bilsin ki, bu dekorasiyadan k\u0259narda h\u0259r \u015fey dar\u0131xd\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 idi v\u0259 s\u00fckut m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259 t\u0259siri ba\u011f\u0131\u015flam\u0131rd\u0131. Burada n\u0259l\u0259ris\u0259 \u0259lav\u0259 etm\u0259k,onu n\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259ns\u0259 m\u0259hrum edirdi.<\/p>\n

    3651 \u00a0\u00a0ovsun damc\u0131 Budda \u00a0pill\u0259li piramidan\u0131 yuxar\u0131 qalxanda h\u00f6r\u00fcm\u00e7\u0259yin yer\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n ba\u011f\u0131rsaqlar\u0131\u00a0 dua edirdi.<\/p>\n

    Ernest Hemingwey \u00a0s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00a0\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yuxar\u0131dan atanda a\u015fa\u011f\u0131ya baxd\u0131, g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fc ordayd\u0131.H\u00f6r\u00fcm\u00e7\u0259yin yer\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n ba\u011f\u0131rsaqlar\u0131 yax\u015f\u0131 bilirdi ki,z\u00fcmr\u00fcd yosunlar ard\u0131nca qa\u00e7maz m\u0259l\u0259kl\u0259rin.Yeri s\u0259hv d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f m\u0259l\u0259kl\u0259rin h\u00fczurunda s\u00f6yl\u0259nil\u0259nl\u0259ri z\u00fcmr\u00fcd yosunlara atmad\u0131 v\u0259 \u00a0dedi:<\/p>\n

    -\u0130lahi, g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fc hardad\u0131?<\/p>\n

    Suala sualla cavab g\u0259ldi:<\/p>\n

    -\u015eik\u0259st\u0259 ilanlar,g\u00f6r\u00fcn kimin e\u015fqi var?<\/p>\n

    Onda he\u00e7 bir s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00a0bilm\u0259di ki,su at\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131ndan ax\u0131rm\u0131\u015f.H\u00fczn, ah-nal\u0259 \u00f6z d\u00fcnyas\u0131ndan k\u0259narda\u00a0 hal tuturdu.H\u00f6r\u00fcm\u00e7\u0259yin yer\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n ba\u011f\u0131rsaqlar\u0131 Tuba a\u011fac\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131.Ka\u011f\u0131z qay\u0131\u011fa toxunanda k\u00fcs\u00fcb gedirdi i\u015far\u0259t.Vallah, billah, simibillah bel\u0259ydi.<\/p>\n

    Ernest Hemingwey\u00a0 s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00a0g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 \u0259s\u0259bi ifad\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi \u00fcst\u0259l\u0259mi\u015fdi.Ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr sonluq ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr g\u00f6z\u0259l idi.<\/p>\n

    Divar\u0131n o biri t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 h\u00f6r\u00fcm\u00e7\u0259yin yer\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n ba\u011f\u0131rsaqlar\u0131 yol ged\u0259n uyuyand\u0131.Ba\u015f h\u0259rfl\u0259ri xat\u0131rlad\u0131qca h\u0259r an ovcunda s\u00f6z verm\u0259dikl\u0259ri \u00a0g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ydi.Yan\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 yan\u0131lmaq el\u0259 uzal\u0131 \u0259lin qovu\u015fma\u011f\u0131 idi v\u0259 h\u00f6r\u00fcm\u00e7\u0259yin yer\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n ba\u011f\u0131rsaqlar\u0131 \u00a0\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f gedirdi.<\/p>\n

    Bu d\u00fcnya k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0131xmaqdan yaranm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 Ernest Hemingwey \u00a0s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00a0bilirdi ki, qaranl\u0131qda soyuq su israr\u00e7\u0131d\u0131 v\u0259 n\u0259 is\u0259 d\u00fcz deyildi.Yox!<\/p>\n

    H\u00f6r\u00fcm\u00e7\u0259yin yer\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n ba\u011f\u0131rsaqlar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f yolu axtar\u0131rd\u0131.Reall\u0131qdan qa\u00e7maq, ba\u015f g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb qa\u00e7maq? Sevgid\u0259n n\u0259 qal\u0131b?<\/p>\n

    S\u0259sin g\u0259ldiyi h\u00fcnd\u00fcrl\u00fckd\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey he\u00e7 vaxt ba\u015f verm\u0259mi\u015f m\u00f6vcudluq \u00a0kimi idi,amma n\u0259s\u0259 ba\u015f vermi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

    -\u0130lkin su t\u0259rp\u0259ni\u015fini xat\u0131rlay\u0131rsan?<\/p>\n

    -Ciddi v\u0259 tuhaf\u00a0 u\u011fultular g\u00fccl\u0259ndikc\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tin g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fc d\u0259yi\u015firdi.<\/p>\n

    -\u0130lk c\u0259htd\u0259…<\/p>\n

    -B\u00fct\u00f6v t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcrd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan?<\/p>\n

    -M\u0259n burda olmu\u015fam.<\/p>\n

    -N\u0259 ba\u015f verib?Dey\u0259s\u0259n unutmu\u015fam.<\/p>\n

    -\u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc el\u0259 apar ki,guya h\u0259r \u015fey …<\/p>\n

    -Ax\u0131 s\u0259n n\u0259d\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan?<\/p>\n

    -Unutma ki, dar\u0131xd\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 olan h\u0259r \u015fey f\u0259rdidi.<\/p>\n

    -M\u0259ktubu\u00a0 daha nec\u0259 adland\u0131rmaq olar?<\/p>\n

    -Nam\u0259.<\/p>\n

    -\u0130lluziyalar\u0131n g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yi…<\/p>\n

    -Al\u0131nacaq, h\u0259 al\u0131nacaq.<\/p>\n

    -Do\u011fru deyirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

    -Yaman\u00a0 narahatsan.<\/p>\n

    -Bir aya\u011f\u0131m donub.<\/p>\n

    -Xat\u0131rlaya bil\u0259rs\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 olub?<\/p>\n

    -M\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 olmu\u015fdu?<\/p>\n

    -H\u0259r \u015feyi t\u0259rsin\u0259 xat\u0131rlay\u0131rsan.<\/p>\n

    -Tez yox…<\/p>\n

    -B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt.<\/p>\n

    -Bel\u0259 dem\u0259 Tanr\u0131 xatirin\u0259.<\/p>\n

    -Bu \u00e7ox vacibdi.<\/p>\n

    -Yoox!Yox!<\/p>\n

    -De g\u00f6r\u00fcm bu n\u0259di?<\/p>\n

    -Atam\u0131n yadigar\u0131.<\/p>\n

    -\u018fc\u0259b yadigard\u0131.Silahdan da yadigar olar?<\/p>\n

    -Olar, olar.<\/p>\n

    -Bu harada olub?<\/p>\n

    -Oak parkda.<\/p>\n

    -H\u0259\u0259\u0259.\u018fc\u0259b soyuqdu.<\/p>\n

    -S\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131san?<\/p>\n

    -S\u00f6zl\u0259 ifad\u0259 el\u0259m\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tindi.<\/p>\n

    -Bu metamarfoza…<\/p>\n

    -\u00d6h\u00f6, \u00f6h\u00f6…<\/p>\n

    -Yox. Yox.<\/p>\n

    -Ora bax, ora bax.<\/p>\n

    -Hara?<\/p>\n

    -Oda.<\/p>\n

    -Qaranl\u0131qda \u00a0od daha \u00a0ayd\u0131n \u00a0g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

    Geriy\u0259 add\u0131m atd\u0131.\u00d6z- \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

    \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fan s\u00fcm\u00fck g\u00f6rm\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fczm\u00fc?<\/p>\n

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    t\u0259c\u0259lla<\/p>\n

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    \u201cd\u0259runi\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

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    Koala s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00a0yax\u015f\u0131 bilirdi ki,do\u011fmaq \u00e7\u0259tin \u015feydi.Onu da bilirdi ki,insan d\u00fcnyaya defektl\u0259 g\u0259lir. Bu faktd\u0131 v\u0259 Koala\u00a0 s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00a0bunu \u00e7oxdan bilirdi.Onu da bilirdi ki,\u0259g\u0259r u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fck – o\u011flan s\u00fcm\u00fck do\u011fularsa qad\u0131n s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00a0d\u00f6\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcn bir gil\u0259sind\u0259 ki\u015fi cinsi s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 \u00a0aid olan h\u0259r \u015fey olur.D\u00f6\u015f\u00fcn dig\u0259r gil\u0259sind\u0259s\u0259 \u00a0su olur.<\/p>\n

    \u018fg\u0259r u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fck \u2013 q\u0131z s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00a0do\u011fularsa d\u00f6\u015f\u00fcn bir gil\u0259sind\u0259 qad\u0131n s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 aid olan b\u00fct\u00fcn fizioloji \u0259lam\u0259tl\u0259r olur.D\u00f6\u015f\u00fcn dig\u0259r gil\u0259sind\u0259 yen\u0259 d\u0259 su olur.<\/p>\n

    O\u011flan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259\u00a0 aid olan su q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 \u00a0aid olan sudan a\u011f\u0131r g\u0259lir.<\/p>\n

    M\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259li n\u0259f\u0259s alma v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra daha bir \u00f6z\u00fcn olma v\u0259 d\u0259rin pauza v\u0259 \u00a0\u00fcz- g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 olan bir \u015fey-bir, iki,\u00fc\u00e7, d\u00f6rd, be\u015f, alt\u0131 yox,3651 \u00a0ovsun damc\u0131 Budda da olmayacaqd\u0131 i\u015f\u0131qda,yoxsa…<\/p>\n

    Koala\u00a0 s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00a0bird\u0259n ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki,\u015f\u0259kill\u0259rin\u00a0 bir-birind\u0259n f\u0259rql\u0259nm\u0259m\u0259si v\u0259 qu\u015flar\u0131n daha\u00a0 a\u011faclarda oturmamas\u0131 qara s\u0259ma il\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259dard\u0131 v\u0259 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 il\u0259 baxd\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259.<\/p>\n

    -M\u0259n\u0259 bax.<\/p>\n

    G\u00fclm\u0259di.Tibb ensiklopediyas\u0131nda da tibbi \u0259m\u0259liyyat zaman\u0131 insan s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00a0q\u0259rib\u0259 s\u0259sl\u0259r \u00e7\u0131xarmas\u0131 \u0259leyhin\u0259 yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 bunun s\u0259b\u0259bini tapmaq da gec deyildi \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259,baxmayaraq ki, bunun gec olmas\u0131 fikrini ba\u015f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xarm\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

