{"id":9964,"date":"2015-12-01T18:55:48","date_gmt":"2015-12-01T14:55:48","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=9964"},"modified":"2015-12-01T18:55:48","modified_gmt":"2015-12-01T14:55:48","slug":"akif-abbasov-ur%c9%99y%c9%99-girm%c9%99yi-bacarmaq-azdir","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=9964","title":{"rendered":"Akif ABBASOV – \u00dcr\u0259y\u0259 girm\u0259yi bacarmaq azd\u0131r…"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"AK\u0130F<\/a>(\u201cAldanma s\u00f6zl\u0259r\u0259\u201d roman\u0131ndan)<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

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\u00dcr\u0259y\u0259 girm\u0259yi bacarmaq azd\u0131r,<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259kd\u0259 qalma\u011f\u0131 bacarmal\u0131san<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n

M\u0259mm\u0259d Araz<\/span><\/h1>\n

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\u018fziz\u0259 get-ged\u0259 haldan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, tez-tez saat\u0131na baxaraq \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131: \u201cBel\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259suliyy\u0259tsizlik olar\u201d. O, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131\u00ads\u0131n\u00adda dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, yan\u0131nda da 3-4 ya\u015fl\u0131 q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131. H\u0259r ikisinin bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n yollara dikilmi\u015fdi. Badam xan\u0131m g\u0259lib onun yan\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>\u018fziz\u0259, getmirs\u0259n?- dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u018fziz\u0259 \u00e7evrilib m\u00fcdir\u0259ni g\u00f6rd\u00fc, g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di:<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u2013 Dey\u0259s\u0259n, bir az l\u0259n\u00adgim\u0259li olaca\u011fam. Saat s\u0259kkiz\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yir. Valideyni g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xmay\u0131b. U\u015faqla qalm\u0131\u015fam.<\/span><\/p>\n

Badam xan\u0131m ayaq saxlad\u0131:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Kimin u\u015fa\u011f\u0131d\u0131r?<\/span><\/p>\n

\u018fziz\u0259 cavab\u0131nda dedi:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Xuraman xan\u0131m\u0131n. Sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n qad\u0131nd\u0131r, tan\u0131y\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z. Qaradin\u00adm\u0259z, qa\u015fqabaql\u0131 qad\u0131n\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n

Badam xan\u0131m qa\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7atd\u0131:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>H\u0259 yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. B\u0259lk\u0259, bir hadis\u0259 ba\u015f verib.<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Bilmir\u0259m.<\/span><\/p>\n

Badam xan\u0131m:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>\u00c7ar\u0259 n\u0259dir, g\u0259r\u0259k, g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n, – dey\u0259 ona s\u0259birli olma\u011f\u0131 tap\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. -B\u0259lk\u0259 z\u0259ng ed\u0259s\u0259n?<\/span><\/p>\n

\u018fziz\u0259 t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf\u00a0 hissil\u0259 dill\u0259ndi:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Telefonu yoxdur. Amma \u00fcnvan\u0131 var.<\/span><\/p>\n

Badam xan\u0131n yoluna d\u00fcz\u0259ldi:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Yax\u015f\u0131, sa\u011f ol, m\u0259n getdim.<\/span><\/p>\n

Badam xan\u0131m ka\u015fmir paltosunun ba\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. \u00c7iskin ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131r, x\u0259fif k\u00fcl\u0259k \u0259sirdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n anas\u0131 gec g\u0259ldiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, bayaqdan \u018fziz\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Badam xan\u0131m\u0131n s\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n sonra \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131nad\u0131: \u201cBiz insanlar q\u0259rib\u0259 m\u0259xluquq. H\u0259r\u0259 \u00f6z hay\u0131ndad\u0131r. Ham\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr. Fikirl\u0259\u015firl\u0259r ki, t\u0259ki, onlar\u0131n i\u015fl\u0259ri qaydas\u0131nda olsun, d\u00fcz g\u0259tirsin, g\u00fcn\u00fc xo\u015f ke\u00e7sin. Rahatl\u0131\u011f\u0131 olsun. Ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n\u00a0 d\u0259rdini \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k onlara qalmay\u0131b ki\u2026 H\u0259r\u0259 \u00f6z d\u0259rdin\u0259 \u00e7ar\u0259 axtars\u0131n.\u00a0 M\u0259n d\u0259 onlar kimi. N\u0259 var be\u015f-on d\u0259qiq\u0259 i\u015fd\u0259 yubanaca\u011fam, bu m\u0259ni haldan \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131r\u00bb.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u018fziz\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131\u011fallayaraq:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Dar\u0131xma, – dedi, -anan harada olsa, bu saat g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xar.<\/span><\/p>\n

