{"id":9992,"date":"2015-12-03T21:28:34","date_gmt":"2015-12-03T17:28:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=9992"},"modified":"2015-12-03T21:30:13","modified_gmt":"2015-12-03T17:30:13","slug":"tural-sahab-palyaco","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kultur.az\/?p=9992","title":{"rendered":"Tural Sahab &#8211; Palya\u00e7o"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/08\/tural-sahab.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-6746\" src=\"http:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/08\/tural-sahab-300x257.jpg\" alt=\"tural sahab\" width=\"300\" height=\"257\" srcset=\"https:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/08\/tural-sahab-300x257.jpg 300w, https:\/\/kultur.az\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/08\/tural-sahab.jpg 350w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a>(hekay\u0259)<\/p>\n<p>Onun ad\u0131 il\u0259&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f batal\u0131 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saat olar, ancaq \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 \u0259trafdak\u0131 qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131 bo\u011fur- \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rini ayd\u0131nlad\u0131r. Gec\u0259l\u0259rini daha \u00e7ox sevir\u0259m n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rimin. B\u00fct\u00fcn pislikl\u0259ri gizl\u0259dir qaranl\u0131q, sad\u0259c\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259llikl\u0259r qal\u0131r. \u0130ndi d\u0259 gec\u0259dir. H\u0259r zamanki kimi qulaqc\u0131qlar\u0131m\u0131 tax\u0131b yol gedir\u0259m. Bir balaca ya\u011f\u0131\u015f da var, y\u0259ni tam a\u011flanacaq hava. \u0130tirdikl\u0259rimi, qazana bilm\u0259dikl\u0259rimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb. Telefonumun enerjisi bit\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yeriy\u0259c\u0259m. Bir yanda qula\u011f\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 a\u011flayan doyunca a\u011flay\u0131ram. Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f da \u00f6p\u00fcb g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131mdan, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ayaqlar\u0131ma vurur. Bax bel\u0259c\u0259 yol gedir\u0259m mahn\u0131lar, bir yanda ya\u011fmurlu havada b\u00f6y\u00fck \u0259m\u0259kl\u0259 yand\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131m siqaretim&#8230;. insanlara pis \u00f6rn\u0259k olmuram, qorxmay\u0131n. Siqareti sad\u0259c\u0259 gec\u0259nin qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda qonaq edir\u0259m dodaqlar\u0131ma. B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcl\u0259n, g\u00fcld\u00fcr\u0259n bu adam g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131na sar\u0131l\u0131b yat\u0131r&#8230; n\u0259 is\u0259 \u00e7ox dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m enerjim bitir. Geri d\u00f6nm\u0259liy\u0259m, sabah bir internat m\u0259kt\u0259bind\u0259 u\u015faqlarla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm var&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Tezd\u0259n yuxudan oyan\u0131b, m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 do\u011fru yol al\u0131ram. Vaxt aparmas\u0131n dey\u0259 paltarlar\u0131m\u0131 da geyinib, makyaj\u0131m\u0131 edir\u0259m. D\u00fcn\u0259n gec\u0259 doyunca a\u011flayan bu adam b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259k, \u0259traf\u0131nda olan h\u0259r k\u0259s ona bax\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m evin yax\u0131n\u0131nda olan avtobus dayanaca\u011f\u0131nda mar\u015furutlar\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259ki n\u00f6mr\u0259l\u0259ri, insanlar\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki k\u0259d\u0259ri izl\u0259yir\u0259m. Bax, budur \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 \u201c17\u201d yaz\u0131lan mar\u015furut dayanacaqda dayan\u0131r. Arxa qap\u0131s\u0131ndan ke\u00e7ib, arxa oturacaqlardan birin\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fir\u0259m. \u0130nsanlar q\u0259rib\u0259 bir m\u0259xluq g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f kimi bax\u0131rlar m\u0259n\u0259, ancaq buna al\u0131\u015fd\u0131m m\u0259n. Daha insanlar\u0131n bu klouna bax\u0131b, b\u0131\u011flar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131ndan