    Bu emosiyan\u0131n analoqunun \u00a0ritorik m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 v\u0259 ritorik sual kimi itm\u0259yin \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 f\u0259ls\u0259fi bir \u015fey idi v\u0259 bu q\u0259rib\u0259 saat \u00e7ox g\u00fcc t\u0259l\u0259b edirdi.<\/p>\n

    3651 \u00a0\u00a0ovsun damc\u0131 Budda \u00a0vitamin \u0259yri q\u0131\u00e7\u0131 da d\u00fcz\u0259ld\u0259rdi.Bel\u0259\u00a0 d\u0259 olard\u0131 ki, bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259ri…n\u0259 is\u0259…Bax onda, bax onda bildi ki,bu n\u0259 is\u0259 ba\u015fqa \u015feydi.Aman Allah!<\/p>\n

    Daxilind\u0259 eyni anda qaranl\u0131q, h\u0259m d\u0259 soyuq add\u0131m s\u0259sl\u0259ri e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 v\u0259 o s\u0259s\u0259 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 qulaq asanda\u00a0 antipatiya…<\/p>\n

    Bu frazan\u0131n ard\u0131n\u0131 art\u0131q \u00a0bilirdi. Stop!<\/p>\n

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    Balet teatr\u0131nda dekorator \u00f6z i\u015find\u0259ydi.D\u0259lil\u0259r qolf oynaya-oynaya r\u0259qs edirdil\u0259r v\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131ra-q\u0131\u015fq\u0131ra ucadan \u015f\u00f6vql\u0259 deyirdil\u0259r:<\/p>\n

    -Bizim itm\u0259kd\u0259n xo\u015fumuz g\u0259lir.<\/p>\n

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    qeyri irsi(ard\u0131)<\/p>\n

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    \u201cend note\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

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    Meh Setti Off s\u00fcm\u00fck el\u0259 bil ki,Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn silueti idi. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259k olard\u0131 ki,\u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 n\u0259qqa\u015f\u0131 n\u0259 ist\u0259diyini bilirdi, baxmayaraq ki, t\u0259svirolunmaz fiqurlar yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131qla , daha ba\u015fqa t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259l\u0259r (\u0259d\u0259bi) divar ka\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131nda \u00fcmidsizlik kimi s\u0259nin ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259diyin \u015feyl\u0259ri d\u0259rinliy\u0259 enm\u0259kl\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 d\u0259 olsa h\u0259zm ed\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

    -Bu inki\u015faf deyil.<\/p>\n

    -Bu bo\u015flu\u011fun \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259m\u0259xsuslu\u011fu,\u00fcslubun g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcd\u00fc, ancaq v\u0259ziyy\u0259t d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259 d\u0259 bil\u0259r v\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u0259rd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanlar n\u0259q\u015f olunanda\u00a0 y\u00f6nd\u0259msizliy\u0259 meyllilik obraz kimi\u00a0 estetik, h\u0259m d\u0259 sad\u0259 olana n\u0259q\u015fin dediyi yer\u0259- t\u0259kliy\u0259 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r h\u0259r \u015feyi v\u0259 bu ideal f\u0131rlanmaq\u00a0 kimi m\u0259nas\u0131zl\u0131qda bu antis\u0259liq\u0259sizlik \u0259m\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259r bu n\u0259q\u015f\u0259b\u0259nz\u0259r \u015feyl\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259qay\u0131d\u0131\u015f\u0131, bunu bilirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

    \u00c7\u0259p\u0259ki baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131nda Meh Setti Off s\u00fcm\u00fck Sarah Xaraba\u00a0 s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc azadl\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u0259tirdiyi inams\u0131zl\u0131q\u00a0 v\u0259 misillilik , h\u0259m d\u0259 misilsizlikd\u0259 ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qaranl\u0131q fikirl\u0259rin n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6n\u0259mli oldu\u011fu q\u0259na\u0259tind\u0259ydi, h\u0259r\u00e7\u0259nd n\u0259yin yerind\u0259, n\u0259yins\u0259 yerind\u0259 olmamas\u0131n\u0131n buna q\u0259tiyy\u0259n d\u0259xli yox idi. Narahatl\u0131q \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn nam\u0259lum v\u0259 f\u0259rqli olan adlar bar\u0259d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259 bildi ki, bu tamam \u015f\u0259rti bir \u015feydi.<\/p>\n

    -Pozulan yaz\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

    -N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259kisi olsa bel\u0259 da\u015f torpa\u011fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

    Meh Setti Off s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn peyda olmaq fikir m\u00fcbadil\u0259sind\u0259n m\u00fcxt\u0259lif m\u00fcst\u0259vil\u0259rin k\u0259si\u015fm\u0259si qoxusu g\u0259lirdi, amma bu duyum ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n deyil \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u00fc, aman Allah , bu \u0259ks-s\u0259dada \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 n\u0259qqa\u015f\u0131 h\u0259r \u015feyin ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259hz suyun t\u0259rp\u0131ni\u015find\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fc b\u0259ri g\u0259ldiyi q\u0259na\u0259tind\u0259ydi.Giri\u015f qap\u0131s\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xmaq olmazd\u0131.Ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259.<\/p>\n

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    \u201cparadoqsal\u201d (ard\u0131)<\/p>\n

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    \u201c \u00e7\u0259kinti\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

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    Q\u0259ddafi s\u00fcm\u00fck q\u0131raqdak\u0131 sa\u011f s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 baxd\u0131.Dig\u0259r bir itmi\u015f a\u011f\u0131z sa\u011f s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 v\u0259h\u015fi g\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 baxanda:<\/p>\n

    -Qorxma,-dem\u0259siyl\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 o da \u201ch\u0259\u201d-dedi.<\/p>\n

    Q\u0259ddafi s\u00fcm\u00fck dig\u0259r s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 bilm\u0259di ki, alov niy\u0259 al\u0259mi ba\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb, ax\u0131\u00a0 qat\u0131 qaranl\u0131q\u00a0 idi.Bu vaxt ba\u015fqa t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n s\u0259si e\u015fitdi:<\/p>\n

    -Arxamca g\u0259l.<\/p>\n

    Q\u0131sa m\u0259saf\u0259d\u0259 \u00f6z add\u0131mlar\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xan taqq\u0131lt\u0131larda \u201carxamca g\u0259l\u201d-s\u00f6zl\u0259rinin alt\u0131ndak\u0131 yer vaxtdan-vaxta\u00a0 xaotik\u00a0 n\u0259z\u0259rl\u0259ri g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 orada ilin g\u00fcnl\u0259ri, duz v\u0259 quru \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k olan v\u0259 onu g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n v\u0259 qa\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 yuxar\u0131 dartan v\u0259\u201dsakitl\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u201d,-dey\u0259nd\u0259 onu t\u0259rk ed\u0259n v\u0259 e\u015fitm\u0259y\u0259 v\u0259 \u0259ksin\u0259 qaranl\u0131\u011fa baxanda bilm\u0259di \u201cyox\u201d-desin yoxsa\u201dh\u0259\u201d.<\/p>\n

    Bu lap h\u0259r \u015feyin ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c\u0131 kimi idi.<\/p>\n

    \u0130tm\u0259k fikri ilk d\u0259f\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 sona\u00a0 q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259r \u015feyin qorxunc , h\u0259m d\u0259 sevincli olmas\u0131 fikrinin n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00fczg\u00fcn yaxud qeyri-d\u00fczg\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xaracaqd\u0131.Yox, orda ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259 yox idi v\u0259 \u0259trafa baxanda g\u00fcnah v\u0259 g\u00fcnags\u0131zl\u0131q\u00a0 haqda he\u00e7 vaxt bu q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259mi\u015fdi v\u0259 bird\u0259n yad\u0131na miss Hind s\u00fcm\u00fck d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.\u00c7ox \u015fey dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 miss Hind s\u00fcm\u00fck ona v\u0259 o s\u00fcm\u00fck Allah\u0131n b\u0259las\u0131 idi, lakin o \u00f6lk\u0259 imperatoru Ulysses \u00a0R.McKinley s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda az qala \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc itirmi\u015fdi:miss Hind s\u00fcm\u00fck dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 Q\u0259ddafi s\u00fcm\u00fck heyranl\u0131qla ona baxa-baxa saqqal\u0131n\u0131\u00a0 tumarlay\u0131r v\u0259 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 ona qulaq\u00a0 as\u0131rd\u0131:<\/p>\n

    \u201cSiyirm\u0259ni a\u00e7\u0131n v\u0259 k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0259kilin!-Bu qara kostyumlu, h\u00fcnd\u00fcrboylu, sa\u011flamg\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015fl\u00fc FTB \u0259m\u0259kda\u015f\u0131 s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn s\u00f6zl\u0259ridi \u00a0v\u0259 o muzeyin direktoru s\u00fcm\u00fck olan c\u0131l\u0131z v\u0259 b\u0259yaz \u00fczl\u00fc miss Hind s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 bax\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcn\u00fcr v\u0259:<\/p>\n

    -Yox, yox m\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt qad\u0131n s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259r\u0259 \u00a0aid olan yerl\u0259r\u0259 baxm\u0131ram, ancaq indi baxmaq ist\u0259rdim.<\/p>\n

    Hiss olunur ki, yalan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Sabah g\u0259nc \u00f6lk\u0259 imperatoru Ulysses R.McKinley s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00e7ox vacib bir muzeyin a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u015f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 yerli camaat s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259rl\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k.Odur ki, bir g\u00fcn \u00f6nc\u0259d\u0259n yoxlan\u0131l\u0131r h\u0259r \u015fey.<\/p>\n

    FTB-nin h\u00fcnd\u00fcrboylu \u0259m\u0259kda\u015f\u0131 s\u00fcm\u00fck stolun siyirm\u0259sini yoxlay\u0131r:pomada, krem, \u0259tir v\u0259 s. qad\u0131n s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 \u00a0aid olan \u0259\u015fyalard\u0131 orda yaln\u0131z.Sonra paltar \u015fkaf\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b, qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131r, oradak\u0131 paltarlar\u0131n\u00a0 ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 yoxlay\u0131r v\u0259 yen\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcn\u00fcb deyir:<\/p>\n

    -V\u0259zif\u0259m bunu t\u0259l\u0259b edir-v\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xark\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn qap\u0131lara plomb vurur.<\/p>\n

    G\u00fcnorta FTB-nin ba\u015fqa bir \u0259m\u0259kda\u015f\u0131 s\u00fcm\u00fck\u00a0 g\u0259lib onun g\u0259nc \u00f6lk\u0259 imperatoru Ulysses R.McKinley s\u00fcm\u00fck v\u0259 onun xan\u0131m\u0131 Karen Wrightsman s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 m\u0259lumat ver\u0259rk\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc nec\u0259 aparmaq qaydalar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fa sal\u0131r.<\/p>\n