U\u015faq doluxsunmu\u015fdu. Odur ki, tez soru\u015fdu:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Anam g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k?<\/span><\/p>\n

\u018fziz\u0259\u00a0 mehribanl\u0131qla v\u0259 qay\u011f\u0131 ifad\u0259 ed\u0259n bir s\u0259sl\u0259:<\/span><\/p>\n

– Niy\u0259 g\u0259lmir, a bala? \u2013 dedi. \u00a0-\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u018fziz\u0259 yenid\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00adc\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 dald\u0131: \u201cG\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, insanlar bir-birin\u0259 niy\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r etina\u00ads\u0131zd\u0131rlar? Niy\u0259 bir-birl\u0259rin\u0259 q\u0259nim k\u0259silirl\u0259r? B\u0259z\u0259n ba\u015fqas\u0131na \u0259zab verm\u0259kd\u0259n h\u0259zz al\u0131rlar. Badam xan\u0131m demi\u015fk\u0259n, b\u0259lk\u0259 bir ha\u00addis\u0259 ba\u015f verib\u2026 Amma Badam xan\u0131m da \u00f6z m\u00fcnasib\u0259tini bildir\u00adm\u0259k\u00adl\u0259 kifay\u0259tl\u0259ndi. Bir dem\u0259di ki, z\u0259ng edib n\u0259tic\u0259sini m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131\u00adrar\u00adsan.\u00a0 Ha\u00adm\u0131m\u0131zda\u00a0 n\u0259s\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmayan, q\u00fcsurlu c\u0259h\u0259t var. Bu da, g\u00f6\u00adr\u00fcn\u00fcr, on\u00addand\u0131r ki, m\u0259suliyy\u0259t hissimizi duymuruq, ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259mirik.<\/span><\/p>\n

Saat s\u0259kkizin yar\u0131s\u0131 idi. \u018fziz\u0259 geyinib \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 telefon z\u0259ng \u00e7ald\u0131. Arzunun anas\u0131 idi. Salam verib:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>\u018fziz\u0259 xan\u0131m laz\u0131md\u0131r, – dedi.<\/span><\/p>\n

Dan\u0131\u015fan\u0131n \u018fziz\u0259 oldu\u011funu bil\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fczrxahl\u0131q el\u0259di:<\/span><\/p>\n

– Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, siz Allah, q\u0131zd\u0131rman\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 yan\u0131ram. Ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 h\u0259kim g\u0259lib. Qon\u015fu q\u0131za tap\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ki, u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 ba\u011f\u00e7adan g\u00f6t\u00fcrs\u00fcn.\u00a0 \u0130ndi z\u0259ng edib ki, institutda t\u0259dbir ke\u00e7irilir. He\u00e7 c\u00fcr \u00e7\u0131xa bilm\u0259yib. \u0130caz\u0259 verm\u0259yibl\u0259r. Bu saat geyinib \u00e7\u0131x\u0131ram, taksiy\u0259 mins\u0259m, uza\u011f\u0131 5 d\u0259qiq\u0259y\u0259 ordayam.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u018fziz\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l ist\u0259di\u00a0 desin ki, g\u00f6zl\u0259yir\u0259m, g\u0259lin. Lakin insanl\u0131q borcu ona ba\u015fqa\u00a0 \u015fey dikt\u0259 edirdi. Allah-taala \u00f6z b\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259rini\u00a0 bir-birin\u0259 h\u0259yan durmaq, bir-birini sevm\u0259k, bir-biri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ya\u015famaq, xeyirxahl\u0131q g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yarad\u0131b. \u00c7\u0259tin anlarda bir-birin\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k etm\u0259yi buyurub. \u0130nsanlar yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131q etdiyi anlarda, yard\u0131m \u0259li uzatd\u0131\u011f\u0131, bir-birin\u0259 sevinc b\u0259x\u015f etdiyi, biri dig\u0259rin\u0259 \u00f6z k\u0259d\u0259rini, k\u00f6m\u0259ksizliyini unutdurdu\u011fu anlarda g\u00f6z\u0259ldir.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u018fziz\u0259 \u00f6z insanl\u0131q borcunu yerin\u0259 yetirm\u0259li idi. Xuramana yataqdan qalxmaq olmazd\u0131. Ayaq \u00fcst\u0259 olan y\u0131x\u0131lana, sa\u011flam x\u0259st\u0259y\u0259, varl\u0131 kas\u0131ba, xo\u015fb\u0259xt b\u0259db\u0259xt\u0259, b\u0259xtiyar q\u00fcss\u0259liy\u0259 \u0259l uzatmal\u0131d\u0131r. Bu h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n qanunu, insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n borcu,\u00a0 daxili t\u0259l\u0259bat\u0131, vicdan\u0131n s\u0259si olmal\u0131d\u0131r! Odur ki, \u018fziz\u0259 tez:<\/span><\/p>\n

– Xuraman xan\u0131m, siz yataqdan qalxmay\u0131n, -dedi. -Biz Arzu q\u0131z\u0131mla g\u0259z\u0259-g\u0259z\u0259, s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259-ed\u0259, ana-bala kimi yava\u015f-yava\u015f \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yik. \u00dcnvan\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 bilir\u0259m. Y\u0259qin z\u0259ng etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qon\u015fuya getmisiniz. \u018fziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yin. Onsuz da m\u0259n u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259kdim. Narahat olmay\u0131n\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n

\u018fziz\u0259 hiss etdi ki Xuraman q\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259nib, dan\u0131\u015fa bilmir\u2026\u00a0 O, qrup ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7ib Arzunu geyindirdi, sonra \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 d\u0259ri g\u00f6d\u0259kc\u0259sini geydi. Qap\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flay\u0131b Arzu il\u0259 yolun a\u011fz\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Bak\u0131 \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r daha g\u00f6z\u0259l idi. T\u0259mizliy\u0259, s\u0259liq\u0259-sahmana, abadl\u0131\u011fa fikir verirdil\u0259r. Do\u011frudur, kommersiya il\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olanlar zirz\u0259mil\u0259ri – ma\u011faza, ofis, valyutad\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259 m\u0259nt\u0259q\u0259si, n\u0259 bilim n\u0259 edib g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259\u015fdiribl\u0259r. Qabaq bu zirz\u0259mil\u0259r \u00fcfun\u0259t m\u0259nb\u0259yi idi. Pullu adamlar m\u0259nzill\u0259rin birinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259l\u0259rini al\u0131r, yax\u015f\u0131 x\u0259rc qoyub pul g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrl\u0259r. Ma\u011fazalara, ofisl\u0259r\u0259, restoranlara, kafel\u0259r\u0259 bax\u0131rsan, g\u00f6z ox\u015fay\u0131r. Amma \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 toz-torpaq, tullant\u0131, ka\u011f\u0131z par\u00e7alar\u0131. Bir balaca k\u00fcl\u0259k qalxanda tozu qald\u0131r\u0131b adam\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131ndan t\u00f6k\u00fcr. \u201cYax\u015f\u0131 ki, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011f\u0131r, he\u00e7 olmasa toz-torpa\u011f\u0131 bir az yat\u0131rar. Pal-paltar\u0131 yuyub, \u00fct\u00fcl\u0259yirs\u0259n, hamamlan\u0131b \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rsan, ax\u015fam qay\u0131danda \u00f6z\u00fcn-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tan\u0131m\u0131rsan. Paltar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131rsan \u2013 toz qalx\u0131r, \u0259lini sif\u0259tin\u0259, boyun-bo\u011faz\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n \u2013 \u0259lin qapqara olur\u201d – dey\u0259 \u018fziz\u0259 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb, t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf hissi ke\u00e7irirdi. \u201cAmma ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n, qar\u0131n da bizim \u015f\u0259h\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z d\u0259rdi-s\u0259ri var. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r, yollar, dalanlar yaman g\u00fcnd\u0259dir.\u00a0 Asfalt da\u011f\u0131l\u0131b, baxan yoxdur. Pullu adamlar \u00f6z d\u00fckan-bazarlar\u0131n\u0131n, restoran v\u0259 barlar\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na m\u0259rm\u0259r d\u00f6\u015f\u0259yir, bax, \u00fcr\u0259yin a\u00e7\u0131ls\u0131n. Amma el\u0259 ki, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011fd\u0131, su \u2013 da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f yola, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 dalana y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131r. Pal\u00e7\u0131q v\u0259 su \u0259lind\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259k olmur. Ma\u015f\u0131n suyu\u00a0 \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131\u00e7rad\u0131r.<\/span><\/p>\n