g\u00fclm\u0259l\u0259ri m\u0259ni narahat etmir. Bu boyalar olmasa g\u00fclm\u0259k bir yana qals\u0131n, \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 baxan iyr\u0259n\u0259rdi b\u0259lk\u0259. Y\u0259ni, \u00e7ox \u00e7irkin bir \u00fcz\u00fcm var, uzun s\u00f6z\u00fcn q\u0131sas\u0131. Bu \u00e7irkinlik h\u0259yat\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259h\u0259r el\u0259di uzun ill\u0259r. Orta m\u0259kt\u0259b, ali m\u0259kt\u0259b, \u0259sg\u0259rlik ill\u0259rim tam bir c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m \u0259zab\u0131 il\u0259 ke\u00e7di. Sonra dedim onsuz insanlar m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcr, he\u00e7 olmasa bu g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fd\u0259n istifad\u0259 edim v\u0259 bel\u0259likl\u0259 oldum kloun. Palya\u00e7olar\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 daim g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f i\u015far\u0259si olur. Bunu baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131m filiml\u0259rd\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm. Bax, indi m\u0259n d\u0259 onlardan biriy\u0259m. H\u0259r zaman g\u00fcl\u00fcr v\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fcr\u00fcr\u0259m&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Avtobus dayand\u0131, indi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 getm\u0259liy\u0259m. U\u015faqlar\u0131 \u00e7ox sevir\u0259m, x\u00fcsusil\u0259 d\u0259 buradak\u0131lar\u0131. Ata-ana sevgisind\u0259n ayr\u0131 qalan bu balaclarla s\u00f6hb\u0259t etm\u0259k ya\u015famaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00fcc verir m\u0259n\u0259. Y\u0259qin ki, bunlar da b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcb \u201cpis insan\u201d olacaqlar dig\u0259r insanlar kimi, ancaq h\u0259l\u0259 ki u\u015faqd\u0131lar v\u0259 sevgiy\u0259 ehtiyaclar\u0131 var. Qap\u0131dan i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259n kimi qa\u00e7\u0131b, yan\u0131ma g\u0259lirl\u0259r. Cibimd\u0259 olan \u015firniyyatlardan verir\u0259m balacalara. Sevin\u0259-sevin\u0259 \u0259traf\u0131mda at\u0131l\u0131b d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrl\u0259r. Sonra oyunlar oynay\u0131r\u0131q. Bax, bu u\u015faqlardan q\u0131raqda dayanan q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 donlu q\u0131z\u0131n ad\u0131 Ayseldi. Be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131 var Ayselin. G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7andan buradad\u0131r. Ana-ata n\u0259dir, nec\u0259 olur he\u00e7 bilmir. He\u00e7 vaxt ana n\u0259f\u0259si il\u0259 yuxuya getm\u0259yib, ata sin\u0259sind\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcv\u0259nd\u0259 hiss etm\u0259yib. O divanda oturan qa\u015fqabaql\u0131 o\u011flan\u0131n ad\u0131 da \u018flidir. \u018flinin 12 ya\u015f\u0131 var art\u0131q. \u0130ki ildir ki, buradad\u0131r. Atas\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fckd\u0259n sonra anas\u0131 t\u0259z\u0259 \u0259r\u0259 gedir. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda n\u0259l\u0259r edirl\u0259rs\u0259, \u018fli dayana bilmir v\u0259 evd\u0259n qa\u00e7\u0131r. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 ay k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 qald\u0131qdan sonra polis onu tap\u0131b, bura g\u0259tirir. Anas\u0131 he\u00e7 maraqlanm\u0131r u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na n\u0259l\u0259r g\u0259ldi dey\u0259. \u0130ndi onun \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 olan nifr\u0259ti ayd\u0131n g\u00f6rm\u0259k olur. Bu u\u015faq b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259nd\u0259 kim olacaq?! Y\u0259qin ki, qatil. \u018fmin\u0259m ki, o, b\u00fct\u00fcn ki\u015fil\u0259ri v\u0259 qad\u0131nlar\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259k ist\u0259yir. H\u0259ft\u0259d\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 bura g\u0259lir\u0259m, ancaq h\u0259l\u0259ki onun g\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m m\u0259n. Onunla dost olmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m ki, h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259hv etm\u0259sin. Sad\u0259c\u0259 pis insanlara olsun nifr\u0259ti&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Siz\u0259 