    Qar\u015f\u0131da uzun bir gec\u0259…v\u0259 indi \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n h\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131 oldu\u011fu d\u0259rhal hiss edil\u0259n miss Hind s\u00fcm\u00fck dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r, \u015f\u0259kill\u0259r haqq\u0131nda m\u0259lumat verir.G\u0259nc \u00f6lk\u0259 imperatoru Ulysses R.McKinley s\u00fcm\u00fck qulaq as\u0131r, \u201cb\u0259li,b\u0259li\u201d-deyir v\u0259 bel\u0259d\u0259 miss Hind s\u00fcm\u00fck bir az \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259nir v\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 davam edir.\u0130ndi o m\u0259rhum \u00f6lk\u0259 imperatoru s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn litseyd\u0259 oxuyark\u0259n litsey s\u0259hn\u0259sind\u0259 Robert s\u00fcm\u00fck\u00a0 rolunu nec\u0259 m\u0259har\u0259tl\u0259 oynad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 n\u0259ql edir.<\/p>\n

    G\u0259nc \u00f6lk\u0259 imperatoru Ulysses R.McKinley s\u00fcm\u00fck g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u00fcn\u00fcr v\u0259 deyir:<\/p>\n

    -Siz d\u00fcz\u00a0 deyirsiniz.\u201d<\/p>\n

    Q\u0259ddafi s\u00fcm\u00fck \u0259lini tumarlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 saqqal\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0259kib, \u0259zalar\u0131nda h\u0259r \u015feyin yerini bildiyi miss Hind s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn alma yanaqlar\u0131ndan \u00f6pd\u00fc v\u0259 soru\u015fdu:<\/p>\n

    -\u0130ndi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc nec\u0259 hiss edirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

    Miss Hind s\u00fcm\u00fck i\u015fv\u0259yl\u0259 cavab verdi:<\/p>\n

    -\u0130ndi bu m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil.<\/p>\n

    Bir-birini n\u0259f\u0259s almalar\u0131ndan ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r v\u0259 miss Hind s\u00fcm\u00fck Stalin s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 v\u0259 onunla tan\u0131\u015f olaca\u011f\u0131na sevinirdi v\u0259 bu Q\u0259ddafi s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn Stalin s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u0259ri zaman\u0131 olacaqd\u0131.<\/p>\n

    \u0130ndi Q\u0259ddafi s\u00fcm\u00fck miss Hind s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn d\u00f6\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcn bir gil\u0259sini oynad\u0131rd\u0131, bu o gil\u0259 idi ki q\u0131z s\u00fcm\u00fck\u00a0 do\u011fulanda qad\u0131n\u00a0 s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 aid olan fizioloji x\u00fcsusiyy\u0131tl\u0259r o gil\u0259d\u0259 c\u0259ml\u0259nmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

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    ***<\/p>\n

    \u015f\u0259kill\u0259nm\u0259: ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n \u015f\u00fcuru(ard\u0131)<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    \u201cox\u015far fiqurlar\u0131n olmamas\u0131\u201dsilsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

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    R\u0259ssam Pablo Pikasso s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn natural YAZI\u00a0 r\u0259smi:<\/p>\n

    Ernest \u00a0Hemingwey s\u00fcm\u00fck\u00a0 Koala s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn quca\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 , onun yuxulu g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 ki\u00e7ik bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

    -M\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259rsiz?<\/p>\n

    Meh Setti Off s\u00fcm\u00fck Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 yaman ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 bu b\u0259nz\u0259rlikd\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 vard\u0131.B\u0259lk\u0259 Meh Setti Off s\u00fcm\u00fck el\u0259 Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00f6z\u00fc idi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bel\u0259 deyildi?<\/p>\n

    U\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm get-ged\u0259 azald\u0131 v\u0259 yox oldu.O bilm\u0259di ki, ax\u015fam yatanda h\u0259min u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc tavandan sallanan ipd\u0259n as\u0131rlar, k\u0259tili d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kirl\u0259r ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndan.<\/p>\n

    M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 bunda idi ki, h\u0259r evd\u0259 vard\u0131 o u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fck-melo skelet kukla.<\/p>\n

    Ernest Hemingwey s\u00fcm\u00fck d\u0259 as\u0131rd\u0131 u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc \u2013melo skelet kuklan\u0131 v\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 ona \u201c\u00f6l\u201d-dedi v\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fc, o da kamali-\u0259d\u0259bl\u0259\u00a0 onu apar\u0131b q\u0259bristanl\u0131qda basd\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

    Bu ilk u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fck-melo skelet kukla idi ki, q\u0259bristanl\u0131qda basd\u0131r\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 buras\u0131 da vard\u0131 ki,Ernest \u00a0Hemingwey s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn basd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 u\u015faq\u00a0 s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn-melo skelet kuklan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda \u00a0tac vard\u0131. Onun \u201cSa\u011f v\u0259 sol s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn yeni t\u0259f\u0259kk\u00fcr\u00fc v\u0259 3651 ovsun damc\u0131 \u00a0Budda\u201d kitab\u0131nda da vard\u0131\u00a0 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar. Bu kitaba \u00e7evik yana\u015fmada aqressivlik \u00e7at\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 bu s\u0259rh\u0259dsizliyi bu istiqam\u0259td\u0259 at\u0131lan ilk add\u0131m kimi d\u0259y\u0259ndirm\u0259k d\u0259 olard\u0131, h\u0259r\u00e7\u0259nd kitabda\u00a0 xeyli \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmazl\u0131qlar da vard\u0131 v\u0259 bu a\u00e7\u0131q-a\u015fkar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

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    ***<\/p>\n

    xat\u0131rlama\u00a0 (ard\u0131)<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    D\u0259lil\u0259rd\u0259n biri q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131:<\/p>\n

    -M\u0259n k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fayanda daha xo\u015fb\u0259xt idim.<\/p>\n

    Ba\u015fqa bir d\u0259li g\u00f6zl\u0259rini b\u0259r\u0259ldib:<\/p>\n

    -Kim m\u0259n\u0259\u201dcan\u201d-des\u0259 m\u0259n ona \u201ccan, can\u201d-cavab ver\u0259r\u0259m-dedi.<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    h\u00f6r\u00fcm\u00e7\u0259k toru<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    H\u00f6r\u00fcm\u00e7\u0259k toru \u00a0al\u0259mi ba\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc v\u0259 h\u00f6r\u00fcm\u00e7\u0259yin yer\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n ba\u011f\u0131rsaqlar\u0131 bunu al\u0259m\u0259 b\u0259yan edirdi:<\/p>\n

    -www.(v\u0259 \u00a0s.)<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    ***<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    sa\u011f s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc sol s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 ba\u011flayan ba\u011f:<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    r\u0259ngl\u0259ri yem\u0259k d\u0259 m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    \u201cd\u0259rvi\u015f \u00e7ill\u0259si\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    bismillahir r\u0259hmanir r\u0259him<\/p>\n

    m\u0259n<\/p>\n

    bilirdim ki qatar<\/p>\n

    20 d\u0259qiq\u0259d\u0259n sonra<\/p>\n

    va\u011fzala \u00e7atacaq<\/p>\n

    v\u0259 18 ci \u0259srd\u0259 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f<\/p>\n

    nam\u0259lum r\u0259ssam\u0131n \u00e7\u0259kdiyi<\/p>\n

    b\u0259d\u0259n\u00fcmma\u00a0 g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259ki qad\u0131n\u0131n<\/p>\n

    q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n sa\u011f\u00a0 \u0259lini<\/p>\n

    sol \u00e7iynim\u0259 qoymas\u0131 il\u0259<\/p>\n

    adamlar\u0131n biz\u0259 bax\u0131b<\/p>\n

    p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss ed\u0259nd\u0259 y\u00fck ma\u015f\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259sinin<\/p>\n

    20 d\u0259qiq\u0259d\u0259n sonra<\/p>\n

    va\u011fzala \u00e7atacaq qatar\u0131n s\u0259sin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fmas\u0131 il\u0259<\/p>\n

    s\u0259yah\u0259t\u00e7il\u0259rin 180 km<\/p>\n

    m\u0259saf\u0259 q\u0259t etm\u0259si<\/p>\n

    v\u0259 h\u0259kimin \u00fcnvan\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n

    m\u0259n\u0259 dey\u0259 bil\u0259rsinizmi<\/p>\n

    dey\u0259 soru\u015fan xan\u0131m\u0131n<\/p>\n

    boylu boylu<\/p>\n

    n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259 hey\u0259tinin t\u0259rkibind\u0259<\/p>\n

    \u00e7in\u0259 getm\u0259si<\/p>\n

    v\u0259 q\u0259dim \u00e7in t\u0259bab\u0259tinin<\/p>\n

    k\u00f6m\u0259yi il\u0259 orada do\u011fmas\u0131<\/p>\n

    v\u0259 a\u011f evin buna reaksiyas\u0131<\/p>\n

    partizanlar\u0131n qaranl\u0131qda<\/p>\n

    yolu itir\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rind\u0259n qorxduqlar\u0131<\/p>\n