N\u0259 olsun ki, s\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n ayaqqab\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 silib \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rsan, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc metroya, avtobusa \u00e7atd\u0131rana kimi toz-torpa\u011fa, ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131 havalarda pal\u00e7\u0131\u011fa bat\u0131r. Bax\u0131b, x\u0259cal\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n.<\/span><\/p>\n

K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 s\u00fcp\u00fcr\u0259nl\u0259r d\u0259 alatoran durub i\u015fl\u0259rini g\u00f6rm\u0259kd\u0259ns\u0259, saat 8-d\u0259n, 9-dan sonra k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, tozu qald\u0131r\u0131rlar. B\u0259zil\u0259ri g\u0259l\u0259n\u00a0 oldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259l saxlay\u0131r. Amma g\u0259lib-ged\u0259nin say\u0131 birdirmi \u2013 ikidirmi? Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 b\u0259zi s\u00fcp\u00fcrg\u0259\u00e7il\u0259r he\u00e7 adamlara m\u0259h\u0259l d\u0259 qoymur. M\u0259cbur olub yolunu d\u0259yi\u015firs\u0259n.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u018fziz\u0259 el\u0259 bu x\u0259yallara qap\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, aya\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6k\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc v\u0259 su \u0259trafa s\u0131\u00e7rad\u0131. H\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn, h\u0259m d\u0259 Arzunun \u00fcst-ba\u015f\u0131 batd\u0131. Tez Arzunu qucaqlad\u0131:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>\u00dcst\u00fcn\u00fc islatd\u0131m, dey\u0259s\u0259n \u2026<\/span><\/p>\n

Arzu u\u015faq sad\u0259l\u00f6vhl\u00fcy\u00fc il\u0259:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Eybi yoxdur, m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259,- dedi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u018fziz\u0259 \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259: \u201cB\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259r xaricd\u0259 ya\u015fayanlar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na. Onlar\u00e7\u0131n h\u0259r c\u00fcr \u015f\u0259rait yarad\u0131r, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rini d\u0259 \u015fampunla yuyurlar\u2026\u201d – dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u018fziz\u0259 yolda ayaq saxlay\u0131b Arzu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn konfet v\u0259 pe\u00e7enye ald\u0131. Q\u0131z g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi. \u018fziz\u0259 t\u0259kid etdi, inciy\u0259c\u0259yini bildirdi. Arzu ald\u0131. O, t\u0259rbiy\u0259\u00e7ini sevirdi. \u0130st\u0259m\u0259zdi ki, ondan incisin.<\/span><\/p>\n

Ev\u0259 \u00e7ata-\u00e7atda \u018fziz\u0259 Arzuya m\u00fcraci\u0259tl\u0259 soru\u015fdu:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Y\u0259qin atan da i\u015fd\u0259dir, ona g\u00f6r\u0259\u00a0 dal\u0131nca g\u0259l\u0259 bilm\u0259yib\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n

Arzunun sif\u0259tin\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Atam yoxdur\u2026\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