bir sirr a\u00e7\u0131mm\u0131, m\u0259n d\u0259 buna b\u0259nz\u0259r bir m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 oxumu\u015fam bir ne\u00e7\u0259 il. Bu q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7irkin bir u\u015faqlar\u0131 oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ata-anam m\u0259n\u0259 nifr\u0259t edir, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 iyr\u0259nirdil\u0259r m\u0259nd\u0259n. Onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 m\u0259ni ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z rayondak\u0131 u\u015faq evin\u0259 qoydular. \u0130ki il boyunca orada qald\u0131m. M\u0259n d\u0259 \u018fli kimi insanlara nifr\u0259t edirdim, ancaq ail\u0259mi q\u0131nam\u0131rd\u0131m. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00fczg\u00fcy\u0259 baxanda onlara haqq verir, \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 olan buzlar\u0131 \u0259ridirdim. Ax\u0131, sevdikl\u0259rim m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 niy\u0259 \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259ksin ki. Sonra bir m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259 ba\u015f verdi. N\u0259n\u0259m m\u0259ni oradan \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b yan\u0131na &#8211; bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 g\u0259tirdi. Babam \u00f6ld\u00fckd\u0259n sonra t\u0259k qalan n\u0259n\u0259m b\u00fct\u00fcn sevgisini bu balaca, \u00e7irkin o\u011flan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131na vermi\u015fdi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259ki g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi g\u00f6r\u0259n, g\u00f6rm\u0259yi bacaran t\u0259k insand\u0131. Anam evin t\u0259k u\u015fa\u011f\u0131yd\u0131. N\u0259n\u0259min ba\u015fqa u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan onun yan\u0131nda rahat b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcm. Ail\u0259m h\u0259rd\u0259n n\u0259n\u0259mi g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lirdi. Bu zaman onlar\u0131 narahat etm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn evd\u0259n uzaqla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m. Bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn he\u00e7 kimi q\u0131nam\u0131rd\u0131 m\u0259ni. N\u0259 m\u0259ni u\u015faq evin\u0259 atan ail\u0259m, n\u0259 d\u0259 ki, bu m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259n n\u0259n\u0259m. U\u015faqlar\u0131n iyn\u0259li s\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259, insanlar\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 baxark\u0259n \u00fczl\u0259rind\u0259ki ifad\u0259y\u0259 sad\u0259c\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259min sevgisi il\u0259 dayana bilirdim. Bax, bel\u0259c\u0259 ill\u0259r ke\u00e7di.<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259n \u0259sg\u0259rlikd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra n\u0259n\u0259m a\u011f\u0131r bir x\u0259st\u0259liy\u0259 tutuldu. Yava\u015f-yava\u015f yadda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 itirdi. \u0130ndi m\u0259ni bu h\u0259yatda sev\u0259n t\u0259k insan da xat\u0131rlam\u0131rd\u0131. V\u0259ziyy\u0259ti a\u011f\u0131rla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn x\u0259st\u0259xnaya yerl\u0259\u015fdirdik. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 ay burada yatd\u0131qdan sonra d\u00fcnyadan k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fc. G\u00fcnl\u0259rc\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131m, ancaq n\u0259 fayda, daha ged\u0259n getmi\u015fdi. Bu qoca \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 t\u0259k qalmaq, bir t\u0259k insan\u0131n s\u0259ni sevm\u0259m\u0259si \u0259zab\u0131m\u0131 h\u0259r g\u00fcn bir az daha art\u0131rd\u0131. Sad\u0259c\u0259 n\u0259n\u0259mi deyil, sevgini d\u0259 itirmi\u015fdim m\u0259n. Sevgisiz ki, insan \u00fcr\u0259yi bir da\u015fdan f\u0259rqsiz olur. Bax, bel\u0259c\u0259 Palya\u00e7o oldum.