    20 ya\u015f cavan b\u0259l\u0259d\u00e7i olsayd\u0131<\/p>\n

    bu xarici qonaqlar\u0131n<\/p>\n

    qoca pal\u0131d a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n<\/p>\n

    alt\u0131nda zar\u0131ldad\u0131\u011f\u0131<\/p>\n

    v\u0259 m\u0259nim eyn\u0259yim s\u0131n\u0131qd\u0131r dey\u0259n<\/p>\n

    \u015fimali irlandiyal\u0131<\/p>\n

    john jefferisin<\/p>\n

    oxford universitetinin<\/p>\n

    t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259si olark\u0259n<\/p>\n

    qrup yolda\u015f\u0131<\/p>\n

    c\u0259nubi az\u0259rbaycanl\u0131<\/p>\n

    truth nicknameli<\/p>\n

    \u015fair\u0259 s\u0259min\u0259y\u0259 vurulmas\u0131<\/p>\n

    v\u0259 s\u0259min\u0259nin<\/p>\n

    i`ll never be able to get<\/p>\n

    marry with you c\u00fcml\u0259sini<\/p>\n

    ingilisc\u0259 dem\u0259sini<\/p>\n

    v\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131<\/p>\n

    2005 ci il 6 noyabr<\/p>\n

    parlament se\u00e7kil\u0259rini<\/p>\n

    m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259 missiyas\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n

    h\u0259yata ke\u00e7ir\u0259n<\/p>\n

    at\u0259tin beyn\u0259lxalq m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259\u00e7il\u0259rinin<\/p>\n

    t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259\u00e7isi olark\u0259n<\/p>\n

    m\u0259n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmas\u0131<\/p>\n

    c\u0259mi 20 d\u0259qiq\u0259y\u0259<\/p>\n

    qatar a\u011f\u0131r a\u011f\u0131r<\/p>\n

    qayal\u0131qdak\u0131 \u0259lyazmalar\u0131n<\/p>\n

    \u0259razi b\u00fct\u00f6vl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc<\/p>\n

    sui q\u0259sd v\u0259 qant\u00f6km\u0259<\/p>\n

    daxiliqalaktik \u0259laq\u0259l\u0259r<\/p>\n

    v\u0259 kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r olmayan<\/p>\n

    neytralitet kompaniya i\u015ftirak\u00e7\u0131s\u0131<\/p>\n

    \u0259uzi billahi min\u0259\u015f \u015feytanir r\u0259cim<\/p>\n

    metaforal\u0131 \u0259dal\u0259t m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259si v\u0259 humanist insan<\/p>\n

    sabaha dikil\u0259n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n yiy\u0259si m\u0259nim \u015fah\u0131m<\/p>\n

    \u0259hm\u0259di m\u00fcrs\u0259l e\u015fqiyl\u0259<\/p>\n

    \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc s\u0259rb\u0259st hiss etm\u0259kl\u0259<\/p>\n

    k\u00fcl\u0259yin bird\u0259n d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259si<\/p>\n

    v\u0259 bununla da xilasedicinin g\u0259lm\u0259si<\/p>\n

    c\u0131r c\u0131nd\u0131r i\u00e7ind\u0259<\/p>\n

    paltar\u0131 s\u00fcnd\u00fcs<\/p>\n

    sa\u00e7 saqqal\u0131 bir qar\u0131\u015f<\/p>\n

    \u0259lind\u0259 d\u0259mir \u0259sa yol ged\u0259n<\/p>\n

    bir m\u0259scidin<\/p>\n

    \u00f6z t\u0259rkib hiss\u0259l\u0259rini<\/p>\n

    par\u00e7alanmaqdan qorumas\u0131<\/p>\n

    v\u0259 taml\u0131\u011f\u0131n saxlanmas\u0131<\/p>\n

    birt\u0259h\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131nlar<\/p>\n

    v\u0259 kompleks \u015f\u0259b\u0259k\u0259 il\u0259<\/p>\n

    davaml\u0131 sirkulyasiya<\/p>\n

    ciddi n\u0259tic\u0259 etibaril\u0259<\/p>\n

    uy\u011funla\u015fd\u0131rmaqdayk\u0259n t\u0259sad\u00fcf yoxsa f\u0259xar\u0259t<\/p>\n

    \u00fcmumm\u00fcs\u0259lman ibad\u0259t<\/p>\n

    yoxsa kult<\/p>\n

    20 d\u0259qiq\u0259 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n<\/p>\n

    77 sudan ke\u00e7ib<\/p>\n

    5 n\u00f6vb\u0259t vuran<\/p>\n

    M\u0259n divan\u0259 ozan=divan\u0259 ozan t\u0259kl\u0259=<\/p>\n

    =a\u011fayar x\u0259l\u0259f o\u011flu<\/p>\n

    azman s\u0259hrada<\/p>\n

    bu s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n d\u0259<\/p>\n

    azadam \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr<\/p>\n

    anama da deyin ki<\/p>\n

    m\u0259nd\u0259n nigaran qalmas\u0131n<\/p>\n

    m\u0259n onsuz da h\u0259r an<\/p>\n

    imtahan qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndayam<\/p>\n

    q\u0259ribs\u0259diyim d\u0259 g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcd\u00fc<\/p>\n

    v\u0259nnas<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    ***<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    paradoksal(ard\u0131)<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    \u201c\u00e7\u0259kinti\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    R\u0259ssam Pablo Pikasso s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn natural YAZI r\u0259smi:<\/p>\n

    Q\u0259ddafi s\u00fcm\u00fck Koala s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn quca\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 , onun yuxulu g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 ki\u00e7ik bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

    -M\u0259n\u0259 kl\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259rsiz?<\/p>\n

    Meh Setti Off s\u00fcm\u00fck Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 yaman\u00a0 ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 bu b\u0259nz\u0259rlikd\u0259 d\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 vard\u0131 . B\u0259lk\u0259 Meh Setti Off\u00a0 s\u00fcm\u00fck el\u0259 Sarah Xaraba\u00a0 s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00f6z\u00fc idi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bel\u0259 deyildi?<\/p>\n

    U\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm get-ged\u0259 azald\u0131 v\u0259 yox oldu. O bilm\u0259di ki, ax\u015fam yatanda h\u0259min u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc tavandan sallanan ipd\u0259n as\u0131rlar, k\u0259tili d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kirl\u0259r ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndan.<\/p>\n

    M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 bunda idi ki, h\u0259r evd\u0259 vard\u0131 o u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fck-melo skelet kukla.Q\u0259ddafi s\u00fcm\u00fck d\u0259 as\u0131rd\u0131 u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc-melo skelet kuklan\u0131 v\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 ona \u201c\u00f6l\u201d-dedi v\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fc, o da kamali- \u0259d\u0259bl\u0259 onu apar\u0131b q\u0259bristanl\u0131qda basd\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

    Bu ilk u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fck-melo skelet kukla idi ki, q\u0259brisranl\u0131qda basd\u0131r\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 buras\u0131 da vard\u0131 ki, Q\u0259ddafi s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn basd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fck-melo skelet kuklan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda tac vard\u0131. Onun\u201dSa\u011f v\u0259 sol s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn yeni t\u0259f\u0259kk\u00fcr\u00fc v\u0259 3651 ovsun damc\u0131 Budda\u201d kitab\u0131nda da vard\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar. Bu kitaba \u00e7evik yana\u015fmada aqressivlik \u00e7at\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 bu s\u0259rh\u0259dsizliyi bu istiqam\u0259td\u0259 at\u0131lan ilk add\u0131m kimi d\u0259y\u0259ndirm\u0259k d\u0259 olard\u0131, h\u0259r\u00e7\u0259nd kitabda xeyli \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmazl\u0131qlar da vard\u0131 v\u0259 bu a\u00e7\u0131q-a\u015fkar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    ***<\/p>\n

    qeyri irsi(ard\u0131)<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    \u201c end note \u201c silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

     <\/p>\n

    Meh Setti Off s\u00fcm\u00fck\u00a0 Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259 eyni ya\u015fda idi.Baxanda el\u0259 bilirdin eyni almad\u0131,yar\u0131 b\u00f6lm\u00fcs\u0259n.El\u0259 bil bac\u0131 s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

    C\u0131\u011f\u0131r \u00e7ox dar idi.Bir-birind\u0259n bir add\u0131m ir\u0259li-geri gedirdil\u0259r. Ham\u0131s\u0131 bu.<\/p>\n

    Meh Setti Off s\u00fcm\u00fck bird\u0259n geri d\u00f6nd\u00fc v\u0259 dedi:<\/p>\n

    -\u00dcz\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc itirmi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n

    -Hans\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc?-Sarah Xaraba\u00a0 s\u00fcm\u00fck soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

    -Ni\u015fan \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc-Meh Setti Off s\u00fcm\u00fck cavab verdi.<\/p>\n

    Soyuq idi. Bir d\u0259 qaranl\u0131q.<\/p>\n

    -Xat\u0131rlay\u0131rsan harada\u00a0 itirmis\u0259n?-Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fck soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

    Meh Setti Off s\u00fcm\u00fck cavab\u0131nda:<\/p>\n

    -Yox,-dedi.<\/p>\n

    M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 buras\u0131nda idi ki,Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fck bir \u00fcz\u00fck tapm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 d\u00fcn\u0259n, he\u00e7 bir s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 dem\u0259mi\u015fdi bu haqda.<\/p>\n

    Dinamik olan n\u0259 idi?Adam s\u00fcm\u00fck v\u0259 Eve s\u00fcm\u00fck aras\u0131nda da sekret var idi, onda qala Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259 Meh Setti Off s\u00fcm\u00fck aras\u0131nda olsun.M\u00fczakir\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

    Dramatik insident bar\u0259d\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259rdi.Yadda\u015f it\u0259nd\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259yi qar\u0131\u015fdirmad\u0131 v\u0259 \u201cbilmir\u0259m niy\u0259\u201d-dem\u0259di v\u0259 bu s\u00fcrrealistik hekay\u0259t onun \u00f6z ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

    \u0130kinci faktor da vard\u0131 v\u0259 irreal olan el\u0259 real idi v\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131l maska-yar\u0131 qu\u015f, yar\u0131 qad\u0131n s\u00fcm\u00fck-aman Allah, bu ki, Yunan mifologiyas\u0131d\u0131.<\/p>\n

    Realistik detallar v\u0259 fantastik hadis\u0259l\u0259r \u015fimal ulduzu kimi vizual g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u0259r idi b\u0259lk\u0259.Daxili v\u0259 xarici konfliktl\u0259r metaforikal g\u00f6r\u00fcns\u0259 bel\u0259 bu \u015fifahi ironiya indi \u0259vv\u0259l\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi.Formal v\u0259 informal \u015f\u0259xsi(\u015f\u0259xs\u0259n) bu s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259r\u0259 aid idi v\u0259 bu epizod hadis\u0259nin detallar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7mayacaqd\u0131sa \u201cm\u0259n bunu xat\u0131rlam\u0131ram\u201d-dey\u0259n s\u00fcm\u00fck h\u0259r g\u00fcn\u00fcn ax\u0131r\u0131nda daha vacib olan hissl\u0259ri unudurdu v\u0259 bu unutqanl\u0131q \u2013g\u00f6zl\u0259nti he\u00e7 n\u0259 ba\u015f verm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyin sonuna yax\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn v\u0259 arzular\u0131n=yuxular\u0131n…(ard\u0131 olacaq)<\/p>\n