\u018fziz\u0259 s\u0259hv\u0259 yol verdiyini anlad\u0131. Art\u0131q gec idi v\u0259 onlar \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Qap\u0131n\u0131 qon\u015fu qad\u0131n a\u00e7d\u0131:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Allah Xuramana k\u00f6m\u0259k olsun\u2026 Bayaq n\u0259 billah el\u0259dim, m\u0259ni u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n dal\u0131nca getm\u0259y\u0259 qoymad\u0131. Dedi, \u00f6z\u00fcm ged\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. \u00c7ox sa\u011f olun, m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259, Allah sizi xo\u015fb\u0259xt el\u0259sin. M\u0259n gedim\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n

Qon\u015fu qad\u0131n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Xuraman yataqda uzanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00f6z qapaqlar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00fccl\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131b:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>G\u0259ldiniz? \u2013 dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu.<\/span><\/p>\n

Arzu anas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qa\u00e7\u0131b onu qucaqlad\u0131:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Ana, m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259 biz\u0259 g\u0259lib\u2026- dedi v\u0259 sonra \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc saxlaya bilm\u0259yib g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ax\u0131td\u0131. \u2013 N\u0259 olub s\u0259n\u0259, anacan?<\/span><\/p>\n

Arzu h\u0259m sevinirdi, h\u0259m d\u0259 q\u00fcss\u0259li idi. Sevinirdi ki, t\u0259rbiy\u0259\u00e7i evl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. K\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259nirdi ki, anas\u0131 x\u0259st\u0259 idi, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bel\u0259 bir g\u00fcnd\u0259,\u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0\u018fziz\u0259 xan\u0131m qonaq g\u0259ldiyi bir vaxta. Tez:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>M\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259, oturun, siz\u0259 \u00e7ay verim, – dedi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u018fziz\u0259 onun ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tumarlad\u0131:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>\u018fziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259km\u0259, q\u0131z\u0131m.<\/span><\/p>\n

Arzu c\u0259ld m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7di. Qon\u015fu qad\u0131n, d\u0259rman al\u0131b g\u0259tirmi\u015f, Xuraman \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn zo\u011fall\u0131 \u00e7ay s\u00fczm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u018fziz\u0259 ir\u0259li yeriyib \u0259lini onun aln\u0131na qoydu. Xuraman q\u0131zd\u0131rmadan yan\u0131rd\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Can bac\u0131, n\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r?<\/span><\/p>\n

Xuraman:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>He\u00e7 n\u0259, \u0259zizim, – dedi. -\u00c7ox sa\u011f ol. \u018fziyy\u0259t verdim s\u0259n\u0259. \u0130ndi bac\u0131m g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k.<\/span><\/p>\n

Arzu \u00e7ay, konfet g\u0259tirdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u018fziz\u0259 aya\u011fa qalxmaq ist\u0259di:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>M\u0259n gedim, evd\u0259 nigaran olarlar.<\/span><\/p>\n

Arzu c\u0259ld dill\u0259ndi:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>M\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259, \u00e7ay i\u00e7in, sonra. Siz birinci d\u0259f\u0259dir biz\u0259 g\u0259lirsiniz.<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Ay sa\u011f ol, q\u0131z\u0131m.<\/span><\/p>\n

U\u015faq qonaqp\u0259rv\u0259rlik g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259k, t\u0259rbiy\u0259\u00e7isinin qullu\u011funda durmaq ist\u0259yirdi. \u018fziz\u0259 Xuramanla s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259-ed\u0259 \u00e7ay\u0131n\u0131 i\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Bird\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fc yan divardak\u0131 qara ha\u015fiy\u0259y\u0259 al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f \u015f\u0259kl\u0259 sata\u015fd\u0131. El\u0259 bil onu ild\u0131r\u0131m vurdu: \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131: \u201cOla bilm\u0259z, ola bilm\u0259z\u201d.<\/span><\/p>\n