<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259n insanlardan g\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259k alacaqd\u0131m intiqam\u0131m\u0131. Bu boyalar m\u0259ni h\u0259yata qaytard\u0131. H\u0259m ya\u015famaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn pul qazana bilir, h\u0259m d\u0259 bu \u00e7irkin \u00fcz\u00fc gizl\u0259d\u0259 bilir\u0259m indi. Vaxt\u0131m\u0131n \u00e7ox hiss\u0259sini u\u015faqlarla ke\u00e7irdiyimd\u0259n onlar \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259ki nifr\u0259t da\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259ritdi. M\u0259n onlar\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcmd\u0259ki boyalarla g\u00fcld\u00fcrs\u0259m d\u0259, \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259ki sevgi il\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt edir\u0259m. Bax bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u018flinin, Ayselin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn g\u00fclm\u0259sini ist\u0259yir\u0259m. \u018fli m\u0259rd c\u0259sar\u0259tli bir o\u011fland\u0131. Qatil olsa, uzaq ba\u015f\u0131 bir-iki pis insan\u0131 \u00f6d\u00fcr\u00fcb, h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259hv ed\u0259c\u0259k, ancaq \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 sevgi olsa, sevgi il\u0259 bir ail\u0259 quracaq, bu d\u00fcnyaya g\u00f6z\u0259l insanlar qazand\u0131racaq&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Sevgi dedim d\u0259, h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n sevgi n\u0259dir, bilirsinizmi? Bir qad\u0131na olan sevgini n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tuturam. Bilirsinizmi, bu q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7irkin bir \u00fczl\u0259 hans\u0131sa q\u0131za baxma\u011fa q\u0131ymad\u0131m. Bax, m\u0259n d\u0259 qad\u0131nlar\u0131 bu c\u00fcr sevdim.<\/p>\n<p>H\u0259 indi saat bir olur, buradan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b bir ad g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259m. Bir z\u0259ngin biznesmenin u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259yl\u0259ndirm\u0259liy\u0259m. Bel\u0259 insanlar\u0131n evin\u0259 getm\u0259kd\u0259n nifr\u0259t edir\u0259m, ancaq m\u0259cburam ya\u015famaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. \u00d6z\u0259l s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcl\u0259ri g\u0259lib m\u0259ni ist\u0259diyim yerd\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr, onlar\u0131 yax\u015f\u0131 \u0259yl\u0259ndir\u0259 bils\u0259m, cibimi pulla doldururlar, ancaq yen\u0259 d\u0259 nifr\u0259t edir\u0259m. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc a\u015fa\u011f\u0131lanm\u0131\u015f, t\u0259hqir edilmi\u015f hiss edir\u0259m o c\u00fcr insanlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda. Bax, s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc g\u0259lib yan\u0131mda saxlay\u0131r, ma\u015f\u0131na min\u0259n kimi d\u0259 bir atmaca at\u0131r, m\u0259cbur olub zarafatla cavab verm\u0259li oluram. G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, bir an bu boyalar\u0131 sils\u0259m, boyan\u0131n alt\u0131ndak\u0131 vahim\u0259li \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6rs\u0259, yen\u0259 bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri dey\u0259 bil\u0259rdimi? Ax\u015fama q\u0259d\u0259r i\u015fimi g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259cburam&#8230;<\/p>\n<p class=\"bawpvc-ajax-counter\" data-id=\"9992\">Yaz\u0131ya 974 d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131l\u0131b<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>(hekay\u0259) Onun ad\u0131 il\u0259&#8230; G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f batal\u0131 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saat olar, ancaq \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 \u0259trafdak\u0131 qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131 bo\u011fur- \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rini ayd\u0131nlad\u0131r. Gec\u0259l\u0259rini daha \u00e7ox sevir\u0259m n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259rimin. B\u00fct\u00fcn pislikl\u0259ri gizl\u0259dir qaranl\u0131q, sad\u0259c\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259llikl\u0259r qal\u0131r. \u0130ndi d\u0259 gec\u0259dir. H\u0259r zamanki kimi qulaqc\u0131qlar\u0131m\u0131 tax\u0131b yol gedir\u0259m. Bir balaca ya\u011f\u0131\u015f da var, y\u0259ni tam a\u011flanacaq hava. \u0130tirdikl\u0259rimi, qazana bilm\u0259dikl\u0259rimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb. 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