    M\u0259n raz\u0131 idim ki,bir \u2013birini unutsun h\u0259r s\u00fcm\u00fck.\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 burada\u00a0 he\u00e7 bir s\u00fcm\u00fck yox idi.H\u0259r \u015fey d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi v\u0259 bu bir a\u011fac\u0131n k\u00f6k\u00fc kimi \u00e7ox d\u0259rin\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259mi\u015fdi.Ba\u015fqa yol yox idi v\u0259 burada iki s\u00fcm\u00fck var idi, ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259:<\/p>\n

    arzu=yuxu v\u0259 reall\u0131q.<\/p>\n

    \u0130rreal olan real idi v\u0259 \u0259ksin\u0259.<\/p>\n

    Paraqraf\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259kil\u0259r:<\/p>\n

      \n
    1. V\u00fccud.<\/li>\n
    2. \u00a0G\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f.<\/li>\n
    3. Quru \u00fcz\u00fcm.<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n

      Simvol : S\u00fcm\u00fck.<\/p>\n

      End\u00a0 Note:\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 3651\u00a0 ovsun damc\u0131 Budda.<\/p>\n

      ***<\/p>\n

      xat\u0131rlatma( ard\u0131)<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      Yeri g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fk\u0259n antiinama olan inam\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmam\u0131\u015f kimi \u201cm\u0259n bel\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcr\u0259m\u201d- d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 da\u015f\u0131y\u0131c\u0131s\u0131 kimi \u201cm\u0259n bel\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m\u201d- dem\u0259siyl\u0259 bu ist\u0259yi\u00a0 \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259di ki, n\u0259 ba\u015f verib:<\/p>\n

      -He\u00e7 kim haqda fikirl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

      -\u0130\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 var.<\/p>\n

      -He\u00e7 bir \u015fey g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fc kimi deyil.<\/p>\n

      \u0130mpulsa m\u00fcbt\u0259la olmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u00fct\u00fcn hissl\u0259r yozula bil\u0259rdi.Bu nifr\u0259t idimi?\u00c7ox q\u0259rib\u0259 hiss idi \u00a0bu, \u00a0\u00e7ox. T\u0259k\u0259rl\u0259m\u0259 kimi.<\/p>\n

      ***<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      d\u0259rrak\u0259<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      \u201c g\u00f6zl\u0259nti\u201dsilsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      D\u0259v\u0259 s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259ri u\u00e7a bilirdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      ***<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      s\u0259n bilirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      \u201cs\u0259n\u0259\u00a0 n\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131\u201d-silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      Edvard Staxura s\u00fcm\u00fck bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259d\u0259n sonra\u00a0 n\u0259s\u0259 olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fikirl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 bir hiss b\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc onu\u00a0 v\u0259 o b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 Skuns s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fanda\u00a0 Skuns s\u00fcm\u00fck t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131 ona.<\/p>\n

      Yenid\u0259n pauza.<\/p>\n

      \u201cYox \u2013yox dem\u0259k deyildi\u201d v\u0259 \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259 ki, bir h\u0259qiq\u0259t az idi.3651 ovsun damc\u0131 Budda yet\u0259rli\u00a0 olmas\u0131 il\u0259 sakit ya\u015famaqdan optik cihazlar olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 vaxt b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar hardan g\u0259lmi\u015fdi?<\/p>\n

      Onda beyni t\u0259\u015fkil ed\u0259n neyronlar v\u0259 ba\u015fqa h\u00fcceyr\u0259 formalar\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt k\u00f6m\u0259k etm\u0259di.He\u00e7 dem\u0259 neyron peykl\u0259ri s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 sar\u0131 vacib v\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyin haz\u0131r oldu\u011funu \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 alt\u0131na almaq he\u00e7 yax\u015f\u0131 deyilmi\u015f.<\/p>\n

      Bel\u0259-Bel\u0259-Bel\u0259.<\/p>\n

      Bel\u0259-Bel\u0259-Bel\u0259.<\/p>\n

      Sinir sistemind\u0259 informasiyalar\u0131n q\u0259bulu v\u0259 ona m\u00fcdaxil\u0259 etm\u0259kl\u0259 k\u00fcl\u0259k niy\u0259 qulaqlar\u0131n\u0131n dibind\u0259 v\u0131y-v\u0131y v\u0131y\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131, bilirdin?Deyirdil\u0259r bu \u0259s\u0259bdi. Sonra yaranan n\u0259h\u0259ng do\u011fruymu\u015f v\u0259 informasiyalar\u0131n saxlanmas\u0131ndan bilinirdi ki, t\u00fcp\u00fcrc\u0259k \u0259s\u0259bd\u0259n yaranm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.Maraql\u0131 s\u0259b\u0259b is\u0259 o idi ki, informasiyalar i\u015fl\u0259ndikc\u0259 s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 azal\u0131rd\u0131.Bu \u00e7ox q\u0259rib\u0259 idi.V\u0259ziyy\u0259t ayd\u0131nla\u015fana kimi analogiya:h\u0259r \u015fey ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr imi\u015f.<\/p>\n

      Dem\u0259 neyron peyki kompleksi g\u0259r\u0259kli imi\u015f. Neyron peykin\u0259 \u00a0pataloji prosesl\u0259r vaxt\u0131\u00a0 bel\u0259 yana\u015fma \u00f6z\u00fc \u00e7ox mur\u0259kk\u0259b m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 idi.<\/p>\n

      Bel\u0259.Sonra\u00a0 Edvard\u00a0 Staxura \u015feir dem\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n

      3651 ovsun damc\u0131 Budda<\/p>\n

      nifr\u0259t sevgimi<\/p>\n

      z\u0131r z\u0131r<\/p>\n

      z\u0131r\u0131ldamaq<\/p>\n

      be\u015ft\u0259k\u0259rli motosikl a\u015fanda<\/p>\n

      xurd x\u0259\u015fil olma\u011f\u0131yla<\/p>\n

      h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259<\/p>\n

      3651 ovsun damc\u0131 Budda<\/p>\n

      hikk\u0259 v\u0259 hikk\u0259siz f\u0131rladanda<\/p>\n

      h\u0259r \u015feyi<\/p>\n

      bu n\u0259 sehir<\/p>\n

      bu n\u0259 sirr<\/p>\n

      onu<\/p>\n

      (n\u0259yi?)<\/p>\n

      m\u0259n\u0259 ver<\/p>\n

      s\u0259n bilirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

      s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131?<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      ***<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      qeyri irsi(ard\u0131)<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      \u201cend note\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      Meh Setti Off s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00a0 Q\u0259ddafi \u00a0s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259\u00a0 qan\u0131 \u00a0yaman qaynay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

      -Qanyarad\u0131c\u0131 funksiyan\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

      -H\u0259.<\/p>\n

      -M\u0259n s\u0259nsiz qala bilm\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

      -S\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259ni sevirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

      -N\u0259d\u0259n bel\u0259 deyirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

      -\u00c7ox vaxt ke\u00e7ib.<\/p>\n

      -\u0130ndi d\u0259 sevirs\u0259n…sevirs\u0259n…?<\/p>\n

      -S\u0259nc\u0259?<\/p>\n

      -S\u0259n bilirs\u0259n… bel\u0259…<\/p>\n

      -N\u0259?<\/p>\n

      -S\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 olub?<\/p>\n

      -Ciddi soru\u015fursan?<\/p>\n

      -\u00c7ox ciddi.<\/p>\n

      -Bununla n\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

      -M\u0259n daha \u00e7ox panoramaya n\u0259z\u0259r yetirir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

      -Panoramaya?<\/p>\n

      -Qar\u015f\u0131da h\u0259l\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259 panorama var.<\/p>\n

      -Panorama yoxsa h\u0259yat?<\/p>\n

      -G\u0259l arxamca..<\/p>\n

      -N\u0259d\u0259n bel\u0259 narahatsan?<\/p>\n

      -B\u0259s s\u00fcm\u00fck h\u00fcceyr\u0259l\u0259ri?<\/p>\n

      -Son vaxtlar he\u00e7 n\u0259 al\u0131nm\u0131r.<\/p>\n

      -?!<\/p>\n

      -Bu s\u0259ni \u00e7ox h\u0259y\u0259canland\u0131r\u0131r?<\/p>\n

      -Kimi-m\u0259ni?<\/p>\n

      -Bu m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil?<\/p>\n

      -\u018fs\u0259bl\u0259r d\u00f6zm\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

      -Aman Allah?!<\/p>\n

      -M\u0259n s\u0259ni \u00e7ox sevir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

      -Qumun \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259rini q\u0131zd\u0131rmaq maraql\u0131 olard\u0131.<\/p>\n

      -S\u0259n ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n , v\u0259ssalam.<\/p>\n

      -Sakit ol, sakit ol.<\/p>\n

      -Dey\u0259s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 deyils\u0259n.<\/p>\n

      -G\u00f6r burda n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r s\u00fcm\u00fck var.<\/p>\n

      -Uzun, q\u0131sa v\u0259 yast\u0131.<\/p>\n

      -H\u0259m d\u0259 yuxulu….<\/p>\n

      S\u00fcm\u00fck s\u0259sl\u0259ri bir-birinin ard\u0131nca \u00f6l\u00fcrd\u00fc.Orda daha he\u00e7 n\u0259 qalm\u0131rd\u0131.N\u0259 ba\u015f verib?S\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259r dirilib ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 qalxanda ba\u015fqa\u00a0 hissl\u0259r \u201cn\u0259s\u0259 et\u201d deyirdi.<\/p>\n

      He\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259di daha.Ancaq yox.S\u0259ssizliyil\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 bel\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131 e\u015fidilmirdi.<\/p>\n

      -M\u0259n s\u0259nsiz ya\u015faya bilm\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n

      S\u00fckut.<\/p>\n

      H\u0259:\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 O.<\/p>\n

      Yox: M\u0259n.<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      ***<\/p>\n

      sa\u011f s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc sol s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259 ba\u011flayan ba\u011f:<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      r\u0259ngl\u0259ri yem\u0259k d\u0259 m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr (ard\u0131)<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      \u201c n\u00fcans\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      \u00f6t\u0259n \u0259srin 60 c\u0131 ill\u0259rind\u0259<\/p>\n

      deyil\u0259n kimi olmaq<\/p>\n

      kompromis\u0259 getm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n t\u0259x\u0259yy\u00fcl\u00fc<\/p>\n

      lakin ingilt\u0259r\u0259 s\u0259rgisind\u0259<\/p>\n

      \u00fcslubu m\u0259nim stilim<\/p>\n

      m\u0259nim g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yim dey\u0259n<\/p>\n

      m\u00fcasir qovu\u015fan son texnoloji<\/p>\n

      toxunan \u00e7in m\u0259tb\u0259xi<\/p>\n

      maraql\u0131 pe\u015f\u0259kar<\/p>\n

      \u00fcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259 \u015fah \u0259s\u0259r<\/p>\n

      mineral sular<\/p>\n

      modern qloballa\u015fmaya nifr\u0259t<\/p>\n

      qoruyub saxlamaq<\/p>\n

      v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 apara bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yi d\u0259yi\u015fiklikl\u0259r<\/p>\n

      oturaq h\u0259yat t\u0259rzi<\/p>\n

      kalorinin azl\u0131\u011f\u0131<\/p>\n

      bir az ya\u011f<\/p>\n

      v\u0259 bu siyah\u0131ya yulaf<\/p>\n

      bir d\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131l bal\u0131q m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259ti<\/p>\n