Onun r\u0259ngi avaz\u0131m\u0131\u015f, nitqi k\u0259silmi\u015fdi. Xuramandan soru\u015fmaq ist\u0259yirdi, soru\u015fa bilmirdi. Qara ha\u015fiy\u0259li \u015f\u0259kil \u201cO\u201dnun idi, d\u00fcnyalar q\u0259d\u0259r sevdiyi, yolunda can\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 f\u0259da etm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131r oldu\u011fu bir insan\u0131n idi. \u201cO\u201d jurnalist idi, alt\u0131 ayl\u0131q ezamiyy\u0259t\u0259 getmi\u015fdi. Tez-tez z\u0259ngl\u0259\u015firdil\u0259r. Gah \u201cO\u201d, gah \u018fziz\u0259 z\u0259ng edirdi. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t olard\u0131 ki, \u0259laq\u0259 saxlamam\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar.<\/span><\/p>\n

Q\u0259h\u0259r onu bo\u011fdu. Valideynin, Arzunun yan\u0131nda hal\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fcruz\u0259 verm\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fziz\u0259 \u201cO\u201dnun qohum-\u0259qr\u0259bas\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131. Bu qad\u0131n \u00abO\u00bbnun n\u0259yidir g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n? Bu maraqla, s\u0259sind\u0259 q\u00fcss\u0259, k\u0259d\u0259r v\u0259 titr\u0259yi\u015f soru\u015fdu:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n, \u015f\u0259kild\u0259ki o\u011flan sizin n\u0259yinizdir?<\/span><\/p>\n

Xuraman q\u0259h\u0259rli:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>\u018frimdir, – dedi, -avtomobil q\u0259zas\u0131nda h\u0259lak olub\u2026<\/span><\/p>\n

\u018fziz\u0259 ilan vurmu\u015f adam kimi yerind\u0259n dik at\u0131ld\u0131. \u018fll\u0259ril\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qamarlay\u0131b \u00a0h\u00f6nk\u00fcrd\u00fc:<\/span><\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/span>Ola bilm\u0259z, ola bilm\u0259z !!! \u2013 deyib c\u0259ld \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/span><\/p>\n

Xuraman ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 dik\u0259ltdi: \u201cN\u0259 ola bilm\u0259z?\u201d Sonra: \u201c\u018fziz\u0259 xan\u0131m, \u018fziz\u0259 xan\u0131m!\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259 haraylad\u0131. M\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259n qa\u00e7araq g\u0259l\u0259n v\u0259 \u00e7a\u015f-ba\u015f qalan Arzu:<\/span><\/p>\n

– Anacan, m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259 getdi? He\u00e7 m\u0259niml\u0259 sa\u011folla\u015fmad\u0131. Onun\u00e7un yem\u0259k haz\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131m.<\/span><\/p>\n

Xuraman sonsuz heyr\u0259t i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 dill\u0259ndi:<\/span><\/p>\n

-Getdi, balacan, getdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

Sonra yaranm\u0131\u015f v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 x\u0259b\u0259rdar etm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ona he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259di, \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fdi: \u201cBird\u0259n-bir\u0259 bu q\u0131za n\u0259 oldu? Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni \u201cola bilm\u0259z!\u201d. Lap t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb qal\u0131nas\u0131 i\u015fdir. Ancaq burda n\u0259s\u0259 bir sirr var. Yoxsa, o bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 o hala d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259zdi.<\/span><\/p>\n

\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 (ard\u0131 var)<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131ya 761 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

(\u201cAldanma s\u00f6zl\u0259r\u0259\u201d roman\u0131ndan) \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00dcr\u0259y\u0259 girm\u0259yi bacarmaq azd\u0131r, \u00dcr\u0259kd\u0259 qalma\u011f\u0131 bacarmal\u0131san M\u0259mm\u0259d Araz \u00a0 \u00a0 \u018fziz\u0259 get-ged\u0259 haldan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, tez-tez saat\u0131na baxaraq \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131: \u201cBel\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259suliyy\u0259tsizlik olar\u201d. O, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131\u00ads\u0131n\u00adda dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, yan\u0131nda da 3-4 ya\u015fl\u0131 q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131. H\u0259r ikisinin bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n yollara dikilmi\u015fdi. Badam xan\u0131m g\u0259lib onun yan\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259: –\u00a0\u00a0\u018fziz\u0259, getmirs\u0259n?- dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":8616,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[16],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9964"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=9964"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9964\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":9965,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/9964\/revisions\/9965"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/8616"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=9964"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=9964"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=9964"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}