      \u0259t m\u0259hsullar\u0131n\u0131n az q\u0259bulu<\/p>\n

      vizual olaraq<\/p>\n

      \u015fokoladl\u0131 desert haz\u0131rlanmas\u0131<\/p>\n

      he\u00e7 d\u0259 asan deyil dey\u0259<\/p>\n

      t\u0259bii komponentl\u0259r<\/p>\n

      qaymaq v\u0259 ananans dondurman\u0131n<\/p>\n

      dad\u0131ndan doymayan<\/p>\n

      sonuncu n\u00fcans v\u0259 son sual<\/p>\n

      eyni d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 arzulamaq<\/p>\n

      enerji g\u0259tirir<\/p>\n

      yax\u015f\u0131 da ola bil\u0259r<\/p>\n

      pis d\u0259<\/p>\n

      r\u0259ngl\u0259ri is\u0259 yem\u0259k d\u0259 m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr<\/p>\n

      m\u00fcxt\u0259lif r\u0259ngli<\/p>\n

      qad\u0131nlar\u0131n timsal\u0131nda<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      ***<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      Pablo Pikasso s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00a0\u00e7\u0259kdiyi 100 x 81,3 cm \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcl\u00fc Gertrude Stein s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn<\/p>\n

      -portretd\u0259ki qad\u0131n s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u015f\u0259kild\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmas\u0131<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      \u201chavalanma\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      -S\u0259n\u0259 soyuqdur?-\u015f\u0259kild\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan qad\u0131n s\u00fcm\u00fck soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

      Suala sualla cavab almaq\u00a0 \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 Gertrude Stein s\u00fcm\u00fck yeni sual e\u015fitdi:<\/p>\n

      -S\u0259n Gertrude Stein s\u00fcm\u00fcks\u0259n?<\/p>\n

      Hiss etdi ki, ayaqlar\u0131 torpa\u011fa d\u0259ymir. V\u00fccudunu da\u00a0 hiss etm\u0259di.<\/p>\n

      –\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 M\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 olub?- fikrind\u0259n ke\u00e7di.<\/p>\n

      A\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7mam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, ancaq s\u00f6zl\u0259r a\u00e7\u0131q olmayan a\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, buna \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 ola<\/p>\n

      bilm\u0259zdi.Yox!Yox , he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ona,bilirdi ki, ya\u015famaq\u00a0 g\u00f6z\u0259ldi. B\u0259s onda \u015f\u0259kild\u0259n niy\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b g\u0259lmi\u015fdi?<\/p>\n

      S\u00fckut davam edirdi, baxmayaraq ki, bir-birind\u0259n sorular sorurdular.D\u00fczd\u00fc Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00a0onun sual\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitmi\u015fdi, amma cavab verm\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259smirdi.<\/p>\n

      Gertrude Stein s\u00fcm\u00fck indi boynuna kubik ba\u011flan\u0131b g\u00f6l\u0259 at\u0131lan jurnalist s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00a0ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259ri dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ona:<\/p>\n

      \u201c Be\u015finci jurnalist s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn boynuna kubik ba\u011flay\u0131b b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u00f6l\u0259 atd\u0131lar v\u0259 o g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 kefli yosunlar\u0131n yan\u0131na. Nec\u0259 d\u0259 yum\u015faq idi yosunlar, lap p\u0259rqu kimi.G\u00f6zl\u0259ri g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc yosunlar\u0131n.Eyni vaxtda \u0259li il\u0259 s\u0131\u011fallad\u0131,s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb bal\u0131q kimi \u0259lind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259yirdil\u0259r yosunlar onun.Q\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, adam g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

      \u201cN\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l,bura g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xma tarix\u00e7\u0259sini dan\u0131\u015fsa n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 olar\u201d,-yosunlardan biri dedi.Dinl\u0259y\u0259n yosun dan\u0131\u015fan\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 m\u00f6hk\u0259m bir \u015fill\u0259 vurdu v\u0259 ondan soru\u015fdu:<\/p>\n

      -\u201cN\u0259y\u00fcv\u0259 \u00a0laz\u0131md\u0131 tarix\u00e7\u0259si, atondu ya qarda\u015fundu?<\/p>\n

      \u018fc\u0259b g\u00f6z\u0259l iqlim idi bura v\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey ruhun ehtiyac\u0131n\u0131n tamlanmas\u0131na y\u00f6n\u0259lmi\u015fdi sanki burda.H\u0259m d\u0259 bir etiraz idi bu \u00fcst d\u00fcnyaya v\u0259 \u00fcstd\u0259n \u00fcst\u0259ki d\u00fcnyaya.\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 yosunlardan altda,y\u0259ni a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da da d\u00fcnya vard\u0131 v\u0259 orda h\u0259m d\u0259 insan\u0131n \u0259li v\u0259 aya\u011f\u0131 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, \u015f\u0259had\u0259t verirdi.G\u00fcnahs\u0131zlar dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259, ancaq cin\u0259yatkarlar dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

      \u0130ndi birinci a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7an yosun a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fcn hay\u0131na qald\u0131 v\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131\u00a0 a\u011fz\u0131n\u0131n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilm\u0259y\u0259.<\/p>\n

      Bal\u0131qlar s\u0259maya baxmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn suyun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 do\u011fru \u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

      Be\u015finci jurnalist s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00a0boynunu s\u00f6yk\u0259mi\u015fdi\u00a0 kubik da\u015fa . Kubik da\u015fdan \u201cC\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m roku\u201dnun s\u0259si g\u0259lirdi:<\/p>\n

      Yosunlara yax\u0131n ol<\/p>\n

      Ol, ol, ol<\/p>\n

      M\u0259n burdayam, burdayam<\/p>\n

      Bom, bom, bom\u201d<\/p>\n

      Sarah Xaraba\u00a0 s\u00fcm\u00fck\u00a0 \u00a0n\u0259f\u0259s almadan\u00a0 dinl\u0259di\u00a0 bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t v\u0259 q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n soru\u015fdu:<\/p>\n

      -S\u0259n onu bir d\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcn?B\u0259lk\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc boynuna ba\u011flay\u0131b kubik da\u015f\u0131 \u00a0\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc b\u00f6y\u00fck \u00a0g\u00f6l\u0259 atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 itm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

      -Bu ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c…<\/p>\n

      -S\u00fcm\u00fck…<\/p>\n

      Stop!Suyun ilk t\u0259rp\u0259ni\u015fini xat\u0131rlad\u0131.<\/p>\n

      R\u0259ssam Pablo Pikasso s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn esgiz YAZI r\u0259smi:<\/p>\n

      Pablo\u00a0 Picasso s\u00fcm\u00fck\u00a0 M\u0259ry\u0259m anan\u0131\u00a0 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 yaln\u0131z idi. Yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 itirdi.<\/p>\n

      Pablo Picasso s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00a0evind\u0259\u00a0 d\u0259 melo skelet kukla var idi\u00a0 v\u0259 o da evinin tavan\u0131ndan sallanan ipd\u0259n asm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 melo skelet kuklan\u0131 v\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 ona \u201c\u00f6l\u201d-dedi v\u0259 o da \u00f6ld\u00fc.O melo skelet kuklan\u0131 kamali \u0259d\u0259bl\u0259 q\u0259birsanl\u0131qda basd\u0131rd\u0131 , bu ilk melo skelet kukla idi ki, q\u0259bristanl\u0131qda basd\u0131r\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 buras\u0131 da vard\u0131 ki,Pablo Picasso s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn basd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 melo skelet kuklan\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda tac vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

      Soyuq idi.H\u0259m d\u0259 qaranl\u0131q.Pablo Picasso s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00a0\u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259 qanad g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fc k\u0259ll\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. D\u00f6zm\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tin olurdu h\u0259rd\u0259n. G\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259k, \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259k idi. V\u0259ziyy\u0259t n\u0259zar\u0259td\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

      Maraqs\u0131z olan da bir variant idi v\u0259 maraqs\u0131z olan h\u0259r \u015fey maraql\u0131 idi h\u0259m d\u0259.Yeni olan daha n\u0259 is\u0259 d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc des\u0259m, bilirs\u0259n, b\u0259s bu h\u0259qiq\u0259t deyildi?Daha n\u0259 is\u0259 hiss etm\u0259k v\u0259 s\u0259hvl\u0259rd\u0259n yaxa qurtarmaq, daha n\u0259 bilim n\u0259…, qulaq as\u0131n, bu he\u00e7 d\u0259 real deyil b\u0259lk\u0259?Nec\u0259 etm\u0259k, n\u0259 c\u00fcr etm\u0259k haql\u0131 olmaq deyil h\u0259l\u0259.<\/p>\n

      Maraql\u0131 olan h\u0259r \u015fey uydurmad\u0131 v\u0259 bu m\u0259hdudla\u015fmaya \u00fcmid etm\u0259k , bu m\u0259hdudluqdan \u00e7\u0131xmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yollar axtarmaq , qeyri-real olan\u00a0 is\u0259 reald\u0131.<\/p>\n

      -Ke\u00e7ib ged\u0259c\u0259k h\u0259r \u015fey, h\u0259?<\/p>\n

      -N\u0259 oldu s\u0259n\u0259?<\/p>\n

      -Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla.<\/p>\n

      -T\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf, m\u0259n sad\u0259c\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l olanlar\u0131…bu el\u0259 arzu olaraq da…<\/p>\n

      -Buna h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u00fcmid edirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

      -N\u0259 ist\u0259diyini bilm\u0259k \u00e7ox vacibdi.<\/p>\n

      -Ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr…<\/p>\n

      -S\u0259n n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan?<\/p>\n

      – Bu g\u00fcn \u00e7ox qaranl\u0131qd\u0131.<\/p>\n

      -H\u0259m d\u0259 soyuq.<\/p>\n

      -Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f ki, bu asan deyil.<\/p>\n

      -S\u00fcbut el\u0259m\u0259k…<\/p>\n

      -N\u0259yi?<\/p>\n

      -\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc.<\/p>\n

      -Yox, yox bu bel\u0259 deyil he\u00e7 d\u0259.<\/p>\n

      -\u00d6z\u00fcn bilirs\u0259n ki…<\/p>\n

      -Onsuz da…<\/p>\n

      -\u018fsas s\u0259b\u0259b bu idi?<\/p>\n

      -M\u0259n d\u0259 \u00e7ox t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

      -Bu h\u0259qiq\u0259tdi?<\/p>\n

      -Ciddi soru\u015fursan?<\/p>\n

      Ernest \u00a0Hemingwey s\u00fcm\u00fck f\u0259rqsizlik i\u00e7ind\u0259, n\u0259 is\u0259…bu he\u00e7 d\u0259 xo\u015f deyildi , baxmayaraq ki, bu \u00e7ox m\u00fc\u0259mma idi h\u0259m d\u0259.X\u0131rda hissl\u0259r b\u00f6y\u00fck hissl\u0259rin tamlanmas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn …<\/p>\n

      He\u00e7 vaxt bel\u0259 fikirl\u0259r ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015fdi ba\u015f\u0131ndan.H\u0259r \u015fey qaydas\u0131nda olanda Ernest Hemingwey s\u00fcm\u00fck , h\u0259r \u015feyin yerini bilirdi, v\u0259ssalam. Ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259.Onda Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fck bir d\u0259 soru\u015fdu:<\/p>\n

      -Ciddi soru\u015fursan?<\/p>\n

      ***<\/p>\n

      g\u00f6zl\u0259nti<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      \u201c\u00fcst m\u0259rh\u0259l\u0259\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      Aln\u0131ndak\u0131 n\u0259f\u0259s n\u0259 idi Q\u0259ddafi s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00a0v\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259yin m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmamas\u0131 n\u0259 idi bilmirdi\u00a0 v\u0259 \u0259g\u0259r bel\u0259dirs\u0259 aln\u0131ndak\u0131 n\u0259f\u0259s -\u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r he\u00e7 vaxt olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 bel\u0259 \u015fey, y\u0259ni onun aln\u0131\u00a0 il\u0259 t\u0259mas ilk d\u0259f\u0259ydi.Bu p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131 n\u0259f\u0259s p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131yd\u0131 v\u0259 bu an \u00a0v\u0259 bir-birin\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259n di\u015fl\u0259rin \u00e7aqq\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259k v\u0259 bir-birin\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259n di\u015fl\u0259rin\u00a0 3651 ovsun damc\u0131 Budda o t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259- niy\u0259 10 yox, 34 yox, 776 yox, 4483 yox, 5839 yox, m\u0259hz 3651 ovsun damc\u0131\u00a0 Budda o t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259 e\u015fidilm\u0259si aln\u0131ndak\u0131 n\u0259f\u0259sin g\u00fcc\u00fcyd\u00fc v\u0259 kimins\u0259 xahi\u015fi bu yerd\u0259 tamamil\u0259 yersizdi.Ondan yuxar\u0131da olanlar\u0131 realiz\u0259 etm\u0259k v\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259yi ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259m\u0259k v\u0259 bu n\u0259f\u0259sl\u0259 ba\u015f-ba\u015fa yax\u0131n m\u0259saf\u0259d\u0259 – bu \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 n\u0259 is\u0259 deyirdi.<\/p>\n

      -Sa\u011f qab\u0131r\u011fa sola!<\/p>\n

      -Sol qab\u0131r\u011fa sa\u011fa!<\/p>\n

      Emosiya n\u0259s\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259, n\u0259yis\u0259 ara\u015fd\u0131rma\u011fa v\u0259 ayd\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131rma\u011fa mane olurdu.Bu h\u0259dd solda yoxdu v\u0259 ki\u00e7ik deyildi. Ke\u00e7ib ged\u0259nd\u0259 solda olmayan \u00a0intizar q\u0131r\u0131lan bir sim kimi he\u00e7 d\u0259 ger\u00e7\u0259k yaxud \u00a0yalan kimi ,suyun ilk t\u0259rp\u0259ni\u015fi nigaran\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n

      Suyun ilk t\u0259rp\u0259ni\u015fi n\u0259yis\u0259 z\u00fchur ed\u0259c\u0259yini v\u0259 bu versiyan\u0131n imtina e\u015fqi kimi davam ed\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259r verirdi v\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 imtina e\u015fqinin sadalananlar\u0131 ortaya \u00e7\u0131xarmas\u0131na v\u0259 bu bulu\u015fmada f\u0259rdi etiraz\u0131n bet\u0259r su\u00e7lamalarla v\u0259 s\u0259sl\u0259nm\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 bir ovuc ir\u0259li \u00e7a\u011flayan termini il\u0259 n\u0259tic\u0259siz qalan q\u0131r\u0131lmalar, ya\u015fant\u0131 kontrolu f\u0259hml\u0259 uzaqla\u015fma\u011fa \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131yd\u0131 v\u0259 bu cazib\u0259dar k\u00f6lg\u0259 \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 n\u0259qqa\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u0259l i\u015fi kimi \u00e7oxm\u0259nal\u0131 v\u0259 bu qarmaqar\u0131\u015f\u0131ql\u0131\u011f\u0131n bir parlamadan h\u0259qiq\u0259t idimi?<\/p>\n

      Bu m\u00fcqayis\u0259 \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 n\u0259qqa\u015f\u0131yla imtina e\u015fqinin nec\u0259 t\u0259sir ed\u0259c\u0259yini v\u0259 mum \u0259\u015fyalar\u0131n \u00a0t\u0259svirinin s\u00fcqutundan x\u0259b\u0259r verm\u0259si bir u\u011frama deyildimi? Yo\u011frulmu\u015f n\u0259 varsa hans\u0131 bi\u00e7imd\u0259ydis\u0259, bu dil\u0259kl\u0259rin h\u0259r \u015feyin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n x\u0259tt \u00e7\u0259km\u0259si dolay\u0131s\u0131yla uzun\u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fc olmamas\u0131na apar\u0131b \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 gedirdi v\u0259 yenid\u0259n g\u0259lirdi v\u0259 bu gedib- g\u0259lm\u0259 se\u00e7im deyildi h\u0259l\u0259. Bu h\u0259r n\u0259dis\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc bir \u015feydi,b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 diksinm\u0259di,\u00e7\u00fcn diksinm\u0259d\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 sar\u0131 d\u00f6n\u0259 bil\u0259r, d\u00f6nm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259 bil\u0259r v\u0259 bu q\u0131c\u0131q ged\u0259r, ged\u0259r, ged\u0259r, yen\u0259 qay\u0131dar, qay\u0131dar,qay\u0131dar.<\/p>\n

      Bu n\u0259 dem\u0259kdi?<\/p>\n

      B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 qa\u00e7\u0131lmazl\u0131q kimi\u00a0 fiziki v\u0259 ruhi vaxtda v\u00fccud, g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f v\u0259 quru \u00fcz\u00fcm a\u011fa a\u011f, qaraya qara dem\u0259m\u0259kl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259n bu n\u0259 dem\u0259kdi, h\u0259.Ba\u015fqa i\u015fl\u0259r s\u0131ras\u0131nda qorxu hiss etm\u0259m\u0259k , ayaq havas\u0131na t\u0259\u015fn\u0259 dolu bir sars\u0131d\u0131c\u0131 normal yaxud anormal \u00e7oxm\u0259nal\u0131l\u0131q t\u0259sdiq idi,yoxsa antit\u0259sdiq? Bu imtina e\u015fqi n\u0259yin t\u0259krar\u0131d\u0131?B\u0259lk\u0259 ba\u015flan\u011fcd\u0131 v\u0259 bu iddia v\u0259 iddias\u0131zl\u0131q g\u00fcc al\u0131b almamaq d\u00f6n\u0259 -d\u00f6n\u0259 t\u0259krarlan\u0131r v\u0259 b\u0259lli olmur ki, bu qaranl\u0131q\u00a0 yenilik diqq\u0259ti hara apar\u0131r :v\u00fccuda, g\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u0259 yoxsa quru \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259… yoxsa \u00a0Q\u0259ddafi s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259…<\/p>\n

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      sag s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc sol s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 ba\u011flayan ba\u011f<\/p>\n

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      r\u0259ngl\u0259ri yem\u0259k d\u0259 m\u00fcmk\u00fcnd\u00fcr (ard\u0131)<\/p>\n

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      \u201c az\u0259rbaycan \u0259hlin\u0259 xitab\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

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      quai\u201d d\u00a0 \u00a0orsai\u0131<\/p>\n

      ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn<\/p>\n

      hu\u015funu itir\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r<\/p>\n

      i\u00e7m\u0259k laz\u0131m da deyildi<\/p>\n

      h\u00f6kmranl\u0131q ed\u0259n imperatorun arvad\u0131<\/p>\n

      q\u0259dim \u0259lyazmadan bu yana<\/p>\n

      gifts are raining on uz<\/p>\n

      c\u00fcml\u0259sini \u0259ld\u0259 bayraq tutaraq<\/p>\n

      bunu etm\u0259y\u0259 sizi n\u0259 vadar edir<\/p>\n

      dey\u0259 soru\u015fan anda<\/p>\n

      g\u0259nc bir q\u0131z<\/p>\n

      velosipedini divara s\u00f6yk\u0259mi\u015fdi<\/p>\n

      baxmayaraq ki siqaret \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yin<\/p>\n

      t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259li olmas\u0131 haqq\u0131nda<\/p>\n

      \u00e7oxlu sayda t\u0259bli\u011fat apar\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131<\/p>\n

      v\u0259 hesaba g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n k\u0259s\u0259y\u0259n t\u0259l\u0259si<\/p>\n

      y\u0259ni atas\u0131ndan \u00e7ox<\/p>\n

      anas\u0131na ox\u015fayanlar\u0131n<\/p>\n

      q\u00fcss\u0259li q\u00fcss\u0259li atalar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131xan<\/p>\n

      he\u00e7 bir adam bu a\u011fr\u0131ya d\u00f6z\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi<\/p>\n

      v\u0259 bu \u00e7in yem\u0259kl\u0259rinin \u0259ks\u0259r vaxt<\/p>\n

      \u0259ri\u015ft\u0259 v\u0259 d\u00fcy\u00fcd\u0259n ibar\u0259t oldu\u011fu q\u0259d\u0259r<\/p>\n

      ayd\u0131n oldu\u011fundan el\u0259 h\u0259min vaxt<\/p>\n

      se\u00e7ilmi\u015f n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n bir \u00e7oxu<\/p>\n

      n\u00fcmayi\u015fk\u0259ran\u0259 t\u0259rzd\u0259 iclasda i\u015ftirak etm\u0259dil\u0259r<\/p>\n

      v\u0259 ham\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki hakimin s\u0259lahiyy\u0259t m\u00fcdd\u0259ti<\/p>\n

      43 il sonra qurtaracaq<\/p>\n

      h\u00f6kum\u0259t n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259ri b\u00fct\u00fcn qap\u0131lara<\/p>\n

      plomb vurub kiril \u0259lifbas\u0131nda<\/p>\n

      qrafik\u0259 uy\u011fun olaraq dan\u0131\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131n<\/p>\n

      h\u0259r hans\u0131 formada yenid\u0259n ba\u015flanmas\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n

      ikinci v\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc \u015f\u0259xsl\u0259rd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259n\u0259n yasaq<\/p>\n

      v\u0259 h\u0259d\u0259 bildir\u0259n<\/p>\n

      v\u0259 bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni<\/p>\n

      ba\u015fqa c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndirir deyib<\/p>\n

      h\u0259yata ke\u00e7irilm\u0259si m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmayan planlar\u0131<\/p>\n

      ya\u015fayar\u0131q g\u00f6r\u0259rik ki\u00a0 \u0130TM\u0130\u015e\u00a0 adam \u00a0s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn<\/p>\n

      a\u011f\u0131 dem\u0259k n\u0259 dem\u0259kdi<\/p>\n

      v\u0259 \u00e7ay\u0131 ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015f hop dey\u0259n wall streetd\u0259<\/p>\n

      azerbaiyan and armenia are at war now<\/p>\n

      c\u00fcml\u0259sind\u0259n ba\u015fqa h\u0259r\u00a0 \u015feyi bil\u0259nl\u0259r<\/p>\n

      qanun bu c\u00fcr prosedurlara yol verir<\/p>\n

      v\u0259 bu s\u00fcd\u0259 su qat\u0131lmas\u0131na<\/p>\n

      raz\u0131 olanlara divar\u0131n k\u00f6vr\u0259kliyi<\/p>\n

      westminister palaced\u0259n ham\u0131ya m\u0259lum fakt<\/p>\n

      tale\u00a0 d\u00f6n\u0259mind\u0259 bizim ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yer<\/p>\n

      buradan uzaqda deyil v\u0259 \u00a0new wordun<\/p>\n

      do not worry\u00a0 him dey\u0259n vaxt<\/p>\n

      u\u015faqlar h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 oynay\u0131rd\u0131lar<\/p>\n

      siqaret \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n adam\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcc\u00fc<\/p>\n

      \u00f6sk\u00fcr\u0259yinin olmas\u0131 is\u0259<\/p>\n

      m\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 bilirdim\u00a0 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar is\u0259<\/p>\n

      \u015famax\u0131n\u0131n t\u0259kl\u0259 k\u0259ndind\u0259n<\/p>\n

      v\u0259 \u015firvan \u015f\u0259h\u0259rind\u0259n<\/p>\n

      ayd\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr<\/p>\n

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      ***<\/p>\n

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       <\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      s\u0259n bilirs\u0259n? (ard\u0131)<\/p>\n

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      \u201c s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      R\u0259ssam Pablo Pikasso s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00a0 natural YAZI r\u0259smi:<\/p>\n

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      Edvard Staxura s\u00fcm\u00fck Kuala s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn quca\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 , onun yuxulu g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 ki\u00e7ik bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

      -M\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259rsiz?<\/p>\n

      Meh Setti Off s\u00fcm\u00fck Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u0259 yaman ox\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 bu b\u0259nz\u0259rlikd\u0259 d\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 vard\u0131. B\u0259lk\u0259 Meh Setti Off s\u00fcm\u00fck el\u0259 Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fck \u00f6z\u00fc idi.B\u0259lk\u0259\u00a0 d\u0259 bel\u0259 deyildi?<\/p>\n

      U\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm get-ged\u0259 azald\u0131 v\u0259 yox oldu. O bilm\u0259di ki, ax\u015fam yatanda\u00a0 h\u0259min u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc tavandan sallanan ipd\u0259n as\u0131rlar, k\u0259tili d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kirl\u0259r ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndan.<\/p>\n

      M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 buras\u0131nda idi ki, h\u0259r evd\u0259 vard\u0131 o u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fck-melo skelet kukla.<\/p>\n

      Edvard Staxura s\u00fcm\u00fck d\u0259 as\u0131rd\u0131 u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc-melo skelet kuklan\u0131 v\u0259 g\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 ona \u201c\u00f6l\u201d-dedi v\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fc, o da kamali-\u0259d\u0259bl\u0259 onu apar\u0131b q\u0259bristanl\u0131qda basd\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

      Bu ilk u\u015faq s\u00fcm\u00fck \u2013melo skelet kukla idi ki, q\u0259bristanl\u0131qda basd\u0131r\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 buras\u0131 da vard\u0131 ki, Edvard Staxura s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn basd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n- melo skelet kuklanln ba\u015f\u0131nda tac vard\u0131.Onun \u201cSa\u011f v\u0259 sol s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fcn yeni t\u0259f\u0259kk\u00fcr\u00fc v\u0259 3651 ovsun damc\u0131 Budda\u201dkitab\u0131nda da vard\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar. Bu kitaba \u00e7evik yana\u015fmada aqressivlik \u00e7at\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131 v\u0259 bu s\u0259rh\u0259dsizliyi bu istiqam\u0259td\u0259 at\u0131lan ilk add\u0131m kimi d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259ndirm\u0259k d\u0259 olard\u0131, h\u0259r\u00e7\u0259nd kitabda xeyli \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmazl\u0131qlar da vard\u0131 v\u0259 bu a\u00e7\u0131q-a\u015fkar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      op-be<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      \u201c ovutma(q)\u201d silsil\u0259sind\u0259n<\/p>\n

       <\/p>\n

      Suyun dibi yell\u0259ndikc\u0259 qaranl\u0131q m\u0259saf\u0259 deyil\u0259n bir aran\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259li kimi s\u00fcdd\u0259n a\u011f olsa bel\u0259 bir \u00fcz\u00fc yarpaq kimi solan,dig\u0259r \u00fcz\u00fc yarpaq kimi solmayan Meh Setti Off\u00a0 s\u00fcm\u00fck yaz\u0131lanlara xiff\u0259tl\u0259 \u201cYa R\u0259sulullah!\u201d-dedi.<\/p>\n

      -Xeyir n\u0259di, \u015f\u0259r n\u0259di?<\/p>\n

      Suyun dibi yell\u0259nirdi.U\u011fultu vard\u0131.<\/p>\n

      C\u00fcml\u0259 h\u0259\u015f\u0259ratlar ba\u011f\u0131rsa\u011f\u0131 yer\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n h\u00f6r\u00fcm\u00e7\u0259yin, i\u00e7\u0259ri qaranl\u0131q olsa bel\u0259 h\u00f6vlnak yalans\u0131z olan h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 \u0259lini qald\u0131racaqd\u0131. Suyun ilk t\u0259rp\u0259ni\u015fi dirilm\u0259kd\u0259 olan h\u0259r \u015feyin d\u0259nizd\u0259n co\u015fqun oldu\u011fu q\u0259na\u0259tind\u0259ydi.<\/p>\n

      Bo\u015f qalm\u0131\u015f yeri dolduracaq\u00a0 s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259r uzan\u0131 \u0259ll\u0259ri-olacaq olanlar\u0131, olmayacaq olmayanlara m\u00fcjd\u0259 olmu\u015f m\u00fcjd\u0259\u00e7i kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

      -Bu g\u00fcn \u201cYa\u00a0 Su\u201d-dey\u0259nd\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 s\u0259sl\u0259ri tan\u0131d\u0131. K\u0259nar \u2013u\u00e7urum dem\u0259k deyildi.<\/p>\n

      -M\u0259n Suyam.Bilirs\u0131n ki, m\u0259n\u0259 zaval yoxdu.<\/p>\n

      -S\u0259n\u0259, s\u0259nin b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 inan\u0131ram.<\/p>\n

      -Upuzun yolda ill\u0259rin t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259si s\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259c\u0259k ki,ilk t\u0259rp\u0259ni\u015f s\u0259nin s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259rin\u0259 s\u0259bir \u0259ta ed\u0259c\u0259k.\u0130lk t\u0259rp\u0259ni\u015fd\u0259n \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259c\u0259yin \u00e7ox \u015fey var.F\u0259th bundan ba\u015flayacaq.N\u0259tic\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259\u00a0 m\u0259n\u0259 do\u011fru y\u00fcy\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n.<\/p>\n

      -Do\u011fru s\u00f6yl\u0259yirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

      -Haqs\u0131zl\u0131\u011fa qar\u015f\u0131 haqq olacaq.<\/p>\n

      -B\u0259s \u0259dal\u0259tsizliy\u0259?<\/p>\n

      -\u018fdal\u0259tsizliy\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 \u0259dal\u0259t g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n.<\/p>\n

      Bu s\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259n s\u00fcm\u00fcy\u00fc keyimi\u015f Sarah Xaraba s\u00fcm\u00fck dedi:<\/p>\n

      -Su…Su… Bu t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr fikri q\u0259ti ed\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259 ,\u0259hdimiz s\u00fcm\u00fckl\u0259rin iniltisini k\u0259s\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259, havada u\u00e7u\u015fan\u00a0 be\u015fikl\u0259r damlan\u0131n axmas\u0131 namin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nacaqsa s\u0259n\u0259 indid\u0259n u\u011fur dil\u0259yir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

      -G\u00f6y\u00fcm- g\u00f6y\u00fcm g\u00f6yn\u0259y\u0259n \u0259lvan rapsodiyalar b\u00f6lg\u00fcyl\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259ricil\u0259ri m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259nl\u0259\u015fdirir, bir ora bax.<\/p>\n

      -Bu b\u00f6lg\u00fc \u015f\u0259rti olacaq y\u0259qin?<\/p>\n

      -M\u0259na d\u0259rinliyi il\u011f\u0131ml\u0131 d\u00fczd\u0259…<\/p>\n

      -N\u0259hay\u0259tsizliy\u0259 gedir-y\u0259qin bel\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirdin, h\u0259?<\/p>\n

      -Bo\u015flu\u011fa m\u0259h\u0259l qoymadan gedirs\u0259 , h\u0259.<\/p>\n

      -Dem\u0259k s\u0259n d\u0259 suyun ilk t\u0259rp\u0259ni\u015fin\u0259 and i\u00e7\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n?<\/p>\n

      – H\u0259.<\/p>\n

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